Roswell Fanatics

*Max*

"No, it wasn't good," I admit although, as she said, that much was already obvious. I resist the instinct to let my shoulders hunch at the figurative weight of Tess's memory and this coming conversation. "Come sit down," I say, taking her by the hand and leading her back to her chair.

*Xan!* I call telepathically. *I'm in the library with Xada and your mother. Your sister is asking about things you'll want to know about, too. Would you like to join us here or shall I just relay the conversation telepathically? Or we can talk privately, later. As you choose.*

I take a seat next to Xadalyn and gesture for Liz to join us, as well. I'm glad to have her here to help with the explanations, especially if Xander is part of this conversation. I think about calling for Sarah, too, sure that she'll be upset if she's left out, although Tess wasn't her mother.

Still looking at Xada, I send a quick pulse of love across my bond with Liz and then silently say to her, *I've already asked Xan to join us. Do you think we should include Sarah, too?*

I debate with myself over whether to take Xadalyn's hand. I want to, but I don't know if she would be comfortable with that. I settle for resting my hand on her forearm. "It's a long story," I say, starting with the part that Xan and Sarah are already familiar with. "Your mother was separated from the rest of us when we first emerged from the pods on Earth. She was with Nacedo -- that's what our protector was called. It means 'visitor' in a local Earth language. The rest of us were on our own."

Catching up post:
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Justin

I opened my eyes as I heard a voice. "Rise and shine, Justin. School's out today but breakfast is still on". I regonised the voice as Xans and looked confused. What was he doing in my room? I scrathed my head and looked around. Whoops. I was still in the odd place. Man..

"Come on, Justin," Xan said and smacked my shoulder a little. Hey... "Go wash your face and we'll get you to my mom's room for breakfast" I did as he asked fast, and then I followed him. Still sleepy damn it. I was blinking my eyes and trying to stay up and there I was getting dragged like a little puppy-dog. I yawned.

I saw Sarah, but was too distracted in yawning to say anything to her.

Mm...Food. I was more hungry than sleepy after all. I got to eat something when I heard Sarah talking to her parents, not sure what, then she turned to me.

"Come Justin lets go and explore." she said. I stared at her. Explore in this creepy place? Oh well..could be fun...

"I know you're a big girl -- you're both capable people" Mr.Evans says and nods at me. "But I think a guide would be a good idea -- at least for the first day. Okay, princess?"

Princess? I looked at Sarad a litte puzzled. Oh well. I guess the people you love have many nicknames. But other than that I wasn't sure what they were talking so when Sarah left out I followed. So I guess we got a permission. Interested in the new place I was looking around all the time, so I was startled when I heard Sarah talking to me again.

"Do want me explain what going on? or do you still want to belive its still a movie? becuase its not." she says.

I look at her a little confused.

"But this can't be true either.." I said. Man I sounded like a child. Oh wait - I am a child. "I mean, I've seen things that can't happen and things that aren't looking normal..." I continued.

There was no way it could be true.

Kyria

"I'm not saying that you should abandon your duties, but you've forgotten that you need to live. You and I both know that you desire something more. You can pretend all you want, but that's a fact, whether you want to acknowledge it or not." Xan spoke as he grasped my hand in his.

Something was happening and I didn't know what, emotions were taken place inside me that had never been there before. This sacred the hell out of me. I did not like not being in control... and on that note I fleed....

"We must go." I said firmly and then headed in the direction toward the trees.

Alexander

I look of fear passed through Kyria's eyes momentarily, and then it was gone. "We must go."

I watched as she pulled away and walked back the way we came. Frustrated, I kicked a stone out of my way and followed her, but decided to keep my distance. Why was she so unwilling to see?

And hell, why did I care?

Just then, I heard my father's voice in my head. Damn, this was getting a little annoying- it felt as if an intruder had slipped into my mind. But of course, it was just Dad. Xan! I'm in the library with Xada and your mother. Your sister is asking about things you'll want to know about, too. Would you like to join us here or shall I just relay the conversation telepathically? Or we can talk privately, later. As you choose.

For a moment, I was hesitant. But then, Kyria had her duties and I had nothing to do. I did intend to go to the library before she came to our room anyway, so I thought, what the hell.

I'm coming, I told him as I pushed a vine out of my way, Kyria's silhouette moving farther and farther away. Just give me a few minutes to get out of here.

Well, I was on a mountain. It was going to take more than just a few minutes.

I'll come as quickly as I can, okay? I added as I quickened my pace.

