*Max*
Ava turns me around and hits me, shouting at me about what I said to Serena. I wouldn't have been surprised if Zan came after me, but I wasn't expecting Ava. I know it was wrong, but Serena was hitting me in an open wound. I can calmly deal with emotional upheavals like suddenly meeting my clone, or discovering that Liz might be part of my world but even after all this time that ... that nightmare was too much. It was a reflex. I had to stop it. I don't want anyone to feel that, to see that. Not my friends, not a stranger, and no, not my enemies.
"... She can feel everything you felt, every fear, every pain! It’s like she was right there experiencing the same thing. She didn’t ask for this!” Ava says. “Going into other people’s heads probably helps her so she doesn’t have to go back into the nightmare of her own mind. And I’ll tell you this! You ever touch her again I’ll kill you! It might be against her programming to harm you but it certainly isn’t against mine!”
Programming? The word sets off other questions, especially in regards to Liz, but I push them aside.
"If she feels what I feel then she just felt you hit me, didn't she? I didn't hurt her, but you did." Truthfully, I hadn't hurt Serena at all. Scared her, I'm sure, but I didn't hurt her. She scared me, too. If she can feel what I feel then killing me would traumatize her more, wouldn't it?
Ava turns away, apparently not caring about the intrinsic conflict in her threat. I've recovered from Serena's words and I watch as Zan tries to comfort her. Serena won't let him near her and I feel my heart fill with compassion for her. I know she's not well. Zan told me that before I ever saw her. She doesn't deserve this. Her hands are over her ears and she's squealing in fear and pain. My pain.
"Apologise to her." Ava insists. I'm still pissed at Ava, but not at Serena. I'm sure Zan is furious, too.
Nodding, I calm my emotions as much as possible, trying to mask the lingering effects behind a stonewall. Outwardly, I'm my normal, calm and thoughtful self. I approach Zan and Serena, intending to do just that, when Zan leaps up and attacks me, slamming me against a wall. If what Ava said was true, he's hurting her by hurting me, but he doesn't seem to realize or care. He raises his fist, further threatening me. "Don't you dare so much as lay a finger on her, you fucking bastard. I am this close to blowing your brains out right now."
"I'm sorry, Zan," I tell him, because I am. I don't make any move to defend myself, hoping to calm him by not feeding into the violence. "I didn't hurt her. I didn't mean to scare her. She ... found a really bad place." It kills me to know she could feel those things. Nobody should have to. "I -- I over-reacted. I'm sorry." I repeat my apology.
Suddenly I'm really glad that Michael left. As much as I'd appreciate his support, right now he'd probably be grabbing Zan and making this worse. I really hope we can get this back to a calm situation.
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"I'm sorry, Zan," Max said in a level tone of voice, and I wasn't sure why but I had a feeling that his apology was sincere. "I didn't hurt her. I didn't mean to scare her. She ... found a really bad place. I -- I over-reacted. I'm sorry."
I continued to stare at him for a while, unsure of what to make of it. A bad place, huh? His overreaction could have cost us dearly! I was slightly curious about what this was to him, the alien autopsy scene- a nightmare of it happening to him? What? If that was his idea of a bad place . . .
But when I heard Serena's whimpering, I realised that none of this was helping her. Beating Max up was just going to aggravate the situation. I had to think rationally. "This is your last warning, Max," I told him finally, releasing his collar and lowering the fist I had been holding up.
It was ironic that I was angry at Max for nearly hurting Serena but I was actually hurting her myself by displaying that anger. She was probably feeling everything at once. The fear, the pain, the fury, the uncertainty, the love and the hatred- all of those raw emotions were likely to be attacking her all at once, like vultures swooping down to feast on corpses. The only difference was that Serena was alive and she could feel every bit of it. It was something that was difficult to comprehend, but it was real. By God, it was real- just ask Serena.
I wanted to go near her and get her to calm down, but she didn't need or want my presence. Reluctantly, I stood away from her, hoping that maybe she'd appreciate that one thing I could do. To stand aside.
Was that really what she wanted me to do, though? On the inside, was Serena screaming for me to back off and leave her alone, or pleading that stay with her and help her? If keeping away from her was the price I had to pay to make it right for her again, I was willing. But at the moment, I didn't know that and staying away from her only meant that I couldn't protect her; that was something I was not prepared to do.
"All right, forget it," I grunted half-heartedly, saying it only for her sake. "Just- Uh, Max, you asked Liz a question, right? Whether she has powers?" I turned to Liz, waiting expectantly for her answer. Of course, what had just happened would probably have left her in shock. Maybe it was kinder to let the mood settle a little, but what, we couldn't just stand around in awkward silence, right?
