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Part 91

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Krista:
For some reason, I feel like we're on a downward spiral for Maria.
Well, that’s probably because we are. Maria’s whole life is starting to come apart. All her relationships/friendships are changing, and it’s pretty scary for her. That’s why she’s been lying this whole time, because if she starts to tell to the truth, everything’s going to give way beneath her.
Vael:
arghhh you make me want to pull hair April it's like one small step, a giant leap back
I know! But it’s been this way throughout the entire fic. I can’t stop taking giant leaps back now. ;)
Christina:
It's starting to get painful seeing Michael and Maria together now, because these emotions are getting in the way and Michael is denying them; while Maria is just drowning in them.
I couldn’t have said it any better myself. You’re exactly right. And denying and drowning are both neither fun nor healthy.
Sara:
I am glad Isabel spoke up about not interfering. I think its the right decision. As long as Michael and maria are with Liz and Max they shouldn't be doing anything with each other.
I agree. It doesn’t matter whether you like Michael and Maria or dislike Michael and Maria, whether you like Liz and Max or dislike Liz and Max. The fact of the matter is that cheating is clearly wrong.
nibbles:
It's so great to see Michael, finally beginning to leave his little bubble of blissful ignorance and enter the world of confusion and doubt and guilt.
Oh, yeah. He’s gonna spending a lot of time outside that bubble now. A lot of time.
Alien_Friend:
I'm worried it's going to take those two 20 more chapters before they make any more progress and stop this awkward hey thing they have going on.
Well, things between Michael and Maria are definitely going to be strained for awhile, but I’m pretty sure there’s a part next week that’s going to break through the ‘hey’ barrier.
mrs_guerin:
I totally agree, didn't think i want to see Maria drunk again, but this was perfect, she did get to say some things to get Michael thinking.
Well, there you go. There’s a way to look at the glass half full instead of half empty, I guess. Drunk Maria doesn’t beat around the bush, does she? :lol: Still, she has a history of unhealthy drinking, so she probably shouldn’t have even had a sip.
Ashley:
And Someone should just tell them that they should be together I'm getting frustrated
Getting frustrated? :lol: You mean you weren’t frustrated before this? Lol
tequathisy:
I loved when Max mistook snails for sharks. And nobody reacted. Hilarious.
:lol: I’m glad you liked that. I thought it was kind of funny, too. That’s the life of a teacher/tutor I guess. You try to make people smarter, and they just stare at you with dumb looks on their faces, lol.
spacegirl23:
Michael, stop saying the wrong things! Gosh!
He’s a piece of work, isn’t he? Up until now, Michael arguably hadn’t made many mistakes. He’d been a dumb-ass, of course, hadn’t made the smartest choices in the world, but he hadn’t been lying to people and he hadn’t done anything to truly upset Maria. Now . . . like I said, he’s a piece of work.




Thanks for the feedback! It’s as appreciated as ever! You guys are great! :mrgreen:




Okay, so I just found out that I don’t have class on Friday . . . again! This is awesome! I’m thrilled. Anyway, I’m going to do like I did last week and post ANOTHER UPDATE TOMORROW and then the update following that will be on Monday. You know how we do things on the Passion thread. :lol: Okay, I’m such a dork right now, I should just go ahead and post the new part.









Part 91









Max woke up at 11:15 that morning. So unusual for him. He made it a point never to wake up later than 9:00, but now that he didn’t have class, laziness was starting to kick in. And the way he saw it . . . hell, he’d earned it. He’d earned the right to be lazy and was planning on enjoying it while it lasted. Because knowing him, it wouldn’t last long.

He trudged out into the kitchen, yawning. It was almost comical that, even though he’d gotten more sleep than he usually did, he felt more tired.

“Late night?” Kyle asked. He was eating breakfast at the counter and simultaneously reading both a textbook and a Playboy magazine. Well, he probably wasn’t reading the Playboy magazine, but . . .

“Yeah,” Max replied. “Really late night with Liz.”

Kyle gave him a questioning look.

Max made a face, realizing how that statement could easily be misinterpreted. “Oh, no, we were studying. Not . . . that sounded kind of weird.”

“I don’t know,” Kyle said, shoving another spoonful of cereal into his mouth. “When I first met Liz, I could’ve sworn you two would . . . you know, holy matrimony, white picket fences and all that shit.”

Max . . . really didn’t know what to say to that. Him and Liz? They were friends but . . . no, a certain fiery blonde girl had always been the girl for him. He was sure of it. The only person he wanted holy matrimony and white picket fences with was Maria DeLuca.

“Is she still asleep?” he asked.

“Liz?”

“No, Maria.”

“Oh. Yeah, she had a late night last night, too. She was already out by the time I got home.”

“Really?”

“Yep. Late night with Michael.”

Max tensed a little, his mind immediately assuming things he didn’t want to. “What do you mean?”

“They just did a little drinking,” Kyle said, gesturing to the trash can. Max took a look. There were indeed empty bottles thrown in there.

“Actually, Michael said Maria did most of the drinking,” Kyle elaborated. “Go figure.”

“Yeah, that’s weird,” Max agreed. “Why would she do that? She hasn’t drunk since . . .”

Kyle just shrugged slowly and said, “Who knows, man?”

“Huh.” Max glanced down the hallway at the closed door to Maria’s room and caught a glimpse of the clock. “Wait a minute,” he said. “She has a final in forty-five minutes.”

“Whoa,” Kyle said. “That’s badness.”

“I should go wake her up.” He started down the hallway.

“Good luck, man.”

Max slowly pushed open the door to Maria’s bedroom and peered inside. She was lying on her stomach, her left cheek pressed flat against the pillow, her mouth slightly open. She was definitely out of it.

“Maria,” he said softly. “Maria, you awake?” Dumb question, he thought, rolling his eyes at himself. Obviously she wasn’t. “Maria. Maria, it’s about 11:20 now.” He stepped closer to the bed, reached down, and placed his hand on her shoulder, gently shaking her. “Maria, wake up.”

“Mmm,” she groaned, frowning.

“Maria, you have to wake up. You have a final in forty-five minutes.”

“No,” she said, burying her face in her pillow.

“Yes.” He tried shaking her again, but she didn’t move. Oh, this was going to be harder than he thought. Maria wasn’t just tired; she was hung-over.

“Dude, you gotta be more aggressive than that,” Kyle said. He was standing in the doorway now with an empty metal pot and a large spoon in his hands. “Move over. Let me do it.”

Max stood aside and let Kyle come in and start banging the spoon against the pan right by Maria’s ear.

“DeLuca!” Kyle yelled. “Get up!”

“Stop!” She pressed her hands over her ears.

“No! Up and outta bed, Maria, right now!” He pressed his foot against her side and effectively rolled her over onto her back.

Stop!

Kyle ceased banging the pot for a moment, turned to Max, and said, “Alright, desperate times, man. Go get a pot of ice water.”

“What?” Max shrieked. “I’m not dumping ice water on my girlfriend.”

“Fine, then turn on the lights. Do something.”

Max reached over and cringed as he flipped the light switch upward. Sure, there was already sunlight streaming into the room, but that was natural light. It wasn’t blinding like this would be.

“Uh . . .” she groaned, covering her eyes.

Kyle reached over, pressed the power button on her alarm clock, and loud music began to blare.

“Ah!” she yelled, covering her ears again.

“Max, blink the lights,” Kyle commanded.

Max grimaced and turned the light switch on and off in rapid succession. The flickering seemed to annoy Maria more than anything.

“Oh my god!”

Kyle resumed banging the spoon against the pan, and Maria was faced with the task of shielding her eyes and covering her ears all at once. Needless to say, it didn’t work out well. They were forcing her to wake up.

“Guys, stop!”

“No!” Kyle shouted right back at her. “Wake up, DeLuca!”

“Uh . . .”

Max was still blinking the lights when Michael came down the hallway, looking just as tired and disheveled as Maria. “What the hell’s goin’ on in here?” he asked, his eyes only halfway open.

“Maria needs to wake up because she’s got a final today,” Kyle said.

“Get your ass outta bed, DeLuca,” Michael said, trudging back down the hallway.

“Get your ass outta bed!” she shout back. “Okay, guys, stop with the . . . noise and stuff. Stop.”

Max stopped messing with the lights, leaving them on, and Kyle stopped clanking the pot and turned off the overbearingly loud radio alarm. “Alright, you gonna wake up?” he said.

“I can’t,” she said. “I’m hung-over.”

“Maria, I hate to tell you, but you don’t really have a choice,” Max said. “It’s a final. You have to take it. If you get up now, you can make it. I’ll drive you.”

She yawned and said, “Oh, god . . . this sucks.”

“Reason number one a girl like Maria shouldn’t drink,” Kyle said. “The suck factor.”

“Why did you get drunk last night anyway?” Max couldn’t help but ask her. Maria had been doing so well with sobriety ever since her alcohol poisoning incident.

“What?” she said in response. “I don’t know. Can you guys just . . .” She held up her hand and asked, “Can you guys just help me up?”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Oh my god. The short walk from Max’s car to the front entrance of Beckman Hall was agony. Her entire body was weak, so she had to take little, wobbly steps. Her eyelids felt like they weighed ten pounds, so she couldn’t keep them open and ended up colliding with the bike rack. Her head was pounding—absolutely pounding—so hard that she couldn’t even think straight.

“Good luck,” Max called after her.

She pressed her right hand to her forehead and nodded. She was going to need all the luck she could get, because she hadn’t studied and she was hung-over almost worse than she’d ever been hung-over before. Her body had grown unaccustomed to such heavy drinking, and now it was reacting negatively. How was she going to take this all-important test?

Oh my god, oh my god.

She trudged up the steps, tripping over her own feet a couple of times, and pulled on the door with all her might to open it, but her arms felt like wet noodles. She had absolutely no strength at all. Luckily for her, some guy came along and held the door open for her.

“Thanks,” she muttered, noting the scratchiness of her voice. She was definitely not at her most attractive state. In fact, the looks people gave her as she passed by them in the hallway testified to just how unattractive she looked. She was wearing a t-shirt and sweatpants that could easily pass as pajamas. She even had her pajama slippers on! She wasn’t wearing make-up, and her hair was styled—or rather not styled—exactly the way it had been when she’d fallen asleep: a messy side bun that was even messier now that she had slept on it all night. For once, though, she really didn’t care what they thought of her. She just wanted to get her damn test over with.

Her test room was up on the second floor, but she was too tired to walk up the stairs, so she took the elevator with another lazy kid instead. He asked her if she was ready for the final, and she groaned “No,” in response.

She got off the elevator in a daze and accidently walked past her room. She staggered all the way down the hallway before realizing it, then had to turn and walk all the way back. By the time she sat down in the testing room, her professor was already handing out tests.

This was going to be horrible.

Her test booklet landed in front of her with a loud thud. Oh god, she thought, picking it up and testing the feel of it. It was . . . heavy. Or maybe it just felt heavy because she was hung-over. No, it was thick, though. How could a test on the history of dance be so . . . much?

She reached into the pocket of her sweatpants and pulled out the perfectly sharpened pencil Max had made sure to send along with her. She was about to write in her last name on her answer sheet when she realized in a moment of pure horror that . . . she couldn’t see the answer sheet! Or see it well, anyway. It was blurry. Her still semi-drunk eyes couldn’t focus.

Oh, great, she thought, squinting at the answer bubbles. She could see A, B, C, D, and E, but they all kind of blended together. She couldn’t tell where one circle started and another ended. This was just fantastic.

She tried a different tactic then, making her eyes as wide as she possibly could. But that didn’t help, either. She rubbed them, hoping that maybe she just had some sleep in the corners, but . . . nope. No such luck. The fuzzy answer sheet as the result of her binge drinking was . . . well, her own fault.

Dammit, she thought, writing in her name where the letter boxes appeared to be in the top left-hand corner. This sucks so bad.

“You have ninety minutes to complete this final,” her professor—Professor Jackson, whom she’d given a blow job to at the beginning of the semester—said. “Take your time. Double check. Good luck.”

More luck, Maria thought, flipping open her test booklet. Good. That’s the only thing that’s gonna help me.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael went to see Liz that afternoon. He thought he probably should. He hadn’t seen her at all yesterday. He’d talked to her on the phone once, and even that had only been a five minute conversation.

The door to her dorm room was open, and she was pacing back and forth inside, talking on her cell phone. Michael leaned against the doorframe and listened in.

“No, seriously, Max, I think it went really well today. I don’t wanna be too hopeful, but I think I got most of the questions right. Your tutoring helped so much.”

Good old tutor Max, Michael thought. The guy could work miracles. And being that Liz had slacked off more than she’d studied during her months of dating him, it was in fact a miracle.

“Well, I do have another final day after tomorrow,” Liz said, “but I could never ask you to help me with that one, too. I mean . . . no, I’d just feel way too selfish. Besides, it’s history, so . . .” She trailed off, smiled when he said something, and said, “What? No way, you’re kidding. Is there any subject you’re not good at?”

Michael kept listening as Liz giggled, made arrangements with Max to meet for more tutoring that night, and then giggled some more.

“Alright, well, Max, I can’t thank you enough,” she said. “I’ll see you tomorrow night then, okay? Bye.” Laughing and shaking her head, she closed her phone, then noticed Michael and said, “Oh, hey, sweetie.”

He cringed. “Sweetie?”

She made a face, too. “You’re right. That doesn’t suit you.”

“Damn right.” He stepped into the room and shut the door. “So Max is gonna help you with history, huh?”

“Yeah, he is. Gosh, he’s like the Superman of the academic world.”

“Well, just so long as I’m still Superman of the sex world . . .”

“Oh, you are,” Liz assured him, wrapping her arms around his neck. “Not that I have anything to compare to, but . . . it’s common knowledge.”

“That it is,” he agreed. Maybe that was why Maria had said . . . what she’d said last night. Maybe it wasn’t just her desire. It was a universal desire. Yeah, that was reasonable.

But then again, what did reason have to do with him and Maria? Absolutely nothing.

“Missed you yesterday,” she said. “This is a pleasant surprise, though.”

“Yeah. Yeah, I just . . .” He sighed. “I thought we should talk about this whole us moving in together thing.”

“Oh, right. You know what? I told my parents about that.” She smiled.

“You . . . told your parents?”

“Yeah.”

Not good.

“And I thought they might be a little sad or angry, you know, but they were totally fine with it. In fact, they said they think it’s a really good idea for me to get out of the dorms and get some experience renting an apartment. They think it’ll teach responsibility.” She giggled. “Isn’t that great?”

He laughed nervously and said, “Yeah.” If only she knew the whole invitation to get a place with him was just a response to his spontaneous kiss with Maria. She wouldn’t be half as happy about that.

“Plus, they said it’ll be good for us to live together. You know, it’ll grow and strengthen our relationship. And we’ll get a glimpse of our future together, which, if you ask me, looks pretty bright right about now.”

Again, he laughed nervously. Some of those words . . . relationship . . . future . . . wow. Did Liz know how much she was freaking him out by saying that?

“Anyway,” she said, “what were you gonna say?”

I was gonna say we shouldn’t do it, Liz, he thought. We shouldn’t move in together. But hell, now she’d told her parents. She’d gotten them just as excited as she was. If he backed out now, she would be hurt, and she would ask why he had changed his mind. And she would find out about Maria. And then everything would be more fucked up than it already was.

“I was just gonna say that . . . we should go looking for apartments,” he lied smoothly.

“Oh, yeah, for sure. They’re probably filling up fast with all the other student renters. ASAP, don’t you think?”

He nodded. “ASAP.”

“So, today maybe?” she asked hopefully.

“Uh, sure,” he answered.

“Right now?”

“Uh . . .”

“Great!”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

After she finished her History of Dance final, Maria fell asleep outside. Literally outside. On the grass, underneath a tree where everyone could see her. She was to the point now that graduation was near that she didn’t care what people thought about her. If they walked by, pointed, laughed, and whispered about her, she was unaffected; because she was tired, hung-over, and distressed about her final. She was asleep long enough to slip into dream land, and in dream land, she dreamt about fuzzy answer sheets.

It was the sound of her cell phone ringing that woke her up. She groaned, forced her eyes open, and wiped at the drool coming out of the side of her mouth. Oh boy, that’s unattractive, she thought.

“Hello?” she said groggily before checking the Caller ID. She prayed it wasn’t her mother again.

“Hi, Maria, it’s Janet.”

Boss, she registered. Fuck. “Janet, hi.”

“Hi. I was just calling to see if you were on your way. It’s almost 3:15, you said you’d be here by 3:00.”

“I did,” Maria remembered. “Right.”

“And dancers are always five minutes early, as you know, so you’re technically twenty minutes late.”

Some dancers are always five minutes early, Maria thought, yawning.

“Maria, you still there?”

“Yeah,” she replied. “Yeah, I’m-I’m here. It’s just . . . I’m kind of stuck in traffic. There’s a . . . a semi-final soccer tournament going on here at the university, so the streets are just packed.” She looked out at the empty road and hoped Janet wouldn’t check the traffic report online.

“Okay, well, will you be here in the next fifteen minutes, do you think?”

Maria laughed nervously and lied. “Yeah, of course.” This was bad. Very bad. She’d forgotten all about her first day of work on account of being unimaginably drunk the night before. She was hung-over now and, in forty-five minutes, was supposed to teach a hip hop dance to little girls. And she hadn’t made up a dance. Fantastic. It was time to improvise.

“Great, so I’ll see you soon?” Janet asked again for clarification.

“Soon,” Maria agreed, forcing herself to stand up. “But I’ll call and let you know if, uh . . . you know, if the traffic just doesn’t clear out. But I’ll be there.”

“Okay. I hope so.”

“I will be,” Maria assured her again. Had she not gotten drunk last night, she would have done better. It was her own fault.

“Okay, bye, Maria.”

“Bye.” She closed her phone and groaned in frustration. “Shit!” She didn’t even have the car. Kyle was at work. He had it. She seriously needed her own car, but how could she afford one if she didn’t go to work? But how could she go to work if she didn’t have a car? It was an ongoing cycle of badness.

She spotted a guy getting into his car and figured he would be easy to coerce. “Hey!” she shouted, running towards him. “Can I get a ride?”

He grinned and said. “Sure thing, baby. You can ride me anytime.”

She rolled her eyes and opened the passenger’s side door. “Not a sexual ride. A car ride, you little freak.” She tossed herself into the seat, slammed the door, and said, “Charisma Dance Studio. Thanks.”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael and Liz wound up at the Fairview Apartment Complex that afternoon. It was only about ten minutes away from Michael’s house, and it was the first stop on the Guerin-Parker renting tour. Liz was so excited. Michael . . . wasn’t.

The landlord was an attractive woman in her forties, looked just as enthusiastic as Liz. She led them into apartment number 315B and showed them around.

“You’ve got your kitchen, living room, bedroom, bathroom, and spare room. There’s a walk-in closet in the bedroom, and both a shower and a bathtub in the bathroom. As you can see from a first glance, it’s very well-maintained. The previous tenants only left due to job relocation.”

“Oh my god, Michael,” Liz gasped, walking into the living room, a look of amazement on her face. “It’s beautiful. Oh, and look!” She pointed out the window. “It has a fair view!”

The landlord chuckled. “Hence Fairview Apartments. It seems only fitting, don’t you think?”

Liz laughed, too, and squealed with delight. “Oh my god, I love this. It’s so perfect.”

“Furniture is included,” the landlord informed them. “It’s beautiful and a bargain.”

“How much of a bargain?” Michael asked, curious what a place like this was going to cost.

“Rent is five-hundred dollars a month,” the landlord informed him.

He stuffed his hands in his pockets and inhaled sharply, not liking the sound of that.

“Well, that’s not that bad,” Liz said. “Like she said, it’s beautiful. Plus, the furniture . . . and the view. I mean . . . I think it’s worth it.”

Michael made his way towards her, more skeptical. “I don’t know,” he said quietly. “You know, there’s apartments you can rent for three-hundred, even two-hundred bucks a month.

“Yeah, but those apartments aren’t as nice,” she said.

“Well . . . alright, I’m no mathematician, but we’re talkin’ six-thousand dollars a year, right?”

Liz nodded. “Right.”

“Yeah, so . . . are you sure you wanna pay six-thousand dollars a year in rent? I mean, how are we gonna pay that?”

“Kyle paid off your guys’ entire mortgage in four years,” Liz pointed out.

“Because he’s Kyle. He does that. And he has a nice, kinda wealthy dad to help him.”

“Look, it could work,” she insisted. “I can work a full-time job this summer instead of taking classes. And you’ll have a job, too, right?”

He shrugged. “Well, yeah. I mean, I was thinkin’ about doing some directing, but . . . I could work, too, I guess.”

“Well, you could at least have a part-time job,” she said. “And if we get into trouble, my parents could help us out.”

“No, I’m not gonna ask them for help.”

“Okay, so-so we won’t need to ask them for help, ‘cause we’ll be responsible,” she said.

“Hmm . . .” He had his doubts. He wasn’t a responsible person.

“What’s the matter, Michael?” she asked him. “Don’t you like it?”

“Well, yeah, I like it. I mean . . .” He glanced around, noting the overall look of the place. It was so clean and organized. It wasn’t at all like his house, where clothes were scattered on the floor, and dirty dishes were piled in the sink. It just didn’t feel like home. It was missing something. It was missing . . . a certain blonde girl, especially . . .

“I just think we’re kinda jumping the gun,” he told Liz. “We haven’t even looked anywhere else yet. I just don’t think we should settle.”

“Oh, no, this is not settling,” Liz assured him. “Anything other than this would be settling, because now that I’ve seen It, I want it. I want it more than anything, Michael. I’m in love with it. Please?

He sighed, feeling himself giving in. He didn’t want to. He didn’t want to pay five-hundred dollars a month for this place. He didn’t even want to move out of his current house. But here he was, giving in . . .

The landlord cleared her throat and piped up with, “Did I mention that high-speed internet access and cable TV are included in the rent?”

“Ooh,” Liz said, “even more incentive.” She smiled a big, hopeful smile.

Dammit, Michael thought, realizing that Liz was going to get what she wanted. The girl actually had a knack for that, getting what she wanted. Mostly, he was doing this out of guilt, guilt for kissing Maria. Had it not been for that . . .

“Alright, we’ll take it,” he told the landlord.

Liz squealed and practically jumped into his arms in delight. “Oh, thank you, Michael!” she exclaimed. “Thank you so much!” She gave him a big kiss on the cheek.

“Great,” the landlord said. “I’m sure you’ll both love living here. Let me go ahead and draw up the paperwork. I’ll be back in just a minute.”

Paperwork, Michael thought as he watched her walk out the door. Oh, shit, this is really getting official.

“Oh my gosh, how exciting is this?” Liz said, bouncing up and down excitedly. “We have our own place!”

“Well, not yet,” he reminded her. “We still have to sign the paperwork.”

“Well, yeah, but besides that.” She smoothed her hand over the couch cushions and sat down. “Comfy,” she commented. “You know, we should go check out the bedroom, ‘cause, I assume we’re gonna be spending a lot of time there. Right?”

He looked over into the bedroom, at the queen-sized bed, and all he could think about was being in that bed with Maria. Or any bed with Maria. Or, there didn’t even have to be a bed. Just him and Maria and her . . . needing him inside of her. And him obliging.

Oh god.

“Michael?”

“Yeah,” he said. “Yeah, we’ll . . . in the bedroom. Right. Um . . .” He sat down beside Liz on the couch and said gently, “You know, I think maybe we shouldn’t move in here until after the semester ends. ‘Cause, you know, there’s no point paying that five-hundred dollar a month rent any sooner than we have to. Don’t you think?”

“Oh, that’s a good point.”

“Yeah, so . . . plus, your parents pay for your dorm room, right? So . . . after I graduate. After the semester’s over . . . we can move in then.” God, I’m a fuckin’ stuttering moron, he thought. How could Liz not tell that something was up with him? He was stumbling over all his words, acting strange. Like Alex. Unlike himself.

“Sounds like a plan,” Liz said. “That’s not too far away.”

“Right. Oh, and uh . . . can you do me one small favor and maybe not tell Max and Maria about this yet? ‘Cause I’ve already told Kyle, but not them.”

“Sure,” Liz said. “But I doubt they’re gonna mind. I mean, with Kyle moving out and you moving out, that means they’ll now have that house all to themselves. And you just know they’re gonna use it.”

“Huh,” Michael said, the image in his mind suddenly shifting from him and Maria in bed to Max and Maria in bed. He felt a tinge of jealousy, and he wasn’t used to feeling that way. Hell, it was more than a tinge.

Shit.

“They’ll have that house all to themselves,” Liz repeated, “and Kyle and Tess will have their house all to themselves, and Isabel and Alex already have his apartment all to themselves, and you and I will have our fabulous new apartment all to ourselves. Everything’s working out perfectly.”

Oh, yeah, ‘cause I kissed my best friend, and that’s just perfect, he thought to himself.

She draped her arms over his shoulders, smiling, and said, “This was a great idea.” She leaned in and kissed him then, and he kissed her back, because that was what she expected him to do. He was relieved when the landlord walked back in with the papers in her hand, but not so relieved when he signed them.

What the hell am I doing?









TBC . . .

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Part 92

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Here's the update today as I promised!

Thank you to:

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(I know the frustration is at an all-time high, and to be quite honest, it's probably going to stay that way for awhile. But all I'm gonna say is that Monday's update is one of my favorite updates in the whole fic. And you'll have to wait to see why)









Part 92








Michael sat on his bed that evening with his laptop computer in front of him. He was pretty sure his final project for Videography was done now. The Maria DeLuca Movie. He liked it all except the ending. The ending was too abrupt. But how was he supposed to end it? How was he supposed to end something that had no end?

He smiled as he watched a clip of her brushing her teeth. Literally, that was all she was doing. Brushing her teeth, occasionally glaring at him and asking how on earth that was possibly good footage. He just assured her it was.

“Whatcha doin’?”

He looked up and saw Maria standing in the doorway. He paused the movie and minimized it before answering, “Nothing.”

“Working on your movie?” she guessed.

How did she know? “Yeah.”

“How’s that coming?”

“Good. I gotta turn it in tomorrow. I’m just doin’ some finishing touches.”

She nodded silently.

He ran his middle finger over the mouse pad on his computer, wondering what she was doing there. Not that he minded. Not that it was weird. They used to hang out for hours at a time sometimes. Now it was just . . . temptation.

“So I think I fucked up that final,” she said randomly.

“Sucks.” He made a conscious effort to only look at her a little bit, to keep his eyes glued on his computer screen for the most part.

“Michael . . .” She paused for a long-drawn out moment, then came right out and asked him what he knew she wanted to ask him. “What happened last night?”

“Nothing happened,” he replied quickly.

“Really? ‘Cause you’ve been avoiding me the entire day.”

“I haven’t been avoiding you,” he insisted. “You were sleeping and taking and your final and at work. You weren’t around.”

She didn’t back down. “Yeah, well, I’m not an idiot, okay? I know when you’re not yourself, and I have a feeling it has something to do with drunken me. So what did I do?”

“You didn’t do anything.”

“Fine, then what did I say?”

He didn’t answer.

“Come on, Michael. You have to tell me. From the second shot glass on, it’s really fuzzy. I can’t remember.”

If she couldn’t remember, then he felt no need to remind her. He might as well lie, spare her humiliation of letting her know what she’d said to him. “Nothing. You didn’t say anything.” He forced himself to look her right in the eye as he said that, even though it wasn’t the truth.

She stared right at him, the intensity in her eyes almost burning right through him. She was a beautiful girl. Even standing there in her pajamas, no make-up, hair in a pulled back, she was scorching hot.

God, how am I gonna live without this? he thought. He knew he’d never have to live without Maria; she’d always be in his life. But just the thought of moving into that apartment with Liz, not being able to see Maria whenever he wanted to, not hearing her sing in the shower or complain about laundry . . .

She turned her back on him and walked out of the room. He sat back and breathed a sigh, thinking she was going to bed early and that he wouldn’t see her again for the rest of the night. He was about to resume watching his movie when, all of a sudden, she marched back down the hallway, stopped in his doorway, and demanded, “Did I say ‘I want you inside of me?’”

Lie, his stupid male brain told him, but part of him knew that would do more harm than good. “No,” he answered softly. “You said ‘I need you inside of me.’”

“Oh my god.” She craned her neck back and shook her head. “Well, just disregard that, because . . . that’s just a thing I say. When I’m drunk. Or sober, even.”

Disregard that, he thought. Yeah, right. Words like that from a girl like Maria weren’t words you forgot easily. You remembered them and thought about them every second of every day until you had Alzheimer’s and they started to fade. And even then . . . you could still remember.

“It’s not like I actually meant it,” she said.

Well, that was . . . a disappointment. “Good,” he said.

She gave him a strange look in response to that, sort of halfway frowning, halfway confused. “Yeah.”

She doesn’t need or want me inside of her, he thought, forcing himself to stare at his computer screen. And I don’t want it, either. I don’t.

Oh, he wasn’t kidding anyone. That was exactly what he wanted. It always had been. And he wanted it now more than he ever had before because of that insane kiss . . .

For a moment, she just stood there in silence. But before long, her frustration came out when she told him exactly how she felt. “I hate this.”

He looked up from his computer just in time to see her walking down the hallway again. He sort of wanted to stop her, ask her to come back, sit down beside him, and just hang out for awhile, but he couldn’t do that anymore. They had changed things now. Things were different.

He hated it, too.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria sat out on the couch that evening with Max. They didn’t say much to each other. Occasionally, he laughed at one of the jokes Conan O’Brien made on his talk show. She didn’t, not because they weren’t funny, but because she was too lost in a world of her own thought to pay much attention.

During the commercial break, Max looked down at her and asked, “So how was your first day at your new job?”

“Fine,” she replied simply.

“What’d you do?”

“Well, I basically pulled a hip hop dance out of my ass, but . . . luckily I have a nice ass, so . . .”

He chuckled. “That you do. Who were you teaching?”

He took such an interest in her life. She felt bad for often not taking much of an interest in his. “A group of little girls,” she replied. “Probably about ten years old. They’re sweet. I actually like ‘em.”

“Are they future Santa Fe Sun Rays dance teamers?” he asked, smiling.

“Maybe. They can’t be any worse than half the girls on the team now.”

He rubbed her shoulder and asked, “You miss dance team?”

She nodded. “Yeah.” She missed a lot of things about the carefree good old days.

“Yeah?” he echoed. “Do you miss drinking, too? Is that why you, uh . . . drank last night?”

She frowned and sat up slowly, looking him in the face. That was a question she hadn’t expected of him, but maybe she should have.

“I hope you don’t mind me asking,” he went on to say. “It just . . . it seems a little out of character is all.”

“Max. Me not drinking is out of character,” she reminded him. “Remember the first seven and half years you knew me? I was more than a little boozy.”

“Yeah, but . . . you haven’t been lately,” he pointed out.

She sighed heavily, unable to tell him the truth. Michael had been the reason behind her drinking. Michael and that kiss. God, that kiss . . .

“It’s okay,” he immediately assured her. “There’s nothing wrong with it. If you wanna drink, you can drink. You can do anything you want to, Maria. I’m just wondering what motivated it. That’s all.”

She lowered her gaze and lowered her voice right along with it. “A lot of things,” she mumbled.

“Like what?”

She shrugged. “Doesn’t matter.”

“Is it . . .” Max trailed off for a moment, then said, “Oh. It’s . . . I think I know what it is. I know what it was all about.”

“You do?” He knew about Michael? He knew about what had happened? How?

“Fear of the future,” he replied.

She felt relief engulf her. He still didn’t have a clue. She wouldn’t have to hurt him yet.

“It’s natural,” he went on. “We’re gonna graduate soon, and that scares you.”

“Sort of,” she admitted.

“It scares me, too,” he confessed. “I mean, even though I’m going on to graduate school, there’s something daunting about the thought of walking up on that stage and getting that diploma. It’s like we’re closing this whole chapter of our lives.”

“Yeah.”

“But you know what that means? We’re also starting a new one.”

Oh, Max, she thought. Bright and shiny Max. He sounded so full of hope. He was like a motivational speaker. Bright and shiny like a motivational speaker.

