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Walk Away and I Stumble (CC, M/L,Adult) AN, 11 February [WIP

Posted: Mon Feb 20, 2006 8:04 pm
by Reamhar
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Title: Walk Away and I Stumble
Author: Reamhar
Genre: CC
Pairings: M/L, M/M, A/I, etc.
Rating: Mature/Adult (to be safe)
Disclaimer:
Roswell and its characters belong to Metz, Katims and the relevant TV companies. Any songs or lyrics used belong to their writers, not me! No infringement is intended. Dialogue from the show has been used for the purpose of the story and this is credited to have come from Crashdown.com. The title is taken from the Macy Gray song I Try.

Summary

Begins just after Into the Woods and will pretty much follow the cannon story line with a couple of twists to keep it interesting. I read lots of Roswell fan fiction, and whilst it would never be my intention to deliberately steal anyone’s words or ideas, I’m sure it must influenced my writing style at least a little. If I’ve missed or failed to credit anything to it’s owner, I apologise in advance and will endeavour to correct it at the first opportunity. Angst warning for some parts. This is my first attempt at writing Roswell fan fiction, so please be gentle with me.


Part One - A Conversation Between Old Friends


Holding the phone in her sweaty palm, she could feel and hear her own heart beat thundering in her ears as she waited nervously for the call to connect.

The mechanical ringing sounded over her rapid heartbeat, once, and then again, twice, but by the beginning of the third ring she was beginning to question her decision to make this call. Indecision and impatience equally held her frozen with the phone to her ear when it was suddenly answered with the snapped out vocalisation of a name.

“Langley.”

Now the moment of confrontation was at hand, words escaped her and several seconds ticked slowly by before she managed to rasp out a reply.

“Cal?”

Silence once again met silence, giving her precious time to collect her scatter thoughts.



I watch as the daylight crawls
past the shadows hanging on the walls



“It’s been a long time.” Unexpectantly she heard uncertainty in his voice, giving her some hope that maybe the abruptness of her contact might help to get through to him after so long.

His next words, however, destroyed her new confidence, as the control returned to his voice. She could almost physically feel his resolve fix against her before she had even expressed her request.

“Can’t say I’ve been counting the years. To what do I owe this very unexpected pleasure.”

For “unexpected pleasure” insert unwelcome intrusion, she thought.

She tried again to find the right words to start what was going to be a difficult conversation. Despite having had nearly two decades to rehearse for it, she still wished she’d had more time. She fidgeted on her end of the phone, her free hand moving up to push back a non-existent piece of hair from her forehead.



it's been a long time since I felt the stains
of yesterday getting in my way



“Serena, can you get to your point today! I doubt that you’d contact me after 18 year just to hear me breathing down the phone.” The abruptness of his barked comment had actually made her jump, like a naughty child or the nervous cadet she had once been.

From deep within her she felt long buried resentment rise to the surface because of this situation and his dismissive manner. She grabbed onto the strength of that feeling and used it to reinforce her resolve to have this conversation, regardless of his now open hostility.



I'm alive but tell me am I free
I've got eyes but tell me can I see
the sky is falling and no one knows



“He’s back.”

“He, who?” Cal asked, his voice disinterested.

“Don’t play with me Cal. You know who.” She growl in return.

It was on her lips to say his given name, Galen, but she stopped herself. He had reinvented himself as a traitor, why not use the new name that he had taken for his new role.

“Nasado.”

The name came out more aggressively than she had wanted, and she tried to rein in her emotions. She’d decided long ago, that if she ever had to have this conversation with Cal, she was not going to let her emotions regarding Nasado cloud her ability to deal with Cal.

“You knew that was always a possibility.” Cal replied noncommittally, almost nonchalantly.

She paid careful attention to the inflections in his voice, trying to gain some clues to his true feelings about this event. The thought suddenly occurred. Was this really new information for him?



we shouldn't be hard to believe
shouldn't be this difficult to breathe
the sky is falling and no one knows



“He’s closer than he’s ever been Cal, and he’s sending them signals to draw them out. It could influence them to expose themselves to him.

He left the whirl wind symbol in Fraser Woods. It’s whipped up a lot of excitement amongst the UFO nuts. There’s a lot of new people in town. He’s created the perfect opportunity to hide himself amongst so many new faces.”

“Ever one for the amateur dramatics.” He drawled, still with the note of disinterest in his voice.

The irony of such a remark coming from a royal protector turned Hollywood mogul irritated her more than it should in the circumstances. They were getting nowhere fast with this conversation, and she needed some urgent action from him.

Frustrated resentment had her zing back a retort, “You would know.”

“Careful kitty cat, you’re claws are showing. I wouldn’t want to have to come down there and de-claw you.”



you leave me hanging on
I need to catch my breath



“Don’t try it, Cal. That’s an empty threat, and we both know it. Nasado couldn’t break me, and you wouldn’t try.”

She could feel her temper rising, and gasped out loud as she felt energy coming uncontrollable to the surface as her emotions spun out of control. They manifested as yellow crackling sparks moving across the skin of her hands and heating the plastic handset of the phone until she dropped as it burnt her hands.

“Damn it…...!”

She tried sucking a deep breath in an effort to get her emotions back under control to push the energy back. She had to get back under control to survive this phone call.



I've got you and I've got nothing left
don't leave me all alone down here
with myself and all of my fear



Grabbing a scarf from the coat hooks on the wall, she used it to insulate her hands against the heated material of the phone before putting it back to her ear only to hear Cal’s mocking laughter.

“Temper, temper Serena. We don’t want you to go melting things now.”

She cursed him and his intimate understand of her difficulties, but she forced herself to rein her temper in further trying again to appeal to him, keeping her voice calm.

“You know that the anniversary of their transference is approaching. What better time for him to return.”

“I don’t know how many different ways I can say this Serena. It is not my problem anymore.”

“You’re a protector, you should be protecting them. I’ve been doing your job for you long enough.”

“And you’ve managed admirably for the last 18 years, why do you need me now?”


I'm alive but tell me am I free


“I’ve managed because he’s stayed away until now, or hasn’t been able to trace them. I made sure of that. Moving around in the shadows and hiding paperwork and evidence isn’t going to be enough anymore. I need you here now.”

“Really.”

“Yes, Cal, please. You know I don’t have the kind of power that would be effective against him. Never did. I need you, please.”


I've got eyes but tell me can I see


“What’s changed. Why has he returned now. Why do you think he’s come back to find them?”

“I don’t understand…….”

“You’ve never been a stupid woman Serena, don’t start now. We could've moved the pods to anywhere in the country after his little smash and grab attempt. I know he doesn’t have the orbs to draw him to them, so what has happen to draw him back to this area again.”

“There was a shooting. A local girl was hurt. Max healed….”


the sky is falling and no one knows


“So the boy king has raised his head above the parapet ready to have it severed. Why? What motivated him to break cover. They’ve always kept hidden until now. What’s different.”

Serena considered lying, but she was guessing that he had at least a little knowledge about the subject, despite his questions. Lying to him was probably going to enrage him more that the next piece of information would anyway.



we shouldn't be hard to believe
shouldn't be this difficult to breathe



“He has strong feelings for the girl.”

Cal seemed to suddenly radiate anger from his end of the phone line, and Serena mentally braced herself for the next explosion. But surprisingly it never came, instead his reply was glacially calm.

“So Zan has found another girl to lean on. I wonder what his Queen would have thought about that turn of events.

Regardless, I find myself coming back to what I said at the start of this call. They’re not my responsibility any more.”

“So just what do you suggest I do. You were the leader of this ill-fated expedition before your voluntary retirement! What do you suggest I do mighty leader with no major defensive abilities, and an inability to shape shift anymore.” Her voice was spiky with antagonism, gradually sliding into vulnerability.

“Please Cal, he’s back and I don’t know what to do to protect them from him.”

“You could tell them who you are, who and what he is, and guide them from there.”

“I can’t do that. If he’s watching them closely that’s going to led him straight to my family. I can’t risk that.”

“I have a new life now Serena, you have a life too. We're not the same people any more.

Keva’s vision for them ended with her death, and it ended my responsibilities to the royal brats.”

“You know what Cal. You’re right. You have a new life. And you know that cigar I’m guessing that you’re smoking right now, why don’t you take a nice big puff on it and blow the smoke and your new life right up your arse.”


the sky is falling and no one knows
no one knows
no one knows

(Lyrics – Lifehouse – The Sky is Falling)


With her last expression of anger, the scarf and phone in Serena’s hands burst into flames to provide a fiery finally to her phone call as she threw them onto the floor and stamped on them for good measure.

Sitting comfortably in his office in LA, Cal found himself laughing at her spunk as the phone line went dead despite himself. Hurricane Serena had returned.

Walk Away and I stumble (CC, M/L, Mature/Adult) Ch.2, 26 Feb

Posted: Sat Feb 25, 2006 7:27 pm
by Reamhar
Hi! Maxssoulmate, begonia9508, tequathisy, Ellie, Icequeen and Timelord31 thanks for the feedback. :D

Here's part two, enjoy. Hopefully part three which I am currently working on might make it clearer where I'm trying to go with this.


Some dialogue is taken from the episode Convention.


Part Two - Two Aliens, No Waiting


UFO Convention, Day 1

The first day of the annual UFO Conference brought a flood of new visitors into Roswell for the event, their number bolstered by the recent unexplained sightings in Fraser Woods.

Along with the conference visitors, a disgruntled Cal Langley found himself booking into a nondescript hotel on the outskirts of Roswell wearing the face of an equally nondescript man. One week after Serena’s phone call, he was still having an internal fight with himself about his true motivation for coming at all.

It had taken 48 hours after her call before he had commissioned a discrete private detective to tail Serena. 48 hours later he was provided with photographs of those people that she was observed to interact with and a report of her movements. But both items had been left untouched on his desk for another 24 hours before he gave in and studied them to identify the sibling group of Isabel and Max Evans, and their friend Michael Guerin as his former responsibilities.

Seeing their faces, and remembering the betrayal of Nasado had made him get on a plane, and step into a rental car to drive into Roswell. Revenge was on his mind, and loss, and guilt.

What he wasn’t willing to acknowledge was the quiet little voice that whispered to him about how guilty he felt about the vulnerability he had heard in Serena’s voice. For the long time that he had been with her, and the even longer time that she had looked after her charges without him, she had shown nothing but her single-minded strength of character and conviction to a mission that he had forsaken. He had never heard her sound as terrified as she had in that telephone call.

That voice, above all the others, whispering in his conflicted mind, was the one that had to be ignored. Acknowledging it would mean that he had been wrong when he walked away from them all. That the clarity of direction that had sprung from his grief, and driven him to make a new start, had been wrong all along.

Cal Langley, former royal protector turned Hollywood producer did not admit to anyone that he was wrong, least of all himself and certainly not Serena. Which was why he had left her oblivious to his presence in Roswell.

He first made his way over to the UFO Centre, primarily because he knew that this was where the former King now had a job. In order to find Nasado he needed to understand the movements of his former charges and watch them closely in case they tried to contact Nasado as Serena had speculated they might. By watching them, he might just trap himself a traitor.

Making his way down the cement staircase into the former bomb shelter, Cal paused half way down to look over the gathered crowd of people milling around the small room below. He could see that the UFO Convention was enjoying a brisk trade, and had to move aside to allow various people to pass him on the stairs, including one couple dressed in full alien costumes sporting face masks, antennas and plastic ray guns.

The whole situation appealed to his sense of the ridiculous as he continued to the bottom of the stairs laughing and muttering, “One spaceship crash and we’re bigger the ET.” Before joining the people moving around the various exhibits.


He completed one slow sweep around the room before he spotted Serena, and deliberately stood next to her for several minutes under the guise of studying some ‘alien’ artefacts before moving away.


Feeling the moment the slip away
Losing direction you're losing faith



It was clear to him that her senses had remained dulled as she had not been able to recognise his energy signature even at close quarters. She had not been lying when she said her defensive and shape shifting abilities were compromised.

There was that guilty voice again, nagging him, but he squashed it ruthlessly. Serena had understood fully the risks to herself when she had chosen her path so many years ago, and it was her fault that she was living with the outcome now. Not his responsibility in anyway. Other options had been available, and he unwilling to reopen that debate 20 years later. What was the point?


You're wishing for someone
Feeling it all begin to slide
Am I just like you
All the things you do - can't help myself



A tingling in his sense alerted him that Zan was approaching, surprising him that this sense of the former King still remained. He had long hoped that that this unwelcome connection had been severed by time and the force of his own will to live a new life. He deliberately moved in the opposite direction from which he sensed Zan approaching, and closer to the area where Vilandra and Rath were standing.

From his position he could see Rath listening intently to a rather drab man pontificating about his alien theories.


How do you feel when there's no sun
How do you feel when rain drops come pouring down again
How do you feel when there's no one
Am I just like you



“I've concluded, Mr. Guerin, that yes, these aliens do exist. Yes, they're among us today. And yes, they're brutal, dangerous killers and must be stopped at any cost.”

There you go again Nasado, giving the rest of us a bad reputation, he thought with some humour, stepping backwards as Vilandra passed in front of him moving towards Rath like a woman on a mission.

Without missing a beat she grabbed Rath by the arm and tugged him successfully away. Cal had to give her points for a successful manoeuvre. She obviously held more influence with him in this life than in her previous one when Rath had been unlikely to be told what to do by anyone else expect his King. Even then there had been times when he had walked a thin line between compliance and disobedience.


Turning to face what you've become
Bury the ashes of someone



“Hey, I wasn't finished talking to him.”

“I want to get the hell out of here. This place is psychologically damaging.”

“Hey, I've got no choice here. We've got cave paintings we don't understand. We've got Nasado sending us messages. This place could hold the answers to everything. “

This statement confirmed Serena’s suspicions that they had found messages left by Nasado. He carefully noted the comment about cave paints for later investigation, whilst stifling a laugh at Vilandra next comment which was delivered with just enough disdain to underline her displeasure. Cal knew from experience that subtle haughtiness like that could only be successfully delivered by one of the Royals.

“Yeah, I'm sure it's a real Mecca for factual information.”

He again experienced the tingle that alerted him to Zan’s approach, and noticed that Serena had begun to move towards the small group. He moved back from them a little, and towards another exhibit but close enough to still be able to hear their conversation.


Broken by the strain
Trying to fill that space inside
Am I just like you
All the things you do - can't help myself



“Save me. Save me. I'm a human trapped in an alien body. “

Someone dressed in a large green alien costume moved towards the couple, and Isabel’s body language was instantly defensive, protective of Michael.

“Excuse us.”

The removal of the alien head revealed a sweaty Max Evans, hair awry and sticking up in wild spikes. “Ugh.”

Isabel’s annoyance was clear in her voice. “You realise that we've just lost our last shred of dignity.”

They continued to bicker in a good natured way as Cal moved further away from the group, uncomfortable to be in such close proximity to Zan, or rather Max, he corrected himself. They seemed to be a close nit group, perhaps closer than they had been on Antar.


How do you feel when there's no sun
How do you feel when rain drops come pouring down again



From what he had overheard, he was in agreement with Serena’s concerns that Michael at least was receptive to Nasado’s attempts to make contact. But he doubted that his fact-finding mission was going to be successful within this environment.

Again, that guilty little nagging voice sounded in his head. That they were just naïve children fumbling around in the dark without any real knowledge of the danger whilst a shark circled. And that their naivety was because they had not received the guidance that they should have because of his absence.


The guilt was followed closely by anger when he remember Serena’s words. “He has strong feelings for the girl.” Fumbling children they might be, but they were still alive. Many people on Antar had not had the same opportunity after Zan’s death. Evidenced enough, since it was a Royal Three and not a Royal Four that stood in this room.


How do you feel when there's no one
Am I just like you
All the things you do



He swung away from the group with a scowl, moving to the opposite side of the room. His inner argument continued, and he concluded that he needed to concentrate on flushing out Nasado not eves dropping on clueless children.


Don't ever feel
that you're alone
I'll never let you down
I'll never leave you dry



From the throng at the UFO Centre it was clear that the recent ‘sighting’ courtesy of Nasado had brought the UFO geeks out into the daylight, but what he had to establish was whether there were any real players here following Max’s rather public display of abilities. Moving further away from the small group and back into the crowd, he decided that with Serena in situ to nanny them, he had better places to be.


Don't fall apart
Don't let it go
Carry the motion
Carry the motion back to me

Feeling the moment the slip away

(Feeder – Feeling a Moment)


Apart from a nagging feeling of anxiety Serena was unaware that she was being watched by Cal, or anyone else. She was trying to blend in amongst the crowds in the UFO Centre and keep a closer eye than usual on her group of charges. Max was working today, so he was where she had expected him to be, but to finding Michael here and talking to people other than Isabel or Max was a worry. Not known for his impulse control, she was fairly confident that he was trying to find out more information about the message that Nasado had left in Fraser Woods.

His eagerness to understand his origins was exactly what Nasado would use to destroy him. But could she really blame him for his interest in this riddle. When faced with daily life in a loveless foster home, why wouldn’t he reach for the seduction of an unknown past or future, or for what Michael seemed to most crave, the potential for a real family connection.

She watched Isabel extracting Michael skilfully from a conversation with one of the UFO ‘experts’ to later be joined by Max. She always liked to see them together, they were a close group made up of very different personalities, but there was real affection between them and a strong bond. Though, taken from Cal’s perspective, they were a tragically incomplete group.

Serena looked out over the room just past the group as Isabel began to chastise Max for insulting their dignity with his alien costume. The movement of one of the throng of convention goers caught her eye as he strode away from her small group, his posture rigid and a scowl on his face, leaving her with a feeling of familiarity.

A scowling man and her imagination was telling her that it reminded her of Cal. That had to be her guilty conscience catching up with her for putting off contacting Cal again. It had been a week since her first phone call and, as she had expected, he had not responded to her plea for help.

Isabel had wandered, as Max and Michael moved off together and away from where Serena hovered. She watched them drift away as they carried on about their business completely unaware of her presence.

Slipping a hand into her bag Serena removed her cell phone and looked down at it as if she was worried it might bite. She knew that she couldn’t put this off any longer, and moved into a quieter corner of the room to make the call. She selected Langley’s number form her contacts list but hesitated on the call button, talking to the phone in positive tones as she initiated the call.

“We’re going to make a deal, I’m going to managed to make this call, and you’re not going to catch on fire at the end of it, because he’s not going to get under my skin this time.”

Over in the Crashdown, Liz was busy hurrying from table to table trying to keep up with the tail end of the breakfast rush made up, in the main, by the swell of UFO Convention attendees. The crowd tended to be a diverse mix of UFO fans, regular tourists, and complete fruitcakes.

Liz did her best to try to offer them an efficient service, whilst keeping as straight a face as possible when dealing with some of the more eccentric clients. She was finding it easier this year to keep her humour under control with the realisation that she had actual had alien contact, and who was she to say that some of the people here hadn’t as well.

Maria had dropped by to help Liz with the worst of the morning rush prior to meeting her mother, and was now sitting at the counter nursing a coffee waiting for Liz to join her for a break as the crowd had started to thin out. Liz turned to join Maria, and looked over to her with a smile to indicate that she was coming, when the restaurant door opened again. Two more people entered, but it was clear that the other waitresses were still occupied. Liz grimaced apologetically to Maria, who waved her away again with a smile.

She turned to greet the newcomers with a well-practised welcoming smile pinned to her face, but froze in her tracks when she realised that the couple waiting for her were Larry and Jen who had been in the restaurant on the day of the shooting.

The noise of the restaurant become muffled and Liz’s world tilted suddenly as she felt as though she was back on that day when the bullet had ripped into her stomach and sent her crashing to the floor. She found herself looking down at her uniform to see if she was cover in blood, and It seemed like an eternity passed before one of the other waitress bumped her from behind, snapping Liz back into the present with a jolt. She was faced with Larry’s expression, which seemed to be smugger than it had been when she had first noticed them.

You’ve got the get it together Liz, she thought, working hard to calm her nerves as she once again pinned on her welcoming smile trying to cover her initial reaction.

“Hi, welcome to the Crashdown. Can I show you to a table?”

“Table, yes...table would be lovely. Jen, table?” His voice was over exaggerated, as he replied to her smiled question, his eyes darting about excitedly in his too flushed face.

Liz was left with the sinking feeling that this meeting was definitely not by chance, and she looked briefly over her shoulder to Maria for some reassurance. Maria looked as tense as she did as she perched on the edge of her stool her face anxious.

“Yeah, thanks.” Jen replied quietly. In contrast to Larry’s excitement, she seemed faintly embarrassed.

“Great.”

They both took a seat at a nearby table and accepting the menus that Liz passed out.

“Here you go. Ah, so, can I get you a beverage to start?”

“Beverage would be lovely. Jen, beverage?”

Liz was in half a mind to offer him one of Maria aromatherapy treatments just to get him to calm down.

“I'll have a Coke.”

“Yeah, you know what? I would love to try one of those, uh, delicious shakes that you guys have. Let's see, which one...oh, this one looks interesting. Alien Encounter?”

Liz flicked a quick look again at Maria, looking for help, and Maria slipped off her seat and started moving towards them.

Liz took a deep calming breath, she just needed to get their drinks order, then one of the other waitresses could deal with them.

“Yeah, ok, so we've got one Coke and one Alien Encounter. I’ll be right back.“ She began backing away from the table when Larry spoke again.

“Thanks. Actually, you know what. There is just one more little thing. Why don't you tell me what really happened in September.”

Maria moved between where Liz stood and Larry sat at the table and with a theatrical shout of “Ooopps…” pretended to trip, dumping the contence of her mug of coffee into Larry’s lap, causing Larry, Jen and Liz to jump away from the table and the hot liquid.

Maria then launched into an over emotional and snivelling apology, making the maximum fuss that she could manage as she tried to pat down Larry’s soaking shirt and trousers with a napkin whilst saying, “Oh God, I’m sorry, so, so sorry.” Over and over again, making sure that her voice got louder and more tearful with each word.

Larry never managed to get a word in over the volume of her apologies that quickly disintegrated into theatrical wailing.

“I’m just the worst waitress, EVER….” She threw herself into Liz’s arms, burying her head in her friend’s shoulder and making muffled sobbing noises into the skin of Liz’s neck.

Mr Parker approached the melee trying to work out why a spilt cup of coffee had disintegrated into a public spectacle that commanded the attention of the entire restaurant.

“Liz?” he asked turning to his daughter for an explanation as she patted her wailing friend’s back.

Thinking fast on her feet, she tried to follow were Maria had led, “Dad, it was an accident. She’s been have some problems with Michael, and….” On the word, ‘Michael’, the volume of Maria’s wailing doubled, and was followed by staccato sobbing noises.

Liz pulled a face at her dad by way of explanation. “Maybe I should take her out of here?”

Mr Parker, used to witnessing the ups and downs of Maria’s apparent relationship with Michael, nodded. He was more than happy to deal with a disgruntled customer rather than a wailing teenage girl. Liz drew Maria away from the table and into the ladies toilets, locking the door behind them.

The girls sprang apart from each other.

“Oh my God Maria that was awful.”

Maria pushed Liz’ shoulder playfully. Hey, my acting wasn’t that bad. I thought it was quite inspired actually.”

“No, I mean they’re back. What're we going to do? And by the way, hot coffee?”

“Look, it’s clear he came here to shock you into talking by making a public scene. He deserved all he got. Shifty little weasel.

Besides, it wasn’t really hot coffee, so it’s not like it would scald him, at least not that much.” Maria realised that Liz looked pale, and she touched her friend’s arm concerned.

“Are you okay?”

“I’m okay. Seeing them, it just brought it all back. You know? It just threw me for a moment.”

“Look, all we have to do is stick to the story. You fell and broke a bottle of ketchup on yourself. If he starts hanging around and being a nuisance, we’ll just tell your dad that he’s bothering you like he’s a nut job from the convention, and we can have him chucked out.”

Liz nodded, seeing the logic of Maria’s argument, but was still feeling quite unsteady from the meeting.

Maria realised that Liz was going to need a little bit more reassurance than she could offer, and that some one to one alien intervention might be helpful.

“Look. I have to go meet my mom. Why don’t you go see Max and let him know that Jen and Larry are back, and see what he suggests.”

As she expected, Liz perked up at the prospect of seeing and speaking to Max.

“Yeh, I should go and warn him.”

Maria watched a genuine smile appear on Liz’s face and knew the reason why; Max Evans, the answer to all of Liz’s boo boos. That was just one of the many reasons why Maria had to stop herself from smacking him for being so thoughtless with his ‘we need to step back speech’.

It always surprised her just how clueless someone as in love and sensitive as Max could be when dealing with her friend. Michael, well he was on a whole lower rung of the romantically incompetent ladder, but she had at least thought Max had the benefit of more insight than his emotionally stunted sidekick.

Maria splashed water onto her face, and grabbed a handful of tissues before they left the bathroom. Liz hugged her goodbye, and headed upstairs to change, as Maria went back through into the restaurant, making a show of sniffing into the tissue and patting her wet face as she walked out onto the street to meet her mother.

Cal sitting comfortably in a booth at the Crashdown had observed the commotion between Larry, Jen, Liz and Maria with interest.

Maria and Liz had been included within many of the surveillance shots the private detective had provided for him, and he had concluded from various groups shots that Michael and Maria were involved, and that Liz was the girl Serena had alluded to in her phone call.

Larry’s questions had only confirmed the facts for him. Observing the dark haired, doe eyed girl, his simmering resentment had been inflamed by the thought that Zan’s taste hadn’t changed much. But this was directed more at the young King than at the girl herself. He grudgingly had actually admired her obvious ability to think on her feet when dealing with Larry, ably assisted by her attractive friend Maria.

Scowling, he thought that he should feel pity for the girl, because where Zan led trouble was likely to follow, and it would probably follow her like a dark cloud as a result.

His cell phone vibrated in his shirt pocket playing the X Files theme tune. He pulled it out looking at the screen to confirmed the identity of the caller, even though he already knew from the personalise ring tone that he had programmed especially. The screen showed a cartoon of an almond eyed, silver skinned alien with the name Serena beside an animated ringing phone.

He switched the phone off unanswered, leaving the call to be switched over to voicemail, because he found the thought of leaving Serena to stew amusing. Regardless of the interruption, he had decided that there might be some merit in tailing Larry and Jen to see what they got up to after they finished the free breakfast that Mr Parker had provided.

Over at the UFO centre Serena was guiltily relieved that Cal hadn’t answered his cell phone, as she heard his voice mail message play.

“You’ve reached the voicemail of Cal Langley, I’m too important to speak to you right now. Leave a message or contact my assistant on…” the message ended with a phone number followed by the beep.

“Cal, it’s Serena. You know why I’m calling. Please get back in contact with me. This isn’t going to go away just because you want it to. We’ve got responsibilities here. Anyway, I’ll try you later.” She hung up and turned back to the room, considering what to do next.

She smiled at Milton as he waved to her from the information booth, and chewed on the end of her fingernail considering her options. She could call his assistant, but she doubted that would work either. All she really could do was keep trying until she wore him down enough to at least listen to her again. She needed his help whether he wanted to interrupt his new life to help her or not. There was too much going on here for one person, alien or otherwise, to be able to deal with on their own.

She turned around to find Michael standing beside a banner for the up coming Alien Take Down. His expression was stormy and getting more annoyed as Maria approached him from where she had been helping to set up the wrestling ring.

Michael and his thoughtless behaviour where Maria was concerned was a source of irritation for Serena. Back on Antar she had not really know or had any real contact with General Rath, they simply had moved in very different circles. But in this new reincarnation, she felt he needed to be taught some manners regarding his treatment of his girl friend. Though on reflection, he could really do with being taught how to speak to people in general when it came to the spiky front that he tried to show the world.

She understood that growing up for him had been difficult without the stable home environment that Max and Isabel had enjoyed, but every now and again he showed glimpses of his vulnerable heart only to spoil the effect by acting like a complete twit. Judging by the expression on his face currently, one of those moments might just be coming.

“Alien Takedown? What's that, some kind of wrestling match? “

“Yeah, the Alien Takedown. Do you have a problem with that?” Maria asked, picking up on his hostility.” Standing with her hands on her hips, her posture was daring him to make something of it.

Michael was never one to disappoint her in a conflict. “Yeah, you know what, I do. I'm here trying to figure out the meaning of my existence, and I'm tired of having to wade through the kooks like you and the freak shows like this in order to do it.”

Maria groaned inwardly when a third voice joined their conversation.

“Nothing personal, but this freak show keeps my kooky daughter and myself off the streets.“

“Mom, Michael. Michael, mom. “ her expression said very clearly, 'smooth move Michael' as she made the introductions.

Her mother’s replied with a sarcastic, “Nice to meet you.” Before she moved away.

“That was some guffaw. “

“Guffaw?” Michael was clearly entirely unrepentant, and in fact reminded Serena of a sulky child as he crossed his arms across his chest and did everything except pout his denial of any guilty behaviour.

“Yeah, my mother. Great first impression.” Maria lowered her tone as though she was talking to the particularly stupid child.

“Why would I want to make an impression?” he replied nastily before moving away again.

The annoyed, but hurt expression on Maria’s face as she watched him walk away was enough to make Serena want to beg for the end of this particularly day. As if she didn’t have enough to deal with traitorous aliens, love sick Kings and AWOL protectors, she now had a sulking General. Given the chance, she would have happily blasted them all into oblivion with a smile on her face at that moment.

Grumbling to herself she looked at her watch and realised than in her ‘other life’ she had somewhere that she needed to be, and she hurried towards the exit while fishing her car keys out of her bag.

Serena’s path to the door passed by Max who was being interrogated by a man who she vaguely recognised as an actor from Star Trek. As the actor walked away, Milton approached Max in the company of another man dressed in a brown suit and cowboy hat. He had his back to her, but there was something about his posture that was familiar to her, and she slowed down so that she could get a clearer view of his face.

“Evans. I want you to meet a legend. This is Everett Hubble. You are looking at one of the few men in the world rumoured to have made direct contact.”

“Direct contact. Sounds exciting.”

“That's one way of looking at it.”

“So, what did this alien look like?”

“Looked like you, actually...or me. They're not little green men, you know.” Serena got her first glimpse of Hubble as he spoke, but she knew who he was from his voice, and understood the danger of the hidden meaning in his words.

“ I'm trying to get Hub to participate in our final roundtable discussion on tomorrow. “

“I'm just passing through. Nice little souvenir shop you got going here, Miltie.” Politely dismissive, he walked away.

“Max, you want to do more? Get Hubble to do the roundtable. Disappeared almost 30 years ago, nobody's seen him since. The man's an enigma.”

Serena was already grabbing her cell phone out of her bag as she continued to the exit, but the call once again connected with Cal’s voice mail.

“Cal, this is getting serious now, Hubble’s in town, and you know what that means. Nasado’s likely to be here already.

I need you here. Not next week, not tomorrow, not never, now! I’m done pleading with you, you need to get your butt on a plane and get down here before you confirm my suspicions that as a protector you’re a rather impotent specimen!” She snapped her phone shut with a flourish before getting into her car and driving away to a meeting for which she was already late.

After a fruitless day of tailing the couple from the Crashdown Cal was frustrated at his lack of progress. The only conclusion he had come to was that Larry was an idiot and Jen was a fool to follow his lead so blindly.

He had spent sometime in his hotel room listening to the various voicemail messages that Serena had left over the course of the day. They ranged from being polite and to the point, to rambling and annoyed. She had even past comment on the incompetence of his ‘stuck up’ assistant, and her in ability to track him down. But it was one of the messages that had come in the middle of the day that interested him the most.

Everett Hubble was at the Convention. For Cal that meant that Nasado was definitely here in Roswell, and could mean them finally meeting to settle old scores.

Finishing this was important to him. It would mean getting back to his actual life, and leaving behind the conflicted emotions and long buried grief that being around his former charges brought back to the surface. It had been along time since he had felt any real peace, and he was willing to move mountains to reach that goal.

Walk Away and I Stumble (CC, M/L, Mature/Adult) Ch.3, 28 Feb

Posted: Mon Feb 27, 2006 8:31 pm
by Reamhar
Behrstars & Timelord31, thanks for the feedback, its nice to know that you like the story.

