Roswell Fanatics

THE FALCONER

It was three in the morning by the time she reached her destination, she had walked the whole way from the park to the pod chamber and as she walked toward the giant rocks she felt a great sense of loss. Not the loss of Max or Alex, not the loss of her friendships, but the loss of herself somewhere over the past year she had completely disappeared.

Not just from her friends or her family but she sat atop those rocks now and she couldn't feel any remnants of the person she used to be. It wasn't that she had changed it was that she had completely vanished, the old Liz had withered and died within her body and a new person had set up shop in her corpse. The sun was rising slowly from behind the endlessness of the desert and she sat there alone, she couldn't cry anymore.

'So this is it?' she wondered 'this is my life, or her life rather. This is what's left of her life; you strip it all away the friends, the family, the humanity and this is what's left?'

"Enjoying yourself?" Spoke a familiar stony voice interrupting her thoughts.

"What do you want Michael?" she turned to look at him.

"Maria told me what happened I figured you'd come here," he sat down next to her "Liz I know what you're feeling." He tried to reason

"Oh do you?" she said sarcastically "then please Michael, tell me what I'm feeling." She glared at him

"Sick, disgusted by yourself," he started

"Try again Michael," She paused and stood up "You think just because you killed Pierce you know what I'm feeling?" she asked him

"It's the same..." he said but she stopped him

"No Michael it's not the same, you killed Pierce in the heat of the moment by accident, you couldn't control your powers and you killed him. I shot Gregors, I shot him on purpose. I meant for that bullet to rip through his gut and kill him. I meant for him to gasp for air and suffer. And more then anything I wanted his last moments on earth to be surrounded by enemies, I meant for him to be scared and to feel alone and cold like I did a year ago." She looked down at Michael "I killed him in cold blood and I have no regrets." Her voice detached

"Liz you didn't kill him because you wanted to," he tried to convince himself more then her

"I didn't?" she asked

"No,"

"Not quite Michael, I killed him because I wanted to and I would do it again if I could. The silence in that room..." she smiled grimly

"Stop it Liz," he said

"You could almost hear his heart stop..."

"Don't do this Liz,"

"The way he struggled for breath so he could beg for his life..."

"STOP IT!" Michael yelled standing up

"I'm a murderer," Liz said trying on the new title

"No you're not,"

"Yes I am," she said taking a step forward her hands crackling with the energy of the argument and the memory of last night.

"Liz..."

"Why do you keep saying my name like that? Is it because you're scared of me?" she frowned at him looking at her feet now. She thought about the things she had said, they had been meant to scare him away so he and the others would let her suffer in peace. She could never stand sympathy it made her feel small and melodramatic.

"We want to help you," he said loudly trying to regain the upper hand.

"I don't want your help Michael, I just want to be left alone." She stopped for a moment thinking "I don't want to be forgiven," she looked into his eyes; she could see the king in him.

'I can see you' she thought 'for the first time I can see you as a leader and a great man not just a screw up' she let a lopsided smile cross her face.

"You make a great king Michael," She looked at his hands which bore some of the same scarring and calluses as hers did "And you've always been a great man," she took a step closer and looked up into his eyes. "But you are not my savior," She touched his face for a moment seeing him for once as Maria did, a caring man who struggled for everything he had. "This is what has become of me, and what's broken can't be fixed." She took a step back and he nodded as he walked away. Liz turned back towards the steadily rising sun.

"Just take care of yourself Liz," Michael stopped and turned back to her "I know that Max would have been able to save you, I promised him I wouldn't let anything happen to you. And as long as I'm here I won't." He said softly

"Thank you," She nodded at him and he left and as he left she thought of her own promise to Max and how she had failed so miserably at keeping her promise.

'I was supposed to take care of them' she thought 'I was supposed to keep the group together' she sat there for an hour before she got up to leave.

She passed the wall that held the pod chamber, the granolith, and the secrets of a world far from here she looked at it and walked away back towards town.

A/N: Here it is the next chapter! Back by popular demand! I know you guys miss Max and I am truly sorry that I have this whole plot line mapped out but don't worry he is coming back I promise! I'm writing him back in right now! Well, not right now because I'm writing this right now but you get what I mean. This next chapter might be a little hard to take for some of you but please stick it out and keep reading because I am going to give you what you want. You just have to wait a little. Well without further ado I give you....

BEECHWOOD PARK

She reached her home to find that her parents had gone out, she stripped off her clothes which had been sealed to her body through a mixture of blood, sweat, and dust from the desert. She stepped into the shower and for the first time was happy that the furnace had turned off and the water was ice cold.

She washed the grime from her body and looked at her bruised stomach, despite the damage the scar from that night was still easy to spot and she ran her hand across it remembering a more innocent time.

She stepped out of the shower and into some clean clothes before going onto her balcony she sat there and stared up at the sun now directly above her, it shone in her eyes and hurt but she welcomed the burning sensation in her eyes knowing that the gentler stars would have hurt more.

She climbed down her ladder and stepped into the alley and walked out onto the street and wandered around town for several hours, she remembered that Graduation was tonight and she thought of how miniscule a thing it seemed compared to everything.

She went back to her home and fell asleep on her bed for the first time sleeping soundly but that was not as rewarding as she had expected it to be, she fell into a dreamless sleep which was a disturbing experience. The thought that she would have preferred her nightmares to no dreams at all surprised her and the fact that she woke up more tired and disoriented then when she had laid her head down was very confusing. She got up and noticed that the sun had set, hearing her parents downstairs she walked out onto her balcony and slid down the ladder walking towards the school.

She stepped inside the school and was surrounded by an eerie feeling; the halls were silent except for the distant echo of a speech being made at graduation. She walked towards the auditorium and opened the doors to see her class mates sitting in their seats on the stage and all the happy parents, some cameras flashed as the valedictorian finished her speech.

She saw Maria and Michael holding hands and Isabel, Tess, and Kyle sitting on either side of them. She stood at the back of the auditorium and watched as her friends sat smiling in front of their families and peers. She swallowed hard and drew her brows together thinking of all the mistakes she had made this year and she ran from the school too overwhelmed to watch anymore.