“Everything will work out as long as we have each other,” he promised. “And we’ll always have each other, Maria.”

She sincerely hoped so. Max was still and always would be one of her dearest, closest friends. She would never forgive herself for using him so horribly, but hopefully he would.

For one brief moment, she contemplated telling him everything. Everything. It was a very brief moment, one that passed in a split-second. “Max--”

“Come here.” He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her into a hug. She hugged him back, feeling his warmth. He really loved her. For whatever reason, he really did.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael crossed paths with Alex at their Videography professor’s office the next day. They, along with the majority of their fellow students, were dropping off their final project movies for viewing and grading.

“Man, what a relief,” Alex said as they walked outside, backpack-free. (It was nice no longer having to haul one of those around.)

“What?” Michael asked.

“We’re done with the class. I’m basically done with college now. No more finals, no more final projects. I’m home-free.”

“Lucky you,” Michael said. “I got a Spanish final tomorrow.”

“You’re in Spanish, man? I’ve never seen you study it. I’ve never seen you study anything, now that I come to think of it.”

“That’s ‘cause I don’t,” Michael said with a shrug. “It works. Hey, did you get your graduation gown?” He winced. “Gown.” That word was much too feminine for his taste.

“Yeah, I got it,” Alex replied. “I’m swimmin’ in it, though. I swear, they make ‘em for Hulk people.”

“You should see Maria’s,” Michael said, smiling as he remembered the way she looked in it. She had to be the only girl in the world who could pull off the color. “She was freakin’ out ‘cause it’s ‘blue-screen blue.’”

“Blue-screen blue?” Alex echoed. “Oh, man, that’s horrible.”

“Yeah,” Michael agreed. “I wouldn’t be surprised if she just refuses to wear it.”

Alex chuckled. “I could picture that. Hey, uh, speaking of a certain DeLuca woman . . . did you still end up making The Maria DeLuca Movie? I assume you did.”

“Yeah, I even called it that.”

“Ooh, original.”

“I actually think it’s pretty good,” Michael admitted. “What about you. What did you make?”

Alex dodged a biker as it almost ran him over and replied, “Well . . . something that sucked.”

“Weren’t you doin’ some scripted movie? Tess and Kyle and Isabel were your actors?”

“Yeah, needless to say, that got shot to hell. I ended up making a nature movie.”

Michael held in laughter at the thought. “A nature movie?”

Alex nodded. “Mmm-hmm. It was basically one of those things, you know . . . look, a bird. A tree. Grass. Ooh, another tree.”

“Scintillating,” Michael joked.

“Honestly, I didn’t really give a damn about it,” Alex admitted unabashedly. “I was doin’ more important things.”

“Like your girlfriend.”

“Most definitely.” He laughed. “Hey, remember at the beginning of the semester when I was planning that whole contest/auction thing? Michael Gets a Girlfriend. You remember that?”

“Yeah, that was gonna be your money-maker.” He shrugged. “Well, I did get a girlfriend.”

“Yeah,” Alex said as they jay-walked across the street. “You know, I always thought . . . I always pictured you with a . . . a blonde girlfriend, you know?”

“Blonde?”

“Yeah. And, you know, flexible.”

“Liz is flexible,” Michael informed him.

“Yeah, but . . .” Alex smiled. “You know. Someone who argues with you and pushes your buttons and . . . you know, I . . . I don’t know. I guess I always just pictured you with . . . well, with Maria.”

Michael froze in his tracks. “What?” It didn’t really come as some huge surprise. Everyone pictured him and Maria together. Hell, he even pictured it a lot himself, but . . .

“You know what? Never mind,” Alex said. “I gotta head down to the Rec Center. I’ve been sayin’ I’m gonna go work out for four years. I should probably follow through. I’ll see you later, man.” He started to head down the sidewalk, but Michael caught up with him.

“Wait, wait, wait, Alex. I was gonna ask you about something.”

“Oh, yeah, I was gonna ask you . . . what should I start off with, weights or cardio?”

“Uh, weights,” Michael answered flippantly.

“Really?”

“Yeah, cardio’s for girls.”

Alex shrugged and kept walking. “Alright, if you say so. What were you gonna ask me?”

“Well . . . I was just wonderin’ how much you pay for rent on your apartment.”

Alex made a face. “Rent?”

“Yeah, you know, that nice big monthly expense? How much is yours? About three-hundred? Four-hundred?”

“Two-fifty,” Alex replied with a smile. “Bargain, huh?”

“Yeah.” Michael was envious. “And it’s a nice apartment, too, isn’t it?”

“Yeah, I like it. Why, uh, why are you asking?”

“Well . . .” Michael stuffed his hands into his pockets and frowned. “Liz and I are actually getting our own apartment.”

Now it was Alex’s turn to stop dead in his tracks and look shocked. “What?

“Yeah.” Michael sighed, wishing it weren’t true. “After graduation, we’re movin’ in to an apartment together. We found one yesterday.”

“This was her idea?” Alex said, phrasing the sentence as a question.

“No, it was mine, actually,” he admitted. “And it’s not just an idea any more. It’s a fuckin’ reality. There was paperwork, man. We filled out paperwork.”

“You sound kinda freaked,” Alex noted.

“Well, yeah, ‘cause it’s five-hundred dollars a month rent. Don’t you think that’s a little much?”

“Not really. A lot of places run higher. Must be a pretty nice apartment, though,” Alex remarked.

“It is.”

“But you can find apartments that are just as nice for half as much.”

“Yeah, I know, but . . .” Michael shrugged. “I don’t know. I guess we’ll go with this. Liz really likes it, so . . .”

“It’s a big deal, man,” Alex pointed out. “It’s not too far away, right? I’ll still see you around?”

“Yeah, it’s just about ten minutes south of my house now, so . . .”

“Good, good,” Alex said. “Hey, listen, man, don’t take this the wrong way or anything, but . . . personally, I think you should give it some more thought. ‘Cause that house you live in now, it’s like a person, man. It’s practically alive. And I think you’ll find that leavin’ it behind is gonna be harder than you think. And leavin’ behind a certain kooky blonde who also lives there . . . that’s probably gonna be the hardest of all.”

Maria. He’d done a lot of thinking about that, about how just living ten minutes away from her might be too far . . .

“Listen, will you do me a favor and not tell her yet? I’m gonna eventually, just . . . not yet.”

Alex nodded. “Sure.”

“Okay.” His cell phone rang, so he pulled it out of his pocket and checked the Caller ID. “It’s Kyle,” he said. “Listen, man, I gotta take this. I’ll talk to you later, alright?”

“Yeah, I’ll see you.”

“See ya.” Michael turned and walked in the opposite direction, answering his phone. “Kyle? Yeah, what’s up?”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Even though it was only her second day of teaching at the Charisma Dance Studio, Maria already felt as though she were developing a whole new strategy for teaching her choreography. It involved being likable and not being too critical of her students. After all, her students were elementary girls, and they were actually surprising her with their abilities.

“Wow, you girls look so cool,” she said, smiling. She had never known she had any child-skills, any way to relate to young, annoying kids, but it turned out she did. These girls loved her. And she sort of loved them, too. They were sweet, not annoying at all.

“So, what do you think?” she asked them. “How do you guys feel, like little girl gangstas?”

“What’s a . . . gangsta?” one of the girls, Jamie, her favorite one, asked.

Maria thought about it and narrowed it down to a simple answer. “Someone who smokes dope and wears chains.”

“What’s dope?” Jamie asked.

“Uh . . . grass,” she replied carefully. “Some people really like grass. A lot. What do you guys say we get back to the dance, huh? You ladies are halfway done.”

Another of the girls, Hannah, raised her hand. “Can we get a drink?” she asked.

“Oh my gosh, yes. Dehydration is so un-fun. Go. Drink,” Maria told them.

They all scurried out into the hallway. Maria smiled and watched them go, and when she looked up, she saw Michael standing in the doorway. “Michael. What’re you doing here?”

“Kyle called me. He got called in to work today, so he asked me to come pick you up.”

Maria sighed. “When are we gonna break down at get another car? We’re seriously gonna need one when Kyle moves out. We already need one.”

“We’re cheap and lazy,” Michael acknowledged. “So this is your class?”

“Yep.” She crossed her arms over her chest and walked over towards him. “What do you think?”

“Sign me up. Teach me some moves,” he joked.

“I don’t think you can keep up with these girls. They’re hardcore.” She smiled. This was good. It almost felt like old times, simpler.

He smiled back.

I don’t hate this, she thought. I really don’t hate this.

Just then, the girls came rushing back in to the room, all squeals and pigtails and laughter.

“Alright, girls, settle down,” she said. She’d seen them get hyped up on more than one occasion already, and even though it was cute, it was hard to control them when they got like that. “Settle down. Get in gangsta mode. Get ready to dance again.”

“Wow,” Michael said. “It’s a whole new side of you. MaMaria.”

“Oh, please,” she scoffed. “I like them a lot, but not that much.” She spotted Hannah trying to do a cartwheel and immediately shifted into protective mode. “Hey, hey, hey, what did we say about cartwheels? Only on the mats,” she said, rushing forward, catching Hannah just as she were about to crash on the floor. One of the other girls, Sarah, was trying to do a handstand, so she picked her up and set her down on her feet as well. “Ix-nay on the . . . however you say handstands in Pig Latin.” She didn’t want anyone getting hurt. Parents had a tendency to sue the people in charge of their children when they got hurt, and lawsuits weren’t her style.

Jamie giggled suddenly, and raised her hand.

“What, Jamie?” Maria asked, suddenly feeling as though she were running a day care instead of a dance class.

“Is that your boyfriend?” Jamie asked.

I wish, Maria thought. “No,” she answered emphatically. She turned and glanced back at the doorway where Michael had been standing, but he wasn’t there anymore. He was probably going to wait out in the car. “No, that’s not my boyfriend,” she said quietly. It was good to say the words out loud. It helped her remember it.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

The car ride home with Michael that evening was . . . mostly silent, and therefore very uncharacteristic. It hadn’t been that long ago that Michael had driven her to the studio for her job interview. They had talked and laughed and bickered and yelled the entire way there. Now, even small-talk was strained. She thought they’d been making progress back there in the studio. They’d exchanged a few words, and it had seemed natural. But now that they were alone in a car together, sitting close together, it was as though the awkwardness had seeped back in.

Fuck.

“So do you have to work tomorrow?” he asked as he turned onto their street.

“No,” she replied. “The girls need a break. So do I.”

He nodded. Just nodded, didn’t say anything. His lack of vocalics was frustrating. When he didn’t respond to her response, it was up to her to initiate a new conversation, and it was hard to do that when potentially the only response you would get was an up and down motion of the head.

She waited until he pulled the car into the driveway and shut it off before coming right out and saying exactly what she wanted to.

“Michael, what’re we gonna do?”

He looked down at his lap instead of at her and didn’t offer up any solutions to their problem.

“This isn’t us,” she went on. “This whole awkward, stuttering thing . . . we don’t do that.”

“Apparently we do now.”

She rolled her eyes. “God, Michael. Seriously? Seriously? Are you okay with this? Are you okay with us being like this? ‘Cause I’m not. We have a problem, and we need to do something about it, ‘cause I can’t stand this anymore. I don’t know how you can.”

“I can’t stand it, either,” he assured her.

“Then do something. Think outside the box here.” She made a box shape with her hands in demonstration, so exasperated with him. “Come on, Michael, use your brain, assuming you have one.”

“Use your brain.”

“I’m trying.”

He sighed and said, “Well, we could . . .” He trailed off.

“Great. That was helpful.” She shook her head. If their situation was to be worked out, she would just have to do it herself. “Alright, options. We could just pretend it didn’t happen. Except we can’t do that because it did happen. And we can’t just forget about it, either, because . . . not to boost your already-oversized ego or anything, but it was pretty unforgettable.”

“Yeah, it was,” he agreed.

“And option tres . . . I guess we could just kiss again,” she pondered, “but that would obviously cause more harm than good.”

“Obviously.” He leaned over toward her as he said that, his arm outstretched, and she yelped, “Hey!” jerking her legs away from him. He gave her a curious look, pushed open the glove compartment, and took out a pack of gum, closing the glove compartment again just as quickly. And here she’d allowed herself to think that he was going to touch her . . .

Now it was her turn to let out a heavy breath of distress. As if things hadn’t been awkward enough, now it was worse.

“I don’t know what to do, Maria,” he admitted, popping a stick of gum into his mouth. He took the keys out of the car, pushed open the door, and climbed out, heading into the house without waiting for her. He was probably going to avoid her again all night.

“Option number four,” she whispered sadly to herself. "Avoidance." Even though it was probably the worst one, it was probably the best one, too. She was going to have to resign herself to a certain level of awkwardness and avoidance, because it was clearly all she’d be getting.









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Maria got dressed up to go out that night. It had been awhile since she’d gone to a party, the car bash being the one exception. Since she didn’t have a final the next day, though, and since she had absolutely no motivation to study for anything, she figured a party was a sound idea. A little mingling, a lot of dancing, no drinking whatsoever . . . it would do her good. Besides, the era of frat parties was soon coming to an end for her. She couldn’t very well party at Sigma Nu or Alpha Epsilon after graduation. That would just be lame.

She stood in front of her mirror and examined her reflection. She was wearing a white, long-sleeved shirt and a pink and grey plaid skirt. She slung a silver chain belt around her waist (gangsta, she thought, smiling at thoughts of the girls in her class), and slipped into some white, high-heeled sandals to complete the look. It was the exact same outfit she had worn to her first frat party freshman year. It still fit perfectly. She still looked good.

She had just finished putting some loose curls into the ends of her hair when someone knocked on her bedroom door.

Michael, she thought. “Come in.”

The door opened, and it wasn’t Michael who stepped inside, but Kyle.

“Oh. Hey, Kyle,” she said, smiling despite her disappoint. Of course it wasn’t Michael. He was Mr. Avoidy now. The fucking bastard . . .

“Hey, you’re dressed up,” he said.

She took note of his suit and tie. “You, too.”

“You and Max goin’ out?”

“No, actually Max is tutoring again tonight,” she informed him as she slipped a chunky silver bracelet on her left wrist. She held her arm up in front of her stomach, then brought it down to hang at her side, then lifted it up to touch her shoulder, surveying the bracelet the whole time. She shook her head, deciding she didn’t like the way it looked with the outfit and took it off, tossing it down on her dresser. Maybe a ring instead. The first wring she located, though, was one of the promise rings Max had given her awhile back. She couldn’t wear that.

“Having trouble accessorizing?” Kyle asked.

“A little bit,” she admitted, finally settling on her small class ring from high school. There, that was good.

“Where are you going tonight?” Kyle asked.

“Wherever you and Tess are going,” she said, shaking out her hair a little, trying to give it more volume. “I just need to get outta the house for awhile. Just give me ten minutes to finish my make-up. I’ll be ready to go.”

“Uh, Maria, I hate to tell you this,” Kyle said slowly, “but you can’t go.”

She frowned. “Why not? ‘Cause of Monday night’s drinking binge? It’s not gonna happen again.”

“No, ‘cause we’re not going to a party. We’re going to a dinner.”

“A dinner?”

“Yeah. The university has one every year for its on-campus employees. I’m gettin’ some kind of award this year or something.”

“Oh, well, all the more reason for me to go.”

“But it’s a reservation kind of thing. I only got seats for me and Tess.”

“Oh.” She understood now. “So I literally can’t go.”

“I would’ve gotten more seats if I’d known you’d wanna,” he said.

“Oh, I don’t really want to,” she admitted, taking off her ring. “Not that I don’t wanna see you get your award. I just . . . I don’t really wanna stay here alone with Michael all night, mostly.”

“Why not?” Kyle asked. “That’s never been a problem before.”

“Yeah, but that was before . . .” She trailed off abruptly, stopping herself from saying something she would regret.

“Before you guys kissed?” Kyle filled in.

How did he know? “Oh my god, did he tell you?”

“No. But you just did.” Kyle smirked.

She smiled and blushed a little, feeling embarrassed.

“About time,” Kyle said, laughing. “I hope it was a good kiss. It was eight years in the making.”

“It was good,” she assured him, going to sit down on her bed. She waited until he sat down beside her to confess what she knew to be true. “But it was wrong, too. I know that. He’s with Liz. I’m with Max. We shouldn’t be kissing each other.”

“True,” Kyle agreed. “But did it feel wrong?”

She thought about it, remembered the sensations it had evoked within her, and shook her head. “Not really.”

“Not really?” he echoed.

She shook her head again.

He sighed knowingly. “You know, not so long ago when I was with Tess and Isabel . . . I’d feel pretty bad sometimes, ‘cause I would kiss Tess, and it was just this whole amazing, mind-blowing experience. And then I would kiss Isabel and . . . it wasn’t. It wasn’t her fault or anything. There was just something missing.”

Like the something that’s missing between me and Max, she thought. “But that was different. Isabel broke up with you. You guys resolved your love trapezoid pretty easily.”

“We did,” Kyle acknowledged. “I have a feeling the shit would’ve hit the fan a lot more if I’d had to break up with her.”

“Shit hitting the fan is bad,” she said. She didn’t want to have that happen with her and Max and Michael and Liz, but it seemed inevitable at this point.

“It’s very bad,” Kyle agreed, “but you know what? I think you and Michael could benefit from this time alone together.”

Her mind immediately went to dirty places. “Benefit?”

“Oh, yeah. I’m not sayin you should get fleshy with each other or anything. That’s the last thing you should do. But maybe just sit down, talk things out. Prevent the shit from hitting the fan.”

“Prevention,” she said to herself. That sounded like a good plan. “Kyle?” She smiled. “You’re definitely the sanest friend I have.”

He laughed and put his arm around her shoulder. “Come here, kid.” He hugged her to his side, and for a moment, she felt a little better. Kyle had a way of simplifying things, making complicated problems seem easy to fix.

“You’re gonna be alright,” he assured her.

She hoped so.

“Now, I wish I didn’t have to, but I gotta go,” he said.

“Right. Award-time. Make sure you give a shout-out to me in your acceptance speech.”

He chuckled and stood up. “I will. See you later, Maria.”

“Yeah.” She thought of something, though, so she said, “Kyle!” stopping him just as he was about to leave the room.

“Yeah?”

“Don’t tell anyone, okay? About Michael and me.”

“I won’t,” he promised. “But Tess and Isabel and Alex already know.”

“What? How?”

“It’s kinda obvious.”

She rolled her eyes. “To everyone but Max and Liz, apparently.”

“Looks like love’s blind after all,” Kyle concluded. “I’ll see you.”

“See you.” Maria sat there alone once he was gone, and turned to give her mirrored reflection another good hard look. Same outfit as freshman year. She could still envision the young version of herself standing there, easily. She wasn’t that much different. A little older, yes, but not that much wiser.

She had to talk to Michael.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

What the hell? Marissa, you’re an idiot. Shut the hell up. Go eat a fuckin’ sandwich, Michael thought angrily to himself as he watched a particularly annoying episode of The O.C. that night on SoapNet. He quickly turned the channel when he heard the door to Maria’s bedroom open and pretended to be all engrossed in watching wrestling.

When he glanced up at Maria as she came down the hallway, he couldn’t help but be . . . insanely aroused. She was all dressed up, looked like she was going out somewhere. Looked gorgeous. The girl always did.

“You look nice,” he commented, nonchalantly placing a pillow over his lap in case his southern friend decided to . . . activate.

“You look horrible,” she shot back.

He smiled and allowed himself to laugh a little. That was his girl, always full of spunk.

Except she wasn’t technically his girl, was she? No.

She sat down beside him and said, “It’s just you and me tonight.”

“Yep.” He was all too aware of that fact as his jeans suddenly began to feel tighter. That short skirt she was wearing certainly didn’t help his very erect situation, either. Her legs . . . he could imagine them wrapped around him, grasping him while he thrust inside of her . . .

Oh, you sick fuck.

“Okay, Michael, we have to do something about this,” she blurted suddenly.

“What?” As if he didn’t know . . .

This. This thing. I can’t stand being like this with you. We can’t just stay like this forever just because you kissed me.”

“Takes two, if I recall.”

“Whatever.”

He wet his lips, more than a little frustrated with the situation himself. “I told you. I don’t know what to do.” He didn’t like this any more than she did.

“Well then, I think you’ll be happy to know, I have cleverly devised a plan. Option number five, otherwise known as Acknowledge and Move On.”

He made a face. “Meaning?”

“Exactly what it sounds like. The kiss happened. It’s not like we can go back in time and erase it. And even if we could . . . I don’t think I’d want to. It was a pretty good kiss.”

“Damn right.”

“Because I was one of the kissers,” she made sure to add. “That’s why it was so good.”

He just smiled. Maria DeLuca did know how to kiss, but he was fairly curtained he’d done his part, too.

“But in all seriousness here, I think we should just go with option number five. We don’t deny the kiss happened or try to forget about it. We don’t tell anyone. We just acknowledge that it happened, and . . . it never happens again.”

He frowned. Never? For some reason, that word was a bit hard to swallow, even though he knew it was in everyone’s best interests.

“And while it’s not happening, we can go back to . . . normal,” she continued on quietly. “Talking and fighting and just hanging out. Being best friends. Or frienemies.” She smiled. “That’s all I really want.”

Maybe that was all she really wanted, but his overactive libido clearly wanted a little more than that. As much as he wanted to get back to normal, too, there was a large part of him that still couldn’t get that kiss out of his mind, or the way she had said “I need you inside me,” to him. A guy didn’t forget things like that. A guy didn’t just acknowledge things like that and move on.

“So what do you think?” she asked. “Feasible plan?”

Feasible . . . yes. Frustrating . . . more so. “Sounds good,” he decided. “Sounds . . . yeah. Yeah, so we kissed. So what?”

“So what?” she echoed. “Gee, first sorry. Now so what. You really have a way with words.”

“No, I just mean . . . not every kiss has to mean something, right? I mean, half of the kisses I’ve ever had didn’t mean anything.”

“Right, I guess,” she said. “Yeah. But some kisses mean something.

“Yeah, but . . . they don’t have to.” He nodded, trying to understand his own confusing train of thought. He didn’t want their kiss to mean something, but he knew it had. And as much as he didn’t want to kiss her again . . . hell, he really wanted to kiss her again. He was like one gigantic contradiction.

“So you wanna just hang out tonight?” she asked him. “Like we used to?”

“Like we used to,” he echoed. “You and me, hanging out.”

“Not kissing.”

“Not doin’ anything like that.”

“Okay.”

For about ten seconds, they just sat there in silence, both of them staring down at their hands instead of at each other. It wasn’t normal again quite yet.

“What should we do?” he asked her.

“Uh, America’s Next Top Model’s on in five minutes,” she informed him. “You wanna watch?”

“Not really.”

“Okay, great.” She grabbed the remote from him and turned the channel to the station that show was on. He laughed a little and said, “You’re such a bitch, dirty girl.”

“Shut up, ugly boy,” she shot back, an evident smile on her face.

Oh, yeah, there’s normal, he thought, happy to see it resurface. Now all he had to do was not screw it up.

Easier said than done.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Max and Liz’s tutoring session that evening turned out to be a one-on-one tutoring session. Max definitely wasn’t broken-hearted about that fact. Tutoring Liz was so much easier than tutoring a group of kids. Liz actually paid attention and learned quickly. She didn’t just sit and stare at him with a confused, uninterested look on her face.

“I can’t believe I’m the only one who needs your help studying for History 202,” she said, sounding embarrassed.

“Oh, you’re not the only one who needs help,” he assured her. “You are, however, the only one who’s gonna get an A+. I guarantee it.”

“Ooh, a Max Evans guarantee. I like the sound of that.”

He smiled. “Well, you know, most people—history majors excluded, of course—treat history like . . . well, history. It’s in the past. They figure they don’t need to know it. I’ll admit, it’s not my favorite subject, but I realize how important it is. Think about it. It ties in to every other subject out there. Everything has a history.”

“Yeah,” Liz said, staring at him thoughtfully. “I’ve never thought about it like that before.”

“It’s probably one of the harder subjects, though,” Max went on. “Way harder than science, if you ask me.”

“Why’s that?” Liz asked. “Because you’re a science buff?”

He chuckled. “No, ‘cause it’s hard to study for. I mean, how do you study for history? You just have to memorize everything. It’s pretty tricky, takes a lot of time.”

“And here we are cramming.” She sighed. “I’m not happy with myself. Back when I went to school in Nebraska, I was like the star student. And then I get here, and I can’t even keep up a 3.0 GPA.”

“Harder classes?” Max guessed.

“Easier classes. Less studying. It’s a bad combination.”

“You know what else is a bad combination? An all-important biology final and wild guessing.”

She laughed. “Yeah, that’s . . . that’s not good, either.”

“Not good at all,” he agreed. He tried to get back into history mode, but he found himself looking at her instead, thinking about how she had changed. “You know, I remember the first time I saw you,” he said.

“Really?”

“Yeah. You were, uh, looking for the library.”

She blushed and shook her head. “Seriously. How clueless was I? The library? It’s, like, the most noticeable building on campus.”

“Well, you were new.”

“Oh, I was so nervous,” she said. “No friends. No family. Just little old Liz Parker and a whole new campus to get used to. You were the first nice person I met.”

“I was?”

“Yeah. Everyone else just . . . didn’t pay any attention to me. Until Maria gave me my make-over that is, made me dance team captain. Then people started paying attention to me. And then I started dating Michael, and . . . you know.”

“Instant fame,” Max said knowingly. “It’s funny how that happens.”

“Very funny,” Liz agreed. “I’ve changed a lot.” She sounded a little sad as he said that. Maybe she missed who she used to be.

“Can I ask you something?” Max inquired. “Before we get back to good old Ben Franklin, I mean.”

“Sure.”

“Why’d you decide to come to Santa Fe in the first place?”

She contemplated it for a moment, then shrugged and admitted, “I don’t know. Why did you?”

“Maria,” he answered right away. “She told me she was going here, so I tossed my Harvard acceptance letter right into the trash.”

“Wow, really, all for her?”

He nodded. “All for her. It sounds pathetic, but . . . I don’t regret it. I love it here.”

“Yeah, me, too,” Liz agreed. “I’m not sure why I wanted to come here so badly, though. I’d never even taken a campus tour before. I just saw pictures online and read some brochures and told my mom and dad I wanted to transfer at semester. It was just like a feeling, you know? A weird feeling. Like maybe somehow I belong here. Like . . . it sounds kind of dumb, but like fate, you know?”

He nodded. He liked to believe in fate, that maybe he and Maria were fated to be together and that was why everything had worked out the way it did.

“Maybe I was supposed to come here and meet Michael,” Liz contemplated. “I wouldn’t have met him if I’d stayed in Nebraska.”

“Oh, you would’ve,” Max assured her. “Before you, Michael was on an unstoppable quest to have sex with every girl in the world. He would’ve gotten around to Nebraska eventually.”

Liz laughed. “Well, I’m glad he put a stop to that quest.”

“Yeah, him and Maria both.”

“Seriously. They’ve both changed a lot, too,” she said. “Sometimes I wish Maria and I were still friends. I feel bad about our falling out. I don’t even remember how it happened. I just wish it hadn’t. She was a good friend to me.”

Max nodded. “Maria’s a really good person deep down. It’s not obvious, but . . . she cares about people. A lot. More than you would expect.”

“Michael’s the same way,” Liz said. “Did you know . . .” She trailed off, smiled, and leaned in a little closer. “Okay, I promised him I wouldn’t say anything, so don’t tell him I’m telling you this, alright? But Michael and I are moving in together. We’ve got an apartment. We’re moving in after graduation.”

That came as a shock to Max. “Whoa,” was all he could say. Kyle and Tess moving out was natural. Michael and Liz . . . that was unexpected.

“Yeah, and it was his idea, too, which, trust me, just blew my mind,” she said. “It’s a really nice apartment, though. I’ll have to show you sometime.”

“Wow, Liz. I’m really happy for you guys.”

“Thanks.”

“You’re not moving too far away, though, right? ‘Cause you guys are both my friends.”

“Not far away at all,” she assured him. “We’ll still hang out. We’re even gonna start hanging out in a non-tutoring capacity.”

He laughed.

“I have a lot of friends these days,” she said, “but lately, Max . . . I feel like you’re my only real one.”

He hadn’t expected to hear that, either, but that was great to hear. He’d never had a girl who was just his friend before. Sure, there was Maria, but he’d always had a gigantic crush on her. The kind of relationship he was developing with Liz was different, new.

“Friends are good,” he said goofily.

Liz laughed and agreed, “Friends are very good.” She cleared her throat, then, and pointed at her open history book lying on the table in front of them. “Do you think Ben Franklin had any friends? Maybe we should study and find out.”

“Right, studying.” Max was usually a more on-task tutor than that, but sometimes he and Liz started up a conversation, and it was often hard to stop.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

For the first half an hour of America’s Next Top Model, Michael and Maria did more talking than watching. It felt normal. So normal.

“Oh my god, you can’t seriously expect me to believe you’d rather throw down with Rosie O’Donnell than that girl,” Maria said, pointing to the screen.

“That . . . thing is not a girl, Maria. It’s a skeleton.”

“She is anorexic,” Maria admitted. It was obvious.

“No, she’s more than that. What’s below anorexic? There’s bulimic, anorexic . . . then what?”

“Then nothing.”

“No, then her. She’s . . . shit, look at her thigh. You see her thigh?”

“Yeah, sick.”

“Pure bone. I’d break my dick tryin’ to fuck that. No thanks.”

“Okay . . . but Rosie O’Donnell? Gross me out a little more, please.”

“I know she’s got some junk in the trunk . . .” he acknowledged.

“Junk? She has the state of Alaska in her trunk, Michael, and she’s got this loud, annoying voice to go along with it.”

“What can I say? I have a thing for lesbians.”

“Ugh, I know. But seriously, I thought you liked girly lesbians. Rosie’s like a guy.”

He rolled his eyes and changed his answer. “Alright, fine, none of the above then? Does that work for you?”

“Works for me.”

“Or that girl.” His eyes lit up when another model came on the screen to do her photo shoot.

“Oh, she’s the prettiest one,” Maria agreed. “She’s plus-size. Ooh. That’s like my size.” She grunted. “I hate the modeling industry. I was so happy to get out of it.”

“Me, too.”

“I always left photo shoots feeling really imperfect.”

“I always left feeling really . . .” He trailed off.

“Aroused?” she filled in.

“Yes. No. Maybe. I can’t help it. I’m always aroused.”

“This is true,” she said. “Okay, what do you say? You wanna watch something else? ‘Cause seriously, these bony models are making me wanna puke.”

“Yeah, let’s see what else is on.”

They both reached for the remote control at the same time, and their hands brushed. Michael immediately pulled his away and said, “Sorry.”

“Dammit, Michael!” she exclaimed angrily. They had been doing so good. “I swear, you never used to say that word, and now you toss it about every five seconds. Ooh, sorry. Sorry. So sorry.”

“Well, I am.”

“Why? Because our hands touched? Big deal. So what, remember?” She rolled her eyes. “I swear to God . . .” She reached for the remote control again, and this time, Michael's hand didn’t reach with her. She changed the channel a few times, and when she came across three big-breasted blonde girls, Michael immediately said, “Stop.”

“Oh, god, not this show.”

He grinned. “The Girls Next Door. Gotta love TV geared towards horny men.”

“Girls next door don’t look like that,” she said matter-of-factly. “Unless the girls next door have breast implants and sex with Hugh Hefner and do naked photo shoots for Playboy.”

“Yeah, I wish those were the girls next door to us,” Michael said. “Instead, who do we got? Oh, Grandpa Frank down the street. Real nice.”

“You’re such a guy,” she said, tossing the remote onto his lap. “Which one do you like the best?”

“Out of the Girls Next Door?”

“Yeah.”

“I don’t know. I can’t tell one from the other.”

“Exactly. That’s why Playmates are stupid. They all look alike.”

“They all look good.”

She shook her head. Such a guy, such a guy . . .

He groaned, stretched his arms up over his head, and then brought one arm down to rest on the back of the couch. She felt his hand touch her shoulder the moment he did, because he immediately jerked his arm away and said, “Sorry.”

