~Liz~
“The future? Me?”
Max sounds and looks completely stunned… Probably something like I did when FutureMax appeared and told me who he was that night. I mean the whole idea of time travel seemed, and to some extent still seems, absolutely crazy…
I didn’t believe him at first, and I wouldn’t really blame max if he doubted it too… I took some convincing that night…but the stunt with the flowers, well how was I supposed to doubt it after that… Still, I’m prepared for the fact Max might not believe it at first, and even if I can explain, it’s not like it’ll be easy…
I mean I made him think that I slept with Kyle…that I had betrayed him in the worst way possible… How do I explain that…?
“You’re telling me that I came from the future – through time – and you never told anyone? Why…?”
I shake my head and look back at him. I’m not too sure whether he’s asking why I kept the secret, or whether his future self did what he did – maybe he doesn’t even know the answer to that himself… If it’s the first though, there’s one simple answer. “Why did I keep it secret Max…? Because he – you, asked me to…” The answer is as basic as that… It was Max – from the future granted, but it was Max, and he asked me to do something…he told me it was necessary, and that’s all that was needed… “Y-He told me that I had to, that he needed me to…” I bite my lip and blink back a tear that’s slipping out the corner of my eye before giving him a wry smile. “…and you know me of course, I’d do anything for you…”
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~Michael and Isabel~
~*Isabel*~
After Max and Liz made their way into the privacy of the other room, I looked over at Michael and sighed. "I didn't expect you and Max. I hope this doesn't cause even more problems. What do you think we should do about this?"
Michael shrugged, "I don't know Iz. There was a time when I thought they were going to be together through everything. I was even jealous of that kind of relationship."
I nodded and made my way over to the couch and sat down, my feet automatically resting on the table in front of me. "So did I. That was a time in life when things seemed to make sense even with everything we had to do with running from the Agents. Why did everything have to go to hell? How did we all end up like this? Hell, what's going on with you and Maria?"
Michael laughed without mirth as he sat beside me, "I don't know what exactly is going on between Maria and I. I think we're over too." The emotion slid into his gaze for only a moment before he schooled his expression, but I knew he cared.
I moved closer to him and placed a hand on his shoulder, "If we don't watch it, we'll both lose it. And if you want Maria back, I have an idea that might help." I winked at him as I smiled slightly.
"I don't like that look, Isabel." Michael stated cooly, although he seemed to have a hint of interest.
"Before I tell you anything, I am going to plan on walking first." I told him and with a grin added, "Tonight."
"No, you aren't going to do that to Maria are you?" Michael asked trying to sound innocent.
I couldn't help but think that one of us had to have the chance to be happy, so if I could help great. I knew I wasn't going to be. Alex was lost to me and I hadn't even had much time with him in the first place. Thinking of him caused me to tear up again and I blinked the tears away.
~Michael~
"What do you think they are talking about in there?" I changed the subject as I noted the expression on Isabel's face.
"Who knows, maybe they'll stop fighting what they feel and admit they still love each other. I mean, so what if Tess is carrying my nephew. There is no reason why he needs to be with her when he doesn't love her. Max can easily still be a father without being with Tess." The passion in her voice as she spoke caused me to smile and I wished that Max could have been able to hear her speak.
I was about to say something when Isabel continued, "I mean, take it from me. You have to embrace what you feel and cherish every moment because somethnig could happen that could tear you apart and then you'll have only memories to comfort you." I watched her try to blink away tears and drew her against him in a comforting manner.
She'd always been like a sister to me and I hated to see her hurting so much. I sighed, my talk with Max still hadn't happened, but I couldn't really fault anyone.
Isabel was shaking and I looked down to see her crying. I think this is the first time since a few days after Alex died that I'd seen her cry. Sure she'd had tears but she always forced herself to stop. Even at the funeral she had sobbed for a few moments and then sucked it up acting like she was fine.
~Michael and Isabel~
~*Isabel*~
After Max and Liz made their way into the privacy of the other room, I looked over at Michael and sighed. "I didn't expect you and Max. I hope this doesn't cause even more problems. What do you think we should do about this?"
Michael shrugged, "I don't know Iz. There was a time when I thought they were going to be together through everything. I was even jealous of that kind of relationship."
I nodded and made my way over to the couch and sat down, my feet automatically resting on the table in front of me. "So did I. That was a time in life when things seemed to make sense even with everything we had to do with running from the Agents. Why did everything have to go to hell? How did we all end up like this? Hell, what's going on with you and Maria?"
Michael laughed without mirth as he sat beside me, "I don't know what exactly is going on between Maria and I. I think we're over too." The emotion slid into his gaze for only a moment before he schooled his expression, but I knew he cared.
I moved closer to him and placed a hand on his shoulder, "If we don't watch it, we'll both lose it. And if you want Maria back, I have an idea that might help." I winked at him as I smiled slightly.
"I don't like that look, Isabel." Michael stated cooly, although he seemed to have a hint of interest.
"Before I tell you anything, I am going to plan on walking first." I told him and with a grin added, "Tonight."
"No, you aren't going to do that to Maria are you?" Michael asked trying to sound innocent.
I couldn't help but think that one of us had to have the chance to be happy, so if I could help great. I knew I wasn't going to be. Alex was lost to me and I hadn't even had much time with him in the first place. Thinking of him caused me to tear up again and I blinked the tears away.
~Michael~
"What do you think they are talking about in there?" I changed the subject as I noted the expression on Isabel's face.
"Who knows, maybe they'll stop fighting what they feel and admit they still love each other. I mean, so what if Tess is carrying my nephew. There is no reason why he needs to be with her when he doesn't love her. Max can easily still be a father without being with Tess." The passion in her voice as she spoke caused me to smile and I wished that Max could have been able to hear her speak.
I was about to say something when Isabel continued, "I mean, take it from me. You have to embrace what you feel and cherish every moment because somethnig could happen that could tear you apart and then you'll have only memories to comfort you." I watched her try to blink away tears and drew her against him in a comforting manner.
She'd always been like a sister to me and I hated to see her hurting so much. I sighed, my talk with Max still hadn't happened, but I couldn't really fault anyone.
