OOC: Great starter BrokenAngel, welcome to the story
Storm - I know I still owe you an Alex, and hopefully it will come soon, but I have a lot of other posts to get up to date too as you will know

I am trying though.
~Liz~
“Liz…”
Again Max speaks in that soft, gentle voice of his. He puts his hand over mine and somehow I can’t help looking down at him, meeting his gaze.
Why am I doing this…? Why am I sitting here, listening to tales of things which sound completely crazy…? Every bit of common sense I have says that this is a complete sham… I don’t know what this guy is up to, but what he’s saying is so ridiculous that there’s no other explanation…
Well, I guess my common sense is saying that until I begin to try and think about myself…and then as I realise that nothing about me seems to make sense, well, I can’t help beginning to wonder…
“You weren’t abandoned. You were lost…”
Lost or abandoned…what’s the difference…? I try to tell myself there isn’t any, but in truth I know that there is…
Lost means that someone cared…
Now more than ever I want to believe what he’s saying…
“We wanted you more than anything, but we didn’t know where you were. That day, when you were six…that was the day you were born…”
He makes something so crazy sound so possible… I really don’t know what to think about all this…
“You only looked like you were six. That’s why you can’t remember anything from before that. It’s why you were naked…”
What to believe…parents who left me for dead out in the desert, or that I am an alien and I was found out in the desert because I hatched there… Not exactly a great choice…
If it wasn’t for the fact I am me, I’d say that both possibilities sound absolutely crazy and impossible, but while for anyone else this would all found like a show of cartoons or some other such programme, but to me, it’s my life story…my history… Whatever the explanation, the fact that I was found naked, wandering by the roadside, at six years old,in the desert.
“Nacedo came for you, but you were already gone. When he realised where you were, you already had a foster family and he said it was best for you to stay there. Isabel, Michael and I begged him to get you for us. To bring you home, but he wouldn’t. He said you were happy…”
Common sense tells me that this is ridiculous…that there’s no possibility that he’s for real, but deep down I find myself wanting so much to believe him… To know that someone wanted me…
I shake my head mentally, trying to tell myself not to be so silly. However much I might want him to be for real, it doesn’t change that his story begins to fall down when he says I was happy…
How could anyone think that…? How could anyone think that I enjoyed being passed from one family to another. A home was all I wanted…a home to call my own and which I knew was not going to be taken from me in a couple of months or years.
Since that day in the desert I have had at least five foster families… Plus a couple of temporary arrangements too. I always knew it was never going to last, I tried not to let myself get attached…
My social worker said that she couldn’t understand the fact I’d never managed to find a permenant placement… I was well behaved, sweet and gentle…everyone should love me right…? Wrong apparently… I don’t know what it was myself really, but I never lasted more than two years with a family.
There was only one which I actually thought might be for real… A young couple. They had been trying for children for a couple of years and had sadly come to the conclusion that they weren’t able to. That was where I came in…a ready-made daughter… To be honest, I have to admit they were different to the others. They actually seemed to care, and the two years I spent with them were the best in my life… Unfortunately, like all good things in my life it seems, in the end it came to nothing… I was just beginning to let myself think that maybe this was going to work out after all, when they dropped a bomb shell… Nancy was pregnant…and given that they were young, and didn’t have very well paying jobs, they couldn’t afford to keep me and the baby…
So once again I found myself on my own, being passed from one home to another, and from that day I don’t think I ever even dared hope…
That’s why this apartment is so important to me…it’s my home…
The thought that there might have been people out there who wanted me…that there might have been a home…cuts deep, and I have to bite my lip, fighting to stay calm and control my emotions.
I won’t lose it…
Max reaches for me and to my surprise, his finger brushes my cheek. I look up at him, almost questioningly. I don’t know what I’m looking for…just something…something to tell me if this is for real, or if it’s part of some sick joke…
I can’t actually believe that I’m considering this…it’s impossible, crazy…yet then again what about the things I do…?
Maybe I’m so desperate to have a plce to belong that I’m willing to believe anything…I just don’t know what to think…
As my gaze meets his, I find myself slipping deeper though and I have to concentrate to remain focused.
What is it about this man…he’s just so different…
“I know things have been hard for you. You’ve been alone and lost with nobody to give you the answers you need. I don’t know why he never told you. Why he left you in the dark, but maybe we can make it better. We’re here for you now, Liz. And we still want you. We always have.”
How does he seem to know me so well…? Does he mean what he says…? I’m wanted…really…?
Before I have a chance to respond, his hand drops to the table and I look up at him, hoping that I haven’t done something to offend him.
I want so much to believe him, because to believe him means that I’m not alone, that I wasn’t abandoned, and that I was wanted… To believe him gives me all the things I ever wanted, but at the sample time, to believe him means to accept something which I never believed was possible… I shake my head, struggling to come to terms with it all.
For so long I’ve been on my own…I’ve had to cope and deal with things, and Max is right, it’s been far from easy… I-
There’s a noise and I look over to see Max moving his chair closer. Before I realise what he’s going to do, he puts his arm across my shoulder and looks into my eyes again.
“We’ve been looking for you for two years. We’ve found you now. You’re not alone anymore.”
For a moment, I do nothing, completely surprised by his actions, but then I pull away slightly to stand and pick up my cup which I then put on the counter before looking back at him. “Y-you’re serious…you really believe all this…”
The thing that I’m not so certain of at the moment is that I don’t too… When he started I was dismissing it completely… Even when I was humouring him and agreeing to accept the theory, I was doing just that, humouring him…
Now though, the thing that he’s said sound so amazing, so crazy, yet in the same way, they also make some weird kind of sense… I really don’t know what to think about all this, but somehow, I think at least a tiny bit of me believes him…
I take a deep breath, fighting to keep calm. “So you’re saying that you, and the others…” Although I’m still not too sure on numbers regarding them… “…have been looking for me for two years…” I look up at him. “Why…?”
It’s a strange feeling being told I’m not alone anymore…I’m so used to it, it’s not like I really know much about having family…
I shake my head. “And still saying for the moment that I believe you about all the incubation stuff, why would anyone want to do that…?”