Roswell Fanatics

Isabel

"I'm glad you aren't planning on any babies soon, its a good thing to strengthen your bond with Kivar, and by strengthening that bond your baby, when you have one,will benefit from that so much." she says with a smile

"That's so true Tess.I want to give my child..our child,a happy secure family."

As we round the corner leading to the private chambers a flash of fur comes bounding towards us and launches itself at my legs.
"Caramel!" I start laughing and bend down to pick up my puppy "Tess,this is the puppy Kivar bought for me the other day.Isn't he precious?Kivar's insisted that he be trained.Speaking of Kivar,I wonder if he's in his study."

Handing the squirming puppy to Tess I begin walking towards his study "Let's check if he's in."

~KIVAR~

I storm down the hall to my study, upset with the way the time went with the doctor. It was all tests and no answers. Apparently, we need to determine where the parasite came from, what it is exactly, how long it's been inside my head and then we can start asking even more questions about it. Argh! I had just slammed the door to the study when Nickolas knocked on the door. I know it's him...I can feel him when he's around. I sigh. "Come in, Nickolas," I call out.

He steps inside and bows his head. "What do you want?" I ask him. He lifts his head and he has a look of anger and also...a glint of something else in his eyes, maybe self satisfaction.

"My lord, I happened to be out in the gardens and came across Queen Vilandra and Queen Ava. I thought you might be interested in what they had to say. You won't be pleased, my king," he begins.

My head throbs and I turn to the window behind me and pull out a pill. Swallowing it down quickly, I make a decision but I'm torn in two different directions. Nickolas is basically admitting to having spied on Lonnie and I promised that I would change. On the other hand, I didn't ask him to spy for me and I really want to know that she's happy with my changes so far. I also hope that she hasn't gotten wind of those rumors. I was assured that no one else had been told the rumors and I felt that I could believe them all but you can never be too careful. "All right, Nickolas, what did you hear?" I ask finally.

OCC: I'm off now till thursday - if you need to move Elisabeth, please feel free to do so

Isabel

"Oh Isabel, he's such a cutie." I grin back at her "Kivar was so thoughtful to get puppies."

"Yes he was.As soon as he saw them he asked me to pick one for myself.You should see the one he choose for himself,Charcoal.He's going to be a beauty when he grows up." I stop and ruffle my puppy's fur "Not that Caramel is any less handsome."

Coming to a stop in front of the study door I knock,then open the door and enter,"Kivar are you busy?" I ask with a smile upon my face at seeing him

~KIVAR~

As I dismiss Nickolas and he leaves, I feel like my heart is breaking into a million pieces. She lied to me. My Lonnie lied to me. Yes, she thinks things are going better but she doesn't want children with me. She doesn't trust me. I don't know what to do...what to think. The voices in my head are no longer whispers, they are murmurs and they are murmuring against my wife.

I collapse into my chair and hold my head in my hands. Oh, Lonnie, I thought we were getting better...I thought we were going to be honest with each other. Now I find out that you were lying to me.

Isabel

I notice Kivar sitting in his chair,holding his head in his hands and I get worried,"Kivar...what's wrong?" I ask rushing to his side and squatting down by his chair

~KIVAR~

My automatic reaction is to draw back from her in disappointment and disgust. What kind of hypocrite is she? I sit as far away from her as my chair allows. "Nothing is wrong, Vilandra. You and Ava have a nice walk and chat in the garden?" I ask, my expression carefully blank. I'm not entirely sure how to handle this information I was given.

Isabel

I notice that he seems to shrink away from my touch and I frown, "Nothing is wrong, Vilandra. You and Ava have a nice walk and chat in the garden?" he asks somewhat coldly

How did he know we were in the garden?

"Yes...yes we did.It was good talking to another woman after so long." I glance up and realise Tess is standing in the doorway observing us "Tess,would you mind if I have a moment alone with Kivar?"

I wait for her to leave before looking at him again,"What's the matter with you?" I ask rising to my feet

~KIVAR~

I look up at her and cannot help the look that comes over my face, using all of my control to keep my voice steady. I know that my hurt and feelings of betrayal must be written all over my face. "What's wrong with me? Perhaps it is the fact that my head is spinning over how much I trusted you and you betrayed that...or maybe it's the fact that my heart is breaking over your lying to me," I spit out at her. I jump up and the chair is thrown away from me as I do. It is all I can do not to grab her and snap her beautiful neck.

Isabel

I am shocked to see the look of rage on his face,"What's wrong with me? Perhaps it is the fact that my head is spinning over how much I trusted you and you betrayed that...or maybe it's the fact that my heart is breaking over your lying to me,"

My eyes close when he shoves the chair away violently and I flinch,the act bringing back some back some bad memories,"I haven't betrayed you and I haven't lied to you.Why're you accusing me?" I ask softly but keep my eyes locked on his face