Isabel was shaking and I looked down to see her crying. I think this is the first time since a few days after Alex died that I'd seen her cry. Sure she'd had tears but she always forced herself to stop. Even at the funeral she had sobbed for a few moments and then sucked it up acting like she was fine.
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*Max*
“Why did I keep it secret Max…? Because he – you, asked me to…” she says. Well, I think there must be lots of reasons not to advertise that fact that there’s a time traveler about – not to mention fears of changing things too much. But before I have a chance to ask if she knows any more about why he was here and what he wanted, she starts to get choked up. But her next words stop me cold. “Y-He told me that I had to, that he needed me to…and you know me of course, I’d do anything for you.”
Thoughts about time-travel, the physics, the reasons, the secrecy, all fly from my mind at her words. I look away, quickly, as though I’ve been hit, biting my lip hard, struggling to get my feelings under control again. “Anything?” I repeat, turning back immediately to meet her eyes. My voice is tight with emotion and I hope she doesn’t hear it. Suddenly, I’m damn close to crying myself. “I asked you – I begged you – to come back to me. I serenaded you. But you kept pushing me at her. Don’t you know you’re all I’ve ever wanted? The only one I’ll ever love?”
Last night she’d claimed that I made her sleep with Kyle, although I’m sure now that she didn’t do that. Now she says she’d do anything for me. If I could have made her do anything, I’d have made her be with me. But she didn’t. She ran away. She tells me she loves me, but she wouldn’t do that. And now, now when it might be too late, when I already have a baby with her, now Liz wants to be together with me again. Why can’t things ever make sense?
“Why did I keep it secret Max…? Because he – you, asked me to…” she says. Well, I think there must be lots of reasons not to advertise that fact that there’s a time traveler about – not to mention fears of changing things too much. But before I have a chance to ask if she knows any more about why he was here and what he wanted, she starts to get choked up. But her next words stop me cold. “Y-He told me that I had to, that he needed me to…and you know me of course, I’d do anything for you.”
Thoughts about time-travel, the physics, the reasons, the secrecy, all fly from my mind at her words. I look away, quickly, as though I’ve been hit, biting my lip hard, struggling to get my feelings under control again. “Anything?” I repeat, turning back immediately to meet her eyes. My voice is tight with emotion and I hope she doesn’t hear it. Suddenly, I’m damn close to crying myself. “I asked you – I begged you – to come back to me. I serenaded you. But you kept pushing me at her. Don’t you know you’re all I’ve ever wanted? The only one I’ll ever love?”
Last night she’d claimed that I made her sleep with Kyle, although I’m sure now that she didn’t do that. Now she says she’d do anything for me. If I could have made her do anything, I’d have made her be with me. But she didn’t. She ran away. She tells me she loves me, but she wouldn’t do that. And now, now when it might be too late, when I already have a baby with her, now Liz wants to be together with me again. Why can’t things ever make sense?
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~Liz~
I say the words, and immediately I regret them… Not because I don’t mean them, but because I do…
“Anything…?”
Max looks back at me and my eyes meet his. I can hear the difference in his voice and I can see just how hard this is for him. “I asked you – I begged you – to come back to me. I serenaded you. But you kept pushing me at her…”
Swallowing, I bite down hard on my lip and wait for him to finish. I guess I owe him that much at least. He’s right, I pushed him away… Before FutureMax, after the message…
“Don’t you know you’re all I’ve ever wanted? The only one I’ll ever love…?”
The emotion is tight, but I hear no tone of acusation in his voice. I know he’s asking how I can say these things though, and I can only hope that he might understand. I shake my head. “I didn’t want to do that Max… I didn’t want to walk away…” I swallow again and try to make sense of it all in my head. The words are swimming round, but when I try to get them out…there’s just nothing…
How can I hope to make him understand, when I don’t really understand myself…
“I pushed you away after the message, because I thought that was what you needed… So you see, maybe it wasn’t what you said you wanted, but it was what I thought you needed…” I shake my head again. “It sounds crazy, and you have every right to be angry Max, but I did that for you…”
I stand up and begin to pace up and down a little. “Doing that was the hardest thing I can imagine, and when you serenaded me…I was ready to give in…” I look down at him. “I love you more than anything in this world… To give up your love made me feel as though I was dying…” Biting my lip, I shake my head over and over. “He told me it wasn’t as simple as you and me though… If we were together, everyone died, and that meant you too…we were the last, but you still died, and I couldn’t let that happen… He told me what I had to do, and I did the only thing I could think of…” The words are beginning to get stuck in my throat and I’m feel as though I’m choking. “W-what I said, about wanting normal…it’s not true…I want you Max, and if it means you and I can be together, I’ll face anything that brings…”
I can’t help it, I can feel the tears running down my face, but I don’t know how to stop them… I shake my head and look back at him. “Please Max…whatever you might believe, never believe that I didn’t love you… From that day in the Crashdown, I have never stopped, and I never will… Whatever happens, you Max Evans, hold my heart…now and forever…”
I say the words, and immediately I regret them… Not because I don’t mean them, but because I do…
“Anything…?”
Max looks back at me and my eyes meet his. I can hear the difference in his voice and I can see just how hard this is for him. “I asked you – I begged you – to come back to me. I serenaded you. But you kept pushing me at her…”
Swallowing, I bite down hard on my lip and wait for him to finish. I guess I owe him that much at least. He’s right, I pushed him away… Before FutureMax, after the message…
“Don’t you know you’re all I’ve ever wanted? The only one I’ll ever love…?”
