I don't know how you feel about resurrecting posts... I don't know how to feel about it myself, but I need to get this off my chest, so please, be patient with me...
My biggest fear is that I won't ever be able to 'translate' my thoughts and feelings into words, properly.
That's it. I don't know if it's irrational, but it's very real, especially in the last few days, regarding a Roswell fic I've been working on.
I'm afraid, after many months of hard work and 9,477 words written, I won't be able to finish this story.
It's not that I'm trying to compete with Jan Oxenberg, Jason Katims, Ronald Moore, or any other Roswell writer... That wouldn't even be possible.
Time is my friend, because I don't have any kind of pressure... It would be an impossible endeavor otherwise.
I don't even find writing in English so difficult. I think in Portuguese, mostly, then I translate it into English.
But I know I'm in way over my head with this story. The work rhythm has been painstakingly slow from the beginning and because I work from sentence to sentence, rather than writing a first draft, I average about five attempts until I manage to 'translate' my thoughts and feelings in a way I like.
I really love writing this story, but it demands a lot from me, emotionally, more than any other story I've ever written.
I haven't been able to write anything for ten days now... This ten day drought is driving me nuts...
Sorry about the rant, but this post is the only thing I've been able to write lately.
∞ Max & Liz – The most sublime Love story ever told! ∞
Here's my latest fic, written for all devout Dreamers out there: Everloving