Posted: Tue Apr 11, 2006 5:07 pm
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Later that night, after Maria and Kyle had attempted to explain to their parents why they weren’t going to be around for Thanksgiving, I was sleeping on a fold-away mattress on Maria’s bedroom floor. Actually, that’s not quite true - I was tossing and turning, unable to settle my mind enough to allow me to sleep. It could’ve been the different environment, being back on Earth, but I knew it probably wasn’t. Although I tried to deny it, the one thing that was sitting uneasy with me was thinking about my parents. I could be angry with them as much as I liked, and want to punish them for their reaction to the truth about who I really was, but the reality was, I needed them to accept me. Making a decision, and without waking Maria, I put on my boots and slipped out of her bedroom window.
Walking down the streets of Roswell, I realised that not much had changed in my absence. In fact, to most people in town, my absence probably went completely unnoticed. This intergalactic phenomenon was happing in their town, and they were all completely unaware, snug in the beds, still believing that aliens did not exist. There were a lot of things I could do to open their eyes, but why bother? Let them continue to dream their sweet dreams.
Much sooner than I had expected, I found myself standing outside the diner. The lights were all off, my parents probably having gone to bed hours ago. The house looked the same, although the pot plants on my balcony were looking a little unkempt. My father, the meticulous gardener, had obviously found other things more important than tending to them. I climbed through my bedroom window, careful not to make a noise, and surprised at still how natural it felt, as though two years hadn’t passed since the last time I did it.
As my eyes adjusted to the light, I noticed that my room was exactly as I had left it. I had half expected it to be turned into a sewing room, or a guest bedroom, anything to hide the fact that I had never existed here at all. Instead, I found my posters still hanging on my wall; my school books stacked on the desk; and the photo of Maria and I by my bedside lamp. It was as though my parents had kept it as a shrine, leaving it ready for me to return to. I shook that thought off as immediately as it had come. It was more likely the case that they just couldn’t bring themselves to come in here as it would remind them that they had a normal child … once.
Climbing back out the window, I walked away from the house, not ready to see my parents, but still not ready to return to Maria’s house. Instead I headed for the church down the road. There was a time that I thought of this place as a refuge, and I wanted to see if I could find that comfort again.
The door to the church was unlocked, which surprised me, but what surprised me more was the sight upon entering the sanctuary. Sitting in the one of the pews were my parents. I stopped suddenly, wondering whether it was too late to sneak back out without them realising I was there. There heads were bent together and their hands were clasped as they were clinging to each other for life. Taking two slow steps backwards, my luck disappeared and the wooden floorboards creaked under my weight. My parents heads shot up at the sound, and within seconds I was looking at them in the eyes.
“Hello.” My father said, standing up to greet me. “Can we help you?”
At this point I was relieved that I was in my Antarian form so they didn’t recognise me.
“I … I saw the door was open… I should go.” I said, trying to make a quick retreat.
“No, don’t go. You’re welcome here.” My father said, placing a hand on my shoulder. At his touch I had a flash of the sadness he felt at losing a daughter. I shivered at the sensation, wondering if this was true, or just what my heart was longing for.
“You’re cold.” He said, noticing me shiver, and began to lead me towards the front of the church where there was a heater.
“I’m fine.” I protested, but my father would not hear of it.
“My wife will get you something warm to drink.” He said, and I saw my mother walk in the direction of the kitchen.
“Where are you from?” My father asked.
“Very far from here.” I replied.
“You seem very familiar. Do you have family here?” He asked.
“I used to.” I answered.
I stared at his face. He hadn’t changed much, although I noticed that he had more grey hair and a few more wrinkles. At this point my mother handed me a cup of hot chocolate, and gave me a warm smile. She had not changed much either, although her eyes seemed sadder. I knew I should leave, I knew they wouldn’t want me here, but I just couldn’t bring myself to move. Not having them in my life for two years made me realise, now that I was with them, how much I missed them and needed them in my life. They were the only parents I had left, and I knew there had been a time that they had loved me.