The emotion is tight, but I hear no tone of acusation in his voice. I know he’s asking how I can say these things though, and I can only hope that he might understand. I shake my head. “I didn’t want to do that Max… I didn’t want to walk away…” I swallow again and try to make sense of it all in my head. The words are swimming round, but when I try to get them out…there’s just nothing…
How can I hope to make him understand, when I don’t really understand myself…
“I pushed you away after the message, because I thought that was what you needed… So you see, maybe it wasn’t what you said you wanted, but it was what I thought you needed…” I shake my head again. “It sounds crazy, and you have every right to be angry Max, but I did that for you…”
I stand up and begin to pace up and down a little. “Doing that was the hardest thing I can imagine, and when you serenaded me…I was ready to give in…” I look down at him. “I love you more than anything in this world… To give up your love made me feel as though I was dying…” Biting my lip, I shake my head over and over. “He told me it wasn’t as simple as you and me though… If we were together, everyone died, and that meant you too…we were the last, but you still died, and I couldn’t let that happen… He told me what I had to do, and I did the only thing I could think of…” The words are beginning to get stuck in my throat and I’m feel as though I’m choking. “W-what I said, about wanting normal…it’s not true…I want you Max, and if it means you and I can be together, I’ll face anything that brings…”
I can’t help it, I can feel the tears running down my face, but I don’t know how to stop them… I shake my head and look back at him. “Please Max…whatever you might believe, never believe that I didn’t love you… From that day in the Crashdown, I have never stopped, and I never will… Whatever happens, you Max Evans, hold my heart…now and forever…”
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Dreams and Reality
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When Friendship and Love Combine - New!
If Only...
The Important Thing
Home for Christmas
I Knew Him Before (PB fic)
Love Always...
The First Time Around - New!
Dreams and Reality
Reality Revealed
Family Connections
When Love and Loss Collide
When Friendship and Love Combine - New!
If Only...
The Important Thing
Home for Christmas
I Knew Him Before (PB fic)
Love Always...
The First Time Around - New!
*Max*
I sit down on Michael's bed in a motion that's almost falling. The emotions running through me, the confusion, it's so intense, I literally can't stand. I look up at Liz as she paces the room trying to explain.
“Doing that was the hardest thing I can imagine, and when you serenaded me…I was ready to give in…I love you more than anything in this world… To give up your love made me feel as though I was dying… He told me it wasn’t as simple as you and me though… If we were together, everyone died, and that meant you too…we were the last, but you still died, and I couldn’t let that happen… He told me what I had to do, and I did the only thing I could think of... W-what I said, about wanting normal…it’s not true…I want you Max, and if it means you and I can be together, I’ll face anything that brings…” She tells me, tears starting to run down her face.
I can't have her crying. No matter what she's done to me, how much I've been hurt, that's one thing I can never allow. I stand stepping towards her, reaching for her face.
“Please Max…whatever you might believe, never believe that I didn’t love you… From that day in the Crashdown, I have never stopped, and I never will… Whatever happens, you Max Evans, hold my heart…now and forever…”
I put one hand on Liz's shoulder and use the other to wipe her face, drying her tears. "I was dying, too. I love you," I tell her, although I've said it before. "I'll always love you. You're the only one ..." I stop myself then. I don't want to repeat myself. I don't want to go somewhere I never can. On the other hand, I'm not at all sure I can prevent it.
I lean down, kissing her cheek, trying to sort out what she told me. She loves me and that's what I want to hear, but 'future Max' told her that if we were together it would be the end of the world. I'm sure it's why she pretended to sleep with Kyle, but it doesn't explain what's happening now. I hold her close, hugging her tightly as she trembles in my arms. There's still so much I don't understand.
"Why was it necessary, Liz? Why did would he tell you to do something like that?" I ask her.
I sit down on Michael's bed in a motion that's almost falling. The emotions running through me, the confusion, it's so intense, I literally can't stand. I look up at Liz as she paces the room trying to explain.
“Doing that was the hardest thing I can imagine, and when you serenaded me…I was ready to give in…I love you more than anything in this world… To give up your love made me feel as though I was dying… He told me it wasn’t as simple as you and me though… If we were together, everyone died, and that meant you too…we were the last, but you still died, and I couldn’t let that happen… He told me what I had to do, and I did the only thing I could think of... W-what I said, about wanting normal…it’s not true…I want you Max, and if it means you and I can be together, I’ll face anything that brings…” She tells me, tears starting to run down her face.
I can't have her crying. No matter what she's done to me, how much I've been hurt, that's one thing I can never allow. I stand stepping towards her, reaching for her face.
“Please Max…whatever you might believe, never believe that I didn’t love you… From that day in the Crashdown, I have never stopped, and I never will… Whatever happens, you Max Evans, hold my heart…now and forever…”
I put one hand on Liz's shoulder and use the other to wipe her face, drying her tears. "I was dying, too. I love you," I tell her, although I've said it before. "I'll always love you. You're the only one ..." I stop myself then. I don't want to repeat myself. I don't want to go somewhere I never can. On the other hand, I'm not at all sure I can prevent it.
I lean down, kissing her cheek, trying to sort out what she told me. She loves me and that's what I want to hear, but 'future Max' told her that if we were together it would be the end of the world. I'm sure it's why she pretended to sleep with Kyle, but it doesn't explain what's happening now. I hold her close, hugging her tightly as she trembles in my arms. There's still so much I don't understand.
"Why was it necessary, Liz? Why did would he tell you to do something like that?" I ask her.
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~Liz~
Max stands up again, stepping towards me and reaching for my face. He puts one hand on my shoulder and gently wipes the tears from my eyes with the other. The motion is so gentle, so soft…his touch is what I have dreamt of since the day at the cave…the first day that I turned away from him…
I felt as though my heart was breaking as I turned away that day…as I pushed him towards Tess for the first time… I look back at that day, and I realise how much of a mess I made… Just hours earlier, we had been sat together, saying how much we loved each other… I had listened to him saying that no matter what happened, he could never regret having saved me, because it was me…
Yet I listened to that message, and I forgot everything that we’d shared… I ignored the fact of what Max was telling me, and decided that the message was right…that I knew best what he wanted…
Sometimes I’m amazed that he even wanted me after that… I loved him so much…so why was I so willing to let him go…?
Max looks at me, his eyes meeting his, and I can see how much he’s hurting… I wish I could change the past…take back what I did… Maybe it wouldn’t make it any simpler, but at least I’d know I wasn’t the one causing that pain…
“I was dying to…I love you…” Max repeats what he has said so many times and for once, instead of listening to all the reasons why this can’t be…why he and I should both move on, I simply listen, allowing the words to sink in. “I’ll always love you. You’re the only one…”
He leans down, kissing my cheek and just that gentle touch is like heaven… I close my eyes for a moment but as I reopen them, I find myself looking back into his eyes…the hurt I’ve caused is plain to see and I find myself trembling as I think about what I did… I made him think I slept with Kyle…I made him think that what we had meant nothing to me… How can he ever forgive that…?
