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*Max*

I shake my head sharply, biting my lip as I hear the pain in her voice. She’s been carrying that around along with her other secret, afraid that I wouldn’t be there for her if I knew the truth.

“Never that,” I assure her. “Serena’s objection would never do that. The only reason I didn’t ever ask you earlier was because I’m ‘different.’ I’ve always thought that I could never risk getting close to anyone. I couldn’t risk our secret. I honestly thought I would always be alone. That loving you would never be more than a dream. A fantesy. As soon as we kissed – when I knew that you felt the same – after that, nobody could have stopped me. Not Isabel, although she tried. Not Serena, either.” I smile warmly at Liz, reaching over to touch her face again. “I can only think of one thing that could..."

I'd been so terrified that me being alien could hurt her. I still am. I have powers and we're discovering new things about ourselves all the time. If there was some way I could hurt her without meaning to...
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~Liz~

Max shakes his head and it’s as though a great weight is lifted from my shoulders. Despite everything that he’s said in the past, about loving me, that worry that he might decide that is not enough if he found out the truth has been ever present.

There’s been the existence of my secret to deal with too of course, but this fact is so much more mundane, and normal… Serena’s disapproval was something that was always going to come out sooner or later whether I told Max about us or not… It’s something so normal, and yet something which I feared, like our secret, could destroy what I had with Max.

Well now there are no more secrets between us…well not on my side anyway… He knows what I am, and where I stand…I love him, and nothing will change that…

“Never that…Serena’s objection would never do it. The only reason I didn’t ever ask you earlier was because I’m ‘different’. I’ve always thought that I could never risk getting close to anyone. I couldn’t risk our secret…”

I can hear the emotion in Max’s voice and I can completely relate to what he is saying. I have done exactly the same thing…thought the same…I didn’t go as far to completely cut myself off as he did, but I stopped myself getting close… The thing was, with Max it was different… I saw into his soul and from that moment on there was no way to turn back. From there on, I couldn’t turn away from him, because something inside me just wouldn’t let me… It wouldn’t let me give up something so special…even if that meant breaking one of the most basic rules by which I have always lived my life…even if that meant telling the truth about myself.

I can’t say that I regret what I have done…not even after the way that Serena responded to it. Ainsling was right in what she said… I’m growing up, I have to make my own decisions, and this was the right thing for me, of that I have no doubt…

Suddenly I realise that Max has still been talking and I try to tune back into what he is saying. Although I’ve missed some, it doesn’t take much to fill in the blanks…

“Nobody could have stopped me…Not Isabel, although she tried. Not Serena either…”

He smiles at me and reaches up, touching my face. I close my hand over his.

“I can only think of one thing that could…”

One thing that could…well I know what that would be for me, but I don’t really want to think about it. It’s a fact that I have to face every day…every time I look at that picture of my mother which I keep hidden in my diary… My life is dangerous…more than that, it’s deadly… If Max and I stay together, and we have any children – if that’s even possible, I’m terrified that one day I won’t come home… That Max will be left to cope alone, because of what I am… Unfortunately there’s nothing I can do to change it… I can’t lie and say it’s not dangerous, because that’s not fair on him, I have to face up to reality…

Of course Max’s thoughts are probably quite different and pushing all these fear to the back of my mind, I take a breath and meet his gaze. “Tell me…?” I request softly.
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*Max*

My last words had slipped out before I had a chance to catch them. I feel Liz stiffen slightly as a worried expression crosses her face, one that even seems to show a bit of ... fear. I immedately regret it.

She swallows hard before meeting my eyes. “Tell me…?” she asks, before I can retract my words. I nod slightly, knowing that I have to fix this. I hope I can find the words to make her understand all the half-formed fears in my own mind.

"I guess it's really two things," I say, holding her a little closer while rubbing her knee with my other hand. "The second would be if you didn't want it, but it seems pretty clear that's not something I really have to worry about," I assure her quickly. I love her so very much... It still feels a bit presumptuous to assume Liz's feelings, but she has actually been very clear about that and I don't want her to think I'm not getting her message.

"The first is just my fears about me. I mean, I have these 'powers.' I don't really understand where they come from or how they work. We're still discovering new things all the time." I look away, still rubbing her hand and hoping I'm not making things worse. "I'm worried that something about those powers or about my biology will be bad. That it'll be unsafe for you. I'd never be able to live with myself if I hurt you somehow, because of something I didn't know about ... me."

I shrink in on myself just a little as I think about that, although I don't move my arms from around Liz at all. I don't how much she's really thought about this and I don't want to scare her but it has to be said. I wonder if she knows how lucky she is to have Ms. Brennan to tell her who she is and how it works. Even just knowing how she was born is more knowledge than I have. We know nothing.

My body looks human but I know it isn't. I had been scared even kiss Liz, not because of letting her get close to me, since she already knew my every secret, but because I didn't know if anything would happen. Our powers are sometimes linked to our emotions and that would be so much different than just kissing our parents. What if something strange happened that would have been normal for one like us, but would hurt her?

