Change of heart, Adult/CC+UC&Slash

[Anna-Liisa]

Kyle

"Yeah. We..We should" I agreed and started walking to the van again. I was glad about Michael interruption. I didn't want hear what Max really had to say, because I knew he'd know I didn't mean to say what I just did. It just wasn't possible.

There was a connection between us. Not like he and Liz had but something so much different. It wasn't even like me and Alex had--or have. Ever since Max healed me I have been different. I've looked him differently, even if sometimes he hated me because of the Liz-pretend thing. I knew it was there. It couldn't be an illusion. Now I just needed Max to see it so I stopped him.

"I need to say this, Max. I know it might sound crazy, but I...I...Need to say it" I say before Max gets to say anything about stopping. It would be much harder if he'd talk. I couldn't say anything. I'd just be quiet and leave.

"What I meant to say a while ago. I think there's...a connection between us. Not like your connection with Liz. No, nothing like that. But something different that we shouldn't have. I don't know if you feel it, but I do..." I said and kept staring everywhere else but not into his eyes. "I feel it. I've felt it for so long.."

And here comes the counter how he denies it all. He was married. He needed to do that. He loves Liz. 'Not me. Liz. Liz Evans. How many times do I have to say this to myself? He doesn't love me like I love him..' I though.

[StormWolfstone]

ooc: aww come on Chris... it's not all that bad lol.... but yeah I know you prefer slash.


~Maria~


Michael's response is to lay his head on my shoulder and wrap his arms around me. "I love you too Maria." His voice is nearly a whisper as he says those words, the words that sent my senses soaring in the joy of the moment. I lift a hand, running it through his hair, simply content to remain seated here like this for a little while longer. I had no idea what the future might bring for us, but at least now things were looking much brighter and I was desperately wanting to hold onto it.

I could even imagine myself writing new songs about how I was feeling at the moment and how sappy they'd sound. The thought caused me to laugh slightly even as I simply hold Michael in my arms, "Think we should tell the others?" I ask before adding, "Or do you want to just keep it to ourselves until we actually decide when and everything?"

Okay, so it might be hard for me to keep it, but there were some things that Liz didn't know. Like, she didn't know about the night Michael came over in the rain and needed me. How I held him in my arms and he cried on my shoulders.. No, she knew I'd seen him but not reasons. There were times when I didn't tell my best-friends everything, even though I knew that keeping secrets from them had always been hard. And now, it was harder knowing that only one of them was with us.

Thinking of Alex, I sigh, remembering when Michael had come to help me with my project for Alex. He hadn't needed to, but he did. That had just been another time when I had needed him and he had been there giving support in the least expected way. I know Alex would probably be grinning if he knew just how things were working between me and Michael at this moment and I knew he wouldn't want me to be sad for the loss.

Reminding myself of this, I take a deep breath and simply release it, letting myself smile.

[Roswell4ever1]

~Michael~

I can't help but chuckle at her question. "There's no way keeping it a secret would work. Isabel would figure it out in less than five minutes even if we didn't say anything. Besides, you're gonna want to tell Liz and it's not really something I can keep from Max." I

I look at Maria and get this strong feeling that she's being robbed of a very important aspect in this whole situation. Something no girl should be robbed of. And I feel guilty as hell about it but I have no idea how to fix it.

"I'm sorry your mom can't be there."

[StormWolfstone]

~Maria~


"There's no way keeping it a secret would work. Isabel would figure it out in less than five minutes even if we didn't say anything. Besides, you're gonna want to tell Liz and it's not really something I can keep from Max." I smile as I hear Michael's reply. I would have kept it as best I could if he'd wanted to, but I was glad that he wasn't planning on that.

I see him looking at me and wonder what's wrong. The expression on his face seems... I don't know... concerned.. contemplative. I'm about to ask what's wrong when he says, "I'm sorry your mom can't be there."

Oh.. I hadn't even gotten that far to thinking about it. Mom.. well.. yeah I would like her to be there, but I knew when we left Roswell that I probably would never see her again. Then again, I'd never pictured myself getting married. I sighed as I thought on that and then looked into Michael's eyes, "It's alright, Michael. I know that if there was a way, she'd be there, but either way, I know she'd be happy for us and there in spirit even if she can't be physically. I might send her a postcard to let her know when we're married."

I meant every word I said, though I would miss having my mother as part of the wedding, the one to give me away, I knew that I wouldn't give up the chance to be happily married to the man I love either. "I love you Michael, and being your wife will make me happy no matter whether my mother is there or not."

[isabelle]

Temping for *Max*

"Wait," I say as Kyle just keeps walking after that comment. It's not surprising. He ran off after he kissed me. He's afraid.

I catch him by the arm and make him stop. He turns and looks at me, seeming almost sullen, not quite meeting my eyes. But I try to look into his eyes, anyway, as best I can, not releasing his arm. I'm seeking that connection he says he's feeling. I'm not sure exactly what he means. Is it like what he had with Alex? Something like a crush? Or is it something more 'alien' related, because I'd healed him.