Maria would say it’s not a case of how can he forgive me, but the other way round… But I know better… I have forgiven him…because when I think of my future if I don’t…I think of a cold lonely future, devoid of love and joy… I think of my future without Max, and I think of it as no future at all… Without him, little by little, day by day, I’m slowly dying… I need him…I need him as we need the air to breath… I know that sounds like a cliché, but I can’t help it…it’s how I feel… I love this man…I want to be with him…I want to feel his love…
So then of course it comes back to the earlier point… I need him to forgive me for what I did…
He holds me tightly and I rest my head against his chest. This is what I have dreamt of…this is my heaven…
It’s not over yet though… After a moment, Max looks down at me, and before he even opens his mouth, I know what he’s going to ask. “Why…? Why was It necessary Liz? Why did-would he tell you to do something like that….?”
I swallow and shake my head. “H-he didn’t…” I admit, nearly choking on my words. “He told me I had to make you fall out of love with me…and the things I tried at first just didn’t work…I was desperate…” I raise my hand to my mouth, covering it for a moment and shaking my head again. “I-in his timeline, we got married when we were nineteen…we eloped to Vegas…” I pause, biting down on my lip for a moment as I remember the things he told me. There weren’t many, other than the tails of disaster, because he couldn’t risk changing the future too much, but there were a few, and one of the constant features, was that Alex was there with us…
Where did this all go wrong…? I look away for a moment, tears forming in the corners of my eyes and I try to blink them back, to hide them before I turn back to Max and continue. “The night of Gomez, w-we…we cemented…our relationship…” I tell him with some difficulty, choosing to use the words FutureMax did mainly for the reason that I’m not sure what else to say. “From then on we just got closer and closer, and after we got married, Tess left…” My voice drops almost to a whisper as I say this and I trail off for a moment, searching for the words I need next. “S-she couldn’t stand to be around us like that…she’d never really become part of the group…and when it came to it, when your enemies attacked, you needed her…” As I finish, I know that by telling Max all this, I risk causing him to rethink things once more…I risk making him decide that being together with me isn’t worth the risk and complication…making him decide that being with Tess is for the best… The fact is that I’m telling him the truth though…what he needs to hear, and what I need to tell… I won’t lie to him… And whatever that truth means…whatever the consequences or results be, I guess I just have to face them… I swallow and look back up at Max, reaching for his hand with mine. “I’m sorry…I’m so sorry…for everything…”
~Liz~
Max stands up again, stepping towards me and reaching for my face. He puts one hand on my shoulder and gently wipes the tears from my eyes with the other. The motion is so gentle, so soft…his touch is what I have dreamt of since the day at the cave…the first day that I turned away from him…
I felt as though my heart was breaking as I turned away that day…as I pushed him towards Tess for the first time… I look back at that day, and I realise how much of a mess I made… Just hours earlier, we had been sat together, saying how much we loved each other… I had listened to him saying that no matter what happened, he could never regret having saved me, because it was me…
Yet I listened to that message, and I forgot everything that we’d shared… I ignored the fact of what Max was telling me, and decided that the message was right…that I knew best what he wanted…
Sometimes I’m amazed that he even wanted me after that… I loved him so much…so why was I so willing to let him go…?
Max looks at me, his eyes meeting his, and I can see how much he’s hurting… I wish I could change the past…take back what I did… Maybe it wouldn’t make it any simpler, but at least I’d know I wasn’t the one causing that pain…
“I was dying to…I love you…” Max repeats what he has said so many times and for once, instead of listening to all the reasons why this can’t be…why he and I should both move on, I simply listen, allowing the words to sink in. “I’ll always love you. You’re the only one…”
He leans down, kissing my cheek and just that gentle touch is like heaven… I close my eyes for a moment but as I reopen them, I find myself looking back into his eyes…the hurt I’ve caused is plain to see and I find myself trembling as I think about what I did… I made him think I slept with Kyle…I made him think that what we had meant nothing to me… How can he ever forgive that…?
Maria would say it’s not a case of how can he forgive me, but the other way round… But I know better… I have forgiven him…because when I think of my future if I don’t…I think of a cold lonely future, devoid of love and joy… I think of my future without Max, and I think of it as no future at all… Without him, little by little, day by day, I’m slowly dying… I need him…I need him as we need the air to breath… I know that sounds like a cliché, but I can’t help it…it’s how I feel… I love this man…I want to be with him…I want to feel his love…
So then of course it comes back to the earlier point… I need him to forgive me for what I did…
He holds me tightly and I rest my head against his chest. This is what I have dreamt of…this is my heaven…
It’s not over yet though… After a moment, Max looks down at me, and before he even opens his mouth, I know what he’s going to ask. “Why…? Why was It necessary Liz? Why did-would he tell you to do something like that….?”
I swallow and shake my head. “H-he didn’t…” I admit, nearly choking on my words. “He told me I had to make you fall out of love with me…and the things I tried at first just didn’t work…I was desperate…” I raise my hand to my mouth, covering it for a moment and shaking my head again. “I-in his timeline, we got married when we were nineteen…we eloped to Vegas…” I pause, biting down on my lip for a moment as I remember the things he told me. There weren’t many, other than the tails of disaster, because he couldn’t risk changing the future too much, but there were a few, and one of the constant features, was that Alex was there with us…
Where did this all go wrong…? I look away for a moment, tears forming in the corners of my eyes and I try to blink them back, to hide them before I turn back to Max and continue. “The night of Gomez, w-we…we cemented…our relationship…” I tell him with some difficulty, choosing to use the words FutureMax did mainly for the reason that I’m not sure what else to say. “From then on we just got closer and closer, and after we got married, Tess left…” My voice drops almost to a whisper as I say this and I trail off for a moment, searching for the words I need next. “S-she couldn’t stand to be around us like that…she’d never really become part of the group…and when it came to it, when your enemies attacked, you needed her…” As I finish, I know that by telling Max all this, I risk causing him to rethink things once more…I risk making him decide that being together with me isn’t worth the risk and complication…making him decide that being with Tess is for the best… The fact is that I’m telling him the truth though…what he needs to hear, and what I need to tell… I won’t lie to him… And whatever that truth means…whatever the consequences or results be, I guess I just have to face them… I swallow and look back up at Max, reaching for his hand with mine. “I’m sorry…I’m so sorry…for everything…”
My fics:
Dreams and Reality
Reality Revealed
Family Connections
When Love and Loss Collide
When Friendship and Love Combine - New!
