Posted: Sat Oct 16, 2004 5:05 pm
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Chapter 11: Part 2
{Max}
“You came back,” Michael smiled.
I pulled the corner of my mouth into my cheek and bobbed my head. “I did.”
“She told me what happened.”
I continued to stand in the hallway while Michael started sitting up. I cleared my throat. “And what did you think?” I wondered.
Michael shrugged his shoulders. “Liz screwed up and I know how disappointing it must’ve been for you to hear her tell you that she doesn’t want kids.”
I went back to bobbing my head in affirmation.
“But I also know that this is you two,” Michael grinned. “You guys can work this out. She thinks this way now, but you’ve changed her mind before.”
To add to my own epiphany was Michael’s, which is shocking since the guy never gets epiphanies. It gave hope for mine and Liz’s future.
“Where is she?” I wondered.
Michael’s eyes moved up, making him glance at the ceiling. “She’s taking a shower.”
As I walked past Michael, I lifted my hand in thanks and started up the circular staircase to get on the back hallway, which we called the Gallery. Maria and Liz covered the walls with art of all sorts, but mostly of our own photos.
There were a lot of photos from back in high school, nearly a whole wall with Alex, to remember him and to serve as a sort of memorial. There were other photos like from our road trip to here from Roswell. We stopped at the nation’s largest ball of yarn and the largest skillet. Stopped at a few amusement parks. That sort of thing. At Michael’s request, we caught a Metallica concert in Dallas, and at Maria’s request, we caught an Alanis Morissette concert, which Michael despised sitting through, but ended up enjoying. Photos from that amazing trip scattered the Gallery. Then there were photos of our first Thanksgiving and Christmas on the East Coast. All of our families came up to spend Christmas with us. We all took the train to New York and ice skated at Rockefeller Center. It was the first time we had seen so much snow. I took an excellent photo of Maria clocking Michael in the face with a snowball. The picture taken after that was Michael tackling Maria into the snow and that’s when I had tucked the camera away, which was a shame because I missed a excellent photo opportunity to capture Maria overpowering her boyfriend and shoving snow down his throat. Instead, I joined in the snow fight by sneaking up on Liz and taking her in my arms to toss her into a snow bank. She sank right through and came up soaking wet. She dried herself off with a little “magic” and got back at me, by causing snow from the tree towering over me to fall on me. It was the best Christmas. Everything from our lives in Roswell up to nearly six months ago was in the Gallery.
As I passed the door to the game room, I was left with the only other door that the Gallery led to, the master bedroom. Before reaching it, I panned the back hallway, taking a good look at our lives on the walls. There was one fairly large photo that stood out among the rest. It would be the first thing to catch your eye if you walked out of the master bedroom and into the Gallery and you’d be able to see it from the family room since the Gallery was open to those below.
It was something that Liz and I wanted to show off. It was a photo of just the two of us. Liz was wearing an absolutely stunning, mind-blowing, white, strapless gown. Her hair, which was a shade lighter back then, was slightly wavy and resting on her bare shoulders. She stood facing me and I stood facing her, wearing a black suit with a gold vest and neck tie. We held each other in our arms on the best day of our lives, despite what did occur that day. Our wedding photo was the main focus of the Gallery and I had forgotten that.
Finally, I turned the doorknob to the master bedroom door and I could hear the shower running, but then as soon as I stepped foot inside, the shower stopped. The door of the shower stall opened and closed as I made my way across our bedroom. It had been a week since I was in this room. Liz’s clothes scattered the floor and the bed was unmade. At the corner, the bed sheet began to come off.
The master bathroom was practically divided into two bathrooms. You would first walk through mine to get to Liz’s and as I did walk through my bathroom, nothing had been touched. Everything was the way I had left it a week ago. Liz had her cosmetic stuff at her sink, but used mine to brush her teeth, and her toothbrush rested alone in the cup.
I stood at the conjunction of mine and Liz’s bathroom and watched her move about, oblivious of my presence. She stood at her sink, facing her mirror, and her back to me. She ran her hands over her face to wipe away the tears. Sniffling a bit, she gathered herself together and used the towel on her head to dry her hair and then to wipe the fog off the mirror. She ran the towel in circles and there I appeared to her.
Liz froze still, her arm still in the air and her hand still on the towel on the mirror. Slowly her arm lowered, but the whole time, we kept a lock on each other’s eyes. We didn’t face each other but stared at each other through the mirror. For a moment we did that without showing any expression or giving off any hint of future actions. Finally Liz gave a miniscule smile.
“Hi,” she said softly.
