She Cried (UC, Mi/A, ADULT) Pt 1/1 22 May 2005
Posted: Sun May 22, 2005 2:39 pm
Title: She Cried
Author: SpiderGirl
Disclaimer: I own nothing on this planet. Roswell belongs to Metz and Katims.
Summary: She cried but he broke right down and died. In Michael's POV
Rating: ADULT
Coupling: Michael/Alex
***
She cried. I watched her go, then Maria was sobbing against my chest. I tried to take it all in and keep myself in check. Alex was dead, really gone and Max couldn't bring him back. It wasn't going to happen. My lover had left me alone.
After all of it was over and I could leave Maria alone without breaking down I went out to the desert on my bike and walked far from it. I walked till I couldn't see my machine anymore and I screamed, it had been pent up and trapped within me. The pain and sadness from loosing him came out in that moment; I screamed and cried and even scorched the desert a little bit. I collapsed down on the floor scrabbling for handfuls of dead earth and wished I was dead right along with him, I wanted to be with him so bad. I needed him like I needed air and I had no idea how I had breathed without him! I sit there in the swelling heat of the desert and think about our first time together.
I was lying in bed after a cold shower and trying to get some sleep. I had my window open a crack letting the cold air in because this heat was killing me. It had been a hot day and an even hotter night. I heard something near my window and I looked over to see fingers trying to open the window. Max. I thought as I got up to let him in before he woke Hank up. Yeah it all started back when I was spiky haired and lived with Hank. I pulled the window open and was suprised to see that it wasn't Max but in fact Alex. He tumbled into my room landing on the floor and I knelt down to make sure he was okay
"What are you doing here?" I blurted out then he grabbed the back of my neck and pulled me down crashing our mouths together. I tried to pull back at first but he held me firmly in place. He shoved me back when he broke for air and I landed on my back. He moved over me quickly and began licking and sucking a trail down my chest... I was too far gone by now and I could feel my erection poking him in the stomach. I buried a hand in his hair as he got lower and lower. I bit my lip from groaning out as he slid my shorts down and began licking his way over my dick. He paused for a moment looking up at me then slid his mouth down over my meat. I banged my head against the floor and tasted blood in my mouth from biting my lip so hard. He pulled off then wiped his mouth with the back of his hand before leaning back leaving me ready to burst. He stood up and pulled me up off the floor. I'm a big guy, bigger and heavier than Alex but he had no problem picking me up and shoving me back onto my desk. I could feel a pencil stabbing me in my ass cheek but I could care as he stepped between my legs and began kissing the hell out of me like no tomorrow. I wrapped my legs around his hips and he picked me up and tried to get me to the bed but we ended up crashed against the door. I was wedged between him and the door and I wasn't going anywhere for a while. He reached under me and undid his pants then lined his cock up with my ass then slid in slowly. It burned and it felt like someone was shoving a hot poker up my ass but it was a good burn... I gripped his shoulders and wept like some virgin on prom night as he filled me then he was in all the way and he just stopped
"Fuck my dick Michael" he ordered me. I had never seen a side to Alex like this before... that's probably the reason I began to ride his cock like there was no tomorrow for us and probably the reason I let him climb in my window even after I left the trailer.
But Isabel got to cry and run... Maria got to be angry and sad and Liz got to be angry and got to search for the truth... whereas I just had to be me. Quiet, not really bothered about Alex or that fact that he was dead and gone now. When Liz went after Leanna I practically jumped at the chance to help her, I know that Alex would never kill himself... and apart from Liz I was the only one who truly knew it. I just wish that I had been able to tell the others about me and him. It hurt Maria that I could barely get it up for her and when I did I was always thinking of him. But he didn't want that, he wanted it to be quiet. He told me once when we were lying together that he didn't want his father to find out, his father was a proud man and he didn't think having a gay son would be a good thing so I respected his wishes because he had so much to loose and so did I. I really did love Alex but I cared for Maria too, I couldn't loose him and loose her as well.
I got up off the floor and walked back towards my bike, maybe I should tell them now Alex is gone. Maybe then I don't have to come out here every week and scream and bawl my eyes out. Maybe then I could cry?
