Troubled Soul--(M/L--Mature) COMPLETE --Oct 18

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Title: Troubled Soul
Author: Behrsgirl1230
Disclaimer: I don't own anything.
Pairing: Max and Liz
Rating: Mature
Summary: After Max sees Liz in bed with Kyle, Liz becomes depressed and starts changing. (not changing like in Ch-Ch-Changes lol) The whole story is Liz's POV
Author's Note: This is my first time posting on here so I hope you guys like my story! Feedback would be very much appreciated! haha. And if anyone wants to make a banner for me I would be forever grateful!

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Chapter 1

I was in complete shock. I've never felt such pain before. As I watched Max leave my balcony, I felt a tear slip down my cheek as I looked at Kyle.

"I guess my job is done. Are you gonna be ok? Do you want me t o stay?"

I shook my head. "Thanks Kyle, but I think I'll be alright. I just want to be alone."

"Ok. Call me if you need me."

I nodded. "I will."

Kyle started to leave. "Kyle?"

"Yeah?"

"Thank you. I owe you one."

"Hey, what are friends for?"

I laughed. Then he turned towards my door to leave, but as he was about to turn the handle he hesitated and then turned around and said, "Liz, I'm not sure I'll ever figure out why exactly you wanted to do this, but you obviously have your reasons. If you ever want to talk about it or anything, I'll be here for you."

I smiled and then he left.

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a few hours later....

I fell asleep when Kyle left and I ended up waking up at around 2 in the morning. I just couldn't sleep. The events of what just happened, the look on Max's face, none of that would get out of my head. Despite the fact that the world would no longer be in danger 14 years from now, I still felt so awful. My heart was broken, and I don't think it will be mended for a very long time, if at all. I just lost the love of my life forever. My soul mate is gone and I'll never get him back.

I finally got back to sleep, But when I woke up in the morning I felt like complete crap. I knew I had to go to school though, I had to face him. My parents were already downstairs when I was about to leave. I didn't know how I was going to get through the day, I needed something that would help to ease my pain as I faced Max in school. Most likely he would be with Tess so I knew I needed something. I opened the frige to get some OJ when I saw something that I knew would do the trick.....Smirnoff Ice. I'd had a few sips of it when we would have family parties so I knew I liked it, but I've never gotten trashed on it before. I took out 2 bottles of Sprite and dumped the contents into the sink. Then, making sure my parents were still in the restaurant, I took 2 bottles of Smirnoff and poured them into the Sprite bottles. I put them in my backpack and headed off to school.

I took a bottle out as soon as I knew I was out of eyesight of the Crashdown. I took a couple sips and was already starting to feel better. As I made it to school I went to take another sip and realized I had already finished the first bottle. "Wow!" I thought. "That was fast." So nonchalantly I tossed out the first bottle and opened up the second. I felt great. The pain began to be at ease and for once since Max and Isabel's mother appeared at the cave, I felt content.

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I walked into school still drinking the second bottle when Maria ran up and greeted me.

"Liz! What's up?"

"Hey Maria. Nothing much, ya know...the usual."

"I hear ya."

Just as Maria said that, Max walked by and gave me the coldest look anyone has ever given me in my life. It killed. Maria seemed to have notice to and asked me what that was all about. I shrugged it off and acting as if it was nothing and then took a large gulp of my Smirnoff.

"Thirsty much?" Maria said.

"Huh? oh yeah."

I must have gone into a daze because Maria snapped her fingers in front of me and said, "Liz....Liz....Liz are you ok?"

"What? Sorry yeah...just zoned out for a minute." Then I took another drink of my smirnoff.

"Since when do you drink Sprite anyway?"

"I dunno, every once in a while...I'm gonna go over there. I'll see ya later Maria."

"Liz wait! Can I'm really thirsty, can I have a sip?"

"Umm...I dunno Maria, I think I'm coming down with something."

"Ok. I'll see you later then." Maria said with a concerned look on her face.

I went to class still drinkin away. No one seemed to notice anything different about me. Although Maria was getting a little sketchy before. I made it through the whole day with my two bottles and I saw Max a few more times. I realized that I'm probably going to need a few more than just two bottles tomorrow.

As I was leaving school I finished the last of my second bottle and as I was throwing it away I bumped into Max.

"Watch it!" He yelled at me.

"Sorry." He started walking away. "Max wait." He turned around with an annoyed look on his face. "I want to talk to you."

"Fine. But make it quick."

"Ok. I just want to say that you are being a real asshole. I don't know what I ever saw in you. You know that Max? The Max Evans that I fell in love with would never treat me like this."

"Well the Liz Parker I fell in love with wouldn't sleep with her ex-boyfriend behind my back."

"Max let me talk." Just as I said that Tess came walking over.

"Oh here comes your little whore."

"EXCUSE ME?! What did you just say?!" Tess screamed at me.

"You heard me....whore."

"Liz what the hell is wrong with you?" Max asked me.

"Nothing."

"No something is definitely wrong. But I guess I can't fix that....so why don't you go fuck Kyle."

"Ya know what Max? That sounds like a really good idea. I'll go find him." and I turned around and walked away. I didn't even look back. Maria came up to me but I just walked right past her.

"Liz?" Maria saw Max and asked him about it. I heard Max tell her the story and then what Maria said next made me stop dead in my tracks. "Ya know I brushed this off this morning but now that I think about it I think Liz might be drunk. She was drinking 2 bottles of Sprite...but she never drinks Sprite. When I asked her if I could have a sip she wouldn't let me. She was acting weird all morning too."

I came storming over. "Oh so you think I'm drunk now Maria? You think just because the past 5 months of my life have been complete hell and no one has seemed to notice means that now I'm getting drunk? Well ya know what? I'm not. Two smirnoffs don't get you too far ya know." and with that I walked away ignoring their calls to me.

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Chapter 2

I couldn't wait to get home. I snuck up the ladder into my room because I didn't want to deal with my parents right now. I just laid in my bed and cried. I cried and cried until I didn't think I could cry anymore. "Why is this happening to me?" I said to myself.