If Only...
The Important Thing
Home for Christmas
I Knew Him Before (PB fic)
Love Always...
The First Time Around - New!
Dreams and Reality
Reality Revealed
Family Connections
When Love and Loss Collide
When Friendship and Love Combine - New!
If Only...
The Important Thing
Home for Christmas
I Knew Him Before (PB fic)
Love Always...
The First Time Around - New!
OOC: Sorry- for some reason I didn’t think it was my turn- royal numpty am I!
After I feel the baby kick I’m even more agitated then I was before. I feel like I’m going to pass out from the lack of oxygen so I focus on breathing slow and steadily. Eventually I feel like my lungs are no longer on the verge of collapse and I can think about other things; like the mess I’m currently in. I don’t know what to do about Kyle. I don’t know how I feel about Max. I’m worried about the baby. Could life get any more complicated? At this moment I just want a hole in the floor to swallow me up and take me away to where I wouldn’t have to deal with any of this, to where life was simple and everyone was happy.
Could it really work out with Kyle? What about Max? Does he feel like we need to be together? What about the baby? I feel like it’s important for him that we are together, but if we both want someone else? I don’t have any of these answers and I don’t think I’m going to get them sitting here on the floor of the girls bathroom.
I realise I’m going to have to face the outside world at some point and it might as well be sooner rather then later. I push myself up, thinking swiftly that soon it won’t be quite so easy. I run my hand over my face and hair, fixing anything that got messed up, and tug my clothes a little straighter. After taking a deep breath I exit the stall. there, that wasn’t so hard was it? I push open the door to the hall and realise why it wasn’t hard, but it’s about to get harder. Kyle is standing uncertainly in the hall, apparently waiting for me. His gaze is clear but I can see the hurt in his eyes. Pain that I put there.
I walk up to where he is and unsure what to do or say I look at the floor and whisper ‘hi’
After I feel the baby kick I’m even more agitated then I was before. I feel like I’m going to pass out from the lack of oxygen so I focus on breathing slow and steadily. Eventually I feel like my lungs are no longer on the verge of collapse and I can think about other things; like the mess I’m currently in. I don’t know what to do about Kyle. I don’t know how I feel about Max. I’m worried about the baby. Could life get any more complicated? At this moment I just want a hole in the floor to swallow me up and take me away to where I wouldn’t have to deal with any of this, to where life was simple and everyone was happy.
Could it really work out with Kyle? What about Max? Does he feel like we need to be together? What about the baby? I feel like it’s important for him that we are together, but if we both want someone else? I don’t have any of these answers and I don’t think I’m going to get them sitting here on the floor of the girls bathroom.
I realise I’m going to have to face the outside world at some point and it might as well be sooner rather then later. I push myself up, thinking swiftly that soon it won’t be quite so easy. I run my hand over my face and hair, fixing anything that got messed up, and tug my clothes a little straighter. After taking a deep breath I exit the stall. there, that wasn’t so hard was it? I push open the door to the hall and realise why it wasn’t hard, but it’s about to get harder. Kyle is standing uncertainly in the hall, apparently waiting for me. His gaze is clear but I can see the hurt in his eyes. Pain that I put there.
I walk up to where he is and unsure what to do or say I look at the floor and whisper ‘hi’
The problem with changing the world is that it makes any life beyond that impossible...
*Max*
Liz's answer is almost inconceivable. This person who is supposed to be me, told her to make me fall out of love with her? I couldn't ever ask her to do that. I could never do it, fall out of love. She's my life.
I try hard to listen to her explanation. “I-in his timeline, we got married when we were nineteen…we eloped to Vegas…” she says.
"Nineteen?" I wonder. I love her with everything I have but I still can't imagine getting married at nineteen. But what she says about Las Vegas strikes a chord. "My vision..." When we were there, I saw it. Like a flash only not - I wasn't touching anything, just there on the street and I saw it. She and I getting married in Las Vegas. She was so beautiful. Could she have been nineteen? How could I have seen that if it didn't happen? Unless it came from Liz somehow...
“The night of Gomez, w-we…we cemented…our relationship…” she says and I find myself tilting my head to one side, trying to understand exactly what she's saying. Somehow, she'd finally decided to stay with me and give up chasing me away. That I understand. We were married. Except instead, he told her to make me fall out of love with her. I can't figure that one out.
She starts to whisper, as if she's afraid of her own words... “From then on we just got closer and closer, and after we got married, Tess left. S-she couldn’t stand to be around us like that…she’d never really become part of the group…and when it came to it, when your enemies attacked, you needed her…”
Tess left. I bite my lip as I hear that news. She's part of the group, I know it. Ever since I knew she was one of us, I've felt a need to keep her close, to somehow incorporate her into the group, no matter how much I didn't trust Nacedo or how much I didn't want to actually be with her. I can tell it would be bad if she were gone. We need to be together, not split against ourselves like the dupes were.
In that other time, our enemies attacked and she wasn't there. Liz leaves unsaid what the consequences were, but it must have been bad. Bad enough that someone came back in time to change it.
And things have been changed. Tess is having my baby. I can't imagine she'd leave now. No matter what. I brought the classifieds to school to day specifically so I could see what an apartment might cost for the two of us. Make that - three of us. Now, now I don't know what to do.
All this year, Liz has been telling me that I have to follow my duty, not my heart. And now, when my duty is more clear than ever before ... when she gives me a story of future disaster that confirms it... now she suddenly has decided that she wants to ignore that duty.
I'm stunned and I drop her hand, almost stepping away in shock. But she reaches for my hand, stopping me. “I’m sorry…I’m so sorry…for everything…”
"Oh Liz," I tell her, rubbing her hand, but somehow not meeting her eyes. "It's not your fault..." I start, not really even sure what I mean, just sure that I don't want to see that crushed look on her face. I can't say it's her fault I loved her. I'm the one on a world where I was never meant to be. The one who wouldn't listen when she tried to point me towards the path that was decided for me. And not listening, caused something bad to happen because Tess wasn't here...