“Can I ask, what happened to them?” My father asked, continuing the topic of my family.
“I don’t know. I had to leave. They … they didn’t want me anymore. Now that I am here, I don’t know how to find my way back to them.” At this point I began to cry, which made my father put his hand once again on my shoulder. The warmth of his hand was so comforting; it reminded me of the times he would do the same thing as I was bent over my homework, struggling to write a difficult essay. He always made me believe that I could do anything.
“Why would you think that they didn’t want you anymore?” He asked.
“Because I was different. I was not the person they thought I was.”
“Being different isn’t a bad thing, it just means you’re a special.” My father reassured me. I thought to myself if only he knew that I was talking about him, he wouldn’t be so understanding.
“Not this different.” I said, standing up and pacing.
“I’m sure they still loved you, no matter what.” My mother said. At this point I turned to look at her, feeling the tears well up in my eyes.
“I wish that was true.” I said honestly.
“What if we could find them, you could talk to them, maybe you would see that they regretted what had happened.” My father suggested.
“Can I ask you something?” I turned to my father. “If someone you loved, had kept a secret from you, had things about her that made her different. What would you reaction be?”
My parents’ faces both went white at my question and glanced at each other in shared understanding, before my father responded.
“We had a daughter … have a daughter. One day we discovered she was different to the person we thought she was. We were shocked at first, and didn’t respond as we should have. Now it’s too late. She’s gone, and she will never know how much we still love her.”
At this point I burst into a flood of tears. Tears of joy that they could actually still love me, despite my differences.
“D-do you really mean t-that?” I stuttered.
“Every day we come here and pray that she will come back to us, even if it is just to give us the chance to tell her how much we love her and to make sure she’s okay. That’s what we were doing when you came here tonight.”
“Do you believe that God will answer your prayers?” I asked.
“I do. I have faith that he will make it right again, and lift this burden from us.”
“You’re right to have that faith.” I said, wiping the tears from my eyes, and as I did so, returning my facial features back to their Earthly ones, just I had done with Maria earlier that day.
“Liz?” My parents gasped. “Is that really you?”
“Yes.” I replied softly, praying that they were true to their words, that they still loved me.
It didn’t take long for me to find myself sandwiched in a bear hug between my mother and father.
“Oh honey, we have missed you so much.” My mother exclaimed, tears of joy running down her cheeks.
“I’m sorry I stayed away so long.” I replied honestly. I should have had more faith in my parents than I did, but I let my hurt get in the way of reason.
“No, we’re the ones who are sorry. That night … the night you left … we should have pulled you into a hug just like this.” My mother said.
“You’re mother tried to get to you before you disappeared, but she was not fast enough. You were gone.”
“I’m so sorry. I thought you both hated me.” I sobbed.
“We could never do that. No matter what we had seen, no matter what you would have told us, we could never stop loving you.” My father said.
“I love you both so much.” I replied, giving them an extra tight squeeze.
* * * * *
In the early hours of the morning, still before dawn, we were still sitting around the kitchen table, having spent the night telling my parents the truth about everything, and about what I had been doing for the past two years.
“This Zan fellow sounds like a nice young man.” My father said. I hadn’t had the heart to tell them that he was my ‘James’ that they knew and loved. I really didn’t think they were ready to hear that.
“So you’re engaged.” My mother said. “When are you getting married?”
“Tomorrow.” I replied, and practically saw my mothers jaw drop.
“Tomorrow … so soon? Does that mean you are going back?” She asked, and you could hear the disappointment in her voice.
“I’m leaving shortly.” I replied.
I could see the tears begin to pool in my mother’s eyes, no matter how she tried to hide it.
“Would you come with me?” I asked.
“Come with you? You mean go to your planet?” My mother asked.
“Yeah, you know you guys have never had a real vacation.” I joked, seeing how overwhelmed they were at the thought.