Fortunately, Michael went ahead and kissed Maria first without even thinking of alien repercussions, so I knew that would be safe by the time I did kiss Liz. Still, we don't know if we can have babies the same way. We were in pods and we don't know the first thing about how or why that was.

"I'm not ... human, Liz. You know that. All those things people have guessed and feared about aliens... what if some of them are true? What if the truth is even ... worse?"
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~Liz~

“I guess it’s really two things…”

Max pulls me a little further into his arms and rubs my knee with one hand. I can feel the reassuring waves coming off him and I can tell that he could tell there was something wrong. Immediately I wish that I could change that…

For a moment, I wish that I could be a completely normal girl…a normal girlfriend for him. I mean who would automatically think that he’s about to talk about dying… Who else would even think about these things… Not Pam Troy, or most of the other girls in our year. I’m different…

“The second would be if you didn’t want it, but it seems pretty clear that’s not something I really have to worry about”

I laugh and nod at this. “You’ve got that right…” I assure him softly, relieved to see that at least he hasn’t taken my reaction to mean that.

"The first is just my fears about me. I mean I have these ‘powers’. I don’t really understand where they come from or how they work, We’re still discovering new things all the time.”

He looks away and I rest my second hand on top of his that is still rubbing mine. “Max…don’t do this to yourself…” I tell him but he doesn’t seem to hear me, continuing on regardless and I just know that I have to let him finish.

“I’m worried that something about these powers or about my biology will be bad. That it’ll be unsafe for you. I’d never be able to live with myself if I hurt you somehow, because of something I didn’t know about…me… I’m not human Liz. You know that. All those things people have guessed and feared about aliens, what if some of them are true? What if the truth is even worse…?”

I can hear the fear in his voice and all I can think about is the fact that I need to make sure he knows that none of this matters to me. Maybe some of the things he is saying do have some basis, but then if you believed all the tales like that, I’d be riding round on a broomstick… I look up and reach to brush my lips against his again before doing anything else.

“It doesn’t matter to me Max…and I know you well enough to know you’re not going to hurt me…” I shake my head. “You can’t exactly say that I’m normal either…I have powers and abilities…I have to hide what I am from my friends everyday and cope with things that most people think belong in nightmares or fairytales…” I know that I’m getting off the subject at the moment. These are things which need to be discussed more, but not right at this moment in time, right now, I need to focus on what Max said. I take a breath and look up at him. “Whatever might be said about aliens, whatever people fear…I don’t fear anything about you, because you’re you… I love you Max… If I haven’t managed to make that clear I don’t know how else to do so… All the stuff about aliens that you’re worried about, it’s like saying that I should be waving a magic wand… It’s people without knowledge trying to explain things that they don’t understand and making a really bad job at it too… I understand what you’re saying, but you don’t need to worry, because I know you, and I know you’d never do anything to hurt an innocent. You’re a good person Max…believe in yourself…and believe in us…”

Finishing with this, and realising that I have been speaking for rather a long time, I look down embaressed, but Max’s finger teases my chin and causes me to look up as his lips decend and capture mine in his. Everything’s perfect...
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*Max*

Liz's reassurances feel amazingly good. It's wonderful to know that she trusts me so much, although I'm not really sure that she understood what I was trying to say. She knows I would never ever hurt her deliberately, but I just don't even know what to be careful about since I don't know what is even possible. I only hope that her magic, whatever that might be, will be able to help her if anything does happen, although clearly being a witch isn't proof against being hurt. Not after what I've seen of what happened to Liz's mom.

'believe in us,' Liz says, and looks away. I lean forward and kiss her gently, hoping to ease away the fear that she seems to have. I don't want her to ever think that I have any doubts about the two of us.

She returns the kiss gently and I deepen it, capturing the back of her neck with my hand and pressing my lips against hers, hungrily. I run my hand down her neck, pushing aside her collar as I touch her skin. I break away, at last, smiling into her eyes. "You're so wonderful," I whisper to her.

Liz's returning smile is soft and almost shy. My smile widen and I bend forward for another kiss when something catches my eye. There at my finger-tips along her collarbone is a patch of silver light about the size of a plum.

"Liz," I gasp softly. Touching it, it feels no different than the rest of her skin, except that maybe it's a bit warmer. I move my hand down her arm and the light appears beneath my hand where-ever it touches her bare skin.

Dispite my earlier worries, this doesn't seem scary. It's just amazing and wonderous. I look up at Liz and ask. "Are you doing this?"
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~Liz~

First of all the kiss is gentle and sweet, but soon it’s becoming far more than that. I feel Max’s hand slip behind the back of my neck and the pressure of his lips upon mine intensifies as he deepens the kiss.