I seriously doubted that Liz did have powers though, and even if she did I bet she didn't know of them.
I was well aware of the questions Max had thrown my way before turning to Liz, but I had no intention of answering them- not here, in front of the others. I just hoped that he wouldn't put me in the spot again, though it was only natural for him to wonder how Serena had come to be the way she was.
"I'm sorry, Zan," Max said in a level tone of voice, and I wasn't sure why but I had a feeling that his apology was sincere. "I didn't hurt her. I didn't mean to scare her. She ... found a really bad place. I -- I over-reacted. I'm sorry."
I continued to stare at him for a while, unsure of what to make of it. A bad place, huh? His overreaction could have cost us dearly! I was slightly curious about what this was to him, the alien autopsy scene- a nightmare of it happening to him? What? If that was his idea of a bad place . . .
But when I heard Serena's whimpering, I realised that none of this was helping her. Beating Max up was just going to aggravate the situation. I had to think rationally. "This is your last warning, Max," I told him finally, releasing his collar and lowering the fist I had been holding up.
It was ironic that I was angry at Max for nearly hurting Serena but I was actually hurting her myself by displaying that anger. She was probably feeling everything at once. The fear, the pain, the fury, the uncertainty, the love and the hatred- all of those raw emotions were likely to be attacking her all at once, like vultures swooping down to feast on corpses. The only difference was that Serena was alive and she could feel every bit of it. It was something that was difficult to comprehend, but it was real. By God, it was real- just ask Serena.
I wanted to go near her and get her to calm down, but she didn't need or want my presence. Reluctantly, I stood away from her, hoping that maybe she'd appreciate that one thing I could do. To stand aside.
Was that really what she wanted me to do, though? On the inside, was Serena screaming for me to back off and leave her alone, or pleading that stay with her and help her? If keeping away from her was the price I had to pay to make it right for her again, I was willing. But at the moment, I didn't know that and staying away from her only meant that I couldn't protect her; that was something I was not prepared to do.
"All right, forget it," I grunted half-heartedly, saying it only for her sake. "Just- Uh, Max, you asked Liz a question, right? Whether she has powers?" I turned to Liz, waiting expectantly for her answer. Of course, what had just happened would probably have left her in shock. Maybe it was kinder to let the mood settle a little, but what, we couldn't just stand around in awkward silence, right?
I seriously doubted that Liz did have powers though, and even if she did I bet she didn't know of them.
I was well aware of the questions Max had thrown my way before turning to Liz, but I had no intention of answering them- not here, in front of the others. I just hoped that he wouldn't put me in the spot again, though it was only natural for him to wonder how Serena had come to be the way she was.
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"Thank you, that means a lot," he replies, kissing my forehead lightly.
"And if you ever feel threatened," he continues, a serious look in his eyes "I'll protect you."
I smile brightly lying my head against his chest.
"Don't worry baby. I'm sure we'll get all this stuff straightened out. The evil twins will go back to whatever ghetto they came from, and everything will go back to normal. Er well as normal as it gets around here."
I look up into his beautiful brown eyes.
))Michael
I smiled as Maria leaned her head on my chest. There was something about her that was calming, and I could feel my rage receding. "Yeah, they better go back where they came from, or I'll send them back myself," I said, placing a comforting hand on her upper back.
"Do you want to get out of here? I don't think I can put up with anymore of this crap tonight; I'll call Maxwell tomorrow," I asked, looking at the door we'd come out of not to long ago. I wanted to know what was going on, but I did not want to face everyone again just yet.
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*Maria*
"Yeah, they better go back where they came from, or I'll send them back myself," He assures me.
i]"Do you want to get out of here? I don't think I can put up with anymore of this crap tonight; I'll call Maxwell tomorrow," [/i] He asks intently.
He stares at the door we'd come out of not to long ago.
"Sure Babe, whatever you want. Your place or mine?"
"Yeah, they better go back where they came from, or I'll send them back myself," He assures me.
i]"Do you want to get out of here? I don't think I can put up with anymore of this crap tonight; I'll call Maxwell tomorrow," [/i] He asks intently.
He stares at the door we'd come out of not to long ago.
"Sure Babe, whatever you want. Your place or mine?"
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Michael
"Mine," I say with finality. I like my place. To an outsider it would be a little sloppy, and not very comfortable, but it was my home, and I'd gotten used to it.
"I rode the bike, and I've got my extra helmet, so you can ride with me," I added, nodding over to where my bike stood, on the side of the road.
"Mine," I say with finality. I like my place. To an outsider it would be a little sloppy, and not very comfortable, but it was my home, and I'd gotten used to it.
