Posted: Mon Nov 08, 2004 10:34 am
AN: Hey all, here’s the next part.
Lyrics for Freakish belong to Saves The Day.
Enjoy…
Previously
"What do you think?" asked Max.
"Like what I think matters", he replied. Max had ignored everything he had lectured him about concerning his growing relationship with Maria over the years. Of course now finally meeting her, he could safely say he had been wrong, but he wanted to make Max squirm a little.
"Zan."
"She's a'ight," he feigned a begrudged acceptance.
"She's more than that."
Don't I know it, it agreed wholeheartedly.
She possessed an innocence and a life shaped by experience all at once. Her smile, laughter and energy was contagious but as he had watched her throughout the evening especially through her interaction with Robin, Zan had noticed that behind her eyes lay a haunted past that he only caught glimpses of. A past that Max had full access to.
Maria was definitely more the "a'ight", she made him want to let his guard down immediately and tell her everything about himself. He had never met anyone like that before.
Too bad Max had met her first.
****
Part 7
****
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Maria closed the door behind her signifying the end of a long day. She had made a trip to her campus to familiarise herself with her new surroundings and also had explored the city on her own. Even though Max had taken her on a tour, she had wanted to do it alone - she liked doing things alone; as an only child it was something she was used to. It was natural to her.
All throughout the day, as she explored, she had felt as if she was being watched. But every time she tried to find the eyes that she knew were watching her, she found nothing but nameless faces, never the eyes. She had long abandoned the notion that she was being paranoid. She had felt the same eyes watching her sporadically ever since she was 16. It just surprised that whoever or whatever was watching her had followed her all the way to NYC.
The sound of the soft guitar strings drew her out of her thoughts. It was a sound that when she heard it, always brought a nostalgic smile to her face. Whoever was playing was pretty good, she noted as she followed the sound.
As I'm talking my words slip to the floor
and they crawl through your legs and slide under the back door
rendering me freakish and dazed.
It was now accompanied by a husky male voice - the melodious blend of guitar and voice gave her goosebumps.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
She raised her eyebrows in surprise to find out that the voice and guitar skills belonged to Zan. He sat with his back to her on the chair next to the piano. Max had mentioned that he could play, but she no idea that he was goose-bump good.
So I'll go walking through the streets until my heels bleed
and I'll sing out my song in case the birds wish to sing along
Not wanting to disturb him, she quietly sat cross-legged on the floor and listened.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
“Nice,” she said when the last notes died down. She smiled in amusement as his head snapped in her direction.
“I didn’t hear you come in,” he said in what he hoped was a natural relaxed tone. He’d had the house to himself so he had ventured out with his guitar to play the song inspired by Maria. The lyrics had plagued him, the sound had haunted him in what little time he had known her. There was something about her that captured his imagination and, if he dared to delve into it, his soul.
“You were pretty busy,” she said getting up from her position on the floor.
“I don’t want to hear it,” he told her curtly. She didn’t know that the song was about her, but he knew it was and that she’d heard it. He didn’t want to hear what she thought about it.
“Hear what?” she asked innocently.
“Whatever sarcastic comment you have lined up,” he replied tonelessly.
“I’m too tired for that, maybe later,” she responded lightly following him to the sofas. She got a kick out of annoying him and she could tell that she was well on her way.
“How did baby-sitting go?”, he asked.
“I didn’t know you cared,” she replied surprised. Zan did not strike her as a person who wanted to know about her life willingly.
“Just making conversation,” he said heading into the kitchen. “I’m fixin a sandwich you want one?”.
Maria was grateful that she was sitting down. Zan had of his own accord, willingly, offered to make her something?
Maybe he and Max had had words, she reasoned.
“I’m good,” she replied. “I’ll do with a cool glass of H2O thanks. What’s with the niceness all of a sudden?.”
“Just trying to be sociable,” he replied.
His honest tone brushed away her scepticism. He was trying. She should do the same.
“Sorry,“ she apologised. “You’re welcome to try again.”
“So…baby-sitting,” he offered.
“It went great,” she replied brightly.
“Yeah?.”
“Weirdly great. Robin, did anything I wanted her to.”
“That’s weird, she’s a handful.”