She ran until she reached the Deluca residence, she knocked on the door and when Sean answered the door she reached for him and kissed him passionately on the lips as she pushed him towards his bedroom. They got inside his room and she pulled away to shut the door before reaching for his shirt.

"Whoa! Liz wait a second what's going on here?"

"Don't you like me," she said unemotionally "Don't you find me attractive?" she asked him.

"Yes but what are you doing? Liz this isn't like you." He said holding her an arms distance away.

"Isn't it?" She asked as he shook his head "Well, people change. Relationships change," she said kissing him again backing him on to the bed, he sat down on the bed and she sat on top of him kissing him passionately and pulling at his shirt.

"Liz!" He said pushing her away for a moment "What's going on, what happened?

"Oh I forgot, something tragic has to happen for me to do anything," she said sarcastically as she rolled her eyes.

"No it's just..." he trailed off

"Perfect?" she asked raising one eyebrow "Listen Sean this is me, Liz Parker. I'm not under the influence, I'm not grieving, and I'm not vulnerable isn't this what you wanted." She asked tilting her head slightly a smirk crossing her face.

"Yes," he said honestly

"Then surrender," she whispered in his ear before nibbling it, she pulled his shirt over his head and they tumbled on to the bed as the moonlight shone through the window sill onto their bodies.

Sean lay asleep on the bed as Liz sat on the edge of the bed naked, her bruised body illuminated by the moonlight. She reached down and touched the scar on her stomach a sick feeling rising in her throat. She got up and put her clothes on, gathered all her things and walked towards the door.

"Liz?" Sean's sleepy voice rose from the bed.

"Shhh, go back to sleep" She hushed him

"Where are you going?" He asked sitting propped up on his elbows

"Out," she whispered

"Liz? Are you ok, I mean how are you feeling after...?" He trailed off and she cringed after he asked her that, she felt gross and dirty his words made her feel violated and uneasy.

"I'm fine," she said too quickly trying to get him to leave her alone "I'm just going back to my place my parents must be worried," she made up the excuse hoping he would believe it.

"Oh ok," he paused thinking "I'll see you later then, tomorrow?"

"Sure, we can go out or something" she feigned excitement and managed to flash a smile before turning her back to him and leaving.

As soon as she left the house she ran as fast as she could, not stopping for anything. It was around midnight and the dark was almost impenetrable but she knew where she was going too well.

BIG WHITE CLOUD

She reached the rocks faster then she thought possible and as she fell to the ground gasping in front of the pod chamber, leaning against the wall she stood up and placed her left hand on the wall in hopes of awakening the alien powers inside of herself, when the door didn’t open she pounded her fists against the wall until they bled and then rested her forehead against the wall.

“please,” her defeated voice begged

She pushed against the wall with her hand and suddenly the rock beneath her hand glowed and the once solid surface felt unsteady and soft. The rock moved and allowed her inside, she stepped within in its walls and the door closed. Everything brightened by an alien light which made it easy to see, she walked over to the pods and touched them before crawling into the granolith. She walked up to the large glowing center of the granolith and touched it.

“Get them.” She demanded of the inanimate object “I know you can save them, you just have to go back. Please just go back,” she begged it a tear falling from her eye to the floor of the room. “He did this before, I know you can go back,” her voice rose “Bring them back.” She said quietly “Bring them back!” she yelled at the machine “please,” she dropped to the floor and held her stomach with her bloodied hands as she sobbed. “Just let me go,” she wept “Just let me go,”

She had sat there on the floor for hours before she got up and left, she walked outside as the sun rose. She walked back towards town and her home, towards the life she had known for so long. She climbed up her ladder she reached her home and walked into her room, looked around and began gathering her things.

She shoved what she could into a bag and then stepped back out onto the balcony squinting at the bright sun, she walked toward the loose brick in the wall and removed it revealing her most personal possessions. She reached for the necklace that Max had given her and placed it around her neck and took the few other pieces of alien paraphernalia shoving it in her bag with her clothes, things, and what little money she had.

She then reached for her journal which was filled with the secrets of her old life, and stuffed it in her bag. She stepped out onto the street and was ready to start again; everything was just like it began.

“Goodbye” she whispered more to herself then to anyone else

‘Goodbye’

A/N IMPORTANT: So that was the last chapter of part one, what did you think? Are you angry? Are you sad? Does your collar bone still hurt? Part Two is already being written and guess what dreamers? Your dreams will come true but it's still gonna be very angsty because I'm a lonely drama queen. Anyway! Please review or I won't write (HA threats!) See ya!
-Rosie

<b>A/N:</b> You have no idea how much pain I had to go through these past few weeks! My computer crashed, I cried, I worried my story was gone, I vomitted blood (fake blood), I fell in love (that's a flat out lie), I found out my story was still here, I cried tears of joy, I stubbed my toe! It was just plain awful, it actually wasn't. It was annoying as hell but I'm exaggerating all the bad stuff. This is the long awaited PART TWO! Thanks to LizardQueen for reminding me people were reading this, hint hint. I'll leave you alone no so you can read it...


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<b><u>PART TWO</u></b>

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<b><u>I'll BE YOUR MIRROR</u></b>

She sat staring at the wall behind her professors head as he spoke; she had stopped paying attention once he had given them the notes for the final. She looked over at the guy sitting next to her, he was writing as fast as he could scribbling down every piece of information their professor droned on about. His name was Joe and it fit him perfectly. Joe. Plain boring Joe who she had met in a study group at the beginning of the year, Joe who she had tried dating and found it much too hard. She looked at the clock and was relieved to find that the class was almost over, she was starving she had stopped eating breakfast since she came here. She actually found that the idea of breakfast at this point brought her close to nausea.

"Okay! That's it for today but I expect to see you guys tomorrow ready for more review." The professor finally announced. Liz gathered her things and walked towards the door; she stepped out into the hallway and pushed her way into a throng of people making her way towards her dorm. She reached her room and pushed the door open knowing her roommate refused to lock it, saying it was 'Unfriendly'

"Hey Liz!" said the blonde girl sitting on her bed.

"Hi Michelle," she looked over to see her looking through a pile of clothes "Are those mine?" Liz questioned raising her eyebrow.

"Yeah, I was looking for something for you to wear tonight but as it turns out you are a complete loser." Michelle frowned throwing the clothes on the ground before standing up and walking towards her own closet.