“Michael, I’m gonna kill you if you say that one more time.”

“Sorry.”

She looked at him and saw the smirk pulling at his lips. “Now you’re just doing that on purpose,” she said knowingly.

He turned to look her right in the eyes and smiled.

Oh, make me melt, Michael Guerin, she thought, unable to keep from smiling back. Don’t look at me like that. I might not stick to my Acknowledge and Move On plan.

“Hey, Maria?” he said.

“Huh?”

“I’m really . . . sorry.”

She barely registered the dreaded word that time as they leaned in closer to each other, faces nearing, breath mingling. They were going to kiss again. It was obvious. She parted her lips gently, anticipating his warm mouth on hers, and closed her eyes, expecting to revel in the sensation any moment . . .

. . . but she didn’t. When she opened her eyes again, she found him mere inches away from her, looking torn. Clearly he wanted to kiss her, but he was probably better at sticking to the plan than she was.

Maria, you can’t do this, she told herself. You have a boyfriend who is also one of your best friends. Even though he’s not here right now . . . even though it’s just you and Michael . . . you have to think about Max. You have to remember him.

“Max,” she whispered, making a conscious effort to remember him.

“What?” Michael spat.

“Nothing.” She quickly scooted away from him, making sure to put as much distance between the two of them as she possibly could while sitting on the same couch with him. Too close, she thought. They were still too close. She had to get farther away. “I’m gonna . . . go get something to eat,” she said, quickly springing to her feet. She hurried into the kitchen, opened the refrigerator door, and leaned down to peer inside, not really hungry at all.

Oh god, what am I gonna do? she wondered frantically. They had definitely acknowledged their kiss, and they were definitely moving on, too. The problem was, they were moving in the direction of another kiss. That wasn’t helpful. Thrilling, yes, but not helpful.

She grabbed a jar of mayonnaise—what for, she had no idea—and shut the refrigerator door. When she spun around, Michael was there, so closer to her, his chest at her eye level. She could feel the heat coming from his body, engulfing her. She could hear her own breathing hasten at his proximity. Why was he so close? Didn’t he know he shouldn’t be so close?

She glanced up at him, wanting to say something, but that was a big mistake. Because the moment she met his passionate brown eyes, she was lost. Her heart sped up, and all she could manage to get out was, “Michael?”

:wink:

His lips crashed onto hers like a hurricane, wild, strong, out of control. She instantly dropped the jar of mayonnaise, and it crashed on the floor and shattered into pieces. Just like the first kiss, she didn’t hesitate to kiss him right back. How could she? It felt so natural, so right. Their mouths were like two pieces of a puzzle, fitting together perfectly. Michael and Maria fit together perfectly.

She moaned in delight when she felt his hands on her back, pulling her body upward to press strategically against his. She held onto his shoulder for dear life with one hand and tangled her other hand in his hair, raking her fingernails across his scalp as he kissed her harder, faster. He slammed one hand against the refrigerator, right next to her head, effectively trapping her there with him. She smiled, because she liked being trapped.

She opened her mouth more when she felt his tongue seeking entrance. It brushed against hers before dancing across her lower lip, teasing her, enticing her. She moaned into his mouth pushed her hips forward slightly, feeling that amazing erection that had been growing steadily for the past half an hour. It felt good.

He groaned, sounding almost animalistic, grabbed onto her hips, and spun the two of them around so that he was the one pressed against the refrigerator. Now he was trapped by her, and she took full advantage of it. She tore her mouth away from his and trailed her hands down to unbutton his shirt. She worked quickly, wasting no time. She didn’t fumble around. One button. Two. Three. She had his shirt undone within seconds. He shrugged it off his shoulders and onto the floor. Their eyes were locked on each other, challenging each other.

Grinning, she nipped at his bottom lip gently before lowering her head to press a kiss to his chest. She kissed a trail all the way down to his abdomen, enjoying the taste of his skin, the feel of his hands in her hair, and the quiet, almost unnoticeable groans of pleasure that came out of his talented mouth as she kissed even lower.

She stopped when she got to his jeans and looked up at him. The expression in his eyes . . . it was as though he were daring her. I dare you, Maria. Do it.

She dared herself.

She got down on her knees and reached up to undo his jeans. She had unbuttoned them and pushed the zipper down when, all of a sudden, his hands were gripping her sides, and he was lifting her up onto her own two feet again. He backed her up towards the counter, and she cried out when her spine hit the edge. It felt good, though. Everything felt so good.

She reached back, pressed her hand down on the marble counter, and tried to scramble up on top of it; but she was at a slight disadvantage being wedged between it and Michael. And her legs . . . they felt weak suddenly, like jelly. Luckily, he lifted her up effortlessly with just one arm and set her down atop the counter.

He moved in close to her, his lips seeking out hers again. She wrapped her legs around him, pulling him as close as she could, and their mouths met again, tongues dueling for dominance as their hands fought for possession of each other’s bodies. She clawed at his bare back and rolled her head to the side, gasping for air as he ravaged her neck with kisses. Hot, sucking kisses. He would leave marks, and she would have to lie and say Max made them.

She smiled. Oh, Michael . . .

He stopped kissing her to hook his hands underneath her knees and smooth them down the undersides of her legs. He knelt down, keeping his eyes locked with hers as he removed her shoes and tossed them onto the floor. Then he wrapped his hands around her ankles, grinned mischievously, and tugged her legs farther apart. She gasped, knowing quiet well that he could see right underneath her skirt. She suddenly regretted wearing underwear. She wouldn’t have had she known this would happen.

He’s on fire, Maria thought as he stood up again and pressed his hand against her shoulder, urging her to lie down. So am I.

She lay back on the counter, and he climbed on top of her, kicking the cookie jar down onto the floor, ignoring the way it smashed into bits. The counter wasn’t particularly comfortable, but it felt right for the moment. It wasn’t romantic, but it was the perfect place for fucking, which was exactly what she wanted to do with him. And judging by the primal look in his eyes, he wanted to fuck her, too.

His mouth crushed hers again, and this time she could barely breathe. But she didn’t need to. What kind of girl needed oxygen when she had a guy like Michael, thrusting his tongue into her mouth? His lower body mimicked the actions of his tongue. She shuddered when she felt his boxer-clad erection pressing into her, hard. She had no doubt that he could feel her wetness, her desire seeping through her silky panties. She wanted him so bad. She wanted him more than she’d ever wanted anyone before.

She felt her shirt being urged up, and she welcomed it. Too many clothes. She was wearing too many clothes. What she wanted was to feel her skin against his skin, because she knew nothing would feel better than that. Nothing except feeling him inside of her. Drunk Maria had been disoriented, but honest. That was what she needed.

She sat up and lifted her arms above her head to assist him in the removal of the garment. He pulled her shirt off in one swift motion and threw it to the floor. She shook her hair out and gazed up at him, her whole body heaving with every breath she took. Her skin was burning with desire. All for him.

He kissed her mouth as they lay back down, then kissed his way down her cheek to suck on her neck again. She moaned and rolled her head to the side, closing her eyes to concentrate solely on the feel of it. But something else demanded her attention, too. His hand was resting right above her knee, beginning to inch ever so slowly upward.

“Uh,” she groaned, silently begging him to touch her.

He trailed his amazing mouth down to her chest then, using his tongue to lick away the sweat gathered between her breasts. It reminded her of the whipped cream bikini contest they’d taken part in during spring break in Vegas, but this was different. Better. Because it wasn’t just competitive. It was sexual.

He kissed her stomach next, giant, wet kisses. While his tongue was swirling around her bellybutton, he reached up with his left hand and sneaked his fingers underneath her bra to cup one breast. She gasped at the stimulating sensation and arched her back up off the counter and into his touch. She was going insane with desire. His right hand was still crawling up her leg painstakingly slowly, nearing her pleasure center, getting so near. He was absolutely ravaging her. The sensations made her toss her head backward, hitting the hard marble of the counter with a thud. She felt like begging, but she didn’t want to give him that satisfaction. Yet.

Suddenly, he sat up, stared down at her, and reached under her skirt. The maneuver shocked her but didn’t disappoint. He hooked his fingers underneath the sides of her underwear. He didn’t remove the skirt, but he removed the soaking panties, pulling them slowly down her legs. He grinned, stuffed the panties in his jeans pocket, then lay back down atop her. He didn’t kiss her this time, just mated his forehead against hers and waited for a reaction when he placed his hand on her inner thigh, gradually inching it upward again. Déjà vu. Teasing.

Please, she thought, but refused to say. She lifted one leg, and her knee brushed against his side. His skin was so hot. He was sweating.

He kept his hand moving painstakingly slowly. He stopped when his thumb was merely an inch away from her core. She groaned, impatient. Usually her limit for being teased was more than this, but with Michael, there was only so much she could take before she completely lost what little control she had left.

“Come on, baby,” he grunted, a smirk playing at his lips.

Somehow, even though they’d never done this before, she knew what he wanted. He didn’t just want to touch her. He wanted her to make him touch her. He wanted her to work for it.

She tried to squirm and move her hips so that his thumb would brush against her center, but it was difficult. She was pinned beneath him, and he wasn’t allowing her much movement. She tried again, but to no avail. He must have enjoyed the look of frustration on her face, because he couldn’t stop grinning. Determined this time, she lifted her hips up and pushed them sharply to the left. His thumb came into contact with her mound for only a split-second. It wasn’t much, but it was enough to make her gasp. He just kept grinning. He was enjoying torturing her like this immensely.

Two can play at that game, she thought, trailing her own hand downward. His unfastened jeans were still hanging on his hips. His rock-hard cock was still straining against his boxers. She brushed her hand against it, and he immediately thrust himself into her hand, groaning. Then it was her turn to smile.

His mouth enveloped hers in a searing kiss, preventing her from showing off her smug smile for long. Just when she thought he was never really going to touch her, he did. She didn’t expect it, but he did it anyway. He pinched her clit between his thumb and his index finger, and her eyes snapped open. She had to tear her mouth away from his as a whoosh of air escaped her lungs. But his hand wasn’t the only reason for her violent reaction. The other part of that reaction was due to the fact that she thought she heard something . . .

She listened closely, but it was hard since he was sucking on her neck so vigorously. When she heard a car door slam, though, she knew she wasn’t just imagining things. Someone was home.

“Michael!” She pushed him off of her and jumped down off the counter. “Get dressed!” She found her shirt on the floor and yanked it on, not caring whether it was inside out or not. Michael quickly fastened his jeans and tugged his shirt on as well, looking sort of dazed as he buttoned it back up. She stepped into her sandals, glancing around the floor for her panties. Where were they? She had to find those.

Footsteps echoed on the pavement as whoever was home neared the front door . . .

She remembered that Michael had pocketed her panties and seized them out of his pocket. She put them on quickly and had just smoothed her skirt down when the front door opened and none other than Max Evans walked in.

“Max!” she yelped.

“Hey, guys. I got home early,” he said. “What’re you guys doing?”

“Making dinner,” Maria blurted at the same time Michael answered, “Watching TV.”

Max gave them a confused look.

Maria quickly covered. “Making dinner while watching TV.”

Max nodded in apparent understanding.

How can he not know? Maria wondered. She knew she and Michael had to look guiltier than ever. They sure as hell hadn’t been making dinner, and they hadn’t been watching TV. They had been doing . . . something else. Something they shouldn’t have been doing. She knew that.

“Well, dinner sounds good,” Max declared as he took off his shoes by the door. “What’re you guys making? I’m starved.”

“Uh, we don’t know yet,” Maria answered.

Max wrinkled his forehead as he looked down at the floor and said, “I don’t know what you had against that mayonnaise. Or the cookie jar.”

Maria cast a nervous glance at both broken jars and then up at Michael. He looked just as nervous as she felt, which was probably why he wasn’t saying anything. Had he really just been on top of her a minute ago, teasing her, touching her?

She felt the wetness between her legs, and that was enough of an answer. Yes, he had.

“You know what?” she said. “On second thought, I’m not that hungry. You guys can go ahead and eat without me.” Making sure to avoid all further eye contact with both the men in the room, she hurried off down the hallway into her bedroom and slammed the door.

“Oh my god,” she whispered, breathing heavily, trying to fathom what had just happened and, more importantly, what had been about to happen. She and Michael had just blown right past the making out stage of a relationship and went straight to foreplay. They hadn’t had sex, but if Max hadn’t walked in when he had . . . they probably would have.

She felt so incredibly ashamed.









TBC . . .

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Part 94

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nibbles:
I'm incredibly disappointed that they didn't do it and incredible relieved that they didn't at the same time.
Oh, good! I was hoping that’s how people would feel after that scene.
Elle: I’m glad you liked the last part. You know I have to drag it out and torture you guys some more, though. That’s the way I roll! :lol:
crazysnape:
“Well, dinner sounds good,” Max declared as he took off his shoes by the door. “What’re you guys making? I’m starved.”
Oh my god what sentence !
lol, I know. Because they were making whoopee!
Sara:
Is it bad that I want Max and Liz to cheat with each other first?
No. A little unlikely, but not bad. lol ;)
Heavenli24:
Although I can't believe Max would be that clueless... surely they would have looked flushed and flustered, and the atmosphere in the room would have given it away?!
Yeah, it was probably pretty obvious. Max just doesn’t want to see what’s right in front of his own eyes.
Alien_Friend:
I hope you don't leave us with big cliff hanger when you'll away though.
Well, I wanted tomorrow’s update to be a major update, but I think when I come back on the 21st, that’s when the major update is going to happen. So no huge cliffhanger. ;)
Christina:
And even though I'd been saying throughout this whole thing that I don't want them to consumate until they break up with Max and Liz, you almost had me actually not caring anymore, it was that good.
Really? Wow, thank you!
Ashley: Thanks, hun!
extingman: First of all, a new feedbacker? Yea! *does the happy dance of joy relating to new feedbackers* It’s always nice to get new feedback, especially this late in the story. Second, I totally understand why you don’t like Michael and Maria a whole lot right now. They’re making so many mistakes and using Max and Liz pretty badly, because they are, as you said, afraid to take a chance with each other. As you also said, cheating is cheating. Simple as that.
mrs_guerin:
(really though do they have an award for best updating? because you are so regular and reliable i don't think ive ever seen another fic updated so well!)
Aw, thanks! I try to update frequently because I know I like it when authors I read update frequently. (The only reason why I’m able to update so often is that I actually have the entire fic written. That helps.) ;) And there is an award for Most Dependable Updater that I see some people have been nice enough to nominate me for. So thanks, guys!
tequathisy:
Bah, as much as I'm glad that they didn't cheat I wish they had. Because if they had sex, it would be all over.
Yep, that’s true. If M+M got it on, Max and Liz wouldn’t even be factors anymore.
Morgan8:
But seriously, that last part was HOT!! Please tell me there are more scenes like that to come.
I don’t know, I don’t know, you’ll just have to wait and see! ;)



Thanks for the awesome feedback, you guys! I had a feeling the "counter attack" scene might be a popular one. Can you see now why I said I was excited to post it? :D Anyway, remember that there will be an update TOMORROW, too! Thanks again, guys.









Part 94 (page 969, can you believe it?)









“She seems a little skittish,” Max commented as he joined Michael in the kitchen. “Has she been like that all night?”

Michael could barely think, let alone process questions after what had just happened. “What?”

“She’s skittish,” Max repeated as he bent down to pick up the broken fragments of the ceramic cookie jar. “You know, jumpy.”

“PMS,” Michael lied off the top of his head. It wasn’t PMS, though.

He let out a heavy, flabbergasted breath and glanced down at his lower anatomy. He was definitely going to have to do something about that. Hell, he’d almost cum, and they hadn’t even done anything.

No, that was a lie. They’d done something. Not sex, but . . . suddenly that first kiss didn’t seem like such a big deal in comparison to what they had now done.

“You know what, Max?” he said, unable to even look at his friend. “I’m not that hungry anymore, either. I’m gonna . . .” He trailed off and headed down the hallway. His heart thudded just a little bit faster as he bypassed Maria’s bedroom.

Her hands, her lips, her eyes, her body . . . her everything. Now he understood why Maria DeLuca had always been his fantasy. And now he had something real to fantasize about.

He shut himself up in his room and leaned back against the door, trying to get a hold of himself. What he and Maria had just done . . . was amazing. But also a problem. A big problem.

Speaking of big problem, he thought, glancing down at his erection. Gotta take care of that. He had just begun to undo his pants when his cell phone rang. He reached over and grabbed it off his desk, checking the Caller ID. Liz.

Shit, he thought. This was fucking perfect timing. Three minutes ago, he had been about to finger his best friend, who wasn’t his girlfriend, who was dating another one of his best friends. And now the girl who was actually his girlfriend was calling him, probably wanting to talk about their new apartment or something. And all he wanted to do was . . . fantasize.

For a moment, he debated not answering, but he knew she would get mad at him for it, maybe even come over, and that was the last thing he needed. No, he needed to be alone for the rest of the night. He couldn’t be around Liz, and he definitely couldn’t be around Maria. No matter how much he wanted to be.

He flipped open his phone and said, “Hello?”

“Hey, honey.” She giggled. “Should I not call you honey? Does it sound unnatural?”

“Uh, yeah.” He wanted to be able to have some sort of conversation with her, but his mind kept going back to Maria. The taste of her skin, the feel of her body . . . she was insane and sexy and compelling, and he couldn’t get enough of her. Especially now.

“Michael, are you even listening to me?”

She was talking? He hadn’t even heard her. “Yeah,” he lied. “I just . . . static. I couldn’t really hear what you were saying.”

“I was just wondering what you were doing tonight.”

“What I’m doing?” Well, he’d been about to do Maria. “I’ve just been watching TV, really.”

“Well, Max and I got done studying early, so I thought maybe you could come over here, or I could go over there. You know, it’s been awhile since we’ve spent any quality time together, if you know what I mean.” When he didn’t say anything in response, she added, “You do know what I mean, don’t you?”

“Yeah, of course.” His mind raced in panic as he tried to think up an excuse. “You know what? I’ve actually got a Spanish final tomorrow, though, and I haven’t even started studying yet.” That was actually true, so at least he wasn't lying that time.

“Oh. Well, I wouldn’t be any help there. No hablo espanol.”

“See, I don’t even know what that means, and this is my third year of Spanish.”

“Oh, it means ‘I don’t speak Spanish.’”

“Well, apparently you do. I don’t, so I’m gonna have to take a rain check, I’m afraid.” He looked down at his cock, eager to get off the phone. He really had to take care of that.

“Oh. Well, that’s okay.” She sounded sad.

“Sorry.” He winced. His hard-on was starting to feel painful. “I gotta go, alright? Aloha. Is that how you say goodbye?”

“Uh, yeah. In Hawaiian. You really are in trouble, Michael.”

Adios,” he corrected. He actually did know basic Spanish, but it was hard to think when you needed to get off so badly. “I’ll see you later, Liz.” He hung up the phone and tossed it down on his bed. “Fuck,” he swore, quickly undoing his jeans. He took his cock in his hands and began to pump it, but it didn’t feel anywhere near as amazing as Maria’s hand had.

“Oh, fuck.” He really had a problem now.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria had hoped that Max might understand that she wanted to sleep alone that night. She tried to give him a lot of subtle hints, but they didn’t seem to connect with him. He crawled into her bed with her that night, told her that he loved her, and fell fast asleep. She just laid there, feeling as though she didn’t deserve to lie next to him. He was a great boyfriend, and she was a horrible girlfriend. Needless to say, she couldn’t fall asleep. Her mind was wide awake with thoughts and worries, problems and some potential solutions.

She slipped out of bed around midnight and headed out into the living room, figuring she would watch some late night TV and hopefully get tired. But when she walked out there, she felt as though her heart stopped for a moment when she saw Michael. He was standing in the kitchen, leaning back against the refrigerator with his arms crossed over his chest. She wasn’t sure whether to be disappointed or relieved that he was fully-clothed. T-shirt and sweatpants.

She decided to look him right in the eye and say something to him, but when she opened her mouth to get words to come out, the only word that came out was his name. “Michael . . .” They gazed at each other, and she was pretty sure she was conveying every single one of her emotions through that silence. Passion. Frustration. Desire. Fear. Finally, though, it got to the point where she had to say something.

“What’re you thinking?” she asked quietly.

His eyes shifted from her to the counter in front of him, and he muttered in reply, “I’m never gonna look at this kitchen counter the same way again.”

She rolled her eyes. “No, seriously.”

“That’s seriously what I’m thinking,” he insisted.

Typical, she thought. She had spent hours already trying to pinpoint exactly what she was feeling and exactly what her thoughts were, and his mind was on the counter.

“What’re you thinking?” he asked her.

She hesitantly made her way toward him, sat down at the counter, and answered honestly, “I don’t know.”

“Did you know this was gonna happen tonight?”

That question took her aback a little. She wasn’t even sure if she’d heard him right. “What-what do you mean?”

“Did you know?” he repeated, sounding serious. “You did, didn’t you? You wanted it to happen. That’s why you were dressed the way you were. You wanted to . . . turn me on. Well, congrats. You did.”

She grunted, shocked that he would even think that. “Self-involved much? I was dressed up ‘cause I thought I was going to a party. Instead I was stuck here with you. I didn’t dress up for you. I didn’t want this to happen!”

“You didn’t?”

“No!” Now he was making her angry. She had to remind herself that Max was asleep down the hallway and she needed to keep her voice down even though she felt like yelling at the top of her lungs. “I was totally sticking to option number five. I had acknowledged and I was moving on. Until you got in my way.”

“Got in your way?”

“Yeah!” Again, she had to quiet herself. “Come to think of it, you probably prayed this would happen. That’s why you accidentally reached for the remote at the same time I did and your hand accidentally touched mine.”

“I touched a lot more of you than your hand tonight,” he pointed out.

She ignored that remark and kept on ranting. “Oh, and let’s not forget the old arm around the shoulders trick. You had to have done that on purpose.”

“No, Maria, I really did do those things accidentally,” he insisted. “And I apologized.”

“Right, ‘cause that’s what you do now.” She was still pissed at him about that, too. “Aren’t you gonna apologize for tonight’s ‘counter attack?’”

“No.”

“Why not?”

“‘Cause I’ve come to realize, I don’t owe you an apology. You could’ve stopped me. You could’ve told me to quit. But you didn’t. So as far as I’m concerned, the only people I have to apologize to are Max and Liz, but I’m never gonna have to do that ‘cause they’re never gonna find out.”

He sounded so steadfast and determined. She didn’t like it. “You’re not gonna tell Liz?” she asked quietly.

“No, are you gonna tell Max?”

She sighed, conflicted. “I think I should.”

“Are you crazy?” he spat.

“Oh, I must be.”

Michael immediately got defensive. “No, you cannot tell Max, Maria, because the minute you do, he tells Liz. And I don’t want that.”

She frowned, unhappy with that. “You really care about Liz that much?”

He sighed, seeming frustrated. “You know what, it’s not like I don’t care about her all. I do care about her. Okay?” he admitted, taking a few steps closer to her. He quickly backed right up, though, and leaned against the refrigerator again. “She and Max . . . they’re good people. A little oblivious maybe, but then again, so are we. But they’re a lot better people than we are. We are not good people, Maria, and for the first time in my life, that bothers me.”

“Because of Liz?”

“It’s not even just about her, Maria. Or Max. It’s about you and me.”

“You and me,” she echoed. “The bad guys.” She decided it was necessary to take that moment to point out the obvious. “We’re gonna be even worse if we keep this secret from them. Trust me, I know.”

“And if we tell them, huh? What then?” he said a little too loudly. “You think that’s gonna be so much better? Yeah, right. It’s time we go back to . . . what the hell was it? Option number four?”

“Number five,” she corrected angrily. “And Michael, this is so not an option number five situation. This isn't the kind of thing you just acknowledge and move on from. It's the kind of the thing you dwell on and feel guilty about until you fess up, because it just got a thousand times more serious. Do you realize that if Max hadn't walked in when he had, you and I would've . . .” She didn’t get the chance to finish, because that was when Max strolled out to join them.

“I thought I heard voices.”

“Max!” she literally yelled, springing up from her seat.

“Maxwell,” Michael said.

“What’re you guys still doing up?” Max asked.

“Insomnia,” Maria answered quickly, using the first logical excuse that came to mind. “Couldn’t sleep.”

Michael cleared his throat and said, “Actually, I’m startin’ to feel kinda tired. I’m gonna go to bed.” He grabbed a beer out of the refrigerator before heading toward the hallway. “You should go to bed, too, Maria,” he suggested.

“I’m not tired,” she ground out.

“Yeah, well, standing around talking isn’t gonna help. Maybe you should just lie down and be quiet.”

His way of telling me to keep my mouth shut, she realized as she watched him disappear into his bedroom. He really didn’t want anyone to find out.

“Is he okay?” Max asked her.

“He’s fine,” she answered softly.

“Are you okay?”

She forced herself to look him in the eye and lie. “Just tired.” She couldn’t look him in the eye for long, though. She felt too guilty. “Actually, I, uh . . . I think Michael’s right. I should probably just . . . shut up and try to go to sleep.” As much as she wanted to tell him everything, something in her was not ready to do that just yet.

Max wrapped his arm around her shoulders as they made their way back to the bedroom. “I’ll keep you company if you’re awake,” he offered.

“Thanks,” she said, “but I’m gonna fall asleep soon, I hope.”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Shit, Maria thought, staring up at the ceiling. It was almost 1:00 a.m. now, and she was still as wide awake as she had ever been. Really, how was she supposed to get to sleep after everything that had transpired over the past twenty-four hours? She and Michael had gone from awkward to normal to sexual to . . . sort of angry now. She was really pissed at him. He had every right to be freaked out, but to suggest that she had seduced him somehow? And then adamantly dismissing the idea of telling Max and Liz the truth . . . the guy was a complete jackass. Why couldn’t she just forget about him?

As she lay there next to Max, all she could do was think about her and Michael’s kitchen counter interlude. She suspected it would be the only thing on her mind for the next week at least. Unless they did something else that they weren’t supposed to do. Then she would make room to think about that.

No, we can’t do anything like this again, she thought. Now she just had to make herself follow through with her convictions. Had it not been for Max and Liz, she and Michael probably would have jumped each other’s bones already. But Max and Liz . . . they mattered. Especially Max.

But Michael mattered, too. And that was what most worried her, that she might lose the one person who mattered to her the most.

She closed her eyes, trying to recall the exact feel of his mouth on hers, driving her mad with desire. Or his hand on her breast much to her delight. Or the way his talented tongue swirled a Figure 8 across her stomach, or . . . his hand being lower . . .

She let out a small, frustrated gasp of air as she thought about it. Michael had left her hanging earlier. She’d gotten all aroused before getting all nervous and guilty. And this kind of arousal, if it went unchecked, was undoubtedly lethal.

“You still awake?” Max asked out of nowhere.

“Yeah,” she answered. And here she’d thought he was asleep again. “Sorry for keeping you up.”

“It’s okay,” he said, but he sounded tired.

Oh, god, I need to get off, Maria thought desperately, still staring up at the ceiling. Her core was throbbing with need. She wished she were alone in the room so she could just finger herself right there and be done with it.

“Max, I’m just gonna go to the bathroom for a minute,” she told him quietly. She actually felt tears well up in her eyes as she said that and slipped out of bed, because she felt bad. More than bad. She was going to go in the bathroom, touch herself, and think about Michael. She wouldn’t have felt quite as guilty had she not had something real to think about. She wasn’t just imagining anymore. She didn’t have to imagine the feel of Michael’s hands on her skin, because now she knew what it felt like. It felt better than anything she had conjured up in her imagination, that was for sure.

She slipped into the bathroom and shut the door, locking it into place.

Max, I will tell you eventually, she thought as she pushed her shorts down to the floor and stepped out of them. I promise. She lifted her right leg and rested it on the toilet, then closed her eyes and reached down to insert a finger into herself. When she remembered the feel of Michael’s impressively large package rubbing against her, though, she quickly added a second finger. And then a third, but she still wasn’t quite satisfied.

She sucked in air sharply when she began using her thumb to circle her clit. That was better. It helped to picture Michael, too, picture him half-naked and on top of her and sexy as hell.

Maybe she could get some sleep after she was done with this.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria was in the bathroom a little longer than a minute. In fact, five minutes passed, and she still didn’t return to the bedroom. Max wanted to make sure she was okay, so he got out of bed and went to knock on the bathroom door.

“Maria? You alright?”

“I’m fine, Max,” she replied sort of breathily. “I’ll be out in a minute.”

“Okay.” He frowned. Why was she acting so strange lately? The one conclusion he kept coming back to was that she couldn’t stop getting emotional about the end of college. It was going to be a big change. Maybe she was worried she couldn’t handle it. If that wasn’t the reason for her odd behavior, then he didn’t know what was.

Max shuffled through the living room toward his own bedroom and quietly shut the door. He made his way over to his dresser in the dark, opened the top drawer, and dug around underneath his socks for the small, black box. He smiled when he felt it. He was a man with a ring, and he couldn’t wait to see the look on Maria’s face when he gave it to her. Maria was the type of girl who probably never imagined that anyone would love her enough to propose to her. But he did.

He opened the box and took another look at the ring. It was perfect. The diamond was small, but it was meant for her. He wanted to see it on her finger more than anything in the world . . .

He heard the bathroom door open as Maria walked out, and he quickly closed the box, buried it beneath his socks again, and shut the drawer. Tomorrow, he thought with determination as he went to rejoin her in her bedroom. I’m proposing to Maria tomorrow.









TBC . . .

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Part 95

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Krista:
But I guess it's one of those things that she'll never see coming. Sure, she knows Max "loves" her...but I'm pretty damn sure that she'll be really, really, really, really shocked.
Oh, for sure. Maria knows she has led Max on, but she has no idea she’s led him on this far.
nibbles:
I for one am looking forward to Max proposing to Maria because I'm hoping that will be the straw that makes her realise she can't continue this charade with Max any longer.
It could be. It’s either going to be the final straw or just another straw.
Christina:
Ugh, don't tell me the next part is going to end with a cliff-hanger right after Max proposes to Maria?
That would have been righteous! But no, that’s not how this next part ends. In fact, there’s not really a big cliff-hanger, just some unresolved stuff going on.
Sara:
THe obliviousness is killing me and I can only beg you...BEG you that Maria does NOT say yes to Max.
You’ll find out what she says soon.
Alien_Friend:
My analytical side is making me want to dive deeper into Michael psyche and uncover what he's really afraid of.
:lol: For a dumb-ass guy, he’s actually sort of complex. I think you nailed it right on the head with your last theory, that he’s afraid of seeing where this thing with Maria goes because it might not go where he wants it to. He does a lot of talking about Max and Liz, and even though they’re part of the reason why he’s acting the way he is, the main reason is that he’s afraid of his and Maria’s changing relationship. His worst fear is losing her as a friend, and unlike Maria, he’s less prepared to embark on a romantic relationship because he still hasn’t quite realized the extent of his feelings for her.
killjoy: I know, most of them are brainless! :lol:
spacegirl23:
Sooo unfortunate for Max to walk in. Can he be any more clueless?
Probably not, lol.
Morgan8: It’s Wednesday!
tequathisy:
Could Max be any more clueless or blind than he's being right now? How did he not sense that something major had happened between Maria and Michael just before he walked in?
I think you were the person who one time described Max as willingly blind. And to me, that still sums him up.
mrs_guerin: :lol: Enjoy reading a long fic in my absence. But I will be back soon!
Ashley: I'm a sucker for lots of drama when it comes to storytelling, so I'm glad you enjoy it, too!


Thanks for the great feedback, you guys. Okay, so as you know, this is going to be the start of an entire week with no update. (Personally, I’m looking forward to it just because I get a week—a whole week!—of summer vacation. Ooh.) Anyway, I can assure you that the next update will happen on Thursday, August 21 (probably Friday the 22nd for some of you), and you’re not going to want to miss it because it’s one of the biggest updates of the entire story. So.