"Kyle," I say aloud. "That's why you and Kyle--" I stop myself there. Even now, I can't say it. Even knowing it wasn't what it seemed, just the memory of seeing them there, ... together, ... like that...
Liz's answer is almost inconceivable. This person who is supposed to be me, told her to make me fall out of love with her? I couldn't ever ask her to do that. I could never do it, fall out of love. She's my life.
I try hard to listen to her explanation. “I-in his timeline, we got married when we were nineteen…we eloped to Vegas…” she says.
"Nineteen?" I wonder. I love her with everything I have but I still can't imagine getting married at nineteen. But what she says about Las Vegas strikes a chord. "My vision..." When we were there, I saw it. Like a flash only not - I wasn't touching anything, just there on the street and I saw it. She and I getting married in Las Vegas. She was so beautiful. Could she have been nineteen? How could I have seen that if it didn't happen? Unless it came from Liz somehow...
“The night of Gomez, w-we…we cemented…our relationship…” she says and I find myself tilting my head to one side, trying to understand exactly what she's saying. Somehow, she'd finally decided to stay with me and give up chasing me away. That I understand. We were married. Except instead, he told her to make me fall out of love with her. I can't figure that one out.
She starts to whisper, as if she's afraid of her own words... “From then on we just got closer and closer, and after we got married, Tess left. S-she couldn’t stand to be around us like that…she’d never really become part of the group…and when it came to it, when your enemies attacked, you needed her…”
Tess left. I bite my lip as I hear that news. She's part of the group, I know it. Ever since I knew she was one of us, I've felt a need to keep her close, to somehow incorporate her into the group, no matter how much I didn't trust Nacedo or how much I didn't want to actually be with her. I can tell it would be bad if she were gone. We need to be together, not split against ourselves like the dupes were.
In that other time, our enemies attacked and she wasn't there. Liz leaves unsaid what the consequences were, but it must have been bad. Bad enough that someone came back in time to change it.
And things have been changed. Tess is having my baby. I can't imagine she'd leave now. No matter what. I brought the classifieds to school to day specifically so I could see what an apartment might cost for the two of us. Make that - three of us. Now, now I don't know what to do.
All this year, Liz has been telling me that I have to follow my duty, not my heart. And now, when my duty is more clear than ever before ... when she gives me a story of future disaster that confirms it... now she suddenly has decided that she wants to ignore that duty.
I'm stunned and I drop her hand, almost stepping away in shock. But she reaches for my hand, stopping me. “I’m sorry…I’m so sorry…for everything…”
"Oh Liz," I tell her, rubbing her hand, but somehow not meeting her eyes. "It's not your fault..." I start, not really even sure what I mean, just sure that I don't want to see that crushed look on her face. I can't say it's her fault I loved her. I'm the one on a world where I was never meant to be. The one who wouldn't listen when she tried to point me towards the path that was decided for me. And not listening, caused something bad to happen because Tess wasn't here...
"Kyle," I say aloud. "That's why you and Kyle--" I stop myself there. Even now, I can't say it. Even knowing it wasn't what it seemed, just the memory of seeing them there, ... together, ... like that...
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I hear the amazement in Max’s voice. Nineteen…so young… I nod and almost miss his next comment. It’s a whisper…almost inaudiable… His vision… He saw something… I swallow and take deep breaths. Maria never understood why I really didn’t want to go to Vagas, she ragged on me and eventually got me to change my mind.
While we were there it was ok…I think I even had fun… And the night Maria arranged…with Max, it was almost as though we were back to where we used to be…
I think in all honestly I really did have a good time, but then, when I look back at it, I don’t think of that so much, as opposed to what I missed out on… I think about the fact that the things I did lost Max…and I’m terrified that now he knows the truth I will have lost him forever…once and for all…
I’ve admitted that us being together ended the world, and yet now, I’m stood here asking him to take that chance… Why…? Why would I risk something like that…? Answer, because I love him, and I’m dying without him…and because I’m hoping that the future has already been changed sufficiently…
Tess is having Max’s child… He’s never going to ignore her and exclude her as happened in the other timeline… Whatever Max and I might be able to have, they’re going to share something even more… I might not want to admit it, but I know that it’s true… A baby…a part of Max, and a part of Tess… A small person that is going to need both of them…
I’m not saying that I think they should be together, but neither am I saying that just because it might mean I get what I want… I’ve already explained my thinking, and I will stand by it…
I hope that Max will be willing to give it a try, and I hope that Tess will realise that this is for her best too… She deserves someone that’s going to love her back, and from everything that I’ve heard come from Max’s mouth, that’s not him… He cares about her, and I know that he’ll love his son, but that’s not the same thing as loving her… Everyone should have the chance to be happy…
I’m not asking Max to walk away from his responsibility…I really hope he understands that… I’ve meant everything I’ve said since we walked in here…nothing has been lies, and nothing has been said for effect. I love Max, and I don’t know what I’ll do if I lose him…
In the end though, the final decision lies with him… He has the power right now, because he’s the one that has to make the choice…
I’m almost afraid to look up as I tell him I’m sorry, and when I do, the fact that he won’t meet my eyes only confirms my fears. I could lose him over this…once and for all…and if I do, I don’t know what I’ll do…
I said earlier on that I had to move on, whatever way that might be, but the fact is, that without Max, I don’t know what I can move on to…
Without him, the future I see is dim and colourless…it’s a ghost, and one more thing…it’s far from Roswell…alone…
I can see myself succeeding at school, doing well at college and getting a good job, I can see myself as a successful woman, whatever I end up doing, in ten years time, but there’s one other thing I can see, and that is that I would be alone…
I don’t want that, I don’t want a life alone…I want to be with Max..in fact if I am completely honest, as much as it shocks and scares me, I want the future Tess has…of being a teenage mother, of bringing up Max’s child…
I can’t quite believe that I’m saying that…that at the age of seventeen, I’m wishing I was pregnant, but it’s true, because that child would be Max’s…
I swallow and force myself to look up again but he still won’t meet my eyes, although he doesn’t drop my hand again. “Oh Liz…It’s not your fault…”
He’s saying it, but I can’t believe that…I pushed him away…I pushed him into Tess’ arms, and I didn’t tell him the truth… I know that FutureMax said he couldn’t meet him, that they’d both be destroyed, but I could have gone to Max and the others, instead of dealing in this STUPID way, we could have dealt with it together, as a group… I look down at my hands again, not wanting to face him when I know he won’t even look at me…I’m terrified that I know what this means, and I really hope that I’m wrong…