"Hey! Why did you do that?" Liz said glaring at the girl.

"Because all your clothes are awful,"

"Thanks so much. And don't even try to defend that tube top you are wearing!" Liz yelled, a smile spreading across her face.

"What's wrong with this?" Michelle asked looking down at her shirt.

"It says '2 Hot For U' on it!"

"So?"

"I think I'll die the moment I realize I'm too lazy to wear shirts that actually spell the words!"

"What's so wrong about it?"

"I don't even use that disturbingly annoying lingo online let alone on my clothes. And why even do that in the first place? To give some illiterate perv a chance to ogle your boobs?"

"Fine!" Michelle threw up her hands in defeat "But you need to wear something."

"Why? What's happening tonight?" Liz asked as she placed her books on her desk.

"Just a little Pre finals get together." Michelle said quietly trying to act careless.

"So that's why you're wearing the least amount of clothes I've ever seen you in, for a get together?" Liz smiled

"Ok, ok you caught me it's a party!"

"No! Really?" Liz said sarcastically

"And you have to come!"

"Why? So I can depress all the drunken frat boys? Oh, and maybe if I'm lucky I can have a hangover for my finals!" Liz mocked her roommate's suggestion.

"Don't worry you can be the designated driver and maybe you could pretend you're happy for a couple of hours," Michelle stated seriously while Liz raised her eyebrow in question "Anyways the drunken frat boys will be too busy molesting a less jaded freshman then yourself." Michelle smiled

"Fine but I'm not wearing anything slutty and I plan to stand in the corner and glare."

"Good! Now we just have to find you an outfit, don't worry you can borrow one of mine!"

"I said nothing slutty!"

"Oh please you think that's all I have?"

"Well, it's all you wear."

"Meow! Someone's bitter!"

"Who says Meow?!" Liz yelled trying not to laugh

"Here you can wear this," Michelle said throwing a black tank top and green cargo pants on the bed "And keep them, they're not my style."

"You're right they are not designed for maximum gropage!" Liz said feigning shock

"Oh please!" Michelle said throwing the clothes at Liz and pointing towards the bathroom. "Now change!" Liz walked into the bathroom and stared into the mirror for a moment before noticing the calendar, she closed her eyes scolded herself for not remembering.

<i>'Today is the day'</i> the familiar voice echoed through her head, <i>'today is the day it all fell apart and they slipped away from you'</i> a tear slipped down her cheek.

"You almost ready?" Michelle yelled from the other side of the door.

"I ...I don't know if I want to go anymore." Liz stated shakily.

"Liz, I'm not gonna do this again. You are coming and that's it!" Michelle smiled at her confidence.

Liz wiped the tear from her face and started putting her clothes on.

"Two years, it's been two years," she reasoned with herself quietly "I said I wouldn't let this control my life anymore," she ran her hand across the scar that had reminded her of her loss everyday.

<i>'Everyday but today'</i> she shook her head trying to get rid of the voice that had plagued her for a year, the voice that still managed to get into every dream. <i>'You forgot them'</i>

"Shut up." She stated firmly

<i>'Alex is still in those woods'</i>

"Shut Up."

<i>'He's still rotting into the earth, in those cold dark empty woods where you left him.'</i>

"Shut up"

<i>'alone'</i> Liz covered her ears as if that would block out the voice <i>'And you left Max in that room'</i> tears streamed down her face <i>'you left him there for those men, those men in their lab coats. You left him their so they could cut him open, rip out everything'</i>

"stop it," she pleaded quietly as she sunk to her knees

<i>'he was empty when they finished'</i>

"no," her voice becoming weaker and weaker

<i>'do you think he would have left you? Do you honestly think he would have let those animals rip him apart?'</i>

"please,"

<i>'He couldn't beg them for mercy; he couldn't stop him from putting him through those machines'</i>

"I'm sorry,"

<i>'They died for you, they saved your life. And how did you repay them? By leaving them for those people?'</i>

"I'm so sorry," Liz said again the tears still streaming, her pleas were met by silence this time.

"Liz! Come on!" Michelle yelled getting impatient

"One second," Liz said her voice small and quiet; she opened one of the small droors on the vanity and rummaged though it until she found what she was looking for. She pulled out the gleaming key and knelt down to a box with a red rose pattern covering it, she unlocked the lock she had placed on the box and opened it slowly revealing a stash of items. Papers with the translations from 'The Book' on them, the necklace Max had given her, and pictures. Pictures of Alex, Max, Maria, Michael, Isabel, Kyle, Valenti, even Tess they were pictures of her old life. Pictures of a life she had lost a long time ago. She picked up the necklace and placed it around her neck before closing the floor back up and lifting herself back up. She wiped the tears from her face and redid her make up quickly before leaving the bathroom.

"Finally!" Michelle said exasperatedly "Let's go," she giddily walked out the door Liz not far behind.

"Let's" Liz said sadly.

Michelle burst into the bar smiling her head off

"I knew he'd remember me!" Michelle said perkily of the bouncer who had been standing outside.

"That's generally what happens when you sleep with them," mocked a deep male voice

"Harry!" Michelle smiled as Liz walked up behind her eyes cast downward "Liz you remember Harry!" Michelle poked Liz in the chest, Liz responded by mumbling a hello.

"Nice to see you too gloomy," Harry sneered.

"Come on you guys lets find a table!" Michelle said grabbing Liz's arm and leading her through the crowd. They reached a small round table surrounded by bar stools.

"I'm gonna go to the bar I'll be back," Harry walked toward the bar

"Get me a beer!" Michelle said loudly before she sat at the table with Liz.

"You said you would glare." Michelle said furrowing her brow

"What?" Liz said momentarily awakened from her zombie like state

"You said you'd glare, all I'm seeing on you is this kind of inward depressing reflecty thing."

"Why do you care?" Liz asked looking down again

"Fine, but you're gonna start attracting the sensitive guys like flies." Harry returned two beers in hand; Michelle took a large swig of hers before setting it down and grabbing Harry's hand, "Let's dance!" Michelle started leading him away but first turned back towards Liz "Just don't come crying to me when you're up to your ass in Mr. Rights," Liz nodded to her and the Michelle disappeared into the crowd. Liz held the alien pendant on her necklace and closed her eyes, her mind flashed to the scene in the woods.