I heard the phone ring and then i heard my mom pick up.

"Hello?.....Oh hi Max how are you?.....No Liz isn't back yet, want me to have her call you?.....Ok I'll tell her. Bye"

What the hell did he want? Thank God I snuck in, I am NOT in the mood to talk to him. I looked at a picture of me and him on my nightstand. It was from when we first started going out. We were so happy. Looking at the picture made me begin to cry again until i eventually cried myself to sleep.

I woke up a couple hours later and went into my bathroom to take a shower. Maybe that would make me feel better. I doubt it though.

As I took my shower I noticed my razor on the side. I picked it up and put it to my wrist. God it feels good to be in control. I began to press it hard against my wrist until i was bleeding. The pain felt so good. For the first time in a long time I was actually in control of something. I'll prove to all of them that nothing is wrong with me and I can live without Max Evans in my life.

Now I just had to prove it to myself.

I got out of the shower, put on a long sleeve shirt and went downstairs so that my parents knew I was home and didn't worry.

"Hey mom, hey dad."

"Hey Lizzie, when did you get home?" my mother said.

"A couple hours ago, you guys were busy with the restaurant so I just went straight upstairs and took a little nap."

"Is it ok if I go to Maria's really quick?"

"Sure honey, don't be home late though."

"I won't. Bye"

I started walking to Maria's because if I was going to drink more I couldn't keep taking from my refrigerator, it was too obvious. Luckily, as I rang the doorbell the person I came to see was the one to answer it.

"Hey Parker. What are you doing here? I think Maria is at Michael's."

"Hey Shawn. Actually I came to see you. Your aunt isn't around is she?"

"No. Come on in." I went inside the DeLuca house and sat on the couch. "What's up?"

"I need you to do me a favor, but you can't tell anyone about it." He just nodded and looked confused. "I need you to buy me some alcohol. Can you do that for me?"

"Yeah of course...but why?"

"Because if I keep drinking my parents' they'll get suspicious."

"Liz Parker! You've been drinking your parents liquor?!"

"Yeah" I said with a smile and a laugh.

"Alright, what do you want?"

"It doesn't matter....just not beer. I hate beer."

"Ok. How will I get it to you?"

"Oh!" I reached into my bag that I had brought with me. "Here are a bunch of empty soda bottles. Can you pour whatever you bought in here and then bring them to me like that?"

"You got it!" I went to hand him some money. "Don't worry about it Parker, this one's on me....the next time you can pay." he said with a chuckle.

"Thanks Shawn. You're the greatest" I gave him a hug "Call me whenever you have it"
and then left.

This is great! The new Liz Parker is coming along perfectly.

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Chapter 3

I left the DeLuca's house and began my walk home thinking of other things that could make me feel better.

Ya know, Shawn is really cute, and he does like me....but it's still too soon after Max....or is it? Max is obviously going to move on with Tess, why can't I move on with Shawn??

When I got home my mom came up to me, "Oh Liz I forgot to tell you. Max called earlier. He wanted you to meet him in the restaurant at 8."

"Ok. Thanks Mom." I said with a fake smile and went upstairs.

I got into my room and looked at the clock. 7:00. One more hour until I have to see Max. I did some homework to take my mind off of it. I got a little done but I kept wondering what Max wanted. 'Why does he make me feel like this? Why do I feel out of control whenever I'm around him?' I thought to myself.

Then it hit me....control. I needed something that I could control. I went into my bathroom and locked the door. I went to the sink, grabbed my razor, and began to cut my wrists next to wear the fresh cuts from earlier were. It is amazing how good this feels. How something so simple as cutting yourself can make you feel this great.

There was a knock on my door. "Just a second!" I screamed. Crap, what am I gonna do. Ok...calm down Liz, rinse of your arms in the sink...grab a paper towel and roll your sleeves down. With a quick glance in the mirror I left the bathroom.

I opened my bedroom door and to my surprise it was Max.

"Max! What are you doing here? I thought we were supposed to meet downstairs at 8."

"Yeah me too....it's 8:25. Your mom told me to just come up."

"Oh my God is it really?! I'm sorry I was doing homework and I must have lost track of time."

"Yeah. ok"

I gave him a look. "So what's up?"

"That's why I'm here. I want to find out what's up with you. It's not like you to be drinking...let alone at school."

"Max..."

"No listen to me. I don't know what's wrong with you and I'm not your biggest fan right now, but if there is something wrong I want to try to help you."

"Max, I'm fine"

"That's bullshit and you know it!" He screamed at me.

"Max, stop shouting,"

"Why?! I think I have a right to shout. First you fuck Kyle behind my back with no explanation whatsoever. Then you bitch me out at school and call Tess a whore. What's next Liz?"

My eyes were filling up with tears but I refused to let the them fall. "I'm fine. There is nothing wrong. Ya know I've just been going through a really hard time ever since we broke up and Kyle was there for me. He knew what I was going through."

He just glared at me. "I know you Liz, and I know that something is wrong with you. And mark my word, I'm going to find out what that is."

I didn't even get a chance to say anything before he stormed out. The only thing I could think of was 'Where's Shawn with my liquor? I could really use it right now.'

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The next morning I woke up and went to school, but to my dismay I went without my Smirnoff. I guess Shawn didn't get a chance to go to the liquor store yet.

I felt the pain today, the pain of my heart and the pain of my wrists. 'Damn it! I forgot to cut this morning' I thought to myself. I scrambled through my bad searching for something that i could use but nothing. Note to self....Have sharp object to cut with at all times.

All day I was searching for something when BINGO! 4th period was my savior....lunch! I nonchalantly grabbed a knife from the cafeteria and put it in my bag.

I ate lunch, and then went to 5th period....Chem...oh great Max was in this class. And Mr. Seligman so graciously made us lab partners again. I think I'm going to be sick.

During class I asked for a bathroom pass and took my bag with me to the bathroom. Before I entered a stall I made sure no one was in there. Lucky for me I was alone. I went into the stall and took out the knife. I gently slid my sleeves up and began to cut. I let out a sigh of relief. FINALLY! I wrapped some toilet paper around my arms to wipe the blood off in case anyone came in from the time I left the stall to when i went to wash my arms. I washed my arms and went back to class feeling so refreshed.