"I rode the bike, and I've got my extra helmet, so you can ride with me," I added, nodding over to where my bike stood, on the side of the road.
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*Maria*
"Mine," He states firmly.
"I rode the bike, and I've got my extra helmet, so you can ride with me,"
He replies gesturing toward the bike. Yay! I love riding with him. The wind blowing in my hair, The feel of my body pressed against his hard one, It causes my sensations to run amuck whenever I'm near him.
"Sounds like a plan. I told my mom I was staying with Liz so we won't have to worry about that."
"Mine," He states firmly.
"I rode the bike, and I've got my extra helmet, so you can ride with me,"
He replies gesturing toward the bike. Yay! I love riding with him. The wind blowing in my hair, The feel of my body pressed against his hard one, It causes my sensations to run amuck whenever I'm near him.
"Sounds like a plan. I told my mom I was staying with Liz so we won't have to worry about that."Love is not finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. Looking for a little magic? Practical Enchantment
*Max*
Zan releases me so I don't have to worry about trying anything. Last thing I need is an alien battle in the middle of the UFO center when Brody doesn't even know I'm here.
I shrug, straightening my shirt as Zan seems to visibly change gears, controlling his emotions. "All right, forget it," He says, although I'm pretty sure his 'last warning' still stands. "Just- Uh, Max, you asked Liz a question, right? Whether she has powers?"
"Yeah," I confirm. I can see he's trying to get back to where we were before I snapped, but my attention isn't on it. I pretty sure Liz doesn't have powers. If she does then, ... well maybe that's the deception that Serena's been going on about? I wonder.
I turn and approach Serena cautiously. Both Ava and Tess have said I owe here an apology and I think I do, too. But I don't want to do anything to make it worse. I stop about five feet away from her, well, out of arm's reach, so Zan won't mis-understand. I crouch down, trying to meet her eyes.
"Serena? I'm sorry I scared you," I tell her.
Zan releases me so I don't have to worry about trying anything. Last thing I need is an alien battle in the middle of the UFO center when Brody doesn't even know I'm here.
I shrug, straightening my shirt as Zan seems to visibly change gears, controlling his emotions. "All right, forget it," He says, although I'm pretty sure his 'last warning' still stands. "Just- Uh, Max, you asked Liz a question, right? Whether she has powers?"
"Yeah," I confirm. I can see he's trying to get back to where we were before I snapped, but my attention isn't on it. I pretty sure Liz doesn't have powers. If she does then, ... well maybe that's the deception that Serena's been going on about? I wonder.
I turn and approach Serena cautiously. Both Ava and Tess have said I owe here an apology and I think I do, too. But I don't want to do anything to make it worse. I stop about five feet away from her, well, out of arm's reach, so Zan won't mis-understand. I crouch down, trying to meet her eyes.
"Serena? I'm sorry I scared you," I tell her.
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Serena
"Serena? I'm sorry I scared you," he says to her and she stops whimpering long enough to look at him through a veil of dark brown hair. When she speaks it’s barely above a whisper, “It’s not supposed to feel this way. It’s not supposed to hurt this way.”
She looks around the room and her eyes land on Zan for a moment before looking back at the floor. “Lost in the woods…broken. The girl is broken. Guilt consumes him because of the broken girl…he likes to watch her dance.” She says a small smile on her lips.
"Serena? I'm sorry I scared you," he says to her and she stops whimpering long enough to look at him through a veil of dark brown hair. When she speaks it’s barely above a whisper, “It’s not supposed to feel this way. It’s not supposed to hurt this way.”
She looks around the room and her eyes land on Zan for a moment before looking back at the floor. “Lost in the woods…broken. The girl is broken. Guilt consumes him because of the broken girl…he likes to watch her dance.” She says a small smile on her lips.
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Ava
"Serena? I'm sorry I scared you," Max says to Serena
“It’s not supposed to feel this way. It’s not supposed to hurt this way.” Serena says to him. Her words sound so familiar and then I remember their lyrics from a song Serena helped me write not too long ago. I had gotten into playing the guitar and singing a little and when Serena became part of the group she encouraged me. But that song she helped me write not too long ago. Serena had a beautiful voice but never liked to sing in front of people so usually sang with me.