Alex?! Alex! No! Wake up please please!

How long was he lying there?

All I know is that he never made it inside.

No, now please Liz we have to get out of here before... Before we die too

Where's Alex?

Then you know what we have to do. All of us together.

But Max you said we wouldn't be alone.

You should have left me; you should have just left while you still had a chance.

Never let them get you Liz, if they come looking never let them touch you,

<i>'but you let them get him.'</i> Stated the clear crisp voice that had haunted her 'he died for you, he gave his life for you and you left him for the wolves' a tear slipped down Liz's cheek <i>'and now he's empty and preserved in a jar'</i> she clenched her fists until tiny drops of blood sprang from her palm <i>'you should have died'</i>

"I know" she whispered sadly.

"Are you ok?" a rich masculine voice cut through the darkness, Liz opened her eyes to see a man with light brown hair hanging in his face standing in front of her. His forehead creased when she didn't answer.

"Miss?" he said trying to shake her from her reverie

"Yeah, I'm sorry, I'm fine thanks" Liz stumbled over her words before she snapped out of her trance, "Did you just call me 'Miss'?" She said raising an eyebrow trying to regain composure. The man furrowed his brow confused by her sudden change in temper.

"Uh... yes I did," He faltered

"That's weird," she said quietly staring him directly in the eye now with a new found confidence that burned in her eyes.

"I guess it is..." he said a crooked smile crossing his face

"You shouldn't say things like that it confuses people," Liz said standing up from her seat.

"What do you mean?" He questioned playfully

"Well..." she took a deep breath "it makes people question your motives."

"Really?" his smile broadening

"Yes, for instance how am I supposed to know what you think of me? Are you trying to act overly polite so you can get in my pants and then sneak out the window before I wake up? Or are you genuinely concerned for me, a complete stranger?"

"Well, how do I know you don't use that little breakdown routine on every guy?" He cocked his head

"I guess you don't," she shrugged walking towards the door; he followed close behind making his way through the crowd. Liz stepped outside into the refreshing cool air and he walked fast to keep up.

"I'm Tom, if you were wondering" He said smiling widely, Liz stopped and looked up at him squinting against the light of the lamppost behind him.

"I'm Liz," she said while shaking his hand, returning his smile.

"It's nice to meet you Liz,"

A/N: Hey, I'm updating here! If you guys are getting pissed because I promised Max and he hasn't appeared quite yet just hold your horses! If you guys have learned anything from me it's that you must be patient. Hope you enjoy the new part.

The Passenger

Liz stepped inside her dorm room which was empty, she stopped to read the note Michelle had left for her on top of the mini fridge which read that she was elsewhere.

“Because I couldn’t have figured that out on my own,” Liz sighed dropping her bag on the floor and walked towards the phone to check her messages.

“Hey, Liz this is Tom I was just wondering if you wanted to hang out sometime, you know my number. Call Me!” his voice brought a smile to her face which she quickly replaced with her normal scowl.

“There is no reason to get all giddy over this guy he’s probably just another loser” Liz reasoned with herself before breaking into another smile and lying back on her bed.

“But maybe he’s not,” excitement filling her voice.

‘Forgot about him so soon?’ said the all too familiar voice; the smile fell from her face. ‘Forgot about what you did?’ it hissed

“No,” Liz said softly

‘You widowed a wife and orphaned a child,’

“I know,” she said quickly before standing up and walking out the door hoping to escape the voice that had followed her for so many years. She walked fast staring at the ground relieved that she had been able to leave the voice behind, so relieved that she didn’t see the man walking directly in front of her. She crashed into him spilling his hot coffee all over her right arm; she cringed as she felt it burn her skin.

“Oh my god! I’m so sorry Liz!” caught off guard by the man’s knowledge of her name she looked up to see that it was Tom.

“Tom?” she said sounding confused.

“Yeah,” he hesitated before continuing “I was coming to see you, I brought coffee,” he said smiling crookedly while holding up two empty coffee cups, she smiled at him amused before remembering her burning arm.

“I should probably do something about this,” she said before turning and walking back towards her room, she stopped when she noticed he wasn’t following and spun around so she was facing him. “Are you coming?” she shouted to him, he smiled and rushed up to follow her.

When they reached her room she opened the door and stepped inside and walked to the sink to rinse of her arm.

“Do you have any bandages or anything?” he asked her

“There’s a first aid kit on the desk,” she said motioning towards the plastic case. When she finished washing off her arm she came out of the bathroom and sat on the bed across from Tom who was unrolling a gauze bandage.

“I’m really sorry about this,” he said while wrapping the bandage around her arm.

“What are you kidding this is great,” she said sarcastically “Very few people know that I love second degree burns,” she smiled and he smiled back

“Well I was thinking you could maybe return the favor over dinner,” he finished bandaging her arm and looked her in the eye, “I know this great place that serves really hot soup”

“That sounds nice,”

“So I decided to come to UMASS to escape my parents on the west coast,” Tom said as he cut the meat on his plate. Liz sat across the table from him in the dimly lit restaurant that Tom had suggested earlier.

“That seems noble enough,” Liz smiled as she sipped her soup

“So that’s my life story,” Liz stiffened when she realized he was expecting a summary of her life at this point “what about you?” he smiled questioningly

“Well,” Liz took a deep breath “there’s really not much to tell. I’m from Roswell, New Mexico I worked in my parents restaurant there and then I just kind of felt like I needed a change so I came here,” she said quickly

‘Too quickly’ she scolded herself

“Roswell?” He smirked “That must have been interesting,”

“Not really,” she had known this would happen but for some reason she hadn’t prepared herself with a sufficient lie.

“Is it just kind of touristy?”

“Yeah,” she smiled relieved that he hadn’t questioned more about her life or why she left. “It’s really scenic, but no one really cares.”

“They’re just in it for the aliens,” he sympathetically

“Yeah,” she cringed at the word and then looked back down at her soup.

“Ok,” he put his fork down and took a breath “I’m going to be honest, I really like you Liz.”

