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Part 41

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Leila:
You said that the A&I relationship woiuld be pretty dark but I have to say I enjoy them so much. They have that dysfunctional relationship that's build on hatred and disdain after so many years but somehow they still care. Their unusual ways of communicating is interesting and fucked up at the same time.
It's been quite a new experience writing them this way, but I've enjoyed it.

Ellie:
Oh yeah, Liz is feeling the weight of her decisions now, isn't she? Marrying Max, alienating family, forsaking her morals ... the list just goes on and on. Add to the list she can't have a child naturally now ... what a minute!?! Is that the reason why she'll step out on Max? To have a child naturally, but with someone else?
I thought about doing some kind of storyline like this but I decided against it.

Novy:
I could so see Carla and Isabel getting a long.
I figured that, since there were all these comparisons between Carla and Isabel and since they had both won the Best Villain category of the fanfic awards, I should throw in a reference. They probably would get along very well.

By the way, I should probably correct something I said to you. I told you that Tess never finds out about the Augustus con situation, but it turns out, she does. She just briefly mentions it, which is why I forgot that she found out.

BB:
I'm so glad that Maria and Michael are back on track after that little bump in the road and you didn't drag it out which is what I was afraid you were going to do. But I'm afraid that it's really just the beginning. Michael is too nice a guy to think that he and Isabel are even now which means that he's going to talk to her and be nice to her.
Well, let me put it this way: It's not unreasonable for you to think he's going to be a little nicer to her. :?

Christina:
And, I'm glad Liz is putting money aside so she and Max can get an apartment. Although, since Liz is being the overly supportive girlfriend while Max tells her all his secrets, leads me to believe that she is going to blow up at him at some point.
Liz is definitely keeping a lot of stuff bottled up inside right now, so it's quite possible that it might all become too much for her at some point.

dreambeliever:
Love Alex and Isabel....thye have this whole weird relatonship, but it's working for them.
Wow, and here I thought Leila was the only one enjoying the darkness and twistedness of them. I'm glad you're liking that dynamic. It's a very interesting one to write.

Neve:
I love this fic so much. It feels like you're still setting things up though, so I'm sure that there's lots of hair tearing moments to come.
Oh yes, definitely. I'll be taking some of my biggest writing risks ever with this fic.

Krista: You know, just yesterday I was thinking to myself, I wonder what Krista's up to. You graduated now, right?
Maybe I'll just email you my feedback in the form of threatening notes for the turn this fic is taking.
Now wait a minute, it hasn't even taken some of its biggest turns yet! :twisted:


Thanks so much for the feedback. I love you all.








Part 41








After her methods class the next day, Maria went to get breakfast at the Student Union. In between getting both Miley and Macy ready for the day and driving them to Happy Hearts, she hadn’t had time to grab any food for herself. She got a croissan’wich from Burger King and went outside to eat it. Alex was sitting at a table studying and drinking coffee, so she went to sit beside him. He wasn’t quite at friend status yet, but with a little more interaction, he’d get there.

“Hey, Alex,” she chirped, sitting down across from him.

“Oh, hey.” He closed his book as though he knew he wasn’t going to get anymore studying done. The guy was in dire need of socializing, though. In the grand scheme of things, it was way more important for is overall well-being.

“How was your weekend?” she asked.

“Oh, you know . . . kind of boring,” he answered flatly. “How about you?”

“Well, Michael and I went to Vegas, so . . . not so boring.”

“Really? Did you guys get married?” He sounded hopeful, as though he really wanted them to get married. Maybe he thought that would make Isabel give up on her obsession.

“No,” she replied. “It’s kind of a long story, but we had to get out of town for a few days, and my mom lives there, so we got to visit her. It was nice.” She decided to leave out the cancer details. Alex probably had enough dark and dreary stuff to think about.

“I’ll bet,” he said. “I know I miss my dad sometimes.”

“Where does he live?” Right after she asked the question, she realized how stupid it was. Alex’s dad lived in the state penitentiary in Florida because of some fraudulent business practices. “I’m sorry,” she apologized. “I . . . forgot.”

“It’s okay,” he said. “He might actually be released next year on good behavior, so . . .”

Maria felt so embarrassed. Here she was trying to be this guy’s friend, and he was probably starting to hate her very much now.

“I’ve never been to Vegas,” he said, switching the topic abruptly. “Is it nice?”

“Yeah, it is. But when you walk down the Strip, you see all these naked lady cards scattered on the sidewalk.”

He grinned. “That does sound nice.”

She laughed a little, happy to hear some actual humor coming from Alex. Maybe there was hope for him yet. “I didn’t do any gambling, though. But my mom bought me a wedding dress, and it’s really pretty.”

“Oh, yeah? When are you gettin’ married?”

“After I graduate this spring,” she replied. “Actually, let me extend a formal invitation to you right here and right now. You’re invited to my wedding. As long as you don’t bring Isabel.”

Alex chuckled. “Thanks, but I think she’d wring my neck.”

“Yeah.” Poor Alex, she thought. Isabel held him back so much. Maybe if it wasn’t for her, he’d be a senator or something by now. “So do you know anything about how she dealt with Augustus?” Michael wasn’t telling her much, if there was even much to tell.

Alex gave her a confused look. “Who?”

“Augustus,” she repeated. “I’m just curious what she did.”

“I don’t . . .” Alex blinked and sat up straighter. “I don’t know who that is. What’re you talking about?”

She should have assumed they’d have plenty of secrets. “Oh, um . . .” God, did she have foot-in-mouth disease or something? She kept saying all the wrong things. Knowing that Isabel had done something for Michael sure wasn’t going to make Alex feel any better.

“Alex?” A leggy brunette approached the table, looking right at him.

“Caroline.” Alex started to stand up, then sat back down as though he were unsure what to do. “Caroline, this is my friend Maria. Maria, this is my friend Caroline.”

“Hi,” Maria said, waving. If Michael had a ‘friend’ that gorgeous, she’d have something to say about it.

“We, uh . . . we have a class together,” Alex explained, motioning between him and Caroline.

She smiled nervously. “Alex, can I talk to you?”

“Uh . . . yeah,” he said, trying to load his books into his backpack. “Just let me--”

“No, it’s okay, I’ll go.” Maria stood up, smiled pleasantly at the both of them, and told Alex she’d see him later. As she was walking away, she glanced back to see Caroline taking her seat, looking . . . terrified. And the vibe between them was a little more than friendly. That made her heart sink. She wanted to believe that Alex was a genuinely good guy who had to suffer the wrath of Isabel on a daily basis; but if he was having an affair, then he wasn’t as good as she’d thought.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Alex drummed his fingers atop the table, waiting for Caroline to say something. She was, after all, the one who’d sought him out, twice now. She probably wanted to have sex again, and if that was the case . . . well, he wasn’t about to say no. He had no obligations to be faithful to Isabel anymore.

“Are you hooking up with her, too?” Caroline asked.

“Who, Maria? Oh, no.” The idea was so ridiculous that he nearly laughed. “No, she’s the fiancée of the man my wife is in love with. And the mother of his kids.”

“And yet she’s your friend. That’s twisted,” Caroline remarked.

“Well, I don’t really know her that well, but she’s been really nice to me. Unlike Isabel.”

“I met Isabel yesterday,” Caroline said. “She’s very . . . intimidating.”

“Tell me about it.” From the moment he’d met her, she’d intimidated him with how beautiful, sexual, and confident she was. But he’d been drawn to those same attributes, and he shouldn’t have been. “So what did you need to talk to me about?” he asked, hoping to cut straight to the chase. If they were going to hook up, they had to do it fast because he had class in ten minutes.

“Oh, just . . .” She trailed off and shrugged. “How have you been?”

“Good.” That was a lie. “You?”

“I got a job,” she said, before quietly adding, “and then I got fired.”

“I got fired, too,” he told her. “By my brother-in-law. But Isabel finally got a job, so I decided to go back to school, try to get my degree.”

“And how’s that going for you?”

“Good. I love it.” It was great to have something else to focus on other than his screwed up family life.

She exhaled shakily. “God, that just makes this even harder to say.”

“What?” He knew she hadn’t sought him out just to engage in awkward small-talk. “Caroline.”

She lowered her head, looking ashamed, and when she lifted it again, there were tears in her eyes. After a moment’s pause, she dropped the same bombshell on him that Isabel had years ago.

“I’m pregnant.”

Alex just stared at her, feeling his life slipping farther and farther into hell.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

“Hey, best friend,” Maria chirped as she entered Tess’s studio that day. “And Liz.”

Liz gave a half-assed wave, not even glancing away from her computer screen.

“Hey, best friend who forgot to call while she was in Vegas so she might not be my best friend anymore.” Tess smiled.

“Sorry. We were busy.”

“Screwing?”

“No, that’s actually something I try not to do under my mother’s roof.”

Tess laughed.

“Alright, I’m gonna go get some brunch,” Liz announced, standing up and putting on her coat.

“I thought you said you didn’t have any money,” Tess pointed out.

“Oh, right.” Liz whimpered helplessly and stomped her foot.

Tess rolled her eyes, dug around in her purse for a minute, pulled out a ten dollar bill, and handed it to Liz.

“Thanks,” Liz said, taking it and skipping out the door.

“Wow,” Maria said, astonished by the transaction. “She’s, like, poor.”

“And I’m charitable.”

“No, I mean, she’s like deeply, deeply poor.”

“Yeah, and she’s not coping well with it. She’s not a coper.”

“Hmm.” Maria pulled Liz’s desk chair over to Tess’s desk and sat down, pulling her croissan’wich out of her backpack. She unwrapped it and made a face. It was cold now, but she’d still eat it.

“So how is Sin City’s most notorious sinner?” Tess asked, doodling the words Las Vegas on her electronic sketchpad.

“Notorious?” Maria echoed, pretending to be offended. “I haven’t been notorious for a long time.”

“Right.”

“It was fun, though. Your dad says hi.”

Tess set her pen down. “Yeah, how is he? Last time I talked to him, he sounded really stressed.”

“He is,” Maria said, deciding not to sugarcoat it. “He’s taking care of my mom. She had to quit her job, and she’s bald now.”

“What?”

“Yeah, it’s not looking good, but I’m trying to think positive.” And part of thinking positive entailed not thinking about it at all.

“Oh my god, Maria.”

“Yeah, so he’s really stressed taking care of her, but he’s doing a good job of it.” If she ever got sick like that, there was no doubt in her mind Michael would take care of her.

“He loves her,” Tess said. “I worry about his heart, though. I always have.”

“I thought he had a really good cardiologist.” Maria bit into her croissan’wich and cringed. Horrible.

“He does, but that’s not why I’m worried about him. Amy means so much to him, you know? If something happens to her, just like it happened to my mom . . .” Tess shivered. “It’ll break his heart.”

Maria nodded slowly. She was starting to think negatively again, and that was no good. She wanted to put positive cancer thoughts out there into the universe, if there was such a thing. “I got a wedding dress,” she blurted, eager to talk about something else.