Lizfan31 – that’s exactly what I was thinking. He seemed like such an under developed character too. I thought they could have done a lot more with him in the story lines. He's going to be getting a full workout in this story! :wink:

Sorry Begonia9508 – wrong on both counts, but all is about to be revealed. :lol:

Hopefully this part is going to answer some questions – where has Nasado been, just who is Serena and why is Cal quite so bitter?



Some dialogue used is taken from the episode Convention.



Part Three – Dead Man Walking



UFO Convention, Day 2

Standing outside of the UFO Centre Max was waiting patiently by Milton, fulfilling his role as fetcher and carrier for their resident celebrity, Jonathan Frakes, whilst enjoying the chance to be out in the fresh air. Milton fussed and flapped around Frakes, posing for the camera, but Max was more interest in the possibility of catching a glimpse of Liz across the road in the Crashdown where she was working as usual.

Max regretted having brushed her off yesterday when she had tried to talk to him about Larry and Jen, and hadn’t had another opportunity to spend any time around her because of work. He always liked to be able to see her at least every day, finding her company soothing, even if they didn’t get a chance to speak. In truth he was struggling since he had told her that they needed to take a step back and slow down their relationship. He knew that he had hurt her, and was unsure how to move things forward past the emotional road block of his own making which stood in their way.

He could see Liz inside the Crashdown moving around, but she did not come outside, and his attention was drawn away from Liz spotting by Milton, and the thrusting of a coat into his arms.

“This is truly an honour, Mr. Frakes. Our collection will be unparalleled.” Milton twittered, indicating the drying cement.

“Really. Who else have you got?“

“Actually, you're our first. Our very own number one, if you know what I mean. But with Stewart and Shatner and Nimoy, there's no question it's going to be big. Really big.”

“Yeah.”

“Here we go.”

“Here we go.”

“Ahh!” Frakes lean down, palms downwards towards the wet cement, and then he was suddenly engulfed up to his elbows.

“Oh, Evans! Evans! Oh, no problem. No problem.”

Max helped to pull Mr Frakes back to his feet by his elbow. Once back safely in a vertical position, Milton once again began to flutter around him, making apologies.

The crowd had laughed good naturedly, and more camera bulbs flashed to capture the moment, but people were beginning to drift away as Milton shepherded Frakes back inside. Max took a couple of minutes to enjoy the sun on his face before he had to return inside to the artificially lit gloom of the museum. To his left a cell phone began ringing playing the X Files tune, and Max caught the gaze of the cell phone owner who seemed to study him for several seconds, before switching off the phone and walking away down the street. Thinking nothing of the encounter, Max looked across to the Crashdown again, before turning to go back inside the UFO centre to finish his shift.

At the sheriff’s station Hubble was once again trying to get information out of Sheriff Valenti about Max Evans, but he was coming up against Jim Valenti Jnr’s hostility towards him. He continued flipping his photographs of murder victims down in front of the sheriff one after another for increased emphasis.

“Thanks for hearing me out, Jimmy. This guy's been leaving carnage all over the southwest for the past 40 years. No reason to believe he's about to stop. Handprints are the only trail he leaves. It only lasts for a day or so, and then it disappears, so I'm always around with a camera.”

“Where'd you get these? “ The pictures were disturbing, but Jim still couldn’t quite get past his sense that Hubble had his own agenda in showing him the victims.

“I know you've been investigating, but you're a weekend enthusiast. It's been full-time for me. One of them's my own work. The girl... “

“Who is she?”

“It's not important. The others I procured. Like I said, I have connections.”

Hubble’s reaction to his question was too quick, his expression suddenly raw. Clearly the picture of the woman had special significance for him.

“Who are they?”

“The victims? They're just people. People with bad luck. In the wrong place at the wrong time. Jimmy...your father may have made a mistake that night....pulled the trigger on the wrong man...but he wasn't crazy. You already know that, don't you? You knew that when I showed up here. It was in your eyes. All your father wanted to do was to help this world out. And they hung him on a cross for it. This isn't just some happy-go-lucky alien we're lookin' at. This is a killer, Jimmy.

If you know something about it, it's our duty to team together now...do something. What about this kid? Max Evans. Does he have something to do with all this? “

Jim hesitated, not sure if he was doing the right thing confiding in Hubble at all. He decided in the end to hedge his bets with a view to investigating what they had discussed after Hubble left, particularly the picture of the young woman. There was something more going on here than Hubble was letting on, and he wanted to understand the full story and the destructive effect that it had had on his own family.

“Maybe.”

Perhaps with some hard facts he might be able to coax reality out of the mind of a lost old man, and find the answers to questions that had coloured his life for more years than he wanted to remember.



Inside the UFO centre, Michael approach Max, his expression frustrated. “Maxwell, you gotta show me the real guys. “

“The real guys?”

“I'm sick and tired of talking to all these frauds. I mean, you're on the inside. Where are the real guys? “

Max knew that Michael had viewed the Convention as a potential source of information about Nasado, but that he had been unsuccessful in finding anything that he deemed useful. In the main, this had relieved Max. If they were going to find out anything about Nasado, Max wasn’t sure that Michael was the best one to find it out first. He wasn’t completely sure that he could trust him to wait to tell the rest of them before heading out on his own and getting into god knows what sort of trouble in the bargain. Hooking him up with the ‘real guys’ was the last thing that he wanted to encourage.

He noticed Everett Hubble again, hanging around one of the exhibits. He couldn’t quite put his finger on his reasoning, but he was the one guy that he wanted Michael to stay away from the most.

“Michael, there are no real guys. It's a freak show.”

But Michael was quicker on the uptake than Max gave him credit, and had noticed the way his friend had turned to Hubble briefly.

“Who's that?”

Max replied a little too quickly, “Nobody.”

“Come on, Max, don't toy with me.” The subject was suddenly dropped when Michael noticed Larry. “Oh...there's the geek from the Crashdown that day.”

“I know. He's been hanging around. I'm sure he's just here for the convention.” That had not been Liz’s opinion, but Max chose not to share that information with Michael. He was too pumped up about Nasado without being given another excuse to over react about the possibly innocent arrival of Larry and Jen.

Ordinarily Max would have discussed the subject in depth with Liz, but with communications between them at the moment being strained, at best, he had been without that support. He missed her quiet, sensible ability to listen to his concerns, and her talent for clear thinking, and logical solutions. But for now he was on his own handling Michael, and had to make decisions based on his own instincts.

“I'm gonna go keep and eye on him, all right?”

Michael headed off, and Max was left looking at Hubble. Hubble made him uncomfortable, and he would have happily left him to his own devices, but Milton had tasked him with trying to persuade Hubble to take part in a discussion group, so he owed it to Milton to at least try.

“Excuse me, Mr. Hubble? About the...the final roundtable on this afternoon.……”


Despite Maria’s suggestion that she could have Larry barred from the Crashdown if he caused her a problem, Liz had been pleasantly surprised when he hadn’t returned. She concluded that he was frightened in case Maria attempted actually bodily harm on him again with some other food or kitchen implement. Instead, Jen had spent so much time there that she was virtually taking root.

In fact, Liz and Jen had unexpectedly sprung up a fledgling friendship, bonding over a problem that was universal to most women. Man issues.

“I love Larry. That's the problem. He proposed a year ago. We bought a van to drive to California to get married. It was only supposed to be a 2 week trip. And then we stopped in here for breakfast that day. And we've been on the road ever since.”

“No marriage license?” Liz asked sympathetically.

“You know how guys get hooked on things? So obsessed with something, they forget about you?”

“Yeah.” Like anonymous forth aliens and losing their ‘balance’.

Maria passed by them with drinks for another table, and snorted her agreement to Jen’s statement. “Like when they need to be a ‘stone wall’.”

Jen didn’t understand Maria’s comment, but Liz understood what she was saying about Michael.

“Larry's been chasing UFOs ever since that day. In the beginning I was kind of into it...but now I'm tired of adventure. I just want to settle down. I really want a normal guy.”

“I can understand that. “

“You got one, too, huh? A unique boyfriend?”

“Unique? Yeah, that's a good word for Max.”

“Max?” Liz looked up, doing a good impression of a rabbit caught in the headlights of an oncoming car.

“Ehh, yes, Max. His unique ability is for the on, then off, then on again relationship.” Except they hadn’t quite reach ‘on again’ yet. She deliver that little white lie with a small smile, and Jen seemed to take the comment at face value, not pursuing the subject of Max further.


Over at the UFO Centre, Michael had tailed Larry to the panel discussion group. Elsewhere in the room Serena and Cal had separately tailed Hubble to the same discussion group via the Sheriffs office. Both had witnessed Sheriff Valenti leave his office after the meeting obviously in a hurry.

Michael stood beside Max on the sidelines as various people came forward and recounted tales of alien encounters. Neither were really paying proper attention to the discussion. Max was still ruminating on his stalled relationship with Liz, whilst Michael was more interest in keeping an eye on Larry.

Cal was studying the body language of the two teenagers, and was surprised to find that it was Michael who was paying attention to the room, most specifically to Larry. Max just seemed to be day dreaming. Probably about the lovely Liz, Cal concluded annoyed and feeling like he was wasting his time being in this god-forsaken town at all.

However, Max, Michael and Serena all paid the same attention when Larry came forward to talk to the panel.

“Good afternoon, Lawrence. Do you mind if I call you Larry?”

“No, that would be great. First of all, Mr. Frakes, I just gotta say that...you know how some people say that Clapton is god, you know? But I say you. You are god. I mean, I got...I got goose bumps. “

“Thank you very much.”

“It's gotta be Frakes!”

Serena rolled her eyes heavenward. He was a Trekky, what were the odds?

“Ok, let's go to your encounter.”

Cal straightened up where he stood considering that this could almost be funny if it wasn’t so serious, particularly with Hubble in the room.

“Yeah, right. Ok. Um...it happened right here...right in Roswell, New Mexico. September 17th. I was in the Crashdown Cafe. Now, that's right across the street. So I'm sitting there. 2 guys come in.”

Michael looked to Max, hoping for some hint of what to do, but Max looked blankly back at him, leaving Michael, in Michael’s opinion, with no option other than to take control of the situation. Despite Max’s attempt to pull him back he began moving towards Larry.

From Serena’s point of view, watching Michael moving towards the small man with the big mouth, she was waiting for disaster to happen. She was annoyed with Michael because Max had clearly tried to rein him in and failed. The boy just had not idea about being subtle.

Cal perspective was quite the opposite. He had always liked the former General, considering him to be a man of action, and that trait seemed to still be with him as he put his hand on Larry’s shoulder producing a short burst of power. Cal was contrasting Michael’s action, to Max’s indecision, and as usual, found Max’s actions, or rather lack of action to be wanting.

“Boom! They start having an argument. Boom! A gun is pulled.”

Michael made it look like he had bumped into Larry by accident, and apologised to underline the point before walking away. “Sorry.”

“Oh...no, that's ok. So these 2 guys, they start to...ahh...they start to struggle, ok? Boom! A girl is shot. Boom! A seemingly normal teenage boy...now this teenage boy, Mr. Frakes, is someone who looks just like you and me. Boom! He goes up to the girl and puts his hand over her, uh, wound, and then, boom! She...uh...she's miraculously healed.”


“Ooh! Well, all I can say is, boom! What do you think? “

One of the panel members spoke as Larry began to frantically itch at his skin like he was a lunatic.

“I'm insulted by this ridiculous story. “

“Yeah, well, he is here. He is right here! Ok? Pal? He's right here. Right now! He's in the very audience!“ Larry’s frantic scratching and more frantic jumping about as he argued with the panel was undermining his creditability. Worst still he tried to grab the microphone from Jonathan Frakes.

“That's enough, monkey man!”

“Listen, cool it, Frakes!”

“Security?”

“You and me, Evans. Let's get him.”

Milton and Max moved forward, taking Larry by the arms and dragging him off the small stage.

“Hey, this is the guy right here! This is the guy! He's the one! He's the guy!”

“Well, he may not be the best convention co-ordinator, but I would hardly call him an alien.”

Cal turned away from the whole spectacle with annoyance clear on the face as he walked out. This whole thing was a farce. He had cave paintings to track down, there wasn’t anything useful to be seen at this chimps party.

“You're just like the rest of them, Frakes! There was a bullet...ah...the bullet disappeared! So where's the bullet? The bullet disappeared! It was never found! Where's the bullet? Ahhh...”

Larry was finally silenced as he was dragged out of the side door. But for Serena her anxiety levels were still climbing, particularly as she watched the speculative way that Hubble had been watching Max following Larry’s little dog and pony show.

She was however distracted by the ringing of her cell phone, which she rushed to answer hoping that it might be Cal returning her numerous calls.


Michael was allowing himself to enjoy being just a little bit smug about how successful his interference had been in making Larry look like an idiot. Max might not approve of him taking such direct action, but it had worked rather nicely. He was pulled away from his self-congratulations by the voice of Maria’s mother talking urgently into her phone. He stopped to pay attention because she sounded upset.

“You can't quit now. The Alien Takedown is in an hour!

Ernie, you have nothing to be afraid of. Raging Ray is a...puppy dog. Look, he's not really gonna do anything really rough. I realise you suffered a broken rib last year...fine, 2, I...did you not receive my gift basket?

Look, Ernie, if you don't do this, I'm broke. Ok? I'm out of business, ok? I...I have half my annual revenue tied up in this thing! Hello? Hello? Oh... “ She finished her call with a quiet whimper, as the person on the other end of the line had clearly hung up.

Michael was wondering whether he should go over to speak to her when Maria appear at her side, and took her arm, leading her away from him towards the exit and eventually over to the Crashdown. Outside they passed Larry and Edward Hubble talking.

Their tale of woe was recounted to Liz who listen sympathetically before serving them liquid therapy in the form of two chocolate milkshakes.

“Here you go. Drown your sorrows.”

“Oh, girls, girls, girls...if I'd known real life was gonna be this difficult I never would have signed up. “

Alex joined in the generally down beat mood. He was in the right frame of mind having just been dismissed by Isabel yet again.

“You guys look as good as I feel.”

“Root beer float?”

“No, uh...orange soda on the rocks.”

“Mmm, girl trouble. “

“Oh, it's that obvious? Great. Great. Hey, listen...let me ask you guys a question. As women, do you find that all men are obsessive? “

He received a chorus of “Yes. Absolutely. No question.” From all the women present.

“They find something... “

“Usually something completely inane and useless.”

“Oh, like football.” Liz chipped in, thinking back to her experiences with Kyle.

They all chorused, “ Or UFOs.” Because this was, after all, Roswell.

“Oh, and then they just don't let it go! “

Alex realised that he had opened a can of worms with his seemly innocent question, and he was now faced with a pack of female hyenas circling!

“Until it consumes every waking minute of their day! Sorry. Couldn't help but deeply relate. “ a previously silent Jen joined in with her sisters.

“Yeah, but then they use it as an excuse.”

“Oh, whenever it's convenient for them...”

“To just completely ignore you.”

“Yeah, and it's so clear why they're doing it.”

“Oh, yeah. It's an avoidance thing. “

Alex was beginning to regret ever having asked this question, but the women were now on a roll.

“They hide behind their obsession! “

“Because what they really are is afraid.”

“Deathly afraid.”

“Of commitment.” Liz put his glass of orange down in front of him with enough force to slosh some of the drink out of the glass.

“Ok. I got it. Crystal clear. But...what if, uh, there's a guy whose obsession is a woman? “

“Oh! “

“Oh, yeah, right. “

“Dream on.”

Oestrogen on parade, Alex thought as he threw his hands up in submission, but he was thinking that he knew at least two men who fitted that description. Alex Charles Whitman, and Max Evans.

Milton came rushing in and up to the group looking for Amy.

“Amy! Where are you? The match is almost over!”

“What? Ernie showed up?”

Maria, Amy and Milton left the Crashdown in a hurry to return to the UFO Centre. Their headlong rush came to an abrupt halt by the wrestling ring as a triumphant Raging Ray was leaving. Lying behind him was the prone body of someone wearing the alienator uniform. They were still apparently alive, as their chest was moving up and down with panting breathes, but worryingly, they were not trying to get up.

“Hey, yo. You better call an ambulance, huh? Bang! Ha ha ha ha! “

Amy and Maria climbed into the ring and knelt down by the fallen wrestler. Amy was expecting the worst and hoping that her insurance would cover her if he decided to sue.

“Ernie! Oh, my God! Are you ok?”


And I wish that I could be
Another better part of me
Can’t hear what your thinking
Maybe if I just let go
You’d open up your heart


The person on the floor pulled off their mask to reveal Michael, rather sweaty, but apparently okay and, interestingly, with his hairstyle remarkable undisturbed.


But I can’t read you
I wish I knew what’s going through your mind



“I'm just resting.”

“Oh, you dear, dear, boy! Oh!” Amy embraced him enthusiastically before rushing off.


Can’t touch you, your heart defending I get left behind
I can’t reach you



He struggled to sit up, and Maria sat down beside him at the same time. Michael realised at that moment that he was trouble. She was smiling at him in a way that made her look luminous. Her hazel green eyes were warm, soft and oceans deep and her lips were lusciously, pouting and slightly open….


I wish I knew what’s going through your mind
Can’t touch you, your heart protecting I get left behind
No no no no no
No no no no no



Michael scrambled to gain back some ground. “It was easy money.”

She started to pull his head towards her, and for Michael everything began to go into slow-motion. When their lips meet, everything went in to fast forward and as her lips began to make soft sipping motions against his, he responded.



I like you so much I’m acting stupid
I can’t play the game I’m all intense and alive



Michael’s mind tried to scrabble for control again, using his ‘mud’ method. I’m thinking of mud. Mud cake…mud pie….mud fight…..Maria in a mud fight…Maria foxy boxing….whoa! Down boy. Eventually he jerked his head away from her, and said out loud, “Mud.

“What?”

“I’m thinking of mud.”


I’m losing control of my heart
I’m not supposed to be this nervous
I should play my hand all cool and calm



Maria looked like he had just thrown a bucket of water over her head. She was wondering just how she had managed to let her self be sucker again. Once again Michael and his elusive inner sweet heart had managed to plunge from his status of considerate human, to alien schmuck, and get a perfect score of 10 for the effort. Way to go Michael for spoiling the mood and the moment.

“Why do I even bother.” Maria replied, vocalising her disappointment.

Silently both of them said together, ‘I’m such an idiot.’


I can’t breathe
I’m losing control of my heart


(Daniel Bedingfield – I Can’t Read You)



Max was rooting around in one of the back storerooms, once again brooding about Liz, when Hubble appeared beside him.

“Evans! Milton said you wanted to talk to me about something.”

“Yeah, um, Shatner's a no-show.”

“Oh, sorry to hear that.”

“What do I have to do to convince you to do this panel?”

“Well, son, your tenacity has won me over.”

“Really? “

“I'm no Captain Kirk, but I'll give it my best shot.”

“Great! Thank you.”

“There's only one problem. My slides are back home. I'd go get 'em, but, uh...I busted a hose on my way up. My truck's down at the garage waiting for the part. Thing's so old that, uh, I think they had to order it from Singapore.”

“Then I'll drive you. “

“That's what I thought you'd say. We could talk on the way over...answer your questions.”

Max left the UFO Centre with Hubble and they came out into the street together. Out of habit, he cast a quick look across the road to the Crashdown and was rewarded with Liz looking back at him as she cleared some of the outside tables.

He waved a silent greeting to her, ridiculously pleased just to be able to see her. She seemed to hesitate, then sent a warm smile and wave back before going back into the restaurant. But she couldn’t resist one quick look back over her shoulder to him even as she walked away.

Max understood how unsure she was feeling. He was no better. Neither of them knew how to act a round each other at the moment. But seeing they way she looked back even as she was walking away, left him feeling warm inside. She felt the same way he did, because it was the same for him, one last sight of her was never quite enough until the next time.

He was in a happier place as he climbed into his jeep with Hubble. And decided that he would finish this trip with Hubble as quickly as possible so that he could go over to the Crashdown and hang out before his curfew.

Pulling away from his parking space, the sound of the jeep engine drowned out Michael’s voice as he called out to him, and he drove away unaware that Michael had been trying to catch his attention.

Serena in a different context would have enjoyed the goofy smile on Max’s face from his small exchange with Liz, but in this moment when she was watching one of her charges drive away alone in a vehicle with an alien hunter she didn’t have time for sentimentality. She was running out of options fast and was facing an increasing number of enemies coming out of the woodwork without extra support.

She knew Michael was on the same page as she was from his aggressive interrogation of Larry, and she needed to ensure that the impulsive young General didn’t gallop into a dangerous situation. She knew where Hubble was taking Max, and she knew how to get there before them, and anything after that she was just going to have to make up as she went along.



Approximately 45 minutes later, Serena was moving silent around the dusty interior of the long abandoned Peppers café, remembering back to time when it had been a quiet road side diner, rather than an abandoned wreck. This place was where the events that had set her on the path of her current life had occurred, and the memories of that night still remained painfully focused in her mind.

She walked a path across the cracked linoleum floor, from the window, to the counter and then back again, waiting for the arrival of headlights in the parking lot as the sun slid lower in the sky swallowing the desert landscape in twilight. She knew that she could not be more than 10 minutes a head of the Jeep. That precious time had only be gained by pushing her car to its limits, and by taking several short cuts to reach the diner.

From her first sighting of Everett Hubble at the UFO Centre, she had known that he would lead them all back to this remote place. She considered how much he had changed, and how the past decades had not been kind to him. His life’s tragedies were etched on his aged face, written in the history of a life taken over by the pursuit of an intangible enemy.

She still found it ironic that what had been an ending of a life for him, had be the beginning of a new life for her and that there was a certain sense of symmetry to the whole thing. Serena believed in destiny, but it was a cruel screwed up fate that Hubble had been given.

Making this journey together, completing this meeting would bring them back full circle through the years. Back to the seen of a crime. Back to the scene of their crime. Back to the source of a now old man’s sorrow and the potential birth of his revenge. But it was her purpose to protect the young King and his group to the best of her limited abilities, and this duty would deny him of any revenge. Regrettably this responsibility would pull Humble back into alien chaos that he had so diligently chased and missed over the last 30 years, because if he had not missed Nasado he would surely have been dead long ago.

Emotion rose within her, remorse and empathy with the pain of loss that Hubble still suffered because his family had been in the wrong place at the wrong time. She understood the agony of the loss of a child through bitter experience. It would have been easy to allow it all to swamp her, but she had to keep it in the background, and remain focused on her responsibilities.

Headlights briefly illuminated the window of otherwise dark building, and the distinctive noise of a Jeep’s engine interrupted the silence. Serena moved into position behind the filthy window, ready take the steps necessary to fulfil what had become her duty. Her role in the past had always been to remain in the background, protecting. Tonight might be the night that she had to come forward out of the shadows and reveal herself to protect her King.

Through out the journey, Max had continued to listen politely to Hubble as he talked, aware that the conversation seemed to be more of an inner monologue for the older man. He was unsure why Hubble had brought him here and why he had chosen to share this story with him, but there was something about Hubble’s manner which was beginning to worry Max, particularly his apparent belief that Max been at this road side diner before.

With reservations, he pulled the Jeep into the parking lot as Hubble requested, and they both stepped out of the vehicle. Hubble continued his monologue.

“She never did get my surprise. And I never did get hers. Not until I got a copy of the coroner's report. There it was in black ink. 3 months pregnant. A little girl, it said. She was carrying our child. Surprise.”

“I'm sorry.”

“And so am I. Four innocent people lost their lives starting that day. My wife, my baby...that drifter, and, uh...and me.

Dead man walking. That's what I felt all those years. Only thing kept me alive was you.“

“Me? But...but I don't know you. “

Max saw the flash of the metal in Hubble’s hand before he registered that he had just pulled a gun on him.

“I know you. “

“Whoa, mister, you are making a big mistake. “

“I know how you can change your face, your body...you're a shape-shifter because you're always running. You changed yourself into that drifter when you killed my Sheila trying to get our car. What were you running from then? Somebody else find out your little secret? “

“Sir, I know you're upset...but I did not kill your wife. I wouldn't kill anybody. “ Nasado, he thinks I’m Nasado.

“Valenti told me about the healing, about the handprint...just like on Sheila.” Oh Jesus, he knows about Liz. He experienced a flash of fear that Hubble might have some how hurt Liz, but realised as quickly that she had been safe inside the Crashdown when they drove away from Roswell, so as long as Hubble was here with him, he couldn’t possibly harm Liz.

“I am not him. Whoever you think I am, I swear I am not him.” Max tried to keep his body language non threatening, hoping that he might be able to reason with Hubble without having to resort to physical violence. If what he said was true, he had already lost his family because he had encountered an alien. Max wasn’t willing to take more from him if he could help it, but he wouldn’t let him harm Liz or his friends.

“I know who you really are, what you're capable of, and I won't let you kill again.”

“Hey! “ Both Max and Hubble turn to see Michael approaching from behind them. For Max it was an opportunity to try to disarm Hubble without harming him. He succeeded in knocking the gun from his hand, but ended up down in the dirt tussling with the older man to keep him away from the gun.

Behind the filthy glass of the café window Serena stiffened as Max hit the floor and grappled with Hubble. She began a well practised building of energy within her deceptively small body as she moved to the door of the building, ready to join the struggle. But the door was never opened as the arrival of an additional vehicle pulled into the parking lot made her stop, and blend back into the darkness within the building.

Despite Max’s youth, Hubble proved difficult to immobilise physically, and in desperation Max resorted to using his powers to push the gun out of his reach. Though Michael’s appearance had help to distract Hubble, Max’s concern was now divided between his own and Michael’s safety. The gun slide several feet away from them in the dust leaving a channel in the sand to mark its movement across the parking lot.

Hubble’s struggles suddenly increased as though witnessing Max’s alien heritage bolstered his determination. Max wanted to say to him, I’m an alien, but I’m not that alien, as though that might have helped the situation. To Hubble, faced with living with his grief and loss, one alien was as bad as another.

“I knew it was you, you bastard! “

Valenti’s timely arrival allowed Max to scramble to his feet.

“Drop the gun! Drop it! “

“It's him! “

“Drop it!”

”I just saw it! I was right! ” Hubble punctuated his statement by brandishing his gun at Max again.

”You saw what? ”

”His powers! Don't you see who he is? We have to stop him. ” Valenti looked briefly at Max wondering who to believe, noting Michael standing tensely off to the side.

”I don't know what he's talking about.” Max interjected, his voice strained. Wishing that he could retrace his steps and make that statement the truth. Knowing what Nasado had done to this man was making him sick to his stomach.

Serena tried to watch what was happening outside with as impartial an eye as possible. But she couldn’t manage that level of detachment. She was involved in the events that had brought this man to this place again.

Nasado’s attempt to steal two of the pods had made him ruthless enough to kill an innocent woman to try to secure her transport to make his escape even as Cal and Serena had managed to corner him at the diner.

The sharing of power with Cal, and a carefully constructed mind warp had taken care of the small number of witnesses to the fire fight that had gone down between Cal and Nasado. And Nasado’s “smash and grab” as Cal had termed it had been partially thwarted. But at what cost.

A husband widowed, one pod lost and another damaged, and the birth of Cal’s disillusionment with his duty. For her, it had been the beginning of her life of lying to a man who was effectively her commanding officer. And still Nasado had managed to escape.

The expression of grief on Cal’s face when she had presented him with her first of many lies haunted her to this day. Nasado’s betrayal had still been raw within her that day. His selfish pursuit of his own agenda flew in the face of everything that his rank as a Royal Protector represented. But with years to think back on the circumstances, the clues had been their if she had only thought to consider them carefully.

Even in the chaos that had ensued following the death of the Royal Four, the teams who were to travel to earth had been spirited away and well hidden from Khivar’s spies to progress the preparations. For Vilandra’s protector to have been murder whilst he was in hiding, with hindsight, now stank of a plot. And hadn’t it just been convenient that Nasado had been chosen to substitute for his now dead higher-ranking officer.

The crash was caused by the fluke failure of a system which was utilised in most of the vessels in the royal fleet and which had never caused an accident prior to their crash. The death of so many of their colleagues had made her question now how many had died in the crash and how many had been killed in the wreckage from which Nasado had walked away with remarkably few wounds, unlike Cal, herself, or the medical officer Tanic.

In fact, if it had not been for the untimely arrival of the army, would she also have been murdered while she lay unconscious. She had no proof that this had been the fate of some of her comrades, but she understood enough about Nasado’s ambitions through their life together to know that he was ruthless enough to go to extremes for his own benefit.

It had been Nasado’s betrayal of their mission and her trust which had caused the birth of her doubts about Cal’s own priorities regarding the care of the pods. Born into a society in which women were ‘protected’ by being expected to accept roles in society that made them proverbially walk behind their male counterparts meant that challenging the motives of male authority figures like Cal and Nasado was a foreign concept for Serena. But it was a position that she had found herself placed in as events unfolded after the crash.

Cal and Nasado had managed to evade the army and salvage some of the essential equipment, but she and Tanic had been captured and experimented on ruthlessly like they were lab rats. Tragically Tanic wounded and further weakened by the primitive explorations of the army medics had died, and it had been nearly a week before Cal and Nasado had managed to infiltrate the base to retrieve her and the pods.

She had worked with Tanic for many years as his medical technician, and he had been instrumental in her being selected for the mission in the first place. She had been the only female team member and the most junior in rank, so it had been ironic that she had ended up as the primary protector of the pods.

She had grieved for the loss of Tannic and his quiet manner, intelligence and wicked sense of humour for many years following the crash. Another waste of a life to be added to all of the others.

Nasado’s plan to retrieve only the pods and to leave the US Army to deal with Cal and Serena had only come to light through his actions on the day of her escape. But Serena had the self-satisfaction of watching his plans to trap Cal whilst he came to liberate her backfire. Resulting in the incarceration of her beloved husband thanks to some smart moves on Cal’s part. Cal had played Nasado at his own game and won. To her knowledge Nasado had remain in the base for several years until his eventual escape. He had remained at an elusive distance until that night in 1970 when Sheila Hubble was killed.

Even Cal as the only remaining team member who Serena should have been able to trust, had had his own agenda when it came to the pods. He did his job efficiently, and dealt with problems over the years with ingenuity, but his focus was always primarily on the protection of the Queen first, and the needs of the group second. His loyalty to the protection of his beloved Queen Avandra, who had perished amidst the bloodshed that followed the deaths of Zan, Rath and Vilandra, was absolute. He had held the protection of her rebirth in his hands and it had been a responsibility to which he devoted his every waking moment.

He was the Commanding Officer of the mission, and had been Zan’s personal bodyguard when he was alive, so Serena found this focus on only one member of the Royal Four unsettling. Born on the back of the betrayal of Nasado, the one person who she would have previously trusted with her life, she felt she had grounds to trust only herself with the protection of all the pods as a group. This had been the vision of the Queen Mother, Keva, and the primary directive for the development of the children. That they were to grow, train and develop as a group. Not be separated as Cal at one point had suggested, and certainly not for Avandra and Zan to be separated as Cal had specifically ordered before departing to pursue Nasado.

It had been just over a month before he returned, and by then Serena had decided to lie to a man who she had admired for a long time to protect the group from him. Events at the dusty little café that night had blown apart so many lives, and she was still lying to Cal even as she tried to draw him back to his duty when it had been her original lie which had ultimately driven him away.

That hadn’t even been an end to it. The drifter had died years later, destroying Sheriff Valenti’s career and sanity, and here she was again waiting to see what destruction Nasado’s past actions were about to create nearly 30 years later.

”Liar! ”

”Drop it, Hub. ”

”This son of a bitch is gonna die today, and nothing's gonna stop me, so go ahead! Unload every bullet in your chamber. ”

Valenti could have dismissed Hubble as a crazy man, but the resolve in his last out burst was enough to convince that he would kill Max Evans given the chance.

”It only takes one. ”

”Your father couldn't do it...and neither can you. ”

The loud report of Valenti revolver heralded the death of Hubble as he slumped to the ground, face down in the dirt.

Max looked down at the dead man, and then back up at Valenti as he lowered his gun. But the fear that he had been so filled with was suddenly replaced with fury. Fury at Nasado and the waste of so many lives, fury at his own situation and how powerless he felt, fury that all he wanted was to be normal and with Liz, but the craziness of his life denied him this one comfort.