*Max*

I get answers from Alexander and Liz at almost the same time. It's a little confusing, but I can sort out the two voices easily enough. Alex is on his way and I'm glad. It will make things easier. While Liz is advocating that Sarah be spoken to separately. That pretty much confirms my feelings. Tess wasn't Sarah's mother and while there's a lot she needs to know about this world, there's some things that don't affect her as directly. I just hope she doesn't feel she was left out, although I'm sure we can deal with it.

I send them both a mental nod. *That's fine, Xan. I'll see you then,* I tell him. Then to Liz, *I agree. We'll talk to Sarah later.*

I keep my eyes focused on Xadalyn, wondering just how much she knows about our time on Earth. Being here, she's probably fully aware of how and why we were sent, I just hope I'm not glossing over details she's not aware of. But then, she's a big girl. I'm sure she'll ask questions if she has any.

"The three of us grew up alone, with nobody to help us. We only had each other. We knew enough to protect ourselves, but we really didn't remember anything."

Over the years, I've come to believe that Nacedo had done that on purpose -- separating us from Tess so we wouldn't be close and it would be easier for her to betray us.

"By the time we were re-united, I was already in love with someone-else. I loved Liz." I reach over to take Liz's hand, rubbing the back of it with my thumb. She will always be the love of my life.

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OOC- Thsi character was added with the permission of Athenea.



Rowan- Rowan is a hand maiden in the palace. She is the love child of a wealthy Nobel and a lower class servant. She looks the age of 18.

Kyria

I headed down the mountain. My pace quicken with every step, out of anger. I was mad. But, who at? Xan? .... no, it was myself. I was mad because what Xan said had got to me, I was mad that I had let it get to me, I was mostly mad because it was the truth. As much as I didn't want to admit it, it was the truth. Emotions, feelings, thoughts that had been in me always... but I had trained myself to forget them. I had thought I had erased them, but I had merely pushed them to the back of my mind. Xan had brought all the desires, wants, and feelings to the surface. Not only had he brought make thoughts of a life away from protecting Xada, but he had made all these emotions come flowing through my body just by looking at him. Damn it I thought as my paced continued to get faster.

But then I remembered that if I lost Xan in the forest that Xada would probably have my head, so I slowed down enough that I stayed in Xan's vision. Soon we were back at the palace. Once we entered I stopped for a second and looked at Xan. Then I quickly turned my head and hurried off.

I then found Xada, again not using any manners, I barge in and speak, "Good morning Xada. How was your night."

Skyler-

I walk down the halls knowing exactly where I could find who I was looking for.... in Xada's sitting room overlooking the lake. I barge in on all the hand maidens who are cleaning up after Xada.

"Lord Anton...." Rowan starts to address me and I quickly order, "Leave us." All of the hand maidens scurry out not wanting to cause any trouble. I quickly grab her by the back of her head and pull her in kissing her. I think I sometimes take my frustration out on her. Rowan has been a loyal handmaiden in the palace for quite some time now. We have always had this thing going on behind closed doors until recently. Recently, I haven't had the lust for her that I once had. Recently I haven't had lust for her at all. In all of my frustration from Dom I really had to work things out. Dom had walked in on me and Rowan once before. Before he left. He has had a deep resentment or hatred towards me and I to him. I pull away from her ashamed from my lack of control.

"Lord Anton it has been awile since you have paid me a visit, for what or whom do I owe this honor." I pause debating on what to tell her. "I have been busy with all of my duties I am sorry for all of the delay." I don't know what else to tell her. I just needed someone to be there for me and I know that she is always willing. I guess I will always want what I can't have. I lean down and kiss her one more time before turning and heading towards the door, "Until next time my love..."

OOC: very sorry for the delay, I really hope this works

~Liz~

A man I recognise from last night - the one who seemed like something of a father figure to Xada comes storming in, speaking in Antarian of course so I'm back to relying on what translation I can get from Max. I have to say that this language problem is a major bug, but I suppose maybe I should be thankful for the fact that Max understands...

From the way Dom - I think that was his name - is talking, I don't need to understand what he's saying to see he's angry though, and as soon as Skylar walks back in, I can see that it's not going to get better.

An full blown dispute looks set to develop, but Xadalyn, who I'm guessing has some practice in this, manages to deal with them, at least for the moment, giving both assignments which I expect will keep them well away from each other...

Of course they also keep them away from her, I can't help noticing...which is exactly what Dom didn't want... Clever girl...

When they've both gone, Xadalyn looks back up, switching back into English and apologising. Strangely enough, her words cause an image of Michael to come to mind...the incident just after Vermont although it was of course a completely different situation.