“What? Really?” At first Tess sounded excited, and then she sounded disappointed. “You picked it out without me?”

“I was with my mom.”

“Oh. Well, in that case, I can let it slide. Is it pretty?”

“Very. You can help me pick out bridesmaids’ dresses.”

“Good, since I’ll be the maid of honor and all.” Tess picked up her pen again and pressed a few buttons to erase Las Vegas before she started sketching out a dress. “Who else is gonna be in the wedding party?”

“Well, Kyle will be the best man, of course. And I’m sure Marty will be a groomsmen, too. And I’ve got a cousin who wants to be a bridesmaid. And of course Miley will be the flower girl. That’s enough.”

“What about the ring-bearer?” Tess asked. “Garret Whitman, perhaps?”

“Ha, funny.” That was so not happening. “Although I did just invite Alex to the wedding, so you never know.”

“Alex?” Tess echoed. “Bitchabel’s Alex?”

“We don’t have to call him that. He’s his own person, and I like him,” Maria said, really hoping he wasn’t low enough to have an affair, even though his wife was having one. “He’s a little depressing sometimes, but he just needs something good to happen to him. Like a divorce.” Maybe if they got to the point where they were better friends, she’d make that suggestion. “Hey, speaking of something good, though . . . please tell me you and Kyle made up at the auction.”

Tess face lit up. “Oh, we totally did. He renewed his vows to me in the bathroom, which is actually a lot more romantic than it sounds.”

“Good, I hate it when you guys fight.” Tess and Kyle fighting was just about as weird as Liz and Max being poor.

“Oh, we’re putting an end to that,” Tess assured her. “No more fighting, only loving. He said he’s gonna devote less time to work and more time to me, which means he’s finally taking this baby thing seriously.”

“Thank God. You two so needed to get on the same page about that. And he so needs to let up on work. Did he tell you about . . . things?”

“If by ‘things’ you mean that con artist, yeah. He told me everything. Scary, huh?”

Maria nodded. “Mmm-hmm. I’m glad that’s over. I just want our lives to be suburban and easy again.”

“They will be. They are,” Tess assured her. She held up her sketch pad and showed Maria a yellow bridesmaid’s dress. Maria wrinkled her nose and shook her head. Her best friend had a lot of talent and a lot of style, but her sketching abilities were limited to furniture.

“Okay, so, I . . . I had an idea,” Tess announced, erasing the dress from her pad. “But if it’s too suburban, let me know.”

“Okay.”

“What if, when I have a baby, I take an extended maternity leave?”

Maria sensed where this was going. “How extended?”

“Like permanent?” Tess smiled unsurely. “My studio’s not doing so well, and Kyle makes enough money to support us. I could totally be a stay-at-home mom.”

“You could.” As far as Maria was concerned, though, that was one of the hardest, most exhausting jobs in the world.

“I mean, didn’t you think about that when you had Miley, and then again when you had Macy?”

“Yeah, but I got restless both times.” She shrugged. It was hard to explain.

“I know it’s really gender stereotypical of me, but . . .” Tess trailed off.

“No, if that’s what you wanna do, by all means, do it. I just don’t think you should be so quick to define yourself by one thing.”

“Yeah, I’m thinking way too far ahead anyway,” Tess said. “I still need to get pregnant first.”

Maria smiled. “Well, getting pregnant is easy. It’s being a parent that’s hard.”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Alex didn’t even know if he was alive when he got home that night. He’d spent all day with Caroline, talking about their . . . situation. Every time she said the word pregnant, another part of him died.

Isabel was in the kitchen doing dishes. At one time, they’d had a working dishwasher, but it was broken now. Everything in his life was broken.

“Finally,” she said. “Where have you been? You were supposed to take Garret to the park this afternoon.”

He’d forgotten all about that. “I got held up.”

She glanced over her shoulder, surveyed him for a moment, then returned her focus to the dishes in the sink. “You look awful.”

How am I gonna tell her about this? he wondered. He’d been agonizing over it ever since he’d found out himself. She was probably going to kill him, and at that point, he welcomed it. “I talked to Caroline today,” he said.

“Sleep with her?” she asked.

“No, just talked.” He wasn’t going to sleep with anyone ever again. Obviously it never ended well. “She told me . . .” He swallowed the lump in his throat, fighting to get the words out. “She told me something.”

“What?”

He let out a heavy, defeated breath. “You’re not gonna like it.”

She put the dish she was drying back down in the wet side of the sink and turned around. “Oh my god,” she said, instantly getting it. “I knew it. I knew it. I fucking knew it the second she asked for you.”

“Keep your voice down,” Alex said. Garret was probably asleep, and there was no need to wake him. He saw them fight enough as it was.

“Go on, say it,” she urged. “Say it, Alex. Just man up and say it.”

“She’s pregnant, alright?” he blurted. The admission felt like thunder on his throat. “She’s pregnant, and she said it was mine.”

Isabel threw her dishtowel down on the floor. “Yeah, well, I also said Garret was yours, and then I said he was Michael’s, so we really can’t take her word for it.” She ran one hand through her hair, moaning, “Oh, god, I wish he was Michael’s.”

“I heard that.”

“I know, why do you think I said it?” She slammed her fist down on the counter, causing the salt and pepper shakers to topple over. “Dammit, Alex. How could you be so stupid?

“Stupid? I didn’t plan for this to happen,” he pointed out.

“No, you just let it happen. You went out and had sex with that slut.”

“She’s not a slut. And we were safe,” he insisted. “I wore a condom every time.”

“Then it’s not yours,” she decided.

“Except . . . there was one time when it broke and--”

“Oh god, this is so trashy.”

“As opposed to your relationship with Billy, which is an epic romance,” he bit out sarcastically.

She marched towards him, glaring threateningly. “Don’t bring him into this.”

“Why not? I only slept with Caroline because I found out about you and him. So in a way, it’s all your fault.”

“I didn’t do anything!” she yelled.

“You made my life a living hell!” he yelled right back. “You belittled me, insulted me, cheated on me, bullied me.”

“Grow up!”

“You tried to keep me from ever knowing my son. And you’ve spent the vast majority of our marriage telling me how inept I am.”

“Well, I didn’t make you slip and fall inside her,” she argued back. “You did that all on your own. God, that’s just . . . that’s what you do, Alex. You screw everything up. You drink and you ruin everything. I was never supposed to be with you; I was supposed to be with Michael.”

“See? There you go again.” A guy could only take so much of that before he went off the deep end.

“I knew something like this would happen,” she said, stomping back into the kitchen. “That’s why I told you to get a vasectomy when I got my hysterectomy. But did you listen? No. You never listen. And look where it’s gotten you.” She picked up a sharp knife, and the sight of her holding it almost sent him running out the door, but she put it back down quickly. Her words were just as sharp, though. “Do you realize how bad this is if it’s your kid? We can’t afford that. We can’t deal with that. You’ve already got one son you can’t take care of, and now we’re gonna add another to the mix?”

Everything she was saying was everything he’d thought about. He knew he wasn’t a good dad, and he knew another kid would make it even tougher.

“Do you know what people are gonna think of you, of us?” she roared. “Do you know what Garret’s gonna think of you? This affects him, too, for the rest of his life. How could you do that to him?”

He turned his back to her so that she couldn’t see the tears slipping from his eyes. He’d never meant to hurt his son. He loved him.

“Do you wanna tell him he’s gonna be a big brother or should I?”

“I’m sorry,” he apologized. “I really am. I’m just as devastated by this as you are.”

“How’re you gonna raise another kid?” she yelled. “You don’t even have a job!”

“I know. Trust me, I’ve thought about all of this. I know how bad it is.” He wiped his eyes and turned back around, hoping she would calm down enough so that they could discuss this rationally. “But if it is my kid, I need to be there for Caroline.”

“Actually, she’s probably better off without you,” Isabel snapped. “I know I was. So why don’t you just do her a favor and stay away from her. She’ll thank you someday.”

He didn’t even know what to say. Somewhere deep down inside, he had to have something worthwhile to offer. Even if he wasn’t the best dad, he could still be a dad. Hell, he’d been a really good guy once upon a time. He just wanted to get back to that.

“Get out,” Isabel snarled.

“What?”

“Get out,” she repeated. “Get out of this house right now, Alex.” When he didn’t move, she lifted a plate out of the sink and threw it at him. “Get out!” she screamed as it shattered against the wall next to his head.

He stumbled backward and hurried out the door. As much as he felt dead, he was still alive, but if he stayed there with Isabel much longer, he wouldn’t be.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Isabel ran upstairs, past Garret’s bedroom to hers. He’d probably heard that whole thing, and he wouldn’t know what half of it meant. She was going to have to explain it to him, because Alex wouldn’t be brave enough to do it. Everything difficult always fell on her.

She slammed the door to her bedroom and collapsed on her bed, wailing. The tears felt like acid on her cheeks, eating away at her, decomposing her. She curled up on her side and gripped at her pillow as the sobs ricocheted through her. This wasn’t fair. She could have been a good person if good things had happened to her. She could’ve had a good life. This wasn’t what she wanted. This wasn’t what anyone wanted.

She buried her face in her pillow to muffle the sounds of her crying. It would have been nice to own a gun, because in that moment, she wanted to kill herself.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael sped up his pace when Maria started to moan. Everything about her was setting him on fire that night: her hands gripping his shoulders, his name on her lips, her legs wrapped around his waist. She felt so small beneath him, small and perfect, and he loved being inside her.

“Oh, Michael . . .” She dug her fingernails into his skin, causing him to groan. When he was with her, his entire body was an erogenous zone, and every little touch excited him.

“Oh god,” she gasped, digging her head back into the pillow. She closed her eyes, opened her mouth, and let out a silent scream as she came. It didn’t take him long to follow her over the edge. There was something so rewarding about being able to satisfy his girl in a position that wasn’t generally known for female orgasms. As cheesy at it sounded, he felt like Superman.

Once the orgasm passed, the exhaustion settled in. He struggled to hold himself up for a minute before lying down on top of her, using her breasts as a pillow for his head. They wouldn’t be able to stay like this for long. He’d crush her.

“That was good,” she panted, threading her fingers through his sweat-dampened hair.

“Yeah,” he agreed, barely able to keep his eyes open. “I’m worn out.”

“You wanna go to bed now?” she asked. “Or go again?”

He lifted his head and smiled at her. “Oh, we can go again.” It didn’t matter how tired he was. They had a sex drought to make up for. He propped himself back up on his forearms, kissed her once, and then moved off her. The minute he pulled out of her, he wanted to be back in. She was like a drug.

“Hey, Michael?” she said as he removed and discarded his condom in the wastebasket.

“Huh?”

“You know how on The Bachelor and The Bachelorette they have those fantasy suites?”

He was ashamed to know exactly what she was talking about. He watched bad reality TV with her.

“How often do you think those fantasy suites actually get used? I mean like really used.”