Michael watch the emotions chase across his friend’s usually carefully controlled face, and tried desperately to think of a way to avoid the explosion that was about to occur. They were already too exposed in this situation. If Max was about to lose it, he didn’t want him to make Valenti even more suspicious.

”I didn't know this was gonna happen. I didn't know he was as dangerous as he was. ” Valenti said suddenly, there was genuine remorse in his voice, but this only infuriated Max more. He was sick of being so powerless.

”What did you tell him? Why did he come after me? You're the Sheriff. You're supposed to protect me. But all you've done is go after me! You believe all these crazy things. You're just like Hubble. You want me? Well, here I am! Take me. ”

Michael tried to physically restrain him, ”Max, come on, just relax. ”

”No, no! ” Max shoved Michael away. Michael, his brother, and another person who tried to control him, dictate his feelings to him….

”Son... ”

As suddenly as the fury came, it deflated with that one word. Son. And just who’s son was he. Nasado’s? The thought chilled Max to the bone.

”Would you treat your son this way? ” his voice cracked when he asked the question, a voice within him adding silently, would your father treat you this way.

”Get outta here. The both of you. You were never here. Go on! ”

Michael grabbed the golden opportunity he was presented with without hesitation. He needed to get Max out of here.

”Come on, let's go. The guy was crazy, Max, all right? He didn't know what he was talking about. ” When Max made no attempt to move, Michael physically took his arm and steered him towards the jeep.

He held his hand out for the keys, which Max surrender without comment, climbing into the passenger seat in response to Michael’s nudge towards the door.

Michael drove out of the parking lot, and out onto the highway back in the direction of Roswell, trying to divide his attention between the road and the stony profile of Max as he stared straight a head.

“Where’s everyone else?” Max asked suddenly, looking for reassurance that nothing worse had happened that evening.

“Liz and Maria are working. Isabel and Alex are hanging out at the Crashdown with them. They’re fine.”

Some of the tension seemed to drain out of Max, his rigid stance relaxing slightly as he sighed in relief.

”I don't think he was crazy, Michael. I think the one we've been looking for has killed people. A lot of people.

The handprint pictures that Valenti showed Liz. One of them could have been Hubble’s wife. He came after me because he thought I was Nasado.”

Michael was ready to defend Nasado, but he bit back on the words, deciding that Max had been through enough tonight with out having a further argument about the necessity of tracing Nasado.

“He knew about Liz, and the healing. I thought he might have got to her first.”

“It’s cool Max, they’re safe. Why don’t we head over to the Crashdown now and you can indulge in your favourite hobby of Liz Parker stalking whilst I have something to eat.”

Back at Pepper’s Café Serena has not lingered as Valenti radioed in the event. She didn’t need to see yet another person being loaded into a body bag to know that Nasado’s legacy of death was still continuing.


You're like a child with old eyes,
cynical and sensible, always full of surprises



She made the short walk to where she had hidden her car on shaky legs. Tears of pain and regret sliding slowly down her face. The energy that she had collected together in case she needed to fight to defend Max and Michael was now causing her pain as she fought to contain it within a body that was no longer capable of what she had asked it to do. She reached her car, which was parked beside a still, dark lake just as her control finally slipped.



you travel far and wide
looking for the feeling, lost inside you



With a silent scream, she pointed her hands at the water and released the energy within in as a suddenly beam of pure light, which caused the water rise in the air as a miniature explosive force impacted against it.

She dropped to her hands and knees in the sandy soil, suddenly to weak to stand, her breathing heavy as she tried to provide the oxygen that her over worked body needed to return itself to normal.


They don't understand you, no
until it's too late
with everything they've handed you
on a silver plate



Serena was exhausted physically and emotionally, frightened by just how close a call tonight had been. She gave in to the only emotional outlet that she had left, and broke down into heart breaking sobs.



Many hours later, after the scene of crime officers had finished collecting evidence, the body of Everett Hubble was collected and removed to the county morgue. It now lay on a mortuary slab within a black PVC body bag waiting for when the coroner would start work on it in the morning.

No members of staff where in the department at that time of night to disturb the silence of the darkened room. No one witnessed the spectacle of a light emanating from the body bag, or the zipper being undone from the inside to allow Everett Hubble, still sporting a bullet hole to sit right on the table.

But then of course this was not Everett Hubble, just someone wearing his face. The actual body of Everett Hubble lay in a refrigerator labelled John Doe – strangulation, and had been collected and taken to the morgue several hours before.


Are you hungry for a little more
than what you've had before?



Nasado, wearing the face of Everett Hubble, held his hand by his bullet wound, and concentrated until the bullet buried within his body appeared within his hands with a sickening plopping noise.

Tonight had not been quite as productive as he had hoped. His aim in taking the form of Everett Hubble and driving off with Max Evans had been to try to flush out either one or both of his protectors so that he could identify them and deal with them at a later date. But neither had been in evidence that night. Perhaps this might be easier than he thought. 30 years had pasted since he had last had contact with his former comrades, and a lot could have happen in that time to potentially leave the Royals without protection.


Are you hungry for a taste of life?
Whet your appetite, are you hungry?



He moved over to the refrigerator containing Hubble’s remains, and transferred the body to the slab and the body bag in which he had been lying without any evidence of physical stress despite the man’s dead weight.

The evening, however, had not been a total waste. He had at least managed to rid himself of Everett Hubble once and for all, and using him had allowed him to get close to Max. He had been pleased to see just how limited his abilities appeared to be. The boy King obvious had not been getting in contact with his inner alien, more evidence of the protectors absence.

He had some work still to do at the morgue to make sure that Hubble’s cause of death was accepted to be a gun shot wound at the hands of Sheriff Valenti. He was now happy to cut short his visit to Roswell New Mexico and bring forward his plans. It was time to collect Eva and bring her to meet her husband.


Back at Bitter Lake, Serena’s sobs had slowly subsided, and she had collected herself together enough to now be standing staring out over the lake, giving herself some time to get her emotions back under control before she made the journey home. Crying wasn’t going to help her to survive this situation, but it had at least helped her to even out her emotions. Being over emotional with the tenuous control that she now had over powers that had once come so naturally to her, was a risky proposition. It was peaceful at the lake, but she knew she was stalling returning to Roswell because that was where she had to pick up her responsibilities again, and it felt like she was carrying the weight of the world on her shoulders at the moment.


Now give me this mountainside
cool waters to lie beside
give me these two strong eyes
to see the difference between truth and lies



She squared her shoulder and forced herself to find her car keys in her bag. Bone weary she climbed back into her car and started the engine. The dusty little red Jetta kicked up a small spray of stones, as she turned it away from the peaceful blackness of the waters of Bitter Lake, and towards the direction of her journey back to Roswell.

Ah, give me this feeling when you kiss me baby
every day and every night
That's all I need, yes
Everything else gonna be all right

Are you hungry for a little more
than what you've had before?
Are you hungry for a taste of life?
Whet your appetite, are you hungry?

You're like a sight for sore eyes, lyrical and gentle
border lining sentimental
You're like a dream realised
so why do I keep falling back to sleep,
I'm so serious and deep.


(Kosheen – Hungry)

Posted: Sun Apr 02, 2006 8:56 pm
by Reamhar
My apologies for taking so long to come back with another part of this. It wasn’t my intention to keep you all hanging on, but I’ve had a sick toddler, a sick husband and then getting sick myself to deal with in my defence. :roll: The good news is that I’m about 75% done with writing the next two parts, so I should be quicker coming back with those, honest!

Tequathisy, Chemchic, Timelord31, Begonia9508 and Xmag, thanks for the feedback.

This part is were it starts to earn the Mature/adult rating, so you've been warned.





Starts at the end of the episode Blind Date.

Some dialogue used is from the episode Blind Date.


Part Four - Damage Control


Moonlight was the only illumination that interrupted the otherwise dark room as the light slanted in through a grimy window highlighting dust particles that moved slowly through the air before falling onto the shadowy contours of an unmade bed. Angry voices could be heard through the thin walls and closed door of the bedroom, but they were muted and seemed removed from the twilight shadows of the room. Thumping foot steps and the scraping back of a chair suddenly sounded as the voices became louder.

The dust dancing placidly in its moon lit spotlight suddenly whoosh away from the bedroom door as it opened, slammed inwards by the force of two bodies falling into the room marking the commencement of a tussle that had started on the other side of the door.


Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real



One of the two people fighting fell to the floor with bruising force before quickly curling up to provide protection from the rain of blows that came at them from above. Suddenly an angry voice was all too distinct in the formerly quiet room.

“You won’t speak to me like that again you worthless little shit. You’ll learn some respect!”

Hank’s voice was strained with the physical effort that he was investing in each blow that he delivered as Michael lay on the floor trying fruitlessly to protect himself.

Mirroring his physical attempts at protection, Michael drew himself inwards to a place were he felt none of this treatment so that neither the physical pain nor the emotional turmoil touched him. He didn’t feel anything because he wasn’t there. He was anywhere but there.


There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling



Hank aimed a vicious kick to the back of Michael’s thighs which was sure to bruise as nicely as his eye, but was disappointed by the lack of any response from Michael. Apart from a grunt of pain, he remained motionless on the floor.


I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in



He took several staggering steps away from Michael swaying drunkenly, and seemed satisfied that Michael’s silence was evidence of his acceptance of his punishment. He was confident that Michael understood that this treatment was his fault. Nothing to do with Hanks alcohol fuelled irrational temper or enjoyment of the bullying treatment that kept Michael “in his place” and left Hank with a fleeting feeling of empowerment.


(Without a sense of confidence I’m convinced that there’s just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure



He stagger back from the door, slamming it shut behind him to return to his beer and football game as the room once again descended into a silence filled with dark shadows and grey moonlight.

Michael stood up stiffly and reached under his bed for the bag that he always kept packed for this sort of eventuality. He shrugged on his jacket before crossing over to the window to climb through it with easy familiar movements as he slipped through his often-used escape route. He’d been using it since he was a small child, and had often wondered why Hank had never thought to seal it shut.


Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting



But Michael never realised that the reason that Hank hadn’t stopped his escape was because he always returned voluntarily to his cage. Michael walked off towards Roswell as fast as his bruised legs would allow, the same thought going through his mind like a soothing mantra. That this would be over soon, because Nasado was coming and he was going take this burden from his shoulders and they would all be together. Even if he hadn’t come tonight he was coming soon. He had to come soon.


Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem to find myself again



Right now he was heading for a 24-hour diner where he could lie low until the morning, and nothing else really mattered. Because right now was about getting from one day to the next.

Back in his bedroom, the room had once again returned to silence except for the muted commentary of a football game being played too loudly elsewhere in the trailer. The same moonlight, window and dark furniture was unaffected by the violent outburst that had so recently occurred. Even the dust still danced within the shaft of light as before, but instead of returning to it placid drifting, it was spinning and dancing in agitated movements, interrupted by the wind intruding through the wide open window. And in the room next door Hank was equally as unaffected, engrossed once again in his beer and sports.


My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence I’m convinced that there’s just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

(Crawling – Linkin Park)




Outside the Roswell Library the small patch of grass which Michael and Isabel had burned to make the alien symbol looked unblemished in the yellow light of the library sign. The grass was green, lush and slightly damp from the rain that had been falling intermittently that evening.

Footfalls sounded against the wet pavement, as someone made purposeful progress towards the outwardly unremarkable patch of grass. However, to alien eyes, the mark of the symbol was still outlined within the growing blades of grass. Because the grass had been damaged, and then repaired, the energy signature of the plants were ‘off’ enough for Cal to be able to read the symbol as a faint glow outlined against the undamaged plants.

He made a tsking noise and bent down to send a short bolt of energy into the ground, setting the grass once again on fire with the burning symbol.

“Tut tut, now just who would be careless enough to leave an alien symbol scorched into the grass of a public library.” He mutter dryly, knowing exactly who. The young General was his first guess. Watching him at the Convention had convinced Cal that Michael was being driven to take some foolish risks in his quest to find out about his alien roots, and he was vulnerable to Nasado’s manipulations as a result.

Cal had known General Rath fairly well when he was alive on Antar. Unlike many of the more aristocratic members of Zan’s court, Rath had had a more common touch, especially with his troops. He had had the ability to maintain the remoteness required by his rank, whilst being able to be ‘one of the boys’ when it was needed. This was quite a rare talent with in the rigidly adhered to social classes which existed on Antar. Even though he had come from a very prestigious family, he had been viewed to lack some of the niceties and polish of many of the important people in Zan’s court, because he tended to speak his mind and damn the consequences.

Rath and Zan had been friends since they were children, and Cal had always been of the opinion that Zan respected his second in command for this particularly ability, never mind his inspired leadership of the Antarian armies. The final fall of the Royal House had not been through any fault of the General or his troops. It was simply because they had been betrayed from within their own household that the Royal Four had fallen and with them an entire planet had come to its knees before Khivar.

Cal stood staring down at the ground moodily and allowed the grass to burn for several seconds, before extinguishing the flames. He then churned the remains so that a muddy patch completely hid what had been there before. It was the only way to hide the symbol from another alien, not that the Royal brats would have known that.

He was still trying to work out what game Nasado was playing with the Royal group. He had found the cave painting without difficulty. Far too easily in fact. The painting had been hidden within the cave in which they had originally stored the pods on the Indian Reservation before they had had to relocate them after the showdown with Nasado in Bitter Lake. Hardly an original or unique place to hide it.

But then the painting had not been on a unique subject. The marks had simply been a map of the star system surrounding Antar. And the symbol on the grass represented the name of one of the planets on that map, specifically the symbol for Maylor which was known fondly as the plant of wisdom within their system. Was Nasado perhaps mixing his metaphors by leading the Royals to put this particular symbol outside of a public library, or was he trying to say something else? And was the message for the royal brats, or for their protectors? Maylor was also the home planet of Eva. So was he perhaps trying to say something about her as an absentee from their little group?

Cal was growing tired of this game. He wanted Nasado out in the open, and dealt with so he could get on with his life. He was tiring of intrigues, and tiring of Serena’s constant reminders of his ‘duty’. But most of all he was tired of feeling so emotionally off balance. Being around the Royal group and particularly Zan seemed to be having this effect on his normally calm demeanour. They stirred up too many painful memories that he thought time had finally faded. Memories of her, and of how much she had meant to him lifetimes ago, and still meant to him even now. Cal wasn’t melancholy by nature, but he could feel how those emotions were colouring his actions and it was an exhausting weight to carry. He knew he needed all of his focus to be able to successfully hunt for Nasado and the smothering weight of his grief was distraction that he couldn’t afford.

He turned away from the now muddy patch of ground, and trudged off in the direction of his hotel. He had a million calls to make and a personal assistant to placate. Her usual nerves of steel were becoming just a little frazzled with fielding calls because of his prolonged and unexplained disappearance. He doubted that even she believed his cover story about being at a spa. The tabloids certainly didn’t seem to. It had amused him hugely to see a copy of the National Enquirer on a newstand that day speculating about his disappearance and claiming that they had a source that said he had found religion, and joined a cult.




The house seemed quiet when Max returned from the Blind Date concert. Given the way that he had apparently managed to humiliate himself and upset Liz without having any real memory of his actions, he was relieved that he might managed to slink into his room without having to deal with his parents or Isabel. He needed to get his head around what to do to fix this.

However, the sound of the television in the living room dashed his hopes.

Isabel called out, “Max?” and he sighed deeply. His sister had an almost infallible ability to suss out when he was hiding something, so he knew that his cards were marked. Max walked through to join her, trying his best to assume an air of normality.

Aiming for a casual, but brief conversation he asked, “What are you watching?”

“Judge Judy.”

“You actually recorded that.”

“Mom has it programmed into the Tivo.” Max’s expression of disgust clearly stated his views about the quality of her viewing habits.

“Don’t pull that face at me. This from the boy that watches the Simpsons like it’s a religion.”

She flicked a button on the remote, switching Judge Judy off in the middle of telling an unfortunate individual that he was a ‘moron’, and turned to give her full attention to Max as he shrugged out of his jacket. Max knew what was coming next, when Isabel cocked her head to one side and studied his face for several seconds. He was giving off vibes and her brother radar had picked up on them easily.

“So how did Liz’s arranged date go?”

Isabel knew that Max must have been out and about monitoring Liz. Where else would he have been in the circumstances. Her question hadn’t been meant unkindly, but she was interested in distracting him from asking where she had been that evening and given that he was wearing his ‘Liz face’ it seemed like too good of an opportunity to let pass. She didn’t want him to find out about her and Michael at the Library. Michael was fragile enough after Nasado failed to appear, and she was of the opinion that a lecture from Max about being impulsive would push him over the edge at the moment. She was frightened that Michael was pulling away from them, and didn’t want to give him more of an excuse to be remote because Max was pissy at him.

Her ruse worked, but when she saw Max’s face fall at her question, she felt guilty. He looked like a whipped puppy, and the thought that he really was a goner for Liz passed through her mind.

It would appear that Max was in need of some sisterly TLC. Isabel decided that she had time to be philanthropic to her brother. She hadn’t managed to help Michael, maybe in assisting Max she would be more successful.

She smiled sympathetically. “That good, huh?”

She assumed that his hangdog expression was because Liz had hit it off with her date. Though it seemed unlikely, since Liz’s list of wants in an ideal date had quite clearly been describing Max. There weren’t that many ‘dark haired mystery men from exotic locations’ in Roswell. Not unless you imported. Considering that Max was imported from another planet, he was going to be hard to beat in the exotic stakes.

She knew that they had discussed all of the good reasons for why they should remain remote from their human friends. She had even been instrumental in suggesting the need. However, she could now guiltily admit to herself that some part of her had felt threaten by Michael and Max’s affection for Maria and Liz. She was so used to having their undivided attention. But Michael seemed so off balance recently, perhaps Maria was what he needed to calm his inner demons. Max had been a goner since they had started school and he had first seen Liz in the playground, and being apart from Liz was making him unhappy. Perhaps they had made a mistake pulling away from their human roots, and towards the potential alien connection of Nasado.

In truth, despite Michael’s burning need to find Nasado, the idea of finding more about their alien ancestry frightened her. She loved their parents, and was wary of losing the life that she had now. But Michael was so desperately unhappy, how could she not help him to find what he thought he so desperately needed.

What about Alex? This flirtation that they had? She knew that she might protest to the contrary, but she found his attention more than just flattering to her ego. There was the potential for something bigger, if only she could find the courage to reach out for it. Isabel, however, found it easier to deal with her brother’s problems at the moment than her own, and she could see that Max was about to try to bolt.

She knew Max’s ability to brood about Liz Parker from past experience. He had become a virtual recluse for weeks when Liz started dating Kyle Valenti, even refusing to make his almost daily pilgrimage to the Crashdown. She guessed it had hurt too much to see them together. Some how, with repeated playing of his Counting Crows CDs, he had eventually pulled himself out of the funk and gone back to his usual Liz Parker stalking schedule.

But Liz could also have the opposite effect on Max. She remembered how withdrawn Max had been when they had first come to live with their parents. It had never seemed like home to him, but she had loved it from the start. To love and be loved by their parents had come naturally for Isabel. But it had taken much longer for Max’s reserve to melt, and it had taken his fascination for Liz Parker when they first started to school to teach him that maybe it was worth while to let people in, at least a little. With that lesson he had learned to make baby steps towards allowing their parents close to him. But she knew that even now he still held back something of himself from them, but for Liz he had opened himself wide and let her see all of his secrets from the start. Now circumstances had made him put his walls back up against her, and he seemed to be struggling to cope with the consequences.

“Max? What happened? Have you had a fight with Liz, or something?” An image of Max in a fistfight with Liz’s date flashed through her mind. She discounted it however. Max was unlikely to resort to physical violence over something like that. Or would he?

Max started to back out of the room, beating a hasty retreat. “I’m, eehh, good night.”

But Isabel wasn’t willing to just let go, and she followed him through to his room. She found him sitting on the edge of his bed, hunched over his knees with his head in his hands looking like the picture of dejection. She closed the door behind her and come into the room and sat on the bed beside him.

“Max, just tell me what happened.”




Liz stood silently contemplating her reflection in front of the mirror in her bathroom fresh from the shower. Her hair was lying loose and damp around her shoulders, slightly drying in places from were she had just brushed it out, and her party clothes and makeup had been replaced with pink heart patterned PJ bottoms and a white T-shirt top.

All the trappings of Maria carefully engineered ‘normal date’ had been removed and washed down the drain with the soap and water from her shower. But part of her was wishing she could wash away the memories of the evening. Or at least the bits of them that were stinging her poor heart like paper cuts.

To be fair, that actually wasn’t true. She would never have wanted to miss hearing Max telling her how he really felt about her with no walls or barriers between them. But the part where he told her he had no memory of those words, she definitely could cheerfully erase, along with the hollow feeling the she was now trying to shake off.

She touched her mouth gently and traced her bottom lip, remembering perfectly the feeling of his lips against hers. His kiss had been without any hesitancy, and motivated only by the perfect clarity of his purpose; to prove his feelings for her and to prove in that moment that he deserved to be the one that she picked out of the boyfriend line up. With every sweep of his lips against her own, she had felt in that moment how he believed he deserved to stand beside her and that he had the right to tell the world that they belonged together. Without conflict, doubt or guilt.

That Max, dream date Max, had only really been hers for those view precious moments. But he had been totally hers; physically, mentally and emotionally. She had returned every ounce of feeling that she had for him back to him in that kiss, and it had felt like she had been flying for a few precious second, freed from the complications of their life.

Inevitably, reality had returned with a bump, and Max had pulled away from her again. In fact he had virtually run away from her this time. And here she was standing contemplating the fallout of Maria’s well-meant gesture.

The conclusion? That ‘normal’ wasn’t something that she was interested in anymore. And that Max Evans was all that she was really interested in, full stop. There was no doubt in her mind that she was fixed on the path that they had started to walk down when they had kissed on her balcony what seemed like a lifetime ago. No more pretending, she wanted to be with Max.

She was pulled away from her thoughts by the ringing of the phone in her bedroom. She considered briefly letting it go unanswered, since it was probably Maria ready to give her another lecture about getting a grip. But for one happy moment she thought it just might be Max and she rushed through to her room to answer.




Back at the Evans household, Isabel was doing her patented outraged sister impersonation complete with disapproving scowl and hands on hips.

“You want me to do what?”

“Izzy please.” Max was as close to begging as he was ever willing to get with his sister. “I need you to phone Liz and check that she’s okay. Then go around there and check that everything is okay.”

“What do you mean, okay with Liz? Wouldn’t it be better for me to call Maria for that? Or for you to do it, for that matter.”

“Yes, I mean no. I think I might have used my powers over at her house.”

“I thought you said you couldn’t remember anything.” He wasn’t going to forget the hurt look on Liz’s face when he had left her for a long time. “I’ve been having sort of flash backs. I think I might have written something on Liz’s balcony wall, and I think Kyle was there….”

“Whilst Kyle was there. Max what were you thinking!”

“We already covered that. I wasn’t. I was drunk. Kyle was wasted as well, I don’t think he noticed.” Max snapped in replied, frustrated that she was reprimanding him again. “Look, I know I’ve screwed up. But I can’t go over to Liz’s myself just know, and I can’t risk leaving it until tomorrow in case someone notices.”

“Ok, ok. I phone Liz now. But you owe me.”

Isabel was mulling over quite how to clean up this mess as she dialled Liz’s number and listened to it ring several times to eventually be answered by Liz in person.

“Max?”

Isabel could clearly hear the eagerness in the breathy rush of her voice when she said her brother’s name. Isabel decided to put her out of her misery quickly.

“No, Liz, it’s Isabel. Max asked me to give you a call, just to make sure that there were no after effects of his little drunken trip to your house.”

“Oh.” There was disappointment, which was rapidly replaced by calm resolve, as Liz forced herself to think clearly about what needed to be done rather than why Max hadn’t called himself.
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“I’ve found a couple of things that are going to need changed back. Eh, is he okay.”

“He’s in his room brooding at the moment. He’s sorry, if that helps. He still doesn’t really remember what happened.”

“Yeah, that’s kind of the problem.” She had the most romantic evening of her life, and he didn’t remember a thing about it, including his declaration of undying love. To have Max so emotionally open to her had been wonderful, but being without it now just made things lonelier.

“He feeling pretty wretched actually.” Isabel offered almost apologetically. “Try not to be angry with him. He’ll beat himself up about it for you.”

“I’m not annoyed with him. I’m a lot of things, but not annoyed.” There was a pregnant pause between them for several seconds.

“Okay, maybe part of me is a bit annoyed, but I’m honestly okay Isabel, really. I’ll talk to him tomorrow, I suppose.” Isabel knew that Max’s second mistake of this evening was not phoning Liz himself.

“So what do you want me to do?” Apart from drag Max to the phone? Isabel added silently.

“Could you come over now? I know it’s late. Max wrote on the wall outside my bedroom window and my parents might see it. They think I’m getting ready for bed now so you can come in through the balcony and we’re unlikely to be disturbed.”

“It’s no problem Liz. I’ll be there in about 20 minutes.”

“Thanks Isabel.”

“Okay, bye.”

Max was hovering in the door, listening to Isabel’s half of the conversation. Isabel turned to look at him with a disapproving shake of her head and cuffed him on the shoulder.

“What?”

“You know what! You should have been the one to call her.”

Max looked down at his feet again. “I know, but I’m worried that I’ll upset her again. I can’t remember what happened. What if I say the wrong thing and upset her more?”

It was on the tip of Isabel’s tongue to tell him that he had already upset her more by making her be the messenger, but didn’t utter the words. Max looked wretched as it was.

“I’m going over there now to fix some stuff that you did. You need to sort yourself out and remember what happened tonight. If you can’t sort it out by yourself, then you need to speak to Liz. We need to work out if there’s any more damage control to be done to cover up your little drunken alien outing.”

She held her hand out for his jeep keys, and he dropped them into her outstretch palm with out comment.

She walked off towards the front door, with a pithy parting shot of, “You owe me big time, by the way, and don’t forget it.”



Liz was sitting cross legged in the centre of her bed looking pensive when Isabel tapped on her window to alert her to her arrival. Isabel knew that Max and Liz had the whole Romeo and Juliet thing going for them complete with the balcony set up, but she wasn’t the sort of girl that got anything out of scaling ladders to damp baloneys in the middle of the night, and her charitable motives for coming out here to help Max were wearing out rapidly.

Liz hopped off her bed and pulled the window open to admit Isabel into the warmth of her bedroom.

“My parents are still up, so we’ll have to be quiet.” Liz whispered finding it a little awkward having Isabel in her bedroom under these circumstances, not least because she knew that Isabel didn’t think that Max pursuing a relationship with Liz was a good idea. The blond and the brunette sized each other up for several seconds before Isabel broke the silence with a noisy sigh.

“So what has my idiot brother been up to tonight?”

“He changed a couple of things in here, but I don’t know about when he was with Kyle. I found them together in my room and then the radio crew turned. I got Max out and then it was the two of us before we went back to the concert. Then he left.”

Liz shivered slightly as she remembered Max playing with her fingers whilst she held him behind her as she tried to convince Kyle that he was a just a little more soft in the head than most whilst drunk. Or having to slap away his gently wandering hands as they had climbed down the ladder to escape into the street. Or the gentle, oddly sexy slur of his soft drunken voice when they talked in the street and he had promised her everything that her heart had desired.

“……when I'm not with you I go crazy……You're my dream girl, Liz……Then we live happily ever after…..”

“Liz, come on. Don’t zone out on me. Max is more than enough to deal with without you losing it too.”

Liz shook her head to clear it, and returned her attention to Isabel. “Look, I’m guessing that Kyle couldn’t remember much of anything when he was with Max, or that Max didn’t give anything away that was too incriminating or I’d have expected the sheriff to be all over us like a rash, so hopefully we’re safe enough.”

“I hope your right.”

Both girls jumped when there was a knock at Liz’s door. “Liz, honey. Are you ready for bed yet?”

“Yes Mom, I’m just getting dressed.”

“We’re making some hot chocolate. Would you like some?”

“Ehh, that would be great Mom, but I’ll come drink it with you when I’m dressed.”

“Okay honey.”

“Look I’ll need to go or they’re going to come in here. He changed the picture over there and he wrote on the wall outside the window. Can you fix them?” Liz started moving towards her closed bedroom door, but she paused before leaving the room. “And can you tell him that I’ll speak to him tomorrow, and thanks Isabel. I appreciate your help.”

“No problem.”

Isabel was left alone in the room as Liz closed her bedroom door behind. She moved over to were Liz had indicated a picture had been altered, and picked up the small framed photo to find that Max had added his face where Maria’s and Alex’s faces had been standing on either side of a smiling Liz in picture.

She linger over the picture for longer than was really necessary, taking the time to consider just what Max’s drunken mind had been trying to say by altering the image. It seemed pretty clear to her that her normally stoical brother was trying to show that he wanted to be everything to Liz. She carefully touched were Maria’s face had been, changing the image back and thinking “confidante”, and then her touch lingered over the image of Alex wearing Max’s face before changing it back and thinking “emotional support”.

She walked quietly over to the window and climbed out to stand and study the large red heart painted on the wall, thinking “lover” as she wiped her hand over the wall erasing the writing. She felt a small jolt of jealousy at the thought of Max and Liz drawing closer together, and of her brother giving his attention to Liz. And she knew in her heart of hearts that that jealousy was at least a small part of her reluctance to sanction Max’s desire to be with Liz, or Michael’s relationship with Maria. She was scared that she’d lose some of her brother’s previously undivided attention to Liz.

She shook her head in annoyance, trying not to dwell on the whole dysfunctional mess that they were in. Her last thought as she began her descent down the ladder was that she would make sure that Max paid for a manicure to fix her nails after this night nocturnal assault course. Sure she could have used her powers to fix her chipped French polish, but where was the fun in that. She jumped down to the ground and moved stealthily towards the parked jeep plotting how she was going to make Max squirm about tonight, but first she needed to pay Kyle a little visit in his dreams just to check what his recollection of that evening’s events had been.




Not so far away Maria was sitting in much the same position as Liz had been, freshly shower, dressed for bed and contemplating the train wreck that was her love life or lack of therein.

Michael’s hot and cold routine was getting old, but it occurred to her that Max in his own way was playing the same game with Liz. But with Max, he probably thought he had noble reasons for his mixed messages.

Poor Liz, she had had such high hopes for her to be able to see the possibilities of meeting someone else. Not that Liz would have admitted it, but there was maybe just a little bit of her that had been flattered by the attention of such a good looking guy. But who had she ended up with at the end of the night, Max. Ironic maybe, but not that unexpected. Her specifications for the perfect date had basically been a description of Max to a T, and she’s only got who she wished for. It was just a shame that prince charming had legged it at the end of the night pleading amnesia. She was pretty sure the brothers Grim would never have consider that as an ending to their fairy tale. She also had a pretty good idea that her Cinderella wasn’t going to let it lie with that ending either.

But the question still remained, just what was she, Maria, going to do with her frog because kissing him just seemed to turn him into an alien. Maria found herself smiling at her little joke, and decided to file the one liner for use in any later argument. Storing one-liners for use on Michael had become in habit for her’s of late. After all, the arguments seemed to be as close to fore-play as she and Michael got to at the moment, so she was at pains to ensure that she came out on top of any of their encounters.

She climbed into bed ready for sleep and decided, without sounding too Scarlett O’Hara, that tomorrow was another day on the alien merry-go-round. So who knew what might happen.




Liz’s dream started very much like her day dream from earlier that evening. She was dressed and ready to go out on her blind date and Max appeared at her window, his face expectant.

She shifted slightly in her sleep as her dream played out.


When you’re around me
I lose control
but then you leave
and I'm in hole



She joined him out on the balcony, asking him, “What are you doing here, Max?” with a soft smile, even though she was sure she could read the answer in his eyes. He was here for her. He’d finally come to his senses and come back.

He smoothed his hands down the side of her face with a stroking motion, and she shivered in reaction to his brief contact, her skin suddenly electrified.

“I couldn't just let you find another guy. I love you, Liz. I'll always love you.”

His hands tilted her face to side slightly, and then slide into her hair as his mouth descended slowly, but she pulled away from him gently, moving her own hands upwards to capture his as she moved backwards towards the window, pulling him through with her until they stood in the middle of her bedroom.