“I know,” she agreed. But Robin had been a complete and Maria had known exactly what she had wanted when she cried or fidgeted. In between the babysitting, she had also managed to council Summer on her relationship with Dan. Coming back home, she had felt somehow drained of energy, of emotion. Maria realised that tonight, she had crossed the beyond the realm of normal because there was being empathic and then there was her. She had begun to connect with people on a different level, even people on the streets, and had no idea how to explain it.
She had always known that she was slightly different, but had attributed it to the unconscious effects of her mother’s I-was-abducted-when-I-was-pregnant-with-you stories, but after being in Paris, she was more aware of it and whatever it was, was growing in strength.
It wasn’t bad, she knew that. It was just a little scary and a lot different. Nothing she couldn’t handle.
Zan brought her drink and sat on the couch opposite her. A silence descended as she drank her water and he ate a tabasco drenched sandwich. She felt him watching her, he was probably glaring or whatever the heck he did, but when she met his gaze, he looked away. She was had had a long day and was in no mood to feel awkward and uneasy so she decided to fill the silence.
“So what are you doing at home, even Max is out,” she told him.
She loved Max, she really did, but he wasn’t a party animal or stay-out-into the-early-hours-of-the-morning kind of guy. It was 11:30pm and he was out while Zan, the party brother, was indoors.
“I was enjoying the peace and quiet, playing my guitar till you came along,” he replied.
His tone irked her, but she let it go. She was going to try and be nice.
“You can still play, just pretend I’m not here. Besides, you play at that club, Behind The Music, so no need to be shy around me.”
He fixed her with a hostile stare. “I’m not.”
She was fast reaching her limit. She clenched her jaw to hold herself back.
Usually she got get along with any kind of person, but there was something about Zan that grated on her.
“Then play,” she challenged locking eyes with him.
When all she did was concentrate on his eyes, she was shocked to discover that she saw Max. Of course they were identical twins so he did look like Max, but there was something in his eyes, if you looked hard enough that carried a certain something that she had only seen in Max and it was-
“Julia’s coming around in a bit,” he said suddenly breaking their lock, “we’re going out.”
He got up to leave. “I better go get ready.”
He didn’t follow through with his plans to leave though. Instead, he just stared down at her.
Again, he it was aggravating.
Maria got up. “I’m gonna go…away.”
She turned, made her way over to the stairs and into her room.
He was such an ass!
****
"Your brother is a total ass! Have I mentioned that?".
"Only a few times since we've been catching up," replied Max.
He had come in late after spending the evening out with Liz, Rath and Courtney to find Maria watching t.v. She had planned on an early night but had had a nightmare.
She never told him what it was about, but he assumed it was about the baby. It saddened him to think she after all this time, the nightmares had started again. That was one thing she didn’t need when her life was finally becoming better, he wished he could make them go away, but he couldn’t. So he did the only thing he could to help. He stayed with her, as he always did and with his tired eyes closed, they talked in the soft-light.
"Well he is,” she told him.
Max nodded knowingly. Despite the busy goings on, he had noticed the way Zan reacted when he talked about Maria, or when he was around her. No girl had ever managed to get his brother so worked up. He had also noticed the way Maria constantly complained about him so passionately and Rath's take on the situation, which he had freely given him that evening.
“Zan wants in her pants in a bad way. She don’t wanna know plus she’s off limits because she’s your girl,” he’d summarised,” which means I’m gonna have a good time watching this play out, Duke.”
While he had agreed that Maria didn’t want to be involved with Zan, he did think that she had feelings for him.
" 'Ria, do you like my brother?“ he asked.
"Like him how?,” she asked slowly.
Max cracked one eye open to see her reaction. "Do you like him, like him?" he teased.
Maria sat up, her eyes as wide as saucer. "No you don't!”, she exclaimed.
Max chuckled. At least she wasn’t thinking about her nightmares anymore.
“You're not thinking that- Zan is the kind of guy who I would fall for as you probably remember. But do you also remember where that left me?”.
He nodded at the memories. Maria liked the bad boys but boys funnily enough, were bad for her.
“He's not too awful,“ she continued, “but he's not for me."
"Just throwing it out there.”
"Now you know,” she told him.
He was somewhat relieved at her answer because as much as he loved his brother, Zan wasn't interested in the kind of relationship Maria deserved.
"Wanna hit bed?" she asked.
Max held out his hand to her and she took it. Everything between them always felt natural, always felt right.
That was something Zan could never give her, he told himself. Maria deserved everything he gave her and more.