He chuckled and pulled open his nightstand drawer, looking for a new condom. “I really haven’t thought about it.” Damn, they were halfway through the new supply already. They were going to have to start buying those things in bulk if they kept up this pace.

“‘Cause I was thinking,” she went on, “if I was the bachelorette and you were one of my many male suitors, we’d be in that fantasy suite on the first night. And every night after that.”

“Right, except it took us two and a half years to ever get together.”

“But everything’s sped up on reality TV.”

“Everything’s fake on reality TV,” he informed her, setting a condom down in the palm of her hand.

“Uh-uh. Jersey Shore? That shit is real,” she said emphatically. “Those people are really that trashy. I love that show.”

“I love this show,” he said, smoothing one hand down between her breasts and across her stomach to settle in between her legs.

She squirmed at the touch and said, “That really doesn’t make any sense, but I like it.”

He climbed back on top of her, massaging her clit with his thumb, and pressed a hungry kiss to the side of her neck.

“See, the bad thing about The Bachelor is that they always cut away during the good parts,” she said, tearing open the condom package. “The really good parts.”

He kissed his way up to her cheek and then to her mouth. It was crazy, because all of a sudden he wasn’t tired anymore.

“Oh my god, Michael,” she murmured against his lips. There was something so spectacular about the way she said his name when she was turned on. He pressed his forehead against hers and almost died when she said, “You’re so hot.” His girl knew how to boost his ego, and his cock boosted right along with it.

When her hands dived down beneath the covers to grip his ass, and pull him in closer, he thought about forgoing the condom and just seeing what would happen. But that was stupid, and he knew it was stupid, so he took the latex from her and had just sheathed himself in it when the doorbell chimed.

“Was that the doorbell?” she asked.

Lie time. “No.” It rang again. “Crap,” he muttered, sitting up. Who was stopping over at 11:00 at night? Whoever it was, they were pissing him off.

“Just go get it and then come take me,” she said, smiling seductively.

He put on his loosest pair of sweatpants to conceal his erection and headed out of the bedroom, muttering, “Some watchdog Frank is.” He wasn’t even barking like most dogs did when they heard the doorbell.

“If that’s Kyle wanting to play Whack-a-Mole, I’m gonna whack him!” Maria called after him.

When Michael opened the door, he was taken aback. “Alex.” The last time he’d opened a door to find Alex standing there, his life had changed drastically. “Alex. At my house. Why?” He realized he was being rude and changed his accusatory tone. “I mean . . . I’m sorry. Hi.”

“Hi,” Alex said. “I know how weird this is that I know where you live, but . . .” He laughed angrily. “I actually know a lot about you. Like I know steak is your favorite food because Isabel gets mad at me whenever I order chicken. That’s creepy, isn’t it?”

“Yep.” Michael wasn’t sure what his ex-girlfriend’s husband was doing there, but it had to be pretty clear to him that he was interrupting. When I guy came downstairs half-dressed and sounding impatient, wasn’t that a blatant indicator? “Do you need something?”

Before Alex could answer, Maria came downstairs. “Michael? What’s going on?” When she saw Alex, she tugged down on the large t-shirt she had thrown on. “Oh, hi, Alex. What-what’re you doing here?”

“Hey, Maria,” he said. “Um . . . wow, this is really awkward, but Isabel kicked me out and I have nowhere else to go.”

“Nowhere else?” Michael echoed. They barely even knew him.

“Yeah, Max and I aren’t exactly on best terms anymore, so . . . can I come in?”

Maria and Michael exchanged glances, and she said, “Yeah, sure, come on in. She really kicked you out?”

“Yep.” Alex took off his shoes at the door. Great, Michael thought sarcastically, looks like he plans on staying.

“Why?” Maria asked.

Alex stuffed his hands in his pockets, lowered his head, and didn’t say answer that. “I know this is a lot to ask,” he said, “but could I crash on your couch tonight?”

“The couch?” Maria echoed.

“Tonight?” Michael really had to bite his tongue. He could literally feel his erection deconstructing itself.

Maria seemed just as reluctant to agree to it. “Well, what about that girl, that friend of yours? Caroline or whatever,” she suggested. “Does she have an extra bed?”

Alex just sighed as though that were some kind of response. Michael stared at him confusedly. Had Isabel managed to take away his ability to speak or something?

“Okay, we’re just gonna go upstairs for a minute,” Maria said, motioning for Michael to follow her. He trudged back up to their bedroom, thoroughly disappointed that he’d gone to answer the door.

“What the hell?” he said. “Why would he come here?”

“He’s . . . sort of my friend,” Maria explained.

“He can’t sleep on our couch, though.”

“Michael . . .”

“No. No, you’re not actually considering it, are you?”

She shrugged helplessly. “Tess let Liz stay with her. This is basically the same thing.”

“What about the fantasy suite?” He sat down on the side of the bed, pulling her down on top of him.

“He must really have nowhere else to go,” she said, straddling his lap and hooking her arms around his neck. “Why do you think Isabel kicked him out?”

“I don’t know.” He raised the t-shirt she was wearing and cupped her bare ass in his hands. Normally, he was nice enough to actually care about what was going on in other people’s lives, but he was a guy. Sex topped everything else for him.

“My money’s on an affair,” she hypothesized. “Great marriage, huh?”

He kissed her. Maybe if they were quiet, they could salvage this evening even with Alex Whitman downstairs. “Isn’t that a little hypocritical of her?”

“Of course.” She slipped one hand in between them and inside his pants to grip his length. He groaned when she did so. It was going to be hard to be quiet. Oh, but they could do it. They could never be too loud anyway on account of Miley sleeping in the next room.

“Alright, one night only on our couch,” he decided, pushing his pelvis upward. “But that’s all. I have no sympathy for cheaters.”

She nodded in agreement, snapped the waistband of his pants, and went downstairs to tell Alex he could stay for the night.








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Billy kept calling that night, leaving voicemails and sending text messages. As well as a few sext messages. Isabel finally had to turn her phone off because it got to be too much. Usually Billy made her feel better, took her mind off things, but she couldn’t deal with him right now. Too much other stuff was going on. Besides, things were different between them now that she’d heard that song.

She sat in the living room with all the lights turned off, and she ran through worst case scenarios in her head. What if Caroline died during childbirth and Alex was left with the kid? Then would she be forced into the stepmom role? Or what if Caroline became a stepmom figure to Garret? What if they had to sell their house because of the financial burden and ended up in a trailer like Max and Liz? What if all of this screwed her life up to the point where she had no chance with Michael?

“Mommy?” Garret squeaked out, coming downstairs. He was wearing his Transformers pajamas and holding his teddy bear. “Why are you and Daddy fighting?”

“Come here, sweetie.” She opened up her arms, and he walked towards her in the dark. The poor thing. Had he been awake all this time? She lifted him up onto her lap and held him close.

“You guys yelled,” he said, nuzzling against her.

“I know.” She stroked his curly hair. “I’m sorry you had to hear that.” She had never wanted to be one of those parents that fought with her spouse all the time. She’d grown up with that, and it really had a negative effect.

“Where’s Daddy?” he asked.

She swallowed hard. “He’s not here tonight.”

“Where’d he go?”

“I don’t know.” Maybe he was with Caroline, or maybe he was by himself. Hopefully he was by himself. He deserved to be. “Things are bad right now,” she admitted, “but I promise, Mommy’s gonna make everything better.” She would do what needed to be done. She always did.

Garret sat with her, hugging her like the sweet little boy he was. Within minutes, he was asleep. She would have given anything to be able to fall asleep with him, but she had too much on her mind.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

It must have been pure exhaustion that caused Alex to nod off that night. Either that or the fact that Michael and Maria’s couch was insanely comfortable. When he woke up, he actually felt rested and good about things. When he remembered that Caroline was pregnant, his world came crashing back down.

He slowly opened his eyes and saw a little girl standing before him, staring at him. At first he thought he was still asleep and dreaming and that maybe she was his daughter in that dream, but then he rubbed the sleep out of his eyes and recognized her as Michael and Maria’s kid.

“Hello,” she chirped.

“Hi.” He pushed himself up into a sitting position, yawning.

“My name’s Miley,” she said.

“I’m Alex.” She was a cute kid, just like Garret.

She tilted her head to the side, looking him up and down. “Mama says you’re her friend.”

“I am? That’s good.” Most people didn’t want to be friends with him. It felt good to have someone in his corner. “I think you know my son. His name’s Garret.”

“You’re Garret’s dad?” Her eyes went wide, and she ran upstairs yelling, “Mama!”

Alex laughed a little. He wasn’t sure what that was all about, but it was endearing.

He got up off the couch, straightened out his wrinkled clothes, and took a moment to look at the house he was in. It wasn’t as big as Max’s house had been, nor was it as untidy as his and Isabel’s house. It was the quintessential family home: cozy, inviting, and warm.

He picked up a family picture off the end table. It looked like it had been taken a few months ago when their baby had been younger. Michael was seated farthest back with Maria slightly in front of him to his left. She was holding Macy on her lap, and Miley was sitting next to her. They were all smiling. They looked happy. The picture looked like it had been taken at church.

Michael and Maria went to church? They really were the perfect family. Alex didn’t understand why things worked out for them but not for him. It was easy to blame Isabel for all his life’s shortcomings, but when he really took a step back and thought about it, he knew he was part of the problem, too. His wife was right when she said he was no Michael Guerin, but he would have loved to be.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

“Mama!”

Maria remained perfectly still as she applied mascara to her upper lashes and Miley came running into the bedroom.

“Mama!”

“What?”

“What’re you doing?”

“Your father,” she replied without thinking.

Miley cocked her head to the side. “Huh?”

“My makeup.” She wished she was doing Miley’s father, though. The man had magic hands, and they just got more and more magical all the time. “What’s the matter, sweetie?”

Miley put her hands on her hips and pouted. “How come you get to be friends with Garret’s daddy but I don’t get to be friends with Garret?”

She set her mascara brush down. “Because . . .” And then no more words came out. She knew there had to be a good reason somewhere, but for the life of her, she couldn’t find it. Miley looked at her expectantly, and Maria realized she was being outwitted by a toddler who was bright enough to point out a double standard. “You’re too smart for your own good, you know that?” She picked up her mascara again, leaned towards the mirror, and curled her lashes, finally offering up the only answer she could muster. “Because I said so, that’s why.”

“Man . . .” Miley scuffed her foot against the floor disappointedly.

Maria smirked. If all else failed, resort to ‘because I said so.’ She was going to have to think of a better reason soon, though. With Miley, that wouldn’t work very long.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Billy’s name showed up on her caller ID the moment Isabel turned her phone back on, so she shut it back off again. This was ridiculous. They were not in love. He shouldn’t have been calling her so much. At this rate, she was going to have to end things with him. He was in too deep, and she was drowning.

She was preparing breakfast—blueberry pancakes, to be exact—for Garret when Alex finally came home that morning. She was a bit surprised he’d stayed out all night, even though she’d kicked him out of the house. She’d expected him to come crawling back around midnight, begging for her forgiveness and slurring all his words.