She dropped his hands and stepped away from him, and confusion was suddenly alive on his face as she seemed to be rejecting his proclamation of love. But she smiled softly, and her eyes warm with age old knowledge of female desire.


You speak to my heart
and leave a stain
of the beauteous words
that leave a pain



She moved her hands to her shoulders, slipping her fingers under the spaghetti straps of her dress, before sliding them off so that the dress puddled onto the floor at her feet.

“Show me.”




Back at home warm in her bed Isabel opened her eyes and blink several times to clear her mind of the remnants of her dream walk with Kyle. As Liz had suggested, Kyle didn’t appear to be lingering on anything that had happened with Max that evening. Instead he had been dreaming about being on the team that won the Super Bowl. He had then dreamt about being the man of the match and receiving some sort of undisclosed award for this honour from a scantily clad Pamela Anderson. When his dream had then shift to a beach scene were Pamela Anderson was dressed in her Baywatch costume and straddling, in a rather inappropriate manner, an apparently unconscious Kyle ready to give him mouth to mouth Isabel had terminated the dream walk in a hurry. There were certain parts of the teenage male’s mind that she just didn’t need to see in that much detail.

She was confident that if Kyle had heard or seen Max do anything alien related that evening, that his unconscious would have been going over the events in his dreams. Clearly that wasn’t the case.

For her own piece of mind, however, she decided to visit a view more people who would have been witnesses to Max’s drunken evening, just to be sure.

She settled back against her pillows, and touched her finger to the picture of the radio station crew that she had downloaded from the internet prior to going to bed, and let herself drift off into the mind of the KROZ DJ.


Next door Max was completely dead to the world and enjoying his own fantasy of how the evening with Liz should have been.

He twisted in his sheets, his skin flushed red and his unconscious body stirring in response to the eroticism of his imagination. He was dreaming that he was standing in the middle of Liz’s bedroom as her black dress slide off her body and fell to the floor as she said, “Show me.” in a sultry voice.


I'm lost in your love
but I'm scared to death
that if I blink
you'll be gone in a breath



Dreams were wonderful things, allowing him to imagine Liz being more forward that she would ever have been in reality, and allowing him to respond in a way that he would never have dared.

His dream self moved slowly towards Liz as she stood dressed only in her underwear making no attempt to cover herself from his hungry eyes, simply waiting for him to make the next move.

He made a slow circle around her, allowing his eyes to linger on her creamy skin and the rise and fall of the curves of her body, caressing her with his eyes as he linger on the rise of her breasts above the material of her bra as they moved with each fast breath she took in anticipation of his first contact with her bare skin.

But he deliberately made her wait for that contact, instead coming behind her and moving his hands up above her hair, were he used his powers to realise the mahogany strands from her carefully created hairstyle so that her hair fell softly around her shoulders as she would usually wear it loose at school.


Don't you know
We belong together
can't you see
You're the one I favour
Don't you know
we belong together
together, together...



He swept her hair away from one side of her neck with his hand, and dropped a soft kiss against the side of her neck, letting his lips linger against her skin wetly before kissing a soft trail down to her shoulder.

She responded with a soft groan, tipping her head to the side to give him better access to the warm skin of her neck and lifting her own hand up to the back of his head were she tangled her fingers into his hair, using the grip to hold his mouth against her neck as his lips wandered lower.

Max’s other hand slid around her stomach, caressing the skin of her hip, and pulling her back against him, so that he could mould her soft curves against the hard angles of his muscular aroused body.

His lips left the skin of her neck to come back to her mouth were they move hungrily against her lips, before plunging his tongue into her mouth with a smothered moan.

Liz tried to turn in his arms, wanting to move closer against him, but he held her facing away from him, releasing her mouth as she breathed out a needy “Max.” at his desertion of her lips which melted into a satisfied sigh as his lips once again returned to the skin of her neck. He took hungry nips of her creamy skin as his hands moved to the back-fasting of her bra. He allowed her to turn to face him as he successfully unclasped the garment and slide the straps down her arms as she began to busily work at the buttons of his shirt.


When I am scared
I think of your face
and I am taken
to a safe warm place
you light up my life
you keep me warm
you are the sun that
breaks the storm



Her bra fell with his jacket and shirt to the floor. Leaving them both naked from the waist up, as their mouths met again hungrily like they wanted to crawl inside each other. Liz’s arms were tightly around his neck and he kept one hand buried in her silky hair whilst the other slide down her elegant back to cup her bottom, curving around her buttocks and pulling her harder into his growing arousal. She responded by moving her hips against him with a grinding motion, and he groaned against her mouth, his body suddenly flooded with heat.

He moved away from her lips, as she attacked the skin of his throat with her tongue and teeth as his hand moved to cradle of the slight curve of her breast, his fingers moving to stroke her puckering nipple lovingly.

“I want you so much, love you so much Liz.”

Max’s eyes drifted shut when he felt her small hand move between their lower bodies to confidently cup and stroke his erections through the fabric of his jeans.

She cupped his face in her hands, and made him look down into her smouldering eyes.


Don't you know
We belong together
can't you see
You're the one I favour
Don't you know
we belong together
together, together...



“Forever Max, I’ve loved and burned for you forever.”

She slide her hands down his chest, back to the waist band of his trousers, as she slowly began to sink to her knees, and Max drew in a gasping breath, trying to keep control of his raging emotions as her hot hands slide lower, and her tongue began a teasing journey across the twitching muscles of his stomach.

“God Liz.”

JESUS, MAX…

Max jerked away from Liz at Isabel’s out raged out crying of his name. His eyes frantically swung towards to source of her voice which came from the open window of Liz’s room.

There stood Isabel, dressed for bed, and staring goggle-eyed at the sight of Liz semi naked and about to go down on her brother in his dreams.

In their separate bedrooms Max and Isabel sprang awake with angry cries of each other’s names. It was a close contest to decided which of them was the more grossed out, but Max was perhaps the more outraged. In the end he decided speak to Isabel in the morning about this particularly invasion of privacy as he headed towards their shared bathroom and the cold shower that he hoped would be the potential solution to his currently overheated body.


Listen to my voice
look in my eyes
before I lose control
and break out and cry!!
You are my life
my love and my dreams
don't run or I will
yell and scream!!



Liz snapped awake with a jerk, as though she had been physically ejected from her dreams of Max. She lay back down again, but kicked off her duvet, as it suddenly felt scratchy and uncomfortable against her over heated skin. She took a deep breath, and held it for several seconds in an effort to slow down her hammering heart.

Ever since they had kissed on her balcony so many weeks before, her dreams had been becoming increasing graphic in nature. She wasn’t willing to comply meekly with Max’s need for space anymore. Enough was enough. He needed to let her back in, and she wasn’t going to take no for an answer from him. He may have been drunk tonight, but he had been honest about his feelings for her. She knew that in her heart. She looked over to the glowing face of her alarm clock, counting quickly the number of hours that would pass before she could get a chance to speak to him in school.

She lifted her head up, and turned her pillow over so that she could lay her hot face against the cool side of the cushion whilst turning another onto its side so that she could curl her body around the soft surface. She squirmed around some more trying to get comfortable as her heart rate and body temperature slowly settled back to normal. It was going to be a slow night, but she had the promise of tomorrow to look forward to, and her new determination to hunt Max down and make him admit how he really felt.


Don't you know
We belong together
can't you see
You're the one I favour
Don't you know
we belong together
together, together...

(together.....)

(We Belong Together – Vanessa Carlton)

Posted: Fri Apr 14, 2006 6:20 pm
by Reamhar
Happy Easter, and here's part 5.

As ever thanks for the feedback, it’s very appreciated:-

Timelord31 – she was dream walking Max who was sharing a dream with Liz, but as far as Max is concerned Isabel gate crashed his private party!

begonia9508 - she had good intentions which went rather wrong.

tequathisy - a Michael intervention is going to happen soon, but not in this part. I'm afraid I've left him still out on his own for the moment.

cocopucks, RhondaAnn, kelly13 and mlover25 - glad you like it.




Set during the episode Independence Day and uses some dialogue from that episode.


Part Five – Reverberations


The beep-beeping of Serena’s cell phone alerted her to a new text message and she stopped unloading her dishwasher to read it. She held the phone in one hand and started again to methodically transfer clean plates from the machine to the kitchen counter whilst scanning through the message.

Maria looked up from the table where she was eating her breakfast when her mother’s laughter suddenly filled the room. She already knew who the text messages were from because of her mother’s girlish giggles and slightly flushed appearance; Sheriff Valenti. She put another spoonful of cornflakes into her mouth and chewed them whilst scowling disapproving at her mother’s back as more beeping was accompanied by more girlish laughter.

Serena knew without looking that Maria was straining hard to project her disgruntled daughter vibe straight between her shoulder blades. Jim Valenti, like most of the men that she had enjoyed a light flirtation with had tended to fail to reach Maria’s standards in one way or another. Even though she never spoke about her father, or asked about him, or even saw him there was still some small part of Maria that didn’t want his absence to be replaced with another man.

Serena was hardly in a position to tell her that it was never going to happen anyway. Alien status aside, she was already living more than one life and she didn’t have the energy to start lying to a significant other as well. Managing from one crisis to the next was just about as much as she could cope with at the moment. But she had been lucky for many years. She had managed to keep her family and the royals hidden and safe, and during that time lived a happy life her with daughter who was and always would be the light of her life.

Her relationship with Jim Valenti was the same as every other man that she had met since arriving on this planet. Meaningless, insubstantial and transient because she couldn’t let them be anything else.

Her original intention was that their flirtation was to be a means to an end to keep a closer eye on the Sheriff as he had been taking an interest in her charges since the shooting of Liz. But he had become a pleasant distraction from the solitary nature of her life.

As her phone beeped again, Serena heard Maria make a disapproving huffing noise behind her and she looked up from her phone and caught Maria’s eye. She met Maria’s disapproving expression head on. “What Maria?”

“Do you really have to do that now? You’re putting me off my cornflakes.”

“What is it that you disapprove of that I’m reading a text message, or who the text message is from?”

Maria seemed flustered to be called on her disapproval. “No, I mean, yes. Well both.”

Serena cocked an eyebrow at her daughter. “So which is it?”

“Ohh, I’m going to be late for school.” Maria flounced out of the room and stomped a path to the front door.

Serena signed despite herself. There was a part of her that wanted to be able to let Jim Valenti just a little closer, but that would present too high a risked of exposure. Her ability to hide had been the only thing that had kept them all alive to date. She looked down again at the cell phone, and deleted the text messages without replying to them, trying hard not to acknowledge the loneliness that she felt because if what she knew she had to do soon; finish with him.

She pottered around the kitchen for several minutes, collecting together breakfast plates and loading the dish washer moving through the tasks of her ‘normal’ life. She was still pondering where Nasado was and how he was going to try to identify her charges when she was distracted by the ringing of her cell phone on the table top. She leaned over the table to read the screen, still holding a small stack of plates in her hand. The caller I.D. was showing an LA area code. The plates went crashing to the floor as she snatched at the phone blinded by fury. He had jeopardised their duty and her own family, and still he continued to taunt her with his absence. All because his grief and virtually obsessive love eclipsed his need to protect a group that represented the final hope for an entire planet.

She snatched up the handset and immediately started shouting down the phone. “Cal, where the hell have you been? Do you pick up any of your messages ever? Or has the little blond bimbette of wannabe actress who I’m sure you call your secretary not managed to remember what I said after I put the phone down at the end of any of my multiple calls?

Maybe I should have emailed you. No wait, I remember. I did that as well! You have some nerve.”

There was a pregnant pause at the end of the phone, and Serena suddenly had the horrible feeling that she might have just chewed out an innocent telemarketer rather than her alien commanding officer.

“Ms De Luca?” Oh God, she knew that voice too well. It appeared that the blond bimbette had returned her calls.

“Yes.” She aimed for coolly detached rather than acutely embarrassment, but ended up with a nervous mumble.

“I’m calling on behalf of Mr Langley. I know that you’ve been very persistent recently with your efforts to track him down. I thought it best to contact you directly.”

“Oh yes?”

“I’m afraid that Mr Langley is still unavailable to return your calls.”

“Why aren’t I surprised? So, is that ‘unavailable’ on a desert island isolated from all the various methods of modern communication? Or is that ‘unavailable’ but actually around, and hiding behind your skirts so he doesn’t have to deal with me?”

“I beg your pardon?”

“And so you should. Look I know you’re just the messenger, but I don’t appreciate being given the run around yet again. Cal and I are, ehh, family and he should know better than to use his secretary to hide behind.”

“I assure you Ms Deluca that Mr Langley is doing no such thing. He has been away at a Spa for an extended break, and he is uncontactable as a result.”

Serena was rapidly losing patience with this woman who had a telephone voice that stopped just short enough of condescending to remain polite. But only just.

“So which Spa is he at?” She was more than willing to travel to the damn spa to speak to him in person if necessary.

“I’m not at liberty to divulge that information.”

“Right. But he calls in regularly? Yes?” She knew Cal was too much of a control freak to let go of his business interests completely.

“Of course.” Again she used that tone of voice that said she thought she was speaking to an idiot, and Serena bristled.

“So you are in fact in contact with him, so he is in fact contactable. So as his secretary you should be able to pass on all of my many and various messages and get him to reply to them accordingly.”

“Executive Assistant.” She replied, obviously miffed at the intended insult.

Serena reply was a dismissal borrowed directly from Maria, “Whatever. What’s your name?”

“Pardon?”

“Your name, I’m Amy, and you are….”

“Jane Harrison.”

“Okay Jane Harrison. You and I have already talked many times on the phone. We are going to be getting to know each other even better because, and make sure you tell your boss this, I am going to hunt his derelict from duty ass down if it takes the last breath in my body to do it. So I’d suggest, if you don’t want to be having these conversation several times a day from now on, that you make sure that he gets that message loud and clear.”

“I see. Well I will of course make sure that Mr Langley gets your message when he calls in.”

“You do that!”

“What was you’re name again?”

“Amy.”

“So, Amy, do I really have to mention what you said about his ‘ass’?”

Serena had the good grace to blush, but she maintained her hard ass attitude for the effect. “You’d better believe it.”

“Very well. Oh and by the way, Amy, I’m a brunette, not a blond. Good morning to you.”

Serena listen to the line go dead before closing her cell phone muttering the word, “Twinkie,” under her breath with irritation. There was a rustling noise behind her and she turned round to find Maria standing holding her book bag, obliviously eves dropping.

“Maria, I thought you had left for school.”

“I forgot something, who were you shouting at on the phone and who’s ‘Cal’?”

Serena improvised with an answer, but regretted the words even as they left her mouth. “I was trying to get through to your Uncle Cal. I have some business to sort out with him, and his secretary was being difficult.”

“I gathered that by the way you were shouting. Who is Uncle Cal?”

“Oh, you know, just an Uncle, you haven’t seen him since you were a baby.” Serena replied vaguely.

“Okay. But Mom, you’re an only child, remember and so is dad.” Maria replied with a suspicious frown.

“He’s a family friend.” Serena replied sounding a little more harassed about this interrogation than she meant. “I thought you were going to be late for school?”

A car honked outside, and Serena was relieved to be saved by the horn. “That will be Liz, you’d better get going.”

“Sure.”

“Bye honey.”

“Maybe you need to try to be nicer.”

“What?”

“With Uncle Cal’s secretary.” She mimed speech marks around the word uncle indicating that she wasn’t buying the explanation. “Sometimes you get further in life by using a little sugar rather than spice.”

“I’ll remember that.”

“So, ehh, should I make sure not to mention Uncle Cal around the Sheriff.”

Now the innuendo was clearer to Serena. Maria thought she was arguing with the secretary of a man who had blown her off. She didn’t know whether she needed to be insulted or annoyed at her daughter’s cheek.

“Just go to school Maria, I’ll see you tonight after work.”

Maria walked out of the door with a satisfied smile on her face convinced that she had won the original argument which had commenced over her bowl of cornflakes. Maybe sparring with Michael was actual having a positive effect by helping to hone her quarrelling skills.


Over at the Evan’s household, Max had made an effort to get up slightly earlier than usual to beat Isabel to the high ground of the kitchen table. His intention was to be ready to chew her out about her peeping tom act of the night before. But Isabel being Isabel had made sure that she was their before him despite his cunning plan. So when Max entered the kitchen ready for battle he was not impressed to find Isabel planted at the table sipping daintily on a cup of herbal tea whilst regarding him over the rim of her cup. Max helped himself to a cup of coffee from the percolator and sat down at the table conceding round one to Isabel.

A thick silence fell between them as they eye balled each other for several minutes over their beverages. Max actually thought that Isabel might be the one to break first when she stood up suddenly and moved over to the sink with her cup and began to rinse it out with exaggerated care.

He tried to press forward with what he thought was his advantage, “Isabel...”

“No Max. You don’t have to say anything.” Isabel replied quickly, cutting Max off before he got a chance to launch into the rant that she had heard him practising in front of the bathroom mirror that morning.

She picked up her mother’s car keys from the counter by the sink, ready to make a quick exit.

“You don’t have to say anything at all.” She paused for dramatic effect and blinked slowly and widened her eyes until she was doing a passable impression of Bambi. Max knew that look; it worked on their father every time, but not their mother. She was far less gullible.

“What happened last night was unfortunate. I saw much more of you and Liz than is healthy. However, you are after all a teenage boy with hormones and certain urges.” It occurred to Max that she was managing to make him sound like some sort of sex-a-holic or worst still a sex-pest whilst she assumed the role of shocked innocent to his sex pervert.

“But I’m alright and I forgive you.”

You forgive me?”

“Don’t sound so surprised. You’re my brother. I love you, and I forgive you.”

She pivoted on her heal and walked out of the room wearing a serene smile which lasted until she was outside where she burst into peals of delighted laughter on route to their mother’s car reliving the expression on Max’s face. She had won that argument easily, but all joking aside, dream walking Max was not something she was going to do again in a hurry.

Isabel’s spectacularly timed exit left Max behind with the thorough realisation that he had been completely bested by his sister, even though he had had the higher moral ground in their argument. He also knew that he had even bigger problems when he got to school. He had to face Liz and try to repair some of the damage that his drunken alter ego had instigated the previous evening, and no amount of rehearsed speeches was going to help him out with that conversation.


Moving through the hustle and bustle of humanity in the hall at school, Maria and Liz were enjoying an animated conversation as they made their way towards Maria’s locker.

“I don't even know how to explain it, Maria, but listen. Are you listening to me?”

“I'm listening.”

“When Max kissed me, it was like, I don't know. Ok, it was like I saw things, all right? I...I could like, feel the universe... “ Liz’s voice was breathlessly excited and far removed from her normal down to earth self.

“Ok, ok, stop!”

Liz grabbed Maria’s arm as she was trying to stop her talking, and pulled her over to the side by her locker. She looked around the hall checking to make sure that no one was listening, before adding in a low whisper. “And I’ve been having dreams.”

“What sort of dreams.”

Liz blushed slightly, before repeating with more emphasis, “Dreams.”

“Okay, so you are human after all.”

“What do you mean?”

Maria assumed a dreamy expression and said in whispery voice, “I’ve never felt like this…he’s so perfect…I could see the universe, bla, bla, bla…” Her voice resumed a more normal teasing tone, “And I’ve been sweating up the sheets at night dreaming about getting hot, down and dirty with him..”

“Maria!” Liz horrified, but laughing cry of Maria’s name was accompanied by another blush and a playful push of her friend’s shoulder.

“Oh God, I can’t believe I shared that with you, and you said that. I saw you and Michael “sweating up the Crashdown floor. Talk about the pot calling the kettle black!”

“Okay, okay, stop, stop, stop, stop! Point taken.”

“Alright. I have just the thing for you. Open your mouth.”

“What?”

“Just open your mouth, ok?” She turned on her puppy dog eyes.

“Ok, fine.” Liz capitulated willingly enough and stood patiently as Maria dropped a bitter tasting liquid onto her tongue. “Oh, that...that's really gross. What is it?”

“What is it? It's grief relief. Or as I like to call it ‘Alien Antidote’.”

“What?”

“I got it at my mother's shop. It's this herbal remedy that shocks the body back into reality when the mind's gone into overload. Veterinarians use it to calm wild animals.”

Liz wrinkled her noise up. It was hardly flattering to be compared to an out of control animal by your best friend. “Oh, well that...that's great.”

“Here, you can have this, and any time you feel yourself spiralling out of control, put 4 drops under your tongue, ok?” Maria noticed Max coming down the corridor towards them clearly heading in their direction.

“Ok.”

“Now would be a good time.” She replied with a pointed look in Max’s direction and a cheeky smile as she headed off down the corridor leaving Liz to greet Max at her locker.

Liz waited for Max to come across to her, but he was walking slower than usual and look just a little bit sheepish.

“Hey.” She tried to ignore the way her heart took a nervous flip as he stopped in front of her, and she fidgeted with the bottle of Grief Relief in her hand.

“Hi. What's that?”

She was disappointed that he hadn’t said her name. She loved the way it came out as a breathy question whenever he spoke it, but he seemed more interested in the bottle in her hand. Liz was too smart not to recognise a delaying tactic when she heard it. He wanted to talk about last night, but didn’t now how to start the conversation. She decided that the only way to get past their awkwardness was simply to jump in with two feet.

“Oh, um, it...it's nothing. You know, Max, the other night, when...when we kissed, I, um...” she stuttered despite her best intentions.

“Yeah.”

Max was cursing himself. Great reply Sherlock. It was at times like this that he envied Maria for her ability to simply say what was on her mind, even if it did occasionally head into verbal diarrhoea when she was over exited. What he really wanted to say was that he was sorry. That he had remember most of the evening and that he had meant every word he had said, and that he more than anything wanted for them to try to be together again because he missed her. Missed spending time with her, missed holding her, missed talking, missed touching… Max had a flash of his dream, and was mortified to feel himself flush red, particularly his ears.

He looked down at the floor to hide his embarrassment, and scratched his ear in a commonly used nervous gesture, trying hard to pull the words together to expression what he felt.

Liz smiled at him encouragingly. She could see clearly that he wanted to say something.

“Liz, I…”

“Hey. Something's up with Michael. He's acting weird.” Like an unwanted full stop in the middle of a sentence, Isabel inserted herself into their conversation.

Max had a brief flash back to last night as his sister barged in between him and Liz yet again. And of course, as if Isabel’s ‘interruptus’ wasn’t enough, the subject matter for her interruption just had to be Michael.

“Weirder than usual?” he was talking to Isabel, but maintained eye contact with Liz.

“Yeah, no, I just saw him at the other end of the hall, and he just went the other way.”

Max was now beginning to think that Isabel was not only being a pain for interrupting, but she was being even more of a nuisance because of the flimsy reason in the first place. Michael blanking people just because he didn’t want to deal with them was hardly unusual. He’d been doing it to Maria for weeks and Isabel hadn’t batted an eyelid, and now it was a problem?

Max tried his best to placate Isabel, hoping that she might drop the subject and move on. “Well, maybe he didn't see you.” His argument was reasonable enough, but Isabel wasn’t interested.

“No, he was ignoring me. He practically ran into the bathroom. Will you just go in there and see what's going on?” her tone was uncompromising making it clear that she wasn’t willing to take no for an answer.

“Right.”

His agreement was begrudgingly given, mostly because he was hoping that he could get in and out of the toilet with enough time to still speak to Liz without Isabel before the bell rang for first period. Michael would be in a bad mood, end of drama, bye Isabel and back to the awkward conversation with Liz.

“Thank you.”

Accept it wasn’t going to work out like that, because Isabel wasn’t the one leaving, it was Liz. He flashed an annoyed scowl at Isabel who rolled her eyes in reply and decided that he was going to have to talk to Liz at morning break.

“I'll see you later. Sorry.”

Liz smiled at him reassuringly. “It's ok.”

They parted company, and Max headed off through the door of the boys’ toilet to be greeted with the mixed up smells of stale cigarette smoke and bleach.

Michael was standing and the far end of the room in profile to Max, and did not turn around as his friend entered the room.

“Hey, Michael. You all right?”

“Yeah, I'm fine.” He replied without turning around to face Max which was odd, and there was something about the tension in the way that he was holding himself which just wasn’t right. Max took several seconds to consider Michael and decided that Isabel was right, something more was going on.

“Cause, uh, Isabel thought...”

“Can't a guy get some privacy?” Max watched him virtually run into one of the toilet cubicles.

In general Michael wasn’t one for holding back to tell you if you were getting in his face. He’d simply say it. For him to run into a toilet cubicle to avoid someone was just wrong, and was he limping?

“I'll wait.”

“Max, just get out of here.”

“You can't stay in there all day.”

“Max, I'm serious. Just leave me alone. I'll be out in a second.”

Michael was now regretting his decision to come to school at all. It represented a dry, free place that he could pass the time when Hank was on a rampage, but he had known he would be in trouble if he met any of the group. His failed attempts at covering up his black eye using his powers had only left him with a deeper feeling of uselessness. The last thing that he wanted was Max’s pity on top of everything else.

Max had absolutely no intention of leaving the room, but he had no problem lying to Michael to make him think that he would.

“Fine.” He pulled the bathroom door open as though he had left, and let it swing shut before waiting silently to see what would happen next. Almost immediately Michael came out and Max could see clearly that what Michael had been hiding was a painfully swollen black eye.

Max didn’t asked Michael any questions. He simply hustled him out of the bathroom and out to the jeep and they drove out into the desert to the outskirts of town parking up by some rail road tracks not far from a goods yard were Michael had often played illegally when they were children.

Max had to start the conversation, because Michael had remained shut down and silent through out the journey.

“How did it happen?”

“He was drunk.”

“Hank? Has it happened before?”

“Couple times. This was the worst, though. Never left a mark.” That was a lie, but he didn’t want his pity. The truth was that it happened often enough for it to be a regularly occurrence and he had left marks in the past, just not in places where it showed.

Michael tried to read Max’s expression to see if he believed him, but when he saw the pity on his face he was repulsed by it. Max wasn’t fooled at all.

“Michael... “

Michael responded to Max’s compassion with hostility. “Don't. I don't want you feeling sorry for me. I don't want anyone feeling sorry for me.” He’d had grown up as a welfare kid and had had a bellyful of charity as a result. He didn’t need anymore from Max.

Max backed off, because he knew that that was what Michael needed right now, so he tried to focus on practicalities. “Everyone's gonna ask.”

“Not if it's gone. Fix it. Please. I tried, but I... “

“And what about the next one?”

“There won't be a next one.”

“Michael, you don't have to protect him. He's not even your real father.”

“No kidding.”

Max reached out his hand and healed Michael eye easily.

“I don't want anyone else to know about this.”

“Michael, you can't just...”

“Maxwell, it's between you and me.”

Max really didn’t want to ask the question, and he was fairly sure that he knew the answer already. “Do you have any more injuries?”


Later that evening Maria and Liz were working together at the Crashdown. It had been a fairly slow evening, and they were standing talking together during a lull between orders. Liz was listening carefully to Maria who was on her favourite topic; how to avoid entanglement with aliens.

Liz’s earlier statement that she was going to pursue a relationship with Max had not been given an encouraging reception by Maria. Maria had in fact spent nearly 20 minutes discussing all the reason for why it was a bad idea. Despite Maria’s passionate speech about being worried about the consequences for her friend, Liz was sure that she was subconsciously, at least, worried about the consequences for herself.

“You and me, Liz. We've got to stick together. All right? Hold our ground. No matter how much they try to charm us, they are like a drug, and we have to just say no.”

“Maria, I try and stay away, but I...I can't help myself.” Liz looked over to the door as Max entered with Isabel and was happy to catch him scanning the room for her. They caught each other’s eye, and Liz melted when he sent her one of his lopsided grins as he made his way over to his usual booth.

Maria observed the exchange with a pout.

“He obviously feels the same way.”

“Ok. Do you remember that commercial? When the girl takes the pan and bashes up the kitchen? Ok. This is your brain on Max.” She made a violent swing motion with a pan in her hands to illustrate her point.

The call of “order’s up,” from the kitchen interrupted their conversation as Liz moved off to collect the plates and take them to the relevant table.

Maria looked over to where Isabel and Max sat. They were slightly huddled together and talking in hushed tones. It was a clear indication that some secret alien’s only discussion was underway. She reluctantly began to make her way over to the table for their order, but stopped when another made a move towards them. She considered herself to be lucky for small mercies because she really wasn’t in the mood to deal with the alien abyss tonight. Michael’s absence from their little group was a further bonus.

Max and Isabel continued their hushed conversation when the waitress left.

“Are you saying what I think you're saying?”

“Calm down, Isabel. I promised him I wouldn't tell anyone.”

“Then why did you tell me?”

Max wasn’t really sure why he was sharing this with his sister. The reason was at least in part because she would have hounded him until she dragged the answer out anyway. But he was also finding the knowledge difficult to deal with. Finding out that Hank was abusing Michael was bad enough, but to know that it had been going on for years and that they had never noticed was worse. He was overwhelmed with guilt and he didn’t know what to do with the knowledge now to make it better. Of the two of them Isabel was the “fixer”, and Max desperately wanted his sister to share his secret and help him find a solution.

“Cuz I'm worried about him and I don't know what to do.”

“Ok, Max, but you can't just tell me something like that and expect me to do nothing.”

“That not what I expect. I want us to do something about it for Michael. I just don’t know what to do.”

Michael passed Amy De Luca coming into the Crashdown with several cake boxes and he held the door open for her since her hands were full.

She greet him with typically a Amy styled sunny smile and kooky remark. “OOhh! My favourite little wrestler!”

Despite the bad impression that Michael had deliberately made for Amy at the recent UFO Convention Michael did actually like Maria’s mother. She had warmth about her that drew him to her and, despite her rather unconventional style of mothering, she had a close and loving relationship with Maria. As an outsider looking into that relationship Michael had been drawn to her warmth because of his lack of a loving parental bond.

But he replied to her in a typically off handed Michael manner with “Hey.” Before walking over to join Max and Isabel in their booth.



Liz had rejoined Maria at the counter when Amy came up to them to deposit her cake boxes.

“Hi, girls! I have pies.”

“Wow, that's a lot of pies!” Liz replied, picking up several of the boxes to take them into the kitchen.

“Yes! I have chocolate, banana, rhubarb, strawberry, and coconut.“

Sheriff Valenti came up behind Amy. “Did I hear someone say coconut? How'd you know that was my very favourite?”

Maria watched her mother immediately turn into a simpering grinning idiot as she chuckled, and smiled flirtatiously towards Jim Valenti.

With a disgruntled snort, Maria collected up the remaining boxes and walked away from the flirt feast to join Liz at the serving hatch where she was passing the boxes through to the chief. She dumped them down forcefully.

Liz could read her friend’s body language easily, and a quick look over her shoulder gave her the reason for Maria’s mood swing.

“Someone’s not happy.”

Maria flicked her hand at the boxes with a scowl as though it should answer her question. “Pies.”

“Ehh, well she certainly seems to have been busy.”

“Yes, exactly. She cooks the most when she is either stressed or in the throes of a new flirtation.”

“So your mother is…”

“Either stressed, or sexually frustrated, or both.”

“Ahh.” Liz patted Maria’s arm sympathetically and she felt Maria stiffen as she looked out across the restaurant towards Michael who was joining Max and Isabel.

“Oh great. First we’ve got Moon Doggie and the Ice Queen and here comes Space Cadet to complete the party.”

“Maria!”

“What!” Liz knew that Maria was still smarting from Michael’s treatment of her during the Convention, but that last remark was a bit below the belt, even given the circumstances. Maria looked grumpy, but vulnerable as she stared towards the small group.

“He’ll come around Maria.”

“Why does everyone keep telling me that. “ Maria huffed, “I don’t want him to come around, I don’t even want him to be around, but he keeps turning up like the pain in my ass that he is. He’s everywhere.”

“Shouldn’t that tell you something?”

“That I need to move to another town?”


Michael knew that there was something up with Max and Isabel the moment he sat down. They looked furtive and awkward, neither being able to look him in the eye. Max had blabbed Michael concluded with a flash of anger.

“You told her.” He stood up to leave, but Isabel caught his arm.

“Michael! What are you gonna do? Pretend it didn't happen? You have to do something.”

“Like what? “

“Tell someone. Report him.”