“Can we? I mean, is it even possible?” My father asked, obviously contemplating the idea.
“Sure. It’s a piece of cake. Jet lag is a bit of a killer though.”
“This isn’t the time to joke.” My father said seriously. “It’s not as though we are talking about flying across the world. We’re talking about space travel!”
“I know we are, but you can trust me. It’s perfectly safe. Besides, I need you to come with me. I was hoping you could give me away on my wedding day.”
“Oh … well … in that case, I would be honoured.” My father said, embracing me in a hug. As my cheek touched his I could feel a tear fall from his eye.
“Okay, now that that’s settled, I need to find Maria and Kyle, they’re coming too. Can you meet me in an hour, at the place where you found me as a baby?”
“What do we need to pack?” My mother said.
“Nothing. You won’t need anything.” I replied.
* * * * *
An hour later, Maria, Kyle and I were waiting in the desert for my parents to arrive. Kyle kept watching the sky, hoping to be the first to glimpse the shaft of light that would transport us home. Me, I was more interested in being the first to see my parents driving up that highway.
“So … what did Isabel say when you told her you were going away for Thanksgiving?” I asked Kyle, trying to make small talk to pass the time.
“I said that an old friend had come in from out of town and we were going camping to catch up.” Kyle replied.
“Did she buy it?”
“Yeah, but if she asks, you’re a 120 kilogram bald male.”
“Little white lies will get you in trouble.” Maria warned.
“Yeah, but so would telling her that I was shooting of the planet with a very sexy queen. I think I’d rather risk the lie.” Kyle smiled.
I saw headlights, and my heart leapt as I watched my parent’s the car slowly pull off the highway near to where we were sitting, relieved that they had shown up. I wouldn’t have been surprised if they had decided not to come. It wasn’t as though I was asking them to get on a plane, but I was asking them to leave everything they have ever known.
“What do we do with the car?” My father asked, always being practical.
“We’ll just leave it here for when you get back.” I replied, touching the exterior and blending it into the surroundings. My parents just looked at the, now invisible, car in shock. I had forgotten they hadn’t seen me use my powers in two years.
“So what now?” My father asked.
“Now we wait. Zan will be coming down in a little while to get us, but I thought it might be nice to sit and watch the sunrise together.” I replied.
“So you’re saying I could have slept in another hour?” Maria joked.
“I just thought you might like a preview of Antar.” I smiled. “Just watch.”
Looking at the horizon, the sky began to get lighter, and soon it was a soft pink.
“It’s beautiful.” My mother said, clasping my hand.
“I’m glad you like it.” I replied, squeezing her hand back.
On queue, the shaft of light materialised from the sky, and Zan appeared within it.
“Hey.” He said, coming over to me and giving me a quick kiss. “I hope you haven’t been waiting long.”
“Not at all.” I replied, smiling. “Zan, I’d like you to meet my parents. Mum, dad, this is my fiancé, Zan.”
“Nice to meet you young man.” My father said, taking Zan’s hand.
“Welcome to the family.” My mother said, giving him a hug.
“Okay, now that happy families are over, can we go?” Maria said, getting impatient.
“Eager, aren’t we?” I replied.
“Not really, but it’s kind of like peeling a bandaid. You just need to get it over with.” Maria replied. She had asked me so many questions that morning about what the trip would be like, that I think she had worked herself up into such a nervous state that she just wanted the travel side of things to be over.
“Okay, every one. One by one, walk into the light, and you’ll feel yourself getting lighter. The trip is quick, and make sure you keep your eyes open or you’ll miss the view.” I directed. “Follow Zan, and I’ll take up the rear. Any questions?”
“Yeah, what’s the landing like?” Kyle asked.
“Very smooth.” I replied, hustling them towards the transporter before we wasted too much more of the crystals fuelling it at the other end.
One by one, I watched my fiancé, friends and family get beamed up in the light. As I took my last step towards the light, I turned to take one more look at the sky which was now blue. Stepping into the light I wondered when I would see the sky that colour again.