Max gave me a dirty look and I gave him an equally dirty one right back. I then heard whispering behind us.

"Wow, is West Roswell's perfect couple actually mad at each other??"

Max and I both turned around to find Pam Troy laughing about it with her little clique. Thank God the bell rang because I was about to pound the bitch.

I tried to leave quickly so Max wouldn't annoy me, and I thought I was doing good until he grabbed my wrist.

"OUCH!!" I screamed.

"Jesus Liz, i barely touched you. What are you doing wearing long sleeves anyway? It's 90 degrees outside."

"I'm cold...is that a problem?"

"No, I was just asking."

"Whatever I'm late for 6th period."

"Wait...."

"No you wait Max. Nothing is wrong with me alright?! We're not together anymore so you don't have to check up on me all of the freaking time. Just leave me the fuck alone." I didn't even stay to see his reaction because I knew what it would be and I ran off. I heard Tess come up to him and he ignored her and walked away.

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Chapter 4

I managed to ignore Max as well as everyone else for the rest of the day. I made it home and ran to my room. When I got there I noticed someone on my balcony. So I went through my window to join them.

"Hey" I said.

"Hey Parker!" Shawn said giving me a hug. "Here's your order"

A big smile formed on my face. "THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!" I screamed giving him another hug. "You have no idea how much I've needed this all day."

"Parker, I don't know what's gotten into you, but I like it."

"Thanks Shawn"

"Listen I gotta go before Aunt Amy gets suspicious as to where I am. Let me know when you need more."

"You got it Shawn. Thanks again"

"Anytime Parker"

I watched as Shawn climbed down the ladder and my thoughts automatically drifted to Max. I knew I couldn't handle thinking about that now so I went in my room, hid the bag under my bed and took a shower before my shift.

While I was in the shower, I began shaving. I looked at my wrist and new that the cuts were still too fresh to cut over them. So I casually cut my legs as I shaved them in a couple places. I sighed as the blood hit the air. It felt so good. I don't think I could ever get enough of this.

I quickly got out of the shower, dried my hair and put on my waitress uniform. I looked down at my wrists. *Those need to be covered up* I thought to myself as i stared at the cuts. I ran to my closet and found to sweatbands that Maria and I used to wear when we went through our punk rock phase. If anyone says anything about them I can just tell them that I found them in my room and felt like wearing them again for old times sake.

I went downstairs and got ready for work not realizing my legs were bleeding.

"Oh my God Liz! What's wrong with your legs" Maria yelled.

I looked down. "Oh! I um...I must have cut myself shaving and didn't even realize. I changed razors today...you know how new razors are always so sharp."
*Smooth Liz, real smooth* I thought to myself.

"Yeah I know what you mean. Here go into the bathroom and clean that up...I'll cover your tables while you do that."

"Thanks Maria."

I went in the bathroom and took some paper towela and cleaned off my legs. I hope no one else notices. After I cleaned up I took one last look in the mirror. *Ok Liz, you can do this. You're fine. Just don't think about Max and you can get through this.*

I left the bathroom very confident and then I heard the bells chime over the door of the restaurant. I looked up and it was the one person that I did not need here at the moment....Max.

Of course he takes his usual booth so I'm his waitress. I walk over to him.

"Hi. What can I get you today?"

He just looks at me, then at the menu. "Umm....a cherry coke and a Sigorny Weaver please"

"Sure got it" and I walked away, but as I started walking he called my name.

"Liz..." I turned around and looked at him with an annoyed look on my face. "When do you have your break?" he asked me.

"I don't know Max. I just started my shift."

"Well, when you get it, can we talk please. I promise not to yell or pry into you personal life, I just want to talk."

"Fine, I'll see if I can. If not I'll call you later."

"Ok. Thank you." He smiled.

Did he just smile? I think that was the first time in a long time Max Evans has smiled at me. I couldn't help but smile myself. *NO!* I thought. *No don't do this to yourself Liz.* Just go put his order in and try not to think about him.

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Chapter 5

I gave Max his order and told him that my break would probably be in an hour if he wanted to wait around. He said he would then thanked me for his meal and smiled again. This Max smiling at me thing is starting to get weird.

I waited on all of my other tables which wasn't too many since it wasn't a busy night. I stopped by Max's table a couple times to get him everything else he needed and before I knew it, it was time for my break.

I walked up to his table. "Hey I'm on my break now."

"Oh ok great."

I sat down opposite him. "So what's up?"

"Listen Liz, I'm really worried about you, and I know I shouldn't be, I should be mad at you but for some reason I'm not and you're starting to scare me."

"Scare you? How?"

"I dunno, just the way you've been snapping at everyone and when I grabbed your wrist the other day you screamed in pain and I barely even touched you. By the way, what's up with the sweat bands?"

"Oh um...I found them in my room and decided to put them on."

"Why? I've never seen you wear those."

"It's a joke with Maria, we used to wear them when we were younger and we thought we looked cool."

"Oh...well anyway...you haven't been acting like yourself lately. I mean the Liz Parker I know never drank let alone at school and..."

"Max..."

"No Liz, just listen. I don't know what is going on with you. But I want to help you. If something is bothering you please just talk to me. What could possibly be so big that you couldn't come to me about and went to Kyle to instead?"

He said that with such pain in his eyes I almost lost it right there. I hate seeing him like this especially knowing that I'm voluntarily doing this to him. I opened my mouth to say something when I heard my dad.

"Lizzie?"

I turned around "Yeah dad?"

"Can I talk to you please?"

"Sure I'll be right there." I turned to Max. "Sorry, we'll have to cut this short."

"It's ok. Can I call you later?"

"Umm...I'm closing tonight so that's probably not such a good idea. I just talk to you tomorrow."

"Oh ok." He said as he got up from his seat.

"Max?"

"Yeah?"

"Thank you. It's nice to know someone cares."

He smiled and nodded at me and then left. I turned around to head to my dad now. *What could he possibly want to talk about?*

"Whats up dad?"