I'm silent, watching, feeling, waiting.

I don't really know what I feel. I feel Kyle. He'd been a rival, a friend, a source of pain when I saw him in bed with Liz, and lately, a friend again. Someone who chose to come with us even 'though he wasn't on the FBI radar. He could have stayed behind with Jesse, but he said he was afraid of what would happen when his powers emerged, if they did. Or did he really follow because he was in love with me?

Am I feeling a 'connection' or is it just my own memories and feelings?

I see flashes. A flash of him and Liz, her persuading her to set me up. I see him watching me when I was with Liz and I feel his jealousy. Was he jealous of me or her? More, I feel his intense embarrassement and desperation as he'd leaned over and kissed me a few minutes ago.

The flashes are brief and few and they end almost as soon as they start. Is this the connection or my usual ability to get flashes in moments of high emotion or is it the connection he mentioned?

"Kyle," I say softly, the emotional residues of the flashes still echoing across my nerve endings. "This connection. Is it something you felt before or was it only after I healed you?"

[Roswell4ever1]

~Michael~

"We could have Iz take pictures so we could send them to her. It won't be the same, but at least she'd get to see it." I tell her as I carefully stand up stretch my legs.

I kept thinking about how Maria and Kyle's lives had been turned upside down by all of this. I kept wondering if things would have been different between us if we hadn't had to run. Would we still be together? Would we be getting married? I would like to think we would.

"You know we should get one of those disposable cell phones so you could call." I tell her as I reach my hands down to help her up. Not having any real parents myself, I know how important that is. I would have given my left nut to have what Maria does and I don't want her losing that.

[Anna-Liisa]

Kyle

"Wait" Max said and grabbed my arm again. I turned and looked at him - Well i mostly looked at his cheek so I could avoid his eyes. But it was quite impossible when he was trying to get an eyecontact with me. I was sure he was trying to feel the connection. I didn't really want him to try and feel it, I wanted him to feel it. So I though, about everything related to him and me.

"Kyle," he said interrupting my thoughs. "This connection. Is it something you felt before or was it only after I healed you?" he asks.

I looked down and got my hand away from him. Of course now he'd blame it on the healing. That it was normal to be connected to him somehow.

"It was...after you healed me. But it's not a normal connection, Max. It's something else. Alex and I had something special, but this is...this is something that...that's out of my understanding. It's us..." I said. "It's you and me.."

I looked into his eye, or tried. I had nothing to hide. I wanted him to see my emotions. Everything. I've cared about him so long, even If I didn't start admitting right away.

"This connection is only for you and me" I said quietly and looked away.

[Anna-Liisa]

ooc: I'm posting a Jesse post for Nicole. He's a sleep even if it's day time, I know, weird, lol. But he wants to meet Isabel.
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Jesse

After a hard morning, missing Isabel, I decided to take a little nap at my apartment. I was sitting on my bed, looking at her picture wishing that she'd come to my dreams. Usually she did, like she'd known I was asleep even at daytime. It had become a ritual for me to sleep at days. Just to see her. Feel her in my dreams.

With though running through my head I prepared myself to dream and closed my eyes, thinking about her and out wedding.

'C'mon..just like everyday' I though and let myself relax.

We had our dreamworld, even if it changed all the time. I could talk to her, even if Isabel had said that normally people didn't even see her when she visited the dreams. I guess I should've felt special, but it was Isabel who was the special one. It was her.

[StormWolfstone]

OOC: ooh.... damned browser..... I sent a post for this last night and obviously it got lost.... so .... rewritten.... here it is....

~Maria~


"We could have Iz take pictures so we could send them to her. It won't be the same, but at least she'd get to see it." Michael tells me as he unwinds from me and stands up. Who would have thought that in a matter of minutes I'd be hearing Spaceboy being so sweet, so often. I was already beginning to wonder if I was going to have this side of him more often.

Telling me he loves me and isn't prepared to let me go, wanting to marry me and now wanting to find a way to make it so I feel okay about not having my mom at the wedding. "I think picture's are a good idea." I tell him with a smile, about to work my way into getting up off the ground myself.

"You know we should get one of those disposable cell phones so you could call." Michael says and holds his hands down to help me, mine instantly go into his. Once he's assisted my into a standing position, I simply smile up at him. I feel like screaming to the world that this man, my man, is the greatest.

"You are the best, you know that? I always knew that beneath that mask of distance was a loving and sensitive man that I wanted to know too." I tell him as I loop my arm around his waist and stand beside him, looking up at him, "I love you, every single bit of you. I know mom will love knowing we are getting married, but I don't want to do anything that will cause risks to everyone else."

[Roswell4ever1]

~Michael~

"They aren't traceable. I wouldn't do anything that would put the group in danger. We have enough of that already." I say, letting out a deep breath. "You know with all the shit you've been through since you've met us, I'm surprised you didn't leave me years ago." I chuckled