Later that night, after Maria and Kyle had attempted to explain to their parents why they weren’t going to be around for Thanksgiving, I was sleeping on a fold-away mattress on Maria’s bedroom floor. Actually, that’s not quite true - I was tossing and turning, unable to settle my mind enough to allow me to sleep. It could’ve been the different environment, being back on Earth, but I knew it probably wasn’t. Although I tried to deny it, the one thing that was sitting uneasy with me was thinking about my parents. I could be angry with them as much as I liked, and want to punish them for their reaction to the truth about who I really was, but the reality was, I needed them to accept me. Making a decision, and without waking Maria, I put on my boots and slipped out of her bedroom window.
Walking down the streets of Roswell, I realised that not much had changed in my absence. In fact, to most people in town, my absence probably went completely unnoticed. This intergalactic phenomenon was happing in their town, and they were all completely unaware, snug in the beds, still believing that aliens did not exist. There were a lot of things I could do to open their eyes, but why bother? Let them continue to dream their sweet dreams.
Much sooner than I had expected, I found myself standing outside the diner. The lights were all off, my parents probably having gone to bed hours ago. The house looked the same, although the pot plants on my balcony were looking a little unkempt. My father, the meticulous gardener, had obviously found other things more important than tending to them. I climbed through my bedroom window, careful not to make a noise, and surprised at still how natural it felt, as though two years hadn’t passed since the last time I did it.
As my eyes adjusted to the light, I noticed that my room was exactly as I had left it. I had half expected it to be turned into a sewing room, or a guest bedroom, anything to hide the fact that I had never existed here at all. Instead, I found my posters still hanging on my wall; my school books stacked on the desk; and the photo of Maria and I by my bedside lamp. It was as though my parents had kept it as a shrine, leaving it ready for me to return to. I shook that thought off as immediately as it had come. It was more likely the case that they just couldn’t bring themselves to come in here as it would remind them that they had a normal child … once.
Climbing back out the window, I walked away from the house, not ready to see my parents, but still not ready to return to Maria’s house. Instead I headed for the church down the road. There was a time that I thought of this place as a refuge, and I wanted to see if I could find that comfort again.
The door to the church was unlocked, which surprised me, but what surprised me more was the sight upon entering the sanctuary. Sitting in the one of the pews were my parents. I stopped suddenly, wondering whether it was too late to sneak back out without them realising I was there. There heads were bent together and their hands were clasped as they were clinging to each other for life. Taking two slow steps backwards, my luck disappeared and the wooden floorboards creaked under my weight. My parents heads shot up at the sound, and within seconds I was looking at them in the eyes.
“Hello.” My father said, standing up to greet me. “Can we help you?”
At this point I was relieved that I was in my Antarian form so they didn’t recognise me.
“I … I saw the door was open… I should go.” I said, trying to make a quick retreat.
“No, don’t go. You’re welcome here.” My father said, placing a hand on my shoulder. At his touch I had a flash of the sadness he felt at losing a daughter. I shivered at the sensation, wondering if this was true, or just what my heart was longing for.
“You’re cold.” He said, noticing me shiver, and began to lead me towards the front of the church where there was a heater.
“I’m fine.” I protested, but my father would not hear of it.
“My wife will get you something warm to drink.” He said, and I saw my mother walk in the direction of the kitchen.
“Where are you from?” My father asked.
“Very far from here.” I replied.
“You seem very familiar. Do you have family here?” He asked.
“I used to.” I answered.
I stared at his face. He hadn’t changed much, although I noticed that he had more grey hair and a few more wrinkles. At this point my mother handed me a cup of hot chocolate, and gave me a warm smile. She had not changed much either, although her eyes seemed sadder. I knew I should leave, I knew they wouldn’t want me here, but I just couldn’t bring myself to move. Not having them in my life for two years made me realise, now that I was with them, how much I missed them and needed them in my life. They were the only parents I had left, and I knew there had been a time that they had loved me.