I remember us writing it and singing it while the others went out on the town. Zan had come back early and stayed and listened, I wondered if it was some sort of sign from Serena. I tried to rack my brain for the lyrics…
Why, do you always do this to me
Why, couldn't you just see it through me
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe
I was the only one to fall
I can feel I can feel you near me
Even though you're far away
I can feel I can feel you baby
Why
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me
Are you and me still together
Tell me
You think we could last forever
Tell me
Why
Hey
Listen to what we're not saying
Let's play
A different game then what we're playin'
Try
To look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe, I'm gonna let us fall apart
so go and think about
whatever you need to think about
Go on dream about
Whatever you need to dream about
Then come back to me
When you know just how you feel, you feel
Are you and me still together
Tell me
You think we could last forever
Tell me
Why
I looked to Zan to see if he recognized what she was trying to say but then, Serena glanced at Zan before looking back at the floor and said. “Lost in the woods…broken. The girl is broken. Guilt consumes him because of the broken girl…he likes to watch her dance.” She says a small smile on her lips.
Now me and Zan weren’t technically together, we never were. And I’ve always had a feeling he felt strongly for Serena but neither of them never acted on it, that I know of. I wonder if her repeating the lyrics isn’t a message to us but just to Zan.
Ava
"Serena? I'm sorry I scared you," Max says to Serena
“It’s not supposed to feel this way. It’s not supposed to hurt this way.” Serena says to him. Her words sound so familiar and then I remember their lyrics from a song Serena helped me write not too long ago. I had gotten into playing the guitar and singing a little and when Serena became part of the group she encouraged me. But that song she helped me write not too long ago. Serena had a beautiful voice but never liked to sing in front of people so usually sang with me.
I remember us writing it and singing it while the others went out on the town. Zan had come back early and stayed and listened, I wondered if it was some sort of sign from Serena. I tried to rack my brain for the lyrics…
Why, do you always do this to me
Why, couldn't you just see it through me
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe
I was the only one to fall
I can feel I can feel you near me
Even though you're far away
I can feel I can feel you baby
Why
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me
Are you and me still together
Tell me
You think we could last forever
Tell me
Why
Hey
Listen to what we're not saying
Let's play
A different game then what we're playin'
Try
To look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe, I'm gonna let us fall apart
so go and think about
whatever you need to think about
Go on dream about
Whatever you need to dream about
Then come back to me
When you know just how you feel, you feel
Are you and me still together
Tell me
You think we could last forever
Tell me
Why
I looked to Zan to see if he recognized what she was trying to say but then, Serena glanced at Zan before looking back at the floor and said. “Lost in the woods…broken. The girl is broken. Guilt consumes him because of the broken girl…he likes to watch her dance.” She says a small smile on her lips.
Now me and Zan weren’t technically together, we never were. And I’ve always had a feeling he felt strongly for Serena but neither of them never acted on it, that I know of. I wonder if her repeating the lyrics isn’t a message to us but just to Zan.
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[/i]hi sorry for not posting but i sorta didn't know what to write. so tell me if this is ok or not.
~Kyle~
I grab a drink from the fridge and head back to the table to try and get some homework done tonight. Glancing at the clock though I’m pretty sure I’m not. Tess had left a while ago for a pod squad meeting and still wasn’t back yet. That could only mean one thing evil aliens were attaching again of course that could just be me over reacting.
“To hell with this I’m not going to get anything done to night.” I slam my book shut and after leaving my dad a note on the fridge I head out to the car. Tess said they were meeting at the UFO center so that’s where I go first..
I reach the center and upon enter find my self very confused and wondering if I need glasses. There setting on the floor is a girl that doesn’t look so good and oddly enough kind of like Liz but it isn’t her because Liz is standing off to the side with Michael who’s having a bad hair day I think. Then I see max kneeling down in front of the girl with “Max” standing behind himself?
“Wha? Oh um hi?” I say walking down the stairs looking around the room. There is also Tess and um “Tess” and Isabel and another “Isabel.”
“So I’m guessing I did miss something good uh?” I joke. “What’s going on?” I look at Max then at the other Max and back again.
~Kyle~
I grab a drink from the fridge and head back to the table to try and get some homework done tonight. Glancing at the clock though I’m pretty sure I’m not. Tess had left a while ago for a pod squad meeting and still wasn’t back yet. That could only mean one thing evil aliens were attaching again of course that could just be me over reacting.
“To hell with this I’m not going to get anything done to night.” I slam my book shut and after leaving my dad a note on the fridge I head out to the car. Tess said they were meeting at the UFO center so that’s where I go first..
I reach the center and upon enter find my self very confused and wondering if I need glasses. There setting on the floor is a girl that doesn’t look so good and oddly enough kind of like Liz but it isn’t her because Liz is standing off to the side with Michael who’s having a bad hair day I think. Then I see max kneeling down in front of the girl with “Max” standing behind himself?
“Wha? Oh um hi?” I say walking down the stairs looking around the room. There is also Tess and um “Tess” and Isabel and another “Isabel.”
“So I’m guessing I did miss something good uh?” I joke. “What’s going on?” I look at Max then at the other Max and back again.