I took a deep breath and exhaled sharply. I didn’t say anything, though. I just tucked the corner of my mouth into my cheek once again, giving a little smirk, and slowly started walking towards Liz. She turned around and leaned against the counter waiting for and watching my movements. Soon, we were no more than a foot apart. The whole time, our eyes remained locked. Her beautiful brown eyes gazed into mine and my eyes gazed into hers. I could see her happiness to see me, yet, I could see her pain and torture.
I leaned forward and placed my lips on hers, taking them between mine.
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I pulled away with my head lowered and my lips in my mouth, tasting the remnants of Liz’s kiss, and Liz was doing the same. I caught her doing so when I finally opened my eyes.
“Why are you forgiving me?” she asked, with her eyes still closed and her head slightly lowered.
"I'm not," I replied, shaking my head and pursing my lips slightly. "Because I—I can’t forgive you, Liz."
Liz looked up in confusion. “But you came back.”
“I did.”
“Why?”
I sighed heavily as I played with the ends of her hair. “I spent three hours thinking about that,” I began. “By the end of two hours, I came to the conclusion that I was going to come back here to pack up the rest of my things, and leave you.”
Liz seemed to take the news fairly well, like she accepted that and expected it.
“It wouldn’t have been because I don’t love you anymore,” I continued. “That’ll never happen because I can’t ever stop loving you. No matter what you do or say, I can’t stop. It’s a curse,” I grinned, but Liz didn’t grin back or smirk or anything. I cleared my throat and got serious. “Um…anyway, I thought I was going to come back to pack up all my things because I thought it would be best for you. I thought maybe you needed a life without me.”
Liz’s mouth hung open just a smidge and her eyes darted from left to right, letting me know that she didn’t at all agree with me.
“But…” I continued. “something happened in the third hour and I realized that I couldn’t imagine my life without you. I couldn’t live without you, because I need you, so much. So I’ve come back to you because I’m going to be selfish, Liz. I’m coming back to fight for you, even if that means fighting you. I’m going to change your mind.”
But Liz shook her head in disbelief and moved me away. “Max, nothing’s going to change my mind…”
I grabbed Liz’s arms and moved back towards her. “I am,” I disagreed.
“Max—”
“No, Liz,” I interrupted. I held her arms in my hands and looked into her eyes and forced her to look into mine. “Look, you know that I can’t give you everything you want, but you know I try like hell anyway.”
Hesitantly, Liz nodded.
“Then you know I’ll do the same for our child,” I continued. “You want a happy and safe future for it, well, I want that too,” I assured her. “So I’ll do whatever it takes to try to give our child that life and future. You have to believe me, Liz. You said that you care about the child and it’s not even born. You worry and you fear for him or her. Liz, I do that too, and it’s even more of an incentive to take care of our child and give our child everything in the world that it deserves and I feel that same way about you. You deserve a family and a normal life and I’m going to try to give you that. Some alien intricacies might work their way into our lives, but I will take care of it. I will protect you, keep you safe, watch over you, make you happy, and love you. I will do the exact same for our family.”
Liz lowered her head, shaking it. “Do we want to expose our child to that? To the 'alien intricacies'?”
She had a point. Even if I gave our family the white picket fence, the dog running around in the yard, and all the sunshine and happiness in the world, it’d be slightly less than normal. I would have to fight and work for all of that and it’s not going to be easy to hide the struggle. But did I want to hide it? I wouldn’t want our child to wonder and find out all that we hid from him or her. Liz and I both know what secrets can do.
“We can’t hide anything, Liz,” was my answer. “If we have a child, we won’t hide anything.”
“Max, I don’t know…I—I can’t promise anything.”
“But I can,” I replied. “You have my word.”
Liz was adamant and got quiet.
Closing my eyes, I sighed heavily. I wanted so much to be with her. “Listen,” I instructed, “I didn’t want to wake up tomorrow in some motel room without you beside me. I didn’t want to wake up knowing that I needed to try to forget you or try to stop loving you. And I didn’t want to wake up knowing I no longer had the option of kissing these lips.” I leaned forward and kissed Liz. I didn’t pull away, but instead, rested my forehead on hers. “I didn’t want to wake up knowing I no longer had the option of making love to you. I need you, Liz. I love you.”
Liz sighed, but more of an exhausted, I-give-in sigh. “I love you,” she replied, in almost the exact same way she said it to me for the very first time.
I took Liz’s face in my hands and kissed her lips. I pulled away to look into her eyes and smile. Her tears created a glazed affect over the brown pools in her eyes. She was so beautiful.
I took Liz’s lips again and felt the towel around her torso drop to our feet.