He wouldn’t look her in the eye as he shut the front door and took off his coat and shoes.

“Where’d you sleep last night?” she asked, pouring syrup on the pancakes in the design of a smiley face. “Your car?”

Alex waited a moment, then answered, “Yeah.”

“Well, I didn’t sleep at all,” she informed him. “Garret was upset. He heard us fighting. I had to calm him down.”

“Did you tell him about . . . things?”

She set Garret’s plate on the table. “No, that’ll be your job, if it comes down to it.”

Finally, Alex locked eyes with her. “If?” he echoed.

She licked syrup off her finger and said, “I know what you need to do, Alex.”

“About Caroline?”

“About all of this.” It was simple, really, and something she’d thought about from the moment she’d heard about the pregnancy. “You need to convince her to have an abortion.”

Alex took a step back, looking appalled. “What?”

“You heard me.” She took a carton of orange juice out of the refrigerator and poured Garret a glass. She wanted him to have a wholesome breakfast to enjoy when he woke up.

Alex opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something, but no words came out.

“Don’t act so shocked,” she said. “I know you’ve thought about it.” It was impossible not to.

“Well . . . yeah, but I’m not gonna push that on her.”

“You have to, otherwise she’s gonna go through with this pregnancy and you’re gonna end up drinking ten times more than you already do.”

“We don’t even know if it’s mine,” he reminded her.

“I think it is, though. I think she’s telling the truth.” She’d contemplated it a lot last night. It all came down to motivation. People were either motivated to lie or motivated to tell the truth, and in Caroline’s case, it had to be the latter. “I think it is your baby, Alex. I mean, really, what reason does she have to lie?”

“You’re the liar. You tell me.”

She rolled her eyes. “When I lied to you and Michael about who Garret’s father was, it was because Michael had a good family and a nice place to live and enough money to support me. I knew he’d make a good father and I loved him more than life itself. Caroline can’t say any of those things about you. Ergo, she’s telling the truth. It’s your kid.”

“Alright, so I need to step up and take responsibility.”

“You don’t know how to take responsibility,” she reminded him. “Look at us, Alex. Look where we live; look who we are. Do you really wanna bring another kid into this mess?”

“Isabel, you’re talking about my child.”

She narrowed her eyes. “You already have one.”

“Right, and if we’d aborted him, he wouldn’t even exist. Doesn’t that mean anything to you?”

“Of course.” She’d considered having an abortion when she’d found out she was pregnant, and as horrible as it sounded, part of her wished she had. Because then she could have returned to Santa Fe before Michael and Maria ever would have gotten together, and then everything would have been different. But another part of her loved her son so much that she couldn’t imagine life without him.

“No, I’m not gonna let you talk me into this,” Alex decided, putting his coat and shoes back on.

“I almost talked Maria into it once.”

He shook his head in astonishment. “You’re unbelievable. This is a matter of life and death, and you don’t even give a damn!”

“I’m not heartless, Alex. I just know what needs to be done.”

“It’s Caroline’s decision to make,” he pointed out.

“And yours. It’s half your DNA.” If Alex really wanted to take responsibility, he would recognize that. “If you can convince her to have an abortion, then this all goes away, things go back to normal.”

“Oh, yeah, ‘cause normal’s so great for us,” he bit out sarcastically.

“It’ll be worse if you have another kid,” she warned. “Worse for you, worse for me . . . and worse for Garret.”

Alex flinched.

“Don’t be so selfish,” she said. “Think about your son right now, not your fetus.” If he gave more consideration to a kid who wasn’t even alive than to a little boy who was, then he was an even worse father than she’d thought.

“Go to hell,” he snapped, throwing open the door and stomping out.

Isabel looked down at the syrupy smiley face on Garret’s pancake and muttered, “Already there.”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

McDonald’s had to be one of the most appalling places in the world. The big gold M and the creepy clown paled in comparison to the horrendous odors that wafted out into the world whenever a customer walked in or out the door. Max sat across the street on the sidewalk in front of The Comeback bar, waiting for it to open. He wished he was on a comeback.

“Hi, Max.”

He looked up, shielding his face against the sun, and saw Tiffany standing over him, a shoddy, tattered backpack on her shoulders.

“Hey,” he said. “What’s up?”

“Nothing much. I’m just on my way to prison.”

He gave her a confused look, and she pointed to the Irvine Rec Center. He nodded. “Oh, I see.”

“What about you?” she asked.

“I’m just waiting for this bar to open up. Apparently its closed for awhile because of a cockroach infestation.” He just couldn’t get away from those bugs.

“We have a lot of cockroaches around here,” Tiffany said as though she were used to it. “Well, see ya.” She turned to head into the Rec Center, but he called out her name and stopped her.

“Tiffany.”

She turned around.

He couldn’t believe he was about to ask the question on the tip of his tongue, but he was desperate, so he did. “Do you think I could get a job?”

“With me?” she asked confusedly.

“With prison.”

She glanced over her shoulder at the Rec Center, then back at him and shrugged. He shrugged back and followed her inside. It was worth a shot.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

When Max got home that afternoon, he was absolutely alcohol-free. The Comeback had opened up, but he hadn’t felt the need to go drown his sorrows, not when the Rec Center had given him a job. Of sorts.

“Liz, I’ve got news,” he said as he opened the door, “and you’re either gonna love me or hate me for it.” He froze when he saw Isabel sitting on his couch. Liz was a few feet away in the kitchen warming up some coffee. “Although not as much as I hate her,” he said, pointing to Isabel. “What’s she doing here?”

She needs to talk to you,” Isabel replied. “Liz was keeping me company until you got home.”

“I don’t wanna talk,” Max snapped. Isabel put him in a downer mood every single time she was around him, and in that moment, he was actually somewhat elated.

“Max, you’d better,” Liz said quietly. “It’s about Alex.”

“You remember him, don’t you? Your former best friend, guy you fired,” Isabel said accusingly.

Max sighed, feeling the elation slipping from his grasp. “Will you give us a minute?” he asked Liz.

“Sure.” She slipped outside as though she couldn’t get out of there fast enough. Who could blame her? When the Evans siblings had a conversation, it was best to be far away.

“What’s going on?” he asked, crossing his arms over his chest.

Isabel sighed. “He knocked a slut up.”

Max’s eyes practically bulged out of his head. “He what?

“Yeah, it’s not a good situation.”

“Are you serious?”

“No, this is the stuff great jokes are made of.”

Max was shell-shocked. Alex’s life was even more in the crapper than his own was. “Who’d he screw?”

“Some bitch named Caroline. You know her?”

“No.” He’d gone barhopping with Alex a lot over the years, and most of the time he’d been too focused on the alcohol to even bother with women. “She’s really pregnant, huh?”

“That’s what I hear. But that doesn’t work for me. Doesn’t work for any of us. He’s pretty pissed at me, so I need you to talk some sense into him.”

“Sense?” He knew where this was going.

“Convince him to convince Caroline to have an abortion. It’s the only way.”

“Only way to what?”

“To fix things. Just get inside his head the way we Evanses do. Make him changes his mind, because right now, he’s being an idiot.”

Was it idiotic to father a child and then want to have it? At one time, Max might have thought so, but now . . . “Alright, I’ll talk to him,” he decided.

She smiled, seeming genuinely surprised by his agreeableness. “Thank you, Max.” She stood up and patted him on the shoulder. “You picked the right time to be a good brother.”

He smiled, having his own plan in mind.

“By the way,” she said, before leaving, “nice trailer.” Her words were dripping with sarcasm, and that made him even more pleased to be able to betray her trust.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

“Hey, it’s Caroline. Leave me a message and I’ll get back to you.”

Alex sighed as the beep signaled him to leave a voicemail. “Caroline, it’s me. Call me back if you get this. Please. We need to talk.” It was the third voicemail he’d left her in two hours. He wasn’t going to feel better until they sat down and had an honest conversation about what they wanted to do about their . . . situation. Yesterday, he’d spent most of this time with her promising that everything would be okay.

“Is she hot?”

Alex looked up and saw Max standing beside him. He’d headed to campus even though he had a day without class in hopes of blending in and being invisible, but his brother-in-law had managed to find him there.

“What do you want, Max?”

“I wanna know, is she hot?”

He rolled his eyes. “Just leave me alone.”

Max sat down next to him on the steps outside the Union. “Can’t. Isabel told me to talk some sense into you.”

“She’s pulling your puppet strings again, huh?”

“No. The most sensible thing you can do is to not listen to her. That’s why I’m not gonna advocate the abortion option like she wanted me to, although it’s hard to forget it exists.”

Alex rubbed his forehead, feeling a migraine coming on.

“You’ve thought about it, haven’t you?”

“No,” he lied.

“Yes, you have. You’re married, you already have a son, and this thing with Corrine--”

“Caroline,” he corrected.

“Whatever. It was a one-night stand.”

“Two nights,” Alex mumbled. It had to have been the second night when it had . . . happened.

“Way to go,” Max said, sounding as though he were congratulating him.

“Man, my life wasn’t supposed to turn out like this. I was supposed to have a great job. I was gonna marry a great girl.”

Max nodded. “Me, too. But hey, one outta two ain’t bad. Got the girl. I actually got a job today, too, but . . . no one wants to hear about that.’

“You’re right, no one does,” Alex snapped. “I thought things were finally getting better for me. I was goin’ back to school. I’ll have to drop that now.”

“Maybe,” Max said. “Maybe not.”

“What do you think I should do?” Alex could barely believe he was asking the king of dysfunction for advice, but there had been a time when he wouldn’t have thought twice about it.

“To be honest, I’m probably the wrong person to ask,” Max said. “I found out I can never have kids, so I might be biased.”

Alex frowned. “You don’t want kids?” As far as he could tell, kids were awesome. It was the women who gave birth to them that could be problematic.

“I didn’t say that,” Max said. “I said I can never have them. Fertility thing. It’s embarrassing.”

“Oh.” Alex didn’t want to feel sorry for him, but he knew Max, and he suspected he was more bothered by it than his causal tone let on. “Maybe you should consider yourself lucky, though,” he said, trying to look on the bright side. “I love my son, but raising him . . . that’s hard.”

“Might be easier if you didn’t drink so much,” Max suggested. “Although I’m one to talk. I sat outside a bar for three hours today waiting for it to open.”

Alex chuckled sadly. “How did we get so pathetic?”

“I don’t know. Maybe we always have been.”

He sighed heavily, reluctant to admit the truth in that. “I think . . .” He swallowed hard. “I think I’ll let Caroline make the decision, and I’ll try to support her no matter what. Isn’t that what the good guys would do?”

“Yeah,” Max said, nodding. “I think so.” But when it came to questions about being a good guy, Max was once again the wrong person to ask.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael held Macy’s hands and helped her walk towards the swing set in the backyard. Whenever he let go of her, she fell on her bottom and he had to pick her back up again. But instead of crying about her falls, she laughed.

“Iwee, Iwee, Iwee,” she said, pointing at her sister.