“Can I ask, what happened to them?” My father asked, continuing the topic of my family.
“I don’t know. I had to leave. They … they didn’t want me anymore. Now that I am here, I don’t know how to find my way back to them.” At this point I began to cry, which made my father put his hand once again on my shoulder. The warmth of his hand was so comforting; it reminded me of the times he would do the same thing as I was bent over my homework, struggling to write a difficult essay. He always made me believe that I could do anything.
“Why would you think that they didn’t want you anymore?” He asked.
“Because I was different. I was not the person they thought I was.”
“Being different isn’t a bad thing, it just means you’re a special.” My father reassured me. I thought to myself if only he knew that I was talking about him, he wouldn’t be so understanding.
“Not this different.” I said, standing up and pacing.
“I’m sure they still loved you, no matter what.” My mother said. At this point I turned to look at her, feeling the tears well up in my eyes.
“I wish that was true.” I said honestly.
“What if we could find them, you could talk to them, maybe you would see that they regretted what had happened.” My father suggested.
“Can I ask you something?” I turned to my father. “If someone you loved, had kept a secret from you, had things about her that made her different. What would you reaction be?”
My parents’ faces both went white at my question and glanced at each other in shared understanding, before my father responded.
“We had a daughter … have a daughter. One day we discovered she was different to the person we thought she was. We were shocked at first, and didn’t respond as we should have. Now it’s too late. She’s gone, and she will never know how much we still love her.”
At this point I burst into a flood of tears. Tears of joy that they could actually still love me, despite my differences.
“D-do you really mean t-that?” I stuttered.
“Every day we come here and pray that she will come back to us, even if it is just to give us the chance to tell her how much we love her and to make sure she’s okay. That’s what we were doing when you came here tonight.”
“Do you believe that God will answer your prayers?” I asked.
“I do. I have faith that he will make it right again, and lift this burden from us.”
“You’re right to have that faith.” I said, wiping the tears from my eyes, and as I did so, returning my facial features back to their Earthly ones, just I had done with Maria earlier that day.
“Liz?” My parents gasped. “Is that really you?”
“Yes.” I replied softly, praying that they were true to their words, that they still loved me.
It didn’t take long for me to find myself sandwiched in a bear hug between my mother and father.
“Oh honey, we have missed you so much.” My mother exclaimed, tears of joy running down her cheeks.
“I’m sorry I stayed away so long.” I replied honestly. I should have had more faith in my parents than I did, but I let my hurt get in the way of reason.
“No, we’re the ones who are sorry. That night … the night you left … we should have pulled you into a hug just like this.” My mother said.
“You’re mother tried to get to you before you disappeared, but she was not fast enough. You were gone.”
“I’m so sorry. I thought you both hated me.” I sobbed.
“We could never do that. No matter what we had seen, no matter what you would have told us, we could never stop loving you.” My father said.
“I love you both so much.” I replied, giving them an extra tight squeeze.
* * * * *
In the early hours of the morning, still before dawn, we were still sitting around the kitchen table, having spent the night telling my parents the truth about everything, and about what I had been doing for the past two years.
“This Zan fellow sounds like a nice young man.” My father said. I hadn’t had the heart to tell them that he was my ‘James’ that they knew and loved. I really didn’t think they were ready to hear that.
“So you’re engaged.” My mother said. “When are you getting married?”
“Tomorrow.” I replied, and practically saw my mothers jaw drop.
“Tomorrow … so soon? Does that mean you are going back?” She asked, and you could hear the disappointment in her voice.
“I’m leaving shortly.” I replied.
I could see the tears begin to pool in my mother’s eyes, no matter how she tried to hide it.
“Would you come with me?” I asked.
“Come with you? You mean go to your planet?” My mother asked.
“Yeah, you know you guys have never had a real vacation.” I joked, seeing how overwhelmed they were at the thought.
“Can we? I mean, is it even possible?” My father asked, obviously contemplating the idea.