I got inspiration for this chapter from ER.
Chapter 11: Part 2
{Max}
“You came back,” Michael smiled.
I pulled the corner of my mouth into my cheek and bobbed my head. “I did.”
“She told me what happened.”
I continued to stand in the hallway while Michael started sitting up. I cleared my throat. “And what did you think?” I wondered.
Michael shrugged his shoulders. “Liz screwed up and I know how disappointing it must’ve been for you to hear her tell you that she doesn’t want kids.”
I went back to bobbing my head in affirmation.
“But I also know that this is you two,” Michael grinned. “You guys can work this out. She thinks this way now, but you’ve changed her mind before.”
To add to my own epiphany was Michael’s, which is shocking since the guy never gets epiphanies. It gave hope for mine and Liz’s future.
“Where is she?” I wondered.
Michael’s eyes moved up, making him glance at the ceiling. “She’s taking a shower.”
As I walked past Michael, I lifted my hand in thanks and started up the circular staircase to get on the back hallway, which we called the Gallery. Maria and Liz covered the walls with art of all sorts, but mostly of our own photos.
There were a lot of photos from back in high school, nearly a whole wall with Alex, to remember him and to serve as a sort of memorial. There were other photos like from our road trip to here from Roswell. We stopped at the nation’s largest ball of yarn and the largest skillet. Stopped at a few amusement parks. That sort of thing. At Michael’s request, we caught a Metallica concert in Dallas, and at Maria’s request, we caught an Alanis Morissette concert, which Michael despised sitting through, but ended up enjoying. Photos from that amazing trip scattered the Gallery. Then there were photos of our first Thanksgiving and Christmas on the East Coast. All of our families came up to spend Christmas with us. We all took the train to New York and ice skated at Rockefeller Center. It was the first time we had seen so much snow. I took an excellent photo of Maria clocking Michael in the face with a snowball. The picture taken after that was Michael tackling Maria into the snow and that’s when I had tucked the camera away, which was a shame because I missed a excellent photo opportunity to capture Maria overpowering her boyfriend and shoving snow down his throat. Instead, I joined in the snow fight by sneaking up on Liz and taking her in my arms to toss her into a snow bank. She sank right through and came up soaking wet. She dried herself off with a little “magic” and got back at me, by causing snow from the tree towering over me to fall on me. It was the best Christmas. Everything from our lives in Roswell up to nearly six months ago was in the Gallery.
As I passed the door to the game room, I was left with the only other door that the Gallery led to, the master bedroom. Before reaching it, I panned the back hallway, taking a good look at our lives on the walls. There was one fairly large photo that stood out among the rest. It would be the first thing to catch your eye if you walked out of the master bedroom and into the Gallery and you’d be able to see it from the family room since the Gallery was open to those below.
It was something that Liz and I wanted to show off. It was a photo of just the two of us. Liz was wearing an absolutely stunning, mind-blowing, white, strapless gown. Her hair, which was a shade lighter back then, was slightly wavy and resting on her bare shoulders. She stood facing me and I stood facing her, wearing a black suit with a gold vest and neck tie. We held each other in our arms on the best day of our lives, despite what did occur that day. Our wedding photo was the main focus of the Gallery and I had forgotten that.
Finally, I turned the doorknob to the master bedroom door and I could hear the shower running, but then as soon as I stepped foot inside, the shower stopped. The door of the shower stall opened and closed as I made my way across our bedroom. It had been a week since I was in this room. Liz’s clothes scattered the floor and the bed was unmade. At the corner, the bed sheet began to come off.
The master bathroom was practically divided into two bathrooms. You would first walk through mine to get to Liz’s and as I did walk through my bathroom, nothing had been touched. Everything was the way I had left it a week ago. Liz had her cosmetic stuff at her sink, but used mine to brush her teeth, and her toothbrush rested alone in the cup.
I stood at the conjunction of mine and Liz’s bathroom and watched her move about, oblivious of my presence. She stood at her sink, facing her mirror, and her back to me. She ran her hands over her face to wipe away the tears. Sniffling a bit, she gathered herself together and used the towel on her head to dry her hair and then to wipe the fog off the mirror. She ran the towel in circles and there I appeared to her.
Liz froze still, her arm still in the air and her hand still on the towel on the mirror. Slowly her arm lowered, but the whole time, we kept a lock on each other’s eyes. We didn’t face each other but stared at each other through the mirror. For a moment we did that without showing any expression or giving off any hint of future actions. Finally Liz gave a miniscule smile.
“Hi,” she said softly.