Miley was building a sandcastle in her sandbox, but she looked up, squinted at Macy, and said, “She talks funny.”

“She’s trying to say your name.” Michael held Macy’s arms up above her head, and she kept plopping one foot in front of the other.

“Iwee, Iwee.” She lost her balance and fell again, giggling, looking up at him, and smiling. She was cute enough to be one of those Anne Geddes babies.

“Hey, Guerins,” Kyle greeted as he walked into the backyard.

“Uncle Kyle!” Miley exclaimed, waving emphatically at him.

“Hey, Miles,” he said. “Nice sandcastle.”

“Thanks.” It actually looked like more of a mountain, but Michael could tell what she was getting at. Maybe painting wasn’t the only artwork she had in her future. Sculpting was a possibility, too.

“You enjoy your day off?” Kyle asked.

“Yeah, I really needed to relax, spend some time with my kids.” A lot of people found that to be even more stressful, but not him.

“Work was sort of miserable today,” Kyle said. “I had to tell Brandon about what went down with Augustus.”

“Oh, yeah? How’d he take it?”

“He was pretty upset.”

Michael lifted Macy up and brought her around to the back of the swing set to perch her atop the slide. “Can’t blame him,” he said. “He thinks somebody’s a huge fan of his artwork; turns out they’re only using it for a con. Slide!” He nudged Macy down the slide, and Kyle caught her at the bottom.

“Yeah, needless to say, he doesn’t wanna sell his paintings at our gallery anymore,” Kyle said. “I just hope he doesn’t badmouth us to anyone else. We might see a drop in business if word gets out about this.”

“Ah, we’ll be okay.” Michael took Macy back from his friend and put her at the top of the slide again. “Worst case scenario, we go back to selling our own stuff.”

“Yeah, but you know how long it’s been since I actually sat down and painted something?”

“Too long.” Michael smiled at Macy when she kicked her feet impatiently, then slid her down. Kyle was there to greet her again.

“I guess,” he said. “I really wonder what Isabel said to Augustus.”

“Huh?”

“To get him to back off, you know? What’d she say? Or do.”

Michael tensed just thinking about it. Sure, Isabel hadn’t told him much, but he could understand a lot from what she wasn’t saying. “I don’t know,” he said, trying to sound uninterested.

“If she wasn’t such a bitch, I’d say we’re indebted to her.”

He tried to laugh. “Yeah.” He felt indebted regardless.

“Uh-oh,” Kyle said, taking a sniff of the air. “Somebody’s got a problem.” He pointed to Macy’s diaper, then much to Michael’s surprise, asked, “Can I take care of it? I need the practice.”

“Sure.” He wasn’t going to fight for his right to change a dirty diaper.

Kyle carried Macy inside, and Michael stood behind the slide, trying not to feel indebted. After everything she’d put him through over the years, he didn’t owe anything to her, no matter what she might have done to help him lately.

He could think it, but he still couldn’t quite make himself believe it.








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“Crap,” Tess muttered when she looked at the pregnancy test.

“Negative?” Maria asked.

Tess handed her the test. On the tiny screen was a sad face, its mouth drooping down. Maria grunted. “That is so inconsiderate of them to put a sad face. For some people, this would be, like, a blessing.”

Tess gave her a look.

“Although not for you,” she added, setting the test aside on the bedside table. “Sorry. But hey, look on the bright side: You’ll be so happy when that frown’s turned upside down.”

“When?” Tess echoed doubtfully. “Don’t you mean if ever? I’m starting to think it’s never gonna happen.”

“No, it will,” Maria assured her. “These things just take time.”

“Oh, really?” Tess stood up, walked over to her closet, opened it up and rummaged around for a few seconds before closing it again. “You and Michael dated for a month and a half before conceiving Miley. And you’d only been having sex together for, like, a month. Seriously, Kyle and I have been married for almost two years now, and it just . . . hasn’t happened.”

“Well . . . this is true,” Maria admitted, nodding slowly.

“When’s it gonna happen for me? For me and Kyle.”

“I don’t know. Last time I checked, I’m not God.”

Tess sighed in defeat and sat back down on her bed. “I wish I had some kind of timeline.”

“Hmm.” There was one thing they had in common. Sometimes Maria wanted two separate timelines, an education one and a parental one. “You just need to have faith that it will happen and look forward to the day when it does. You know?”

“Yeah.”

“Yeah?” She sounded so discouraged. “Come here.” Maria put her arm around her best friend’s shoulders and pulled her into a hug. For Tess’s sake, she hoped a baby happened soon, because it was hard to see her keep getting her hopes up only to have them come crashing back down every time a sad face appeared on the pregnancy test.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

When Caroline opened the door to her apartment, Alex didn’t even know what to say. So he had to settle for saying, “Hey,” and she said it right back.

“Hey, Alex. I’m—I’m sorry, I got your voicemails, but I just needed to be alone for awhile.”

“That’s okay,” he assured her, peering inside. The place was a mess, clothes scattered everywhere, empty takeout boxes and pop cans. “Can we talk now?” he asked.

“Sure.” She stepped aside and held open the door. He had to resist the urge to wrinkle his nose when he stepped in. The place smelled horrible, as though it hadn’t been cleaned in months.

“Listen, I’ve been thinking . . .” he started out. “I know neither of us planned for this, but I’m gonna support you in whatever decision you make. And it’s entirely up to you. I’m not gonna force anything on you.”

She let out a shaky breath and managed to smile. “That’s good,” she said, “because . . . I’m having this baby. There’s no decision to be made.”

He hated that her decision disappointed him. He hated that he’d been praying for her to want to have an abortion. Somehow, if it had been her decision instead of his, he wouldn’t have felt so bad, almost as if he could escape taking responsibility for ending a life. But as it stood now, there would be no abortion. She sounded set in her ways.

“Good,” he said, trying to conceal his disappointment. “That’s . . . that’s great.”

She didn’t seem to believe him, because she looked away.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

A momentary calm settled over Max as he lay in bed with his wife that night, but he fully expected it to be interrupted when a cockroach came crawling. For now, though, he was comfortable, and he could almost block out the yelling from the neighbor’s trailer. Someone was either being abused or having one hell of an orgasm. He couldn’t tell the difference.

“So what were you gonna say earlier?” Liz asked, playing with the buttons on his shirt.

“Huh?”

“When you came home, you said you had news.”

“Oh, right.” He laughed lightly. “Shit, with all Alex’s drama, I almost forgot.”

She craned her neck back to look up at him.

“I got a job, Liz,” he informed her proudly.

“What? Really?” Her face lit up, and she squealed. “Oh my god, that’s so great. We needed this.”

“Yeah.”

“So where do you work now?” She sat up on her knees, looking down at him excitedly.

“Oh, it’s a . . .” He scratched the side of his head. “It’s a rec center.”

“A rec center,” she echoed slowly.

“Yeah, for kids.”

“Like the YMCA?”

“Uh, not as well-funded, but . . . something like that.”

“Well, that’s . . . that’s really cool, Max.” She took one of his hands in hers and squeezed it. “So what did they hire you for? Administrative work?”

“No, actually, I’ll be working with the kids.”

Her eyes bulged in surprise. “Really? Wow, that’s . . .”

“Hard to imagine, I know.” Never in his wildest dreams had he pictured himself interacting with kids, let alone supervising them and maybe even being a mentor of sorts. That was technically his job title: mentor. But a mentor was supposed to guide and help and advise . . . three things he wasn’t very good at.

“It sounds like a really good job, though,” she said. “A really good place.”

“Yeah, it’s sort of a community outreach thing. I’m reaching out to my community, Liz.” He gave her the most cheesy grin possible.

“I’m so happy for you,” she said. “How much does it pay?”

His smile fell. “That’s the thing.” He swallowed hard, dreading this part. “It doesn’t.”

She frowned in confusion. “What do you mean?”

“They can’t afford to hire anyone new, so they brought me on as a volunteer.”

“A volunteer.” She looked . . . worried.

“Yeah, I don’t get paid anything.”

“You’re working for free?”

“That’s what a volunteer does, Liz.”

“Well . . .” She tore her hand away from his, scooting away on the bed. “Why would you take a volunteer position?”

“Because I can’t get anything else.”

“Sure you can. You just have to keep trying.”

“No, you don’t understand how it feels to keep getting rejected. I’ve filled out so many applications; I’ve done so many interviews. I can’t do it anymore. Nothing takes, so I have to take this.” When opportunity was in short supply, you had to take any chance you got and ride it with the reigns pulled tight. That was what his dad had always said.

“But you’re not making any money, Max,” she protested. “We need money if we’re ever gonna get out of this place.”

“I know. Just be patient,” he told her. “If I do good volunteer work there, they might decide to hire me as a paid employee.”

Might.”

He sighed heavily. “See, this is why I said you’d either love me or hate me for this job.”

“I don’t hate you,” she assured him. “I just . . . when you said you got a job, this wasn’t what I was expecting. And I was never expecting to live in a trailer, and I was never expecting my parents to boycott my own wedding, and I was never expecting to not have kids.” She tossed the blankets aside and bolted out of bed a few feet away into the bathroom. She slammed the door, and Max didn’t move. He’d already done more harm than good.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Isabel was already running late for work when Alex decided he wanted to have a conversation. She was furiously trying to secure her hair in a bun atop her head when he came into her bedroom and said, “Hey, I need to tell you something.”

“Make it quick. I’m late.” She grinned at him angrily in the mirror. “Although not in the same way that Caroline is.”

He wiped his hands against the side of his pants and blurted, “Caroline’s having the baby.”

The ponytail holder she was using to put her hair up snapped.

“I’m gonna be a dad,” he said. “Again.”

She stared at him in the mirror and shook her head. “I can’t believe I’m hearing this.” Didn’t anyone listen to her? A-bor-tion. It was a simple concept.

“Your little scheme didn’t work,” he informed her. “Max came to talk to me, but all he told me was not to listen to you. But then again, I already knew that.”

She bent down to pick up her ponytail holder, figuring to hell with her hair. “Well, this is just fantastic, Alex,” she mumbled sarcastically, standing up, looking for her keys.

“I think the word you’re looking for is congratulations.”

She very nearly slapped him. “You want me to congratulate you, my husband, on having a love child?” She grunted. “You’re out of your mind. And you think you’ll find a way to make this work, but you won’t. Your entire life if this epic fail, and now you’ve ruined things for me and Garret, too.” She took her keys off the dresser, slung her purse over her shoulder, and stormed past him. “Congratulations on that.”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

It was the strangest thing . . . one second Kyle was looking over his monthly bank statement. The next, he was looking at his wife.

“Hey, you,” she said sweetly as she came back into his office and shut the door.

“Hey,” he returned. “What’re you doing here?” She was supposed to be at work, too.

“Nothing,” she answered coyly. “I just came by to see you. Michael let me in.” She locked the door and tilted her head to the side flirtatiously. “Whatcha doin’?”

“Uh . . . paperwork.”