He kissed her softly on her forehead. "Let's go."
****
Lyrics for Freakish belong to Saves The Day.
Enjoy…
Previously
"What do you think?" asked Max.
"Like what I think matters", he replied. Max had ignored everything he had lectured him about concerning his growing relationship with Maria over the years. Of course now finally meeting her, he could safely say he had been wrong, but he wanted to make Max squirm a little.
"Zan."
"She's a'ight," he feigned a begrudged acceptance.
"She's more than that."
Don't I know it, it agreed wholeheartedly.
She possessed an innocence and a life shaped by experience all at once. Her smile, laughter and energy was contagious but as he had watched her throughout the evening especially through her interaction with Robin, Zan had noticed that behind her eyes lay a haunted past that he only caught glimpses of. A past that Max had full access to.
Maria was definitely more the "a'ight", she made him want to let his guard down immediately and tell her everything about himself. He had never met anyone like that before.
Too bad Max had met her first.
****
Part 7
****
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Maria closed the door behind her signifying the end of a long day. She had made a trip to her campus to familiarise herself with her new surroundings and also had explored the city on her own. Even though Max had taken her on a tour, she had wanted to do it alone - she liked doing things alone; as an only child it was something she was used to. It was natural to her.
All throughout the day, as she explored, she had felt as if she was being watched. But every time she tried to find the eyes that she knew were watching her, she found nothing but nameless faces, never the eyes. She had long abandoned the notion that she was being paranoid. She had felt the same eyes watching her sporadically ever since she was 16. It just surprised that whoever or whatever was watching her had followed her all the way to NYC.
The sound of the soft guitar strings drew her out of her thoughts. It was a sound that when she heard it, always brought a nostalgic smile to her face. Whoever was playing was pretty good, she noted as she followed the sound.
As I'm talking my words slip to the floor
and they crawl through your legs and slide under the back door
rendering me freakish and dazed.
It was now accompanied by a husky male voice - the melodious blend of guitar and voice gave her goosebumps.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
She raised her eyebrows in surprise to find out that the voice and guitar skills belonged to Zan. He sat with his back to her on the chair next to the piano. Max had mentioned that he could play, but she no idea that he was goose-bump good.
So I'll go walking through the streets until my heels bleed
and I'll sing out my song in case the birds wish to sing along
Not wanting to disturb him, she quietly sat cross-legged on the floor and listened.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
“Nice,” she said when the last notes died down. She smiled in amusement as his head snapped in her direction.
“I didn’t hear you come in,” he said in what he hoped was a natural relaxed tone. He’d had the house to himself so he had ventured out with his guitar to play the song inspired by Maria. The lyrics had plagued him, the sound had haunted him in what little time he had known her. There was something about her that captured his imagination and, if he dared to delve into it, his soul.
“You were pretty busy,” she said getting up from her position on the floor.
“I don’t want to hear it,” he told her curtly. She didn’t know that the song was about her, but he knew it was and that she’d heard it. He didn’t want to hear what she thought about it.
“Hear what?” she asked innocently.
“Whatever sarcastic comment you have lined up,” he replied tonelessly.
“I’m too tired for that, maybe later,” she responded lightly following him to the sofas. She got a kick out of annoying him and she could tell that she was well on her way.
“How did baby-sitting go?”, he asked.
“I didn’t know you cared,” she replied surprised. Zan did not strike her as a person who wanted to know about her life willingly.
“Just making conversation,” he said heading into the kitchen. “I’m fixin a sandwich you want one?”.
Maria was grateful that she was sitting down. Zan had of his own accord, willingly, offered to make her something?
Maybe he and Max had had words, she reasoned.
“I’m good,” she replied. “I’ll do with a cool glass of H2O thanks. What’s with the niceness all of a sudden?.”
“Just trying to be sociable,” he replied.
His honest tone brushed away her scepticism. He was trying. She should do the same.
“Sorry,“ she apologised. “You’re welcome to try again.”
“So…baby-sitting,” he offered.
“It went great,” she replied brightly.
“Yeah?.”
“Weirdly great. Robin, did anything I wanted her to.”
“That’s weird, she’s a handful.”
“I know,” she agreed. But Robin had been a complete and Maria had known exactly what she had wanted when she cried or fidgeted. In between the babysitting, she had also managed to council Summer on her relationship with Dan. Coming back home, she had felt somehow drained of energy, of emotion. Maria realised that tonight, she had crossed the beyond the realm of normal because there was being empathic and then there was her. She had begun to connect with people on a different level, even people on the streets, and had no idea how to explain it.