"Your mother and I have to go to Florida for a few days to see your aunt. Will you be able to manage the restaurant while we're gone?"

"Yeah sure no problem. When are you leaving?"

"Tomorrow afternoon. We should only be gone about 3 or 4 days. We'll let you know if it will be longer."

"Ok."

"Thanks Lizzie."

"Yep" Great now what am I gonna do? I have so much to deal with right now. I think I might lose it. I need a drink. Too bad I'm stuck here working all night. I need to do something though. First the conversation with Max now this, I need to do something.

Since I'm technically still on my break, I ran upstairs to the bathroom. I looked at my wrists and knew I couldn't do anything more so I looked in the medicine cabinet and found the perkisets I had from when I got my wisdom teeth out. It didn't hurt so I never needed to take them. I took the bottle and popped 2 in my mouth. That should be good I thought. Maybe this will aleviate all the stress I'm going through.

When I walked downstairs to finish up my shift I felt like a completely different person. I was more cheerful to all of my customers and I just felt better about myself. *Damn these things work good* I thought.

Maria and I closed up the restaurant and cleaned up and had a little girl talk before she headed home and I went upstairs. I still had some homework to do so I did that and then went to bed for the first time without crying myself to sleep.

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I woke up the next morning and I didn't feel very well. I looked under my bed took one of my bottles and got ready for school. I knew Max would want to talk again so I tried to prepare myself for that.

When I got to school I was in luck because Max wasn't there. The day seemed to go by pretty quickly and I knew I had to get home right away to see my parents off to the airport.

I got home, said goodbye to my parents, then went upstairs to do some homework before my shift started. I didn't have much trouble managing the restaurant that night, however I did have some trouble with a certain customer.

I heard the bells chime and looked up to find Tess walking in. She walked right up to me and had a weird look on her face.

"Hey Tess" I said calmly.

"Liz, I need to talk to you. I don't appreciate you calling me a fucking whore in front of the entire freakin school. You are a selfish bitch and you never ever deserved Max Evans. You should be thankful that he has me now because you will never be good enough for him."

I fought back the tears that were building up in my eyes and said "Tess, if you're just here to talk shit I suggest you leave....NOW! I don't have time for you right now, I have a restaurant to run."

She looked me square in the eyes and said "Fine. But this isn't over bitch." and then walked out the restaurant bursting out the doors.

After I closed that night I went to my room and just cried. I went into my bathroom took out my razor and cut my wrists. I didn't care how much it hurt. I knew Tess was right. I didn't deserve Max. The pain in my wrists was so bad so I walked over to my desk drawer and took some of the pills i had hidden in there before going to bed.

The whole time I was doing this I never noticed the person sitting at my window....

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Chapter 6

I layed in bed and just cried. "DAMN YOU FUTURE MAX!" I screamed. "Why did you have to come back and ruin my life. We were so happy...why would you want to let that go?" I said to myself. I kept replaying what future Max said to me when he came. I still couldn't understand why he would give up our love just to save the world. We're all gonna die eventually...I would rather die being married to Max then being apart from him.

I looked down at my wrists and noticed they were still bleeding. "Damn it!" I screamed. I went to the bathroom and wrapped tissues around my wrists.

I walked back into my room when I heard my phone ring. I looked at the caller ID and saw it was Max. I didn't feel like talking to him right now so I sent the call to my voicemail took a couple more pills and laid in bed.

Not even 5 minutes later I heard a knock on my window and looked up to see who it was. It was Max. I got up and opened the window to let him in.

"What are you doing here Max?"

"I've been here all day just thinking about what I can do to help you. You're scaring me so much Liz."

"Max you don't have to worry I'm fine."

"Fine?! FINE?! Liz take a look at your wrists! What are you doing to yourself? I saw you taking some sort of pills. Liz please talk to me. I don't know if I could live if anything ever happened to you."

Tears started filling my eyes and I was fighting to keep them at bay.

"Liz I love you, I've never stopped and no matter what I don't think I ever will. I can't bear to see you like this. and I know it has something to do with me. So what are you not telling me?"

"Max I'm not keeping anything from you"

He has a pained look on his face.

"Wow!"

"What?" I asked him.

"When did you learn to look me in the eye and lie?"

"Max..."

"Don't Max me! I heard you in there. You said something about a future me coming back and I want to know what that was about."

I was at a loss. I had no idea what to tell him. He was so hurt that I lied that I knew I couldn't do it anymore I just didn't know where to start.

"Ok here it goes. Do you want to come inside and sit down? This could take a while."

Max just nodded and came in my room and took a seat on my bed waiting for me to begin.

"Ok...about a week before the Gomez concert a future version of you came to my window........" I then proceeded to tell Max everything. Everything I had been feeling and had been dealing with fromt the time that future Max came to right now. He was silent throughout the whole thing. When i finished he just looked at me and pulled me into a giant hug.

"Why didn't you come to me sooner?"

"I couldn't tell you Max. I wanted to so bad but I just couldn't."

"Liz you have to know that there isn't anything you can't tell me. I'll always be here for you no matter what. I love you,"

"I know....and I love you too, but we can't be together Max."

"What? Why?"

"Because everyone's lives depend on it."

"Liz you said it yourself tonight. We're all gonna die eventually. I'd rather die being married to you and loving you."

"But Max what if we had kids? Would you really want them to die at such a young age?"

He thought about it. "No, but I don't want to lose you. Maybe there's a way we can be together and keep Tess as a part of the group."

"I don't know Max, I just don't trust her."

He gave me another hug. "We'll think of something. Don't worry."

I nodded against his chest.

He let me go and looked at my wrists. "Can I heal those?"

I shook my head. "No...I like the pain"

"Liz..."

"No Max."

He nodded in a silent acceptance of my wishes and started to walk away.

"Wanna stay here tonight? My parents are gone for a few days and I could really use a friend."

"I don't think I should."

"Why not?"

"Because I can't just be friends with you Liz. I don't know how, and I don't think I want to."

I didn't know how to respond. So with that I watched him walk out my window and down my fire escape.