“Really? ‘Cause . . .” She unzipped her jacket to reveal that she was only wearing a blue bra underneath. “I think you should be doing me.”

Kyle stared at her in awe, put his fist in his mouth, and bit down hard. A quickie at work? This was every man’s fantasy. “Am I dreaming?” he asked, afraid that this wasn’t real.

“No.” She threw her coat on the floor, walked towards him, and swung her leg over his lap, then sat down on top of him, took his face in his hands, and kissed him passionately. What choice did he have but to kiss her back? He couldn’t even remember what he’d been working on before. Bank statement? What was a bank statement?

She reached down in between him and un-tucked his shirt from his khakis, then cupped his crotch in her hand. The girl was not wasting any time, and as much as he wanted to go along with it . . .

“Wait. Wait, wait.” He lifted her off his lap and up onto his desk.

“What?” she asked, breathing heavily. Her skin was flushed and touchable.

“What if this is when it happens?” he said. “Do we really wanna look back and know that this is where we conceived our kid, in my messy office with Michael right outside?”

“Yes,” she replied without hesitation. “Look, Kyle, at this point, the ‘where’ is irrelevant. I don’t care where we conceive our kid just so long as we do. Okay?”

“Okay.” He stood up and pushed her down onto his desk, shoving everything on it aside.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

The thumping against the wall surrounding Kyle’s office grew louder and faster for a few minutes until it stopped altogether. And then it started back up again. Michael did his best to hum and drown it out. It was disturbing.

Luckily, Maria came by and gave him a distraction. Her hair was windblown and she looked stressed, but also hot.

“Ugh, do you know I have to design a unit plan for my methods class?” she said dramatically.

“I thought you already did that a few semesters ago.”

“No, those were lesson plans. This is a unit plan.”

“What’s the difference?”

“Couldn’t tell you. Unit plan’s more work?” She threw her backpack over the counter and took off her jacket. “God, this is stupid. I hate planning everything out in advance. These are little kids I’ll be working with. Don’t you kind of just have to go with the flow?”

He shrugged. “Sometimes.” When it came to elementary education, she knew more than he did. “They’re just trying to prepare you.”

“Oh, I’m prepared,” she assured him. “I’m prepared to kick some College of Education and Human Sciences ass!” She punched the air and did a lopsided karate kick, causing him to laugh.

“Nice.”

“You’re so lucky you graduated. Seriously, I should’ve studied harder those first two years. Summer classes. AP classes in high school. It sucks to have to do all this now.”

“You’re almost done,” he reminded her.

“Thank God.” She fell silent for a moment and made a face when the thumping sounds rose in a crescendo again. “Ew,” she said. “Is Tess back there?”

“Yep.”

“Are they having sex?”

“Sounds like.”

“Sick. That is so sick.”

“Oh, come on. Are you forgetting when we christened this place?” He grinned.

“That was less creepy. We were alone,” she pointed out. “God, they must be desperate to get pregnant. Or at least Tess is.”

“Kyle seems like he’s really on board with it now.”

“Good.” She hopped up onto the front desk and hooked her legs around his waist, pulling him closer. “Hey, you know what I was thinking about when I was supposed to be thinking about the unit plan today?”

“What?”

“Thanksgiving. It’s coming up and it’s our turn to host it.”

He brushed his hair back over her shoulder. “Is it really?”

“Yeah. Last year we went to your parents’ place, and the year before that we went to my mom’s. We’re up, buttercup.”

He cringed. “Buttercup?”

She laughed and circled her arms around his waist.

“Crap,” he muttered. “We don’t even have a turkey yet.”

“I know, we have to get one. A twenty-pounder.”

“Twenty pounds?”

“Yeah, your dad eats a lot. So do you.”

“Good point. Alright, I’ll pick one up after work.”

“Kay.” She hooked her fingers into his belt loops and smiled at him. “Do you remember our first Thanksgiving dinner, right after I moved in with you?”

He chuckled. “Don’t you mean disaster?”

“You say tomato . . . and it was not a disaster,” she argued.

“You blew up my kitchen.”

“I didn’t! That’s an exaggeration. I messed up your kitchen, and you helped. That food fight was equal parts you and me.”

“Yeah, it was kinda fun,” he admitted. Back then, though, he’d never envisioned all the other Thanksgivings he’d had with Maria, and with his daughters, too.

“Thank God we learned how to cook, though,” she said gratefully.

“Thank God,” he agreed. “Do you think your mom’s gonna feel up to traveling?”

“I think so,” she said. “But if not, we’ll just bring the dinner to her.”

“Are we gonna have pumpkin pie?” he asked eagerly. Maria had learned how to cook a mean pumpkin pie over the years.

“Of course,” she said. “We’re such an all-American family. Pumpkin pie is a must.”

“A must.” He bent forward and kissed her just as the thumping from Kyle’s office died down again.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Even though she was late for work, Isabel decided to make a pit stop at the Fleabag Motel. It wasn’t really called the Fleabag, but it might as well have been. Judging by the building’s exterior, it was in shambles. Not exactly the ideal place for raising a child.

She went up to Caroline’s room and knocked on the door. Caroline opened it a moment later. She was wearing a t-shirt and sweatpants and hadn’t put on any makeup. She must have looked much more attractive when Alex slept with her, though she doubted his standards were very high these days.

“Isabel.” Caroline backed away, seeming nervous. “How did you know where I live?”

“Alex wrote your address down. I copied it.” Isabel walked inside without an invite.

“Come in,” Caroline said afterward, shutting the door.

“Nice place,” she commented sarcastically. There were empty pizza boxes scattered on the bed and a container of anti-depressant medication on the nightstand.

“Listen, Isabel, I want you to know how sorry I am,” Caroline started in right away. “I’m a good person; I don’t sleep with married men.”

“But you did.” There was no denying that.

“I know.” Caroline sat down on the bed, clutching the bedspread tightly. “And I’m gonna have to live with that for the rest of my life. I’m just so sorry. I didn’t plan for this to happen, and I want you to know that I’m not trying to trap Alex or anything.”

“Of course you’re not. Why would you? He’s a loser.” Isabel traced one finger atop the TV, amazed by how much dust it collected.

“He’s your husband,” Caroline said.

“He’s not supposed to be.” She brushed her hands off and pulled up a chair next to the bed, forcing herself to sound a little more friendly. “Listen, Caroline, I’m not mad at you.”

“You’re not?”

“No. Everyone makes mistakes. Hell, my entire relationship with Alex is a mistake.” There wasn’t a day that went by where she wished she hadn’t cheated. “I remember how I felt when I found out I was pregnant.” She placed one hand atop her flat stomach as the emotions flooded back to her. “Scared and unsure and . . . and angry. I didn’t understand why it was happening to me. It didn’t seem fair.”

“Yeah, I know.” Caroline swallowed hard, tears welling up in her eyes. “It’s like . . . I still have my whole life in front of me, you know? Or . . . at least I did.”

“And this will change your life, every aspect of it,” Isabel informed her. “Right now you’re probably thinking, ‘I can do this. I can make this work.’ But that’s easier said than done, especially considering the fact that you’re . . . well, you’re Alex’s mistress.”

Caroline scooted farther up on the bed, hugging her knees to her chest. “Well, it’s not like I have a choice, so . . .”

“You do, though,” Isabel interjected quickly. “You have a choice. It’s not a good one, but it’s there.” She studied Caroline’s midsection for a moment. She wasn’t big by any means, but there was definitely a slight bump, one that easily could have been mistaken for fat. But there were ultrasound images next to the anti-depressants. She didn’t seem to be lying about this.

Caroline shook her head. “I can’t . . .”

“My first instinct was to have an abortion,” Isabel confessed. “But somewhere along the way, I got caught up with doing the right thing, and I forgot to do the smart thing. Don’t get me wrong, I love my son, but . . . I would’ve been better off if he’d never been born. So would Alex.”

Caroline stared at her incredulously.

“It doesn’t make me a bad person to think that way,” she said. “It just makes me honest.”

“Well, then, if I’m being honest . . .” Caroline lowered her voice as though she were ashamed. “I have thought about it. But where I come from . . . you don’t think about things like that. You don’t even let the thought cross your mind. I mean, what would people say about me if they found out?”

“Who’s gonna find out? I’m not gonna tell anybody, and neither will Alex,” Isabel readily assured her. “Are we the only two who know?”

Caroline nodded mutely.

“See? This whole problem could just go away. Your life could go back to normal. You could get a second chance. I’m envious.” And she really was. If she’d had a second chance, she could have made things right with Michael before Maria barged in.

“But even if I were to . . . consider it,” Caroline said slowly, “I don’t have the money. And I’m almost three months along.”

“It really doesn’t matter how far along you are. It can be done,” Isabel assured her. “It’ll just be a little more expensive.”

“See, I can’t--”

“Yes, you can,” she cut in, sick of the protests. “I can get you the money.”

“Really?” For a second, Caroline’s eyes lit up, but then she looked confused. “Because, um . . . well, no offense, but it didn’t seem like you and Alex had much money.”

“We don’t,” she admitted, “but I can do this for you.” She wasn’t quite sure where she’d get the money, but she felt confident that she would. When she really wanted or needed something, almost nothing could stand in her way. She’d managed to forge two paternity tests. If that wasn’t a sign of capability, what was?

“I just . . . I feel so bad,” Caroline admitted tearfully. “My baby didn’t do anything wrong. I did. It doesn’t seem right.”

“It’s not. But it’s better.” That was what she needed to keep focusing on instead of dwelling on the negative.

Caroline sighed shakily, looking as frail as an origami swan. “If you can get me the money . . .” she said.

Isabel didn’t even have to hear the rest. “I will,” she promised. “Tomorrow, same time, same place.” She stood up, smiled at Caroline, and walked out of the room, leaving her to cry, second-guess, and eventually feel comfortable with her decision.

There, that wasn’t so hard, she thought, satisfied. Sometimes if you wanted something done, you just had to do it yourself.








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Part 44

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Rodney: Wow, I think this is the first time you've ever been first! Good job!
But I dont think Tess would mind at this point....hell she'd have sex in a church right now if it would get her a baby
Yeah, she probably would. :lol:

Ellie:
Volunteer job? Mentoring kids? Is that place mental?!?!?!
Obviously they didn't do much of a background check or they never would have hired him.

Leila:
Oh Isabel, you're the puppet master. I have the feeling that Isabel is going to ask Michael for the money. He owes her. Oh my, it should get interesting.
Hmm, you never know. Anything's possible, and she probably knows that he is feeling guilty.

BB:
I get the feeling that Liz is thisclose to cracking.
I agree. Whether you hate her or not, it's hard to deny the fact that Liz really has tried to be supportive of Max as he's going through this sort of (early) mid-life crisis. It's getting to be a little much for her. Maybe it would be a good thing for her to get pissed at him. That way she wouldn't be keeping all those emotions bottled up.

