Roswell Fanatics

~Mista~


As Daniel comes over to the group and asks if he can join the men at playing cards, I smile and start to stand. "Just remember, the offers open." I tell Kyle again and then move away from the guy's. Making my way over to where Moira was still waiting on me I smiled. "I guess for the moment, it's just you and I. Though, I might be taking off soon." I gave her a look that said more then my words.

Again, my fingers stroked the fur of the wolf at my side and I kneeled down beside him. "It'll be okay. You are doing very well and soon the change with become second nature to you." I whispered softly.

OOC: hope this works Storm, sorry for the delay

~Alex~

Isabel takes the hand I offer, and I pull her up, but to my surprise, she then just stands there. I almost feel like asking her if she’s ok, yet the look in her eyes… I shake my head inwardly, telling myself not to be so silly, when I wonder if I look like that when I’m with her. She just looks…lost…

“Isabel…are you ok…?” I ask her softly.

“Alex…” She looks like she’s going to say something but then just trails off into silence. We stand there for a few moments, I don’t think either of us knows what to say, and then before I realise what’s happening, she’s walking towards me, and then…she’s kissing me…

If I thought that Isabel Evans was the most perfect girl before, I know it now… Her lips are so soft, so gentle, and for a moment there, I’m sure I’m in heaven…

For a moment I allow myself to wonder if she’s actually changed her mind… I didn’t intend for this to happen… I did mean what I said, that if friendship was all she wanted, I’d take that… I just want to be in her life, in however little a way… But if she has changed her mind, if she’s decided she is ready…well I already know my feelings…

Unfortunately, perhaps inevitably, that moment is all too short, and almost before I realise what’s happening, she’s pulling away again, looking almost scared. She shakes her head, pulling away from me and stepping back. “I’m sorry…I can’t…” She mumbles, dropping my hand and heading back to the others before I have a chance to reply.

Wow…that was…amazing… But she’s going now, and I can’t let her… I run after her, reaching out to touch her arm when I get close. “Isabel, please, don’t…I…t-think maybe we need to talk…” I suggest softly, reaching for her. “I…uh…don’t know what exactly happened just then, but I mean what I say…I want to be your friend…I want to help you…” I look at her. “Please Isabel, don’t block me out…talk to me, don’t just run away…”

OOC: hope this works for you isabelle .

~Liz~

I can see Max looking round nervously, and I know I’m doing much the same thing. We both know the danger if someone saw what just happened…

“Sure…I’m happy to help. I’m just sorry I can’t do more…”

I get the feeling that he’s feeling guilty again…for, in a round about way, putting me through all this, but he really doesn’t need too…he shouldn’t… He wants to get rid of this, but strange as it may sound, I don’t think that would be right. Maybe it got out of control again just now, but in general, this feels right…

I think this energy has been building for some time, there under the surface even though we didn’t know it…just waiting for something to make it emerge…

“You’re doing enough…” I tell him softly. “You’re helping me just being here, and you’re showing me how to do this…” I bite down hard on my lip, not really noticing the metallic taste of the blood as I pierce the skin. “Y-you’re right though…in the end, I’m the one that has to do this…” I shake my head. “I’m trying Max, I really am…”

Max nods, and he touches my arm. Although he says nothing, I know that this is his way of reassuring me, of telling me that he knows. I smile softly

“I would be glad to help with your dad too, if you-“

My eyes widen slightly and I shake my head quickly, pulling back slightly. “N-no…it’s ok…” I tell him stiffly. My father is something that I have to handle myself. Given his suspicions about my relationship with Max, the less contact he has with him the better at the moment I think… I still don’t know where my dad has got these crazy ideas from, but I have to be the one to address them…I have to be the one to reassure him…

I just wish that I could do that by telling him the truth…unfortunately, I can’t… He asks me what’s going on, and I can’t tell him. I can’t tell him everything that I’ve been through since September…I can’t tell him that I died and was brought back by an alien…the alien who it turns out I love more than anything in the world…

Things are so complicated…and they’re only getting more so… I mean what does this all mean… This energy that’s inside me now, what does that make me…an alien like Max…? A human with some weird quirks… I shake my head. Whatever the answer is, I haven’t really been the little girl he’s always loved since that day in the Crashdown… I changed…

Before, I would talk to him about anything…I’d never lie… Now…how many times have I already made up stories to cover up where I’ve been or what’s happened…and how many more times is it going to happen…?