Her intensions were good, but they didn’t come from the same worlds when it came to family life.

“Yeah, who? Valenti? That'd be a smart idea, wouldn't it?”

“Max told me this has happened before.” And there it was again the same guilty pitying look that Max had been wearing since they left the toilets that morning. Michael turned to Max with an accusing glare, this conversation was exactly what he had been trying to avoid.

“Look, I'm sorry, but I had to tell her.”

“Look, everybody's got problems. If it wasn't this, it'd be another thing. I'm a big boy. I can handle it.”

“Maybe you could talk to my dad. He could help. He once told me about this...this case he had where he helped a minor get permission to live on his own.”

“Forget it, Iz. The last thing we need is for me to go to the courts and bring all this attention to us.”

“Well, if he hurts you again, Michael...”

“He won't.”

“You could use your powers.”

Of course for Isabel who came from a world were parents meant protection, love and support it was just that simple. For Michael it was much more complex. Using his powers to defend himself against Hank would endanger his only real family – Max and Isabel. He had had his opportunity to escape Hank years ago, but he had stayed to remain with them. He was willing sacrifice himself to Hank’s treatment to protect his family from attention because he knew in his heart of hearts that if he used his powers against Hank he wouldn’t be able to stop until he was dead. Then were would they be?

Michael reply was brutally honest, “I had to stop myself last night. I can't control my powers like you and Max. You guys know that. Especially in the state of mind I'm in. If I did anything, I'd probably kill him.”

Isabel looked more worried by his reply. “Well, all I know is you can't go back there. So stay with us. At least until Hank calms down.”

They both knew that she was clutching at straws, but he didn’t want her to be more worried than she already was so he reluctantly agreed to her temporary solution. “Fine, if it's gonna shut you up.”

He got up out of the booth and stalked off needing sometime alone to get his head straight before he went to the Evans’ home and played happy families for Isabel’s benefit.

Max watched Michael leave the restaurant feeling even more worried than before. He knew that Isabel’s offer of shelter was doomed to be a disaster. Michael was emotionally unstable at the moment and had been trying to explain that to Isabel but she hadn’t really listen to what he was saying seeing only her own need to protect him. Bringing him into a family environment which was exactly what he had been without all of his life was only going to underline his problems, not help them. It was a temporary fix, and they both knew it.

“How’re we going to explain this to mom and dad?”

“I'll think of something.”

“Are you sure this is a good idea?”

“Yeah. In fact, I think it would be good for Michael to be part of the family.” Max shook his head. Her intentions were good, but she just didn’t see the flaws in her plan, and the determined set of her shoulders signalled that she wasn’t willing to change her mind.



Sheriff’s hat in hand Maria was a bundle of nervous energy as she exchanged horrified looks with Liz as they both realised that they had come back to her house and interrupted her mother entertaining Sheriff Valenti. Maria raced over to the front door and slammed it loudly trying to alert her mother to their entrance.

“Mom! I'm home!”

Too loudly whispering voices and the sounds of people moving around hastily came from the living room until Serena eventually appeared mercifully fully clothed. She looked rumpled, but managed to project a welcoming smile.

“Hi, girls! Uh...what are you doing home so early?”

“It's 10:30.”

“Oh, my God! I must have lost track of time. Uh, you want some pie?”

Maria looked at her like she had just offered them arsenic. “No, no.”

“Liz?”

“Ahh, no, thank you, no.”

Maria grabbed Liz’s arm and began pulling her towards her bedroom. “Um. Uh, we...we're...we're gonna go in my room and study, and you should go to sleep, cuz you've got a really big day tomorrow.”

“I will.”

“Soon?”

“Very. “

“Alone?”

“Of course! I'll be right there.”

Sheriff Valenti chose that moment to join them in the kitchen, looking just as ruffled as Serena and, to Maria’s horror, in the middle of zipping his fly.

Amy rushed to fill the awkward silence. “Uh, right after I say good night to the sheriff.”

“Evening, girls.”

“Hi, Sheriff.”

Amy made a fluster flapping motion with her hands in Valenti’s direction hustling him towards the door. At the same time Maria continued to drag Liz down the hall to her bedroom where she pulled her in through the door and proceeded to freak once the door was closed.

“Oh my God! Oh my God! They’re sleeping together.”

“Maria you don’t actually know that.”

“Liz, who are you Snow White or something? Hello! He was zipping up his fly when he came into the room.”

“Yeah okay, I really needed reminding of that mental picture, thanks for that Maria.”

Maria began pacing up and down in front of Liz. “You don’t think it isn’t burned into my brain? I think might need to sterilise my eyeballs or something.

I mean what is she thinking? The innuendo filled meetings and the flirting I can just about deal with, but a physical relationship. What is she thinking? She’s my mother.”

“Maria, I don’t think it’s compulsory for people to become celibate because they have children or turn 40!”

“Yeah right. You really think that you’re parents are still doing it, only child!”

“Maria, come on.” Liz was openly laughing at her now. Maria pouting back at her like a small child only amused her more.

“Okay, I know I’m being ridiculous right now, but God, how would you feel? And with Valenti too, as if we need him hanging around more than he already has been with the alien chaos.

That’s it! What if he’s hanging out with my mum because he wants to watch us?”

Liz considered what Maria was suggesting seriously, but discounted it. She had seen Valenti and Mrs De Luca flirting, and it had seemed genuine on both sides, but she could see Maria’s point regarding Valenti being closer to them.

“Maria, I think you’re being a bit unfair on your mom. She’s very attractive, and she’s been on her own for a long time. She might be lonely.”

Maria sat down on the end of her bed with her shoulders hunched looking the picture of dejection. “I suppose you’re right. ”

“You know I am. Look, I don’t think either of us is up to studying tonight. What you need to do is go and have a nice bath, put some smellies in it, light some candles and chill, okay?” Liz collected up her books and headed to the door.


“I’ll see you tomorrow. I’m just going to go home to bed. If I’m lucky I might catch my parents on the job!” She ducked out of the door laughing, dodging the pillow that Maria threw at her head on the way out.


Maria had taken Liz’s suggest about a relaxing bath on board, and had been calming down nicely until the thought of Kyle Valenti as a step brother popped into her head and ended her desire to wallow in the lavender scented water

She was sitting in her room combing out her hair when her mother knocked on her bedroom door. She hesitated in the door way for a moment, and Maria could tell from her embarrassed silence that one of her ‘mother/daughter’ talks was coming. She sat waiting for her to speak, fully expecting the worst – an engagement announcement, anything less would be a bonus.

“Maria. I need to ask you for some space. I can't feel like you're judging me all the time.”

Okay that she hadn’t been expecting. Her usual complaint was that she wasn’t around enough for them to spend time together. But between work, school, Michael and the alien soap opera, what chance did she have?

She tried her best to meet her mother half way and said carefully, “I'm just trying to look out for you, mom.”

“What are you so worried about?”

“I just don't want you to rush into anything.”

“Anything? Or Jim Valenti?”

Maria flushed slightly at Amy’s unintended double meaning, and rushed into an explanation of her reasons. It was difficult to explain whilst being unable to mention that he believed in aliens and suspect that Max might be an alien. And of course, he was a man at the end of the day.

“I don't trust him, okay, and I don't want him to use you. So...”

“What would he be using me for?”

Maria was beginning to think she might have to draw her mother a diagram. Instead she settled for rolling her eyes expressively. “Well, for the same thing all men want.”

For Serena the penny seemed to have dropped. “Right. Maria, there are like 3 single guys in all of Roswell and 2 of them live in the Desert Inn retirement community. Okay? Jim is a nice guy. He has a good job, he's responsible, and he's fun.”

“He's a cop. And you're a hippie.” Serena was finding this conversation twice as hard as she had anticipated.

“Well, opposites attract. I don't know.”

“The man's got a lot of baggage, mom. He's been married once.”

“Who hasn't been these days?” Married once or twice, that was. She added silently.

It occurred to Serena that her little girl was sounding far too knowledgeable on this subject, and it was obvious that her own history with men was colouring Maria’s own views. She supposed that Michael’s behaviour couldn’t exactly be helping her world view of men either.

But who was she to talk with an emotionally unavailable traitor as husband number one and an absentee dreamer as husband number two. Mario DeLuca who swore that he wanted to be a father to ‘their’ baby, but who bolted when the realities of family life and fidelity to one woman had become a burden after only a few years. When greener grass showed up with the bonus of an independently wealthy blonde with long legs, he had disappeared without a moment’s regret.

“No, but he's that type, you know? That guy, that tough guy who, like, can't open up, or admit he has emotions or, you know, admit that he needs you, you know? Those are the most dangerous of them all, I promise.”

Serena understood that she was concerned, but also that she was talking about her on situation. “Don't worry, honey. Michael will come around.”

“Mich...what?!? Michael, I was not...I didn't say one thing about Michael. Why do people keep saying that to me?”

“Sure you didn't.”

“I meant hypothetically.”

“Whatever, honey.”

“Just...just take it slow, all right? Once they get physical, you know, once they get what they want, they disappear.”

A frown crossed Serena’s face, and she stared down at Maria with a warning glare. “I hope you're not talking from experience.” Inwardly she was drawing up plans for rounding up a certain General and threatening his family jewels.

“Just yours.”

“Oh.” Serena was thinking that now was a good a time to finish this conversation before it became any more embarrassing.

“Mom.”

“Yes, honey?” She turned back to Maria as she was walking away.

“Have you been lonely? You, know, with it just really only being you and me long term, since Dad split.”

“Maria, I haven’t regretted one single minute of my life since you came into it. You make everything worth it. But grown up company, of my own age, I mean….” Okay that was a lie because she was old enough to be Jim’s mother in reality…

“Mom? You faded out there for a minute.”

“I’m sorry honey. I’m tired, a lot has been happening recently.”

Maria was instantly worried again. Her mother had suffered from periods of illness throughout her childhood. Generally marked by extreme fatigue. It had made Maria appreciate her mother more, because of all the responsibilities that she had shouldered since her father left. She realised that she was being selfish regarding Valenti.

“Look, Mom. If you want to see Jim, I’ll be okay about it. But if you’re going to tell me that Kyle Valenti is going to be my new brother, break it to me gently.”

“Oh Maria! Goodnight, honey.”

“Night. Oh Mom, don’t forget to buy some condoms! I could do without news about any Valenti rug-rats in the offing”

“Maria!”

Maria and Serena went their separate ways to finish getting ready for bed, neither of them realising that the drama for that evening was only just about to begin.

Posted: Tue May 02, 2006 7:44 pm
by Reamhar
RhondaAnn, Xmag, Sternbetrachter, Nibbles2, Tequathisy, Timelord31 and Begonia9508, thanks for the feedback.

I ment for this to be a longer part, but I'm reworking something that I wasn't happy with, so had to split it into two bits.


You’re going to have to work with me here and suspend your belief enough to allow for events in this part occurring at the same time as those in part 5. That is to say when Liz and Maria found Serena getting hot and heavy with Jim Valenti, Michael was at the Evan’s house having dinner and play board games. Also I’ve moved some of the events around to accommodate things happening in a shorter time frame.

Small angst warning for this part and part 7 which is coming shortly.

Takes place during the episode Independence Day, and uses dialogue from that episode. The chapter title is from the song by Nine Inch Nails of the same name.



Part Six – Some What Damaged


As predicted by both Max and Michael and denied to herself by Isabel, Michael’s sudden appearance into the Evan’s family life was rapidly turning into an awkward situation.

Dinner had been a disaster. Michael had been uncomfortably aware of just how out of place he felt sitting in the middle of the Evan’s domestic normality. Dinner in Michael’s home was never spent sitting around a table enjoying small talk and good table manners and he felt alienated to be faced with the situation. The easy way that Max and Phillip talked made Michael feel uneasy and jealous that it seemed to come so naturally to Max

Typically for Michael, the more vulnerable he felt, the pricklier his attitude became and an off hand remark made with reference to Hank’s “marketing related” absence had drawn disapproving looks from both of Max and Isabel’s perfect parents.

As the evening wore on, Michael knew that his churning emotions were becoming closer to the surface. He now found himself playing board games embroiled in more of the familial normality that Michael’s own life lacked. The contrast behind life within the walls of Hank’s grimy trailer and the white washed pristine-ness of the Evan’s expensive house had never been more marked, and it only served to rub salt into an ever widening wound. His life was shit, he knew it, but at least at Hank’s he only had to survive, being here just made him realise what he was missing.

Michael sat apparently calmly at the table playing Monopoly, but inwardly he was a screaming maelstrom of conflicting emotions.


So impressed with all you do
tried so hard to be like you
flew too high and burnt the wing
lost my faith in everything



“All right. As long as I'm back on Park Place, I think I'll buy a hotel.” Isabel presented the monopoly money to Phillip, the banker, with a triumphant flourish.

“Ho, oh, you're killing us here, Isabel.”

“She's ruthless. You gotta watch out for her.” Max’s voice was filled with exaggerated enthusiasm. He was acutely aware of Michael who was sitting silently on the other side of the table vibrating with pent up emotion. For the past 20 minutes Max had been trying to engineer a way to finish the game and get Michael off on his own.

“Man, oh, man!”

“Ok, let's regroup. Uh, it's Michael. Your turn.” Michael rolled the dice mechanically taking his turn in the game, and acting the part that he assumed was expected of him.

“Ok. Ah! Let's see. Atlantic Avenue with 4 houses. That's 975 you owe.”

“Ouch! Wow that’s, a lot.”

“How about I just catch you next time around?” He shuffled his small pile of money around, uncomfortable to be the centre of attention suddenly.

“You'll catch me on the next time around?” Phillip asked confused.

“That's a new rule.” Diane added amused, but not unkindly.

Max could sense trouble brewing, and tried to explain things to Michael to defuse the situation. “Michael, we...we usually pay on arrival.”

Isabel saw the look on Michael’s face, and her brother’s lame attempt to help out, and immediately jumped in to save Michael from himself, an action which she had carried out many times since they had found each other again.

“That's ok, I'll lend it to him.”

Phillip wasn’t a fool. He could see that there was something going on under Michael stoically passive expression. His children’s repeated attempts to direct the conversation away from Michael only strengthened his desire to get to the bottom of what was going on between the three teenagers. Isabel’s rushing need to protect Michael increased Phillip's curiosity. He knew that Michael was wound quite tight, and decided that maybe a little bit of a push might help to expose what was causing so much emotion in Michael.

“Oh, Isabel, no. No lending except from the bank. Uh, but he doesn't have any houses to mortgage, so...”

“Just rub it in, huh?” As if Phillip had pushed a detonate button, Michael exploded, suppressed resentment rushing to the surface.

“I...I'm not trying to rub it in, Michael.”

“What's the big deal? Why can't she just lend me money? It's a game.”

“Well, the deal is, in this house, we play by the rules.”

“Well, I don't want to play anymore.” Michael’s eyes said what was silently running through his head. To hell with you, to hell with Hank and to hell with pretending that he belonged in Max and Isabel’s perfect world. He was on his own, as ever. Michael got up from the table with an angry scrap of his chair and stalked out of the room even as Diane called out for him to come back to the table.


Lick around divine debris
taste the wealth of hate in me
shedding skin succumb defeat
this machine is obsolete



Isabel left the table in hot pursuit and caught up with him on the porch. She was concerned for Michael, but frustrated with his true to type behaviour.

“Michael. Michael!”

Michael stopped automatically despite his underlying desire to escape. He was half hoping that Isabel might have some solution, because God knows, he didn’t have the answers, and he wanted someone to throw him a life jacket. But her next words were a slap in the face.

“You didn't have to be so rude to my dad.” She was taking the side of her father, and Michael unfairly reacted violently.

“Rude? He was sticking it to me for no reason.”

“It was a game!”

His anger as quickly see-sawed to resignation. She was never going to be able to understand how his world worked, however much Isabel cared, she’d never be able to understand. He was once again flooded with feeling of loneliness despite being in the presence of a person who loved him dearly. He reacted in the only way he knew how to, he attacked again.

“He doesn't like me.”

“He doesn't know you.”

“I don't want him to know me.”

Max appeared silently on the porch, but chose to stand in the shadows and observe their conversation. Isabel was now losing her temper even as she tried to save Michael, and Michael was fighting against her attempts with all his strength.

Isabel tried again, softening her voice deliberately trying to appeal to Michael commonsense. “He could help you. You just have to speak up and tell him the truth.”

“And what, be a poster child for domestic abuse? It's not gonna happen.” Michael slapped her proverbial olive branch away, though he should have been reaching out for it. Too caught up in his own pain, he couldn’t see straight, the need to run from this conversation became more pressing.

“You have to do something, Michael. Please don't just pretend it didn't happen. Please.”

“See ya.” He walked away almost nonchalantly, despite the adrenaline rushing through him which was screaming for him to run.

Max watched Isabel’s shoulders hunch in defeat. She looked close to tears.

“He's not easy, Isabel. Never has been.”

Isabel jumped in reaction to her brother’s unannounced appearance, and snapped back at him defensively. “I know that.”

“You can't push him like that.”

“He was acting like a child.”

Like Michael, Isabel attacked in her disappointment, but Max let it past, understanding how upset she was to be unable to persuade Michael to help himself.

“Maybe. And maybe you need to stop treating him like one. You can't make up in one night for what he's never had in a lifetime.” Max moved a little closer, ready to offer Isabel a hug if she let her walls down enough to accept his contact.

But she didn’t try to move into his arms. Instead she looked up with tears in her eyes, and genuine fear. “I'm really scared for him, Max.”



Michael was wound too tight to be able to think straight as he covered the ground at a fast walk in no particular direction. Hank, the Evan’s and Nasado’s failure to appear outside the library where all mixed up in his head until he felt like he was ready to explode from it all. He wanted it to stop. For them all to stop pushing and pulling him in every direction.

“Keep it together, keep it together, keep it together…” he chanted to himself, trying to calm down his inner demons.


Made the choice to go away
drink the fountain of decay
tear a hole exquisite red
fuck the rest and stab it dead



He passed through the gates of the dilapidated trailer park without paying any attention to the dark SUV parked across the road, or the cigar smoking occupant who sat silently in the driver’s seat watching his progress as he headed to Hank’s trailer.

Michael stopped a short distance away from the trailer itself. The lights were on and the sounds of a football game boomed across the dusty trailer park. It was business as usual back at casa de Hank. It wasn’t much, but it was the only solid thing that Michael had to cling to at the moment. Without any other option, he turned resignedly and walked towards the closed door of the trailer.

He entered reluctantly, finding Hank where he had expected. Parked in front of the TV, beer in hand. Despite Michael’s absence of 24 hours, Hank didn’t even bother to look up at his foster child, more interested in the football game in front of him.

“Where the hell have you been?”

Michael ignored the question. It wasn’t as though Hank actually cared. Instead of bothering to reply, he walked past Hank and into his own room where he could at least be alone.



The whole mother daughter discussion had left Maria as far from sleep as possible, so she was wide awake listening to music and worrying when the phone began to ring. She hopped off her bed and hurried to answer it before it woke her mother. Given the late hour, she wouldn’t be happy about the interruption.

“Hello.”

“Maria, it’s Isabel.” Isabel was the last person that she expected to be calling her at this time of night.

“Hi, what’s up?”

“It’s Michael.”

Maria was instantly defensive. “Michael has absolutely nothing to do with me any more Isabel.”

Expecting a blast from the Ice Queen, Maria was surprise to hear a genuine note of pleading in Isabel’s voice. “Maria, please. He was at our house and had an argument with my dad then stormed out.”

“So he’s been meeting friends and pissing people off. Why would you call me?”

“He was really upset Maria, we’re trying to find him.”

Maria was silent for several seconds, mulling over this new bit of information and the strain that she could hear in Isabel’s voice. “You’re really worried about him aren’t you?”

“Yes, I’ve never seen him this out of control before.”

“Have you tried him at home.”

“We called, but the phone’s been disconnected or something.”

“He isn’t here Isabel, and I haven’t heard from him today. Have you tried going over to the trailer.”

“We’re going over their now, but I thought I’d try you first.”

“Oh.” Maria was surprised that Isabel would even think of her in this situation.

“Okay, so I’ll see you at school then.”

“Isabel, if you find him and he’s okay, can you call and let me know. I-eehh….I’d just like to know.…”

“I’ll do that, bye.” Maria hung up the phone and returned to her bed, her expression troubled.

In her own room, Serena waited patiently until the call between Maria and Isabel ended, and then carefully replaced the handset of her own phone into its base. She was never completely comfortable with eves dropping on her own daughter, but needs must in the circumstances. She couldn’t risk that any of them might unwittingly put themselves into the hands of Nasado without her finding out.

Serena moved quickly over to her wardrobe, and began pulling dark coloured clothing from the hangers, and dressed. If her charges where out and about trying to find Michael, then she needed to be around to watch them and ensure that they came to no harm, and if Michael wasn’t at home, then she had a good idea where he might have gone to brood.

Serena left the house stealthily through her bedroom window heading towards her car, and hoping that Maria wouldn’t notice that the Jetta was missing. She let the little red car coast out of the driveway and onto the road before starting the engine. Her choice of destination was based purely on a hunch since it was all that she had to work on.

Serena trusted her instincts as they had guided her well so many times before, but she still found it oddly ironic that she found herself in this situation. She was a medic protecting the royal group, without any of the skills of the original protectors, and without the tools to track her charges since the orbs had been lost since the crash. Not that the orbs really matter in her case since she could not use them anyway. They were designed to be used by the protectors only, to ensure that an enemy could not track the group should they fall into the wrong hands. But Michael’s orb handled by a protector tonight would have told her exactly where he was and his physical and mental state as well, designed as they were to keep the protectors aware of the physical well being of their charges. If Michael, as she speculated, was in emotional distress tonight, it would have been enough to set off his orb. However, as things were, she was on her own and would have to rely on her own knowledge of Michael’s habits to find him.



Cal, parked at a discrete distance from Hank’s trailer, stubbed out his third cigar of the evening, and returned to observing the comings and going in the rusty mobile home. He had to admit that he was very surprised in Serena’s choice to leave Michael in his foster home. As a home, it seemed to be barely adequate for any child. Cal had been following Michael quite closely for several days now, working on a hunch that he was the most likely of the royal teenagers that Nasado might try to approach. On his own, and without close human family ties, the young general seemed to be eager to connect with his alien roots. That would be the vulnerability Nasado would use to gain access to the group. So far he hadn’t seen any signs of an approach, but he was becoming more concerned about the safety of Michael’s home environment.

He’d been too late to intervene in the last confrontation between Michael and Hank. Disgusted as he was with Hanks treatment of Michael, he had opted to ensure that Michael made it to somewhere safe that night when he left the trailer through his bedroom window. His assumption that Michael would try to find shelter with Isabel and Max had proved wrong, and Cal had come to a sickening understanding that Michael’s solution to his foster father’s treatment was to keep the problem to himself. If he had successfully kept this from his closest friends, Cal guessed the Serena might have also been unaware of the young general’s problems.

But then, maybe it wasn’t such a secret anymore, Cal speculated, as Max and Isabel arrived and hastily parked the jeep before entering the trailer unannounced, just as angry voice began shouting within the small mobile home.

Cal left his car and came closer to the windows, unhappy about the situation that all three were walking into. Hank seemed to spend much of his time steaming drunk. Given that he had been in this state cleaning a hunting rifle and hand pistol not long before Michael had returned, Cal was mindful of the existence of the weapons.

Looking through a small dirty window, he found that his instincts had been correct, and he was in time to catch Michael directing his powers towards his foster father who was brandishing a rifle. Michael’s powers were strong, but unfocused causing furniture to fly across the room and cupboard doors to slammed erratically, but failing to remove the rifle from Hank’s hands. Cal intervened automatically, and with a flick of his hand the rifle was turned away from the royals and pointed upwards where it discharged into the ceiling of the trailer harmlessly.

He melted into the shadows as all three teenagers left the trailer to return to the jeep and drive away from the trailer park in a hurry. Cal returned silently to his own dark car, and followed at a discrete distance.

Their head long rush from the trailer park ended in a cloud of dust when they parked up outside of town near some railway tracks. Cal opted to park up behind a warehouse building, but this meant that he was some distance away from the group of teenagers. Unable to hear what they were actually saying, his only option was to watch their body language.

From what he could see an argument was underway. Isabel and Max appeared to be trying to appease Michael, who seemed to be raging back at them in return.

Cal left his, car opting to move closer to the group on foot, and managed to get close enough to hear most of what was being said from his hiding place behind a dumpster.

“Max, I don't belong there. I don't belong here, I don't belong anywhere.”

“Michael, we understand why... “

“No, you don't. Isabel, you don't understand.”

“So you got a raw deal, no one's saying that you didn't. But, God, Michael, you finally have a chance to change it. Would it kill you to ask for help, just once in your life?"

“Yeah, you know what? It would.”

“Where are you going?”

“Doesn't matter.“

“Michael, wait.”

Just as Michael’s final words had dismissed them, his actions followed through on the sentiment as he once again walked away from his family. They didn’t understand, no one understood, and the one person on the planet who should have been able to understand hadn’t bothered to turn up for a meeting that he’d arranged.

Michael once again let his legs decided his direction as he trudged through the wet night heading towards the railway goods yard which at this time of night was as abandoned as he felt inside. He knew he needed to find somewhere to be alone before he exploded. In his misery he was oblivious to Cal tailing him silently on foot, and of Serena who was waiting for his arrival in the desolately lonely goods yard. In fact none of them knew that their paths were all about to cross.


Broken bruised forgotten sore
too fucked up to care anymore
poisoned to my rotten core
too fucked up to care anymore

(Somewhat Damaged - Nine Inch Nails)



Isabel had eventually allowed Max to leave their parking place and return home, but only after they had waited nearly 20 minutes for Michael to return to the jeep. The journey to the house had been completed in silence, with Isabel unwilling to discuss the situation further.

Max knew that his sister was desperately worried for Michael and bitterly disappointed that he was unwilling to let her help, but he also understood that Michael was unable to look on her offer of help as anything more than pity. Whilst he might not be able to truly understand everything that was going on inside Michael’s head or why, Max could at least appreciate Michael’s need for some space. By taking Isabel home rather than heading off in hot pursuit he hoped that he was at least helping Michael in some small part. It didn’t offer Max much comfort, but it was all he had at the moment.

When Max eventually fell asleep, Liz was once again waiting for him in their dreams. She was watching the stars through her telescope as his head appeared over the wall of her balcony.

She looked up her face breaking into a heart achingly lovely smile as he stepped off the ladder and moved to join her by the telescope.

When he didn’t immediately smile back, her face settled into a worried frown and she asked, “What happened?” whilst reaching out to hold his hand. Max responded with an unhappy sigh, pulling her warm body into his arms before letting the whole sad story about Michael and his problems with Hank come out in an upset rush of words.

By the time he had finished, they had moved into the warmth of Liz’s room, and she was sitting cross legged on her bed watching him pace up and down exercising his agitation.

“Are you ok?”

“Not really. I've just never seen him so upset. I have this weird feeling that...he's just gonna leave without even saying goodbye. I can't lose him.” He was close to tears again with his last words, and Liz once again held her hand out to him with a gentle smile of support.

He came over to the bed and took her hand and she pulled him down to sit beside her. He went willingly, cuddling her into his side with a heavy sigh and dropping a soft kiss against her shining hair. She put her arms around his neck and moved gracefully onto his lap as he pulled her tightly against his chest.

“He’ll come back, Max. He would never leave his family behind.”

“I hope your right.”

She pulled back from him slightly so that she could look him in the eyes again smiling lovingly.

“You know I’m right.”

“I let him down, Liz.”

Liz was silent for several seconds as she tried to find the right words. “Max you were children when this started. How were you to know about such things. There were adults who failed to see what was happening as well. Social workers, teachers, doctors. They’ve all missed the signs too. I don’t think Michael blames you, so you shouldn’t continue to blame yourself.”

“But his behaviour at times, for years, it seems so clear now.”

Liz put her finger to his lips to silence him. “Just be there to help him through. Be his family.”

Max tried hard to let Liz’s gentle words calm the anxiousness that he was feeling. Liz smiled gently again, stroking her fingers down the sides of his face trying to physically gentle the tortured pain that she saw in his tear dampened golden eyes.

She pressed a soft kiss to his first one eyelid, and then another before making a slow trail of butterfly kisses down his cheek until she touched his mouth. Their lips joined in a brief loving kiss. It wasn’t all consuming like the frustrated passion of their previous dreams, instead it offered the promise of comfort, love and the emotional communion that they both craved.

Max pulled away from her, and returned her earlier smile with one of his own.

“You look tired.” She said, tracing the dark circles under his eyes

“I’m exhausted, but that doesn’t matter. Nothing matters but this.” He buried his face into the warm skin of her neck and breathed in the scent of vanilla. He sighed again deeply and burrowed into her neck as her hands came up to stroke through the hair at the nape of his neck.

“Stay with me?”

“Always.” He lay down against her pillows, and Liz followed him down, stretching out to lay half across his chest and half by his side as he lay on his back enjoying the feeling of being able to hold her close.

Posted: Sat May 20, 2006 5:39 pm
by Reamhar
Thanks to Tequathisy and RhondaAnn for this beautifully beta corrected chapter. :D The vast improvements in my spelling, typos and sentence structure is completely down to them. :D

Thanks also to angeleyes, begonia9508, Timelord31, tequathisy, RhondaAnn, kittens and Xmag for the feedback. :D

Warning: this is going to get a bit angst filled and graphic relating to the unrest prior to the war on Antar. If you think that this might upset you, please skip this part.

Takes place during the episode Independence Day, and uses dialogue from that episode.



Part Seven – Learning to heal


Michael’s lonely trudge through the night did little to calm his inner demons. He was too full of emotion to be able to just walk it off, ignore it, or get pissed at the world to provide some relief. Hank’s worsening behaviour, Nasedo’s failure to come, Mr Evans’ censure, missing Maria, but not wanting to miss Maria, and worry about how much Hank would remember of tonight’s alien encounter, just added to the void in his confidence that whispered to him about how worthless he was, how unlovable, how alone. He knew that he was messed up in the head and emotional imbalance and alien powers generally didn’t go well together.


I cannot take this anymore
I’m saying everything I’ve said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you’ll say
You’ll find that out anyway
Just like before...



The further he trudged through the dark evening tailed by Cal, the more he tried to sort out his scattered thoughts. His life was shitty, he knew that, but Nasedo was supposed to fix it, save him, or just be there when no one had really been there for him in the past. But he had remained elusively remote.

Being at the Evans’, for Michael, was like staring in at a window of a world he would never know. Worse even, because he had enjoyed a brief flirtation with it when Hank and his wife Maggie had still been together. That was when Hank was going through his recovering alcoholic phase, rather than his more usual falling down drunk. Neither of them had been candidates for parent of the year, but he had enjoyed some stability for the briefest of time, but even that had gone to hell.

Since Maggie left, Hank had gone from ignoring Michael to criticising his every action or worse. For Michael, Maggie had been a source of emotional warmth. Not quite love, but there had been affection at times until she left.

Was that the reason for why he’d never spent time with Isabel and Max when their parents were around? Given how long he had been reunited with Isabel and Max, and how short a time he had been together with Maria, it was ironic that he had probably spent more time in the presence of Maria’s mother Amy. She just seemed to have a habit of always being around. Was he afraid to see what he would be missing, or afraid to be stripped of his belief that adults were the enemy? Then again, Amy had never seemed like much of an enemy.


Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
’cause I’m one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break



Michael felt as though his whole experience of being in the Evans’ company tonight had stripped him of yet another good memory, because now his fading image of Maggie as a parental figure who had at least cared if he lived or died, was tarnished compared to the relationship Isabel and Max enjoyed with their parents. It just seemed so pathetically lukewarm in comparison. Still, when she had been no longer able to cope with Hank’s return to drinking and increasingly heavy fists, she had wanted him to come with her when she left. Instead Michael had chosen to stay, because leaving with her would mean the loss of Max and Isabel. He supposed that at least someone had wanted him once.

The more mixed up he became the further he pushed his real family away. Michael was too caught up in his own confused pain and unfairly complicated life, and he couldn’t see Isabel and Max’s attempts to help him for what they were; expressions of love rather than pity or guilt.


