What he didn't really realize was that Isabel was frightened and depressed and she was using him – not that he would have minded being used in any event – to try to provide an anchor – something comfortable in a life that had suddenly become very frightening. They were starting to lose Liz and it was breaking Isabel's heart – both seeing her start to fade, and seeing the effect that had on her brother.
In the past twelve days, Isabel had managed to dreamwalk Liz only twice – and those briefly. Liz's dream-orb – the abyss – had never been normal, but it was now so abnormal that had she not seen it's abnormality evolving, she would have never known it was a dream-orb at all. She would have never even tried to enter it. Even knowing what it was, entering it hadn't been easy, and Liz only sustained it for a handful of minutes on both occasions.
Isabel had – by napping during the day – managed to dreamwalk Max twice as well. His dream-orb was normal, but the person in it was obviously tired – frightened – almost at his wits end. He had managed to dreamwalk Liz only twice himself – and for similarly brief periods.
Whatever injury to her reticular activating system had put Liz in the coma, it was obvious that the damaged cells were continuing to die and the few surviving neurons had nearly reached the point where she would be unable to be self-aware at all. It was obvious from what Max said that Liz's life expectancy once that happened would not be great.
The prospect of losing Liz was terrifying on two levels. Despite not knowing her that well before the accident, Liz was now her friend – and her sister-in-law. What this was already doing to Max was almost as painful, and what she had felt from him inside his dream-orb was shaking her to the core. If Liz lost the abyss Max intended to work on – try to discover the secret to the stasis units and freeze them both in time until Liz could be cured, but if he couldn't solve that riddle – and it was obvious that he was beginning to doubt he ever would – he still wanted to be with her. At one time she would have never believed her brother could ever contemplate suicide and she still couldn't quite believe it. But she could see him just losing the will to live. In a sense, Liz had been the only thing that had ever made Roswell home to Max. Without her – Isabel wasn't sure. She could picture him sort of giving up and just dwindling away – that she could easily believe. Which was why she was seeking comfort and reassurance in the person who seemed to make her most comfortable right now.
“Thanks for doing this, Alex,”
“You sounded upset. What's the matter?”
“I'll tell you when we get to the park, OK?”
Alex could tell she was nervous but it was worse than that – she was almost in tears.
“Sure Isabel. We can talk then,” he said, putting his left hand on her right one and squeezing it gently before releasing it.
Isabel felt the reassurance flow from the gentle squeeze and took a deep breath. Somehow he always did that to her – made things seem better. Unfortunately this situation was particularly bad.
Twilight was fading as she pulled in to the parking lot and shut off the engine – watching the last light fade in the west as the sun went down. The first stars were just appearing and she saw one down near the horizon – a reddish looking one. She took a deep breath.
- ”Star light, star bright,
The first bright star I see tonight;
I wish I may, I wish I might,
Have the wish I wish tonight.”
Alex looked at her – and the distant star – and smiled.
“That constellation is Scorpius. That reddish star is a red super-giant called Antares A. It is one of the brightest stars in the sky – also one of the largest. It's about 800 times the size of our own sun. It's got a binary partner – a hot blue star called Antares B – that is still four times larger than our sun but you can't usually see it because Antares A is too bright. You have to wait for the moon to occlude Antares A – then it really can be seen. So what was your wish?”
“I can't tell you, Alex. If I do it won't come true.”
“So can you tell me what you are worried about? I probably can't fix it, but I'm a good listener. Sometimes talking helps.”
“Worried about? Liz and Max – take your pick...” 'Not to mention you finally finding out the truth – and then wanting nothing to do with me...' she thought.
“I take it Liz isn't doing well... and Mr. Responsibility is beating himself up about it?”
“Well, you got the second part right. The first part – well I communicated with Max and Liz is in no immediate danger – it's just that she certainly isn't any better yet, and – well Max did the research too and knows that while some people are in comas a long time, most of them don't last very long. Serious traumatic head injuries like Liz have last for only two to four years – and she's been in almost a year and a half now.”
“Isabel, are you sure that Max caring for her is best ? Best for either of them?”
Alex saw Isabel look at him with sort of a resigned expression. “Yes, I think it's best for her. It's probably even best for Max, I can't imagine him NOT taking care of her. I promise you, Alex, if Max can't help her, there is no one who can. It may not work, but I think it's best for both of them...”
When she spoke like that – looking straight into his eyes – Alex felt like he was looking in to Isabel Evans' soul. Somehow he couldn't begin to doubt her. He nodded his head.
“Well then, we'll just have to hope that Max can pull this out somehow... or maybe that your wish that you don't want to tell me about comes true – although Antares wouldn't have been my choice to wish to, I doubt that there's anybody there to hear you.”
“You don't believe in extraterrestrials?”
“Oh, I didn't say that. It's just that a binary with a super giant red and a hot blue – any planets it would have would have to be in weird orbits – exposed to all sorts of climatic hell, radiation, who knows what else. Of course if any life ever did evolve somewhere like that they'd be damn tough hombres – probably bend steel in their bare hands – or tentacles.”
She knew he was just joking with her to lighten her mood. Surprisingly, it was working. She put her head on his shoulder and pointed to another group of stars.
“What constellation is that – the little one?”
“The constellation is Taurus, the bull. What you are pointing at is the Pleiades. The 'seven sisters'. In reality there are over eight hundred of them, but only about a dozen can be seen with the naked eye.”
“Why do they call it 'seven' then?”
“The original Pleiades were nymphs who kept having affairs with Greek gods and fathering half-human children.”
“You sound like you don't approve of humans playing around with gods...?”
That wasn't really true, Alex knew. There was a goddess right beside him that he'd love to have feel that way about him - not that THAT was ever going to happen....
“Just call me old fashioned, I guess. I think they should have gotten married and been faithful to each other. Those old Greek gods seemed to go chasing after anything that moved – like Zeus turning himself into a swan to seduce Leda. Yeah, maybe I'm too traditional, but I'd prefer a more committed relationship than they had back then.”