With Max, life is never going to be simple…yet deep down, inside, I know that if it means I lose Max, simple is the last thing I want…

“Okay, I guess that’s your decision” He tells me, reaching out once more for my hand.

The strength I get from such a simple action is amazing…but it’s true… With him there, I just feel as though I can do anything… “I-I’m sorry Max…it’s not that I don’t want you too…but it just wouldn’t help…” I try to explain, struggling to explain and unsure how good a job I’m doing. Max being there would help me no end…just him standing next to me would make it so much easier to face my father, but his presence would bring up all sorts of questions…more accusations, suggestions, and that’s not something I want to have to face. “It would make it more complicated…”

~Isabel~


I'm trying not to look back at Alex when he comes after me and I hear him say, “Isabel, please, don’t…I…t-think maybe we need to talk…” He suggest softly, reaching for me. “I…uh…don’t know what exactly happened just then, but I mean what I say…I want to be your friend…I want to help you…” Alex looks at me. “Please Isabel, don’t block me out…talk to me, don’t just run away…”

As much as I hate to admit it, I know that he deserves a reply. He deserves a reason for my behavior, but I just couldn't bring myself to say anything. I stopped walking and simply stood in silence for a time before finally turning to look at him. "Alex.. I shouldn't have kissed you. As much as you are willing to risk being close to me, I don't want to end up hurting you." I finally admitted softly.

I care a great deal for Alex, but I also know that in the end, I could be the one that hurts him. If we have a chance to leave and go to our home planet, I'd have to leave him behind. That thought alone makes me feel a tightening in my chest as I look at him. "I... I know.. that you care for me.. but I don't.. want to be the one to hurt you."

I sound like such a wimp now. When did I become such a sap, or is it simply because of how I feel when I'm around Alex that I kind of let myself be soft? I sigh and turn to look up at the sky as I continue speaking. "I never expected to have anything like this happen. I've always planned on simply letting myself seem to be as human as possible but never letting myself get really close to anyone other then Michael and Max. I've kissed dozens of guy's but it was always part of the act. You are the first guy I kissed simply because I wanted to. I shouldn't have. I don't want anything to ruin the friendship we've had.." I trail off, unable to think of anything else to say as I simply gaze up at the stars I can see above the trees.

*Max*

Liz seems kinda flustered, apologising because she doesn't want me involved in her mysterious conversation with her Dad. For an instant, I'm sure that mean it was about me and our 'friendship,' but if that were the case, why wouldn't she just say so? Her silence on the subject seems more confusing than her desire to keep me away. But then, I guess they have their own family stuff going on that maybe I don't need to be a part of.

I'm not really bothered by the fact that she doesn't want me there, although by her apologizing, I'm guessing that she thinks I am. I know it will only fuel his suspicions about us. Funny how he didn't seem at all aware that we were together when we were and now after we're officially 'apart' he's thinking about it.

Of course, after this new developement with Liz's powers, I think I'll definately have to spend more time with her, and I'm completely okay with that. In a way, I'm glad something happened to break the stalemate of me trying to hard to stay away to stay neutral, keep it all at arm's lenghth. Although I would never have wanted it to be something that hurts her, as this is at the moment. I just hope I'm right and she will be able to control it without getting hurt. And until then, I'm sure I can make Isabel understand that it's needed for me to spend time with her, even if Izzy doesn't really want us 'together.'

Not that I blame Isabel for that. We're at risk, constantly. As much as I want to be lost in Liz forever, I can't let that desire distract me from what I need to do to protect us all. Maybe if Liz can control her new powers, I can learn to control my obsession, too. Well, I can always hope, anyway...