Michael realised that his feet had led to him to one of his old haunts, or rather hiding places. A goods yard several miles outside of town. At this time of night it was completely unoccupied save for the rats, and illuminated by the few sodium orange security lights that had not been smashed over time. Certainly some had been victim to his own carefully aimed stones in the past. The hulking shapes of various railroad trucks showed up as shadows against the watery moonlight as it began to rain again. The one nearest to where he stood had been abandoned and unused for many years. Probably parked up and forgotten, then left to rust as the years passed. It was a sad metaphor for the way Michael felt, dumped on an alien planet with no explanations and no one who apparently cared.


I find the answers aren’t so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before...



Was this when he was supposed to cry? Was that what he was supposed to do to get some relief from the pressure inside? Or did he repeat what he had done so many times in the past after Hank’s treatment had left him feeling impotent and vulnerable, smash something, and vent his anger through violence?

He just wanted it all to stop because he is too conflicted to be able to cope. Rejection, worthlessness, and loneliness all crawled inside him demanding a voice. Taciturn by nature, Michael surprised himself when he his own voice echoed around the empty yard as he began to have a one side conversation with his absent ‘parent’.

Serena was sheltering under the overhanging roof of a metal building trying to keep out of the persistent drizzle. She’d picked her position carefully, because it gave her the best view across the railway tracks, but was well covered by shadows because of several broken security lights. It was a chilly, miserable night to be outside. She was dressed in an outfit which would have suited any cat burglar, but she wished that she had thought to put on layers for more warmth.

The sound of footsteps crunching across stones caught her attention, and she looked up to see Michael, hunched up, with eyes cast down to the ground marching towards her hiding space. She stepped back into the shadows and around the corner of the building, trying to stand as close to the wall as possible to make the most of the shadows. She was worried that he was going to walk right past her hiding place, and wouldn’t that be an interesting conversation, but Michael stopped a short distance away.


Cal, perhaps 15 or so metres behind Michael, was moving stealthily between the trucks trying to remain hidden. Michael seemed to be walking with no apparent direction in mind. Eventually Michael stopped half way between a single truck that was parked on its own on a dead end siding and some industrial buildings. Cal opted to conceal himself behind the single truck, wondering where Serena was tonight.

“Where are you when I need you? Why aren’t you here now helping me?” His words echoed eerily around the parked trucks and were met with mocking silence.

“Where were you when Hank decided I was his new punching bag?”

Michael turned in a small circle shouting his questions to the silent desert.

“Why do Max and Isabel have everything that I want, huh?”

“Why is Max everything that I want to be?”

“Why did the Evans find them in the desert and not me?”

“Why did you leave me there on my own, huh, answer me!”

“Damn you, I deserve an answer!” He was screaming now, and he could feel the pull of his power rising to the surface demanding an outlet as his rage increased.


Every thing you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break!
I need a little room to breathe
’cause I’m one step closer to the edge,
And I’m about to break



“How dare you leave me to cope with this shit on my own!”

“You won’t tell me why? I’ll tell you why! It’s because you never came to get me. You never came! You never come, and you never will!”

The build of power in his body was accompanied by increasing pain as the power tried to find an escape and was thwarted. Michael pressed his hands to his head and shut his eyes as angry tears trailed down his face.

“Come on kid, let it out. Just let it out.” Cal murmured anxiously as he sensed the build up of energy within Michael.

Serena watched Michael as he stood with hunched shoulders and tears trailing down his face, and she was horrified. His usually proud, kicking against the world spirit was so broken, and she was weighed down with guilt. She failed him by missing the signs of his building distress. She’d been working too hard trying to keep Michael away from Nasedo to see that the tantalising promise of Nasedo and salvation was breaking him up inside.

God, Hank. How had she missed that? When Michael wanted to stay with him, she’d assumed that he was actually happy with that brute. She had been delighted that it seemed that some sort of parental bond had formed, motivating Michael’s desire to stay. Remorsefully, Serena remembered that she had been relieved that she could pass some of the responsibility for Michael to another adult. At the time of Hank’s separation from his wife, Serena had been on her own with the burden of all four of her charges and Maria and she’d felt unable to cope at times. Michael had lived with the consequences of her mistakes as a result. She wanted to reveal to him that he’d never been alone. That she had always tried to watch over and protect him, and beg for forgiveness for her failure.


Every thing you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break!
I need a little room to breathe
’cause I’m one step closer to the edge,
And I’m about to break!



Serena did not have the strong empathic abilities that some of her sex enjoyed. Avandra, for example, had been particularly skilled in the art, but she didn’t need to feel his pain to know that he was experiencing it. It was a tangible thing, woven through his every word and gesture, and it was coming off him in waves. Serena had to do something to help him because she couldn’t bear to leave him so broken. She might not be able to physically experience his emotions, but she could still perhaps, send to him. Another talent peculiar to her sex and race, and particularly strong between couples or parents and children, was the ability to experience emotion from another being. Not quite hearing thoughts, but more an ability to be aware of how another person was feeling.

Since the inherent abilities of Antarian males were more focused on physical power or defence, they did not necessarily have the ability to hear emotions from other Antarians unless they were deliberately listening, as a partner might learn to be in-tune with his wife or seek a connection with his child. For the females of her species it required much less deliberate intent to pick up on the emotions of another, it was simply something that they could hear automatically, like psychic background noise. The ability to interpret or make sense of the noise depended on the skill of the female or the depth of the bond with the other person.

Serena wasn’t sure how well this would work on a male hybrid, but if nothing else was true of this tragic situation, Michael was screaming out to hear someone respond to him, desperate for any contact.

Serena could feel the pressure of Michael’s power rising in response to his scattered emotions. It vibrated through the air like the prelude to a thunder storm, and something deep within her pulled to respond to it on maternal level. She wanted to soothe his oncoming storms and gentle his raging spirit, offer him a safe place to find.

She drew in a deep breath, and held it, letting her eyes slide shut as she tried to centre herself amidst the chaos of power that was swirling in the air. From within her own mind she brought forward images of home and comfort from her own life, letting the feelings wash through her so that she swam within the of comfort and love they represented. She was thinking of Maria, who had been her heart and home since she had become her mother so many years before. She held onto the images and the emotions, building them within her to a peak of feeling.

“Why, huh, why?” He screamed into the dark night, tears mixing with the rain which was running down his face.


Shut up when I’m talking to you!
Shut up! shut up! shut up!
Shut up when I’m talking to you!
Shut up! shut up! shut up! shut up!
I’m about to break



Visualising her emotions as a wave of energy, Serena slowly let out her breath, and push the feelings out into the world to be heard by anyone who was listening.

“Fuck you, I don’t need you, I don’t need anyone. Stay gone, I don’t want you.”

Michael’s body took over when his mind couldn’t cope any more, his hand thrusting out instinctively sending out a massive pulse of energy which threw him off his feet like the recoil from a rifle. His blast exploded against the side of the abandoned truck, blasting the rusty doors open and clean off the truck itself. Michael landed on his back in the dirt, but didn’t try to get up, instead he cover his face with his hands and started to sob.

For the briefest of seconds Cal thought he felt something that he had not experienced in many years, not since Avandra’s death, the gentle brush of a female Antarian’s spirit against his own. Even as his lonely heart thrilled at the beguiling contact, the connection was severed as the impact of Michael’s blast threw him from his feet. He instinctively channelled his energy into producing a shield which extended from his outstretched palm as a verdant blue light. The sudden focus of so much energy released him from his hold on his assumed identity and he involuntarily shaped shifted with a flash of white light into his base form of Cal Langley, movie producer.

Michael’s blast of power, shocked Serena out of her concentration, and she opened her eyes with a start in time to see Michael pulverise the lone railway truck, and Cal being thrown away from the trunk and his instinctive extension of his shield. The blue shield rather than the red of her husband’s registered with her, even as he shifted into his normal form. In that split second she realised that Cal was less than 10 metres away. Frozen in surprise it took several seconds before Serena did the only thing that her frightened mind demanded. She ran.

One of the heavy doors of the truck bounced off of Cal’s shield before landing on the ground with a loud clank. Cal scrambled to his feet and back behind the shelter of the truck before looking over the heavy, formerly straight piece of metal which was now concave where it had taken the worst of Michael’s blast. As unimpressed as he was to have been knock on his arse, Cal was impressed by how powerful Michael seemed to be despite having no training or real understanding of his own abilities.


Every thing you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break!
I need a little room to breathe
’cause I’m one step closer to the edge,
And I’m about to break!

(One Step Closer – Linkin Park)



Cal took some time to brush down his clothes briefly and then returned to his position in the shadows. Michael still hadn’t picked himself up out of the dirt but he had changed from the embodiment of fury into a hunched shivering child.

Despite emotional barricades that Cal had forged against the world for years, Michael had managed to get through. It was one realisation that made Cal feel true remorse for the first time in a long time - That Michael should have been having this conversation with him, because he was the person who had never come.

Cal was surprised to see Michael suddenly climb to his feet. He was still crying, but he seemed to have a much more focused expression. Where recently there had been so much confusion, he now seemed to have come to some sort of conclusion.

Cal shadowed Michael’s shaky walk in the rain to outside of Maria’s bedroom window and watched as Maria came to the door and urged him inside out the miserable weather. He considered the situation carefully, noting the Serena’s small car was parked outside the house, which meant she was most likely home. Michael had obviously come to Maria for some comfort and shelter. Cal doubted that he would leave her tonight. He had been too upset. The young general would be safe enough under Serena’s roof tonight.

Cal turned and walked away from the door heading down the road several hundred yards before selecting a parked car at random and unlocking the door with a swipe of his hand. He climbed in the vehicle and sat still for several seconds, concentrating hard, before shape shifting for the second time that night. He started the borrowed car with another swipe of his hand, and u-turned back down the road, passing Serena’s house again, noting that all of the lights were now switched off. Michael would be quite safe from Nasedo tonight with Maria, but Cal wasn’t so sure how safe he would be from Serena if he forgot to leave before his protector got up in the morning.


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After Isabel’s rather out of the blue call, Maria had been actively worrying about Michael in the quiet of her bedroom. Up later than usual, she had also heard the Jetta coasting out of the drive way and driving off down the street. But Maria was used to her mother coming and going at peculiar times, and didn’t think anything of it except to worry about her mother’s health.

She often went for a drive when she was suffering from insomnia, hence the potential reason for the late night car drive. This added to the fact that she had become extremely distracted recently added up to a whole heap of worry for Maria. The thought then occurred to Maria that she might have slipped out to meet the Sheriff or “Uncle Cal”? Maria hadn’t heard the front door slam, and when she went through to her mother’s bedroom on a hunch and found the window wide open, she decided that a stealthy exit for some sort of nocturnal rendezvous was the most likely explanation. With one mystery solved, Maria returned to her room and carried on wearing a hole in her bedroom carpet.


Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough
You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight



It wasn’t the fact that Michael was AWOL that worried Maria. It was more that he had gone AWOL in such a state that Isabel had actually felt the need to contact Maria. Maria was fairly confident that Isabel had been at least part way responsible for some of the pressure that was applied to Max to stay away from Liz, and she guessed that Michael as her partner in crime had distanced himself from her to follow the alien party line. So, if Isabel was desperate enough to call Maria, the unapproved human ex-girlfriend, something bad must have happened. That had to be something much worse than him doing a ‘Michael’ and storming off.

Maria thought carefully about the last couple of weeks and of her interactions with Michael both accidental and engineered. And, though she hadn’t really been able to talk to him, or wanted to before he had made a suitably grovelling apology for his behaviour at the UFO Convention, she decided she had noticed some subtle changes. He’d been looking a little bit tired recently and he’d been cutting classes more than usual. Perhaps he’d also been a little more wired than usual. Unfortunately, however, noticing changes didn’t necessarily give her any ability to work out the causes.


And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own



Maria tried to phone Liz, but had only managed to get through to Mrs Parker who told her that Liz had gone to bed early because she was tired. When she snorted down the phone in mirth at this news, she had to make a quickly created explanation of frog in the throat to explain the noise. She couldn’t have told Liz’s mother what she was really thinking; that Liz had taken herself off to bed to get an early start on her steamy dreams of Max Evans.

With her mother gone, Liz asleep and Isabel not calling her back, Maria was left to stew on the subject on her own. Her mother had returned to the house approximately 30 minutes earlier and in a much louder fashion than she left. In fact the Jetta had practically burnt rubber when it screeched to a stop on the driveway. Amy came in through front door rather than her bedroom window, and judging by the impression of a stampeding elephant that her rapid foot falls made down the wood floored hall to her bedroom, Maria guessed that perhaps the nocturnal meeting hadn’t gone too well.


Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone



Maria returned to her seat by her window, and studied the trail of rain drops that were gliding down the glass outside. It really was a miserable night to be outside. She hoped that Michael had at least had the sense to find shelter, so she couldn’t have been more surprised when the alien ex-boyfriend that she had been worrying about suddenly appeared outside standing in the rain staring in at her through the window.

Maria waited to see if he was going to walk on because, for her, the idea that he had just happened to be wandering down her street was easier to accept than the notion that ‘I don’t need anyone Guerin’ would come to her window for help. However, he never moved, and he continued to hold her eye contact the whole time.

Maria tried to chase him away, because that was what he deserved after the way he’d treated her, wasn’t it?



We fight all the time
You and I, that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need, I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more



“What are you doing out there? No, you can't come in. No. I know why you're here.” Actually she didn’t have a clue, but that was beside the point, she was sending him away!

“All right, I know what your plan is, I know what you want, but it's not going to work this time, mister, ok, no matter what you say. My answer is no. No, no, no, no, no.”
Michael didn’t move, didn’t speak and didn’t drop his eye contact. He was soaking wet, shivering and his eyes were pleading with her to help. Without words, Michael, who had never even in his worst moments once said that he needed Maria, was standing on her door step in the pissing rain needing her now.


Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone



And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own



For Maria, there really was no choice to make, and she ushered him inside several seconds later. All she had ever wanted was for him to ask, and she would gladly walk through fire for him, otherwise, what was the point of caring for him as she did without being able to make that kind of emotional commitment?

She passed a towel gently around his shoulders and realised that, though his skin was fairly warm, he was trembling.

“God, you could get pneumonia. Here, take your shirt off. Hold on. You’re shivering.” Her voice was sympathetic, but non judgemental and, crucially for Michael, what she said wasn’t said in pity. Another tear slid down his cheek, and Maria brushed it away gently. When that tear was followed by another, Maria wiped it away again with her hand and for the briefest of moments, felt him lean into her palm.

She took his hand and led him over to her bed. “Come here.”

Michael followed her docilely and it was clear that whatever had gone down tonight had knocked his fighting spirit. He lay down wordlessly on his side facing away from Maria, and she lay down on the bed with him, spooned up against his broad back. He was still trembling, and his breathing was fast and choppy as though he was trying to hold in tears.
Maria ran a comforting hand down his arm and back again, trying to soothe him as best she could, but she heard a soft sob catch in his throat.
“Shh, it's ok. You don't have to tell me, it's ok.”


I know that we don't talk
I’m sick of it all
Can you hear me when I sing
You're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me
Well, hey now
Still got to let you know
A house doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone



Michael never made a sound except for crying, and he spoke not a word to explain why, but she continued to hold him through the night regardless, crooning softly to him until they both slid into sleep wrapped up together.


And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

(Sometimes You Can’t Make It on Your Own – U2)



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Cal drove his usual route towards the trailer park. Hank might not know it, but he had an appointment with Cal tonight. Seeing Michael so destroyed tonight, hadn’t helped Cal to smooth out his stirred up emotions. As conflicted as he had been since he arrived in Roswell, adding guilt to the mix wasn’t helping. But he was planning to work out some of his less charitable emotions on Michael’s foster father tonight.

Dressed in a conservative navy blue suit, shirt and tie, Cal was assuming the persona of Robert Dawson when he arrived at the trailer park. He was pretending to be one in a long line of social workers that had managed Michael’s case since he entered the foster care system. He sheltered under an umbrella as the rain continued to pelt down waiting for Hank to rouse himself enough to open the door in response to his loud knocks. Eventually a dishevelled Hank jerked the door open, and judging from the smell of stale beer and BBQ ribs on his breath, Cal assumed sardonically, that Hank had been engrossed in another night of junk food and drinking himself into a stupor.

“What do you want?”

“Hank Whitmore?”

“What’s it to you?”

“My name in Robert Dawson. I’m a social worker for the State of New Mexico Human Services Department. I’m here about Michael’s foster placement with you.”

“Well la-de-da. Bit late for house calls, ain’t it?”

“Its raining Mr Guerin, may I come inside?”

Hank swore under his breath, but staggered back from the door so that Cal could enter the trailer.

Cal reflected that it might have been better to stay out on the door step, considering the stale air inside the claustrophobically small trailer. It was filled with an aroma reminiscent of stale body odour and rotting food. For Cal, having a stronger sense of smell than the average human, it was quite disgusting.

“So what’s the little bastard been up to now?”

“I’m not here about Michael’s behaviour, I’m here about some reports about suspected domestic abuse against Michael.”

Hank stuck out his chin belligerently. “What of it? Boy needed teaching some manners. He’s a lazy little shit. Wouldn’t do the wash when I asked him.”

“So you’ve been having problems with Michael?”

“No problems, I know how to keep him in line.”

“Oh really, how’s that then?” Cal’s question was delivered with just enough of a smile to encourage Hank to continue despite the very unfriendly feelings he had for this man.

“You want a drink, or somethin’ ?”

“Sure.”

Hal staggered of to a cupboard, and took two glasses down pushing a pile of empty takeaway boxes onto the floor to make space on the counter top to put the glasses down.

“So what do you know about his background?”

“Useless scum. Parents didn’t even want him. Left him by the side of the road in the desert.”

Squinting slightly, as though he was trying to take careful aim as he sloshed whisky into the glasses, managing to spill much of the liquid onto the counter because his hands were unsteady.

“My old woman used to have a soft spot for him, stupid whore. She split years ago, wanted to take him with her, but he decided to stay with me. So I can’t be that bad.” Hank took a long swig out of the bottle, then looking as though something had suddenly occurred to him about the future of the monthly check he got for Michael’s care.

“Look, I feed him, keep a roof over his head. He needs a strong hand to keep him in line. He’s got problems.”

“It’s often the case with children who have been abandoned.”

Hank was warming to this guy. He seemed to be on his side.

“Right. That’s what I’m sayin’.” Hank turned back to the counter top, taking another swig out of the bottle before he reached up to put it back in the cupboard. As he stretched up his shirt moved revealing the outline of a hand gun tucked into the back of his jeans. Cal noted the weapon with a detached air. It really was no threat to him, but he doubted that Hank in his current state would have managed to hit the trailer never mind him.

“So, why don’t you tell me about these problems you’ve been having with Michael.”

“Usual stuff. Mouthing off, not doing what he’s told, disappearing. Then today….”

“Yes?”

“I’m not really sure what happened, you know. I got back from work. Had some beers to relax.” Hank shrugged. “His stuck up friends came around. He lost it when I flirted with the girl. Stuff happened.”

“Stuff?”

Hank indicated two cupboard doors that were hanging off their hinges. “Look, I don’t really know what happened, but this got damaged. I’m telling you he’s a freak, or I was too freakin’ drunk this afternoon to know what happened. Who knows? Boy hasn’t been back since, gone walk about. Can’t say I blame him. The blonde with him this afternoon has some rack on her.”

Hank made unsteady progress back to where Cal stood with his drink, stumbling as he reached him and spilling much of the contents of the glass over himself. Cal managed to stop himself from getting a whisky shower, by steadying Hank’s hand with his own. Through the contact with Hank skin to skin, and with Hank’s drunken state, he formed a connection with him briefly.

Cal pulled away rapidly in disgust. The flash that he got from Hank had been of the last beatings that he had given Michael. It had had nothing to do with discipline and everything to do with humiliating Michael and making sure that he understood that Hank considered him to be no better than shit on his shoes. What surprised Cal was that Michael hadn’t tried to fight back, he had accepted the blows as though he thought he deserved the treatment, or as though he was conditioned to it.

Cal kept his fury under control, understanding too well Hank’s motivations for his treatment of Michael. He was a small man in a big world. In a world that left Hank Whitmore feeling powerless, he had power every single time he beat Michael.

Hank was ineffectively trying to wipe the whisky off his stained shirt. “Little shit. He’ll be back, always is. He’ll get his when he crawls back here.”

“We have a problem Mr Whitmore. You see, where I come from children are considered a precious blessing, a miracle even considering the tragedies that my people have experienced. So I have a problem with the way that you are treating Michael.”

“Look I thought we understood each other. He’s a worthless little shit that needs to be put in his place. I don’t need to have some do-gooder social worker coming down here and telling me my business. Just who did you say you were again? I’ve got a mind to contact your boss…”


Cal stepped towards Hank and stood straight in front of him before extending his hand which he moved with a wiping motion to remove the whisky from the front of Hank’s shirt, freshening up his body odour for good measure. When Cal was finished he stepped back from Hank with a sinister smile on his face.

Hank’s mouth flapped open uselessly for several seconds before any sound came out. “You, you’re just like him. You freak! What are you?”

Cal extended his hand as though he intended it to be shaken, and said with heavy sarcasm, “Cal Langley, Roswell crash of 47. Nice to meet you.”

Hank was in a blind panic as he fumbled for his handgun. His fight or flight mechanism provided him with enough adrenaline to still his usually shaking hands to level the gun and let off one bullet.

Cal’s hand, which was already extended in front of him, let off a pulse of light and deflected the bullet. It performed a near impossible U-turn back towards Hank where it hit him in the neck. The force sent Hank to the floor where he lay bleeding, gasping for breath and making animalistic groaning noises.

Cal hunkered down beside him, stopping Hank easily as he tried to move away from the alien. Cal ran his hand over the wound scanning the flesh to understand the extent of the damage.

“Well that’s a shame. It looks like you’ve damaged your spinal cord, a usually fatal injury, by the way. Whilst I’m happy to leave you to die like the worthless bag of shit that you are, you are unfortunately presenting me with a problem. You see they’re going to wonder how you managed to shoot yourself like this. Bullets don’t usual return to sender you see.” Cal voice was calm, almost conversational, and contrasted starkly with the terrified cries that Hank was making.

“So as much as I would like to leave you to die in a pool of your own blood. I need things to be a little bit cleaner than that. So I guess I’ll just have to finish you off myself. I promise it’ll be painless. That’s less than you deserve.”

“No, NO!”

Hank’s cries for mercy were cut short when Cal passed his hand over his head, using his powers to cut off the flow of blood to Hank’s brain. Cal watched the realisation of his approaching death come across Hank as his eyes rolled back in his head he slumped to the ground dead.

He stood up, patting down his trouser legs distastefully. “And now it’s time to take out the trash.”

Disposing of Hank’s body had been relatively ease for Cal. An unremarkable hole in the desert and the job was done. Cal managed to explain away Hank’s death to himself as self defence, and because the action would be fore the greater good in Michael’s life.

Sitting now in his hotel room, Cal couldn’t shake off a feeling of melancholy which seemed to be dogging him lately. Michael’s pain was only churning him up more, and apparently playing tricks on his mind as well, considering what he thought he had experienced tonight.

Avandra’s loss was a wound that never seemed to heal. Every time he thought the memories had faded, they seemed to come back to haunt him when he least expected it. Being in Roswell made it worse because it was here that he had failed to protect her for the second time in his life.

For once Cal allowed himself the luxury of letting his grief come to the surface briefly. He reached out for a piece of hotel note paper, and closed his eyes, bringing an image of her sweet face to mind. He placed his hand over the note paper and recreating the image onto the surface.

When he looked down, he had created the perfect image of his ghost brought to life on the paper. He traced the soft curve of her cheek and remembered when he had once been able to touch her actual face, and enjoy the warmth of her presence. She had been gloriously alive, vibrant with energy and her slight body had housed a heart that was compassionate and loving. He’d been able to glory in that once, and then she had been Zan’s, and then she was gone. Just another victim of interplanetary politics.

He was so weary of carrying the pain of her loss with him, it dragged him down, and tonight it felt all the more sharp. He put his hand up to scrub at his eyes, and was surprised to find they were wet. He blinked the tears away without allowing his grief to have a visible outlet. Crying wasn’t going to change the fact that she was dead and turned to dust, but killing Nasedo would at least create some justice as compensation for her loss.


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Serena got up the next morning considerably later than usual and rather unwillingly. She’d had a restless night snatching sleep in between several rather vivid nightmares. It had been a late night for her anyway without her mind trying to come to an acceptable explanation for why she had bolted when she saw Cal watching Michael.

Her reaction hadn’t been based on logic, because she knew that Cal had the ability to sense either her or her emotional projection. By not revealing herself she was probably making him even more suspicious than he already was. This was an assumption based on the fact that he had not bothered to tell her that he was in Roswell. Why else would he conceal himself unless he was suspicious?

She was still plagued with self doubt regarding her motivation for running as she forced herself to pick up her normal morning routine of collecting the newspaper and going to wake Maria.

Maybe she’d run because hiding had become a habit, or maybe because he had hidden his presence from her, but neither of these were honest answers. The honest answer was that she wasn’t ready to meet the embodiment of her lies in the flesh yet.

Serena pushed open Maria’s bedroom door, conscious that they had both slept too late this morning.

“Oh, Maria, honey, you're gonna be late.“

Instead of her daughter forming a lump under her duvet, there was a reincarnated Antarian General in bed with her under aged daughter, and she was flooded with the sudden sensation that she wanted to do him some damage.

“Oh, my God!”

“Oh! Mom...”

“Get out! Get out of this bed! Out of this bed! Out!” Serena could feel a power build within the palm of her right hand, followed by painful flashes of electrical current running across the surface of her skin. As much as she wanted to blast Michael, she pulled back the power by clamping her hand tightly closed and ignoring the stinging pain in her palm, before pulling it back within the arm of her dressing down leaving behind a small puff of smoke. Instead she resorted to hitting him about the head and shoulders with the paper in her other hand putting plenty of force behind each strike.

“Take it easy. “

“Don’t tell me to take it easy, you deviant! Get out of my house!” An Antarian curse escaped her lips as she pursued Michael’s hunched over retreating figure towards the doorway of Maria’s bedroom like a woman possessed, but Michael was too occupied with trying to escape to notice her lapse into an alien language.

“Sonofa…”

“Mom!” Her mother rarely ever swore, so it was a reflection of just how furious she was, and Maria knew that this was going to be bad, very, very bad.

“…bitch. You’d better run you because won’t be dropping in on any other unsuspecting mothers by the time I’m finished with you!”

Michael bolted down the hall with Serena hot on his heals still ranting.

“After everything I’ve done for you, how could you do this to me!”

Michael turned the corner into what he guessed might be the kitchen, stumbling as he tripped on the floor when the surface changed from polished wood to carpet. He fell down onto his knees and had to use his hands to push himself back up off the floor. The time that the stumble had cost him now meant that Serena had him cornered. Maria groaned inwardly, Michael had turned into the living room, which meant that her mother now had him cornered.

He was backing away from Serena, taking a step back each time Serena stabbed him in the chest with her finger.

“How dare you treat my daughter like she’s a dirty Kleenex to be used and then disposed of….”

“Hey!” Maria objected strongly to being compared to a snotty or otherwise soiled hanky.

“…..and then come around to my house like a randy tom cat when you have an itch to be scratched.” She punctuated her last words with several more rapid pokes into his chest. “My daughter is not a scratching post…!”

Michael now had his hands in the air as though he was surrendering his expression completely nonplussed that Maria’s usually mellow, if slightly ditzy, mother could turn into such a lioness.

Maria decided that the only way to stop this was to give Michael a chance to escape otherwise they were likely to be here all morning. Her mother was only just warming up.

“Wait! Mom! Mom! Mom...” She stepped between her mother and Michael and caught Serena’s hand as it began to descend to take yet another poke.

Michael took the opportunity that she presented to him with alacrity and charged out of the door without looking back. Serena stepped back from Maria and pinned her with a glare that was as warm as nuclear winter before saying “Kitchen, now!” before stalking out.

Maria stayed in the room for several minutes stalling for time. She was trying to think of just what you said to your mother in circumstances like these, and coming up with a complete blank. She was screwed whatever she said.

“That’s it. I’m going to be grounded ‘til I’m a granny.”

Serena’s glass cracking loud shriek of “Maria!” signalled that her stalling time was finally up. Taking a deep breath, Maria hurried through to the kitchen, bracing herself for impact. What she found when she entered the room wasn’t promising. Her mother was wearing a groove in the floor pacing backwards and forwards muttering to herself. Maria moved into the room, and took a seat at the kitchen table and waited quietly.

“My baby girl's having sex. “ Serena was talking more to herself than Maria at the moment. She still couldn’t quite believe that Michael would sneak into her home and do this. That she could have missed that the relationship between Maria and Michael had gotten to this stage. She spent most of her life watching her group, always on the sidelines of their life, how could she have missed this of all things?

Maria’s subdued, but firm voice interrupted her internal conversation, “I am not having sex.” Maria recognised the signs, her mother was about to go off at the deep end. She could even understand why, but what could she say? Hey mom, my alien ‘not’ boyfriend was upset and turned up in my room in tears, so I decided to hold him through the night because I couldn’t send him away? Yeah that would work!

“Then what exactly did you do?” If Serena had been in a calmer frame of mind she would have been able to see the truth in Maria’s words. She knew how devastated Michael had been last night. It actually made sense that he might turn to Maria for comfort, but she couldn’t see past her maternal instincts to protect her daughter to think logically.

“Nothing. We just slept.”

“Yeah. I know that one. I've used that one.”

“You act like I have no self-control.”

“Oh, yes, because teenagers are known for self-control. Especially teenage boys.”

“Michael is not like that, ok?” Oh I know what he’s like alright. He was famous for ‘what he was like’. General Trouser Snake, well not with my daughter!

“Well, sometimes he is, but...”

“What!” the volume of the shrieked word hurt Maria’s ears causing her to wince.

“But not last night, all right? He was upset about something. I don't know what he was upset about, but sex was like the last thing on his mind. That's why I let him stay.”

“Oh, thank you. There is a God. And Michael should thank him too, because Michael would have needed his God if anything had happened, and I’m not sure that even divine intervention would have been enough to save him!

Oh, yeah, and what exactly were you thinking letting him stay here, young lady? And besides, why is it ok for you and not ok for me? “

“I'm 16... “

“Yes, you are 16-years-old, and no 16-year-old daughter of mine is gonna have sleep-overs with boys, got that?”

“Whatever. “

“No, not "whatever". Maria, as you so subtly pointed out last night, my history with men has pretty much been a train wreck. And I don't want you to make the same mistakes. Now, I can't go back and change my life, but I will be damned if I watch yours go down the same way. I love you too much.

Serena was crying as the last words left her mouth. She was emotionally stripped to the bone with old half healed scars exposed. This conversation had begun with the subject of an amorous teenage boy visiting Maria in the middle of night, but it had shifted to an entirely different topic for Serena. She was petrified for her daughter.


The thought of never knowing
Would kill me just the same (yeah)
The solitary blossom
Reminders of a friend (yeah)



The closer that Maria became to Michael, the closer she came to repeating Serena’s own life. Serena didn’t want Maria to have to live her life. To be forever looking over your shoulder, afraid, in danger and ultimately alone. She wanted to be able to give her the gift of a life full of safety and potential away from the alien chaos in which she had to live to fulfil her duty. She knew she couldn’t though, and it broke her heart.

She put a trembling hand to her mouth. “I don’t want that for you Maria, I just don’t want that for you. You’ve got to understand that, please.”

She’d lost one daughter to a political war on a distant planet and Maria was unwittingly walking herself into the same danger. Serena didn’t have the words to describe how much terror she felt at the prospect. She’d barely survived the loss of Tassia. Even Nasedo as emotionally controlled as he had always been, had been brought to his knees by Tassi’s needless death.


What are you saying?
You've got nothing to live for
You're tired and you're broken
You just can't free yourself



Long buried memories of that dreadful day pressed in on her, and Serena pressed clenched fists against her eyes desperately trying to push them back.

The collapsed and burned out remains where once had stood a school building.

Screaming parents.

Medical staff and palace guards running around.

Little bodies and blood.

Queen Keva crying and cradling a grieving woman.