“Sure. It’s a piece of cake. Jet lag is a bit of a killer though.”
“This isn’t the time to joke.” My father said seriously. “It’s not as though we are talking about flying across the world. We’re talking about space travel!”
“I know we are, but you can trust me. It’s perfectly safe. Besides, I need you to come with me. I was hoping you could give me away on my wedding day.”
“Oh … well … in that case, I would be honoured.” My father said, embracing me in a hug. As my cheek touched his I could feel a tear fall from his eye.
“Okay, now that that’s settled, I need to find Maria and Kyle, they’re coming too. Can you meet me in an hour, at the place where you found me as a baby?”
“What do we need to pack?” My mother said.
“Nothing. You won’t need anything.” I replied.
* * * * *
An hour later, Maria, Kyle and I were waiting in the desert for my parents to arrive. Kyle kept watching the sky, hoping to be the first to glimpse the shaft of light that would transport us home. Me, I was more interested in being the first to see my parents driving up that highway.
“So … what did Isabel say when you told her you were going away for Thanksgiving?” I asked Kyle, trying to make small talk to pass the time.
“I said that an old friend had come in from out of town and we were going camping to catch up.” Kyle replied.
“Did she buy it?”
“Yeah, but if she asks, you’re a 120 kilogram bald male.”
“Little white lies will get you in trouble.” Maria warned.
“Yeah, but so would telling her that I was shooting of the planet with a very sexy queen. I think I’d rather risk the lie.” Kyle smiled.
I saw headlights, and my heart leapt as I watched my parent’s the car slowly pull off the highway near to where we were sitting, relieved that they had shown up. I wouldn’t have been surprised if they had decided not to come. It wasn’t as though I was asking them to get on a plane, but I was asking them to leave everything they have ever known.
“What do we do with the car?” My father asked, always being practical.
“We’ll just leave it here for when you get back.” I replied, touching the exterior and blending it into the surroundings. My parents just looked at the, now invisible, car in shock. I had forgotten they hadn’t seen me use my powers in two years.
“So what now?” My father asked.
“Now we wait. Zan will be coming down in a little while to get us, but I thought it might be nice to sit and watch the sunrise together.” I replied.
“So you’re saying I could have slept in another hour?” Maria joked.
“I just thought you might like a preview of Antar.” I smiled. “Just watch.”
Looking at the horizon, the sky began to get lighter, and soon it was a soft pink.
“It’s beautiful.” My mother said, clasping my hand.
“I’m glad you like it.” I replied, squeezing her hand back.
On queue, the shaft of light materialised from the sky, and Zan appeared within it.
“Hey.” He said, coming over to me and giving me a quick kiss. “I hope you haven’t been waiting long.”
“Not at all.” I replied, smiling. “Zan, I’d like you to meet my parents. Mum, dad, this is my fiancé, Zan.”
“Nice to meet you young man.” My father said, taking Zan’s hand.
“Welcome to the family.” My mother said, giving him a hug.
“Okay, now that happy families are over, can we go?” Maria said, getting impatient.
“Eager, aren’t we?” I replied.
“Not really, but it’s kind of like peeling a bandaid. You just need to get it over with.” Maria replied. She had asked me so many questions that morning about what the trip would be like, that I think she had worked herself up into such a nervous state that she just wanted the travel side of things to be over.
“Okay, every one. One by one, walk into the light, and you’ll feel yourself getting lighter. The trip is quick, and make sure you keep your eyes open or you’ll miss the view.” I directed. “Follow Zan, and I’ll take up the rear. Any questions?”
“Yeah, what’s the landing like?” Kyle asked.
“Very smooth.” I replied, hustling them towards the transporter before we wasted too much more of the crystals fuelling it at the other end.
One by one, I watched my fiancé, friends and family get beamed up in the light. As I took my last step towards the light, I turned to take one more look at the sky which was now blue. Stepping into the light I wondered when I would see the sky that colour again.