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Chapter 7

It's been a couple of days since Max came to my window and I told him everything. I've talked to him a little bit but it's so hard knowing how much we love each other and can't be together. Needless to say I'm still cutting and drinking to drown out my problems. Maybe we should have a group meeting and try to work things out. But am I honestly ready for that? I wonder if Max told them what I'm doing....not like any of them care anyway.

".....Liz! Can you please come to the board and show how to do problem #5"

I looked up when i heard my name and saw Mrs Johnson, my trig teacher, talking to me. This woman is so old. Honestly, when is she gonna either retire or die? I've fallen asleep quite a few times in this class and she hasn't even noticed.

"Uh...sure." I say slightly less than enthused.

I put the problem on the board and as I'm writing I notice blood on my white sleeve.

"Oh my God Liz you're bleeding!" I hear Maria say.

Then I notice Mrs Johnson come up to me."Oh no Elizabeth what happened?"

"Um...I don't know. It's probably nothing."

"Why don't you go to the nurse and have that cleaned up."

I hesitate and say ok and leave except I'm definitely not going to the nurse...I'll just go to the bathroom.

I walk down the hallway to the bathroom and I bump into someone coming out of the men's room. "Oh I'm so sorry" I say. Then I look up and see it's Max.

"Oh! Hey. I didn't realize it was you." I said

"Yeah hey what's up?" Then I see him look at my sleeve. "LIZ! Why are you still doing that?!"

"Max..."

"No! I thought we talked about it. I thought you were ok."

"ok?! OK?! Max I haven't been ok since Tess moved here! Don't you understand that?!"

"Liz stop"

"I'm not having this conversation with you in the middle of the hallway. I have to clean my wrists." and without another word I walk into the bathroom.

When I'm in there I take a couple pills since I obviously can't cut anymore. And then I just sit against the wall and cry.

I come out of the bathroom about 10 minutes later but not before I looked in the mirror to make sure my eyes weren't all puffy. I started to walk to my class when I felt stong arms pull me into the eraser room.

"What the fuck?!" I scream. Looking up at Max.

"You didn't want to talk in the hallway so we'll talkin here."

"No Max"

"Yes! God Liz...you are destroying yourself. Look at you?! Fuck I don't know what to do. I hate seeing you like this."

"Like what Max?"

"Defeated and helpless" He sighed and paused for a little while. I could see the tears in his eyes he was trying to desperately hold back. "Liz I heard you crying in there, I heard you take your pills too. Liz do you have any idea what I would go through if you ever.....if you ever...." His sobs overpower him and he loses control.

I don't know what to do so I take him in my arms and cry with him. We stood there for a while holding each other and honestly, it felt so right, but at the same time I knew it could never be like that again. We pull apart and i hold his face in my hands and say "Max, I'll try, I promise I'll try to stop for you. But I don't know if I'm strong enough. I want to be with you so bad but I know we can't and that kills me. That's why I take the pills, and drink, and cut myself. That pain drowns out all of my emotional pain and it makes me feel good."

"Liz, I want to be the one to make you feel good, to make you live and be the happy wonderful girl I fell in love with so long ago."

"I know Max, believe me I want that too but..."

"No buts Liz. We can. We'll work something out. I promise. Why don't we all get together and tell everyone about what future me told you. Maybe we can figure out a way to be together and not cause the end of the world ok?"

"Ok."

After that we wiped our tears exited the eraser room and went back to class.
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I went home after school and went straight to my room. My parents came home last night so I no longer have to run the restaurant. I hear the doorbell ring and my mom answer it. I can't hear anything except my mom say "Sure she's in her room go on up"

Who could this possibly be?! I'm half hoping it's Max and half hoping it's not.

When I hear the knock on my door and hesitantly walk over to my door to open it.

*Well that certainly isn't Max* I think to myself as I stare at the person in front of me in shock.

[Behrsgirl1230]

ok so I just finished writing Chapter 8 and I was so excited with it that I decided to post it as well haha. This is the last chapter that I have written so the posts will most likely not be as frequent. I'm going to try for ever Saturday or ever Sunday but it might be longer or it might be shorter. Like I said on the alienblast fan fic....if you send me threatnening emails I will post haha. Thanks to an email from orphyfets I wrote this chapter today.

Chapter 8
"Hey Liz!" The person at my door said to me in a very fake chipper way.

"What do you want Tess?" I said obviously annoyed.

"What no hi Tess how are you, thanks for stopping by, I'm sorry i called you a whore?" she mocked.

"In you dreams bitch" I was giving her the biggest death glare that if i had alien laser vision she would be burnt to a crisp right about now. "What. do. you. want." I'm just so angry right now I want to punch her.

"First of all, stay away from Max. Don't you think you've hurt him enough? He needs a real woman....well, real HALF woman. He needs someone like me and I almost have him but you keep fucking everything up!"

"How the hell am I fucking everything up for you and Max? All I keep telling him is that we can't be together!" I am absolutely FURIOUS right now that if I wouldn't go straight to jail I would seriously kill her.

"Hmmm, let's see. First you left him at the podchamber and then ran away for the summer leaving him with me, which I thought was great at first, but he was too fucking heartbroken and pining over you that he didn't even acknowledge that i fucking existed! Then when you came back and Nasedo died, I was so alone and Max was there for me and I honestly thought something was going to start right then but NOPE! Leave it to little Lizzie Parker to ruin it for me again."

"What the fuck does that mean!? I didn't do anything, Max and I weren't even close to being together then." I bit back at her. My body was beginning to shake. Just being in the same room as Tess made me so nervous.

"Just you existing ruins any chance I have with Max. That day you came into the crashdown and saw us all at lunch, and Max walked up to you, I know he said something...."

"Tess stop. You don't know what you're talking about" I said surprisingly calm, but tears had started to form again in my eyes and fighting for control of them was beginning to get very hard.

"Fine, but when you slept with Kyle I was so happy. Finally I could have Max. He was so broken, I went up to him and just talked. We even hung out a few times after that and I was so excited! I really thought something was going to happen. Then you started acting like a bitch and I was even more excited! I knew Max would never go back to you....but then for some reason, it attracted him even more and i don't have a fucking clue as to why."