Ava and Vilandra weeping even as they tried to help panicking parents.

Cal grim faced cradling a small broken body against his chest and walked towards where she stood frozen.

Blinding grief that was so intense that it was visceral......

“Mom, you’re scaring me!”

Knowing that the light of life that had burnt brightly in innocent child could be brutally snuffed out in the name of politics. Lost to the world because of boundaries, resources and the pursuit of power. Gone, finished, erased from existence. Her beautiful little girl.

“Mom!” Maria’s worried shout of her name snapped Serena back to the present, but did nothing to release her from her sorrow.


And all the words we've spoken
Are buried in the sand (yeah)
They're ruptured and you're broken
The taste of bitter glass (yeah)



“I’m so sorry Maria, so, so sorry. I’ve tried so hard to protect you from this, you’ve got to believe that.”

For the first time in over 50 years Serena felt truly trapped by her circumstances. Whatever the planet had thrown at her she had taken it, and bounced back. But now it felt as thought the walls were closing in on her finally. Too many possibilities were coming at her at once, and she could not see a solution within her grasp wherever she turned. She felt like she was running out of options and time, and the hopelessness that it left her feeling with was crippling in its intensity. Of all her worst nightmares which could come to life, the loss of Maria would be the worst of them all, and she could now see that it could be a very real possibility.

From her birth Maria had been inextricably tied to that group, because of who had become her mother. It was her own history that would rob Serena of most treasured wishes for her daughter’s future. Now Maria had even stronger ties to the group, her friendship with Liz and therefore Max, and now a progressing relationship with Michael left her with a feeling of uselessness. Whatever happened now, Maria was likely to be affected. Ultimately, regardless of all of the sacrifices that she had made, she still couldn’t protect her in the end. Serena might have to face the prospect of losing Maria, and she didn’t know if she could survive that.


What are you saying?
You've got nothing to live for
You're tired and you're broken
You just can't free yourself



Serena knew she had been living on borrowed time ever since Maria had come into her life, and that time was running out. As the danger to the royal group escalated, her chances of being able to protect them without exposing her true nature to her daughter became slimmer. Deep down Serena knew she had tried to pursue Cal to come and take up his duties again because she had hoped to continue to protect her daughter from her true identity. Or was she trying to protect herself from the consequences of Maria knowing she had been lied to all of her life? There was as good a chance that she might lose her daughter because she had been too scared to tell her the truth regardless of her direct connections to the Royal Four.

It was too much for one person to deal with alone, and she was cracking a little more each day under the strain.


What are you saying?
It's just the thought of rejection
It's pulling you deeper
You just can't free yourself



“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, so sorry.”

Maria was horrified to see her mother just crumble in front of her. One minute she was beating the living daylights out of Michael and ranting about what she was going to do to him, and the next she was sobbing as though her heart were breaking. There was only one word that described the emotion in her eyes, sorrow. Through all of the trials that life had thrown at her mother, Maria had never seen her look so defeated.


Your voluntary loving
Apologies have passed
And come around again
The fragments of a reason
The taste of bitter glass



Maria didn’t understand what her mother was apologising because, after all, she was the one who had been caught with a boy in her bed.

“No, I’m sorry.”

This admission only seemed to make her mother cry harder. Maria didn’t stop to analyse why, she simply hugged her wounded mother and let her cry.


So what are you saying?
You've got nothing to live for
You're tired and you're broken
You just can't free yourself

What are you saying?
It's just the thought of rejection
It's pulling you deeper
You just can't be yourself

(Bitter Glass – Feeder)

Posted: Thu Jun 22, 2006 12:17 pm
by Reamhar
Huge thanks to Tequathisy and RhondaAnn being Betas for this story.

As ever, thanks for great feedback:-

Jennifer24
RhondaAnn
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Takes part during the episode Independence Day (not again you say? I know, who would have that I could drag one episode out this long. LOL). Uses some dialogue from that episode. Scenes that happen in the past are in italics.



Part 8 – A painful past revisited


Got to keep going. Got to keep going. Serena kept chanting the words in her head, trying to motivate her tired legs to keep moving. It was pure adrenaline that was pushing her to carry on running even though her lungs were burning with each gasp of dry desert air.

They couldn’t be any more than a quarter of a mile behind her now. Six pairs of army boots pounding across the ground determined to catch the interloper on the grounds of the former Puhlman Ranch which was now Army private property since the crash. Twenty three years on, this previously unremarkable patch of desert was still heavily guarded. Serena hadn’t expected that when she made her plans.

Her high risk, if inspired strategy of relocating the pods back under the nose of the Army had been born more out of desperation than consideration. Cal was the strategist out of the two of them, but he had left in hot pursuit of Nasado, determined to finish off Serena’s husband once and for all. His actions would have been admirable if they had been motivated by a desire to protect the pods. He was actually doing it to protect Ava. Nasado’s almost successful snatching of her pod had rattled Cal more than he had wanted to admit to his subordinate officer, and Cal’s reaction and single minded concentration on the threat to Ava rather than the group had rattled Serena more that she let her commanding officer see.

Cal left on his self imposed mission, and Serena remained plotting before his return. Right now she was tearing through the desert heading away from the new pod chamber clutching Ava’s orb in one sweaty hand and a crystal in the other.

Serena came around a cluster of cacti, and stopped abruptly in the shadow of a radio tower. The desert landscape was a largely unremarkable one, but the radio tower offered a recognisable landmark. She dropped to the ground, shooting a bolt of power into the packed earth to loosen the soil before scrabbling around with her hands to make a deep enough hole to conceal the orb. Dropping the metallic orb into the hole, she stopped to watch it blinking gently with a blue light that rhythmically illuminated the hole. Holding the crystal in her other hand just a little bit tighter, she hesitated. If she did this, there would be no turning back, she would be set on this course for the rest of her life.

The crystal was skin technology, designed to be used to block the signal of the orbs from their protectors. This knowledge had been painfully extracted one agonising word at a time from a skin that Cal had caught and interrogated. His screams of pain had given Serena nightmares for weeks afterwards.

When she’d tried to speak to him about it, Cal had been off-hand with her. He dismissed her questions with impatience and expressed the opinion that she needed to toughen up because the pain of one skin was nothing to the tragedies that their race had let loose on Antar more than once across the millennia. Cal dressed his actions up as necessary to the mission, and Serena didn’t disagree with the necessity of his behaviour, but disturbingly Serena was pretty sure that Cal’s actions had held just a little bit of personal revenge as well. Much of Cal’s behaviour when scrutinised had been disturbing her lately, and that was why she was standing here now with the Army hot on her heels.

She had to do this, they were connected, and Cal would be able to sense that something was going on without this action being taken. He’d be onto her lies straight away unless she took this step.

Serena heard shouting voices coming from behind her, and realised that she was out of time. She dropped the crystal onto the ground and sent a bolt of power into it to activate it, before kicking it into the hole and scraping the soil back into place and packing it down as hard as she could. One rapid wave of her hand over the disturbed ground removed all trace of her digging.

She ran off again deeper into the desert silently praying that she had made the right decision for them all. Most of all Serena was praying that Eva might have been able to understand Serena’s reasons for sacrificing her for the greater good, because, truthfully, Serena wasn't sure that she could ever forgive herself for what she had done to an innocent child.



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Serena sat contemplating the cooling cup of milky tea that Maria had produced since she had managed to stop crying. She was at a loss to know what to say next. Whilst the tears had provided something of a cathartic release for her emotions, she still didn’t have the words to explain what was happening to her daughter. Maria, who was standing on the other side of the kitchen, was clearly bursting to know what was wrong. Serena knew she had two choices, a full and frank confession or more lies.

Maria carried on watching her mother toying with her drink, patiently willing to wait for as long as necessary for her to speak. When she pushed the cup away from her with a disgusted grimace her silence continued, but she at least looked up to meet her daughter’s concerned eyes. This was new territory for Maria. Her mother was usually so capable, self contained even. Sure Maria had seen her under pressure, upset even, but she had never experienced such a raw expression of emotion from her as she cried sounding like a wounded animal. It had been painful to watch. Now all Maria wanted to do was help her mother heal. To be there for her in they way she had always been there for Maria.

Serena watched the cooling drink form a milky skin on the surface, and congeal unappealingly before she pushed it away, with a disgusted grimace. She was trying her hardest to find the strength to find the right words.

“Maria, I, just don’t know what to say to you to explain.” They way Maria eyes encouraged her to continue almost broke her heart, because the same warmth wouldn’t be in her eyes once she knew what the woman who she knew as Mother had done.

Maria studied her mother’s expression carefully looking for clues to what was wrong. There was something in her expression that puzzled Maria, guilt maybe?

“I want to be able to explain, but I swear I don’t know how to.”

Maybe not just guilt, regret seemed to sit uneasily on her attractive face which was showing the signs of her exhaustion. Above anything else, Maria wanted to lift some of the burden for her mother.

“Then don’t tell me now, tell me when you have the words to explain. I’ll always be ready to listen to anything you say. I love you, whatever it is, we’ll be alright.”

Serena swallowed another sob, but was unable to stop the tears that once again trailed down her face. How could anything be alright between them again after she told Maria the truth? She couldn’t do it. She knew she was a coward, but she couldn’t do it.

“Just tell me one thing, are you getting sick again? Is this something to do with your health? I’d rather know the truth now, because it’s always been my biggest worry.” Suddenly Maria looked less like the comforter, more a child seeking reassurance, and Serena pulled herself together to give her at least that reassurance.

“I’m not ill, I promise.” She replied shakily.

Maria touched Serena hand, and squeezed briefly. “I’d hug you, but we’d both end up blubbing again, and red eyes, so not attractive.” She rolled her eyes comically and stood up, trying to put things on a more normal footing between them again.

“I am sorry about Michael. I was telling the truth, nothing happened. If it helps, I doubt that anything will happen ever again, you freaked him out good.”

Serena had completely forgotten about that, it just didn’t seem important anymore.

“Maria, I…”

“No. We’re good here. You’ll tell me when you’re ready. I have to get ready for school. Liz will be here soon. Can you do one thing for me, call Elaine, and have her take over at the shop for you today, take a rest. Please?”

“Yes, I can do that.” Maybe she’d take the opportunity to get her scattered thoughts together.


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Michael sat in a too hot class room, sweating uncomfortably and trying to ignore Max who was sat several rows behind him burning a hole in the back of his skull form the intensity of his staring.

Michael wasn’t in the mood to speak to anyone today, given this; he had surprised himself when he decided to turn up to school. Yet here he sat in the middle of a bloody pop quiz of all things.

He’d not seen Maria around yet, and he wasn’t even too sure what he would say if and when he did see her, but he knew that he wanted to check that she was okay. Who could have known that mild mannered Amy Deluca could be such a dragon when roused. Michael had the finger marks on his chest to prove it. It wasn’t that Michael thought that Maria would come to any physical harm at the hands of her mother, but he just wanted to check that she was okay.

There was a knock at the door, and the teacher stopped the lesson to respond. Michael didn’t really bother to pay attention, until he realised that his name was being called.

“Michael?”

Max watched with worried eyes as a silent Michael walked out of the class room with one of Sheriff Valenti deputy’s. He was unable to squelch the doom filled thought of ‘what’s Michael done now?’ as his friend left the room under escort.



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Serena eased her tired body down the steps of the Greyhound bus gingerly, mindful of her awkward size and the potential drop if she tripped on the stairs. She didn’t bother to pay much attention to her surroundings, it was just another in a long line of unremarkable bus stations. This one happened to be in Houston, Texas.

She waited patiently for her bag to be dragged out of the open storage locker under the bus, and nodded her thanks to the driver as he passed her small holdall, and wished her a safe onward journey.

She lifted the bag without difficulty. She’d learned to travel light after so many years of moving about. Her most essential possessions fitted in her one bag, and anything else she needed could be purchased. It was along time since she’d last spoken to Cal, and even longer since she’d seen him in person, but he still maintained a bank account in her name and ensured that it was kept generously in funds. She used the funds sparingly, spending little on her shiftless wandering from one part of the country to another, essentially filling in time until the baby was due and the pods would be ready to hatch.

She eased herself down onto a concrete bench, and smoothed her hand lovingly across her swollen stomach, finding the close contact with the baby soothing. Appearing pregnant made her stand out in a crowd. Most humans bothering to notice an expectant mother, and make some passing fuss or paid a little more attention to ask how far along she was or try to assist by offering a seat or to carry a bag.

Whilst the attention was flattering on one level, for an alien who had appeared pregnant for more than a decade, the attention was dangerous, and had driven her decision to keep moving to avoid being recognised.

Shape shifting had stopped being an option for her that year. The effort it took was exhausting and the last time she had tried had left her unconscious for 24 hours. Worried about the strain it was putting on her already damaged body and on the precious child that she was carrying in memory of another woman, she had never tried again. Accepting that this ability was now lost to her thanks to US Army doctors and Nasado’s theft of the healing stones that might have been able to rectify some of the historical damage. From the day that she had recognised that she could not rely on her alien abilities to stay safe, hiding and staying hidden had become a virtual obsession.

It was a lonely, if necessary sort of existence. Serena rubbed her hand across her stomach again with a sad smile, saying out load, “But we’re okay. We get by just fine.”

She looked up from her crooning to her stomach, and realised that it was starting to get dark. It was time to think of finding a motel to settle in for the time being as a temporary base from which she could find a short lease apartment. She knew the necessity of moving from her spot on the bench, but with dwindling reserves of energy the thought of just standing up was unappealing.

She noticed then that she was being watched by a woman of about her approximate assumed age. Serena didn’t like being noticed, but she couldn’t read anything threatening in the woman’s expression. She had an unassumingly attractive face which was smiling. She seemed rather thin, and looked tired rather than threatening. With a bag at her feet, Serena concluded that she was just another traveller.



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Liz was puttering about clearing tables whilst Maria was sitting having a break during a quiet spell at the diner. Liz had some sense that Maria was worried about something, so tried to draw her out using her favourite topic of anti alien conversation as bait – inter species relationships.
Liz reasoned that little white lies never hurt anyone, especially when they were for the greater good and picked her way carefully through her chosen topic of conversation, even if the conversation was decidedly one sided. Until Maria and Michael had found some sort of equilibrium together again, Liz didn’t want to rub Maria’s nose in her own attempts to get back together with Max. So some little white lies seemed the only solution.

“You know, what you said really made sense, and I've been sticking to it. And you would be so proud of me. I mean, just last night even, I said it really clearly. No. Of course, Max wasn't there...but when he is there, I'll be ready for him.” Even with this baited hook, Liz probably needn’t have bothered since Maria seemed to be in her own world anyway.

“Are you even listening to me?”

“Oh, sorry. I'm sorry.”

“What's wrong?”

Maria pulled an unhappy face and considered how to reply. Where to start? My alien not-boyfriend cried himself to sleep last night in my bed, meanwhile my mother seems to be falling to pieces right in front of me, and not because she caught me in bed with Michael. I’ve never felt more conflicted or confused in my life, not even when my father left I’m jealous that you and Max always seem to be able drift back together, whatever the problems. I’m hating trig, and I’m worried about getting cellulite on my thighs….

“Ah, well...” The ‘ting’ of the front door opening distracting Maria as she checked for the thousandth time that day to see if it was Michael coming in to the diner. It was Isabel walking into the restaurant. She paused to scan the crowd with a worried frown before heading to where Liz and Maria were standing. Isabel looked rattled, and was not managing to hide the fact. To both Liz and Maria this was a clear sign that something serious was happening.

“Have you guys seen Michael?”

“Maybe.” Maria hedged, unconsciously trying to shield Michael from the potential wrath of Isabel, and perhaps because she was just a little miffed that Isabel had never called her back last night.

Isabel’s frown deepened, and she realised straight away that she was being sand bagged, which meant that Maria potentially knew where Michael was.

“Come on, Maria, you have to tell me. It's really important.”

“Well, if it's that important, then you tell me. I'm worried about him, too.”

“I can't.”

“Ditto.”

Liz watched the power struggle between Isabel and Maria, her eyes bouncing backwards and forwards between them as though she was watching a game of tennis. She admired Maria’s spirit, because she had always found Isabel just a little bit too intimidating to cross quite so directly.

They appeared to have reached a stand off, and Liz was left with a horrible feeling about her dream last night. That was just a dream. Something her sleeping imagination had thought up whilst her mind tried to figure out her problems with Max. But Max’s pain and hurt had seemed so real. When she’d woken up Liz had wanted speak to Max badly to check that everything was okay. The thought that he’d think she was a loony to check up on him because of a dream had stopped her following through on the instinct.

“Alright, Michael's in trouble.”

“What...what kind of trouble?” Liz was feeling slight queasy suddenly, and gripped Maria’s arm anticipating the worst news possible for her friend.

“It's Hank. He's, um...he's been hurting him, and Max and I are trying to help.”

“Oh, my God, Isabel” Maria’s eyes widened, and she unconsciously reached for Liz’s hand were it gripped her arm.

“Michael made us promise not to say anything.”

“He was with me last night. All night.”

“What? He spent the night, Maria? What happened to ‘no’?”

“He never told me what was wrong. We just slept. And then...in the morning, my mom came in, and he took off, and I haven't seen him since.”

Max walked in to the diner and over to Isabel with a worried frown on his handsome face. Unusually he ignored Liz in favour of getting straight to the point.

“Valenti's got Michael.”

“Why?”

“Hank's gone, and they think he had something to do with it.”
“But he can’t have, he was with Maria all night.” Isabel replied, relief in her voice.

Maria’s angry voice interrupted them, “No, Isabel, he couldn’t have because no matter how much a scum ball Hank Whitmore is, Michael wouldn’t hurt someone. God! How could you think that of him? Why else do you think he’s never done something or said anything about what he’s gone through?” She pinned both Max and Isabel with an accusatory stare, and they both look guilty, confirming her suspicion that they’d both been worried that Michael had hurt Hank in someway.

She turned to Liz with a determined expression and asked, “Can you cover for me?”

“Sure.”

“Where are you going?” Max asked.

“To sort out Michael’s alibi.”


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“Look, I don’t know who you are to Serena, but she’s mentioned you briefly, and she’s been crying your name.”

“Who are you?”

“That doesn’t matter. I think she needs your help. She’s pregnant and looks to be going into labour.”

“So call a doctor.”

“Don’t play with me Mr Langley, I don’t think you want me to do that. With her stomach glowing the way it is, I think that might cause rather a lot of questions, don’t you?”

“Where are you.”

“Houston, a ranch house on the outskirts.”

“Give me the address. It will take me sometime to get there, make sure she drinks plenty of water whilst you’re waiting.”

“Okay, I can do that.”

“You need to keep her temperature down as much as possible.”

“Okay.”

“I’ll get there as soon as I can.” His voice dropped to a threatening growl. “If you hurt her in anyway before I get there, I will kill you.”

“Believe me when I say it. I’ll do exactly the same to you if you harm one hair on her head.” She growled in reply.



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Maria was sitting waiting for her mother to return when Serena walked into the house carrying some shopping and fresh flowers. She looked at her mother warily, unhappy to be having to ask this of her when she seemed to be so already over burdened.

“Nice flowers.”

“They’re for a friend. Aren’t you supposed to be working this afternoon?”

“Um, you know the boy that I slept-but-didn't-sleep with?”

“Unfortunately, the shock has indelibly printed his face on my brain.”

Serena replied sarcastically, and her response relieved Maria. If she was able to be sarcastic, then she must be more together than she’d been that morning.

“He's in jail.”

“Oh, this just gets better and better, doesn't it?” Inwardly she was groaning to herself, ‘what’s Michael got himself into now?’

“He didn't do anything, ok? Your good friend, Sheriff Valenti, is holding him because he can't explain his whereabouts last night. And personally, I think it was very noble of him to protect my dignity.”

Serena looked sceptical about the dignity part, but that didn’t mean that she wasn’t willing to hear what Maria had to say. Sarcasm aside, she trusted that Maria had a sensible head on her shoulders, and it was a rather chaste Michael that they busted out of jail about half an hour later.

“Wait for me outside.” She had a difficult and long over due conversation to have with Jim Valenti she didn’t want Maria to overhear and over analyse.

“I appreciate you doing this.”

“No problem.“

“I'm telling you the truth, Jim.”

“Well, if you say he was at your house, then he was at your house.”

“But you wouldn't have believed Maria?”

“Well, she's 16. She'll say anything to protect her boyfriend.”

“But she's not just any 16-year-old...she's my daughter.”

“Amy, I'm just doing my job.”

“Yeah, but it seems that your job keeps coming between us.”

“Where's this coming from?”

“I like you, Jim...you know I do. But Maria's at that stage now, and you know that stage.”

“That I do.”

“And I...I have to keep an eye on things. I can't get distracted, and you're a distraction.”

“Well, then, don't give me up.”

“You look tired, Amy. Is there something I can help with?”

She looked down at the ground, unable to hold his eye contact because she was worried that her normally polished ability to lie wouldn’t work. She didn’t want to do what she was about to do, and she would have loved to have been able to take up his offer of assistance, but there was no possibility even if she needed help from someone badly. Her biggest worry was that her eyes would betray the opposite of what she was trying to say.

On the steps of the Sheriff’s office Maria and Michael were standing mixed up in the middle of an awkward silence. Michael was the first to break it.

“Look are you okay after – well you know.”

“Yeah, I’m fine. Probably grounded for the rest of my life, but okay. Unfortunately we haven’t gotten around to the punishment part.”

Michael looked vaguely guilty for her predicament, and Maria inwardly smiled at his response. It meant that he at least cared more than he wanted to admit.

“Look, I’m going to split before your mom comes back.”

“Oh.” She was hoping that maybe they might have been able to talk some more, but it seemed that Michael wasn’t ready yet.

He waved briefly and walked off with Maria watching his departing back with a perplexed expression on her face thinking that the whole relationship thing just seemed to get more confusing as they went along.
Serena picked her next words carefully, not wanting to lie to Jim Valenti anymore than was necessary, he deserved that much.

“I am tired, tired and worried about Maria. What we have, it’s been fun, but it can’t be any more than that. I have other priorities, and they have to come first, always. I know it’s not what you want to hear, but we have to finish this now.”

“I don’t think that’s an answer I’m willing to take.”

“It has to be, for my sake, let’s just leave it as friends.” The sad smile she was wearing as she walked out of the door was genuine.


Serena found Maria standing on the steps of the office alone when she came outside. Michael had obviously split. How very Michael of him, she thought, or rather how very Rath.

“He scuttled off then.”

Maria shrugged, but still tried to defend Michael. “He said thank you.”

“What do you want to do now?”

This was the last response that Maria had been expecting. Another lecture or other punishment perhaps, but not a ticket to freedom.
“I should go back to work?” Maria asked uncertainly.

“Okay, honey, I’ve got to do some stuff this afternoon too.” Serena replied distantly. “I’ll see you later.”

Maria watched her mother head off to where the Jetta was parked. Parents, who could fathom them?


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“She’s patched up as much as I can.” Cal said, his eyes straying to the Moses basket in the corner of the room. “There’s damage, but she’ll survive.”

“Oh thank, God.”

“You’re like her you know. You care too much.”

Amy looked at him intently, and Cal was left with the uncomfortable feeling that she was trying to see right inside of him.

“You make that sound like a bad thing.” She replied carefully.

“It can be.”

“I think maybe you’re not so different. You cared once too, I think.”

“I cared too much once. It nearly destroyed me, but I learned from the experience. I don’t care anymore.”

“She has only ever briefly talked about you. I don’t think you’re the Father of the baby, and I don’t think there’s intimacy between you, so why?”

“Why, what?”

“Why did you come, when you say you don’t give a damn?”

“It doesn’t matter.”

“It does to me.”

“She looked after someone I cared about, was there at the end when I couldn’t be. I owe her for that.”

She put the pieces together in her head. “Ava.”

Cal looked shocked to hear the name on her lips, and his reaction was proof enough that her hunch was correct.

“Avandra, Andra. She never liked to be called Ava. They called her that. I owe Serena because she held Andra when she died, because I couldn’t do that for her this time.”

She tried to touch his shoulder, moved by the grief on Cal’s face, but he moved away from her abruptly aware that he had said too much. His voice was back under control when he next spoke.

“Serena should be okay now. There’s damage too extensive to be healed completely, but she knew the risks when she embarked on the care of the child.”

“You mean she’s not her baby?”

“The baby is human. She would have died if Serena had not chosen to incubate her in her own body. But she was never anatomically designed to do something like that with her body, despite her ability to shape shift. She has cause damage that cannot be repaired and shortened her natural life expectancy.”

“So you can change your appearance?”

“Yes.”

“Can Serena?”

“Not anymore.”

“Oh. Could you do it for her, change her appearance for her, I mean.”

“Yes, but she would not be able to revert on her own.”

“Do this one thing for me then, and you can return to your life and I promise you’ll never hear from me again.”

“What?”

“Make her look like me.”

“Why?”

“To protect them, to protect them with my identity.”

“Without her knowledge.” Cal looked distrustful.

“It is something we’ve discussed.” She elaborated on the lie, reasoning that what was one lie more to the list now. “I don’t think she understood how much damage there would be.”

Cal took her face in his hands and turned it first to the left then the right. “And this was what Serena wanted?” She nodded in reply.

“You’re the same height and build. It could be done.”

“Do it then, let me help my family.”

“Why should I?”

“Because I think you’re a good man, and that you wouldn’t wish them harm.”

Cal walked back into the bedroom, but his sinisterly cryptic words as he left the room left her with an uncomfortable feeling. “But I’m not a man at all.”



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Serena walked through the Roswell cemetery following a familiar path carrying the flowers that she had purchased that morning, and a bottle of water. She stopped by a small marble headstone, which was modest in comparison to many of the others in nearby plots, but that was what she had wanted. The only deviation that Serena had made from her friend’s carefully outlined plans for her funeral was the addition of a small statute of an angel holding a baby. Because that was what she had been to Serena a guardian angel over her and Maria.

The words on the gravestone were weathered by time, but still readable, bearing the name of Serena D’Shan with the usual dates and lovingly regretful sentiments of loss. What would Cal have said if he seen an Antarian name on an American gravestone. For Serena, it was the least she could do for her friend; a name for a name.

Serena knelt down by the headstone, laying down the items that she was carrying on the grass and smiling sadly.

“Hello old friend. I know it’s been a while, but I’m here now.” She wiped a tear away with the back of her hand, and let the rush of words run out of her in a healing wave.

“Oh Amy, I wish you were here now, I want so much to be able to talk to you.”


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“Amy you’ve got to run for me, they’re catching up on us.”

“Yah think, and I thought the bullet hole in my shoulder was their way of saying welcome.” She muttered in reply, moving as fast as was possible across the rough ground whilst cradling her injured shoulder.

Serena spared her a glance over her shoulder stumbling clumsily under the cumbersome weight of her back pack.

“Shit, I forgot about that, how’re you doing?”

“Oh fine I’m dying, but other than that.” There it was again, that same cheeky grin.

“You’re joking?” Serena replied out of breath, but relieved to see their borrowed SUV parked where they left it. “At a time like this you’re joking about that.”

“You’d rather I was crying? Here, catch.” She flung the car keys to Serena who caught them neatly, before carefully laying the backpack down in the back seat and passed a seat belt over the top of it to hold it securely.

Serena helped Amy climbed in to the passenger seat with a groan of pain.

“Crap, this hurts like hell. Bastards.”

Serena looked behind them, and was relieved to see that there was no sign of the Army foot patrol that they had happened across on the way back from the pod chamber. She knew that they couldn’t be far behind, and of the very real risk that they may have called for reinforcements.

“Nice to see that the experience hasn’t improved your language any.”

“Shove it, I’m allowed, this hurts like hell.”

Serena concentrated, placing her hand against the metal work of the vehicle and turned into a fully liveried park ranger’s vehicle, changing the number plates for good measure.

“Nice trick.”

“Yeah, the few I’ve still got left come in handy. Still we have to go. The park ranger cover might be okay if we’re spotted from the air, but I doubt they’re going to buy identical twin park rangers driving around together. Even if one of us is sporting a dodgy platinum blond dye job.”

“It was on my list of things to do. Be a blond, number 32, remember?”

The car started first time, and Serena turned it around with a relieved sigh heading down the dirt road back towards the highway at a brisk pace.

“How are we going to do this now, with you injured? You start work in less than 2 hours.”

“So, I’ll be late.”

“That’s not even funny.”

“You could always go in for me.” Serena’s expression clearly showed her disinclination to that suggestion, even if Amy was still joking.

“Okay, maybe not.” They turned onto the highway, and Amy sighed, thankful that the bumping around had stopped. “Thank God, tarmac. You don’t need to panic, it’s a flesh wound. I’ll patch up fine, and just tell them I pulled a muscle or something.”

Serena looked sceptical, noting the blood stain on Amy’s shirt.

“I have to be there today, Serena. What other choice do we have? We’re out of time.”

Amy stared out of the windscreen, remembering back to the night that she met Cal Langley, with one thought weighing heavily on her mind amidst the mixture of regret that she felt for Serena and even the taciturn Cal Langley. Serena, I think you’ve done him a disservice. God help you if he ever finds out.

He’d thought he hid his scars so well, but they were clear for anyone who bothered to look. There was a vein of pain running through Cal Langley a mile wide and Serena, however well intentioned, had been the cause.



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It was late when Max eventually fell into a troubled sleep that night. Concerns for Michael and Isabel plaguing him and his dreams, but he eventually managed to find Liz as he did most nights now.

In their dreams, Liz and Max were lying entwined in Max’s room lying in his bed in the darkness. The dream had begun with them in this position, both dressed for bed and already wrapped around each other when it began.

Max was running his hand up and down Liz’s back with gentle repetitive strokes. Without understanding why or how he knew, he just felt that she needed comfort rather than passion. She had been mute so far, curling trustingly to his side as if it was the natural place for her to be she was lying with her head against his chest listening to the steady thump of his heart.


I’m really close tonight
And I feel like I’m moving inside her
Lying in the dark
And I think that I’m beginning to know her
Let it go
I’ll be there when you call



Liz didn’t want to move and didn’t want to speak, because that would break the moment. Here and now was perfect, because in the next couple of seconds she was going to have to spoil their time together. She wanted him to be the first to speak, to force her to leave her sanctuary and give her the strength to do what needed to be done. Max had questions, she could feel it in the way he was holding her, soothing her rather than trying to arouse. His silence was full of questions, and her silence offered no answer, at least not yet, not whilst she was where she wanted to be and able to simply lay here and be held sheltered against the world outside.

Denial would have been an easy place to hide, but Max new that something was troubling Liz and he wanted to help carry the burden, whatever it was. His voice abruptly shattered their moments of silence, and Liz stifled a sigh, knowing what had to be done despite her reluctance.

“Can’t you tell me what’s wrong?”


And whenever I fall at your feet
You let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain



Liz moved away from him getting out of the bed and putting deliberate physical distance between them by walking to the other side of the room with full awareness that she had to be able to make this point. Max didn’t like the feeling of being physically separate from her, and moved automatically to pull her back and missed. He stood by the side of the bed, regretting, but respectful of the distance that she had placed between them, and waiting patiently for her to reply to his softly spoken question.

“This, it isn’t enough anymore. I want more. Need so much more than this. Our time has to be now and I have to have everything that you are, Max. That’s all that I’ve already given you of myself.”


You’re hiding from me now
There’s something in the way that you’re talking
Words don’t sound right
But I hear them all moving inside you, go
I’ll be waiting when you call



Max looked haunted. He was sick at the thought that his step back speech seemed to have had such a profound effect on Liz. He had wanted them to take some time, make some breathing room for them both since they were falling into each other so fast. He’d been scared that she might have had regrets later. He’d never doubted the depths of his own feelings, but his crisis of confidence had made him doubt that Liz might be able to question her feelings later, and find him wanting in someway. He’d been a fool.

Max held out his arms to Liz, wanting to offer an apology for his mistake, and looking for the reassurance that acceptance would give. His arms, however, remained empty as she took a step back from him, increasing the distance between them.

“No, Max, not here, not anymore.”

Max wasn’t really listening to what she was saying as he stared down at the floor in anguish. He was too caught up in the sting of her rejection and the thought that it might be too late to fix his foolish mistake. When he marshalled the strength to look back up at Liz her face was full of compassion rather than the anger he expected.