“I like you too,” she beamed

“Well, now that that’s over what do you say to a good roll in the hay?” he joked, Liz hit his arm smiling

“What do you think I am a slut,” she teased

“No, not at all”

A/N: Here is chapter 3 and I will add chapter 4 in a minute as promised! I've been unbelievably tired and that has nothing to do with anything so I'm just gonna post!


Madame George

"Well, that movie sucked." Liz stated as her and Michelle stepped out of the movie theatre, Michelle still sipping her coke.

"Hilary Duff is trying her hardest it's not her fault she comes up short every time," Michelle shrugged taking another sip.

"Why do I keep buying Sprite?" Liz asked staring at the drink she held in her hand, "It tastes like piss," Michelle shrugged "So... where to next?" Liz stopped and looked around the mall

"Don't you want to buy a present?"

"For who?" Liz frowned confused

"For Tom," Michelle searched Liz's face but Liz just shook her head in uncertainty "Your one month anniversary is today,"

"Oh," Liz thought it over for a moment before throwing the remainder of her soda

"That's it? 'Oh'?" Michelle sounded exasperated

"I don't think he was planning anything,"

"What?!" Michelle exclaimed

"One month anniversary isn't a big deal," Liz saw a horrified look on Michelle's face "What? It's not, and I really don't like all that anniversary crap anyway," Liz looked away remembering Max for a moment and then shaking the thought from her brain.

"Have I taught you nothing?" Michelle almost yelled

"Calm down," Liz stopped, took out her keys and shook them in front of Michelle's face "Shiny," Liz mocked and then started laughing

"Ha, ha, ha!" Michelle said sarcastically "Just don't come crying to me when you are a sad lonely cat lady,"

"Don't worry I won't, that's what the cats are for,"

Liz and Tom stepped into Liz's room and slammed the door behind them.

"Are you sure Michelle is going to stay out?" Tom said as he began kissing Liz's neck

"Yeah unless she decides to come back and preach to me the beauty of one month anniversaries," Liz smiled as she slammed her mouth onto his in a forceful kiss

"Hey, be gentle I'm delicate" Tom smiled as Liz tugged at the bottom of his shirt, he lifted his arms up and she slipped it over his head. Suddenly there was a knock on the door.

"Michelle! I get it I will die cold and alone because I didn't buy expensive cologne!" Liz yelled at the door, but the second knock came with more urgency. Liz exchanged a sympathetic look with Tom before she stepped away from him and he slipped his shirt back on, Liz opened the door and before she could say anything she saw a familiar but somehow foreign face. She felt as though someone had punched in the stomach and all the air was knocked out of her lungs, but finally her voice came out in a gasp.

"Isabel,"

Little Sister

“Liz,” Isabel’s voice floated through the cool air, Liz just stood staring at her as if she was a ghost.

“Liz, who is it?” Tom asked as he struggled to get his shirt over his head still unable to see Isabel.

“Wha... what are you doing here?” Liz strained to get her words out, as a thousand buried memories came rushing back.

“You know why,” Isabel stated calmly, she looked different. Her hair was short and there was a deep cut that stretched from her cheek across her lips, her eyes were darker and she looked older in many ways.

‘But her voice,’ Liz almost smiled ‘her voice is the same’

“Liz?” Tom stepped into Isabel’s view, now fully clothed. Isabel looked him up and down and then looked back to Liz.

“You have to come back,” Isabel declared firmly

“What?” Liz said quickly still confused

“We need you to come back,” Isabel unable to hide the desperation in her voice, Liz shook her head as a flash bombarded her.

I could help you, if you wanted me too

It never really changes anything though... you know, not like Max

“Come back where?” Tom frowned unable to understand what they were talking about, Liz looked to Tom and then to Isabel

“Home,” Isabel said

“home,” Liz whispered to herself looking down at the ground “Why?” Liz looked back up trying to wrap her head around the situation

“We need you,” Isabel looked down to Liz’s hands which had begun to fill with an electricity she had suppressed for so long, Liz tucked her hands behind her back.

“What happened?” Liz asked not caring anymore what Tom heard or what questions he would ask her later.

“Too much for me to tell you in one night,” Isabel looked at Tom “Maria... she’s hurt,”

“Wh... what? When?” Liz’s brow creased as she stared at Isabel’s hands in the hope that it would help her stop the emotions that were flooding to her brain.

“Last week, we thought she would be ok but then everything...” Isabel paused as if searching for the words to describe the past year of her life “Everything just went to hell,”

“Is she going to be ok?” Liz’s voice was shaking now; Tom looked down at her confused by everything that was happening.

“She’s dying.” Isabel stated so quickly it almost dropped Liz to her knees “Unless there’s something you can do,” Isabel looked at Liz whose eyes were now filled with pain

“I’m not him, Isabel” Liz said powerfully

“I know, but...” Isabel started before Liz cut her off

“I’m not him!” she almost yelled, Isabel grabbed Liz’s hand and squeezed it tightly, Tom grimaced when he saw a drop of blood fall from Liz’s hand

“I think you need to go now,” Tom said firmly as he put a hand on Isabel’s shoulder, Isabel shrugged his hand off and glared at him as she let go of Liz’s hand.

“You know what you are.” Isabel stared her down “Stop fighting it.” She turned and walked away and Tom closed the door behind her.

“Liz?” Tom said cautiously as he turned Liz away from the door and towards him, “What the hell is going on? Who was that?” his voice more firm now

“She’s an old friend,” Liz said quietly her eyes shrouded in darkness

“You’re gonna have to give me more then that,” Tom snorted “Who’s Maria?”

“My best friend,” a sad smile crossed Liz’s face

“What?” Tom’s confusion clearly heard in his voice, it struck him suddenly that he knew nothing about Liz’s past.

“I have to go back, I have to help her” Liz sounded so helpless, as the tears that had been threatening to fall finally came cascading down her cheeks, Tom pulled her to him in a hug. “I have to help her,”

Shelter from the Storm

Liz opened her eyes to find herself in a large field which was empty aside from the few grave stones that littered the green earth. She looked up to see a familiar scene, a few feet in front of her a black coffin was being lowered into the ground. Maria stood closest to the coffin tears were streaming down her face and Michael stood behind her holding her shoulders. Isabel stood next to them her eyes were red; she looked to her left where Alex stood.