Despite the fact that Xada doesn't seem to realise, I personally can't help thinking that she's the reason for the conflict, althought the exact details and history I'm not privy to.

Although her response to Max's comment about this is rather sharp, I don't think we can really hold it against her...she obviously has a lot on her mind... The last two days have been something of a crazy time for all of us, and she's no exception. The difference is that she will be expected to rise above it all, to pretend that it doesn't matter... She's only young, and yet she has had an amazing amount of responsibility placed on her shoulders...it can't be easy...I remember how Max seemed to take it, and that was theoretical to a great extent...

She stands and starts to leave. I want to call her back, ask her to stay or even ask if she wants to talk, but really, I don't know how to find the words.

I see Max looking at Xada, and I can't help wondering what he's thinking... He's missed so much... Does he wish he was back here, with Tess, all these years...? I want to tell myself not to be silly, I know this is just me being insecure, but I guess I can't help it... I'm on a planet where I don't understand the language, I'm stood in front of my husband's daughter, who is also the daughter of Tess...

Tess...even when she's gone, dead, she can still do this to me... I can't let her though. I go on like this, and I might destroy our relationship all by myself. If that happens, she's won...

I refuse to let her so that, and force myself to put such thoughts to the back of my mind. I won't think about these things, I WILL concentrate on the future...

Max's plea for Xadalyn to stay brings my attention back to the present situation. I don't say anything for now, allowing this to be his moment, but I am pleased when she seems to stop.

Of course the questions which come next I suppose are ones which both of us knew were inevitable, but it doesn't make hearing them any easier. As Max leads Xada back over to her seat, sitting down next to her, I wonder for a moment if I should really be here... Is Xadalyn really going to appreciate my presence given that she probably thinks that I'm one of the major reasons why her mother and father weren't togther...? She'd be right of course I guess, I am one of the reasons, but I don't think I'm the major one...

Still, as I stand wondering, Max gestures for me to join them and I give a small nod. I feel a wave of love wash over me from the bond we share, and then the question about Sarah.

Outwardly, I give no indication of having recieved anything as I take a seat, but silently I thank him, still considering his question for the moment. *Thanks...I needed that...* A moment later, I come to the conclusion that Sarah should be spoken to separately... She needs to know some of this yes, but others I'm not so certain. I voice this to Max a moment later, and he agrees almost immediately as he continues with the tale he has begun.

The details are few, but this is probably a part she's already familiar with as Xan and Sarah are. If she has any questions I'm sure we can answer them, but it would probably not be a good idea to start as though she has no idea - she might take that the wrong way...

Max's words fade to something of a background as I think over things, but as he reaches for my hand, I realise he's got to the part that I'm most worried about. He was in love with someone else...me... He rubs the back of my hand with his thumb, and I can't help giving a small smile. " and I loved him too..." I say softly before looking over at Xada, hoping I'm not about to make things a whole lot worse. "It wasn't a choice made to spite your mother Xada, but love isn't simple, it's not science, it's emotion...and we don't always have control over that..." I try to explain, turning turning as the door suddenly swings open and in walks Skylar.

OOC: Sure, works for me

Alexander

Kyria slowed down a little, thankfully, and after a while we found ourselves back in the palace. She turned to look at me and or gazes locked for just an instant. Before I could do or say anything, she had dashed off to God-knows-where.

I sighed to myself. It was pretty frustrating. Well, dealing with girls just wasn't my thing.

Quickly, I walked to the library. I passed great portraits on the walls, memorising them so that I wouldn't lose my way.

When I finally got there, I had to look around for a bit because the place was huge. And then I heard my mother's voice, and I followed it. "...wasn't a choice made to spite your mother Xada, but love isn't simple, it's not science, it's emotion...and we don't always have control over that..."

It was strange, how I could call both Liz Evans and Tess/Ava my mothers. Somehow, neither felt wrong. I loved the mother I had grown up knowing, but, at the same time, I couldn't help but feel . . . well, sad, that I had missed out on the years I could have spent with my birth mother.

Again, I asked myself- did she give me up because she loved me or because she hated me? Why send me to Earth and keep Xadalyn on Antar?

A little out of breath, I approached my- well, my family. I bent down to give my mother kiss on the cheek. Only when I looked up again did I notice that Kyria was standing right in front of me, close to Xada.

With a slight raise of my eyebrows at her, I said to my father, "Hey, I hope I'm not late. Uhm, at least, not too late."