"Tess...ENOUGH!" I couldn't take it anymore.

"NO! Do you have any idea what it's like seeing the man you love being completely in love with someone else? The man that you were told your entire life that was meant for you? It kiils....it fucking kills!" That's when I saw something in Tess I never thought i'd ever see. Tears. and that's when I began to feel sorry for her. "God, what the fuck do you possibly have that I don't? Is it the brown hair? Cuz I can dye it."

"Tess stop being ridiculous. It's not your freakin hair. Maybe it's the way you just marched into our lives at a point where we were all so incredibly happy, and you had to stir up trouble. Maybe it's because you won't leave him alone with all this destiny bullshit! Michael and Isabel destined for each other too. I don't see you over there yelling at them making Michael break up with Maria. Why is that Tess? WHY?!!" We were both silent for a while. "Don't you understand that Max is my entire world. That without him I'm so incredibly broken that thoughts of suicide is all that plagues my mind because I feel like I've lost half of my soul. I love him more than you ever could and more than I could ever love anyone or anything else. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me and I wish more than anything that we could be together forever. To be married and have kids and then grandkids and grow old together..." My sobs have overtaken me and I have to force myself to go on. "But we can't be anything more than friends. and that is the worst feeling in the world."

"Liz..."

"You should leave now." I said walking to my door and holding it open for her.

"Fine, but like I said before....this isn't over. I'll win him over Liz Parker...you can bet on it."

I closed the door and walked over to my bed to lay down and cry. As I was laying there I heard a knock on my window and then saw it being opened and Max stepped out. He ran over to me without saying a word and just kissed me breathless. I didn't respond at first but when he slid his tongue over my bottom lip asking for access I couldn't deny him. It felt so right to be with him like this again. But something inside was telling me otherwise. Something deep down was telling me that this is wrong and isn't what's meant to be. So I pulled away.

"Max we can't" I looked into his eyes and saw the disappointment there. There was silence for a while and he seemed to ignore that statement when he finally broke that silence.

"Liz....did you really mean everything you said to Tess?"

"Y-You heard me? H-how long were you out there?" I stuttered. I had no idea he was on my balcony for that long.

"I got there right about when she said she wanted to dye her hair brown thinking it would make me more attracted to her" We both started laughing then. "Did she honestly think that would work?" He said running his fingers through my hair.

"I guess so." I laughed.

"Liz we'll get through this. I know we can be together. I'll talk to Tess. I'll make sure she doesn't do anything to you. I'll make sure that she knows if she ever so much as lays a finger on you that I will never ever talk to her again. I'm willing to make this work, for you Liz....for us."

The look in his eyes said it all. He doesn't want to be with Tess. He only wants me. And without me his world is nothing just like mine.

"Let me think about it ok? I promised the future you that I wouldn't be with you. I'll think about it tonight and let you know at school tomorrow ok?"

He just nodded in agreement and I was very grateful that he wasn't pushing it any further.

"Thank you Max.....for everything."

He looked at me and smiled and said "I'll always be here Liz. No matter what." With that he gave me a kiss on my cheek and left out my window.

After he left I turned on my cd player and layed on my bed to think about things. I thought about everything that has happened with everyone over the last couple of weeks when I heard the lyrics to one of my favorite songs come on.

and now i'm all alone again
no where to turn no one to go to...

*Isn't that the truth* I thought to myself.

without a home without a friend without a face to say hello to.
and now the night is near and I can make believe he's here.
Sometimes I walk alone at night when everybody else is sleeping.
I think of him and then I'm happy with the company I'm keeping.
The city goes to bed, and I can live inside my head...

I realize that this song is what I've been feeling for the past weeks. Taking latenight walks wishing Max was with me, thinking about what used to be and what could have been.

On my own, pretending he's beside me.
All alone, I walk with him til morning.
Without him I feel his arms around me,
And when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me....

I closed my eyes and imagined Max with me at that very moment.

In the rain the pavement shines like silver.
All the lights are misty in the river.
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever....

It's so true, I can't picture my life with anyone else but Max.

And I know it's only in my mind.
That I'm talking to myself and not to him.
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say there's a way for us.

I began to think....maybe there really IS a way for us to be together and not cause the end of the world.

I love him, but when the night is over
He is gone the river's just a river
Without him the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers.
I love him but everyday I'm learning
All my life, I've only been pretending.
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness that I have never known!

At this point in the song I can feel tears streaming down my face knowing that this is all so true.

I love him...

I love him, I really do.

I love him...

I love him more than anything else in the entire world.

I love him....but only on my own

I realized then that I need to be with Max. That I love him more than anything and that together we can make it work. So I jumped off of my bed climbed out my window and ran to the only person I will ever love.....Max.


lyrics were to the song "On My Own" from Les Miserables

[Behrsgirl1230]

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Chapter 9

I ran to Max's house as fast as I could. I was just praying that he would still be home and that he would still be awake. I had to stop a couple of times to catch my breath but I kept on going, panting with every step I took. My heart was beating so fast and I was so nervous to talk to him.

I wasn't paying attention to what was around me, my mind was only on getting to Max so I didn't expect what happened when I ran past the park.

"Parker?" a voice called out to me. I paused, turned around to see who it was while catching my breath from the run.

"Parker what the hell are you doing?" Shawn said to me.

"Hey Shawn. Just taking a nightly run through town." Good job Liz I thought to myself, that was very believable.

"You do realize it's like 2 in the morning?"

"WHAT?! Wow, time sure does fly when you're having fun running." I laughed.

He looked at me confused. "Yeah, I wouldn't know." He looked me up and down. Jesus Shawn, seriously stop checking me out. "What's with the outfit?"

"Excuse me?" I've never been more insulted in my life! I think I look really cute. I'm wearing my favorite lowrise jeans and a white halter top. Ohhhhh it hit me.

"Do you always go for a 2 am run in jeans and a halter?"

I lowered my head in embarrassment. I was caught.