“Alex,” Liz whispered into the wind as a heartbreaking smile crossed her face.

Alex was crying openly and looked away when the coffin thumped against the soft earth beneath it, Kyle stood next to his father and Tess. Valenti clutched his hat to his chest and Kyle’s eyes were brimming with tears, Tess looked so confused it was strange her eyes were watery and cast downward. Liz’s parents stood on the opposite side of the coffin holding on to each other as if they might fall if they didn’t.

“They’ve missed you,” declared a deep voice behind Liz, she spun around to see Max standing behind her.

“Max,” her voice so strangled by emotion she could barely say his name, she wrapped her arms around his neck and buried her head in his shoulder. “Oh God, Max I’ve missed you so much,”

“I know,” Max’s face remained solemn, Liz pulled away and kissed him softly on the lips she stopped looking deep into his eyes.

“You’re not here, this is just another dream” Liz sounded defeated as she stepped away looking back to the funeral in front of her.

“I’m sorry,” he said sincerely as he stepped next to her and watched the scene unfold in front of them.

“Why am I here?” Liz said somberly

“Because they need you,” he stated oddly

“Why do they need me?”

“Because you’re different now and you can help, you can save them” he turned towards her

“Like I saved you,” a sick smile crossed her face “Like I saved Alex?” Max just stared into her eyes “Or like I saved them before? By killing.”

“You can’t leave them or everyone will suffer,”

“I knew I would have to go back I just didn’t know it would be this soon or that this would be the reason” she stared at the gravestone.

Elizabeth Parker

Beloved Daughter

Loyal Friend

“Yeah really loyal,” sarcasm dripping from the sad statement

“This is your chance to redeem yourself,” Max said as he walked towards the open grave, he walked to the edge of the hole and then beckoned her towards him.

“I don’t know if I can go back to them,” she said as she brushed past a grieving Maria

“You have to,” he said as she reached the edge, she looked in to the hole to see the coffin was open and empty.

“I know,” she sighed and closed her eyes as Max pushed her into the hole; she landed in the coffin with a thump “It’s just... I can’t stand the quiet,” she whispered, a single tear finding its way down her cheek

“I know... I know,” Max smiled sympathetically as he closed the coffin

She lay there silently crying as she heard the dirt hitting the top of the coffin.

“No,” Liz’s voice came out in a breathless whisper as she shot upright clawing at the imaginary coffin that had encased her.

“What is it?” Tom sounded tired and confused as he looked at Liz through weary eyes

“Nothing,” Liz said crawling out from under the covers which felt like they were suffocating her, she stood up and tried to shake the memories of the dream from her head

“You’re sweating like crazy,” concern filling his voice

“Yeah... I have to go out,” she said abruptly

“What? Where?” he sat up trying to understand what she was saying

“I have to go see Isabel,”

“You mean that girl who came here earlier,” he furrowed his brow

“Yeah,”

“I’ll come with you,” he began to get out of bed

“You can stay here,”

“No I think I should come,” he began looking for his shoes

“Tom,” Liz’s voice was firm “I have to do this on my own, she’s my friend and I need to talk to her alone,” he looked at her somewhat hurt by her inability to let him help “I’ll be back later I just need to talk to her,”

“Ok,” the defeat obvious in his voice “just don’t be afraid to ask for my help... even if it means telling me the secret you’ve been carrying with you,” Liz nodded before slipping on her jacket and her shoes and stepping out the door.

“you gotta tell someone,” he whispered to himself as he fell back on the bed staring at the ceiling.

‘This was smart,’ Liz thought ‘just wander around at three in the morning hoping you’ll run into Isabel. I really thought this one through,’ Liz walked across the grass glad for the lampposts that were lighting her way, she looked at the ground for a moment noticing her shoes were wet from the dew suddenly there was a fizzling noise and the lamppost in front of her went dark she looked up to see a shadowy figure with one hand on the street light.

“I’ve been looking for you,” Liz said calmly

“I know,” Isabel said quietly

“What happened... back home?” Liz sat on a bench

“Why do you care?” Isabel almost snarled “You ran away and left us to take care of everything and now you want... what? The abridged version? To put it simply everything sucks.” Isabel glared at Liz as she sat next to her


Tess was critical to our survival. The four of us; Michael, Isabel, Tess, and I...we made a complete unit. We all had different gifts, and with one of us missing, we weren't as strong, and everything fell apart.


‘What were they without their king?’ Liz wondered sadly

“We had everything under control until a few weeks ago, that’s when he showed up,”

“Khivar,” Liz stated closing her eyes

“Yeah he came with some of his skin buddies, tore us up pretty good too” Isabel frowned looking at the ground “We barely beat them back,”

“But he’s not done,” Liz said finishing Isabel’s sentence

“Yeah,” Isabel looked up to the sky as if for guidance “That’s exactly what he said, he said he’d be back, he promised us an army” Isabel looked at Liz

“Maria?” Liz questioned opening her eyes and looking into Isabel’s

“She got really hurt, we all did... but,” Isabel paused “but something was different and worse, we would have taken her to a doctor but whatever happened to her was very clearly alien... it’s like some sort of sickness” Isabel choked out the words, a tear slipped down Liz’s cheek as she heard about someone who had once been her best friend.

“And you think I can help her?” Liz questioned wiping the tear from her face

“We weren’t sure if you got Max’s powers or something,” Isabel stood up “And even if you can’t help her we are in desperate need of reinforcements and we could always use more aliens on our team,” Isabel tried to sound nonchalant

“I’m not an alien,” Liz said quietly

“Yeah... you are,” Liz shook her head as Isabel spoke “Fine. Go bury your head in the sand while we all die. Newsflash Liz, Khivar knows who you are and he’s got skins out looking for you and even if you can hide when he’s done with us do you think he’s just gonna stop? He’s got a fascination for the entire human race. Just... just help us” Isabel said tiredly “We can’t do it alone any more,”

“I know,” Liz said

“I have three plane tickets to Roswell for tomorrow,” Isabel said staring down at Liz

“Three?” Liz asked

“You, me, and your little boyfriend”

“What? No! No, I won’t drag him into this”
”I’m sorry Liz, but he’s not safe here, alone I told you Khivar had skins after you and I meant it. If you leave him here he will die I can guarantee you that,” Isabel said forcefully while Liz just stared at the grass “I’ll meet you at your apartment tomorrow at noon, make sure you’re both packed and ready to go,”

“How are we getting to the airport?”