Part 95







Liz brought a to-do list with her to dance team practice the next day. They weren’t exactly the most productive team in the world now that Maria was no longer guiding them. They rarely managed to get anything done at their practices, but they had a lot that they needed to do. All Liz kept thinking as she forced the team to go through a dance over and over again was that she was not going to be the one responsible for the fall of the university’s precious dance team. No way. It wasn’t as though Santa Fe had any other sports going for them. The dance team was all it had, and to be honest, Liz had sort of grown to like it. She was a much better dancer now. Now she just had to become a much better captain.

“Okay, you guys, let’s take a break,” she said once they had gone through their new dance about a dozen times. “Go sit down on the bleachers. I have some things I wanna talk about.”

Everyone took out their water bottles and began chugging as though it were alcohol. Liz took a drink herself, picked up her to-do list, and stood in front of the other girls, feeling a little apprehensive about some of things she had to say to them. But they had to be said.

“Alright, guys,” she said. “Ladies.” Maria had always called them ladies. “I hate to do this to you guys—ladies . . . but I think we need to have a practice on Saturday in addition to our practice tomorrow.”

The girls all groaned. Pam, of course, was the outspoken one.

“Bad idea, Liz. Saturdays are the worst possible days to have practice. We’re all gonna go out and get wasted Friday night, and we’re all gonna be looking forward to going out and getting wasted again on Saturday. It’s no fair to sandwich a stupid practice in between.”

“It’s not stupid,” Liz reminded her. “Did you guys even see last year’s dance team? They were really good, a lot better than we are.”

Pam grunted. “‘Cause they had a bitch for a captain.”

“Okay, Maria might have been a little bitchy,” Liz acknowledged, “but she was effective. She got things done. Now I’m not gonna be like Maria, but I am gonna start putting my foot down a little bit. I don’t want us to be known as the okay dance team. I want us to be great. And I think we can be if we just work a little harder. So . . . practice Saturday,” she decided. “Mandatory. Let’s just say . . . noon.”

The girls groaned again. “I won’t even be up until 3:00,” one of them muttered.

Liz rolled her eyes. “It’s not that early, you guys. Just don’t get too wild on Friday. It’s simple.” She sighed and put a mental checkmark next to that line of her list. “Okay, onto other concerns . . . we’re supposed to go to a summer camp, but I have no idea which camp it is or where it is or what we do there. Does anyone know anything about that?”

“I have a question,” one of the girls, Tracy, interrupted. “What are we supposed to do about practice this summer? ‘Cause I don’t know about the rest of you guys, but I’m going home to Wisconsin.”

“I’m gonna be home in Rhode Island,” another girl piped up.

“Delaware.”

“Texas.”

Liz sighed, feeling the stress start to pile on. “I . . . I don’t know what we do about that.”

“Online practices,” Pam suggested. “Everything’s online nowadays.” She laughed at herself and added, “No, never mind. That would be totally queer.”

“You know what, I think I’ll just have to ask Maria what we do about that,” Liz told them.

“Are you serious, Liz?” Pam spat. “You give that bitch an inch, she’ll squeeze her way back in. She’ll try to take control of this team again. You know she will.”

“Look, I’m just trying to be a good leader,” Liz assured them, “and part of being a good leader is knowing enough to ask for help when you need it. And let’s face it, we need it big-time.” It wasn’t fun to admit to that, but there it was. “Okay, I want you guys to go practice the dance some more. The hip-hop one, not the other one. And while you’re doing that, I’m gonna give Maria a call.”

The girls reluctantly set their water bottles down and stood up from the bleachers, sluggishly making their way out to the center of the gymnasium again.

“Great, the bitch is back,” Liz heard Pam mumble to Tracy. “Only this time she’s brunette.”

Tracy threw her head back and laughed.

Liz just stood there and let them get away with saying it. Now she really felt as though she had Maria’s life. She had her dance team, her popularity, and even Michael. But somehow . . . it wasn’t as great as she thought it would be.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria decided to plant herself on the couch the next day. If she just laid there and watched TV, maybe she wouldn’t have to endure her daily dosage of real-life drama.

She was flipping channels when she landed on the game show Family Feud. She smiled a little, thinking about what it would be like if she and Michael and Max and Kyle went on that show. Max and Kyle would both do well. She and Michael would probably end up feuding with each other.

Just as she was beginning to think about the infamous M. Guerin, which was exactly what she didn’t want to do, he strolled out of his bedroom with his backpack slung on one shoulder.

“Where are you going?” she asked him, willing herself not to think about the countertop intimacy.

“Spanish final,” he muttered in reply as he shoved his shoes onto his feet. “You’re vibrating.”

Wait a minute, had he just said . . . what the hell did that mean? “What?”

“Your phone.”

She took a look at her phone. It was indeed vibrating on the coffee table, making an annoying buzzing sound. “Oh, right.” She sat up, reached for the phone, and saw that the person calling her was someone she hadn’t spoken to over the phone for a long time. “It’s Liz,” she said, her mind immediately fearing the worst. Had Liz found out about her and Michael somehow?

Michael looked worried, too, but he said, “It’s probably just some dance team thing. Answer it.”

Nervously, she flipped open her phone and said, “Hello?”

“Hey, Maria, it’s Liz.”

“Yeah?” Her heart pounded as the fear of being found out grew stronger.

“I hope you don’t mind me calling. I’m just . . . I’m kind of having some dance team problems.”

“Oh.” She breathed a small sigh of relief and echoed, “Dance team problems.”

A wave of relief crashed across Michael’s face, too, and a second later, he was gone, out the door. Maria doubted he would be back at all that day. He was probably going to avoid her more than ever now, and she wasn’t looking forward to it.

“Maria, you still there?”

Once again, she’d been spacing on the phone. “Yeah, yeah. Sorry, what were you saying?”

“I’m just feeling really overwhelmed and sort of confused by all this dance team stuff. I was wondering if we could meet after finals week wraps up here, maybe Saturday? Would you be willing to help me out with some stuff?”

I should’ve known, Maria thought to herself. If Liz is calling me, it’s because she needs help with something.

“Maria?”

“Uh . . . huh? Yeah.”

“You’ll help me?”

How could she not? It was the dance team. She could never truly abandon the dance team. “Yeah, I’ll help you.” Part of her agreeableness probably stemmed from guilt, too. Just last night, she’d been getting busy with the girl’s boyfriend. The least she could do was lend Liz a hand.

“Oh, thank you so much, Maria. I really appreciate it.”

Now I feel bad, Maria thought. She and Liz had fallen out as friends, but still . . .

“Okay so . . . how does Saturday morning sound?”

“Uh, I can’t, actually. I have to work,” Maria remembered.

“Okay, well . . . Saturday evening then, maybe? We’re having a practice at noon, and it could take awhile. We kinda suck right now.”

“No, you guys don’t suck,” Maria assured her. “Saturday evening’s fine.”

“Okay, great. Thanks again, Maria.”

Maria winced as she said, “You’re welcome.” If only Liz knew . . . she wouldn’t be saying thank you if she knew. Maybe fuck you, but not thank you.

“Okay, bye.”

Maria didn’t even say goodbye as she closed her phone. “You’re welcome,” she whispered again. She felt like such a hypocrite saying those words.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

On his way to the building where his Spanish final was taking place, Michael ran into Liz coming out of the dance team gymnasium. “Hey!” she chirped, skipping towards him. She smiled and rose up on her tip-toes, and he gave her a quick kiss on the lips. He didn’t get worked up at all seeing her. Seeing Maria, on the other hand, drove him out of his mind.

“Are you gonna go take your Spanish final?” she asked him.

“Yep.”

“I gotta go take my history one,” she said. “Should be okay, though. Max and I covered everything.”

He just nodded.

She gave him a confused look and asked, “God, Michael, how late did you stay up studying last night? You’re really out of it.”

He scratched his eyebrow and told her, “Couldn’t sleep.” And that was the truth. It wasn’t studying that had kept him awake, though. It was Maria. Thoughts of Maria that he was ashamed of having, even though he enjoyed having them.

“Well, hopefully your final goes okay,” she said, patting his chest. “I’m sure it will.”

“I hope so. I gotta go.” He tried to smile at her, but it didn’t really happen, so he sort of just walked away.

“Good luck!” she called after him. “Te amo!

He wasn’t very good at Spanish, but he knew enough to know that meant ‘I love you.’ Not good. Not good at all.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Max wasn’t sure why Maria had decided to be TV-bound that day. She lay on the couch for hours, only getting up to go to the bathroom. It was okay, though. She could have a lazy day if she wanted to. Then his proposal would be all the more exciting.

He had taken his ring out of his sock drawer and stuffed it in his pocket earlier that morning so that he could be ready to pop the question whenever the time was right. As she lay there on the couch watching a re-run of The Simpsons, he stood in the kitchen, gazing at her, and asked himself, Why not right now? He wasn’t a particularly spontaneous guy, but he could be. And spontaneous proposals were supposedly the best.

“Maria,” he said, reaching into his pocket.

She didn’t turn around.

“Maria.”

Maybe she didn’t hear him?

“Maria.”

Finally, she sat up a little and looked at him. “Yeah. What is it, Max?”

He grasped the small box with his fingers, rolling it around in his hand. As much as he couldn’t wait for her to agree to be his wife, he didn’t want to propose with the voice of Homer Simpson in the background. No, he could wait, make it spontaneous and romantic.

“I was just wondering if you wanted to go out for lunch,” he said instead.

“I’m not really that hungry.”

“But you didn’t even eat dinner last night. You sure?”

“Yeah. Thanks anyway, Max.” She lay back down.

“Okay,” he said, taking his hand out of his pocket. “You don’t want me to make you a sandwich or anything?”

“No, I’m alright.”

“Okay,” he said again, trying to think of what he could do. He had to do something to keep his mind off of his pending proposal. If only he had something to study . . .

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael wasn’t able to come up with an excuse for not spending time with Liz that night, so he went over to her dorm room and prayed to God she didn’t feel like having sex, because as much as he loved it, he couldn’t have it right now. Not with Liz. Not with Maria, either. Not with anyone. He and Rosy Palm were going to become good friends for awhile. Just for awhile.

“So how do you think your final went?” Liz asked him. They were lying on her bed, and she was curled up against his side.

“Fine,” he replied. These direct, one-word answers were becoming a bad habit with Liz.

“I think my history final went really well, too,” she said. “I don’t wanna get my hopes up, but it could even be a perfect score.”

“Good job.” There. That was a two-word answer. That was good.

She smiled and moved even closer to him, if that was possible. It was pretty obvious what she had on her mind. I’ve turned my girlfriend into a horn-dog, he thought. Normally, he would have been proud of that, but right now, it was exactly what he didn’t want.

“We should celebrate,” she suggested, smiling mischievously.

“Oh, yeah? How do you wanna do that?”

“I don’t know.”

Oh, she knew. He was sure of it. He knew, too. “You wanna go out to eat or something?” he asked, offering to spend money he didn’t really have.

She shook her head and said, “Not so much.”

Oh, here we go, he thought as he watched her sit up and grab the strings of the silky robe she was wearing. She untied the robe and opened it, letting it fall down her shoulders to reveal the very sexy black lingerie she was wearing underneath. She looked good. She really did. But still . . .

“You know, I think Forrest Gump’s on tonight,” he blurted out.

She gave him a puzzled look. “What?”

Stupid. It was a stupid thing to say, but he just kept on talking. “We should watch it. It’s a good movie.”

Her confused expression turned into a full-on frown. “You wanna watch a movie?”

“Well, you know, I am a director.” He tried to laugh, but even he noticed how forced it sounded.

Still frowning, she put her robe back on and tied it up again. “What’s wrong with you?” she finally came right out and asked him.

He grunted. “What, just ‘cause I don’t wanna have sex, that means there’s something wrong with me?”

“No, it’s just . . . ever since I’ve come back from Nebraska, it’s like you haven’t been yourself.”

“I’m myself,” he insisted. “You know what? You wanna have sex, we’ll have sex.”

“No, we’ll just watch the movie,” she said, grabbing her remote control off her desk before lying down next to him again. She turned on the TV and asked, “What channel?”

He sighed in frustration. “I don’t know.”

She flipped through the channels for a minute and found it without much effort. Michael was relieved. Forrest Gump was the first movie that had come to mind. Luckily, it was always on some channel or another.

“Did you give it up for lent or something?” Liz blurted after only seconds of silences.

“What?”

“Sex. Because lent’s over, Michael.”

“I don’t even know what lent is, Liz.”

“Well, then . . . is it me?” she asked softly. “Do you not want me anymore?”

He sighed again. Now he’d gone and done it. Now he had her blaming herself, and she wasn’t the problem. “No, Liz . . .” He took the remote control from her and turned off the TV. He rolled over onto his side to face her and said, “I want you.” But in his mind, he was saying the words to Maria.

She still looked a little sad, so he cupped her cheek with his hand, leaned in, and kissed her. She kissed him back, and soon his hands were untying her bathrobe, revealing the lingerie again. Sex wasn’t exactly the perfect solution, but at least it would lessen her suspicions.

I’m not a good guy.









TBC . . .

-April

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Parts 96 and 97

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REPOSTING SOME PARTS THAT WERE LOST DURING THE BOARD BACK-UP!








Part 96









Maria sighed as she plopped back down on the couch, bored out of her mind. She had had the most uneventful day ever. She felt as though she had gained about five pounds, because she had done literally nothing, just sat and watched TV. And to be honest, even TV-watching wasn’t an effective strategy for getting her mind off of Michael. She was still thinking about him every waking moment, even though he wasn’t there. He was probably with Liz. She didn’t even want to think about what they were doing with their night. She had a feeling they weren’t watching Forrest Gump, which was exactly what she planned to do.

“Maria?”

She glanced up when Max cleared his throat and said her name. He had been hanging around all day. He wasn’t tutoring tonight, either. Hopefully he wasn’t wanting to spend any one-on-one time together, because . . . that was not a good idea right now. If she was in bed with Max, she was likely to do something stupid like moan Michael’s name. She’d done it before. It was an easy thing to do.

“Can I . . . can I talk to you for a minute?”

There was no way out of it. She and Max were the only two home. “Sure,” she said.

“You wanna . . . come here?” He stepped towards his closed bedroom door.

Oh, no, she thought. He does want one-on-one. “You wanna watch Forrest Gump, Max?” she asked.

“Well, maybe later,” he said. “You wanna just come here for a minute?”

She sighed and stood up. Her legs were stiff. She had barely used them all day. She followed Max into his bedroom. When she stepped inside, she was greeted with the soft, romantic glow of about two dozen candles. Max had set them up all over his room. It looked really warm and cozy in there.

“Do you like the ambiance?” he asked, smiling a smile that stretched from ear to ear. “I tried to . . . create an ambiance.”

“There’s an ambiance,” she assured him, looking around some more. “What’s this all about, Max? Is there an anniversary I forgot about?” How was that for a role-reversal? Usually it was the men who forgot about anniversaries and the women who insisted on celebrating them.

“No, this isn’t our anniversary,” Max said. “Actually, I don’t know when our anniversary is. But maybe from now on, it should be today, because I think today’s a pretty big day in our lives.”

She gave him a confused look, because she hadn’t the slightest clue what he was talking about. “Max, I sat on my ass all day.”

“You did,” he agreed. “No offense.”

“None taken.” She was still confused. Why was this day so important to him?

Max cleared his throat and looked down at his hands. His fingers were shaking. He looked nervous. What did he have to be nervous about?

“Max, are you okay?” She asked him the same question he had been asking her since Sunday night after her first kiss with Michael.

“I’m perfect, Maria,” he said, his eyes locking with hers again. “I’ve never been happier.”

“Seriously?”

He chuckled. “Seriously. And do you know why that is?” He came forward and took one of her hands in both of his. “It’s all because of you.”

She took in a shuddering breath, suddenly feeling quite nervous herself. Was this one of those romantic pre-coital speeches? It sure sounded like it.

“I never thought that someone like you would fall in love with someone like me,” he went on to say.

“Someone like me?” she questioned.

“You know, someone . . . beautiful and hilarious, untamed, exhilarating. Someone adventurous and passionate and uninhibited. I never thought . . .” He trailed off and shook his head. “I just never thought you’d see anything more than a friend in me. I knew I was in love with you the moment I first saw you.”

“Max--” She didn’t want to hear anymore, but he kept going.

“I never thought you’d fall in love with me. But you did.”

She didn’t. She never would.

“You did, Maria, and . . . you’ve made me so happy.”

How have I done that? she wondered. What fantasy world was Max living in that she made him happy? Because she was a horrible girlfriend. She hadn’t been faithful to him, and even when she had been faithful, she’d always been cheating. Because her heart was and always had been with Michael. Her passion was always with Michael. It had never been with Max. It was all a lie. Why couldn’t he just see that? Why couldn’t she bring herself to make him see it?

He grasped her hand tighter and kept on gushing. “I love you, Maria. So much. You’re my girlfriend. You’re my best friend.” He let out a steady breath, and then all of a sudden he let go of her hand and got down on one knee.

“Oh my god,” she whispered in horror as realization dawned upon her. He was proposing.

He reached into his pocket, pulled out a small black box, held it out to her, and opened it. Inside was exactly what every girl longed to see someday, a beautiful diamond ring. But coming from him, meant for her . . . it was her worst nightmare.

Max smiled and said, “I would be honored to call you my wife. And I would be ecstatic to be your husband.”

She just stared down at him, her mouth agape, her eyes wide. Maria Evans? That was so wrong.

“I wanna grow old with you, Maria. I wanna live my life with you. I wanna start a family with you.” He must have noticed the way her eyes almost bulged out of her head when he said that last part, because he quickly added, “Someday.” He smiled, looking so sincere and so sweet and so . . . Max. “You’re the one for me,” he said. “There’s never been anyone else.”

She had someone else. She had a big someone else. How could he not know?

“So what do you say?” he asked, sounding so excited, so hopeful. “Will you make the happiest, luckiest man on earth? Maria DeLuca, will you marry me?”

The tears welled up in her eyes instantly as she prepared herself to break his heart. Because it needed to be done. She had lied and lied and lied some more to him, but no longer. This was the breaking point. This was the end.

“No.”

At first, it didn’t seem to register with him, because he just kept on smiling. But after a few seconds, his smile faded into a look of confusion. He stared up at her and seemed to wonder if he was hearing her right.

Why did you do this, Max? she wondered. Why did I let you do this?

“Oh,” he said, looking down at the floor as he lowered the ring. He looked devastated. “Wow.” He closed the box and stuffed the ring back in his pocket, but he didn’t stand up just yet. He remained on one knee, just staring at the floor in shock. And she remained standing there, mortified with herself. I am a horrible person, she thought without restraint. She had never truly hated herself until now.

“I’m sorry, Max,” she apologized. When she blinked, a few tears fell over.

“No, it’s okay,” Max said, sounding dazed. “I, uh . . .” He reached up and grabbed onto his desk to assist himself in standing up. “I guess I just . . . thought you’d say yes, but . . .”

She sniffed back the violent emotion that wanted let out. “Max . . .” She tried to reach out to touch him, but he backed away.

“No, don’t . . .” He finally lifted his head again to look at her. There was such sadness in his eyes, eyes that had just moments ago been so full of energy and hope. “I’m sorry, Maria. I don’t mean to be abrasive, but . . .” He trailed off again.

He shouldn’t be apologizing to me, Maria thought. No one should be apologizing to me. I don’t deserve it.

“You never picture the girl you love saying no,” Max said, his voice cracking as he spoke. “You picture her saying yes over and over again. You make up all kinds of scenarios in your head, each one better than the last. But you never picture her saying no.”

“Max, I just . . .” She didn’t know what to say. How did she go about telling him everything he needed to hear? She didn’t want to be brutally honest, because she didn’t want to break his heart any more than she already had. But she didn’t want to prolong it anymore, either, because it was torture to the both of them, and he deserved some answers.

“Can you just tell me why you don’t want to?” he asked surprisingly calmly. “I mean, we’re . . . we’re in love. Why don’t you wanna get married, Maria?”

Her mouth trembled as more tears fell over. There was no nice way to do this.

“Is it too soon?” he asked. “Are we too young? Because I can wait. I can ask you again next year, if you want. Maybe you’ll be ready next year?”

She sadly shook her head.

“The year after that?”

She shook her head again.

He sighed shakily and said, “Okay. Well, that’s okay. We don’t have to get married. Lots of couples don’t get married, and they’re happy.” His mouth was shaking too. He seemed to finally sense that something was terribly wrong with their situation. “We’re gonna be happy, right, Maria? I mean, we’re . . . we’re gonna be together, right? You’re not . . . you’re not breaking up with me.” He didn’t say the last part as a question, but he sounded unsure nonetheless.

Just say something, she told herself. Don’t just stand there and shake your head. Use your words. Max needs to hear what you have to say.

“Max,” she choked out determinedly. “I need to tell you something.”

Max crossed his arms over his chest and shifted back and forth on his feet, looking as though he were about to have either a stroke or a nervous breakdown. But he held it together. “What?”

Oh, god. She’d known this was coming, but she’d had no idea how hard it would be. She wished she had never let it get this far. She wished she had never let it start.

“Maria, what?” he demanded. His voice was stern now. He wasn’t in the mood for delays.

She tried to think of the essence of their problem. What was the real, main issue here? Michael was a part of it, but he wasn’t all of it. It was . . . her. It was her. She was the problem.

Just say it. Say it, Maria.

She couldn’t look him in the eye when she spoke. She lowered her gaze and frowned and forced the unfriendly words to cross over her lips. “I’m not in love with you, Max.” She bit her bottom lip and braced herself for his reaction, but all she got was silence. That silence made it so she had to look at him again, just to try to see what he was thinking.

“You’re . . .” He looked shell-shocked, didn’t know what to say. “What do you mean?” he asked.

“I’m not in love with you,” she repeated, forcing herself to be direct. “I never have been.”

He clenched his jaw shut as he began to tear up. He started crying despite his obvious will not to. “No, no, that-that can’t be true,” he stuttered. “‘Cause you said, Maria . . . you said the words. You said ‘I love you.’ You told me that. I remember.”

She hated this. She hated everything about it, but he had to hear it. “I lied.”

His tears started falling faster. He was so sad. She was hurting him so much.

“Max, I just said it,” she confessed, struggling to maintain her own emotion. “It just came out. I didn’t . . . I didn’t mean it.”

“How could you not mean it, Maria? God!” he ground out. “I don’t understand this.”

A giant sob wracked her body, and she began to lose control of herself. Salty tears flowed from her eyes like waterfalls as she grabbed onto his hands and begged him not to hate her. “Max! Max, you are one of my best friends. I do love you. I do. I just . . . I’m just not in love with you.”

“Oh, save it, Maria!” he yelled, jerking his hands away from her. It was the first time he had ever sounded truly angry with her. “Tell me. If you don’t . . . if you don’t love me, then why are you with me?” His voice shook violently. It shook right along with his jaw and his hands and all the rest of him.

Still crying a river, she just stood there and shook her head.

Answer me!” he shouted. “Come on, Maria, you owe me an answer!”

She did. She knew she did. And she couldn’t very well back out now. She had rejected his proposal and she had started to tell him the truth. She had to tell him the whole truth now.

“Why are you with me, Maria?”

Why was she?

“Why are you with me?”

She took in a shuddering breath and let it out as she gave him his reply. “Michael.”

He froze. Literally everything about his froze. His tears ceased to flow, his shaking stopped as well. He stared at for several moments in which she wondered if he were alive anymore, and suddenly he started moving again, blazing with anger.

“Oh, no, no, no, no!” he yelled, walking away from her. “No, I knew it.” He slammed his hand against the wall. The vibration caused one of the candles near him to flicker out. “I knew it. I knew it. I fucking knew it!”

She just stood there and cried. What had she done? How had she made such a mess of things? How was it possible?

“I knew it!”

“Max, if you really did know, then--”

“Shut up,” he growled.

She didn’t know what to say to that. She was too stupefied. Max had never spoken to her that way before. He had every reason to right now, but it was still a major shock to her system to hear him say that.

“I’m gonna ask you a question,” he said, slowly making his way back toward her, “and I want a one-word answer. Yes or no. Nothing else. You got it?”

She nodded and looked down at the floor again. She already knew what he was going to ask.

“Do you have feelings for Michael?”

She closed her eyes and nodded. There was no more denying it. She had denied it too long already.

“Say it,” Max said.

“Max--”

“Say it!”

“Yes!” she screamed. Her body heaved. She couldn’t stop crying.

“How long?” Max asked, his voice barely above a whisper as he asked that question.

She shrugged as she tried to get herself under control. That was one question she honestly didn’t have an answer to. “Probably eight years,” she figured.

“Oh, that’s great, Maria,” Max muttered, holding his forehead in one of his hands.

She swallowed hard, hating every second of this. “I didn’t realize it, Max. I honestly didn’t know. But one day Liz came up to me and--”

“Liz?” he interrupted.

“Yeah. She said Michael was in love with me, and it freaked me out. Okay, I was not happy. But I had to take a step back and think about what I felt for him, and what I realized was-was that . . .” She paused for a long, drawn-out moment, trying to think of the right way to say what needed to be said. “I have something with him that I don’t have with anyone else.”

Max grunted angrily. “Like what? What could you possibly have with him that you don’t have with me?”

This was going to hurt. She had no doubt about it. “Passion.”

His expression of anger was replaced by a look of defeat when she said that. He seemed to be resigning himself to what he didn’t want to believe to be true.

“You know it’s true, don’t you?” she guessed.

He shook his head stubbornly. “It’s not true.”

“It is.”

“Well, fine, then if you have so much passion with him, why did you waste all this time with me?” he growled. “I still don’t understand.”

She swallowed hard again and forced the truth out. It wasn’t easy. “Michael came to me one night, and he asked me who I had feelings for. He just knew. I don’t know how. But he asked me, and I just . . . I just blurted out the first name that came to mind.”

“Oh,” he said slowly. “And did that name happen to be my name?”

She looked away from him again. There was no excuse for what she had done.

“Oh, god, Maria.” He held his head back, looked up at the ceiling, and blinked back tears. He looked truly pained now. His expression was one of pure pain. And it killed her knowing she was the sole cause behind that pain. “So it was all a lie? Everything we he had . . . did we ever have anything at all?”

“Max . . . we have a meaningful friendship.”

“A-a meaningful friendship?” he spat. “Is this how you treat your meaningful friends? You lie to them and lead them on and make them think you’re in love with them, but really you’re in love with someone else? I mean . . . whenever I kissed you or put my arm around you, did you wish it was Michael? Whenever I told you I loved you, did you wish it was Michael? Whenever we . . .” He trailed off, clearly so devastated.

“What do you want me to say, Max?”

“I want you to say . . . I just want you to say that when we were . . . together . . . that you weren’t thinking about anyone else, that you were just thinking about me. Please.” His ever-changing expression changed to a begging, pleading look this time. That was all he wanted to hear. But she was through lying.

“I can’t say that, Max.”

He just shook his head and cried some more. “Dammit, Maria.”

“Max, I’m so sorry.”

“We slept together. And I’m supposedly a meaningful friend? I thought we made love, but apparently we didn’t since we were never in love. Fuck!”

“Max--”

“How could you do that, Maria? How could you have sex with me over and over again if we don’t even have any passion? How could you be so horrible?”

“I don’t know, Max,” she squeaked out.

“You’re a horrible person, Maria. I’ve finally realized it.”

It was true. She knew it was true.

“You are not all those things I said you were. You are ugly and cruel and selfish and impulsive. You’re manipulative and deceitful. You are no longer the girl of my dreams.”

Even though hearing him say that hurt, she knew it was nothing compared to the hurt he was feeling, so she just stood there and took it.

“Were you even faithful to me?”

She felt her stomach tighten. Sprinklers. Counter. Those were the only two words that came to mind.

“You cheated on me, didn’t you?”

She could have tried to distort it, tried to convince him that it wasn’t really cheating since she didn’t actually sleep with Michael. But she knew in her heart that she had cheated, and Max probably knew it now, too.

“I did,” she confessed.

Max shook his head slowly. “Unbelievable. So if you cheated on me, that means Michael cheated on Liz.”

That was true, too.

“Liz doesn’t deserve that. Unlike you and bastard lover, she’s a good person.”

“Max, you can’t say anything.”

“Oh, I can’t?”

“It’s not up to you to tell her. She’s Michael’s girlfriend.”

“Right. She’s his girlfriend; I’m your boyfriend, yet you guys are havin’ sex with each other?”

“I didn’t have sex with him,” she made sure to tell him.

“You really expect me to believe that after all the other lies you’ve told?”

“I’m not lying this time, Max. I did not sleep with Michael. I have never slept with Michael.”

“But you slept with me. I lost my virginity to you, Maria. Liz lost her virginity to Michael. And what do we get for that? Betrayed.”

“Michael and I . . . we kissed, Max, and then we . . . did a little more than kissing, but we never slept together.”

“But you wanted to.”

She blinked back her tears and silently acknowledged that. “But I didn’t. That has to mean something, right?”

“No, you don’t get any credit here, Maria. I don’t know whether to believe you or not. But it doesn’t matter much, does it? You slept with Michael or you didn’t. Regardless, you’re still a monster who broke my heart. You lied to me for months. You used our friendship. You used me.”

“Max, I . . . I wish I hadn’t done this, believe me. It just . . . escalated out of control. I felt like I couldn’t stop it.”

“If you want something to stop, Maria, you say stop. You hit the brake pedal. You don’t hit the gas.” He shook his head sadly. “You didn’t hit the brakes.”

She wiped the tears off her face and raked her hands through her hair. “Then I wish I had told you the truth sooner.”

“Why didn’t you?”

“‘Cause I just . . . I didn’t wanna hurt you. And I realized that letting it go on for so long was gonna hurt you even more in the long run, but I was just-I was too much of a coward to say something. And Max, you may hate me right now, but trust me, I hate myself just as much. Probably even more.”

He looked down at his feet and muttered, “You’re right.”

She was?

“I do hate you.”

Now it was time for her heart to break. One of her best friends hated her the way so many other people did. And she deserved it.

He reached into his pocket and pulled out the little black box again, the one with the ring inside. He held it in the palm of his hand, stared at it, and seethed, “I can’t believe I wanted to marry you,” as he curled his fingers around it and squeezed. He looked as though he wanted to crush it.

“Max--”

“Get out. Get out of my sight, you selfish bitch.”

And that was it. Max was telling her to get out, and she no longer had any right to stay. She had now told him the truth, destroyed all the lies she had built up over the past four months, and now she doubted that they would ever be friends again. He might never say another word to her. He might never cast another glance at her. She had done the unthinkable, and she had done it well.

Ashamed, horrified, and saddened, she sulked out of Max’s room and went back to her bedroom instead. She kept picturing herself on the counter with Michael and then Max getting down on one knee. Everything had changed now. Everything.

Sometimes she really hated being Maria DeLuca. This was one of those times.








TBC . . .

-April









Part 97








Max collapsed onto the floor in a heap, unable to stay standing once Maria was gone. It felt like a nightmare. Everything that had just happened felt like a horrible nightmare. He kept hoping to wake up. He thought that maybe he would soon, that he would open his eyes to find that it had just been a bad dream, but his eyes were already open. Finally, they were all the way open. And now he was in his own personal hell.

He pressed his head against his bed and gave himself free reign to cry like a baby. In a matter of minutes, his whole life had been turned upside down. Everything that he had pictured in his future . . . it wouldn’t happen now. Because he and Maria . . . there was no such thing. Max Evans and Maria DeLuca were no longer a couple. They never really had been. All his worst fears had turned out to be true. Maria did have feelings for Michael, and everything she had let him believe they shared was a lie.

He proposed. She said no.

He asked her if she’d cheated on him. She said yes.

This was without a doubt the worst day of his life. He’d lost his girlfriend. He’d lost his friend. He’d lost his future. It had slipped right through his grasp because of passion. Because Maria didn’t think they had any.

My life is over, he thought, not caring if he was being a little melodramatic. Maybe it wasn’t really over, but it sure as hell felt that way.

He tried to calm himself with a few deep, even breaths, but he knew he would be in a state of emotional turmoil for the rest of the night. And if he was going to be such a train wreck, he didn’t want to be a train wreck around Maria. He didn’t want to see her. He didn’t want to talk to her. He didn’t want to be anywhere near her. Not now. Maybe not ever again.