She had always known that she was slightly different, but had attributed it to the unconscious effects of her mother’s I-was-abducted-when-I-was-pregnant-with-you stories, but after being in Paris, she was more aware of it and whatever it was, was growing in strength.
It wasn’t bad, she knew that. It was just a little scary and a lot different. Nothing she couldn’t handle.
Zan brought her drink and sat on the couch opposite her. A silence descended as she drank her water and he ate a tabasco drenched sandwich. She felt him watching her, he was probably glaring or whatever the heck he did, but when she met his gaze, he looked away. She was had had a long day and was in no mood to feel awkward and uneasy so she decided to fill the silence.
“So what are you doing at home, even Max is out,” she told him.
She loved Max, she really did, but he wasn’t a party animal or stay-out-into the-early-hours-of-the-morning kind of guy. It was 11:30pm and he was out while Zan, the party brother, was indoors.
“I was enjoying the peace and quiet, playing my guitar till you came along,” he replied.
His tone irked her, but she let it go. She was going to try and be nice.
“You can still play, just pretend I’m not here. Besides, you play at that club, Behind The Music, so no need to be shy around me.”
He fixed her with a hostile stare. “I’m not.”
She was fast reaching her limit. She clenched her jaw to hold herself back.
Usually she got get along with any kind of person, but there was something about Zan that grated on her.
“Then play,” she challenged locking eyes with him.
When all she did was concentrate on his eyes, she was shocked to discover that she saw Max. Of course they were identical twins so he did look like Max, but there was something in his eyes, if you looked hard enough that carried a certain something that she had only seen in Max and it was-
“Julia’s coming around in a bit,” he said suddenly breaking their lock, “we’re going out.”
He got up to leave. “I better go get ready.”
He didn’t follow through with his plans to leave though. Instead, he just stared down at her.
Again, he it was aggravating.
Maria got up. “I’m gonna go…away.”
She turned, made her way over to the stairs and into her room.
He was such an ass!
****
"Your brother is a total ass! Have I mentioned that?".
"Only a few times since we've been catching up," replied Max.
He had come in late after spending the evening out with Liz, Rath and Courtney to find Maria watching t.v. She had planned on an early night but had had a nightmare.
She never told him what it was about, but he assumed it was about the baby. It saddened him to think she after all this time, the nightmares had started again. That was one thing she didn’t need when her life was finally becoming better, he wished he could make them go away, but he couldn’t. So he did the only thing he could to help. He stayed with her, as he always did and with his tired eyes closed, they talked in the soft-light.
"Well he is,” she told him.
Max nodded knowingly. Despite the busy goings on, he had noticed the way Zan reacted when he talked about Maria, or when he was around her. No girl had ever managed to get his brother so worked up. He had also noticed the way Maria constantly complained about him so passionately and Rath's take on the situation, which he had freely given him that evening.
“Zan wants in her pants in a bad way. She don’t wanna know plus she’s off limits because she’s your girl,” he’d summarised,” which means I’m gonna have a good time watching this play out, Duke.”
While he had agreed that Maria didn’t want to be involved with Zan, he did think that she had feelings for him.
" 'Ria, do you like my brother?“ he asked.
"Like him how?,” she asked slowly.
Max cracked one eye open to see her reaction. "Do you like him, like him?" he teased.
Maria sat up, her eyes as wide as saucer. "No you don't!”, she exclaimed.
Max chuckled. At least she wasn’t thinking about her nightmares anymore.
“You're not thinking that- Zan is the kind of guy who I would fall for as you probably remember. But do you also remember where that left me?”.
He nodded at the memories. Maria liked the bad boys but boys funnily enough, were bad for her.
“He's not too awful,“ she continued, “but he's not for me."
"Just throwing it out there.”
"Now you know,” she told him.
He was somewhat relieved at her answer because as much as he loved his brother, Zan wasn't interested in the kind of relationship Maria deserved.
"Wanna hit bed?" she asked.
Max held out his hand to her and she took it. Everything between them always felt natural, always felt right.
That was something Zan could never give her, he told himself. Maria deserved everything he gave her and more.
He kissed her softly on her forehead. "Let's go."
****