"Ummmm..." I had no idea what to say, so I avoided it. "Look Shawn I really better get going since it's getting late. I'm sure I'll see you later. Good Night!" and I ran off without even waiting for him to say anything back. I needed to get to Max and I needed to get there fast!

A couple minutes later I finally made it to the Evans' house and ran to Max's window. But to my surprise he wasn't there. Where the hell could he possibly be? Honestly, it's freakin 2:00 in the morning, where is he? I decided to just sit on his window sill and wait until he comes home. He has to come home sooner or later.

I waited about 15, 20 minutes before my eyelids got really heavy and I fell asleep. I woke up at 6 when the sun rose and realized I had fallen asleep. Damn it! I missed him come home. I looked into his window and noticed he still wasn't home. Now I'm starting to get worried. Where could he possibly go all night? He probably spent the night at Michael's, I guess I'll just have to talk to him at school. So I reluctantly got off of his window sill, and walked home to get ready for school.

When I climbed up my ladder and hopped onto my balcony I got a very nice surprise. There laying in front of my window was the most beautiful sight in the world. Max....my Max...just laying there sound asleep. I crouched down beside him, pushed his bangs out of his face and kissed his forehead. He started to stir when I did that. He slowly fluttered his eyes open and looked into mine.

"Morning" I said to him with a smile on my face.

"mmmm Morning." He said very sleepily. "What time is it?"

I laughed, "About 6:15."

"Shit! I have to go home and get ready for school!"

"Wait," I said to him. "What are you doing here? How long have you been here?"

"Well, after I left you last night, I went home and realized I wasn't going to take no for an answer so I came back here intending to persuade you to break your promise to the future me. Except when I got here you weren't in your room. I wanted to wait until you got back but I ended up falling asleep. Where were you anyway?"

"Actually, I was at your house."

"My house?! What were you doing there?"

"After you left I realized that I want to be with you, and only you and I can't imagine my life with anyone else. So I ran straight to your house. And when I got there you weren't in your room either. So I sat on your window sill and feel asleep. I got really worried about you wondering where you were."

He had the biggest grin on his face. "We certainly are a pair aren't we?"

We laughed, "Yeah we certainly are." I agreed.

"So am I right in assuming that we're back together, and you're gonna ignore all of the future me crap?"

I replied the best way I could think of replying to that question, and that was with grabbing Max's face and kissing him like I hadn't kissed him in forever. He quickly responded and wrapped his arms around my waist, while I moved my arms to wrap around his neck. We layed down on my balcony floor for about 10 minutes just kissing and enjoying being with each other again. Something we hadn't done since before Tess showed up and started stirring up trouble between us.

"So is that a yes?" Max asked me.

"What do you think?" I slyly remarked

"I dunno, I couldn't really tell."

"Well maybe this will help." I said as I thrusted my tongue in his mouth and began kissing him again.

We pulled apart and he looked into my eyes and said "God Liz, it feels so good to do that again. Thank you for looking past what the furture told you. I love you so much, more than life itself, and being without you has been like hell."

I kissed him again and just said "Max Evans, I will always love you, for the rest of my life." We kissed again and then pulled apart when Max growled.

"What's wrong?" I asked him.

"Nothing, I just realized that I have to head home and get ready for school, but I don't wanna." He pouted and I couldn't help but laugh.

"Maybe we can play hooky today and catch up on what we've been missing out on for the last few months," I said as I suggestively raised my eyebrows at him.

"Mmmmm Liz Parker, you really know how to make a guy hard."

"Oh my God I can't believe you just saod that!" I hit him while trying to surpress my laughter.

"Haha what? I was just being honest...and isn't hoensty the most important quality in a relationship?"

"Yeah I guess you're right. So...hooky?"

"Hell yeah!" he screamed and we both laughed. I had to think of a plan so that my parents didn't know I was skipping school and at the same time I could be with Max.

"Ok, go home pretend that you're going to school and that you're picking me up and come pick me up at around 7. We can go out for breakfast or something outside of town and then go back to your place since your parents will be gone and we can be alone."

He kissed me and then said, "Oh man Liz, you are a genious."

"I know" I smirked. Then I kissed him one last time before sending him home. As he decended down my ladder I told him that I loved him and that I'd see him in a half hour.

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It was a little before 7 and the doorbell rang. I heard my mother get it.

"Hi Mrs Parker."

"Oh hi Max! Come on in. Are you driving Liz today?"

"Yeah."

"Oh good. I'll go tell Liz you're here."

"Thanks"

I then heard my mother come up the stairs and knock on my door,

"Liz honey, Max is here."

"Thanks Mom, I'll be right there." I looked at myself in the mirror, fixed my hair, put on some lipgloss and blush, and then headed downstairs.

"Hey beautiful" He said to me and I ran into his arms.

"Hello there hot stuff" I said back to him and then kissed him.

"Ready to go?" He asked me?

"Yep! Can't wait" I smiled. "Bye Mom!" I screamed.

"Bye honey." THat was the last thing I heard before Max and I walked out of my house and into his car to drive to breakfast. This day was going to be amazing.

[Behrsgirl1230]

Ok and here I am with an update....FINALLY!!! Technically right on time tho haha. I'm really sorry I didn't update early like I wanted to...my life is very hectic and busy right now. I won't be around from Wednesday-Sunday cuz I will be chasing the backstreet boys all over NY and NJ so I'll try to update again on either Monday or Tuesday...if not I'll update next Monday and then i'll try a couple more times that week because then I'm leaving for Italy for 2 weeks haha. sorry everyone!

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Chapter 10

As we drove to breakfast I called school pretending to be Mrs Evans saying Max was sick, and Max called pretending to be my dad saying I was sich, this way the school wouldn't call our houses asking where we were.

We ate at a cute little diner a couple towns over in Hagerman that way no one would notice us. Then we just drove and enjoyed each other's company. He held my hand over the gear stick and we didn't even listen to music, we just talked and found out what the other was doing while we were apart.

As we were driving we spotted a nice looking motel on the side of the road and decided to stop in and relax. When we got into the room Max attacked my lips. He pushed me up against the door and his fingers were entangled in my hair. I wrapped my legs around his waist and I could feel his arousal pressing against me.