He had to get out of there.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria wasn’t sure if she should be crying or not. Did she deserve to? Did she have the right? She was, after all, the bad guy. Max was the good guy. But she lay on her bed anyway and cried and wiped at her puffy, red eyes, hoping that somehow everything would work out, that she and Max would be able to be friends again someday, that they would get past this, that he would forgive her. Even the bad guy could feel bad about doing bad things. And she had done a lot of bad things.

She heard the front door open, and she hoped it was Max coming back. She’d heard him leave a little while ago. If he came back, they could talk some more, and maybe he wouldn’t hate her . . .

She jumped up off her bed and ran out into the living room. “Max?” It had to be the one time in her life when she’d been disappointed to see Michael instead. “Oh. Michael.”

He just walked right past her down the hallway to his bedroom.

She took in a deep, heavy breath and slowly let it out, trying not to start sobbing again. She felt as though both Max and Michael were furious with her, and it was driving her insane. Michael didn’t shut the door to his room, though, so she took that as a sign that, deep down, he did want to talk to her.

She went to stand in his doorway and asked him, “Are you mad at me?”

“Why would I be mad at you?” he asked in return.

Don’t cry. Don’t cry. “Everyone’s mad at me.”

He just crossed his arms over his chest and stared down at his bed, frowning. “I’m not mad at you. I’m mad at myself,” he mumbled. “I slept with Liz tonight and I feel pretty crappy about it.”

That was definitely something to feel crappy about, but she suspected she was feeling a lot worse. “I broke up with Max,” she blurted.

This caught his attention. He turned his head sharply to look her right in the eye, not bothering to hide his bewilderment. “Why would you do that?”

“Because I almost slept with you last night and I feel pretty crappy about it,” she mimicked. “And he proposed to me.”

Michael’s face registered full-on shock. “What?”

She nodded sadly, remembering that hopeful look on his face, that liveliness in his eyes. “He asked me to me to marry him.” She could still barely believe it.

“Well, what’d you say?”

“Well, obviously I didn’t say yes.” She sighed, distraught. “He so angry, Michael. I’ve never seen him that angry before. And he was so sad.”

“What’d you tell him?”

This he wasn’t going to like. “The truth.” She shrugged. “I told him everything.”

“Everything?”

She nodded. “I told him about us. I told him I cheated on him, ‘cause I did. And whether you wanna face it or not, you cheated on Liz, too.”

His face fell. Despite his obvious jackass qualities, Michael obviously was trying to do things right with Liz. He wasn’t succeeding, but he was definitely trying, and she could understand his frustration.

“Well, he’s not gonna tell Liz, is he?” he asked her. “‘Cause I don’t want her to know.”

“He still has to comprehend it himself. I don’t think he’ll say anything,” she assured him. “But you probably should.”

“I don’t want to.” Now it was his turn to let out a distressed sigh. “Liz and I are moving in together.”

And now it was her turn to be completely and utterly flabbergasted. “What?”

He nodded. “We got an apartment, filled out the paperwork. We’re moving in together after graduation.”

Wrong, she thought. So wrong. Everything was so messed up. One big web of lies and heartache and betrayal. She wouldn’t be surprised if they all ended up alone.

“This day kinda sucks,” he muttered, thus making the understatement of the year. “I’m gonna go to the bar.” He pushed past her, and she just stood there and tried to process the new information. Michael and Liz . . . and an apartment? Michael was moving out? Michael wasn’t going to live with her anymore? She might not see him every single day? She might not talk to him every single day? How was she supposed to do that?

Don’t cry. Don’t cry. She really didn’t want to, but she couldn’t stop a few more tears from falling over. She was losing all her friends. She was losing her family, because they were in fact her family. Her whole world was ending. Her life was falling apart. And it was all her fault.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael walked out of the house, feeling like a jerk. He wasn’t doing the right thing by keeping secrets from Liz. He knew that. But it was easier to do the wrong thing than the right thing sometimes.

He knew he had just piled a lot more crap on Maria, too. Max had proposed to her, she’d broken up with him and subsequently broken his heart, and now he might have broken hers by telling her he was moving in with Liz. He didn’t just feel like a jerk. He was a jerk. For once in his life, he wasn’t really enjoying being Michael Guerin. He would have loved to be anyone else. Besides Max.

He sat down on the front steps and ran his hands through his hair, stressed. Everything was pretty fucked up to say the least. And he had no idea how to make anything right. So until he knew how to do the right thing, he was just going to have to keep doing the wrong thing. Because it was easier.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Max went out to the lake that night, stood out on a dock, and soaked in the solitude. He would have to get used to it. He would be alone a lot more now. Probably for the rest of his life. Maria was the one girl who had shown an interest in him out of twenty-two years of his life, and it hadn’t been a genuine interest. That didn’t bode well for the future.

He reached down into his pocket and put his hand on the box the ring was in. Anger arose within him as he remembered the way he had gotten down on one knee, all excited smiles and useless hopefulness. Everyone thought he was so smart, but he felt so stupid. He felt like an idiot. And that proposal seemed like a different lifetime already.

He took the box out of his pocket, opened it up, and took out the ring. He rolled it around his hand, wishing he could break it. He was angry, but he still wasn’t that strong. So he took one last look at it, thought of Maria, and furiously threw it into the water. There. It was gone now. Hopefully it would sink down to the bottom of the lake. Hopefully he would never see it again. He didn’t want to.

Drinking time.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael walked into the Fog Horn bar that night with a mission: get plastered and forget about all the crap going on. He was taking a page out of Maria’s book.

He sat down at the bar, and when the bartender asked him what he wanted he said, “Just make me the strongest drink you can.” He doubted anything was going to get him drunk, though. He was very, very sober at the moment and didn’t see that changing for awhile.

He pressed his hand to his forehead and tried to recall a time when things had been normal. It hadn’t been that long ago. Not really. Just about four days ago. They had been at the car bash, and everything had been fine. Fun. And then he’d kissed Maria and . . . well, the kiss itself had been amazing. But the aftermath sucked. For everyone.

“Refill! Refill!”

What the hell? Michael thought when he heard a familiar voice shouting out. Is that Max? He looked around and noticed that his friend was indeed at the other end of the bar. He was holding up an empty glass in his hand and spinning around on the barstool, looking more than a little plastered.

“Refill! I need a refill!”

It was strange to see, drunken Max. Max had never drank a drop before. He was a responsible guy like that. Michael couldn’t really claim to be surprised, though. The guy’s girlfriend had rejected his proposal, broken up with him, and admitted to being unfaithful to him. It didn’t get much worse than that.

Max stopped spinning suddenly when he laid eyes on Michael. He glared at him and slammed his empty glass down on the counter.

Oh damn, he pissed, Michael thought, quickly getting to his feet. He tried to hurry for the door, but Max stumbled through the crowd and somehow caught up with him.

“Hey!” he shouted, jumping in front of him. “Where do you think you’re goin’?”

Max’s breath didn’t even smell that heavily of alcohol. He’d probably gotten wasted off a couple of beers. No one could help being a lightweight at first.

“I said, where do you think you’re goin’, Michael?” Max repeated, sounding angry. “We need to talk.”

“Let’s talk at home,” Michael suggested. He didn’t want this conversation to go down here where everyone could see. It was possible that someone at the bar might get back to Liz . . .

“No, right here!” Max insisted, staggering a bit. “How could you do this to me, man? I loved her. I was in love with her.”

Michael knew he had done an awful thing. He had violated a trust; he had violated a friendship. All he could say was, “I’m sorry, Max.” How many times had he apologized to someone within the last four days? Too many.

“I asked her to marry me!” Max yelled, obviously on the brink of losing it. “She said no. Do you have any idea what that’s like?”

“No, I don’t,” he answered honestly.

“No, you don’t! But I . . . I loved her. Why isn’t that enough?”

Michael had to admit, he hadn’t given enough thought to Max. When he and Maria had first kissed, he’d thought about himself, he’d thought about Maria, and he’d thought about Liz. But he had barely thought about Max, a guy who was one of his best friends.

“Maxwell--”

Max’s fist collided with his face, effectively cutting him off. Michael didn’t retaliate. He just stood there and let the taste of blood fill his mouth. He’d bit his lip. It hurt a little, but it was probably nothing compared to the pain Max was feeling. So it was okay. He deserved it.

“That’s for sleeping with Maria,” Max said before curling his hand into a fist again and punching Michael hard in the face again. “And that’s for sleeping with Liz.”

Michael didn’t even bother to tell him he didn’t sleep with Maria. Max was so angry, he wasn’t going to want to listen. And he was so drunk, he wouldn’t remember much in the morning.

Max was already staggering out the door when the bouncer came over to break up any potential fight. Michael followed him. Max couldn’t be driving. It wasn’t safe for him.

“Max!” Michael ran across the parking lot and caught up with him. “Maxwell, wait!”

Max got in the driver’s seat and slammed the door. He started the car.

“Maxwell!” Michael shouted, pounding on the window. “Do not drive this car, Max.”

“First you take my girl, now you take my car,” Max mumbled dejectedly.

“Max, come on, man, let me drive you home.”

“Screw you, man. Oh, wait, Maria’s already doin’ that.”

“Max, let me drive.”

“No!”

“Max!”

Max pressed down hard on the accelerator, but the car went forwards instead of backwards, and he ran into the car in front of him. Michael watched helplessly. That was going to make more than a little dent. “Reverse would’ve been a good idea,” Michael muttered.

“Oh, no,” Max said, opening the car door. He poked his head out and said, “I wrecked our car.”

“It’s fine,” Michael insisted, taking a look at it. It didn’t look that bad. It was still drive-able. The car he had just driven into was in much worse shape. “Move over, Max. Let me drive.”

Max sighed and gave in. “Okay.” He put the car in park and started to slide over to the other seat. It took him while to shift over to the passenger’s seat, because he was pretty disoriented. “I just wanna go back,” he kept saying. “I just wanna go back.”

“Sorry,” Michael mumbled again as he climbed into the driver’s seat. He shifted into reverse and backed the battered car out of the parking space.

“What about the other car?” Max asked, pointing out the window with a dazed expression on his face. “I killed it.”

“Ah, we’ll write them a note,” Michael lied as he drove out of the parking lot.

“Does your face hurt,” Max asked, “where I hit you?”

Max pressed his thumb against the left side of his jaw where Max’s fist had made impact. He wouldn’t be surprised if he woke up with a bruise there tomorrow. “Yeah,” he replied. “It does.”

Max rested his head against the back of the seat and shut his eyes. “Good.”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria sat on her bedroom floor, flipping through old photo albums. She could barely see the pictures, though, because her eyes were so clouded with tears. She was an emotional wreck.

She didn’t hold back. She wailed openly; she cried as loudly as she wanted to, because she was the only one home. Sobs wracked her body as she looked at pictures of better times, simpler times. She smiled sadly as she came across a picture of her and Michael dancing at their high school prom, those stupid, oversized crowns on their heads. She almost lost it when she flipped the page and saw a picture of her and Max as sophomores in high school at a Weezer concert they had all gone to. That had been a fun night. She did lose it and broke down when she saw the picture on the adjacent page. It was her and Michael and Max and Kyle at their high school graduation, throwing their hats in the air in celebration.

She cried and cried, her body heaving, her head aching. Her face was so soaked with tears, she felt as though she’d just gotten out of the shower. Everything was falling apart so fast. Kyle was moving out. Michael was moving out. Max would probably be moving out now, too. He didn’t have any reason to stay. She was going to be all alone.

“Ah!” she cried hoarsely, holding one hand over her heart and one hand over her face. She probably would have kept on crying had she not heard the front door open. She quickly quieted herself and wiped the tears from her face, trying to calm the gasping breaths that shook her body. She scrambled to her feet and scurried out of her room and into the living room.

“Michael?” she squeaked out. “Max?” At first she was relieved when she saw them both walking through the living room, but panic seized at her when she noticed Max wasn’t really walking. Michael was more or less carrying him. “Oh my god, is he okay?” she asked Michael.

“He’s fine. He’s just drunk,” Michael told her.

No, he’s not fine, Maria thought. He’s devastated. “Max, I’m so sorry,” she said as she made her way towards him.

“Stay away from me,” he grumbled. He pushed open the door to his bedroom and practically fell inside. The sound of the door slamming and the clicking sound of a lock being turned into place was a pretty clear back-off sign.

Maria gulped back tears, staring at the closed door and shaking. She pictured the photo of her and Max, the one she had just been looking at, and she doubted there would ever be another photo like that again.

Michael didn’t say anything. He just stood there and stared at her for a moment.

“Michael,” she choked out.

And then he walked right past her, just as he had earlier.

“Michael!” The tears spilled over violently then. She couldn’t contain them. She just needed him to talk to her. She followed him down the hallway to his bedroom and pushed open the door just as it was swinging shut. “Why are you mad at me?” she demanded.

“I’m not mad at you, Maria,” he said calmly.

“Yes, you are!”

“No, I’m not,” he insisted.

“Yes, you are!”

No, I’m not!” he roared. “I just . . . it kills me to see you cry, and to know that I’m partly to blame for it . . . . but what am I supposed to do? I can’t just wrap my arms around you and tell you it’s gonna be alright . . . ‘cause maybe it’s not gonna be alright.”

“Oh, great. Encouragement.”

“I just can’t get close to you right now, Maria.”

“You can’t get close to me? I thought we were best friends!”

“We were.”

Were?”

“No, we are. It’s just . . . come on, Maria, you know it’s different.”

She shook her head violently. “I don’t want anything to be different!” she cried.

“We crossed a line, Maria, and if I’m around you, I know I’m gonna cross that line again. And I can’t do that. I can’t be around you.”

“Why not?”

“Because I still have a girlfriend.”

Why?

He just stared at her open-mouthed when she asked him that question. He didn’t say anything. She suspected he didn’t have an answer. So he was with Liz but he didn’t know why he was with her?

“Forget it,” she said, stepping out of the room and shutting his door for him. She wanted to make it back to her bedroom before the wailing started again, but she didn’t have the strength. She pressed her hands to her face and groaned, “I hate this.” She raked her hands through her hair and absolutely sobbed, unable to regain control of herself. She felt like she couldn’t breathe. Her head hurt so much, and she could barely see. “Uh . . .” She felt dizzy. She felt weak. She felt as though she were falling and no one could catch her.

She realized she was literally falling when it was too late. Her head hit the wall, and the last thing she was aware of was Michael shouting her name before she slipped into unconsciousness.

“Maria! Maria!”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael sat in the hospital waiting room with his head in his hands. He kept picturing Maria lying in the hallway, slumped against the wall, unconscious. He’d splashed a little water on her, and she’d woken up, but she had remained dazed on the way to the hospital. As if the day hadn’t sucked before, it really sucked now. Maria in the hospital was just wrong, wrong on so many levels. He wasn’t going to let it happen again.

The doors that led out to the parking garage slid open, and Kyle rushed inside. He spotted Michael in the waiting room and immediately rushed toward him. “How is she? Is she okay?”

Michael stood up, feeling so much better now that Kyle was there. He had a way of handling situations well. “She’s gonna be alright, I think,” he said. “I don’t really know what happened, though. They haven’t told me anything yet.”

“Where’s Max?”

“Uh . . .” Max was passed out in his bedroom at home. The hangover was probably already starting, unbeknownst to him.

“Oh, here comes the doctor,” Kyle said before Michael could answer his previous question.

Michael turned around and immediately asked the doctor, “How is she?”

“Are you two family?” the doctor asked them.

“Yeah,” he replied. What the hell? They practically were. “What happened to her?”

“It’s hard to pinpoint it exactly,” the doctor said. “You said she collapsed, right?”

Michael nodded. “Yeah. I mean, I didn’t see her collapse or anything, but when I walked out into the hallway, she was down, so . . .”

“And you said she was passed out for a couple of minutes?”

“Yeah, about two minutes. I splashed some water on her face, though, and she came to. And then I just rushed her here. I didn’t know what to do.”

“Okay,” the doctor said, nodding. “Well, it doesn’t sound like it was anything serious. It seems like she just fainted. So she’s gonna be just fine. Does she have a history of fainting at all?”

Michael glanced at Kyle and shook his head. “No.”

“Okay. Well, sometimes people faint because of overheating or overworking or sometimes just because of stress.”

“It’s stress. Definitely,” Michael said.

“She’s also a little dehydrated,” the doctor added.

Michael nodded. That made sense. “I don’t think she slept at all last night, either,” he said. If she was anything like him—and she was definitely a lot like him—she hadn’t gotten a wink of sleep.

“Okay, so her fainting was probably a combination of a lot of things,” the doctor concluded. “Like I said, she’s fine, though. Just a little bump on the head. You guys can take her home tonight. Just make sure she gets some rest, gets some fluids in her. Try to help her de-stress a little bit. If you do those things, I don’t anticipate that this will happen again.”

Michael nodded. That sounded good. “Thanks, doctor,” he said. He felt sort of like an idiot for bringing her in to the emergency room for something so simple, but he’d been worried.

“Can we see her?” Kyle piped up and asked.

“Of course.” The doctor smiled encouragingly and left them alone.

“Oh, Maria, Maria,” Kyle sighed. “What’s she so stressed out about?”

“Just stuff,” Michael replied. “Come on.”

When they walked into Maria’s room, Michael felt his heart break a little bit. She didn’t look like herself. Her eyes were red and puffy. All her make-up had worn off. Her hair wasn’t fixed, and she was wearing one of those hospital gowns she hated so much. She still looked beautiful, though. He still couldn’t take his eyes off her.

“Last time I was in the emergency room, there were a lot of people here,” she said quietly.

Michael reached down and took one of her hands in his. He’d promised himself he wouldn’t touch her anymore, but he could make an exception right now. She smiled at him a little, and Kyle took hold of her other hand.

“You gave us quite a scare,” Kyle said.

“I know. I feel like such a drama queen,” she muttered. “Sorry.”

“I thought you hated that word,” Michael reminded her.

She nodded. “I do.”

He held her hand tighter. He was going to try not to say that to her anymore.

“Did you talk to the doctor?” Kyle asked her.

She nodded again. “He said I fainted. I feel like such a loser.”

“You’re not a loser,” Michael assured her. “At least we get to take you home.”

“Just so you know, you’re under strict orders to sleep, drink—water, that is—and de-stress,” Kyle informed her.

“I don’t know if that’s possible,” she murmured.

“It’s no problem,” Kyle said confidently. “We’ll make sure you’re calm as a cucumber.”

“Cool as a cucumber,” Michael corrected the phrase.

“That, too,” Kyle said. “Calm and cool as a cucumber. That’s you. We’ll make sure of it. And Max will, too.”

Michael noticed the way Maria immediately tensed, and she gripped his hand a bit harder.

“Where is Evans anyway?” Kyle asked Michael. “Does he know about any of this?”

Michael exchanged a quick glance with Maria, and he knew that talking about the Max situation in front of her was not going to help her to de-stress at all. “Uh, Kyle, why don’t we go out in the hallway while Maria gets dressed,” he suggested.

“Yeah,” Kyle said, sounding suspicious. “Sure.”

Michael reluctantly let go of Maria’s hand, and he and Kyle ventured out into the hallway. When they were far enough away from her room, Kyle turned to face him and demanded, “Alright, what the hell’s goin’ on?”

“I’m not gonna lie. It sucks,” Michael confessed. “Max proposed to Maria and she said no.”

“What?” Kyle’s eyes almost bulged out of his head. “Oh, man, I always said roommate-roommate relationships were bound to be disastrous.”

“Well, you were right,” Michael acknowledged. “It gets worse, though. You see, Maria and I . . . we’ve kinda been . . .”

“Fucking like bunnies?” Kyle filled in.

“What? No. I mean . . . not really.”

“Not really?” Kyle echoed. “What the hell, man?”

“Well . . . alright, to be honest, the other night when we were home alone together . . . we probably would’ve if Max hadn’t come home early.”

“Oh, man, I knew you guys had kissed, but . . .”

“Wait, how did you know that?” he cut in.

“Well, I kinda tricked Maria into telling me. Plus, everyone knows, man. You guys think you were some mastermind strategists or something, hiding it so well? No, it was obvious. Everyone knows. Except for Max and Liz.”

“Well, Max knows now,” Michael informed his friend. “Maria told him. He got drunk.”

Kyle sighed and shook his head. “Wow. So Liz still doesn’t know?”

“No, and she’s not gonna find out.”

“Michael . . .”

“No, I’m not gonna tell her.” He was putting his foot down about that.

“Max is gonna say something, though. You know that, right? Those two are pretty good friends lately.”

“No, I’m gonna make sure he doesn’t say anything.”

“Don’t you think you should just tell her?”

No. I mean . . . look at Maria right now. She’s a mess. Max is a mess. I’m not exactly on Cloud Nine myself. I don’t wanna screw things up for Liz.”

“Alright, I don’t wanna sound like the over-involved father figure here,” Kyle said, “but the more you prolong this, the worse it’s gonna be for both you and Liz.”

“No, why would I . . . come on, man, think about it. Why would I tell Liz the truth when the truth’s been such a shitload for Max and Maria? You should see ‘em, man. She might never be his friend again. I might never be his friend again.”

“Yeah, I hate to tell you, but that’s your own damn fault.”

He sighed in frustration because that was an indisputable truth.

“You should listen to me,” Kyle suggested. “In case you haven’t noticed, I have this little thing called sanity. Which you and Maria don’t have.”

“No, I’m not tellin’ her,” Michael said adamantly.

“Dude, this is crazy,” Kyle said, sounding exasperated. “Maria’s fainting, Max is drinking. You’re lying to your girlfriend.”

“Yeah, and you know what my girlfriend’s doing right now? Thinking about how she’s gonna decorate our new apartment. Why would you wanna take that away from her?”

“I don’t,” Kyle said, “but you can’t just keep on lying, man.”

“No, no, no, I’m not lying,” Michael insisted, trying to convince himself of that. “I’m acknowledging and moving on.”

“What?” Kyle gave him a baffled look. “Guerin . . . you’re a mess.”

Yeah, he was all too aware of that fact.








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REPOSTING TODAY'S PART SINCE IT WAS ALSO LOST IN THE BOARD BACK-UP!
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Part 98









Maria was pleasantly surprised that she managed to get to sleep that night. She had some of the best dreams she had ever had in her entire life. They weren’t sexual dreams. They weren’t even slightly erotic. They were just dreams about her and her friends. They were more like memories, actually. Memories of meeting Max and Kyle and Michael in high school for the first time, memories of graduating high school, of moving into their house together four years ago. Memories of all their good times. They did have a lot of good times.

She woke up just as it was turning into a nightmare of her standing in the house all alone. She rubbed her eyes and propped herself up on her elbows. My head, she thought. She reached up and felt a little bump beneath her hair from where she’d fallen against the wall. It hurt a little. Hopefully it wasn’t noticeable.

Suddenly, there was a knock on her door. She wasn’t used to knocking. Usually someone just walked right in. “Come in,” she said quietly.

The door opened slowly, and much to her surprise, Max stepped inside.

“Max,” she said, unable to disguise the shock in her voice. She hadn’t anticipated him coming within five feet of her ever again. She didn’t know what the hell she was supposed to say to him, so she just asked, “How are you feeling?”

“Pretty horrible,” he admitted. “The hangover isn’t helping.” He shut the door gently and asked her likewise. “What about you? Kyle told me about the fainting thing.”

“That’s kind of embarrassing,” she said. “I’m fine, though. I mean, I’m not fine. I feel pretty horrible, too, but for different reasons. Bad guy reasons.”

“You’re not the bad guy, Maria,” he told her. “And I don’t think I’m really the good guy, either.” He sat down on the end of her bed, staying far away from her. She pushed herself up into a sitting position, interested in hearing whatever it was he was going to say.

“I’m determined not to yell or cry or be out of control in any way,” he said. “I think it’d be really good for us to try to have a calm, collected conversation.”

She nodded her head in agreement.

“Good,” he said. “So . . .” He sighed heavily. It was obvious how difficult this was for him, just being in the room with her. “I always knew you had something with Michael that we could never have,” he confessed. “I knew you guys had chemistry. I knew you guys had passion. But I happily ignored it. I let myself believe that you really had feelings for me, even though deep down I knew you didn’t. I was blind to all the things that were right in front of my face.”

“Max, I don’t want you to blame yourself,” she said.

“No, that’s not what I’m doing. I still blame you, and I still blame Michael, but . . . I’m supposed to be a smart guy, and I don’t think I was very smart. So I don’t blame myself, but I am . . . upset with myself. And very frustrated.”

She didn’t know if he wanted her to say something or not, so she just sat there and nodded.

“I don’t think I’m ready to . . . to have a full-on conversation about it yet, about everything that happened. Because it does really hurt, Maria. And it’s gonna hurt for a long time. But I just want you to know that . . .” He trailed off and drew it out for a long time. Finally, though, he said the only words she really wanted to hear. “I don’t hate you.”

She felt relief engulf her. Tears flooded her eyes, but they were good tears this time, and she didn’t mind letting them fall.

“I know I said I did, but . . . turns out, I can lie, too. I might not like you very much right now. I might not like you ever again. But I could never hate you.”

That meant everything. Absolutely everything. Because as long as Max didn’t hate her, there was a miniscule, slight ounce of hope that they might be able to reconcile someday, that they somehow just might be able to be friends again in the future. Nothing would be fixed overnight. She knew that. In fact, it was still possible that he would never forgive her, that any further friendship was out of the question. But him not hating her was hope. It was all she needed.

“Thank you,” she choked out, touched.

Max nodded and stood up. He left the room just as quietly and as suddenly as he had entered it. He was still devastated, still broken. That much was obvious. But she had her hope to hold onto now, and she was never going to let go of that.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael sat outside on the front steps with his morning cup of coffee. He didn’t have a final today. That was one good thing. But he still wasn’t looking forward to the day that lay before him. He had a fainting Maria, a furious Max, and a lecture-happy Kyle to deal with. Not to mention Liz. She had been calling him all morning, but he’d happily let voicemail take care of it. She didn’t understand that he needed some time alone to think about things, because she had no idea there were things to think about.

He heard the front door open and listened as someone stepped outside, but he didn’t look back to see who it was. Because he already knew. Maria’s footsteps were a lot lighter than that, and Kyle would have said ‘hey’ or something. Since all he heard was heavy footsteps and silence, he knew it was Max.

“This might be a given,” Max muttered gruffly, “but we need to talk.”

Michael just stared down at his nearly empty cup and asked the dumbest question possible. “About what?”

Max grunted. “What do you think?”

Michael swirled the remaining coffee around and mumbled, “Yeah, I know.” He got to his feet and set the cup down on the outside windowsill. “What’d she tell you?” he asked Max.

“Oh, you know. Just that she has feelings for you, that she’s had ‘em for a long time now. Oh, and that, whenever we had sex, she was thinking about you. That kinda stung a bit.”

Michael didn’t really know what to say to that. Prior to the countertop incident, he hadn’t been sure if Maria had feelings for him. He was still processing that information, too, along with the realization that he had real, strong feelings for her in return.

“She said you didn’t sleep together,” Max went on, “but I’m not sure whether I believe it or not. It’s hard to believe anything when everything’s been a lie so far.”

“It’s true. We didn’t.”

“Wow,” Max said, nodding slowly. “It’s true. You know, I thought she was being truthful when she told me she loved me, but . . . nope, she wasn’t.”

“So you don’t believe me?”

Max laughed angrily. “Oh, Michael, you don’t get it. My whole world came crashing down within the scope of five minutes. I don’t know what to believe anymore.”

“I’m telling you the truth, man.”

“Really? Because that would be a new trend.”

Michael just shook his head and shrugged. “I don’t know what else to tell you, Max. I didn’t sleep with her.”

“Are you sure? ‘Cause you guys practically have sex as a hobby. It wouldn’t surprise me is all I’m saying.”

“Well, surprise,” Michael muttered. “Look, Maxwell, I understand why you’re angry . . .”

“Angry?” Max cut in. “Angry? Oh, I’m not just angry, Michael. I’m heartbroken. And I don’t expect you to know what that feels like, because you’ve never actually put your heart out there for someone. But I did. I got down on one knee and proposed to her. I asked her to marry me. And she said no. Do you have any idea what that feels like? No, you don’t. So don’t pretend to know how I feel!”

Michael took a step back. If Max started throwing punches again, he wanted to be out of range.

“You know what?” Max said. “It doesn’t matter if you slept with her or not. It really doesn’t. What matters is that you knew how much I cared about her . . . and you didn’t give a damn.”

“Come on, Maxwell, it’s not like I planned for this to happen. I’m the one who got you guys together in the first place, remember?”

Max chuckled. “Ironic.”

“Just . . . what can I say to make this better? What can I say to make it right?”

“You can’t say anything, Michael. It’s already been done.”

“And I wish I hadn’t done it. Trust me. I wish I could just go back and . . . ‘cause it’s fucked everything up, and I get that.”

“Did you know?” Max asked suddenly. “Did you know that she wouldn’t stay with me?”

“No, I didn’t know. I mean, once in awhile you guys looked a little awkward, but I didn’t think anything of it. She had me fooled, too.”

“Well, you guys both had me fooled,” Max grumbled. “You know, Michael, I like to think I know you pretty well. You pretty much just take what you want, and no one asks any questions, ‘cause you’re you. But I’ve got a question for you. How could you? How could you?”

He didn’t have an answer for that. Everything that had happened with Maria had been spontaneous. After the first kiss, he had tried not to let it happen again. But he couldn’t resist.

“I always knew you were attracted to her,” Max went on, “because everyone’s attracted to her, right? And I always knew you guys had a lot in common. But I never in my wildest dreams did I think that you would stoop so low. But I guess I don’t know you as well as I thought I did. Because you stooped.” He shook his head, seething with anger. “You took away the one thing I had, the one person who meant the world to me. And I can’t compete with you. You’re Michael Guerin. I’m just Max Evans.”

“You might get another girlfriend if you get some confidence,” Michael suggested.

“I don’t want another girlfriend; I want my girlfriend!” Max roared.

Michael glanced down and watched Max’s hands curl into fists. This time he was furious and sober. If he swung, Michael had no doubt he would end up on his ass.

“We’ve known each other for eight years,” Max reminded him. “You and Kyle, you guys are like brothers to me. Kyle still is. But not you. Not anymore.”

“Max--”

“We are no longer brothers,” he growled. “From now on, we’re not even friends.”

Michael swallowed hard, feeling like a stupid son of a bitch, and just stood there and watched as Max descended the steps and headed out toward the car. But Max soon stopped, spun around, and said, “Oh, and by the way . . . Liz.”

Michael stiffened.

“Remember her, your girlfriend?” Max asked. “You don’t have to worry. I’m not gonna say a word to her about any of this. I’m just gonna keep my mouth shut. I won’t tell her anything.”

Michael breathed a sigh of relief. “Thanks, Max.”

“You will.”

That relief was short-lived.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maybe a Monet above the fireplace, Liz pondered as she looked over the apartment she would soon be living in. Or a Van Gogh? Where does one find replicas of Van Goghs? She wasn’t exactly an art expert, but she wanted her place to be decorative. A throw-rug on the floor might really add something, she thought. She liked the hardwood floors in the kitchen, but not so much in the living room. It needed to be a little cozier in there.

Ooh, this is so exciting, she thought. Michael didn’t give a damn about decorating, so she had free reign to feminize the apartment as much as she wanted to. So exciting.

“Liz?”

She spun around and, much to her surprise, she saw Kyle in the doorway. “Kyle.” What was he doing there? She and Kyle had never really conversed one-on-one together. In fact, even though she was over at his house a lot, they had barely said two words to each other. This was strange to say the least.

“Hi, Liz,” he greeted. “Can I come in?”

“Sure,” she said. “How are you doing?”

“Fine,” he said. “We just had a little scare with Maria last night. She fainted.”

“Oh my god, is she okay?”

“Yeah, she’s fine.”

“Good. Why did she faint?”

“Uh . . .” Kyle shrugged. “Who knows? Most people faint when they get overheated, so . . .”

“Oh, right.”