Hey and whenever I fall at your feet
Won’t you let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain



She took a step closer to him, but did not try to enter his arms even though they automatically rose to embrace her slight body. Instead, she extended her own arm and caressed his cheek gently Max covered her hand with his own and pressed his face into her palm, craving the skin to skin contact.

He was desperate to explain his reason for his actions, or inaction, to try to make things right.

“I love you Liz, you are my entire world.”


The finger of blame has turned upon itself
And I’m more than willing to offer myself
Do you want my presence or need my help
Who knows where that might lead

I fall



Liz smiled again, finding unlikely humour in the situation. He still didn’t understand, she didn’t really understand herself, she just knew instinctively that they needed to do this, to take this step.

She took another step back from him, trying to say with her eyes that it wasn’t a rejection, more an invitation to follow.

“Then come and find me in the real world.” Her voice vibrated softly around the room as her physical presence melted away leaving Max standing alone in his room.


Whenever I fall at your feet
Would you let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I fall, ever I fall
Whenever I fall, ever I fall


(Fall at Your Feet - Crowded House)



“Liz!” startled out of sleep, Max sat up in his bed with Liz’s name on his lips. In her own bedroom, Liz continued to sleep soundly unperturbed by her dreams.


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In the darkness of it’s sandy hiding place, the orb that had been buried so many years before out in the desert came to life with a subtle blue glow, before settling into a steady pulse in time with a heart beat.


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Cal was striding up and down in his hotel room firmly invested in his role of movie mogul. He flicked cigar ash negligently onto the carpet as he passed up and down in front of the speaker phone in his hotel room. It was 2AM in the morning, but as far as he was concerned, if he was up and working, then so were his overpaid staff.

“I’m not interested in what he wants in his contract. That bastard is being offered millions for the role, so he can take the contract as it’s written or kiss my ass. There are plenty of other actors who would bite my hand off for the……”

He froze in mid stride, losing focus as he felt the pull of the orb for the first time in decades. It couldn’t be what he thought he was experiencing?

“If he won’t sign find someone else!”

“We’ve already drawn up a short list, and have their screen tests ready for you to review.”

Yet there it was again, like a gentle tingling in his mind producing a steady, familiar and comforting throb inside him like a heart beat. It had once been a feeling that was so much a part of him that he’d taken it for granted, and he had suffered the loss bitterly when it was severed.

“Cal?” His assistant voice on the other end of the phone queried for an answer, confused by his distracted silence.

“Fine, I’ll review the DVDs at some point.”

“We need to go over the production scheduling for…”

“I’m not interested in that now!”

“But the investors.”

“I don’t care, this call is over.”

Cal sat down heavily on his bed, and lit another cigar pondering this new turn of events.


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In a rented house 50 miles outside of Roswell, Ed Harding stood in the darkened doorway of his charges bedroom and watched her with dispassionate eyes.

He entered her room stealthily, going to the side of her bed before holding his palm over Tess’s forehead and whilst a short blast of white light appeared as he concentrated his powers briefly. Dreams were such a powerful tool if used properly, it was all about letting people see what they desired.

Tess looked serene as she lay asleep with her blond curls framing her face making her look like an ethereal angel in the moonlight. She had a small smile curving her lips, and it amused Nasado to think of her reaching out in her dreams for her future husband, even as he was planning the former king’s destruction. Timing, as he always told Tess, was everything and for now the needed to wait patiently for the right time to strike.


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It was dark now, but Serena was still in her lonely spot. She had no fear of meeting ghosts from the past in this place because the past was not something she feared. It was the future that she found scary, but that didn’t mean that the past didn’t hold regrets.

Collecting up her second bunch of flowers, Serena Amy’s grave, which bore the name of another woman, and walked through the graveyard to an older section, finding the grave that she was looking for easily once again. She knelt down and again methodically cleared the grave of debris and weeds, filled the small vase with water and arranged the second bunch of flowers within it.

She had come to the graveyard today to try to leave past regrets behind, but it was here in the dark when they came crashing back down on her, and more tears ran down her face as she sat with her head bent to weep her apologies to the stars.

To Cal for lying. To Eva for sacrificing her for the greater good. To a woman and the child that she would never see grow into the beautiful young woman she was becoming, and to Amy for not being able to save her friend in the end.

The stars bore silent witness to her distress, but did not give any real comfort, and in the end it was the coldness of the evening and the realisation that Maria would be expecting her home that prompted her to leave. Regardless, Serena still took a moment to run her hand over the words written on the gravestone that she had so carefully maintained. With the threat of a potential conflict to come, she was unlikely to be able to return to this place. Tonight had been about saying goodbye to the past so that she could face the future to the best of her abilities as ever. With one last look, she got to her feet, brushed down her clothes and turned to walk slowly back to her car.

The grave marker stood on its own once again in the moonlight, a monument to a lost loved one, its inscription reading, ‘In loving memory of Sheila Hubble, beloved wife and mother.’

Posted: Wed Aug 09, 2006 1:44 pm
by Reamhar
Many thanks as ever for the lovely feedback, and to Rhonda Ann and Tequathisy for betaing this story. :D

Takes place at the end of Independence Day and the beginning of Sexual Healing.

Some dialogue is taken from the episode Sexual Healing.

Flash backs are shown in italics.



Part Nine - Back to Normal



She was blinded in a hell of white. The walls, ceiling, floor, every surface and texture were all unforgivingly white and painful to her sensitive eyes.

Curled up in the tightest ball that she could contort her assumed human form into, she was jammed into the corner furthest away from the door instinctively trying to protect her injured body from the threat of the humans that were moving about outside. With her hands covering her ears and her face buried into her drawn up knees Serena rocked backwards and forwards, without words anxiously begging for the noise to stop.

His voice came again from another room. Loud and shrill with pain, it echoed around the bare walls of her cell and dragged out more terrified sobs that caused her body to shake even more than before.

“Why are you doing this to us? We’re not your enemy. We’re here to protect the future of all our planets.”

Serena clamped her hands tighter over her ears, desperate for Tanic to stop screaming and as desperate for him to continue. His silence would mean that he had been released from his pain, but she knew that when he stopped they would be coming to remove her from this white walled hell and to take her to a worse place.

They had been working with him for hours now, and his cries were becoming weaker with each hour that passed. They were merciless in their zeal to figure out how and why the captured alien worked, as though he was little more than a macabre science project.

Because of his prior injuries sustained in the crash Tanic had been taken first and Serena had been left to listen to his suffering. Her superior officer and perhaps the most compassionate individual that Serena had ever known had been alternatively railing against them, and trying to reason with them. Regardless, their examination had continued relentlessly despite his verbal outpouring even when he had began begging for some sort of mercy.

“Don’t do this, why do you want to do this!”

His pain filled voice once again vibrated around the room and up and down the concrete corridor. Even if his words might have made a difference, the only one who could understand him was shivering in the corner of her cell like a trapped animal. As his body was succumbing to his treatment and injuries his mind was losing its grasp on their borrowed language and he had been screaming out in Antarian for the last couple of hours.

The sound of more foot steps echoed down the corridor outside of her cell, as a new group of humans came to work on Tanic. They seemed to be working in shifts, changing every couple of hours so that a fresh group of hands were available to continue working on the Antarian Medical Officer and Physician to the Royal Family. Serena had been largely ignored so far, aside from a brief exam before she was thrown into the blinding whiteness of her cell.

Tanic had stopped crying out now, as his pain forced even his grasp of his mother tongue to slide into simple, stark groans of pain. Serena pulled herself into an even tighter ball, trying to make herself so small that they wouldn’t be able to find her within the room when her time came. She began to chant her husbands name in time with her rhythmic rocking as her only potential saviour from this hell except death.

“Galen… Galen…Galen…”

If fear had a colour, it was white, and Serena was drowning within its choking hold.



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Sitting beside an open laptop and behind the counter of her shop, Serena was doodling on a note pad whilst half heartedly keeping an eye on a group of whispering teenage girls who were paying a little too much attention to a display of scented candles to be up to good.

The otherwise blank paper in front of her contained one word written over and over again, ‘transference’ and a list of dates. As hard as she was trying to deny the figures that were glaring at her from the screen of the lap top, the genetically pre-programmed anniversary of the royals’ transference was fast approaching. With it came the almost certain reappearance of Nasado. Her erstwhile husband had the same understanding of the genetic drives of the royals as she, and was bound to recognise their vulnerability.

Whilst Serena had no way to know how long Cal had been snooping around Roswell, his continued presence clearly indicated that he had failed to find Nasado yet. He must still have reason to believe that Nasado was or would return to the area. Cal also knew about the transferences and had probably come to the same conclusions.

Serena didn’t need Cal’s continued attendance to confirm that Nasado had been in the area. A chance conversation with Sheriff Valenti over dinner about a John Doe who had been later identified as none other than Everett Hubble give her all the information she needed. It was too much of a coincidence to believe that Nasado had not had a hand in the unfortunate man’s death. That knowledge left Serena once again feeling responsible and unconscionably relieved that Maria’s biological father was gone. She had arranged for an anonymous donation to be made to ensure that Everett Hubble was laid to rest with Sheila as a mark of respect and to soothe her guilt.

The whispering teenagers had formed a semicircular huddle around the candles before turning together and making a b-line to the front door whilst Serena continued to appear engrossed in her laptop and note book.

Maria was due to meet Michael outside the courthouse after his emancipation hearing that afternoon. Maria had been tentative about informing Serena that she was meeting the boy that had been found in her bed, but was obviously unwilling to lie about it. She still had no way to know that her mother knew more about Michael than Maria could ever dream, or how much Serena was dreading the day that she discovered that knowledge.

Serena had, however, played her part in the deception game perfectly as ever, and begrudgingly granted permission with sufficient doom filled warnings to be authentic.

The teenagers were almost on the thresh hold of the door way when Serena bothered to look up at them.

“I don’t suppose you ladies were intending to leave without paying, were you?” One advantage to assuming the role of alien protector was having eyes in the back of your head.

The girls looked like rabbits trapped in the headlights of an on coming car, as Serena lazily looked up from her laptop and pinned them with ‘the look’ that only a mother could truly perfect.

One of the more quick thinking of the group suddenly dropped her haul of stolen candles before making a break for the door followed in action and departure by the rest of the sheep in her group.

Serena returned her gaze back to the writing on her notepad, and drew a biro ink circle around the date calculations that she had been working on. She couldn’t be bothered with trying to catch the girls. Besides, another advantage of being alien was a photographic memory. There was no way those girls could come into her shop again and not be recognised.


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Maria was sitting calmly on the stone steps of the court house finishing a can of diet coke and enjoying the sunshine when they emerged after Michael’s emancipation hearing. Max and Michael emerged first, with Mr Evans stopping to converse with a fellow lawyer and Isabel lingering to admire the attractiveness of an older man within the building.

Michael felt like he had been holding his breath throughout the final meeting with the judge, and that he could now let it out and breath normally for the first time in weeks. He was free, and as in charge of his own destiny as any other person could be rather than under the control of a whimsical social services system. There was a liberating force in recognising that he had blessing to be counted rather than disadvantages to rage against.

He came out to the shadow of the porch of the court house and onto the steps. Closing his eyes, he raised his head to enjoy the warmth of the morning sunlight on his face and felt like an impossibly heavy weight had been lifted from his back.

Max enjoyed watching Michael finally relax for the first time in weeks. It made him feel like he could let go of his responsibilities towards his family and finally focus on his own interests without feeling selfish. Today was going to be the day he would begin repairing his relationship with Liz.

Since the dream in which Liz had stepped back from him and told him to come find her in the real world, the dreams that he had been having of them together had stopped. He’d missed them, and he missed her to the point of being lonely despite seeing her every day at school and more often than not at the Crashdown in the evenings. It wasn’t the same as having the right to touch her hair, or expect to be able to ask for simple, precious one to one time with Liz.

With Michael’s successful hearing it felt to Max as though all their lives were coming back on track again. Seeing the expression on Michael’s face as he spotted Maria waiting at the bottom of the steps, Max guessed that Michael was going to be trying to build bridges as well.

Michael turned to look behind him, wondering how much of an audience he would have if he went to speak to Maria. He found Max standing behind him and Isabel and Mr Evans absent.

Max waved his hand back towards the doorway. “I’m going to find Iz, do you want a lift?”

“No, I’m good.” Max turned to leave.

“Max. It’s not enough under the circumstances, but thanks.”

“Anytime.”

Michael turned, and made slow progress down the steps toward where Maria was standing. This was going to be an awkward conversation not just because of the subject matter which never came easily to him, but also because Maria was likely to make him crawl because of his recent behaviour. Michael was unhappily resolved to take whatever verbal rocks she threw at him, because he owed her everything and deserved to pay penance if she felt she wanted to dish it out.

They came abreast of each other and Michael found himself looking down into her eyes, at a loss for what to say. As rocky a relationship that they had, it seemed that when it mattered he didn’t need the words that came with difficulty to him to communicate with his Maria. He reached out and pulled her into a hug, grateful when he felt her return the gesture by wrapping her arms around his waist and squeezing.


“He should come back with us and have lunch to celebrate. You shouldn’t have just let him wander off on his own like that, Max.”

Isabel came through the court house door with Max on her heals protesting the need to find Michael. Her scolding stopped when she saw Michael and Maria embracing in the street.

“That’s what I was trying to tell you, Iz, he isn’t on his own.”

Maria pulled back from Michael after several seconds unaware of their audience. Michael braced himself for the explosion, and found himself rushing to fill the silence that followed.

“Look about that night, and the last couple of weeks.” True to form, Michael was never more taciturn than when he was trying to thank someone. “Eh,”

Maria studied his face for several seconds, wickedly enjoying his squirming even if she understood the source. She tipped her head to one side, turning one cheek to face him whilst point a carefully manicured finger at it. She had to stop herself from laughing out loud when Michael’s face creased up with confusion. She pointed her finger once again to side of her face.

“A kiss thank you will be fine, there’s no need to choke on the words.” She was poking fun at him lightly, and eventually did laugh when he replied with a grumpy grunt as he lowered his lips to comply.

What she wasn’t expecting was for him to head for her lips, or him to ensure that she was just a little weak at the knees before he let her go with every sign of reluctance.

Isabel started to make gagging noises as she watched Maria and Michael in a clinch, but secretly she was delighted for him. He deserved to have someone special to look after him and to look after. Isabel had come to understand from this sorry episode in their lives that Michael needed someone in his life more than Max and herself. If Maria was his choice, it was selfish to stand in his way.

She turned to Max and caught the delighted smile on his face. The same was true of Max and Liz. She needed to step back and allow them to find out if they could be together. Max had loved Liz from afar since they were children with such focus and commitment for one so young. He needed to be able to follow his heart now, and Isabel needed to trust his instincts.

“I suppose I’m going to have to put up with this from you and Liz as well.” She said with a roll of her eyes. “Super!”

“I’m going to find dad. You coming?”

“Sure.”

Michael pulled back from Maria, and successfully hid his smugness at the slightly dazed expression on her face.

“Thank you. “

“You’re welcome.” Maria replied, finally coming back to earth.

“So, do you want to hang out this afternoon? I’ve got some apartments to look at. The Evans have given me some money for a down payment until the check comes through from social services.”

“Yeah, I can help. Since wherever you pick is bound to become alien central command, I want to be able to check that it’s suitable for the purpose.”

“I need somewhere inexpensive, Maria.” Michael replied, imagining the Maria’s expectations might be slightly higher than his limited budget.

“You mean you won’t care if it’s a flea pit as long as you can watch ice hockey and plug in your Play Station. Well, mister, if you expect me to spend anytime there, it needs to be more than just suitable for a ‘guy’.”

Michael hugged Maria into his side, pleased by the thought of being able to spend time with her at his new place.

“Fine.”

“And, for the record, we will not be picking apartments on the basis of their proximety to doughnut shops.”

“Fine.”

“Or McDonalds.”

“Or Burger King…”

They walked off towards the Jetta bickering good naturedly in a way that was uniquely Maria and Michael.



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It was dead in the Crashdown that evening, and Liz was taking full advantage of the lack of customers by day dreaming about one of the more raunchy dreams that she had been having about Max recently. Maria was on the other side of the room re-cleaning the tables for want of something better to do, and watching the play of emotions run across Liz’s day dreaming face with a certain amount of amusement at her usually down to earth friend’s expense.

They had of course had the best friend conversation about Liz’s rather graphic dreams regarding, or rather involving Max, and Maria was convinced it was her stellar powers of persuasion that had caused Liz to spill the majority of the gory details for Maria’s analysis. And what a specific level of detail Liz had gone into!

The opening of the door announced the arrival of a new group of customer, dashing Maria’s hope that they could close early tonight. Maria decided that it was time to bring Liz back to the land of the living and off planet Max for now.

Liz was just reliving the favourite bit of her dream involving Max and her lack of a towel when Maria’s voice interrupted her thoughts. She jumped in fright, knocking over a bowl of strawberries all over the floor with a noisy clang

“Liz? Are you ok?”

“Yeah, I'm...I'm fine, why wouldn’t I be fine.” Liz replied, guiltily trying to cover up her raunchy day dreaming. It was the way that Maria took in her friend’s flushed face, and inability to look her in the eye that showed Liz that Maria knew exactly what she had been up to.

Liz had no regrets about confessing to Maria the nature of her recent dreams and daydreams over Ben & Jerry’s. In fact Liz had been so freaked out by the accuracy of her dreams regarding Michael’s mistreatment at the hands of Hank that she had sought out Maria’s council willingly, finding some relief in sharing her concerns with her friend. The level of detail that Maria had wheedled had been squirmingly submitted for Maria’s assessment to see if she could make sense of the one non-erotic dream amongst the rest.

Maria had been matter of fact enough in coming to an explanation. Liz was sexually frustrated being separated from Max, and some how she had picked up on Max’s anxiety about Michael unconsciously and then made sense of it in her dreams. Simple enough and an explanation that Liz was happy to accept because it made more sense than her suddenly becoming telepathic.

When Amy turned up at the Crashdown a couple of days later with some lavender scented candles as a gift, saying that Maria had said she was having difficulty sleeping, Liz had accepted the gift with a red face, and muttered thanks.

Liz drilled Maria later that same day to ensure that she had not been in over sharing mode with her mother about the exact nature of her sleeping problems. Maria’s reply had been an indignant ‘no’, but she supposed she must have mentioned it somehow, but didn’t remember the conversation. Neither suspected the truth. That Serena had been deliberately eavesdropping on Maria’s conversations for her own reasons.

Another conversation over ice-cream had ensued in which Maria confessed that she was worried about her mother. Since the ‘bedroom incident’, she had become distant and distracted. Maria felt like her mother was openly avoiding spending time with her, and was worried that she was disappointed in her behaviour.

Liz had agreed that this was unusual behaviour for Amy who, very like Maria, seemed to prefer to deal with issues head on and out in the open. Liz found it difficult to believe that Amy would be distant to Maria as a form of extended punishment. It wasn’t in her nature.

What seemed to confuse Maria even more was that there hadn’t actually been any punishment. Apart from her mother’s melt down at Michael which Maria was able to chuckle about now, there had been no grounding, or other sanction. Things had gone quietly and uncomfortably back to normal, but Maria felt like there was still a tension in the house that lingered like a bad smell, and she was unsure how to bring it to an end.

The bell above the door sounded again, and Maria grumpily turned to the door in expectation of more customers to find Max hesitating on the threshold, obviously checking the room in search of Liz.

“You have a visitor.” Maria indicated, helping herself to one of the displaced strawberries as compensation for having to go back to work. “Mmm. Sweet.”

She sauntered over to Max with a suggestive little smile on her face and confusingly handed him a strawberry before heading towards an occupied booth quietly laughing at the bemused expression she had brought to his face. Keep them guessing, that was her motto.

Posted: Sat Sep 09, 2006 7:24 am
by Reamhar
Many thanks to the wonderful betas for this story RhondaAnn & Tequathisy


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Takes place during the episode Sexual Healing, and uses some dialogue from that episode.


<u>Part Ten – Something in the Air</u>


<i>Serena found a strange comfort in the sensation of the cold floor tile under her cheek as she lay semiconscious on the floor of her cell, naked except for a paper theatre gown.

They had dumped Serena back in the white room after another afternoon of tests only a few hours ago, but time had ceased to mean anything to Serena. The tests today had been less vigorous than previous, but her exhausted body was recovering a little less each time she came back and in her mind she was slowly reaching for the relief of oblivion.

The noise of a door opening somewhere to Serena’s right intruded on the eerie silence in the room, but Serena didn’t bother to lift her head to investigate or to focus her blurred vision on the face of the intruder who entered.

A pair of army boots and legs clad in army fatigues came into her line of vision, swimming into focus briefly and then out again. Her sluggish mind registered that an army fatigue person was a strange visitor. She was much more used to lab coats and scrubs.

Serena didn’t invest any effort in trying to work out why this was different, because she didn’t care anymore, instead she rolled her head to the side until she faced the wall and tried to pretend that she as invisible.

It never worked. They always managed to find her, both physically and inside her own mind. There was no escape.

Army fatigue person was trying to rouse her, but she stubbornly ignored his hands against her shoulder and voice in her ear.

She was going to lie here and be left alone. If they wanted to take her back to that room, she wasn’t going to do anything to help.

“Serena!……Wake up!……. Serena!”

Disjointed words spoken in a foreign tongue were slow to register on her sluggish mind. When they eventually did, it was the use of her name that caused a spark of resentment. They treated her like she was a lab animal. Animals didn’t have names, so they had no right to have her name, let alone use it against her desire to lay here and fade painlessly away.

“Avaeya……. Wake up.”

The hands against her shoulders were gentler now, almost tender, and the Antarian endearment ‘avaeya’ (beloved), registered more strongly in her mind than the other words spoken in English. Her muddled brain still didn’t manage to connect the two together as her thoughts wandered with the word.

Avaeya, beloved. Zan called Avandra that. The people called her that too, but she wasn’t Avandra anymore. Avandra was dead.

No, not dead, reborn.

The mission. Mustn’t tell them about the mission.

It was okay. Couldn’t tell them about the mission because she was invisible. Not here anymore. Invisible.

More jostling followed, rougher this time. Not gentle or tender anymore.

“Leave me.” She whispered the words in English past parched lips. “Alone.”

“Don’t worry, avaeya, you won’t be here alone for much longer.” Army fatigues voice was gloating. “Cal will soon be joining you.”

There was a flash of power, and the room was infused with energy which made Serena’s body respond instinctively by gathering her own energy to provide defence against an aggressor, but like a shorted out lamp it sparked painfully briefly, before fading out.

The sound of a body falling as a dead weight to the floor frightened Serena enough to make her turn to where army fatigues had been standing, to find him now crumbled on the floor, with someone in medical scrubs standing over his prone body.

People in medical scrubs meant going back to that room, but they couldn’t take her if the couldn’t find her. If she was invisible, then she could not be found. She screwed her eyes shut, and ignored the body of army fatigues and the angry words of the person in medical scrubs.

“Next time you leave someone for dead, Galen, make sure they’re actually unconscious. You incompetent fool! “We’ll see who’ll be staying and who’s going.”

Cal fired a brief pulse of energy into Galen’s head to make sure the prostrate traitor would stay out cold, and as a final measure, used his own power to revert Galen to his natural form. There would be no confusion when they found him that he was an alien rather than an unconscious soldier. He wouldn’t worm his way out of this cage.

Cal tried to be gentle as he slapped Serena’s face to rouse her, but she seemed to be too out of it to realise who he was. He gave up in the end, and instead scooped her up and carried her out into the corridor.

She was in a bad way. If they had waited much longer to try to get her out it might have been too late. So much for Galen’s early recon reports that she had been fine.

Cal knew he needed to get Serena to a private place and tend to her injuries, but he also needed to collect the pods, so they were far from out of the woods yet.

Serena realised that she was being carried out of her cell and down a long corridor. Light from the over held bulbs hurt her eyes as they moved, and as much as being carried physically hurt, the arms holding her, confusingly, were not deliberately being rough. None of that mattered, however, because she was being taken back, despite her efforts to disappear.

She tried to struggle weakly, but her body could only respond with a slight arching of her back and a thready cry of, “No, leave me, no more!”

The medic carrying her didn’t try to restrain her, or inflict any physical punishment; instead he spoke in a steady, calming voice and in her mother tongue.

“Serena, hold on, okay. I’m going to get you out of here.”

They turned into a doorway marked ‘Morgue’, and Cal carefully laid Serena on a trolley which was draped with a surgical sheet which he in turn wrapped around her cold body.

Serena realised that these weren’t the actions of someone who wanted to hurt her, but of someone who was trying to help.

“Galen?” she asked, hopeful that he had finally come.

“No, Serena, its Cal.” His face grew angry as he heard the weak hope in her voice when she said his name. How was she going to react when she found out that her precious husband had been in this facility more than once following Cal’s orders, and had clearly been planning on leaving her to rot?

“Galen is busy, but I’ve got you, okay?”

This was the second time that Cal had come to the morgue. The first had been after the surprising exit of the human officer, which was followed rapidly by a power blast which had been designed to leave Cal out cold in a room with two dead human doctors.

Galen had been careless however, and when Cal had come to, he had hidden the bodies of the doctors before assuming the identity of one of them. It had been a useful ploy, as he had been able to deflect the interests of the search party when they came in response to the alarm.

Cal had then gone in search of Serena. Finding Galen gloating over her unconscious figure had been a bonus, but not planned. Now he had to get them all out of here, and that wasn’t going to be an easy task by any means.

Cal held Serena’s face between his hands, trying to get her to focus on his voice. Her eyes blinked at him drunkenly.

“Serena, stay with me, okay. You’re going to be fine. We just need to get out of here.”

There was no sign on her face to show that she understood what he was saying.

“Forgive me Serena, it’s better if you’re unconscious for this part.” He sent a short burst of power into her temples, and her eye rolled back into her head and she went limp.

Cal lifted her up off the table easily and was concerned by how light she felt, but forced himself to concentrate on the job at hand. Grim faced he put her gently inside one of the coffins that had been laid against the wall for future use, and with determined purpose, closed and sealed the lid.</i>


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It was the ‘ting’ of the kitchen bell that brought Liz and Max thumping back to earth from their passion induced haze. Not the voice in Max’s head that had quickly stopped saying that this was wrong place, or that he was mauling her against a kitchen work top, or the muted voices of oblivious diners through the flimsy barrier of the swinging doors.

Max pulled back from the delectable length of Liz’s neck which was arched towards the scorching trail that his lips had been making down her skin towards her pulse point, as he tried to get his breathing and libido back under control.

Liz was still floating in the maelstrom of passion that had fogged both their senses. She was still engulfed within her awareness of Max, and the singular sensation of lips against skin, breathy moans and the desire for more. So much feeling acutely narrowed into moments of sensation that were so exquisitely pleasurable that they were painfully intense.

Max felt like his senses were returning one at a time as though he had just fallen out of a sensory void. Like the world around him had blurred to just Liz, but was rapidly sliding back into focus with an uncomfortable lurch.

Watching Liz for the final few seconds before she came back to herself, he was almost tempted to answer the call of his overheated body and throw them both back into the void just for the pleasure of hearing her breathy moans again.

As she opened eyes, she seemed to be struggling to focus on his face, and Max noticed that she seemed unsteady on her feet, clinging onto his shirt under his jacket as she breathed heavily.

“Max?” Her voice was quiet, almost confused.

He moved his hand to cup her face, and become more concerned when he realised how hot she felt, as her face was suddenly covered in a sheen of sweat. He was plagued with guilt that perhaps the intensity of their reaction to each other had been alien in origin, and therefore potentially harmful to Liz.

“Liz?”

Her eyes seemed to be gradually losing the dazed quality, and he was relieved to see her finally focus on his face. Her hands loosened the death grip on his shirt, instead moving across the muscles of his back with a distractingly pleasant stroking motion.

“Hey there, are you okay?”

Liz nodded; happy to oblige when he encouraged her to lay her face against his chest as he stroked her hair and the world slowly came back into sharper focus.

“I just need a minute.”

When she pulled back from Max, she found him studying her with a worried frown on his face. She could almost hear the wheels going around in his head, being pushed along by the guilty worry that he’d some how hurt her because she had been so out of it for a few moments.

The truth was she felt amazingly energized now that the initial dizziness had past, and still incredibly sensitive to Max’s presence, and loved it. The way his big hand was running rhythmically through her hair. The way his body felt as she sheltered against him, and the way he made her feel protected, just by holding her close.

“I’m okay, Max, really. It was just really intense.”

Max looked over her shoulder, guiltily unable to meet her gaze, as he stuttered an apology for his ardour.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to be so rough.” He eventually looked back into her eyes, begging for some for forgiveness. “I’ve just missed you so much, and I know that it was my fault that I wanted to take a step back, but..”

He stopped when she laughed softly and put soft fingers up to his lips to stop his rush of apologetic words.

“You weren’t rough.”

“I understand that you wanted to slow things down.”

“And I’ve missed you too.”

Liz punctuated each sentence with a gentle, amused kiss, trying to reassure him as she spoke, and maybe teasing him just a little.

When that hand which had been stroking through her hair, cupped the back of her head and pulled gently to tip her head back up towards his mouth, Liz was more than willing to help. She stretched up on her toes, moving her lips against Max’s as he kissed her thoroughly, but with more control than their earlier all consuming passion.

It was Liz who pulled back this time, when she felt herself slowly losing grip on reality again. The realisation that Maria would come looking for her if she remained missing much longer, helped to keep Liz focused.

“We need to stop.”

Max smiled against her mouth at the reluctance in her words, and began making a pleasantly tingly journey with his lips across her cheek towards her ear.

“Do we have to?” he groan reluctantly.

“Ah-huh.”

“Na-huh.”

“Or Maria is sure to come looking for me.”

Max pulled back, and they stood forehead to forehead, still unwilling to let go just yet.

Max was unsure how to explain to her that he felt that his heart was fit to burst with happiness because she was allowing him the privilege to be in the warmth of her company again, despite his mistakes. She was amazing to him.

“Thank you.”

“For what?”

“Being you.”

They stepped away from each other, and Liz gave him a quizzical smile in response to his gently spoken words.

“It’s the only way I know how to be.”

“And we're friends?”

Max tried to lighten the tone, and returned her earlier teasing with some of his own by repeating their earlier, rather charged conversation when so much flirting had ended with physically passion.

The provocation of the soft curves of her behind, which he had been admiring in her short uniform, brushing against him had ended what had been left of his control after so many weeks of being apart.

“Yeah. We're friends.” Liz was picking up the last of the strawberries when she smiled back her reply.

“<i>Just</i> friends?”

Liz tossed a strawberry at him in devilment, and enjoyed his laughter when he caught it, and then bit into the sweet fruit.

“I have to get back to work. Do you want Tabasco with your fruit?” She asked, pointing to the boxes of the condiment stacked against the wall.
Max shook his head with another wide smile.

“I should go. Can I call you tonight?”

“I’d be disappointed if you didn’t.”

He dropped a soft kiss on her lips in goodbye, and said softly, “I would never disappoint a lady,” as he backed out of the door.

Liz smiled beguilingly as he left, unaware of how glorious she looking clutching the bowl of strawberries to her chest as Max caught a tantalising glimpse of cleavage through her open top button, or how her tousled hair framed her pretty face attractively drawing his attention to her swollen lips and sparkling eyes.

Max re-entered the diner with a goofy grin on his face, and looking considerably more confident than when he had entered. The same feeling that his life was once again moving forward that he had experienced that morning on the court house steps whilst watching Maria with Michael washed over him again, and his smile broadened.

Tonight, tomorrow and all the days afterwards were stretching ahead of Max, and they seemed much less frightening now.

Max adjusted himself gingerly as he walked towards the door, trying to use his coat to cover the part of his body that had not quite calmed down yet, and was in the process of pulling his jacket closed when Maria caught his eye with a knowing look.

Despite his intention to carry on walking nonchalantly as though nothing untoward had happened in the back room his steps slowed, and his smile slowly faded to be replaced by a warm blush, as Maria held up a strawberry between her fingers and waved it at him with a cheekily cocked eye brow.

He was busted, and they both knew it as he hurried the rest of the way to the door, and into the cool night air, thinking that he was never going to be able to think of strawberries the same way again.