Neve:
Isabel is a master manipulator. I can see her point however. Alex is already a failure as a father and a husband and another baby by another woman would just make thins even more difficult for everybody and the person who would suffer most is Garret. Of course, that doesn't mean that I agree with what she's doing.
You're right, she does have a point. She has a sick and twisted way of going about things, but she has a point.

dreambeliever:
Uuuggghhhh....I juat want to kick everyone's A*s in this chapter....
:lol: Then just wait until this chapter.

Novy:
Wow! Isabel, Isabel, Isabel, Isabel. I'm not surprised but gosh. It's just sad it had to come down to this I guess. If it does work out, I wonder if Alex will be relieved.
Hmm, if Caroline goes through with this, Alex might be a combination of heartbroken and relieved. But then again, she might not go through with it.


Thanks for the feedback! I even got to respond to it this time, just like I said I would. :D


I'm going to run and hide after this part. :oops:








Part 44







By the time Isabel got to work, she was nearly an hour late. She sat down in her cubicle and turned on her computer, trying to be unnoticeable, but Arthur poked his head out of his office and said, “Isabel, can I see you for a minute?”

She groaned nervously. He was going to lecture her for being late. She just knew it. She went into his office and shut the door so her coworkers wouldn’t hear. They already thought she was just a stupid secretary. They didn’t need to hear her getting chewed out on top of that.

“Sir, I apologize for showing up late today,” she said, having rehearsed this little speech on the drive from Caroline’s motel. “I had some family problems to take care of, but it won’t happen again.”

Arthur sat down in his oversized chair—God, he was fat—and motioned to the empty chair across his desk. “Have a seat.”

She tensed up as she sat down. “This doesn’t sound good.”

“It’s not.” Her boss folded his hands and sighed. “There’s no need to sugarcoat it. We’re forced to make some cuts around here, and unfortunately that includes you.”

For a minute she just sat there, and then the reality of the situation hit her. “You’re firing me?”

“I’m sorry. I assure you, it has nothing to do with the quality of your work. You’ve been a great secretary.”

“I’ve hardly even been a secretary!” she yelled hysterically. This kind of thing wasn’t supposed to happen to her. “I’ve hardly even had the chance to prove myself.”

“You have proven yourself,” he assured her, “but cuts need to be made. Better you than someone who’s been here ten years, right?”

She huffed in disbelief. “So, what, I’m like the sacrificial lamb?”

“It’s not like that.”

“No, it’s exactly like that.” She pushed her chair back and stood up, fuming. “What am I supposed to do now? My husband just got fired. I need this job.” Plus, she had to fund Caroline’s damn abortion now. It was the absolute worst time for this to happen.

“I’d be happy to give you a recommendation,” Arthur offered.

A recommendation? She almost spit on him. “No, you know what, just forget it. You don’t know me. You don’t know what I can do!” She barreled out of the office like a freight train, and all her coworkers stared at her and laughed.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Max had just walked out of his trailer and was heading towards his car when Isabel sped to a stop in front of him and got out of her vehicle, looking a mess.

“Oh, look, it’s my sister,” he said, stepping around her car. “I wish I was an only child.”

“Shut up, Max,” she snapped, slamming her door. “Where’re you going?”

“To work.”

She followed him over to the edge of the trailer park where he’d parked his car. “Since when do you work?”

“Since yesterday. I got hired at a rec center.” He turned around and grinned smugly, wishing it was a paying job. Then he could really rub it in her face.

“Are you fucking kidding me?” she screeched, throwing her hands up in the air. “You have a job and I don’t?”

He took a cigarette and a lighter out of his pocket and sparked it. “That’s how Dad intended.”

She rolled her eyes furiously.

“What, did you get fired or something?” he asked after inhaling and blowing out the smoke.

“Yes,” she muttered.

“Ha, ha.”

“Oh, I wouldn’t laugh. This means both your beloved nephew’s parents are unemployed now. And one of them is having another kid because somebody didn’t do his damn job.” She glared at him as though she could kill him.

“Isabel, it’s as simple as this,” he said, leaning against the side of his car. “If so-and-so told you to jump off a bridge, would you? No, of course not. So just because you told me to push the abortion idea on Alex, that doesn’t mean I’m gonna do it.”

She opened her mouth to say something, but he didn’t let her get a word out.

“And to be fair, I only said I’d talk to him, which I did. I just didn’t say what you wanted me to.” He shrugged. “So swallow your pride, mastermind. I outwitted you.”

“For once in your life,” she told him. “Savor this moment, Max. It won’t happen again. I may have lost the battle, but I’ll win the war.”

“What an original quote,” he remarked sarcastically. “I’m shaking in my boots right now.”

She rolled her eyes again and moved to stand beside him, likewise leaning back against his crap car. “How much do you get paid now?” she asked, seizing the cigarette from him, taking a smoke.

“I don’t,” he admitted, grabbing it back. “It’s a volunteer job. Does that make you feel better?”

“A little.” She sighed heavily, crossing her arms over her chest, and lamented, “My life’s such a mess right now.”

“What else is new?” If it wasn’t one thing with her, it was another. The same went for him.

“You could’ve helped me,” she said accusingly. “Alex might’ve listened to you.”

Max threw the still burning cigarette down on the dirty ground and snuffed it out with the toe of his shoe. “He’s a big boy. He can make his own decisions.”

“Still . . . you’re my brother,” she said. “Even though we don’t like each other, you should have my back, but instead you stuck a knife in it.”

“Yeah, I did,” he admitted. “And it was fun.” If he had a dollar for every time she’d betrayed him he’d never have to work another day in his life.

“I’m gonna make sure you pay for this,” she threatened.

“You do that.”

She shook her head angrily and stormed back to her car. Max watched her drive away, trying to appear calm and unworried, but when Isabel said she would make him pay, he had no doubt that she would just that. She talked the talk, but the scary part about her was that she walked the walk, too.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

“You think I could get by with a fifteen-pounder?” Michael had his mom on the phone to give him turkey advice as he rolled his cart down the poultry aisle that afternoon after work.

“No, twenty pounds,” she said. “You know the way your father eats.”

“Maria said the same thing.” He lifted the biggest turkey into his cart and shook his head at the price. “Damn, turkeys are expensive.”

“Don’t say damn,” his mother told him.

“Sorry.” He turned the cart around to head back up to the check-out counters. “So how was your day, Mom?”

“Oh, it was fine,” she said. “I had to go to a neighborhood watch meeting with that dreadful Jacobson woman.”

“Your neighbor?” he asked.

“Yeah, she’s really a pain in the ass.”

“Wait a minute, you can say ass but I can’t say damn?

“That’s right,” she said. “Although I do suppose I owe her something. Mrs. Jacobson, I mean. She stuck up for me when the other ladies accused me of not keeping watch on the neighborhood. They didn’t think I was doing my part.”

“Oh, yeah? When was that?” He got into the second check-out line since it looked the shortest. And since that was the only counter where lottery tickets were sold.

“The other day,” his mother replied. “I had to thank her afterwards and everything.”

He frowned, thinking of Isabel. “So even though you don’t like her and she’s been a bitch to you in the past . . .”

“Michael!” she hissed.

“Sorry, witch. Even though she gets on your nerves, you set that aside and thanked her for helping you?”

“Well, I’m not saying it wasn’t excruciating,” she said, “but I did it.”

“Yeah, but did she even deserve it?”

“Probably not,” she admitted, “but that’s not what it’s about. It’s about being the bigger, better person, you know?”

He smiled a little, knowing that he was definitely a bigger, better person than Isabel. “Yeah, I think so,” he said, knowing what he needed to do.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

There was a tree on the left side of Isabel’s house that she found to be especially therapeutic. Whenever life started to get the best of her, she would carry a crate full of Alex’s liquor bottles out there, throw them against that tree, and feel just a little bit better as they smashed into pieces. She loved watching the alcohol drip down the trunk of the tree. Alex would notice it right away when he got home, and he would be so angry.

She had just thrown her fourth bottle when she heard someone getting out of a car in front of her house. She turned around, and nothing would have prepared her for the person she saw.

Michael came towards her, not looking antagonistic in the slightest. In fact, he almost looked like he wanted to be there.

“Michael,” she said, unable to keep the smile off her face. He set her heart on fire without even doing anything. She could feel it roaring in her chest.

“Hey,” he said, stopping a good ten feet away from her.

“Hey,” she returned, wishing she looked better. Upon coming home from work, she’d thrown on jeans and a wrinkled white t-shirt. Not her best look. In addition to that, she was embarrassed by her surroundings. The beer crate at her feet and the house in shambles to her right . . . this wasn’t Michael’s world.

“This is my house,” she said. “It’s not as nice as yours.”

“No, it’s nice,” he said, looking at the paint peeling off the sides.

“Oh, Michael . . .” she sighed. “You are many things, but a good liar is not one of them.”

He laughed a little. He actually laughed. She used to make him laugh all the time. They used to wake up on Sunday mornings and lay in bed all day, just laughing and touching and talking . . .

She shivered delightfully at the memories. “What’re you doing here?” she asked. “Not that I mind.”

“I was just on my way home,” he explained, “figured I’d stop by and say . . . thank you.”

She was too taken aback to remember what he was thanking her for. It had been years since anyone had said those words to her and meant them.

“What you did for me and my family during the whole Augustus thing . . . I’ll never forget it,” he went on.

“Oh, that.” She shoved away the awful memories of that man’s hands on her, trying to think about Michael’s hands instead. “It was nothing.”

“No, it was something,” he insisted, staring right at her.

She smiled slowly. This was exactly what she had been hoping for, that such a huge sacrifice on her part would pay off. “You’re welcome,” she said. She would have slept with Augustus every day for the rest of her life if it meant one more night with Michael. But there was no need to get into that.

Apparently Michael didn’t feel the same way, because he outright asked, “Did you sleep with him?” He didn’t ask the question in a way that made her feel she’d done something wrong.

“If I say yes, will you think I’m a slut?” she asked, just in case.

“No,” he replied quickly. “Sleeping with Alex when you were with me, sleeping with Billy when you’re married to Alex . . . that makes me think bad of you, but Augustus doesn’t.”

She sighed in relief. “Good. Because I did. I slept with him and both of his sons.” They had tossed her around like a rag doll and been so rough with her. “A little sex goes a long way, huh?” she said, attempting to laugh.

“I’m sorry,” he said, even though he had nothing to apologize for. “I never should’ve asked . . .”

“You didn’t ask me to sleep with him,” she reminded him. “You asked me to help, and I hope I did.”

“Yeah, it’s over now. I just . . .” He bit his bottom lip, looking a little choked up. “I feel really bad that you had to do that.”

“I didn’t have to; I chose to,” she corrected. “Michael, I would . . .” She lowered her voice to a whisper and looked down at her feet. “I would do anything for you.”

“Well, you shouldn’t have had to do what you did. If I’d known . . .” He shook his head. “I wouldn’t have let you.”

She smiled. He was probably the one person in the world who had any say over what she did. “It means a lot that you still care,” she said, and when the words left her mouth, she felt like a happy butterfly. He did still care, at least a little bit. If he really hadn’t cared about her at all, he wouldn’t have even bothered to show up.