A year ago, or even six months ago, I would never have imagined having anything like this… Being with Max is completely different from anything else I have ever imagined but if I know one thing, it is that it feels so right…

Being together…kissing him, feeling his arms around me…experiencing the connection between us… I know that Serena might think that it makes me weaker by distracting me, but she couldn’t be more wrong… Knowing that Max is there strengthens me… Perhaps in a way it gives me something to fight for again in a way I haven’t for so long…

Since I met Max, my life has changed so much, but even though that might include some extra danger, I know that it’s all for the best… I feel more alive now than I ever have in my life before. The relationship we share is so much more than I have ever had with anyone… In the past I have been scared to let people get close, and I have been terrified to open up and show them the real me… What I did earlier would have been unheard of, but with Max, it was just a natural step and progression…something that I knew I had to do…

He pushes my collar away from my neck, exposing the skin to his lips and I tilt my head towards him, unable to prevent myself letting out a small moan as I feel his gentle attentions.

Even though I know he has taken his time, it seems like only moments before his lips break away and he looks back at me, his eyes meeting my gaze as he smiles. “You’re so wonderful…”

I return his smile, but can’t help blushing a little. “Max…”

He smiles and cuts off anything further I might be able to say as his lips drop towards mine again. I can’t think of anything except him…

To my surprise, they never reach though, and as I look up questioningly into his eyes, I am shocked to see a glimmer of hesitation and a tension that wasn’t there before. “Max…?” The word coming from my mouth is the same as before, but the edge gives it a completely different meaning…

“Liz…” He gasps and I look at him again, unable to see what he’s looking at. His fingers come to rest on my collarbone, around the point his lips last contacted. I get a sudden burst of emotion…fear, terror even… It’s gone almost instantaneously, but I know that didn’t come from him…

Swallowing am about to ask Max about it, but as I watch his hand, it slips down my arm now and my eyes widen as I see a light appearing, dancing over my skin wherever he touches me. Thoughts of previous questions fly from my mind for now…

Max looks up at me. “Are you doing this…?”

I shake my head softly. “No…I-I’ve never known anything like it…”

Despite the fact that Max’s question leaves me in no doubt as to the fact this is a mystery to him too…somehow that just doesn’t matter and my only response is to reach up and press my lip against his… Any questions that I might have will have to wait for now…nothing matters except being with him…I need Max…
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OOC: sorry a response took so long.... (really hate being at library's lol)


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Isabel seems to go into some sort of panic as I watch her respond to what I told her. "Anything alien-related in that box?...Why was it in Liz's room?..." I shrugged in response to both of the first questions and was about to say something when she blurted. "You said that you went to her house earlier. Why didn't you take me along?!"

"Isabel, calm down. We didn't have anything planned at all. It just sort of happened because I wasn't going to let your brother go anywhere alone. And it was his idea, not mine." I told her and sighed. "Look, is there anything you can tell me about Maxwell?"
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*Max*

I nod, still watching the light as my hand moves. It's certainly surprising and I wasn't expecting anything like this, and yet, it doesn't feel strange. It seems ... natural, although I know it isn't.

"Can you-?" I start to ask, but she interupts me with a kiss. I'm instantly lost in it. In her touch, her taste, her scent. She's everything to me and knowing that there are no more secrets between us just makes it all more perfect.

I wrap my arms around her even more tightly, running my hands up and down her back. If she's glowing under her shirt, I don't know and I don't bother to wonder. All I care about is the fact that she's here and I love her for always.

My heart falls easily into rythem with hers and our connection opens without even thinking about it and I'm seeing flashes. Liz smiling at me. Liz, naked, in the girl's shower room with me right there... Liz and a man with a knife in the Crashdown coming right for her ... blood... and I'm there, too...
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Isabel

"Isabel, calm down. We didn't have anything planned at all. It just sort of happened because I wasn't going to let your brother go anywhere alone. And it was his idea, not mine." I told her and sighed. "Look, is there anything you can tell me about Maxwell?"

Just as he asked this question, I remembered Max going into my room again. I could seriously be mistaken about that incident, but if I want to find out more about what happened, then I have to risk it.

Anyway, if I am wrong, then I'll just clear it up later.

"Max came into my room and told me that he couldn't understand some things about Liz. I asked if it had anything to do with us, but he denied it. -told me that it was just girl stuff." I say recalling that night pretty clearly. "I shrugged it off, then. But when I think back to it, it's making me a little suspicious."

I look at Michael to see what he thinks.
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*~Michael~*


I'm certain that it seems strange that Isabel and I are both a bit suspicious about what's going on, but I can't help but wonder just what Max is hiding from us. If it does have to do with us, I think we should know. I'm certainly not about to just let it go as if there is nothing to worry about.

As Isabel responds, I listen quietly. "Max came into my room and told me that he couldn't understand some things about Liz. I asked if it had anything to do with us, but he denied it. -told me that it was just girl stuff. "I shrugged it off, then. But when I think back to it, it's making me a little suspicious."

"I think that it's high time we got some answers because it's obvious to me that Maxwell is hiding something and if it could be anything that may effect us, we have the right to know." I was tempted to find Max right then and there, but he'd said he had an appointment with one of the teachers.

I looked at Isabel when a sudden thought hit me, "Is it me, or did it seem as though Max and Liz were in a rush to get away from us and maybe a bit nerved up?" I couldn't help but wonder why they would be going to see Ms. Brennan together. First off, both of them are A students so why would they have a conference with a teacher? Second, most student-teacher conferences I have heard of included only one student.
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