I took a deep breath and exhaled sharply. I didn’t say anything, though. I just tucked the corner of my mouth into my cheek once again, giving a little smirk, and slowly started walking towards Liz. She turned around and leaned against the counter waiting for and watching my movements. Soon, we were no more than a foot apart. The whole time, our eyes remained locked. Her beautiful brown eyes gazed into mine and my eyes gazed into hers. I could see her happiness to see me, yet, I could see her pain and torture.
I leaned forward and placed my lips on hers, taking them between mine.
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I pulled away with my head lowered and my lips in my mouth, tasting the remnants of Liz’s kiss, and Liz was doing the same. I caught her doing so when I finally opened my eyes.
“Why are you forgiving me?” she asked, with her eyes still closed and her head slightly lowered.
"I'm not," I replied, shaking my head and pursing my lips slightly. "Because I—I can’t forgive you, Liz."
Liz looked up in confusion. “But you came back.”
“I did.”
“Why?”
I sighed heavily as I played with the ends of her hair. “I spent three hours thinking about that,” I began. “By the end of two hours, I came to the conclusion that I was going to come back here to pack up the rest of my things, and leave you.”
Liz seemed to take the news fairly well, like she accepted that and expected it.
“It wouldn’t have been because I don’t love you anymore,” I continued. “That’ll never happen because I can’t ever stop loving you. No matter what you do or say, I can’t stop. It’s a curse,” I grinned, but Liz didn’t grin back or smirk or anything. I cleared my throat and got serious. “Um…anyway, I thought I was going to come back to pack up all my things because I thought it would be best for you. I thought maybe you needed a life without me.”
Liz’s mouth hung open just a smidge and her eyes darted from left to right, letting me know that she didn’t at all agree with me.
“But…” I continued. “something happened in the third hour and I realized that I couldn’t imagine my life without you. I couldn’t live without you, because I need you, so much. So I’ve come back to you because I’m going to be selfish, Liz. I’m coming back to fight for you, even if that means fighting you. I’m going to change your mind.”
But Liz shook her head in disbelief and moved me away. “Max, nothing’s going to change my mind…”
I grabbed Liz’s arms and moved back towards her. “I am,” I disagreed.
“Max—”
“No, Liz,” I interrupted. I held her arms in my hands and looked into her eyes and forced her to look into mine. “Look, you know that I can’t give you everything you want, but you know I try like hell anyway.”
Hesitantly, Liz nodded.
“Then you know I’ll do the same for our child,” I continued. “You want a happy and safe future for it, well, I want that too,” I assured her. “So I’ll do whatever it takes to try to give our child that life and future. You have to believe me, Liz. You said that you care about the child and it’s not even born. You worry and you fear for him or her. Liz, I do that too, and it’s even more of an incentive to take care of our child and give our child everything in the world that it deserves and I feel that same way about you. You deserve a family and a normal life and I’m going to try to give you that. Some alien intricacies might work their way into our lives, but I will take care of it. I will protect you, keep you safe, watch over you, make you happy, and love you. I will do the exact same for our family.”
Liz lowered her head, shaking it. “Do we want to expose our child to that? To the 'alien intricacies'?”
She had a point. Even if I gave our family the white picket fence, the dog running around in the yard, and all the sunshine and happiness in the world, it’d be slightly less than normal. I would have to fight and work for all of that and it’s not going to be easy to hide the struggle. But did I want to hide it? I wouldn’t want our child to wonder and find out all that we hid from him or her. Liz and I both know what secrets can do.
“We can’t hide anything, Liz,” was my answer. “If we have a child, we won’t hide anything.”
“Max, I don’t know…I—I can’t promise anything.”
“But I can,” I replied. “You have my word.”
Liz was adamant and got quiet.
Closing my eyes, I sighed heavily. I wanted so much to be with her. “Listen,” I instructed, “I didn’t want to wake up tomorrow in some motel room without you beside me. I didn’t want to wake up knowing that I needed to try to forget you or try to stop loving you. And I didn’t want to wake up knowing I no longer had the option of kissing these lips.” I leaned forward and kissed Liz. I didn’t pull away, but instead, rested my forehead on hers. “I didn’t want to wake up knowing I no longer had the option of making love to you. I need you, Liz. I love you.”
Liz sighed, but more of an exhausted, I-give-in sigh. “I love you,” she replied, in almost the exact same way she said it to me for the very first time.
I took Liz’s face in my hands and kissed her lips. I pulled away to look into her eyes and smile. Her tears created a glazed affect over the brown pools in her eyes. She was so beautiful.
I took Liz’s lips again and felt the towel around her torso drop to our feet.
I got inspiration for this chapter from ER.