Kyle came to stand beside her and looked around. “Wow. This is a really nice place,” he commented. “You and Michael are really moving in here, huh?”

“Yep. How did you know where it was?”

“Well, funny thing, actually. Tess and I, the house we’re getting . . . it’s right across the street.”

“Seriously?” she squealed.

“Yeah, small world, huh?”

“Definitely.”

“Yeah, and I saw you come in here, so I sort of followed you. Not in a stalker way, but you know.”

“Yeah, I know,” she said. “Well, that’s really cool that we’re all gonna be living so close together.”

“Very cool,” he agreed. “And like I said, this is a really nice place. I bet the rent’s a little steep, though.”

“A little,” she agreed. “It could be worse. I think we’re getting our money’s worth.”

“I hope so,” Kyle said. “First apartment. It’s a big deal.”

She nodded in agreement. It certainly felt like a big deal. It felt great.

“It’s a lot of responsibility,” Kyle went on. “You know, Michael’s not the most responsible guy in the world.”

“Well, I think I’m pretty responsible,” she assured him. “Most of the time. I try to be.”

“Well, that’s good. You’re gonna have to be.” Kyle sighed. “Man, I remember our first year in the house . . . money was real tight. Michael was too busy partying and having sex to realize it, but it was really tough for awhile there.”

“Well, it all worked out.”

“Well, some things worked out,” Kyle muttered. “We still have our issues.”

She frowned. “Issues?”

“Oh, never mind those,” he said quickly. “So what do your parents think about this? Are they apprehensive? I know my dad was apprehensive.”

“Actually, they think it’s a really good idea, and they’re really excited,” Liz informed him.

“Good. That’s good. Are they gonna still pay for some stuff, or are you completely on your own now?”

“Well, on my own,” she replied. “But if I really need them, of course they’ll be there.”

“Well, that’s a relief then,” Kyle said. “Parental piggy banks are good to have as a backup. My dad certainly helped me out a lot.”

“Did he?”

“Oh, yeah. But still, I did a lot of it myself,” he continued on. “And you know . . . now I’m not trying to freak you out or anything, but speaking as someone who’s paid a mortgage and paid bills and gone out and bought groceries every week . . . it adds up, you know?’

Liz nodded, slightly less excited now that he was saying all this. “Kyle, if I didn’t know any better, I’d think you were trying to talk me out of this.”

“What, talk you out of it?” he echoed. “Oh, no. No, not at all. I’m stoked for you and Michael. Really, I am. I just wanna make sure you understand what you’re getting yourself into.”

“I do,” she assured him.

“‘Cause like I said, it’s a big deal. It’s a huge responsibility.”

“I know.”

Kyle smiled. “Alright, well, in that case . . . I better be off. I’m meetin’ Tess for lunch. But you and Michael are gonna have to hop across the street and see our house once we’ve got it furnished.”

“We will,” Liz promised.

“Okay.” He headed for the door. “Nice apartment, Liz. I’ll see you later.”

“See you,” she called, perplexed as to what all that had been about. Kyle said he was ‘stoked’ for her and Michael, but he didn’t really seem like it. He seemed more skeptical. “Huh.” It was a mystery.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria wasn’t sure what to expect when Max said he wanted to talk to her that night. They’d had a very calm, civilized conversation earlier, but that could have just been a result of his hang-over. Now that he was probably feeling better, she wouldn’t be surprised if he just ripped into her. But that wasn’t a Max thing to do.

She clung to her hope as they sat down at the kitchen table and kept reminding herself, He doesn’t hate me. He doesn’t hate me. He doesn’t hate me.

They sat in silence for a few minutes before Max cleared his throat and announced, “I talked to Michael earlier today.”

“You did?” She was glad she hadn’t had to witness that. “I’m guessing it wasn’t the friendliest of conversations.”

“Well, he’s not my friend anymore,” Max said. “Kinda unfortunate, isn’t it? Eight years of friendship down the drain.”

“Very unfortunate,” she agreed quietly. “So I guess that means I’m not your friend anymore, either?”

“Not right now. Maybe not ever again,” Max came right out and said. “But it’s different with you. Even though your betrayal hurt worse and cut deeper . . . it’s different.”

“How?” she asked.

“Well, with you I’m furious and sad and confused all at once. But with Michael, it’s just pure, undiluted anger.”

“Why is that?”

“Well, it probably has something to do with the fact that I was in love with you.”

Was, she registered. Meaning he wasn’t anymore. That was a good thing.

“I can’t hate you, but it’s really easy to hate Michael right now,” he said.

She nodded. That made sense. “Max, honestly, I don’t think Michael wanted this to happen any more than I did.”

“Maria, I can’t . . . I can’t listen to you defend him right now. Please.”

“Okay, I won’t,” she said. No defendo. “Um . . . so what did you wanna talk about?” she asked him. “I mean, obviously I know what you wanna talk about. Was it just like . . . you just wanted to see what words came out, or was it something specific, or . . . ‘cause either one’s fine with me.” She realized she was babbling, and she didn’t like it, so she decided to shut up.

He sighed, sat there contemplating for a moment, and then said, “I guess I just wanna know why. Why Michael and not me? What does he have that I don’t have?”

Those were questions she really didn’t feel comfortable answering. “Max, I don’t think it’s like that. You guys both have your good qualities. They’re just different qualities. And Michael’s qualities are more right for me.” She hoped that didn’t hit him like a knife in the heart.

He seemed okay. “But what are those qualities, Maria? I just . . . can you just tell me? Can you just be specific? Please, I need you to be.”

She shook her head. “I don’t know what you want me to say, Max.”

“Oh, wow. You and Michael . . . you guys are two of a kind, aren’t you?” he remarked bitterly. “You both keep saying you don’t know what I want you to say. I don’t want you to say any of this, Maria. I wish you weren’t. I wish you’d said yes when I proposed to you, and we wouldn’t be in this situation right now. But we are. So I don’t want you to say any of these things. I need you to. So just . . . do me a favor and list off all of Michael good qualities and all of Michael’s bad qualities, and then do the same for me.”

“I don’t want to.”

“Yeah, well, I didn’t wanna toss that five-hundred dollar ring in the lake last night, but I did,” he muttered. “Please, Maria.”

She couldn’t weasel out of this. She owed Max an explanation. That was what he was asking for, and that was what he had to give him. And if he wanted it in this sort of pro/con form, then that was what he would get. “Okay,” she resigned. “Well . . . Michael’s obviously a jackass. He’s rude and self-centered. He’s egotistic and he’s lazy. He thinks he’s always right about everything, even though he’s usually wrong. And he’s completely oblivious to his own feelings because he’s too macho to admit he even has any. He’s so frustrating.” She sighed. Even though she classified those as bad qualities, though, they were what made Michael . . . Michael. It was part of his charm, part of what made him so irresistible to her. “But underneath it all, he’s actually a big dork,” she said knowingly. “And even though using girls is like his forte, he’s secretly a nice guy. He tries to do what’s right, even though he’s not very good at it. He’s hilarious. And I know he really cares about me. A lot.”

“I care about you a lot, too, Maria,” Max reminded her.

“I know.” She kept her tears pushed down. She didn’t want to get weepy again. She had been doing that enough lately, and crying wasn’t her thing. “I know how much you care about me, Max. You’re pretty much the kindest, sweetest, smartest person I know. You’re responsible and dedicated. You’re hard-working. You always put others before yourself, and you’re not afraid to be sensitive. Which I think is really admirable.”

“You don’t have to try to suck up.”

“I’m not trying to. That’s really what I think about you,” she insisted. “And as for bad qualities . . . I honestly can’t think of any.”

“Sure you can.”

“No, I can’t,” she persisted. “I mean . . .” She had a feeling he wasn’t going to let up until she assigned him a bad quality, so she gave it a little thought and came up with something. “Alright, I think maybe you can be a little . . . naive sometimes.” She frowned. “No, that’s . . . I don’t think that’s the right word. Disillusioned? You and Liz both. It’s like you guys have created this whole fantasy world where Michael and I are these great, amazing people who can do no wrong, but we do wrong all the time. We can’t be these perfect people you like to believe we are. We’re about as imperfect as it gets. So . . . if I have to think of a bad quality for you, it’d be . . . that. You’re disillusioned.” She braced herself in case that made him mad.

He just nodded his head slowly and said, “I agree.”

“You do?” That was a relief.

He nodded again. “It’s true. For eight years, I watched you make a disaster of your life, but I kept you up on this pedestal, thinking you were just the greatest thing the world had to offer because you’re the only girl that would ever talk to me.”

“That’s because you’re my friend, Max,” she said. “You will always be my friend. Even if I’m no longer yours.”

He drummed his fingers on the table and pondered, “I’m disillusioned.”

“That’s okay,” she said. “I’m immature and . . . a really bad person.”

“You’re not a bad person, Maria. You just did a bad thing.” He sighed. “Michael said you guys didn’t sleep together. And you’ve said that, too. But I just . . . I don’t know what to believe anymore.”

“Max, I promise you, we didn’t,” she said.

“What exactly did happen?”

Oh, great, she thought. Another thing he doesn’t want to but needs to hear. She hated this conversation.

“Please,” he said. “I need to know.”

She let out a heavy sigh and prepared to tell him. “Well . . . the night of the car bash . . . remember how we were trying on our graduation outfits and taking pictures? And then I left and went somewhere else for awhile and Michael followed me? That was when we first kissed. And it was just a totally spontaneous thing, and we tried to put it behind us. But then a couple nights ago when you were out tutoring Liz and he and I were here alone . . .” Oh god, she hated this. “We kissed again, and then we just kept on kissing. And I hate to say this, but we probably would have kept on keeping on if you hadn’t come home early.” She stared down at the table ashamed. “Sorry,” she said. “Was that too honest?”

“There’s no such thing as too honest at this point,” he assured her.

“Do you believe me now?” she asked.

“I don’t know,” he answered honestly. “I wanna believe, but . . . my mind’s just a mess right now, Maria. I don’t know what to think about anything or anyone. I feel so confused on so many levels. I’m trying to blame people; I’m trying to understand people. I’m trying to get from one moment to the next, but it’s so hard.”

“I know,” she said. “And I’m sorry.” God, she thought, I sound like Michael, throwing around the s-word like it’s going out of style. “Have you said anything to Liz yet?” she asked him.

“No. You told me not to tell her, remember?”

“But I kinda thought you would.”

He shook his head. “Nope. Michael needs to do that. I told him it was up to him.”

Maria felt as though her heart dropped a little. If it was up to Michael, it was never going to get done. The only thing in the whole world Michael followed through with was sex. With everything else, he procrastinated until it was too late.

“Max . . .” She leaned in and lowered her voice. She didn’t know where Michael was, but if he was standing in the hallway or something, she didn’t want him to overhear what she said next. “I think you should tell her. I know I said not to say anything, but . . . don’t listen to me. That was before I knew they were getting an apartment together. I mean, that kind of thing signifies a serious commitment, and obviously Michael’s not ready to seriously commit.”

“Well, why don’t you just tell her?” Max suggested.

“No, I . . . can’t.” She didn’t want Michael to be mad at her for that.

“Oh,” Max said. “I get it. I understand what this is about. You want me to be the bearer of bad news, and you want me to bear it soon, because God forbid your precious Michael moves out of this house.”

Well, that was it in a nutshell. “Max, it’s not about me. It’s about Liz,” she said, trying to appeal to his sensitive side. Max and Liz had a friendship. He wouldn’t want to see her get hurt. “Do you really want to see her hurting as much as you are right now? Because Michael’s not gonna tell her anytime soon. Knowing him, he probably won’t tell her until they’re at the altar, and even then, he’ll probably just keep his mouth shut.”

“No, he has to tell her sooner or later,” Max insisted. “No one can carry around all that guilt for long.”

“Max. You’d be surprised how long a person can carry around guilt. I carried it around for four months.”

He winced, and she thought that maybe she had been a bit too straightforward and sounded brutal. “I’m sorry,” she immediately apologized. “But it’s true. And you deserve to hear the truth, Max. And so does Liz.”

“Well, when she does, she’s gonna not gonna hear it from me. She’s gonna hear it from the son of a bitch who’s dating her.”

She was taken aback hearing Max call Michael that. Before last night, she had never even heard Max use a bad word before. Now, he was just letting loose.

“He’s not gonna tell her, Max. He’s stubborn as hell. Did I fail to mention that on his list of bad qualities?”

“She’s not gonna hear it from me. She’s gonna hear it from him,” Max said again. Apparently he was stubborn, too. Who knew? He shoved his chair backward, stood up, and marched across the living room towards his bedroom.

“Max!” she called, stopping him. “If you really believe Michael’s gonna be honest with her . . . then you’re even more disillusioned than I thought.” She hoped that remark would be enough. She hoped that would make him cave in and tell her. Because she needed him to tell her.

Max’s facial expression gave no indication of his future course of action as he disappeared into his bedroom and left Maria to ponder the long and bumpy road that lay ahead of all four of them. It wasn’t going to be easy, and she doubted any of them would come out of it unscathed.









TBC . . .

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(Fingers crossed that I don't have to repost again, because these it takes FOREVER to put all these words in italics! :lol: )
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Well, we all know that there were some problems with the board these past couple days (and with this thread in particular!) so I’ll just say thank you to EVERYONE who is reading, whether you were able to leave feedback or not. For those of you who did manage to leave feedback with all the confusion going on lately (that would be killjoy, Alien_Friend, Krista, Ashley, tequathisy, Buddha-boy, Christina, chanks_girl, Sylvia (new reader! Yes!), and nibbles, (because I got to sneak a peek at your feedback before it was deleted!)), an extra thank you! Seriously, you guys are awesome! Some of you even took the time to re-feedback. So awesome. Anyway, here’s hoping we won’t have any board or thread problems for awhile now. ;)







Part 99







Michael left the door to his bedroom slightly ajar that night, so Maria didn’t bother knocking. She just slid into the room and noted that he was still lying in bed awake. Good. She needed to talk to him. If only he wasn’t shirtless, though. That was going to make it very hard to concentrate on being verbal.

She made her way over towards him and sat down on the side of his bed, facing him. She looked down at her legs and muttered the obvious. “This sucks.”

“Yep,” he agreed sullenly, staring at the wall in front of him instead of looking at her.

Oh, please say something else, she thought. If he was going to start one-wording his conversations with her, she was going to have a bitch fit. And then he’d be sorry.

Luckily, he didn’t leave it at ‘yep.’ “Could be worse,” he said. He was still staring at the wall, though. “You could be fainting again.”

“So embarrassing,” she muttered. She could only imagine how unattractive she had looked in her passed out state.

“You kinda scared me when you did that last night,” he admitted.

“Well, you’re kinda scaring me right now,” she shot back.

That remark seemed to catch his attention. He tore his eyes away from the wall and looked into hers, asking, “How am I doing that?”

“You just are.”

“But I’m not even doing anything.”

“Well, maybe that’s it,” she pondered. “You’re doing nothing. You’re doing absolutely nothing. You’re not teasing me. You’re not calling me dirty girl. You’re not smiling at me. You’re not telling Liz about everything that’s going on, even though you should.”

“Why should I?” he protested.

“Because you’re an ass, Michael, but you’re not this much of an ass. You know what I mean?”

“No.”

She sighed in frustration. Of course he didn’t. He was a guy. Worse than that, he was a guy who rarely used his brain. She was going to have to explain this to him. “Michael, I know you don’t wanna tell Liz, but--”

“You’re right, I don’t,” he cut in.

“You have to,” she finished up. “Michael, you have to.”

“Yeah, ‘cause that worked out so well for you and Max.”

“You know what? I wish I’d told him sooner. I wish I wouldn’t have led him on. I wish I wouldn’t have broken his heart. I wish I would’ve never started anything with him in the first place. Everything I’ve done with Max has just been complete selfish badness, and I would do anything to take it back.”

“Well, you can’t take it back, Maria. Neither of us can. We cheated on people who love us. We’re scum.”

“Well, gee, that was uplifting,” she muttered sarcastically. “God, Michael, why are you being so stubborn? I mean, I know you; I know you’re a jackass. But this is, like, beyond jackass. This is . . . I don’t even know what this is. I just know that the longer you let it go on, the worse it’s gonna get.”

Michael sighed heavily, rubbing his forehead. “I’m trying to do the right thing.”

“Well, that’s your problem, Michael. You think you’re doing the right thing, but you’re not. You’re doing the complete wrong thing. Trust me, I know. Wrong-thing-doing is practically my area of expertise.”

“No, Maria, I’ve been trying to do things right with Liz this whole time. This whole time.”

“Yeah, and the whole time you’ve been doing everything wrong.” She knew it was sort of a harsh thing to say, but he had to hear it. Who else was he going to hear it from?

“How the hell have I done everything wrong? I find that hard to believe.”

Don’t back down now, she told herself. This was her desperate attempt. If she was going to convince him to stay in this house, this was her chance. “Michael, you’ve been dating Liz for four months, right? But you’ve never really been with her. And I was never really with Max. Because it’s always been you and me, Michael. I don’t know why that thought disgusts you so much, but there it is. It’s always been you and me.”

“It doesn’t disgust me, Maria. It just freaks me out.”

“Well, you know what? Clowns freak me out. But I’ve still gone to the circus!”

He wrinkled his forehead in confusion. “What?”

She rolled her eyes. “It was . . . an analogy or whatever, okay? Look, Michael, the point is, despite your best intentions, your relationship with Liz has pretty much been meaningless. And if you move in with her, she’s gonna think it’s meaningful. Do you see how no good can come of this?”

“Well, no good’s gonna come of me telling her the truth, either, so what difference does it make?”

“Okay, Michael, I realize we’ve done a few drugs within the eight years of knowing each other, burned a few brain cells, but this is stupid even for you.”

“You know what I think, Maria?” he said suddenly. “I think you don’t give a damn about Liz. I think you only want me to tell her so I won’t move out.”

God, am I that obvious? she wondered. Max had figured that out right away, too.

“I mean, what did you think, that the four of us were just gonna live together forever?”

She wrinkled her forehead. “I don’t know. No.” Truthfully, she hadn’t given that much thought. She’d always known that Kyle would get a place with Tess, that maybe Max would move out on his own, but she always imagined her and Michael staying together. It didn’t matter if they were just friends or something more. They had to be together.

She felt tears stinging her eyes, and she didn’t want to start crying again. And she definitely didn’t want him to see her crying anymore. “You know what?” she said, standing up. “I think I’m just gonna go to bed.” She turned and headed for the door. She had her hand on the doorknob and had just opened the door when something inside her screamed not to go, and she turned and went back to him. “Michael . . .” Without thinking, she crawled on top of the bed and plastered herself on top of him. She sought out and found his lips immediately, kissing him passionately, desperately. There was no awkwardness with their intimacy. There never had been.

He might have been reluctant to kiss her back, but his mouth didn’t show it. His lips attacked hers with a fervor as his warm, strong hands traced up and down her sides. She didn’t know what she was thinking—all she knew was that she probably wasn’t. But if her words couldn’t convince him to stay, maybe this could? It wasn’t a proud idea. It was a determined one.

Much to her surprise, though, she felt his hands on her shoulders, pushing her away from him. “No, Maria . . .” He broke off the kiss and said, “You have to leave this room. Right now.”

“Why?” she asked, but she already knew. Michael was a sucker for physicality, and for that matter, so was she.

Instead of giving her an answer, he took the initiative to kiss her this time. It was still a wild, untamed kiss. This time, his hands were caressing her back, sneaking up under her shirt to smooth over her skin. One hand was daring enough to travel lower to cup her backside and grind her lower body down against his. She groaned gutturally into his mouth, “Uh, do that again.”

Another kiss, and he echoed in question, “Again?” Two more kisses, and then he was shaking his head. “No. No, Maria . . .”

She reluctantly allowed him to push her away. As much as she wanted to feel his naked skin against hers, she didn’t want it to happen like this. She was in a state of panic and distress, and she had enough drama going on in her life without adding sex with Michael into the mix. Besides, she had only ended things with Max one day ago, and Michael hadn’t ended things with Liz yet. And he seemed to have no intention of doing so. Sex wasn’t going to induce him to break up with her; sex wasn’t going to induce him to stay.

No, it couldn’t happen like this. It wasn’t going to.

“I’m sorry,” she apologized, swinging herself off the bed.

“Wow, that word really does suck,” Michael mumbled.

She crossed her arms over her chest, suddenly feeling very ashamed of herself, and paced back and forth nervously. “This is why we we’ve never been anything more than friends for eight years, isn’t it?” she said. “We were afraid something like this would happen.”

He didn’t say anything, but he didn’t need to.

She stopped pacing then and stared at him in seriousness, because she was worried. She was really, really worried. “What’re we gonna do?” she whispered.

He opened his mouth as though he were about to answer, but when he glanced out into the hallway, he immediately shut it again. Maria cast a glance over her shoulder and saw that Max was standing there near the bathroom door, but he had stopped and was just staring at them now. “Max,” she gasped, immediately wondering how much he had seen.

He just shook his head and mumbled, “I gotta move out of this house,” as he turned and walked back toward his bedroom.

Maria just stood there like a statue, bracing herself for the future. They were all moving out. She was sure of it. Soon she would be living all alone, and that wasn’t what she wanted.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Tess, Kyle, Isabel, and Alex sat in a booth at Big Joe’s Diner the next morning, eating breakfast. Tess had ordered cheesecake, but she was extremely unsatisfied with its taste. “Dammit,” she cursed, pushing her play toward the center of the table. “That cheesecake is neither cheesy nor cakey. I’m so disappointed.”

“That’s what you get for eating dessert for breakfast,” Kyle said.

“I can’t help it. I’m eating my feelings,” she informed him.

He gave her a confused look. “Isn’t that something people do when they feel bad?”

“Well, I don’t feel bad for myself,” she said. “I feel bad for Michael and Maria.”

“I feel bad for Max,” Isabel said. “My brother . . . God, he’s like the nicest guy on the planet—besides you, of course, Alex—and he just gets his heart stomped on. It’s not fair.”

“Yeah, I gotta say, as much as I like Michael and Maria, the majority of my sympathy goes to the Evans part of the Guerin-DeLuca-Valenti-Evans household,” Alex piped up.

“My sympathy goes to me,” Kyle said. “‘Cause I’m the one stuck there living with ‘em.”

“Not for much longer,” Tess reminded him. She suspected he would really miss that house, though. It was practically a person, it came so alive at times. And he would miss seeing his friends every day. He would undoubtedly still see them a lot. They were like family. Well . . . they had been. Maybe they weren’t anymore. Now they were divided.

“Actually, they each get a third of my sympathy,” Kyle amended. “A fourth, actually. And Liz gets a fourth of it, too. Man, that girl’s so blind to life.”

“I think we’ve all been a little blind at some point this year,” Isabel admitted.

“Whoa, I wanna clearly state that I was not and never have been blind,” Alex said, raising his hand up in the air as he spoke. “I always knew I wanted you.” He pointed a finger at Isabel and smiled, then quickly added, “Please don’t kill me Kyle.”

Kyle rolled his eyes. “How many times do I have to tell you, I’m not gonna kill you.”

“He’s very sweet like that,” Tess said, squeezing his arm. “Hey, listen, guys . . . I need to come clean about something, because I’ve been feeling really rotten about it lately.”

“Uh-oh,” Alex said. “Something’s rotten in the state of Denmark.”

“No, New Mexico.” She let out a heavy sigh and said, “Alright, I really hope you guys don’t hate me for this, especially you, Isabel, but . . .” She cringed as she spoke. “I kinda knew that Maria’s whole relationship with Max was a sham.”

“Well, we all suspected that much,” Isabel said.

“No, but I knew,” she confessed forcefully. “I sort of coerced Maria’s feelings out of her one day, and I was kinda like her confidante for the past few months. She told me she had feelings for Michael. She told me she’d never see Max as anything more than a friend.”

Isabel just stared at her for a moment, then asked, “Well, did you try to get her to tell Max the truth?”

“Sometimes. And then sometimes—case in point, the nudist costume—I tried to push her and Michael together. And now I feel really bad about it, because Max is obviously devastated.”

“He’ll be alright,” Kyle assured her. “No one hates you, Tess.”

“Really?”

“Still my best friend,” Isabel said. “God, you guys, I don’t know if I’ve said this already, but I am so glad we got our shit figured out. I mean, sure, it had the possibility to get messy, but we didn’t let it get messy. We handled it well.”

“And Michael and Maria are handling this horribly,” Kyle muttered. “I wouldn’t expect anything else.”

“Me, neither,” Tess agreed. “I’m gonna try to be optimistic, though, hope that they’ll figure everything out.”

“You be optimistic, I’ll be realistic,” Isabel said. “This isn’t gonna be easy on any of them.”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

“You are making this so easy on me. You have no idea.”

Maria wasn’t sure what to make of Liz’s gushing. For the past couple of months, they had barely engaged in voluntary conversation, and now Liz was boosting her ego. “I haven’t done anything yet,” she had to point out.

“Oh, I know. But just knowing you’re here and that you’re gonna help me figure this stuff out is a major sigh of relief.” Liz opened up her small refrigerator and took out a bottle of water. “You want one?” she asked.

Maria shook her head. “No, that’s okay.”

“I used to have beer in here, believe it or not,” Liz said. “Then my Resident Director found out, and that was the end of that. Oh, but I forgot. You don’t drink anymore anyway.”

“Well . . . I try not to,” she said. It had happened, though, a big booze-fest a few nights ago that ended in her telling Michael she needed him inside of her. Badness.

“I’m gonna try not to drink anymore,” Liz said. “I don’t really do it that much, but . . . I’m gonna try to make a lot of changes for my sophomore year.”

“Like what?” Maria asked, leaning back against Liz’s slightly lofted bed. She crossed her arms over her chest and tried to be interested.

“Well, for starters, I’m gonna apologize to you,” Liz replied much to Maria’s surprise. “I know we’re not close anymore, and I regret that. You were a really good friend to me. You hung out with me when no one else would, you gave me a makeover, you made me captain of the dance team even though I thought I’d suck. And now I really like dance team, ironically. But . . . I don’t know. I let the popularity go to my head, I guess. I turned my back on you, became more selfish than I’ve ever been in my entire life. I’m not proud of it. I’m just sorry.”

This has to be some kind of hell, was all Maria could think. Here was Liz, apologizing to her, completely unaware of what she and Michael had done behind her back . . .

“So it’s a clean slate,” Liz went on. “I’m not gonna go back to being the old Liz Parker, because I wasn’t very happy being her. But I’m not just gonna stay the current Liz Parker, either, ‘cause I think she’s kind of a bitch. So I’m gonna be a new Liz Parker. A better one. I’m gonna make positive changes like you have instead of negative ones. And so I was thinking that maybe the new Liz Parker and the new Maria DeLuca could try to be friends again.” She smiled hopefully.

And hell just got hotter. Maria couldn’t believe this. Leave it to Liz to try to rectify their friendship right in the midst of a betrayal.

“So what do you say?” Liz asked.

For a long moment, she didn’t say anything. But when she saw Liz looking at her expectantly, she caved in and gave her the answer she wanted to hear. “Uh, yeah. Sure.”

“Great,” Liz chirped. “And I promise, this won’t just be a friendship where I ask you for your help. Even though that’s what I’m doing right now. But from now on, I won’t ask for your help ever again. I promise.”

“Liz, it’s fine,” Maria assured her. “You can ask for help. I don’t care. Do you know how many times I’ve asked Kyle for help over the past eight years? More than I can count, that’s for sure. More than the Sesame Street Count can count, even. It’s insane.”

“Really?”

“Oh, yeah. That guy paid off a mortgage. He’s Superman. And I’m a free-loader. I realize that. The point is, he always helped me, ‘cause that’s what friends do.”

“He’s a really good friend, huh?” Liz said. “You know what’s so weird? He and Tess are gonna live right across the street from me and Michael once they . . .” She trailed off then and said, “Oh. Shoot. I didn’t mean to say that.”

“It’s okay,” Maria assured her. “Michael already told me you guys are moving in together.”

Liz breathed a sigh of relief. “Thank God. He was really adamant about telling you himself.”

Maria tensed. She didn’t want to be talking about Michael with Liz. It was too awkward, too torturous.

“You’ll have to come by and see the apartment sometime,” she said. “It’s really nice.”

Maria just nodded. It probably was.

“I’m so excited.” Liz’s eyes took on a sparkling glow as she talked about it. “The thought of having this place all to ourselves, just the two of us . . . I love it.”

Maria resisted the urge to run out of that dorm room. The thought of Michael and Liz having that place all to themselves, just the two of them . . . she hated it.

“And you know what this means?” Liz smiled. “You and Max now get a mortgage-free house all to yourselves.”

Maria tensed again, almost bolting.

Liz didn’t seem to notice, because she went ahead and asked, “How is Max, anyway? I haven’t gotten to talk to him since our last tutoring session.”

All she could do was picture that look on his face when she’d turned down his proposal. All she could hear was the anger and sadness in his voice when he tried to talk to her about it. All she could feel was the guilt. “Actually, he’s not . . . he’s not doing so well,” she told Liz honestly.

Liz immediately looked concerned. “Why not? Did he not get accepted to graduate school or something?”

“Oh, no, he got accepted. No problem there.”

“Oh, then is he still upset about not being valedictorian?”

“Um . . . I don’t know. I think that’s probably the least of his frustrations right now.”

“What do you mean?”

Maria looked Liz right in the eye and decided that she was going to tell her. How news hadn’t spread across campus already, she did not know. “Max has taken on the delightful status of ex,” she confessed. “It’s non-enjoyable.”

Liz looked flabbergasted. “What? You guys broke up? When?”

“The other night.”

“What happened?”

Maria swallowed hard and answered, “He proposed. I said no.”

Liz’s eyes nearly bulged out of her head. “What? Well, why’d you say no?”

“‘Cause I didn’t wanna say yes.”

Again, Liz looked taken aback. “Oh,” she said, nodding slowly. “Well, that’s a solid reason.” She switched to shaking her head then and quietly exclaimed, “Wow. So he really proposed? Like marriage?”

“Yeah.” What other kind of proposal was there?

“Oh my god.” Liz still looked shell-shocked. “I had no idea he was gonna do that.”

“Neither did I.”

“So was that, like, the only reason why you guys broke up, or was it like a combination of a lot of things, or . . .” Liz trailed off questioningly.

“A combination,” Maria replied, thinking of Michael. “Definitely.”

“Of what?”

Maria squirmed a little, suddenly feeling nervous. Her stomach was knotting up. She was afraid of saying something she would later regret. “I-I don’t really wanna talk about it,” she stuttered.

“Oh, of course not,” Liz said. “I’m sorry. I don’t mean to be, like, a Nosy Sue or anything. It’s kinda hard not to be when you live on a dorm floor like this, though.” She laughed a little, obviously trying to lighten the mood.

Maria saw an opportunity to steer Liz towards the truth, though, so she took it. “You know, though, if you really wanna know, you could ask Max. He might be willing to tell you some stuff.”

Liz shook her head and said, “No, my guess is Max probably wants to talk about it even less than you do. So I won’t ask him.”

Dammit. “Well, maybe Michael would be willing to give you a little insight,” she suggested.

Liz just shook her head again. “No, it’s none of my business. The new Liz Parker doesn’t need to know the juicy details of everyone else’s lives.”

Fuck. “Great,” she said. If Liz wasn’t going to ask Max or Michael about the recent break-up, then she was never going to find out the truth. Because Maria was never going to tell her herself. Michael would be furious with her. “So,” she said, deciding to just switch the subject abruptly. “Dance team?”

“Oh, right.” Liz laughed a little and went to pick up a folder from her desk. “Gosh, I ask you over here to help, and we end up talking for fifteen minutes.”

“It’s fine,” Maria assured her. “So what is it you need help with?”

“Oh, pretty much everything,” Liz confessed. “You would be so proud of me, though. I scheduled a mandatory extra practice today. Everyone was pissed, but everyone came.”

“Good job,” Maria said. “You know, bitch is the new black.”