"I understand. But I'll always be there if you need me. For anything," I promise, rubbing her hand.

~Liz~

"I understand. But I'll always be there if you need me. For anything,"

If I need him…if I need him… I can’t go relying on him to help me with this forever…I have to get to grips with it. I have to learn to control it… And that’s not only in ideal situations… I can’t allow a sharp word from someone to set me off…it’s too dangerous…

I smile softly and nod gratefully. “Thanks…that means a lot…” I tell him softly, looking down for a moment, not quite wanting to meet his eyes.

Eventually I have to though, and I know there’s something that needs to be asked… My father was asking a question earlier, and now I guess it’s my turn to ask something similar…

I need to hear him say yes or no…I need to know where we stand… Whether he’s helping me out of obligation, as a friend, because he cares, or something far more…?

I look up, finally meeting his gaze as I reach up and push my hair out of my face. “Max…I-I don’t want to make you feel awkward…but before we go back…there’s something I need to ask… I take a breath. “I know that you said we needed to take a step back…that you needed to be able to focus… B-but do you think there’s any chance we cold try again…?” I ask hesitantly in a soft voice as I lapse into silence when I’ve finished, just waiting for an answer…

OOC: I know the ending is a little weak Storm, I was getting stuck. wanted to have him say something more, but couldn't think of what. hope it works ok for you though and sorry for the delay

~Alex~

Isabel stops walking at least, but she refuses to look at me at first, simply standing there in silence. “Isabel…?” I look at her and reach again for her hand rubbing my thumb gently along the back.

Finally, after what seems like an age, she turns and looks back at me. “Alex…I shouldn’t have kissed you. As much as you are willing to risk being close to me, I don’t want to end up hurting you…”

I swallow and try not to react to this the way I want… If she doesn’t want to hurt me, she doesn’t want to say this… Her pushing me away like this, hurts far more than any physical hurt of being attacked or something ever could…

“I…I know…that you care for me…but I don’t…want to be the one to hurt you…”

I almost think I can see tears forming in the corner of her eyes. That’s not possible though…not Isabel… Her voice is tight and forced, showing, despite her efforts to hide, the emotion behind. I look at her. “Let me in Isabel…please…?” I repeat this soft plea as she turns away from me, looking up at the night sky…

Somewhere up there, there’s a star she would call home… Maybe that’s what she means…eventually, one day, they’re going to want to go home, and then I’ll just be some guy she tells to have a good life or something like that.

“I never expected to have anything like this happen. I’ve always planned on simply letting myself seem as human as possible, but never letting myself get really close to anyone other than Michael and Max…”

I nod, understanding what she’s saying…She had a similar plan to Michael, except his way of implementing it was different… He remained aloof, never letting himself get close to anyone, while Isabel did the same, but by surrounding herself with people – albeit shallow and superficial ones…

“I’ve kissed dozens of guys, but it was always part of the act. You are the first guy I kissed simply because I wanted to.”

For a moment that makes me feel great, but then she continues and it all kinda falls apart again. “I shouldn’t have. I don’t want anything to ruin the friendship we’ve had…”

She trails off and I step up, hesitantly pulling her into my arms. “You’re not going to ruin the friendship we have… Let me in…please…?” I hold my breath a moment, trying to pluck up the courage to say what I want but I just can’t. I love her… I have watched her at school, thought how out of reach she was for so long… She’s saying that she wanted to kiss me though…

I know it's short.. but I'm on limited time at the moment.

~Isabel~


While I spoke, I could feel that I was close to simply breaking. Still as Alex wrapped his arms around me, my mind is telling me not to give in. I shouldn't let this happen. I shouldn't want this or think this way. He's human and he has a life here. I shouldn't even consider this. Even as I'm thinking that, I find myself leaning into his embrace and letting myself take comfort from it.