"Kyle…That's why you and Kyle--"
He brings up the last piece of the puzzle as such again and there’s nothing I can do except nod. “Y-you wouldn’t accept it was over…I tried to show Tess how to appeal to you, I tried to set up meetings before you, and I tried to make you understand we weren’t going to happen, but still you insisted that you loved me…” I bite my lip and shake my head looking down. FutureMax told me what would happen if Tess left, and I couldn’t let that happen… I was desperate, I didn’t see what else I could do… I said I wanted normal, when all I wanted was you… Yet still you didn’t believe me… Making you think I…” I can’t say with words. “…with Kyle…” I feel like I’m choking on the words as I realise it’s now or never… Either I come clean, or I let him think I slept with Kyle…and since I’ve come this far, I guess it’s not that much further. “Lying to you was the hardest thing for me to do…letting you think I had done that…” I pause a moment and force myself to look up at him. “I didn’t sleep with Kyle Max…I needed you to think that I had, but I couldn’t, and wouldn’t do that…I love you too much…”
I push my hair back, standing up and fighting back tears. “Maybe you’re right though…maybe it’s too late to do anything about it… I just needed you to know how I felt, and understand what I’m offering if you think it could work… I’m not asking you to walk away from this, or anything else Max…I guess I’m just hoping there’s some way you can manage to do this without walking away from me either though…without giving up on us…”
I hear the amazement in Max’s voice. Nineteen…so young… I nod and almost miss his next comment. It’s a whisper…almost inaudiable… His vision… He saw something… I swallow and take deep breaths. Maria never understood why I really didn’t want to go to Vagas, she ragged on me and eventually got me to change my mind.
While we were there it was ok…I think I even had fun… And the night Maria arranged…with Max, it was almost as though we were back to where we used to be…
I think in all honestly I really did have a good time, but then, when I look back at it, I don’t think of that so much, as opposed to what I missed out on… I think about the fact that the things I did lost Max…and I’m terrified that now he knows the truth I will have lost him forever…once and for all…
I’ve admitted that us being together ended the world, and yet now, I’m stood here asking him to take that chance… Why…? Why would I risk something like that…? Answer, because I love him, and I’m dying without him…and because I’m hoping that the future has already been changed sufficiently…
Tess is having Max’s child… He’s never going to ignore her and exclude her as happened in the other timeline… Whatever Max and I might be able to have, they’re going to share something even more… I might not want to admit it, but I know that it’s true… A baby…a part of Max, and a part of Tess… A small person that is going to need both of them…
I’m not saying that I think they should be together, but neither am I saying that just because it might mean I get what I want… I’ve already explained my thinking, and I will stand by it…
I hope that Max will be willing to give it a try, and I hope that Tess will realise that this is for her best too… She deserves someone that’s going to love her back, and from everything that I’ve heard come from Max’s mouth, that’s not him… He cares about her, and I know that he’ll love his son, but that’s not the same thing as loving her… Everyone should have the chance to be happy…
I’m not asking Max to walk away from his responsibility…I really hope he understands that… I’ve meant everything I’ve said since we walked in here…nothing has been lies, and nothing has been said for effect. I love Max, and I don’t know what I’ll do if I lose him…
In the end though, the final decision lies with him… He has the power right now, because he’s the one that has to make the choice…
I’m almost afraid to look up as I tell him I’m sorry, and when I do, the fact that he won’t meet my eyes only confirms my fears. I could lose him over this…once and for all…and if I do, I don’t know what I’ll do…
I said earlier on that I had to move on, whatever way that might be, but the fact is, that without Max, I don’t know what I can move on to…
Without him, the future I see is dim and colourless…it’s a ghost, and one more thing…it’s far from Roswell…alone…
I can see myself succeeding at school, doing well at college and getting a good job, I can see myself as a successful woman, whatever I end up doing, in ten years time, but there’s one other thing I can see, and that is that I would be alone…
I don’t want that, I don’t want a life alone…I want to be with Max..in fact if I am completely honest, as much as it shocks and scares me, I want the future Tess has…of being a teenage mother, of bringing up Max’s child…
I can’t quite believe that I’m saying that…that at the age of seventeen, I’m wishing I was pregnant, but it’s true, because that child would be Max’s…
I swallow and force myself to look up again but he still won’t meet my eyes, although he doesn’t drop my hand again. “Oh Liz…It’s not your fault…”
He’s saying it, but I can’t believe that…I pushed him away…I pushed him into Tess’ arms, and I didn’t tell him the truth… I know that FutureMax said he couldn’t meet him, that they’d both be destroyed, but I could have gone to Max and the others, instead of dealing in this STUPID way, we could have dealt with it together, as a group… I look down at my hands again, not wanting to face him when I know he won’t even look at me…I’m terrified that I know what this means, and I really hope that I’m wrong…
"Kyle…That's why you and Kyle--"
He brings up the last piece of the puzzle as such again and there’s nothing I can do except nod. “Y-you wouldn’t accept it was over…I tried to show Tess how to appeal to you, I tried to set up meetings before you, and I tried to make you understand we weren’t going to happen, but still you insisted that you loved me…” I bite my lip and shake my head looking down. FutureMax told me what would happen if Tess left, and I couldn’t let that happen… I was desperate, I didn’t see what else I could do… I said I wanted normal, when all I wanted was you… Yet still you didn’t believe me… Making you think I…” I can’t say with words. “…with Kyle…” I feel like I’m choking on the words as I realise it’s now or never… Either I come clean, or I let him think I slept with Kyle…and since I’ve come this far, I guess it’s not that much further. “Lying to you was the hardest thing for me to do…letting you think I had done that…” I pause a moment and force myself to look up at him. “I didn’t sleep with Kyle Max…I needed you to think that I had, but I couldn’t, and wouldn’t do that…I love you too much…”
I push my hair back, standing up and fighting back tears. “Maybe you’re right though…maybe it’s too late to do anything about it… I just needed you to know how I felt, and understand what I’m offering if you think it could work… I’m not asking you to walk away from this, or anything else Max…I guess I’m just hoping there’s some way you can manage to do this without walking away from me either though…without giving up on us…”
My fics:
Dreams and Reality
Reality Revealed
Family Connections
When Love and Loss Collide
When Friendship and Love Combine - New!