“Oh, no, the new Liz Parker is not a bitch. She’s just . . . determined,” Liz said. “Anyway, so my number one concern . . .” She opened up her folder, and Maria got a glimpse of lots of written out plans and other dance team documents. Liz was certainly taking a much different approach to captiaining. “Dance camp,” she finished up. “I know we’re supposed to go to one this summer, but I have no idea how to go about going . . .”

“Okay, have you contacted UDA College yet?” Maria asked.

“What? Where’s UDA College?”

“It’s not an actual college. It’s an association. The Universal Dance Association. They sponsor campus for high school and college teams and . . . you know what? I can just contact them for you, make some arrangements.”

“Really? You’d do that?”

“Yeah, sure.” This was her area of expertise. She knew what she was doing.

“Oh my god, thank you so much, Maria. I really appreciate that.”

“No problem. What else were you freaking out about?”

“Uh, well, summer practice,” Liz admitted. “A few of the girls have been wondering . . . how exactly do we go about that? Because half of them live out of state, and I don’t know what to tell them.”

“Yeah, geography makes it tricky,” Maria acknowledged. “Basically, you have to condense an entire summer’s worth of practice into this one week of summer camp.”

Liz’s eyes bulged. “Are you serious?”

“Yeah. I’m not gonna lie, it’s hardcore. That’s why all the girls have to be there. It’s completely mandatory. If they miss out, they get kicked off. Just tell ‘em that.”

Liz quickly grabbed a pencil off her desk and scribbled down a few words onto a piece of paper in her folder. “Miss out, kicked off,” she muttered. “What else?”

“What do you mean?”

“Well, what exactly happens at summer camp?”

“Well . . .” Maria smiled, remembering. “It’s actually a lot of fun. You learn all these different dances, all these different styles. And you’ll probably have to go to a choreography class. Or Pam, whoever’s choreographing. And then there’s technique class, to help you work on your jumps and your leaps and your turns, and wardrobe seminars to help you decide on make-up and costumes for performances. Oh, and once in awhile they do these games and stuff that are supposed to promote team unity.” She rolled her eyes. “If there was one fault my dance team had, it’s that we weren’t unified enough. So make sure you place some emphasis on that.”

Liz nodded and wrote that down, too. “Okay. Unity. Got it. What else?”

Maria thought about it and said, “Well, you are gonna have to open up a catalog and pick out clothes.”

“What? I already own clothes,” Liz said, motioning towards her closet.

“No, clothes for the team,” Maria elaborated. “I know it sounds kind of stupid, but it’s tradition that all the teams dress alike a camp.”

“Oh, more stuff to put on the to-do list,” Liz said, writing that down as well.

“You’ll be fine,” Maria assured her. “Just have fun with it. I’d do anything to go back to dance camp.”

“Yeah,” Liz said. “Well, and you know, despite what some of the girls on the team might say, I think they’d do anything to have you there. I mean, we’re getting better slowly but surely, but there’s no way we’re gonna be a championship team this year.”

“Well, you never know,” Maria said. “Anything’s possible.”

“Yeah, but . . .” A knock on the door interrupted Liz and she sighed and set her folder down. “I swear, this dorm room . . .” she muttered, going to open the door. When she did, Maria recognized Liz’s lesbian R.A.

“Oh,” the R.A. said, smiling at Maria. “I didn’t realize you had company.”

Maria rolled her eyes, in no mood to be flirted with. “Sorry, I like my partners manly.” She thought of Michael and muttered, “And insane.”

“Is there something you want?” Liz asked impatiently.

“What?” The R.A. tore her eyes off Maria and said, “Oh, yeah. I just wanted to let you know that the floor meeting’s happening out in the lounge right now.”

“Oh, yeah, sorry. I’m just a little busy.”

“Mandatory,” the R.A. said unsympathetically. “You guys are filling out my end-of-the-year evaluations.”

Liz sighed and said, “I’ll be right out in a second, okay?”

The R.A. smiled at Maria one last time, then headed on down the hallway.

Liz groaned and said, “Oh, I can’t wait to get out of here. Do you mind just hanging out here for a little bit? Five minutes, tops, I promise. I just have to give her some really negative evaluations.”

“Go ahead,” Maria said. She didn’t care. She was in no big hurry to get home. Max and Michael were both penned up in their bedrooms, refusing to talk to her. That left her and the television, and that wasn’t as fun as it sounded.

“Okay, I’ll be back.” Liz grabbed her room key off her dresser and left the room.

Maria breathed a heavy sigh and sat down on the bed. She felt pretty damn bad. Worse than bad. Here was Liz, reverting to nice girl form, completely oblivious to everything that was happening, everything that was going on around her. The girl wasn’t just moving into a new apartment; she was moving on to Cloud Nine. Meanwhile, Maria was sitting back on Cloud One, praying that Liz would figure out the truth and join her there. But if Liz wasn’t going to ask Max or Michael for break-up specifics . . .

She sighed again. Nothing was going right and everything was going wrong. It was that simple.

She glanced over at Liz’s desk area, and the first thing she noticed was a picture of her and Michael sitting right next to her computer. She leaned forward and picked it up, looking it over. It was from spring break in Vegas. It was of the two of them sitting out by the pool. They were both smiling, but they were different kinds of smiles. Liz’s was like a ‘I’m so happy to be here with Michael’ smile, and Michael’s was like a ‘hopefully I’ll get laid tonight’ smile.

Maria set the picture back down and took a look around at some of the other stuff scattered on Liz’s desk. There were lots of pictures. A few were of her parents, but most were of Michael. Even the wallpaper on her computer was a picture of her and Michael.

Maria stood up and made her way over there to take a closer look. Liz’s planner was lying open. Apparently she was done with finals, because the only things she had written down to do were dance team things and apartment-decorating things. Go shopping for curtains was one thing she had written down for Sunday. She needed curtains for her apartment. For her and Michael’s apartment.

Maria tried to swallow down her bitterness and kept looking over the things on the desk. Most everything else was pretty standard. There was one more picture that especially caught her eye, though. It was another picture of her and Michael. It looked as though she’d taken it herself. She was smiling, and Michael was kissing her cheek. It looked like a real, good, solid relationship.

But it wasn’t.

Maria set that picture frame back down as well, feeling her emotions churning crazily inside of her. She wasn’t sure how much longer she could take this, this estrangement from her friends, these lies, this restrained passion for Michael. She was a wild person by nature, and she was to the point where she just wanted to let all hell loose, because it would be easier to handle than this.

The epiphany struck when she set her hand down on top of Liz’s cell phone. She hadn’t even meant to set it there. It just went there. And she hadn’t expected any sort of epiphany to hit, either, but it hit full force. Liz’s words echoed throughout her busy mind as she concocted an idea.

“The thought of having this place all to ourselves, just the two of us . . .”

And in an instant . . .

“. . . I love it.”

She knew how to get Michael and Liz to break up.

She grabbed the cell phone and flipped it open, mentally asking herself, What am I doing? as she pressed a few buttons to reach Liz’s address book. She scrolled down through a list of contacts until she found the name she was looking for. Max.

She clicked a few more buttons, and then she was ready to compose a text message. She glanced over her shoulder at the door when she thought she heard some noise, but it was still closed. Liz wasn’t back yet. Still, she had to hurry.

She held the phone in both hands, and her thumbs worked furiously. She wasn’t the best text-messager in the world. It was sort of a freshman phenomenon. Still, she saw the words appearing in front of her, some abbreviated, some not. Locker room, she thought as she typed out the word. It has to be the locker room. A minute later, the message was clear.

meet me in locker room of dance team gym at 9:00 need 2 talk 2 u –liz

She stared at the message, sort of horrified with herself. What was she doing? Really, what was she doing? Texting Max from Liz’s phone, pretending to be her . . . it wasn’t right. She knew it wasn’t right.

But still, she clicked send.

Oh, god, she thought. There was no going back now. She had set her plan in motion, and now she had to follow through with it. Once again, she was playing God with everyone’s lives, manipulating, deceiving. And for selfish reasons, too. She sort of hated herself in that moment, but she couldn’t lose Michael. And she already felt him slipping away.

She closed the phone again and set it back down on the desk in exactly the location she had picked it up. There. It was done. “Liz” had sent Max a text message. The plan was underway.

The door flew open suddenly, and Maria spun around, almost jumping out of her skin. Just in time. She’d set down that phone just in time.

“Well, that went fast,” Liz said, smiling. “She’s never gonna be an R.A. again.”

Maria just smiled a little in return and tried to look as though she hadn’t been up to anything. “So,” she said, “what else can I help you with?”









TBC . . .

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Part 100

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nibbles:
Moving in with one girl when you're in love with another girl is such a stupid move. So obviously it's the choice Michael is going to make.
Obviously! :lol:
Krista:
Nothing surprises me about this story anymore.
I don’t know, there’s something coming up soon that might. ;)
Mercedes: Glad to know you’re still reading! Good luck with your computer problems! Those always suck.
Sara:
I cant wait to see what sort of plan unfolds!!
Well, you won’t have to wait long, because it’s going to start to unfold in this part!
Alien_Friend:
But it would be nice if there was some sort of easy fix to this whole mess.
Yes, it would be. But it’d be far less entertaining, too!
pookie76:
OH no Maria. What is she doing?? She should let Michael deal with his relationship with Liz the way he wants to. She just looks desperate the way she interferes.
She doesn’t just look desperate right now. She is desperate right now.
killjoy:
You know I don't think I've ever read a character in Roswell fanfiction that I dislike as much as I do this Maria.
That’s okay! You know, I designed her character to be controversial by nature. I wanted to write a story with a main character who people would either love to hate or hate to love. Or both. So it’s all good!
Ashley:
Wow why does Michael still want to be with Liz if he knows Maria wants him. Frust-rating
Frust-rating is right! It’s not even that he really wants to be with Liz. He’s convinced himself that he should stay with Liz, partly because he doesn’t want to hurt her, but mostly because he’s scared of pursuing something with Maria, especially when it hasn’t gone very well so far.
starcrazed:
And what is Maria up to?
Well, she’s got a plan, but it’s kind of a desperate plan, not thought out so well. So you’ll have to wait and see if it works or not.
Mag:
Although as I said many times, Michael can't be the villain in this story, so even when he looks bad, Maria suddenly does something so that Michael appears as a victim and a nice guy. Can't have Michael as the bad guy.
Actually, I’m going to have to firmly stand by my claim that there are no real bad guys in the story. Maria isn’t the villain. She’s just a young girl who is confused, who has a lot of bad habits, and who tends to make really bad choices. Michael definitely isn’t a victim (or a nice guy, for that matter), but he’s not bad enough to be a villain, either. Like Maria, he is a confused young adult who has this uncanny ability to make a bad situation worse.
Karin:
I'm soooo pissed at Maria right now, and not only for what she's doing..but for fighting for the a-hole.
Yeah, I know, Michael’s definitely being an ass right now. Everything is kind of hitting him at once, and, much like Maria, he doesn’t know how to deal with it, so he’s dealing with it in ways that have the potential to be destructive for everyone.
tequathisy:
How can he choose Liz over Maria?
Maria’s wondering the same thing right now. Honestly, in a weird way, he’s not so much choosing Liz over Maria as he is choosing the safe option over the really risky option. With Liz, he knows that they can date and get along for the most part and not have a whole lot of drama. With Maria, he knows that he’s putting an eight-year friendship at risk. So, like I said in a weird way, he’s probably thinking that he can salvage his friendship with Maria if he doesn’t embark on anything romantic with her and instead stays with Liz. :?
Christina:
What I don't get either, is what exactly Maria plans on doing and how she's going to get Max and Liz to talk to each other. I mean, won't Max first say something along the lines of, "I got your message," or "What did you want to talk about?" And then Liz will be confused.
Yeah, it’s really not a great plan, but it’s all Maria can come up with right now. It’s going to take a certain amount of luck, if it is to work.
Morgan8:
Throughout this entire story I've loved Maria, but this chapter I really couldn't stand her. With the throwing herself at Michael, to convince him not to move out, and texting Max as Liz. She's gone a little too far.
I agree. Maria really doesn’t like the things she’s doing right now, yet she doesn’t stop.
CandyLand:
Sorry for the extreme emotion.
Are you kidding? Don’t apologize for that! The fact that this little (okay, not little) fic is evoking some “extreme emotion” in people just blows my mind! That’s the kind of thing an author lives for. ;)
Nat:
I don't get it. Michael can be a moron and he's still "the man". Liz can be a manipulative bitch and she's the "naive girl". Heck even Max can be deaf, dumb and blind and he's "the sweet guy with a heart of gold". Maria is always just a bitch/slut. Why?
It’s kind of sad, isn’t it? But I think that, in real life, once people start to think about you a certain way, you have to live with it. It’s much easier to see people as one-dimensional, like “the man” or “naive” or “nice guy” or “bitch.” Maria and Michael in particular (and Max and Liz, to an extent) have certainly brought these reputations on themselves with some of their actions. It’s really hard to change something like that.


Wow, lots of feedback on that part! Me likey! Thanks, you guys! The next update is going to be late Monday (Tuesday for some), and trust me when I say you aren’t going to want to miss it. ;)


Well, we all know by now that I’m unable to resist getting musical with this fic. When you see the ;) smiley, try listening to Citizen Cope’s “Let the Drummer Kick,” which you can find here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nw8XZA76zPo&fmt=18 It’s a very unique song that really sets the tone for this part, I think.




Part 100 (Whoa, part 100!)








Michael wasn’t sure what to think when he got an email from his Advanced Videography professor, Professor Richardson, that afternoon. The email said that he wanted to see Michael in his office whenever possible. Great, Michael thought. His life was fucked up enough as it was. Now he was probably going to have to withstand a lecture. He thought his final project video had turned out decent, but apparently Professor Richardson didn’t.

He entered his office without even knocking and found the small man sitting at his desk, his eyes glued to his laptop computer. He looked up when Michael walked in, though, and greeted him. “Michael. Hello.”

“You wanted to see me?”

“Yes, I did. I wanted to talk to you about your final project.”

Here we go. Michael sat down in the chair next to his desk and asked, “How bad did it suck?”

“Oh, quite the contrary, Michael. I found it to be . . . exceptional.”

This shocked the hell out of him. “Didn’t see that coming,” he muttered in disbelief.

“I’ll admit, I wasn’t expecting much,” Professor Richardson went on. “You have a history of producing great short films for this class, but you also have a history of leaving projects until the last minute. So I just thought it would be a disaster this time, but it wasn’t. I know you procrastinated, but that didn’t matter. It blew me away, set the standard for everyone else’s movies.”

Holy hell, Michael thought. He couldn’t recall a professor ever giving him this much praise, unless it was one of the female professors he’d screwed over the years.

“What kind of camera equipment do you use?”

“Oh, just, uh . . .” He shrugged. “Just a regular old hand-held camera, actually. I can’t afford anything else.”

“Well, hand-held camera shots are all the rage these days,” the professor grumbled. “J.J. Abrams is making a killing on it. You know, I really like the simplicity of your movie, but I would be willing to lend you some of my camera equipment just to see what you might be able to produce.”

Michael couldn’t believe it. “Are you shittin’ me?”

The professor chuckled. “No, Michael, I am not . . . shitting you. You have a talent. I’d love to see it developed.”

Wow. That was just about the only word that crossed Michael’s very surprised brain. He’d been expecting a lecture, not this. “I don’t really know what to say,” he admitted.

“You don’t have to say anything. Just . . . just know that you can do more than you think you can. You’re already a serious director. Now you just need to become a responsible director.”

Michael wrinkled his forehead in confusion, not understanding. “What do you mean?”

Professor Richardson cleared his throat and asked, “Michael, did you receive any film internships?”

Michael sighed heavily. “Just one. It’s not . . . it’s not that great, though.”

“Well, you can’t just expect a good film internship to fall into your lap,” his professor explained. “Life in general . . . you can take it all on faith and just expect to get what everything you want, or you can hope for it and work for it.” He smiled.

Hope for it and work for it. That sounded . . . sort of strenuous. But maybe worth it, too.

“So the question is, what do you want?”

Lots of things. A directing career. Money. Eternal good looks. But mostly Maria. He really wanted her. He really always had.

Professor Richardson smiled and said, “I think I know.” He turned his computer around for Michael to see. There was his movie, paused on a shot of Maria laughing. She was crazy and beautiful. His best friend. His girl.

Not his girlfriend, though. She wasn’t that.

He sighed heavily, sort of hating himself. His life had gone from being wild and carefree to being . . . this. Fucked up and dramatic. He really didn’t want to hurt anybody. He wasn’t really that bad of a guy . . .

“Somehow, she ends up in every movie you make,” Professor Richardson said, sounding amused. “Even if it’s supposed to be about nature . . . there she is.”

“Well, she is all natural.”

The professor laughed and inquired, “Is she your girlfriend?”

He tensed. “No, I just live with her.”

“Oh. But you’re in love with her.”

It wasn’t even a question. There was no hint of inquiry in his voice. “No,” he insisted. “She’s my best friend. I live with her. She’s just . . . she’s Maria, alright?”

“Well, she’s magnificent. A little wild, but . . . I think that’s part of her appeal. Or at least that’s how you portrayed it.”

“No, I didn’t portray anything. That’s just how she is. She’s crazy,” Michael informed him.

“Well, I was thrilled to see you made an entire movie just of her. She’s . . . absolutely fascinating.”

“You’re not trying to put the moves on her, are you?”

The professor chuckled. “I wouldn’t dream of it. Obviously, she belongs to someone.”

Damn it all to hell, Michael thought. This professor’s remarks weren’t helping the situation.

“Besides, she’s too young for me,” the older man added. “Listen, Michael . . . I don’t want to pretend that I know you, because I know that I don’t. But from what I can tell, you’re a very talented director, and a fairly complex individual. I wouldn’t be surprised if you had no idea who you are.”

Michael shifted in his seat, taking offense at that. “No, I know who I am,” he promised.

“Do you?”

Fuck. He would have preferred a lecture to this. He hated it when people tried to get him to talk about his feelings. He hated admitting he had any.

He had to get out of there.

“I’m glad you like The Maria DeLuca Movie, Professor Richardson,” he said as he rose to his feet. “I kinda like it, too.” With that said, he turned and walked out of the office.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Max hadn’t left his room for hours. Maria sat out in the living room and kept waiting for the door to open, for him to step out, but he never did. She glanced at the clock, nervous. It was already coming up on 6:00 in the evening. If her plan was to work, she needed Max to walk out of that room now.

Just when she thought he was never going to open the door, he did. He froze in the doorway, stared at her for a moment, then made his way towards the bathroom without saying a word to her. She didn’t say a word to him, either. As much as she eventually wanted to do more talking and sort out their royally screwed up relationship, there were more important things to be done right now.

Liz had to find out. About everything. Otherwise, Michael was going to move into that apartment with her, and he might never come back. She couldn’t have that.

Once Maria heard Max close the bathroom door, she didn’t waste any time. She shot up from the couch and bolted into Max’s bedroom, searching for his cell phone. It wasn’t hard to find. It was lying right there on his bedside table, hooked up to the charger. She picked it up, found Liz’s number in the address book, and began furious work on a text message for her. A text message from “Max.” Faux Max.

“Shit,” she cursed when she had to delete a few letters. She was terrified that Max was going to walk back into that room at any minute and catch her, and then her whole plan would be ruined. She needed this plan. She needed it to work.

She heard the sound of the toilet flushing, but she wasn’t done yet. Shit, shit, shit, she thought, panicked. Her fingers typed out the remainder of the message at lightning speed. Just a few more letters . . .

And then it was done.

Meet me in the locker room of the dance team gym at 9:00. Needing to talk. –Max

Same basic message, a little more grammatically correct. Different sender . . . but actually the same sender. Her.

She pressed send and had just set the phone back down on the nightstand when Max walked back into the room. “Max!” she yelped, unable to contain her nervousness. That was a close call.

“What’re you doing in here?”

“Uh . . .” She thought up a quick lie right there on the spot. “I’m just looking for this shirt I lost. I thought I might’ve left it in here.”

It came as no surprise that Max believed her. He was a smart guy, but he still couldn’t tell a lie from the truth to save his life.

“Oh, well . . . I’ll let you know if I find it.” He didn’t sound like he wanted her hanging around.

She nodded silently and slowly slipped out of the room, making sure to give him a wide berth as she walked past him. She stopped in the doorway and glanced back at that cell phone one more time when he wasn’t looking. It was official: she was one manipulative bitch.

She closed the door gently into place and breathed a sigh of frustration. She didn’t like what she was doing, but she felt that it needed to be done, one way or another.

It wasn’t exactly a great master plan as far as master plans were concerned. Hell, it wasn’t even master. It was probably more foolish than it was foolproof.

If Max and Liz texted each other back asking what it was they wanted to see each other about, they were going to realize that they hadn’t sent those messages. In fact, there were a million ways this plan could go wrong and only one way it could go right: Max and Liz had to meet somewhere private, alone, together, and Max had to feel obligated to tell Liz everything. Surely he would when he saw that look on her face, glimpsed the excitement in her eyes, heard the hopefulness in her voice . . . he would tell her then. Max was a sensitive guy. It was his way, and Liz was his friend.

And if Max told her, Michael wouldn’t be mad. He would understand. Michael and Liz would break up, Max and Liz would comfort each other and start to feel better, and maybe . . . maybe Michael would stay. And maybe he might finally give in to his real feelings. Because she had already given in to her feelings for him. She was ready.

All Max and Liz had to do was meet and have some time to talk. And if they met in the locker room at 9:00 like she hoped they would, that was exactly what they would have.

~*~*~*~*~~*~*~

After meeting with his professor, Michael went directly to the spot where he and Maria had kissed. He stood out on the sidewalk and just stared at it. Nothing was happening. The sprinklers weren’t going off yet, and there weren’t two wild and crazy people having a private water fight. No, it was just empty, and he just stood there, staring at the open space, remembering that night as hundreds of students passed him by.

He couldn’t forget the taste of her lips. God, he hadn’t meant to kiss her, and now he wished he hadn’t. He had already lost Max’s friendship, and he feared he was close to losing Maria’s, too. And her friendship was everything to him.

He frowned at the disturbing thoughts racing through his warped and twisted brain. He knew he had two options: either he could tell Liz or not tell her. Somewhere deep down inside, he did know that honesty was the best policy. But he still wanted to lie. It was easier, and he was all about easy things.

“Guerin, what up, man?”

Michael turned around and saw Luke from his Videography class. He hadn’t spoken to him for awhile. There were a few other guys with him. They were all probably heading out to a party. Ah, beer, sex, and orgies, Michael thought wistfully. Those were the fuckin’ good old days.

“Dude, are you stoned?” Luke asked him.

“What?” Michael shook his head. “No, just thinkin’ . . .”

“You, thinkin’?” Luke laughed. “Since when?”

Michael shrugged. “Well . . .” He’d sure as hell done a lot of thinking ever since he’d first placed his lips on Maria’s. Thoughts were pretty much inevitable after a kiss like that.

“You ready to graduate?” Luke asked him.

“I guess.”

“Yeah, me, too. I’m not gonna miss stupid classes at all. You know what I am gonna miss, though? Hot college chicks. Wasted and slutty. That’s the way we like ‘em, right?”

Michael didn’t say anything to that. Wasted and slutty was fine, but he had a feeling Luke was referring to someone in particular . . .

“Speaking of . . .” Luke grinned. “How’s Maria? I heard she and your other friend broke up.”

“Max.”

“Yeah.”

Michael sighed, annoyed. How news about their personal lives spread around so fast, he would never know.

“So they did, huh?” Luke looked happy to hear that. “Nice. Now she’s an easy lay again?”

“She’s not easy.” In fact, he was beginning to think Maria DeLuca was the most complex person he knew.

“Huh, my cock begs to differ,” Luke said. “Ever since I had her on her birthday a couple months ago . . . man, I just wanna bang that shit again, you know? Fuck that ass.”

“Just stop talking,” Michael warned him.

Luke just kept on going, though, like an idiot. “Cum in her mouth, shoot my load down her throat.”

“Look, I’m tellin’ you, shut up.” He felt his hands clenching into fists on their own will.

“Man, that bitch fucks so good. She’s like a little whore.”

And that was it. His fist flew up in the air and collided with Luke’s face. Luke tumbled backward onto the sidewalk, and blood immediately started to drip from his nose. All of his friends backed off a little.

“What the fuck, man?” Luke spat in anger. “What the hell’s your problem?”

It wasn’t just protectiveness. Of that much he was sure. It wasn’t even just jealousy. It was something else. Something primal.

Territory. As strange as it sounded, Maria DeLuca was his territory, and in a weird way, he suspected he was hers. They had each slept with dozens and dozens of other people, never with each other, but somehow, they still belonged to each other.

He left Luke to lie there as he turned and walked away.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ;)

Maria glanced at the clock on the microwave. 8:15. Her entire body was on edge, anticipating.

She was glad to see that Max had changed into one of his nice shirts. It meant that he was going out somewhere instead of just sitting at home. Apparently he and Liz were going to meet up, both thinking that the other one needed to talk. Now all Max had to do was talk first . . .

“You got a date?” she asked him as he bent down and took a look at his reflection on the TV screen.

“Nope,” he said. “Do you?”

She shook her head and echoed. “Nope. But I do have somewhere I need to be.” She grabbed her keys off the table and stood up. She walked over to the door and slipped on her sandals, then cast one more glance back at her ex-boyfriend. He was still looking at his reflection in the TV, trying to perfect his bangs. Who would have known Max cared about how he looked around Liz?

“Try to have fun tonight, Max,” she advised.

He didn’t say anything, but he didn’t quite ignore her, either.

She grasped her keys tighter in her hand and walked out the front door. Now all she had to do was get to the gym and wait . . .

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Liz sat down on the bench in the locker room and sighed. As much as she liked Max, this wasn’t her ideal Saturday night. She still had to move a lot of her things into her new apartment, and this would have been a great night to do it. But then she’d received Max’s text message. Well, if he needed to see her, there was probably a good reason.

She had a feeling it had to do with Maria. He was hurting, and he probably needed a shoulder to cry on. She could be that for him, no problem. She wasn’t going to poke and prod. She was just going to sit there and listen, and whatever he needed to say, he would say. And maybe after they were done talking, if he felt any better, he might be able to help her do some moving. It might take his mind off of other things.

She glanced up at the clock. She was early. It was barely past 8:30. Max would be there soon.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael pushed open the door to his soon-to-be home, his apartment. He didn’t flip on the light. He didn’t need to in order to see that Liz had already started doing some moving without his knowledge. There were boxes piled on the floor near the couch. Her parents must have sent her some things.

She was all ready to move in, all ready to start a life with him. But meanwhile, he was remembering kissing Maria in the midst of the sprinklers and turning in movies that were all about Maria and punching guys who thought they could call Maria a whore right in front of him and get away with it. No way.

He sighed and shut the door, wishing he could be comfortable there. But he wasn’t. That wasn’t his home. It was missing all sorts of things. His Metallica CDs. His Metallica t-shirts. His Metallica posters. His Maria.

He shook his head and kicked off his shoes. He figured maybe he should try to stay there for the night. He was going to end up living there unless Liz somehow found out the truth . . . but no, she wasn’t finding out the truth anytime soon. He wasn’t going to hurt her like that.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria peered around the side of the building and watched as Max approached. He looked completely calm; his steps were unhurried. He didn’t look as though he were going to tell Liz anything at all, but . . . no, he was going to tell her everything. Somehow, she knew he was going to tell her everything whether he wanted to or not.

She watched as Max opened the door and walked into the gymnasium, and her heart pounded in anticipation. She would sneak in a minute later . . .

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

I wonder why she wants to meet me in the locker room, Max thought as he made his way across the gym floor. It seemed like sort of an odd place to meet for anything, but . . . whatever. He was more interested in what she wanted to meet him about. He had a feeling he knew. Last name, Guerin. First name, Jackass.

He opened up the door to the locker room and stepped inside. Liz was already there, waiting for him.

“Hey, Max,” she said, getting to her feet. “How you doin’?”

“I’ve been better,” he admitted. “How about you?” He realized what a dumb question it was right after he asked it. She’d just found out that her boyfriend of four months had cheated on her. She couldn’t be doing that well.

Much to his surprise, though, she just nodded and said, “I’m good.”

He frowned in confusion. That’s strange . . . He and Maria had broken up a few days ago, and he was still reeling. Maybe she was more resilient than he was?

“So, then, what’re we talkin’ about?” he asked.

“I don’t know. You tell me.”

Again, he wrinkled his forehead in confusion. Something was off about this, but he wasn’t quite sure what it was. “Liz . . .” He paused, still frowning. She was the one who had texted him. Didn’t she have anything to say?

Or maybe, he thought, she’s suppressing it all. She doesn’t really want to talk about it, but she knows she has to.

“So I take it you found out,” he said.

Now it was her turn to show off a perplexed expression. “Found out about what?”

“You know.” Did he really need to elaborate? “Michael and Maria.”

She tilted her head to the side curiously and asked, “Michael and Maria?”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria stood behind the door, concealed from both Max and Liz’s views, and listened for a moment to the sound of silence. She had Max and Liz right where she wanted them. Now all she had to do was make sure they stayed there.

I don’t like myself, she thought as she placed her hands on the door. She squeezed her eyes shut, readied herself, and then slammed the door shut. She wasted no time then inserting a key into the lock and turning it to the right. There. Just like that, the door was locked.

She slowly pulled the key out of the lock and took a step back, surveying the closed door. She’d really done it now. Max and Liz weren’t leaving that locker room until they had time to talk.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Liz frowned and stared at the door for a moment. Had she been seeing things, or had it just slammed shut? She exchanged a look with Max. He seemed confused, too, and he walked over to it. He placed his hands on it to push it open, but it didn’t budge. “What the . . .” He trailed off and pushed on the door again, harder this time, putting all his weight into it. “I think it’s stuck.”

Liz groaned and went to help him. “It’s not stuck. It’s locked,” she informed him. She pushed on the door herself, but that of course did no good.

“What kind of door locks on the outside?” Max said.

“A locker room door.” She pounded her fists on the door and hollered, “Hey! Hey, open up! We’re still in here!”

“Hey!” Max joined in, pounding his fists above hers. “Can somebody open up the door? Please?”

No response.

Liz sighed heavily, a sinking feeling settling over her. “I don’t think it’s any use,” she said dismally.

“Who would lock it?” Max asked her.

She shrugged and replied, “I don’t know. One of the janitors, maybe?”

“I didn’t see any janitors.”

“Well, I think they’re the only people who have a key, so . . .” She trailed off and shrugged again. “I don’t know.”

Max stared at the door again and began to contemplate, “Well, maybe—maybe if we just . . .” He, too, trailed off, and he began slamming his hands on the door and shouting again. “Hey! Let us out of here!”

“Let us out of here!” Liz echoed, pounding her fists against the door rapidly. “Please! Someone?”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria heard them yelling, pleading for someone to open the door. She could have easily done it, stuck that key back in that lock and turned it. But why would she do that? So the four of them could go back to life the way it had been, her and Max and Michael at war and Liz and Michael ready to shack up together? No. Uh-uh. She was not going back to that. Anything was better than that.

She stuck her keys in her pocket and took a moment to reflect on the events she was setting in motion. No doubt about it, when Liz did walk out of that locker room, she was no longer going to be Michael’s girlfriend. And then the future would be wide open for all of them. But was it a good future, or a bad one? At this point, it could go either way.

“Help!” she heard Liz yell. “We’re stuck in here!”

“Let us out!”

She winced. This manipulation . . . it wasn’t fun. But somebody had to do it. No one else was going to.

Ignoring their voices, she turned around and slowly walked away.








TBC . . .