"Bed." I managed to say in between kisses.

"Huh?" He said. "oh right!" When he realized what I said he walked us over to the bed without breaking our kiss. He finally released my lips and I unwrapped my legs from around him as he gently laid me on the bed. He then climbed on the bed with me and began marking me as his with his kisses. He moved from my lips down to my jaw then neck and then pushed aside my strap on my tank top and began kissing my color bone. I then pushed him away.

"Sorry I didn't mean to..." He began but I stopped him by putting a finger to his lips.

"Max when the future you came to me I didn't tell you one of the things he said to me."

"Why?" He asked confused,

"Because I didn't know how I felt about it until this moment."

"Well what did he say?"

"He said the night of the Gomez concert we....that we..." God why is this so hard to get out?

"We what babe?"

"He said the night of the Gomez concert we made love." I looked at him after I said that and he didn't seem surprised at all. Nevertheless I kept going with what I wanted to say. "When he told me I couldn't believe it. I knew I was just not ready to do that at this point in my life, but Max," I paused and put my hand up to his cheek. "Max, being with you these last few hours and being with you right this second I realize I am ready. That I love you more than anything else and I would love more than anything to make love to you."

He placed his hand over mine and put it up to his lips to kiss. "Are you sure Liz?"

"I've never been more sure."

He looked at me and then placed a soft kiss on my lips and then stared into my eyes. "I love you Liz"

"I love you too Mac" Then it was I who attacked his lips. Our kiss grew very hungry rather quickly and we lost control. Before I knew it He had taken off my shirt and I had unbuttoned his and slipped it off of his strong broad shoulders.

"God Liz you're so beautiful" He said to me as he stared at my naked breasts before taking on in his mouth. I moaned at the touch and ran my fingers in his hair. "Oh God Max."

He looked up at me, looking for permission in my eyes and he began to unzip my jeans. When he successfully got my jeans off, I helped him take his off and pulled them down along with his boxers in one swoop. All that was left was my tiny thong and the one thing I could think of was *Thank God I shaved!*

Before I knew it, I was lifting up my hips and Max was sliding off my thong. Kissing ever inch of me on the way down. When he reached my center on his way back up, he stopped and thrust a finger in my core. I moaned in pleasure and surprise. Looking up at me with a smirk on his face, he slid another finger into me before replacing his fingers with his tongue. He was making me feel things I never dreamed possible as he was sucking and licking me. Just as I was about to reach my peak he stopped and I moaned in protest.

"Wait baby, I want you to come with me inside you." I simply nodded at his comment and kissed his lips.

"Max, I'm not on the pill...so you have..."

"Yes sweetheart, don't worry." He reached for his pants and pulled a condom out of the back pocket and slipped it on his hard cock. He Rested between my legs and pressing against my center he kissed me and asked one more time if I was sure. I just nodded and before I knew it he thrusts inside of me. He felt the barrier and tried to slowly enter me so as not to hurt me, but that was making it worse so I wrapped my legs around him and lifted my hips and sent him deep inside of me.

He looked at me and saw the tears in my eyes and put his hand over my lower abdomen and healed my pain. I silently thanked him and he began setting a rhythm moving in and out of me. He bgan to quicken the pace.

"Holy shit Liz you're so tight, and so wet. You feel so good."

"Oh God Max so do you....harder baby...harder"

He began to move harder and faster inside of me and I could feel my orgasm approaching.

"Oh God, I'm coming Max."

"Me too Liz. Fuck you feel so good."

"Yes...Max thats it. Ugh...Ugh Oh God Yes! Ahh MAX!"

"Oh Yeah Liz...Ugh Ugh...Fuck yes...LIZ!"

As we both came down from our high he collapsed on top of me and then gently rolled over pulling me on top of him without ever pulling out of me.

"Wow, That was..."

"Absolutely perfect." He finished for me.

"Yeah." I said and kissed his chest as I gently dozed off to sleep.

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I woke up about an hour later still on top of Max and just stared at his sleeping form. After about 15 minutes of just staring at this sex god, I cradled his face in my hands and kissed his lips hard. He moaned my name as he was still in his slumber and I couldn't help me laugh.

"Wake up sleepyhead"

"Huh? Liz? What time is it?"

"Good morning lover. It's a little after 1. As much as I hate to say this, we should get lunch and then head back home."

"You're right, but how about one more round of what we just did." At first I thought he was joking, until I felt his hard member stir inside of me.

"Max Evans! A little horny are we?" I said to him raising my eyebrows at him.

"Damn straight I am! Now c'mon...please! You know you want to."

"Fine! But change the condom...I don't want to get pregnant right now."

He just laughed at me and then pulled out of me and put on a new condom. He was about to turn me over and enter me when I stopped him.
"Liizzzz" He whined.

"Lay on your back baby, I wanna ride you."

"Yes ma'am!"

Max laid on his back and I quickly straddled him and then sunk down onto him. We both moaned in the satisfaction of feeling complete with each other again. I began to move up and down and Max put his hands on my hips to help me.

"Max, oh god ugh ugh. Oh shit this feels so fucking good."

"oh God Liz you're so beautful." He said right before he attacked one of my breasts and begans sucking on it.

"Ugh! oh God Max Don't stop...donm't ever stop."

I began riding him harder and harder. All I could think of was that scene in Cruel Intentions 2 when the girl was on the horse saying 'Up and down back and forth faster faster' I tried doing those motions and Max seemed to enjoy it.

"Oh God Liz....yes thats it baby ah yes...oh god LIZ!!!"

Max...oh god ugh...i'm so close." He began to rub my clit in repsone to that and I immediately went over the edge. "UGH MAAAX AHH!!" I collapsed on top of him and then gave him a soft kiss on the lips. Looking at the clock I noticed it was 1:45. "Shit Max! We really have to go."

"I know...I know. But that was amazing babe. I love you so much."

"I love you too." I gave him another kiss, pulling away before he had time to deepen it and got up off of him to get changed and head back to Roswell.