If Only...
The Important Thing
Home for Christmas
I Knew Him Before (PB fic)
Love Always...
The First Time Around - New!
Dreams and Reality
Reality Revealed
Family Connections
When Love and Loss Collide
When Friendship and Love Combine - New!
If Only...
The Important Thing
Home for Christmas
I Knew Him Before (PB fic)
Love Always...
The First Time Around - New!
*Max*
I sit down on Michael's bed again, just staring into space, too stunned to do anything else. Liz's confession about not sleeping with Kyle isn't too much of a surprise. I'd already deduced that. But the rest of it... It's a lot to take in and I'm still trying to sort out what it all means, never mind, what I feel about it.
She did that -- making me see her with Kyle, setting me up -- because I wouldn't believe that she had stopped loving me, that it was over. But she's telling me that in fact those things weren't true. That I was right when I didn’t believe it. My instincts had been completely correct. But she lied to me. No just in what she tried to make me think, but every time I tried to get her to explain... Every time she told me that I should go with Tess...
I know Liz said that she couldn't come and tell me the truth. That the time-traveler told her she couldn't... but I can't help but wonder what might have happened if she did. Would I have believed her? I think I would. I always believed in her, except when she was telling me that she didn't love me, but then, it turns out that was a lie, so maybe there's good reason for that... I think I would have known if she was telling me the truth.
And what then? Was this the only way? The only way to keep Tess in the group was to be with her... to have sex ... to have a baby... Was that really the only answer?
Not that I'd ever, ever leave that responsibility. It was me. I did it and I'm not gonna make that little baby pay for it. I may not be able to give my child everything but I'm going to give him everything I can...
I feel a hand on my shoulder and I realize that Liz has come to sit beside me. I'm not sure if she's talking to me or not, 'cause I'm still lost in all of this. I drop my face into my hands, trying not to shake. A few moments later, I raise my chin, still staring at the opposite wall...
"When we were together, in that other world, we got married in Vegas, Tess left, and we lost everything..." I say, repeating back what she told me. I find it so hard to believe that my little Liz was carrying this secret all by herself all this time... no wonder she's been so confused, so confusing. Acting like she loved me, asking me to the Prom, and still telling me that she didn't love me, that she wanted me to be with Tess, and then getting angry at me whenever I did speak with Tess or work with her to recover memories or any of it...
I've only just heard this and it's so hard to figure out how to go forward....
With an effort, I turn my face toward hers, still feeling completely crushed and confused. "Why then, do you want to be with me now? Aren't you afraid it'll happen again? That it'll be the end of everything...?"
Liz has been living with this secret for months and she does want it still. She must have thought it through, made some sort of sense of it that I'm still searching for.
Maybe she's right. Maybe because Tess has a baby with me, she won't leave, but I don't know that. Lots of women, even wives, leave the fathers of their babies over so many reasons. One of the biggest would be the guy being in love with another woman...
I just need to understand why Liz thinks we can risk this. I need to know, because I want to do it so badly, but I can’t afford to try if it really is going to mean a disaster in the end…
I sit down on Michael's bed again, just staring into space, too stunned to do anything else. Liz's confession about not sleeping with Kyle isn't too much of a surprise. I'd already deduced that. But the rest of it... It's a lot to take in and I'm still trying to sort out what it all means, never mind, what I feel about it.
She did that -- making me see her with Kyle, setting me up -- because I wouldn't believe that she had stopped loving me, that it was over. But she's telling me that in fact those things weren't true. That I was right when I didn’t believe it. My instincts had been completely correct. But she lied to me. No just in what she tried to make me think, but every time I tried to get her to explain... Every time she told me that I should go with Tess...
I know Liz said that she couldn't come and tell me the truth. That the time-traveler told her she couldn't... but I can't help but wonder what might have happened if she did. Would I have believed her? I think I would. I always believed in her, except when she was telling me that she didn't love me, but then, it turns out that was a lie, so maybe there's good reason for that... I think I would have known if she was telling me the truth.
And what then? Was this the only way? The only way to keep Tess in the group was to be with her... to have sex ... to have a baby... Was that really the only answer?
Not that I'd ever, ever leave that responsibility. It was me. I did it and I'm not gonna make that little baby pay for it. I may not be able to give my child everything but I'm going to give him everything I can...
I feel a hand on my shoulder and I realize that Liz has come to sit beside me. I'm not sure if she's talking to me or not, 'cause I'm still lost in all of this. I drop my face into my hands, trying not to shake. A few moments later, I raise my chin, still staring at the opposite wall...
"When we were together, in that other world, we got married in Vegas, Tess left, and we lost everything..." I say, repeating back what she told me. I find it so hard to believe that my little Liz was carrying this secret all by herself all this time... no wonder she's been so confused, so confusing. Acting like she loved me, asking me to the Prom, and still telling me that she didn't love me, that she wanted me to be with Tess, and then getting angry at me whenever I did speak with Tess or work with her to recover memories or any of it...
I've only just heard this and it's so hard to figure out how to go forward....
With an effort, I turn my face toward hers, still feeling completely crushed and confused. "Why then, do you want to be with me now? Aren't you afraid it'll happen again? That it'll be the end of everything...?"
Liz has been living with this secret for months and she does want it still. She must have thought it through, made some sort of sense of it that I'm still searching for.
Maybe she's right. Maybe because Tess has a baby with me, she won't leave, but I don't know that. Lots of women, even wives, leave the fathers of their babies over so many reasons. One of the biggest would be the guy being in love with another woman...
I just need to understand why Liz thinks we can risk this. I need to know, because I want to do it so badly, but I can’t afford to try if it really is going to mean a disaster in the end…