The End
Author: SpiderGirl
Disclaimer: I own nothing on this planet. Roswell belongs to Metz and Katims.
Summary: She cried but he broke right down and died. In Michael's POV
Rating: ADULT
Coupling: Michael/Alex
***
She cried. I watched her go, then Maria was sobbing against my chest. I tried to take it all in and keep myself in check. Alex was dead, really gone and Max couldn't bring him back. It wasn't going to happen. My lover had left me alone.
After all of it was over and I could leave Maria alone without breaking down I went out to the desert on my bike and walked far from it. I walked till I couldn't see my machine anymore and I screamed, it had been pent up and trapped within me. The pain and sadness from loosing him came out in that moment; I screamed and cried and even scorched the desert a little bit. I collapsed down on the floor scrabbling for handfuls of dead earth and wished I was dead right along with him, I wanted to be with him so bad. I needed him like I needed air and I had no idea how I had breathed without him! I sit there in the swelling heat of the desert and think about our first time together.
I was lying in bed after a cold shower and trying to get some sleep. I had my window open a crack letting the cold air in because this heat was killing me. It had been a hot day and an even hotter night. I heard something near my window and I looked over to see fingers trying to open the window. Max. I thought as I got up to let him in before he woke Hank up. Yeah it all started back when I was spiky haired and lived with Hank. I pulled the window open and was suprised to see that it wasn't Max but in fact Alex. He tumbled into my room landing on the floor and I knelt down to make sure he was okay
"What are you doing here?" I blurted out then he grabbed the back of my neck and pulled me down crashing our mouths together. I tried to pull back at first but he held me firmly in place. He shoved me back when he broke for air and I landed on my back. He moved over me quickly and began licking and sucking a trail down my chest... I was too far gone by now and I could feel my erection poking him in the stomach. I buried a hand in his hair as he got lower and lower. I bit my lip from groaning out as he slid my shorts down and began licking his way over my dick. He paused for a moment looking up at me then slid his mouth down over my meat. I banged my head against the floor and tasted blood in my mouth from biting my lip so hard. He pulled off then wiped his mouth with the back of his hand before leaning back leaving me ready to burst. He stood up and pulled me up off the floor. I'm a big guy, bigger and heavier than Alex but he had no problem picking me up and shoving me back onto my desk. I could feel a pencil stabbing me in my ass cheek but I could care as he stepped between my legs and began kissing the hell out of me like no tomorrow. I wrapped my legs around his hips and he picked me up and tried to get me to the bed but we ended up crashed against the door. I was wedged between him and the door and I wasn't going anywhere for a while. He reached under me and undid his pants then lined his cock up with my ass then slid in slowly. It burned and it felt like someone was shoving a hot poker up my ass but it was a good burn... I gripped his shoulders and wept like some virgin on prom night as he filled me then he was in all the way and he just stopped
"Fuck my dick Michael" he ordered me. I had never seen a side to Alex like this before... that's probably the reason I began to ride his cock like there was no tomorrow for us and probably the reason I let him climb in my window even after I left the trailer.
But Isabel got to cry and run... Maria got to be angry and sad and Liz got to be angry and got to search for the truth... whereas I just had to be me. Quiet, not really bothered about Alex or that fact that he was dead and gone now. When Liz went after Leanna I practically jumped at the chance to help her, I know that Alex would never kill himself... and apart from Liz I was the only one who truly knew it. I just wish that I had been able to tell the others about me and him. It hurt Maria that I could barely get it up for her and when I did I was always thinking of him. But he didn't want that, he wanted it to be quiet. He told me once when we were lying together that he didn't want his father to find out, his father was a proud man and he didn't think having a gay son would be a good thing so I respected his wishes because he had so much to loose and so did I. I really did love Alex but I cared for Maria too, I couldn't loose him and loose her as well.
I got up off the floor and walked back towards my bike, maybe I should tell them now Alex is gone. Maybe then I don't have to come out here every week and scream and bawl my eyes out. Maybe then I could cry?
The End