“Don’t worry...” Isabel smiled “I have a ride”

A/N: This chapter is sort of short and it is not my favorite but I promised that I'd post so here it is!

She Don’t Use Jelly

Liz entered the room to see Tom sitting up in bed reading a book

“What happened?” He searched her face looking for some reaction

“Nothing,” she said quietly “Hey, I’ve got a great idea!” She feigned excitement as she looked for her suitcase

“What?” he smiled caught off guard by her sudden change in mood

“Why don’t we go to Roswell?” she said breathlessly as she found the suitcase under her bed and pulled it out and put in on top of the bed.

“Really?” he had always been interested in Roswell and the idea of aliens

“Yeah, you know visit some old friends I can give you the tour and teach you all about alien conspiracies, you can see where I grew up it will be fun” she unzipped the bag and began reaching for her clothes.

“You know if you want to visit your sick friend I wouldn’t be hurt if you didn’t want me coming along,”

“Don’t be stupid I want you to see Roswell you’re always watching those stupid alien movies,”

“I’d like to meet some of your old friends too,” he stated cautiously

“That would be good,” she shoved her things into the bag

“When would we go?” he got up from the bed

“Noon,” she said quickly

“Oh, I didn’t know it was going to be so soon”

“Oh come on you’re not doing anything,” Liz joked

“Sure!” he exclaimed “Roswell here we come,”

Liz looked at her watch as Tom finished his packing

“So who is driving?” Tom asked as he zipped up his bag

“Actually I’m not sure,” Liz said as someone knocked on the door, Liz walked over, opened the door and was immediately met by a memorable face.

“Kyle!” Liz smiled

“Liz, haven’t seen you in ages!” He smiled and hugged her

“God, I’ve missed you” Liz said unable to suppress a giggle, overwhelmed by memories of his ridiculousness.

“Who wouldn’t?” he mocked as Isabel stepped past him and into the apartment

“You guys ready?” Isabel asked looking at Tom

“Yeah, just about” Liz smiled happy to know that she could remember the good memories too

“Uh, Tom this is Kyle” Liz motioned at Kyle

“Nice to meet you man,” Kyle shook Tom’s outstretched hand

“You too,” Tom smiled as he lifted his and Liz’s bag “Did you call Michelle?” he asked

“Yeah, everything is taken care of,”

“Then lets hit the road,” Isabel announced as she and the others stepped out of the room.

They stepped out of the building and into the parking lot where Kyle pointed out a beat up black Camry,

“Nice,” Liz stated sarcastically

“Hey, it’s a rental!” Kyle smiled as he opened the trunk so Tom could put their bags in it, before they all climbed in and drove away.

“That was fun,” Tom groaned mockingly as they stepped off of the plane, he cracked his neck in the hopes that he could shake the aches that came with flying.

“So I guess you guys can drop your stuff at the Crashdown and then...” Isabel trailed off

“What’s the Crashdown?” Tom asked as they made their way towards baggage claim

“Liz didn’t tell you?” Kyle asked as he reached for Liz’s suitcase, Tom shook his head and then looked to Liz

“It’s the alien themed restaurant my parents own,” Liz stated plainly

“Alien themed?” He raised his eyebrows

“Yeah it’s just a gimmick they used to bring in tourists,” she shrugged as Tom picked up his own suitcase and they headed for the parking lot

“Cool,” Tom smiled surprised to see a whole new side to Liz

They walked through the large parking lot until they reached a familiar vehicle, Liz almost gasped when she saw the Jeep, and Isabel saw her reaction

“I couldn’t bring myself to get rid of it,” Isabel said sadly as Tom and Kyle placed the luggage in the back, Liz ran her hand along the Jeep as she stepped inside.

“We were going to meet Tess at the Crashdown and figure it out from there,” Kyle spoke breaking the trance

“Tess,” Liz almost laughed “Is she still living with you guys?” Liz asked Kyle

“No, me and her share an apartment near the community college, we’re both taking classes there and there wasn’t enough room back home so it made sense,” he explained as he climbed into the passenger seat next to Isabel, she started the car and they drove towards town.

A/N: I am so sorry, something went all wonky and I didn't see that people had been giving more feedback to my story (I also didn't see that other people's stories were being updated) so now as a gift to you from me I will probably post another chapter later in the week. I also want to thank everyone for reading and giving feedback, you guys rock for sticking with me even though I keep promising Max and then not delivering (he will come back soon!) Sorry for the long authors note I know you guys don't care so here is the next chapter!

Wild Horses

They reached the Crashdown; Tess was sitting outside reading something she looked up smiling as they approached. Isabel parked the car and everyone stepped out Liz looked over to the UFO center which didn’t seem to have changed at all.

“Hey Liz,” Tess said awkwardly as they all stood outside of Crashdown

“Hi,” Liz said before leaning in to a peculiar hug “This is my boyfriend, Tom” Liz cringed at the words

“Oh,” Tess raised her eyebrows “Nice to meet you Tom,” Tom nodded at her before they all stepped into the diner “I told your parents I hope that’s ok,” Tess said cautiously

“Yeah, thanks” Liz smiled as her father stepped out from the back room

“Lizzie!” he exclaimed as he rushed to her and hugged her tightly and just as he let go her mother tackled her in another hug,

“Hey,” she smiled as she returned the hug

“God we haven’t seen you since you left that summer before school!” her mother exclaimed looking for a difference in Liz’s appearance. “Your hair is so long,” she smiled pulling on Liz’s hair a little.

“This is ... Tom,” Liz said trying to avoid the ‘b’ word

“Nice to meet you Tom,” Jeff Parker said firmly, grabbing Tom’s hand and shaking it roughly

“What were you guys going to do today?” Nancy Parker asked forcefully

“Uh... I’m not sure,” Liz started

“Well we can have dinner tonight and talk,” Nancy exclaimed “You guys should bring your things upstairs,” Mrs. Parker motioned towards the stairs, the group walked into the backroom and up the stairs leaving Mr. and Mrs. Parker downstairs

“Geez Liz,” Kyle said loudly

“I call all the time, the way they acted you’d think I ran off to be a crack whore or something” Liz shrugged as they entered her room

“This place is so cool, you really grew up here?” Tom asked putting the bags down

“Yup, this was my room” she smiled as she looked around at all the memories that the room held.