"Alex, why? Why have you been willing to do all of this? Why do you want to be here for me?" I ask, and I know that the main reason I'm asking is because my mind wants to find something to grasp at that will stop things from having a chance to continue. My heart on the other hand is simply wanting things to grow. I'd kissed him and it had been wonderful, but I'd been so busy telling Max that he and Liz couldn't be together and yet here I am thinking about breaking my own taboo.

OOC: maybe shorter, but still great as always storm . I'm not completely sure about this, especially the last bit...tell me if you want me to edit...

~Alex~

It’s what I want more than anything of course, but I have to admit that I’m somewhat surprised as Isabel leans into my arms more. I wrap my arms around her more tightly, but don’t try anything else mainly for fear of pushing her too far, or scaring her away…

“Alex, why? Why have you been willing to do all this? Why do you want to be here for me…?”

Part of me can’t believe that Isabel is asking that… Doesn’t she realise how much she means to me…? I shake my head softly. “Why…?” I look down at her. “Because you’re the most amazing girl I’ve ever met…because you’re beautiful and smart, and I love being around you…” I pause a moment before adding. “Because I love you Isabel Evans… Maybe that isn’t what you want to hear, maybe it’s complicating things all too much again, but it’s the truth… When I’m around you, I forget about anything else except the fact that you’re there…”

Suddenly I realise just what I’ve said… I’ve admitted the things that I always said I would keep private, keep from her in order to prevent making a fool of myself… I lapse into an awkward slience for a moment, remaining there with my arms around her, but not really knowing what to do…

I know what I want to do of course…but I don’t know if that would be a good idea… I’m scared that if I try and kiss her, I’ll lose her… I take a breath and pull back reluctantly, looking down at her again. “Isabel, if all you’re offering is a friendship, then I’ll take it…I don’t want to ruin things between us and prevent us from even being friends, but I want you to know how I really feel… I love you Isabel…” I repeat the earlier statement before taking a huge chance and leaning towards her, stopping about an inch from her face, my eyes meeting hers. “…and I’d like to kiss you…if I may…?”

Ooh I love it Kat. Not much more to this one either.... but I'm posting lol.

~Isabel~

I'm not quite certain what I'm expecting to hear Alex say, but as he responds I feel myself shocked. “Why…?” He begins looking at me, “Because you’re the most amazing girl I’ve ever met…because you’re beautiful and smart, and I love being around you…” When he pauses I'm almost tempted to stop him right there and just walk away because it was too tempting to let those words bring a powerful and joyful feeling tremoring through my every nerve.

What he adds next though causes my breath to catch, "Because I love you Isabel Evans… Maybe that isn’t what you want to hear, maybe it’s complicating things all too much again, but it’s the truth… When I’m around you, I forget about anything else except the fact that you’re there…”

How long had I wondered what it would be like to have someone say that that wasn't Max or Michael. That wasn't someone that was family. Sure I'd had declarations of love from guy's but none were really sincere, none had been the way Alex just said it.

I swallow a lump that's formed in my throat, emotions that I'd denied were trying to rise. I couldn't speak at that moment, I couldn't even move. I just looked at him and fought the smile that was trying to lift my lips.

“Isabel, if all you’re offering is a friendship, then I’ll take it…I don’t want to ruin things between us and prevent us from even being friends, but I want you to know how I really feel… I love you Isabel…” He repeats his words and again I feel the lump and need to swallow it. He leans forward and stops just short enough to look into my eyes before he continues, “…and I’d like to kiss you…if I may…?”

Without speaking, I don't even realize what I'm doing until my arms are wrapped around his neck and I'm nodding. "I'd like that, Alex." I don't know exactly what I feel towards him. Whether I return his love or not, but I do know that I've never felt anything like it before. "As much as I fear hurting you... I can't deny wanting to be with you anymore."

Not speaking any further, I close the distance and touch my lips to his. Closing my eyes, I simply savor the tender moment and think of how amazing it feels to be giving myself over to what I feel rather then simply fighting against it.