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Part 101

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nibbles: Aw, shucks, I know what it's like to be Internetless! No fun!
Krista:
So April, I guess that luck that you said Maria needed came through for her.
Yeah, usually she's an unlucky person, so she really, REALLY lucked out this time.
Sara: You're not the only one who hates Maria right now, trust me. In fact, she kind of hates herself.
Ashley: Thanks for reading. What a beautiful fic banner, by the way! Absolutely gorgeous.
Elle:
hmmm not sure how I feel about Maria deciding that Liz needed to know...I mean yes Liz has a right to know and Michael is being a chicken S**t for not admitting to Liz...but Maria has no right deciding how and when Liz should be told and to leave it up to Max...hasn't he suffered enough right now??
Yeah, I think you hit the nail right on the head there. Liz does deserve to know, but what gives Maria the right to decide it's time for her to know? And what makes her think it is okay to use someone else (Max, yet again) to get her way?
Alien_Friend:
I remember the day I discovered this story, so much has happened since then.
I remember the day you discovered it, too! You were one of my first feedbackers, and you've been feedbacking faithfully ever since! :D
killjoy:
I think a lot of you think that if Max tells Liz the whole story than she'll run off to break up with Michael who will than come crawling back to Maria and than they'll be a couple
But that's not how I see it going down.If Liz does get mad and breaks up with Michael....and if Michael finds out that Maria set the whole thing up than I do believe that Michael will be pissed beyond belief at her.
IF Michael does find out, you could be right. One thing that Maria failed to consider when concocting her desperate plan was how it would affect her own relationship with Michael.
CandyLand:
Michael and Maria continue to sink lower and lower into the bowels of hell, and now they don't even have each other to burn with.
Ooh, that's dark. But true! One of the worst things they could do was grow apart from each other, and that's what they've done. :?
Nat:
Hey it looks like Max/Liz might hook up before Maria/Michael!
Well, you never know. Anything's possible, I guess.
Mag:
To be honest, I think Michael and Maria bring out the worst in each other, here.
You know what, it's true. They do. Sometimes they bring out the best in each other, and sometimes they bring out the worst in each other. Right now, they're bringing out the worst in each other. Michael has an incredible influence over both Liz and Maria without even trying, hence Maria's recent manipulative actions. Right now, their relationship is damaging to themselves and everyone around them.
tequathisy:
It's about time Maria fought for Michael. All's fair in love and war.
Yeah, you know, this is an interesting perspective. Sure, Maria has done some horrible things, but at the end of the day, she is fighting for what she wants? So is that wrong, is that bad? No, a girl should go after what she wants. It's just the way she's going after Michael that is a problem.
pookie76:
YES!!! Exactly..I couldn't have said it better. I totally agree with you. Michael has it way too easy. I want to see him suffer for ONCE.
Right now, Michael is suffering from a lot of indecision and confusion.
spacegirl23:
I'm away for a week and the Passion universe is upside down!
Yeah, and this part is going to make it even more upside down!
singerchic4: You know, the banner really could not be any more PERFECT for the fic. The moment I saw it, my jaw-dropped open because it was better than anything I ever had in mind! Thanks for the feedback! I'm thrilled to have a new feedbacker after 1,037 pages!
Christina:
But... Max is no longer disillusioned.
That's right, so Max is kind of at a crossroads right now. Now that he sees Maria for who she really is, he can either become a stronger, smarter person, or he can pretty much wallow in self-pity. Max has some really important stuff ahead of him, and it all starts in this part.



Woo, I'm loving all that feedback! Thanks, everyone!


Oh, here we go again. More music. I just . . . can't resist. "Playground Love" by Air is another one of those songs that just really sets the mood for a certain part, I think. So try listening to it here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aCm7K9j6O00&fmt=18 when you see the ;) smiley.


I promised a pivotal part today, right? Hopefully it doesn't disappoint. I've been dying to post this for months.












Part 101









Max was still slamming his fist against the door when Liz sighed heavily and gave in. “Oh, face it, Max: it’s no use. We’re locked in here.”

“Dammit,” Max swore, hitting the door one more time. When he took a step back, though, he asked himself why he was so upset about being stuck in there, and he couldn’t really come up with an answer. Actually, maybe it was a good thing. Being in a house with Michael and Maria wasn’t exactly comfortable at the moment. Last night, when he’d walked down the hallway and seen them in his bedroom together, they’d looked so guilty. Even though they hadn’t been doing anything when he saw them, he suspected they had been doing something before, because they had just looked so unbelievably upset with themselves.

“Well, it could be worse,” Liz said as she sat down on the bench between locker rows. “We could be stuck in here with your parents or something.”

“Yeah, that would be worse,” he agreed. That was good perspective. Still, he doubted she was as comfortable there as he was, so he went on to ask, “Is there another way out of here?”

She shook her head. “Nope. It’s a stupid room. Stupid door. Stupid us for getting stuck in here.”

“We probably should’ve met somewhere else,” he acknowledged, still confused as to why she had texted him to meet her there in the first place.

“Yeah, definitely,” she agreed, sighing. “Oh, well. It’s no big deal. I can call Michael.” She flipped open her cell phone and held it out in front of her, trying to get service.

“Uh . . . Liz.”

“Hmm?”

“Are you sure you wanna call Michael? I mean . . .” Why would she want to call Michael? She knew, right? She had to know.

“Oh, you’re right,” she said. “We should call Maria. She might have a key to unlock the door. She might actually be able to get us out of here.”

“Um . . .” He frowned, not too keen on that idea, either.

“What?” she asked. Suddenly then, her mouth dropped open, her eyes grew wide, and she gasped. “Oh my god, I’m so sorry, Max. I totally forgot.” She looked at him apologetically and said, “Maria told me what happened between the two of you. I’m really sorry.”

So Maria had been the one to tell her about her and Michael? Max stared at Liz skeptically and inquired for clarification, “So she told you . . . everything?”

“Well, no, not everything. Actually, she was sorta tight-lipped. She told me about, um . . . the proposal. But she didn’t really wanna talk about it that much, so I just tried to butt out.”

Max nodded, starting to understand. Liz knew that he and Maria had broken up, but she didn’t know why. She was still as clueless as ever.

Poor girl.

“And you know what? I know that it’s none of my business,” she added on.

“Actually, it is your business,” he mumbled.

“No, it’s not,” she insisted. “What happened between you and Maria is totally between you and Maria. By all means, if you want to talk about, you can. I’ll just sit here and listen. I won’t even say anything if you don’t want me to. But if you do want me to say something, then I will. But, of course, if you don’t wanna say anything . . . then just don’t. You don’t have to. I just . . .” She paused a moment, looking at him sadly, and then went on. “I feel really bad for you, Max. You’re a nice guy, and you don’t deserve to have your heart broken.”

You don’t deserve to have your heart broken, either, Liz. He sighed heavily and raked one hand through his hair. He was really in a rough situation now. How could he not tell Liz everything he knew? They were locked in a room together, alone. If he didn’t say anything, he would be lying by omission, and the last thing Liz needed was more lies in her life from people she trusted. Besides, if he left it up to Michael . . . Maria was right. She would never find out if he left it up to Michael to tell her.

“You just have to try to remember, it’s for the best,” she continued on. “If she’d said yes, if she’d let you put that ring on her finger . . . she would’ve been giving you so much false hope. She would’ve been lying, and it only would’ve hurt worse in the end. So it’s actually better that she didn’t prolong it.”

“God knows she prolonged it enough,” he muttered under his breath.

“What?”

He sighed again and sat down beside her. “I don’t wanna say anything.”

“Oh, okay. No problem,” she said quickly. “Um . . . well, what were you saying when you walked in here? You know, before the door shut. You said something about Michael and Maria . . .” She let her sentence fade with only the slightest hint of a suspicious tone. “What about them?” she asked.

Oh, so much, he thought. How was he supposed to go about this? “I don’t--”

“Oh.”

“No, but . . .” He looked into Liz’s eyes, and he knew he had no choice. He couldn’t let her go on like this. She was his friend. She was a good girl. A little misguided, a little too easily influenced, but she was young. And that was okay. Maybe if she and Michael stopped dating, she could actually start being the real Liz Parker again.

“I think I have to tell you,” he realized, “whether I want to or not.”

“Tell me what?” she asked sounding slightly concerned.

He lowered and shook his head. “God, I didn’t wanna have to do this. I wanted you to hear it from him. You deserve to hear it from him.”

“Hear what from who?”

Now or never. It had to be now. “Liz . . .” He turned and looked her right in the eye again and said six words that broke through all the lies, all the horrible lies, and probably broke her heart in the process. “Michael’s cheating on you. With Maria.”

At first, Liz’s reaction was to freeze, sit there motionless for a few seconds, and just stare at him in shock. Quickly, however, the tears welled up in her eyes, and he knew she understood him. She knew it was true. Still, she only choked out one wrecked word.

“Huh?”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael decided that he should try to sleep at the apartment that night. Why not? In a few days, he would be living there permanently. His room at home wouldn’t really be his room anymore. In fact, that whole house wouldn’t be his home anymore. Because he was moving in . . . with Liz. She was really excited about it.

He lay down in the bed, and it was almost too comfortable. His bed at home wasn’t like that, wasn’t very comfy at all. But he liked it. He liked that whole house. He liked living there with his friends.

With her.

He stared up at the ceiling wondering how long it would take for him to get comfortable and fall asleep. Maybe awhile. Didn’t matter. He was already a sleep-deprived college student. Another restless night wouldn’t kill him. It might piss him off a little, but he could manage.

They were going to have to invest in a shitload of blankets, though, because he was fucking cold. He probably would have been burning up if someone in particular was lying beside him . . .

He turned his head to the side, and for a moment, he let himself imagine she was. The smooth, naked skin of her back, her long, shiny blonde hair . . . Maria. And for a moment, he didn’t need any blankets, because his entire body heated up. But after he blinked his eyes a few times, he realized that she wasn’t there, that she would probably never fall asleep in bed beside him again, because too much had changed. He’d been a selfish, horny son of a bitch that night that he’d first allowed himself to kiss her.

He sighed and stared up at the ceiling again. He got an image of Liz in his mind and, after waiting a few seconds, turned his head to the side again and tried to envision her lying there. Because that would happen. It was going to be their apartment. She would likely be the last thing he saw when he fell asleep at night and the first thing he saw when he woke up in the morning. Did he really want that?

Apparently not, because he still pictured Maria lying there.

Oh, fuck.

Again, he stared up at the ceiling and decided he wasn’t going to look over at the empty half of the bed for the rest of the night. That obviously wasn’t making his life any less confusing.

For a brief instant, he contemplated telling Liz everything. Just like that, everything. He took it cell phone out of his pocket, opened it, and dialed the first three digits of Liz’s phone number, but then he closed the phone and stuck it back in his pocket just as quickly. No, that wasn’t going to happen. He wasn’t gonna tell her. Wasn’t gonna tell her.

It wasn’t as though he were torn between two lovers or anything that epically romantic. No, he knew what he wanted, what he had always wanted. Maria DeLuca had always, whether he wanted to admit it or not, been the girl of his dreams. But she had also always been his best friend, and that had restrained him. Now he had a girlfriend who loved him, even though that was a stupid thing to do. And he really didn’t want to hurt her. He really didn’t.

I can’t sleep here, he thought, swinging his legs over the side of the bed. He sighed and rose to his feet, ready to get out of there. That wasn’t his bed, and this wasn’t his home.

But it was going to have to be soon.

Stupid.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Liz wished she could stop crying, but she couldn’t. She sat on the floor against the lockers with her face buried in her hands, her body shaking as the tears refused to stop flowing. Max still sat on the bench, looking somber, not really saying anything.

Michael, how could you? How could you? was all she could think. Michael . . .

“I’m sorry you had to find out this way,” Max said quietly.

She took a deep, shaky breath to try to steady herself as she wiped the tears from her cheeks. “No, I’m g-glad you told me,” she sputtered. “I mean, I’m n-not glad, but . . . obviously Michael wasn’t gonna tell me, so . . .” She closed her eyes and shook her head as fresh tears fell over onto her cheeks, replacing the ones she had just wiped away. She was just so disappointed in him. “He was just gonna go on like everything was okay. We have this apartment. Or we did. He probably would’ve-would’ve done stuff with Maria in our-in our bed and . . . and then he would’ve done stuff with me and just . . .”

“Liz.” Max came over and sat down beside her, clearly sympathetic. “I don’t wanna give Michael Guerin any credit, trust me, but for what it’s worth, I think he actually does care about you, which is really something, because he doesn’t care about anybody.”

“Except Maria,” she pointed out. “He’s always really cared about Maria.”

“That’s true,” Max acknowledged.

“Can I just ask you something Max?” she said. “How could you live in that house with them and let them spend all that time together? I mean, how could you let him be so close to her, because . . . I hated it. All they had to do was talk, and I just hated it so much.”

“I tolerated it,” Max mumbled. “I let myself believe I was happy, but now I understand that I never truly was.”

Liz thought about it and realized the same applied to her. “Me, too,” she said. “God, I just . . . I feel so stupid. Because I knew all along. I really did; I knew. I knew Michael had feelings for her, and I even knew she had feelings for him, too. I knew she wasn’t in love with you, and I knew he’d never be in love with me, and I just . . . I just went along with it. I was just so happy to have a boyfriend, and have, like, recognition and popularity. And suddenly I wasn’t just this nerdy girl anymore. I was somebody. Michael made me somebody.” She frowned and shook her head again. “But it’s somebody I don’t like. It’s a stupid somebody, and I promise, I’m not stupid, Max.”

“I know you’re not,” he said. “Neither am I, but most people would disagree with me right now. Eight years . . . I’ve known ‘em for eight years. I’ve been there for all the fights and all the laughter . . . I always knew, too. Always.”

“But at least you didn’t let Maria change you,” she said, offering him some comfort. “You’re still you, Max. Okay, I mean, salutatorian, not quite what you were aiming for, but you’re still you. But I completely lost myself in Michael. Willingly.”

“And we were both blind,” Max added. "Willingly."

“So stupid,” she mumbled, furious with herself. “Once again, the smart girl does really dumb stuff.”

“So does the smart guy.”

“And what did we do to deserve this, Max? I mean . . . God, I lost my . . . my virginity to him, Max. I just gave it up, just like that. And you . . . to Maria, right?”

He nodded solemnly.

“You see? We gave them so much. And what did they give us? Lies. All these lies. I mean . . . how long do you think they lied, Max? How long were they . . . cheating on us? I mean . . .” She made a face of disgust and sadness. “What do you think they did?”

Max sighed, rubbed his forehead, and admitted, “I don’t know. Maria says they didn’t sleep together, but I don’t really know what to believe anymore. And she says they first kissed the night of the car bash.”

“Car bash?” Liz echoed in confusion. What was that?

“Yeah, you know? Oh, no, you were coming back from Nebraska that night, I think.”

“Oh . . .” More tears steadily fell over as she remembered showing up at the airport and taking a taxi home because Michael hadn’t been there. Now she knew he’d been kissing Maria. “Great,” she said. “You know, that was the night he suggested we get a place together. Oh my god, and I just smiled and forgot that I was mad at him, because I really was mad at him before that. I really was. I thought I’d be happy with him, but I wasn’t a lot of the time. You know?”

“Yeah.”

“I mean, it was like, no matter how hard I tried, no matter how I tried to convince myself that we had this great thing going, there was always something missing.”

“And what was that?”

She turned her head to the side and looked him right in the eye when she spoke the word, because it was exactly what he and Maria were missing together, too. “Passion.”

He sighed heavily and agreed, “That’ll do it.”

“And Michael and Maria . . . they just have it without even trying. It’s not fair.”

“Well, everyone has passion, Liz,” Max assured her. “You do. I do. Just because we don’t run around screaming and acting crazy and flaunting it . . . we still have it. It’s just quieter.”

“Yeah,” she agreed, liking the sound of that. A quieter passion. But still . . . “I still feel like such a fool, though.” She wiped more tears off her cheek and said, “And god, Max, how many times did we wonder about them? How many conversations did we have?”

“Quite a few,” Max acknowledged.

“I mean, how many times did we almost open up our eyes and allow ourselves to see what was right in front of us? I’m so frustrated with myself. I mean, how could I . . . how could we just sit there and let them walk all over us?”

Max shrugged and replied, “We were in love.”

“Were we?” She’d said the words to him before, sort of with a sense of uncertainty, but she had said it. “I’m not so sure I ever really was,” she confessed. “I really thought I would be . . . but how could I be? We just had sex and didn’t really talk. Ever. Unless we were talking about sex. Or Maria. God.” It all seemed so clear now. How had it been so fuzzy before?

“Well, I was in love,” Max assured her. “I mean, I just couldn’t help myself. But obviously it wasn’t true love, so . . .” He trailed off and shrugged sadly.

“What is it about Maria?” she asked suddenly. “What is it about her that makes guys want her so much? Because I tried to be like her—I mean, I really tried. But obviously it didn’t work. So what is it about her? What’s she got that I don’t have?”

Max shifted uncomfortably and said, “I don’t think it’s like that, Liz.”

“Sure it is.”

“No, it’s really not. I mean, sure, Maria has qualities that you don’t have. But you also have qualities she doesn’t have. Liz, any guy would be lucky to call you his girlfriend.”

“Oh, you, too, Max,” she said. “Boyfriend, I mean. You seem like a good boyfriend.”

“Well, I like to think I was. Just wasn’t enough,” he mumbled.

“Never is,” she muttered in response. “You know, I think Michael’s ruined it for me with anyone else now.”

“Why?” Max asked. “‘Cause of . . . the sex? ‘Cause Maria definitely set the bar pretty high in that realm, too.”

“No, not just ‘cause of that,” Liz said. “First boyfriend, first relationship . . . down the drain. Way down. And from now on, I’ll probably always assume a guy’s lying to me. I’ll always assume there’s some wild blonde he likes better. And the minute he asks me to move in with him . . . that’ll be the end of it, because I’ll be suspicious.”

“I’ll probably never pop the question to anybody again,” Max said drearily. “I mean . . . bad memories, you know?”

“Yeah,” she said. “I don’t know who I’m more angry at: Michael or Maria.”

“Michael,” Max said. “Or maybe Maria. I don’t know. She consciously lied. He really was as clueless as we were, I think.”

“Yeah, but at least Maria eventually told you,” she said. “Michael didn’t say one word, and he could’ve.” He had been acting weird the entire week. Looking back, she knew she should have questioned it. “Oh god,” she said, shaking her head. She closed her eyes in an attempt to contain the tears threatening to spill and said, “We had sex the other night. And now I know he probably wasn’t even thinking about me.”

“Maria was never thinking about me, I’m sure,” Max said. “The sex was great, but . . . her heart was never in it. And I knew it.”

“We knew so much. And we knew absolutely nothing at the same time.”

“We thought we had everything. But we knew we had nothing.”

“We’re gigantic disasters, Max.” She turned her head to the side to gaze at him again and asked, “Do you think we’re ever gonna . . . fix ourselves?”

“Maybe we’ll fix each other.” He managed to smile a little.

“And how are we gonna do that?” she asked, leaning in a bit closer.

“I don’t know,” he answered quietly. “I’m sure we can think of something, though. We’re smart.”

“Supposedly.”

He chuckled. “Right.”

She managed to smile, too, despite the situation she was in: locked in a locker room with the newfound knowledge that she and her boyfriend had no future together. At least Max was there, though. He made it bearable. He was a great guy.

“Max?” she said.

“What?”

“If I say something to you, will you just disregard it as me being . . . disastrous?”

He gave her a confused look and said, “Sure.”

“Okay.” She leaned in even closer and confessed to him, “I had a crush on you for awhile there.”

“What?”

“Yeah.” She nodded. “It didn’t last long, though, because Michael, you know . . . you know how girls get around Michael. But Max?”

“Yeah?”

She leaned in closer yet and whispered, “I wish it had been you. I wish I’d kept on liking you, Max, and sometimes I wonder what it would’ve been like if I had. I mean . . . we probably wouldn’t be sitting here right now, would we, all disaster-y? We’d probably be . . . I don’t know. Laughing about something, being quietly passionate about something. We’re a lot alike, Max.”

“Yeah, we are,” he agreed.

She noticed his eyes drift down to her lips for a moment, and she had to ask, “Have you ever wondered? Have you ever wondered . . . what could have been?”

“I’m . . . not sure.”

She pressed her forehead against his and murmured, “Maybe now’s our chance to find out.”

He didn’t seem to know what she was doing; she didn’t even know what she was doing. But all of a sudden, she felt their lips touch. Gentle, tender, and just a bit hesitant. But after that momentary uncertainty, it was as though they became certain. They kissed, a deep, full kiss. Passionate. Full of passion. She opened her mouth wider, urging him to keep on kissing her, because she really didn’t want him to stop. But Max pulled away slowly and asked, “What’re we doin’ here?”

She didn’t have a legitimate answer for him, so she wasn’t going to pretend to have one. “I don’t know,” she replied honestly, breathlessly. All she knew was that she wasn’t just kissing him because she was mad at Michael. She was kissing him because she wanted to.

For the first time in her life and probably for the first time in his, they cast aside all reason and kissed again.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria walked in the house that evening, still clutching her keys in her hand. Max was probably telling Liz everything at that very moment. Liz was probably breaking down in tears. She couldn’t blame the girl. She and Michael had dated for four months; he was her first serious boyfriend. A depression was probably in the works.

She had to find out, Maria reminded herself, stashing her keys in her purse. She had to find out one way or another. She leaned against the back of the couch and tried to steady her emotions, not sure what she was getting all worked up about. She just got the sense that she had done something very manipulative, and for the first time in her life, that really bothered her. She kept trying to be a better person, but she always wound up being the same old Maria DeLuca: selfish, ruthless, and out of control.

Liz didn’t have to find out, she realized. I wanted her to find out. And she was all about getting what she wanted, one way or another. She always had been. She wanted guys to like her, so she’d started sleeping around way back in middle school. She wanted to be the life of every party, so she’d always drunk way more than she should. She wanted to graduate college, so she’d slept with her professors. She wanted her feelings about Michael to stay a secret, so she’d dated Max. Now she wanted Michael all to herself, so she maneuvered Max into a position to tell Liz.

I may be a bitch, she thought, but I do always get what I want. That thought didn’t particularly please her the way it once would have.

She let out a heavy, distressed sigh, and set her purse down on the floor. She glanced up then, and her eyes immediately settled on a picture of herself, Michael, Max, and Kyle stuck to the refrigerator. It was way back from the day they had first moved into their house in Santa Fe. Max and Kyle and Michael were all holding boxes marked ‘Maria’s clothes.’ She was just smiling and looking pretty for the camera.

She made her way over to the refrigerator and slid the picture out from underneath the magnets holding it up. My boys, she thought nostalgically, getting a little teary-eyed as she looked at the photo. My sweet, annoying boys. She had always been the girl with three loyal guys as friends. No, they weren’t just friends; they were family. And now she worried that she had destroyed their family forever. Nothing would ever be the same between them again. In a perfect world, things would be better, more honest, more meant to be. But in this world, she would be lucky if Max ever forgave her and if Michael ever broke off his everlasting stubborn streak long enough to make love to her. Because that was the one thing she wanted more than anything else in the world.

Just then, the front door swung open and the very object of her affection stepped foot inside. He immediately noticed her, and she immediately tensed. You’re not gonna have a girlfriend for much longer, Michael, she thought. Because of me.

“Hey,” he said as he shut the door.

“Hey,” she echoed, hating that. The mutual hey greeting . . . god, they’d been doing it way too much lately. She put the picture of the four of them back up on the refrigerator and made her way back into the living room. She stuffed her hands in the back of her jeans pockets and waited for him to say anything. But he didn’t, of course. Just stood there and took off his shoes.

“Where have you been all night?” she asked him. She didn’t want to come off sounding like an overprotective mother by any means, but she wanted to know if he’d been sleazing it up at a strip-club or something. She wouldn’t put it past him.

“Out,” he replied. And that was all. He was so determined not to say more than one word to her at a time, not even to look at her . . . it killed her.

Jackass, she thought. Why did he have to be so . . .

“You alright?”

That simple question almost made her fall over. First off, the fact that he had asked it, that he had used two words instead of just one, blew her mind. Second, the answer was a doozy. No, she thought. I’m not alright. In fact, she was so all wrong, she wasn’t sure if she would ever sort herself out.

“Maria?”

Oh god, her name . . . her name on those lips . . .

Jackass.

“Uh, I was just thinking,” she said, the wheels of her mind spinning in interest. “I think I left some stuff . . . at the dance team gym awhile back.” If Liz could physically see Michael right after hearing the truth from Max, she would beg him to deny it. And he wouldn’t be able to deny it to her face with Max standing right there, knowing the truth. He would have to confess to everything, and then there would be no possible way he and Liz could ever be together again.

“Yeah?” Michael said expectantly.

She realized she had been spacing a bit and said, “Oh, I think I’m gonna go get it, maybe, if it’s still there.”

“Alright, have fun.” He started across the living room, but she quickly stopped him.

“Wanna come with me?”

He turned around slowly and said, “I don’t think that’s such a good idea. You and me alone in a car together?”

“It’s not any worse than you and me alone in this house together,” she pointed out.

He gave her a confused look. “Max and Kyle aren’t here?”

“No. Kyle’s out with Tess, I think, and . . . I don’t know where Max is.” Liar.

“Huh,” he said, crossing his arms over his chest.

“Come on, Michael,” she urged. She lowered her head and mumbled in a rush of breath, “We’re gonna end up alone somewhere together anyway. We always do.” She sneaked a glance up at him then and said, “We could talk on the way there. Or just drive in silence. Whatever.”

He stared at her for a moment, and she could see that he was considering it. For whatever reason, he shrugged and headed back for the door. He stepped back into his shoes and headed out the door without a word.

“Driving in silence it is,” she muttered, grabbing her purse and following him out to the car.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ;)

Max and Liz’s lips met, and Liz wasn’t sure what she was feeling. Something, something different than what she had felt with Michael. Not necessarily worse or better, but just different. And exhilarating.

He lifted her up and set her down in his lap as he continued to kiss her, steadily yet forcefully. He was passionate, and right now, it didn’t seem like a quiet passion at all. It matched hers in ferocity and determination. She was passionate, too.

An insistent kiss to her jaw urged her to tilt her head back and revel in the sensation. She let out a pleasured moan and tangled her hands in his hair as he sucked and nipped at the skin of her neck. She mouthed his name but didn’t have the willpower to actually say it. It was as though he had taken all the air out of her lungs without even trying.

Where was this coming from? She had always liked Max, she supposed, even through her lust-clouded infatuation with Michael, but this was just so sudden, so unexpected. Maybe she should have stopped it, but she didn’t want to. And even though he was normally cautious, he seemed to have thrown caution out the window as his hands grazed down her back to grasp the bottom of her shirt and pull it up and over her head.

He dropped her shirt to the ground and clasped his hands with hers, both their arms raised in the air. He had strong hands, warm hands. His whole body was radiating warmth. No, not just warmth. Heat. Pure, unadulterated heat.

She smiled, never having imagined this side of Max Evans existed. Even this side of herself . . . it was new. It was a side she had never explored with Michael, because he had been so dominant in all aspects of their relationship, and she too willing to submit. Not anymore.

He brought his arms down to wrap around her waist and pull her in even closer to him, and she brought hers down to drape over his shoulders. She trailed her right hand down over his collarbone, though, to rest on his chest, right over his heart. She drummed her fingers lightly for a moment, anticipating so much about this process. And then she unbuttoned his shirt slowly and deliberately, smiling at him as she did so. He gazed right into her eyes, and the look was smoldering.

She couldn’t believe this, couldn’t process all of the sensations that were coursing through her. As she pushed his shirt down over his shoulders, all she knew was that she had never felt this way before. She had never felt wanted. But it seemed as though Max really wanted her. Her, not Maria. It was undeniable knowledge, and it probably surprised him even more than it surprised her.

Whatever this was . . . it felt right.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maybe we should have just walked, Michael thought as he waited behind the wheel at a red light. This little car ride with Maria was evoking all sorts of buried fantasies. She was, after all, his fantasy girl.

He turned his head to the side to glance at her for just a second, but he found that when he tried to do that, he couldn’t very well take his eyes off her. She was sitting and looking out the window, looking so gorgeous, yet so troubled. He knew he’d really screwed her up. A lot. And he felt bad about it, but what could he do now? Things had already changed.

Suddenly, he was struck by a mental image of the two of them together, of what could be, screwing in the backseat, fast and furious, no hesitation. All heavy breathing and fogged up windows, maybe her pressing her hand against the glass like in Titanic . . . oh, that was indeed a fantasy.

He shook the image away and stared down at the steering wheel instead of at him. It took the sound of the car behind him honking for him to realize that the light had turned green. He pressed down on the accelerator and drove forward, eager to get Maria to the gym to find what she needed and get back home. Because he had a feeling that something was going to happen that night. Something that would change everything. And he wouldn’t be surprised if it was backseat fucking between the two of them.

He couldn’t stay in that car much longer.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Max’s heart raced out of control as he lay back atop his own discarded shirt and Liz lay down atop him. He wasn’t sure what to think about any of this, so he decided to do something he had never done before: not think at all.

Her hair fell forward and curtained his face when she kissed him. It tickled his skin and sent a shiver down his spine, all the way to his toes. His whole body felt like electricity, absolutely energized like it had never been before. It was as though every nerve were standing on end, waiting for Liz Parker to activate it.

He reached behind her and unclasped her bra, surprised at how calm his fingers were. Usually, sex was awkward for him. Enjoyable, but awkward. Not this. This was shaping up to just be enjoyable. More than that.

She mated her bare chest against his once he had ridded her of her garment. The feel of flesh on flesh was enough to send his lower anatomy into overdrive. She must have noticed it, because she ground herself down against him, setting him ablaze even more. Their tongues dueled as they rubbed against each other, and Max felt himself getting lost in a world of sexual euphoria, one he hadn’t known existed until now.

This was sudden, perhaps even a little frantic, and probably not the best idea. But for once in his life, he didn’t care. It was honest and mutual and full of passion. Full of it.

He trailed his hands down her spine to settle in the small of her back. He curiously dipped one hand down the back of her jeans, surprising himself with his own daringness, and elicited a moan from her, one which traveled from her mouth straight into his. Primal instincts began to take over as they worked together to remove her jeans. She reached down between them and unbuttoned them herself, and he eased them down over her hips, as far down her legs as he could reach. She eagerly kicked them off, and there was more of her warm skin. Warm, inviting skin.

Why on earth had he never seen this girl in this light before? She was incredible. Truly, a massive train wreck just like him, but utterly undeniable at the same time.

She gently pulled her lips away from his and trailed a path of kisses down over his chest. It was a whole new side to her, one that he welcomed gratefully as she reached for his belt. She unhooked it easily, unbuttoned the button of his jeans, and slid the zipper down. Together, they shoved the jeans down in a hurry and, with a flick of his ankle, he kicked them across the locker room. His boxers came next, grazing over his erection as Liz removed them for him. She sat up, smiled, and tossed them in the direction of his jeans.

Liz Parker and Max Evans, he thought as he gazed up at her. Who would have thought? It definitely didn’t feel wrong.

She hovered above him for a moment, purposefully rubbing her material-clad mound against his leaking cock. He could feel her wetness, evidence of her desire, and all he wanted to do was sink inside and feel something new. Because it would be new. It would be different. It would quite possibly be everything. He had to find out.

He hooked his thumbs under the sides of her silky panties and slid them down over her bottom. She stepped out of them rather gracefully, and then surprised him all at once by positioning herself atop him, nestling the tip of his cock inside of her.

Think about what you’re doing, he told himself as he gazed up into her warm brown eyes. This changes everything.

Even knowing that, there was no way on earth he was going to object as she slid herself down the length of his member, enveloping him. She cried out at his penetration and tossed her head back, a look of pure pleasure on her face. He groaned low in his throat and closed his eyes for a moment as well, needing to just appreciate the feel of it. Because he had never imagined anything could feel like this. Ever.

What on earth was this?

It was when she began to move that he really realized the extent of the pleasure they were providing each other. He lay his hands atop her thighs as she rode him, and she arched her back and pressed her hands against his thighs as well. They moved neither too fast nor too slow. Just right. The sight of a part of him repeatedly going inside a part of her just about drove him to the brink, but he held on long enough to flip her over, lay her on her back, and hook one hand under her knee, lifting it up to rest nearly on his shoulder. She gasped as he thrust into her a bit more fervently, and when he moved strategically against her most precious spot, her eyes shot open. She inhaled sharply, and moments later, she exploded around him. He released himself inside of her and collapsed atop her, spent. Shocked.

More than satisfied.











TBC . . .

-April ;)
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