“Michael is with Maria, they’re at her place” Tess said sadly

“You don’t have to go now though if you don’t want to,” Isabel said softly

“No. I want to go see her,” Liz said slowly

“I don’t have to come if you want some time alone,” Tom said carefully

“Thanks Tom,” Liz hugged him tightly before pulling away “Kyle can show you around Roswell,”

‘Maria,’ Liz thought her name almost bringing tears to her eyes ‘I’m coming Maria,’ she promised silently before following the others out her room.

As they entered Maria’s house Liz almost flinched as memories flooded her mind, happy memories and the more recent and unpleasant ones. She could remember thousands of times when she had barged in through the front door laughing and she could remember a couple of Czech related meetings, a painful smile spread slightly across her face as she remembered all the good times and a tear almost spilled across her face as she thought of all the hard times and heartbreak that she could recall so vividly. She wondered if Sean was still staying there and shivered as she remembered all the confusion and sadness that had brought on their bewildering relationship. Michael was leaning against the counter in the kitchen at the end of the hallway his head rested against the palm of his hand; he looked up when they entered the room. Liz looked at him and for the first time Michael was an open book, he hadn’t wiped away the tears when they walked in and his hair was messy. A small smile crossed her face when she remembered how much work he put into his hair, he seemed so tough but he was so worried about what people thought of him.

“Michael,” Liz breathed out as if she had been holding it in since they left the Crashdown

“It’s been a while,” he looked relieved to see her

“Too long,” she stepped forward and hugged him, her small figure supporting the much larger Michael as he fell into the hug. It felt strange hugging Michael, despite their friendship they had never been this close physically or emotionally.

“She was sleeping last time I checked but I think she’d want to see you,” The hope on his face was so great that she had to look away.

‘He thinks I can heal her,’ she thought and a deep fear gripped her as the realization hit her, everything was riding on her Maria’s life was in her hands and Liz had never been more terrified in her life. Michael stepped forward and opened the door before stepping back and giving Liz a reassuring push into Maria’s room. Liz stepped inside the room which was lit by the rays of sunshine streaming through the window; she turned towards the bed as she heard the door close behind her.

“Liz,” Maria’s voice sounded exactly as she remembered it a little groggy but she was still Maria, she had expected her to sound sick but she sounded fine and a new burst of confidence fluttered through Liz’s body as she turned to see her friend smiling brightly at her.

“Maria,” Liz almost cried “Maria I’m so sorry I never should have left,” Liz burst out as if she had been waiting to say it forever.

“Come here,” Maria motioned to her friend who now had tears streaming down her face, Liz sat down on the edge of the bed and Maria pulled her into a long awaited hug. “It’s okay,” Maria hushed Liz “Everything’s okay,”

“No it’s not,” Liz pulled back and looked at Maria “You’re not okay...” Liz struggled to find the words

“Oh, thanks!” Maria laughed

“No, I mean... you know what I mean” Liz giggled a little

“Yes I know, I’m dying” Maria said quietly

“What happened?” Liz shuddered at her friends words

“Khivar is here; somewhere in town” Maria started “He came a couple of weeks ago. We had it under control but he had some kind of disease some version of biological warfare it only works on humans...” she stopped for a moment swallowing hard “I got infected and now it looks like this is it for me,”

“Unless...” Liz started “Unless I can help you,” conviction in her words

“Liz...” Maria said worried that if Liz couldn’t heal her she wouldn’t be able to forgive herself

“No, Maria I might be able to help you and then...” Liz trailed off not knowing what to say

“And then everything could be like it used to?” Maria asked

“Yeah,” Liz said hesitantly

“Liz lets just talk for a little,” Maria lifted Liz’s downcast chin with her finger and looked her in the eyes “I’ve missed you...” Maria said sadly

“I’ve missed you everyday since I left, I wish I hadn’t...” Liz paused “But I didn’t know what to do, I didn’t know how to live my life anymore I thought if I could live someone else’s then maybe it would be easier,” Liz remembered the summer after she left and how she just drove across country in the hopes of finding peace.

“But?” Maria asked feeling Liz’s doubt

“But no matter where I was or how much I lied I was still me,” Liz choked back the tears as she thought about how she just left Maria in Roswell. “God I’ve missed you so much!” Liz wept

“I know, I’m great” Maria joked trying to lighten the mood “I’ve been spinning around in the alien abyss by myself for a while, what’s life been like for you?”

“I just finished my freshmen year at Amherst college, my roommate Michelle is nice I think you would like her” Liz said trying to calm herself down “But I couldn’t stop thinking about Roswell, I couldn’t forget about what I did” Liz paused never turning from her friend

“I miss them too,” Maria spoke of their deceased friends

“I’ve had the same nightmare every night since I left” Liz’s voice became quiet

“What about your powers?”

“I ignore them when I can,” she laughed a little at the stupidity of her statement “But they never go away, I try to keep my emotions in check so I don’t just explode things when I’m pissed” she let herself smile when she saw her Maria’s smirk “I can’t do anything great...” Liz paused for a moment remembering why she had come back to Roswell

“Liz,” Maria started realizing what was going through Liz’s head “I don’t want you to hate yourself for something you have no control over,”

“But I have to try Maria,” Liz smiled slightly “I just found you I can’t lose you again,”

Maria nodded weakly giving her friend a reassuring smile, Liz reached over and put her hand over Maria’s heart focusing all her energy she stared into Maria’s eyes trying to remember everything that Max had done. The air in the room became thick with electricity and Liz’s skin illuminated with electrical energy, suddenly the lights in the room exploded but Liz and Maria couldn’t hear the glass bursting and falling to the floor all of a sudden they were both bombarded with images of their past, images of sleepovers and parties, of school and work, as the flashes faded tears were streaming down both of their faces. Michael came bursting in to see the girls holding each other tightly.

“I’m sorry,” Liz said through her sobs as Maria stroked her hair “I’m so sorry”