He neither confirmed nor denied it, instead reaching into his pocket to take out his checkbook. “I feel like . . . I still owe you something,” he said slowly. “It’s probably really horrible of me to offer you money, but I don’t know what else I can give you.”

“Oh, I can think of a few things,” she said, feeling a slight wetness between her legs.

He gave her an annoyed look.

“Sorry,” she said. “Couldn’t resist.” She watched as he started writing out a check, but as tempting as it was to take it, she had done this just for him without any intention of a reward in return. “I don’t need your money, Michael,” she said. “I mean, I do need it, but I can’t take it.”

“Please,” he said. “I won’t feel better until you do.”

“Michael . . .”

“I’m not exactly swimming in cash myself, but . . .” He tore out the check and handed it to her. “Here. This might pay some of the bills.”

Some of the abortion bills, she thought, staring at the amount he’d written in. Two-hundred dollars. Why not take it? He already knew she’d done this for him and not for money. “Thank you,” she said. “But you don’t have to . . .”

“You didn’t have to, either,” he pointed out.

She nodded, gripping the check gratefully. “This will really help me. This all . . . just having you here right now . . . it helps me. It’s been . . .” She swallowed hard, feeling the emotion rising up in her throat. “It’s been a rough week.” A visit from him was just the kick-start she needed.

“You wanna talk about it?” he asked.

She was so shocked by the question that she could barely formulate a response. “I don’t know, I probably shouldn’t,” she said. “You have a restraining order against me, remember?”

He laughed a little, looked around, and said, “I actually forgot.”

Fuck yes, she thought, loving this conversation. These were the first civil words they’d spoken to each other in over three and a half years. She was just about to try her chances and invite him inside, even though she was sure he’d decline, when a rickety red pickup truck trundled down the street and parked in front of her house. She recognized that truck even before the driver got out of the car, and she knew that her conversation with Michael was going to be cut short. “Oh, no,” she said as Billy got out of the truck.

He marched towards her, stoned judging by the way he was zigzagging from side to side. “Babe!” he shouted. “What’s goin’ on? Why ain’t you returnin’ my phone calls?” He stopped when he got closer to Michael and asked, “What’s he doin’ here?”

“Billy, get out of here,” she growled.

“What the hell?” he spat. “You got time to talk to him but not to me?” He turned to Michael and extended his hand for a shake. “Hey, Mike, what’s up?”

Out of nowhere, Michael punched him. Billy lost his balance and fell onto the ground. Isabel nearly squealed in delight. A little jealousy, perhaps?

“Ow, fuck!” Billy yelped, struggling to his feet. “What was that for?”

“For forcing yourself on Maria three years ago,” Michael roared.

Isabel’s excitement waned. Great, Maria again.

“What? I never did that!” Billy denied. Michael punched him again, but this time he didn’t fall down. “Alright, years ago, years ago,” he acknowledged, holding his hand to the left side of his face. “Damn,” he swore, looking at Isabel in disbelief. “You really love this guy?”

“I’m outta here,” Michael decided, taking off. “Thanks again, Isabel.”

“Sure, no problem,” she called as she watched him go. “Come back later for more sex!”

Billy’s eyes bulged in horror. “You fucked him?”

“Oh, come on, do you really think he’d have sex with me? That’s down the road.” And after this intense albeit brief little encounter, she was more confident than ever that it would happen.

“He musta done somethin’ with you,” Billy said, his words barely intelligible because of his thick accent and hammered-ness.

“He talked to me,” she said, watching longingly as he drove off. “That’s all.”

“That’s all?” Billy echoed, shaking his head angrily. “I wrote a song about you.” He took one of Alex’s beers out of the crate and stormed back to his truck, shouting curses at the top of his lungs.

That song. That damn song. Why couldn’t Billy understand that what they had wasn’t like that? He’d gone and ruined something good, just as he’d ruined her talk with Michael.

She grabbed a bottle and threw it at the tree trunk. Shards of glass landed at her feet as the alcohol rained down on the brittle grass.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Wheel of Fortune was already on by the time Michael got home. Usually he got home about an hour earlier, but his pit stops at the grocery store and at Isabel’s had set him back sufficiently.

“Hey, what took you so long?” Maria said when he went inside. “I already started dinner.” She was tossing a salad and boiling something on the stove.

“I had to stop and pick up a turkey,” he said, setting the huge twenty-pounder down on the counter. It looked pale and ugly now, but with a little of his mom’s assistance, it would be golden brown and delicious in a few weeks.

“Did you get--”

“A twenty pounder, yes,” he filled in.

“How much was it?”

“Twenty bucks.”

“Is that good?”

He shrugged. “A dollar a pound. I think it’s kind of a rip-off, but my mom said it was good.”

She looked up at him, still tossing the salad. “You talked to your mom?”

“Yeah, she said she and my dad will be here for Thanksgiving.”

“I talked to my mom today, too,” she told him. “She said she and Ed would be here no matter what.”

“Good. That’s good.” He set his hand down on top the turkey, yawning.

“What’s wrong?” she asked, staring at him cryptically. “You seem kind spacey . . .” Her mouth dropped open when she looked at his hand. “Oh my god, what happened to you?”

He glanced down at his knuckles. They were a little bruised. Nothing major, but that’s what he got for hitting Billy.

“Oh, nothing,” he said flippantly.

“What happened to your hand?” she asked, picking it up in hers, stroking her thumb over his knuckles.

“Nothing,” he repeated. “I . . . I hit it on a . . . thing.” He hadn’t even realized it was bruised until now.

She gave him a questioning look.

“A door,” he lied. “I ran into a door. It’s okay, though, it doesn’t hurt.”

She looked down at his hand, then back up at him. “Klutz,” she teased, heading back over to her salad bowl.

He smiled unsurely, sticking his hand in his pocket. He didn’t know why he’d just lied to Maria, why he hadn’t told her where he’d been. All he knew was that he didn’t feel good about it.








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Part 45

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Before I post this update, somebody answer me this: Why do high school students find it necessary to complain about every single assignment? Ugh, never mind, just some annoyances I'm dealing with in one of the classes I'm teaching right now.

Ellie:
Oh no Michael!!! :roll: Seriously? He gave her money? That just screams - "Thanks for services rendered". *shakeshead*
It really does.

By the way, what on earth were you in court for?

BB:
Judging by the way you ran away after posting, I'm guessing he doesn't come clean in the next part.
Nope. :?
The conversation between Michael and Isabel was actually kind of sweet, in a very weird and deluded way, at least on Isabel's behalf. Michael is such a sweetheart.
He is. I actually enjoyed writing that conversation, because I felt like it really needed to happen.
Were you planning to put Isabel and Billy together that far back?
I wish I could say yes and seem like I have awesome foreshadowing skills, but no, I wasn't planning on putting them together at that point. I think when I decided to put them together in the sequel, I was very near the end of 521 and trying to figure out how I could bring Billy back in the sequel in a way that would give him a meatier, more-developed role. And then I thought of putting him with Isabel and that just seemed diabolical enough to work. :lol:

Rodney:
But no Kyle/Tess here huh? I don't know if I should be mad at you over that or happy that I was spared a bit from my ulcer flaring up from reading you putting the screws to them
You should probably just be happy, because I've got some things planned for them that might just make your head explode. :?

dreambeliever:
A confident Isabel is scary.....
Isabel's always scary! But yes, a confident Isabel is definitely the worst.

Novy:
This can't be good. It's not the first time he lied to Maria about something involving Isabel. But he did tell her eventually the last time. Why was it his first instinct though?
I think this is a question that Michael's going to have to grapple with in future parts.
Michael is possibly paying for Alex's mistress to have an abortion and he doesn't even know it. The ways they are connected.
Isn't that screwed up? He would just be horrified if he knew that's what his money is going towards.
And Billy, I hope he doesn't want revenge on Michael and does something stupid while he's drunk and/or high.
I don't think Billy could take Michael, so no worries there.

Leila:
Max is afraid of Isabel that's not something new but I'm looking forward to see what she'll do to make Max pay.
I'm trying to remember what she does. She might not to anything. I'm not sure. Let's just say that, in a future part, Isabel is involved in something that's probably going to make her forget that Max went behind her back.

Neve:
Nothing good starts with Michael lying to Maria about visiting Isabel. Only bad things can come of it.
Well, I've said all along that Michael and Maria have to have some drama, too, so . . .


Thanks for the feedback! As always, I really appreciate it. I'll try to update again on Monday or Tuesday. :)








Part 45








Max spent the majority of his first day at work sticking near Tiffany. She was the only kid there who didn’t scare him. Most of them were younger and wilder and stupider than her. They kept their distance from him and he kept his distance from them in return. It worked out nicely until one little boy who looked to be about Garret’s age came up to him during the last half an hour of his shift, tugged on his shirt, and said, “Mister? I poopie.”

Max just stared at him, not sure what to say. “You . . .” That was gross. “I see. Well, don’t . . . don’t do that anymore.”

The little boy started to cry and went running back to his friends.

“You’re supposed to clean him up,” Tiffany informed him. She was seated at her usual table, doing a combination of homework and drawing.

“Why?” Max asked.

“It’s kinda your job.”

“Says who?” He’d signed on to supervise the kids, not to clean up their crap. He’d changed one diaper in his entire life, and that had been Garret’s. He had no desire to clean any more.

Tiffany pointed behind him to his new boss.

“Oh, hi, Jorge,” Max said nervously as the man approached him. He really did seem like a nice guy, but he’d made it clear that he expected Max to take the job seriously and work hard.

“Max, somebody threw up in the ninos bathroom,” Jorge said.

“Spanglish,” Max remarked. “How progressive of you.”

Jorge gave him a confused look. “Uh, will you clean it?”

Clean? Something deeply rooted within Max objected to the world ‘clean.’ That was women’s work. “Wait a minute,” he said, “you want me to clean up some kid’s puke?”

“Don’t forget about the poop,” Tiffany added, and he shot her an angry look.

“That, too,” Jorge said. “Gracias, Max.”

He literally whimpered, sickened by the mere thought of it. “Unbelievable.” He sat down next to Tiffany in the too-small plastic chairs, wondering if he was cut out for this job. “I used to run a multi-million dollar hotel empire. Now I’m cleaning up bodily excretions for no pay.”

“Sucks to be you,” she agreed, flipping pages in her math textbook.

“Ah, my sister’s got it worse,” he said, grateful that there was always someone worse off than him. “Her husband knocked up some other chick.”

“I feel sorry for her,” Tiffany said.

“Don’t. She’s a bitch.” He caught himself right as he said the word. It was easy to forget that Tiffany was only twelve and would probably do well to not hear that kind of language. “I mean she’s a . . . a mean lady,” he amended lamely.

“Don’t worry, my foster parents call each other a lot worse,” she assured him. “Do you know how to do slope-intercept?”

He made a face. “What?” Was that something out of the Kama Sutra?

“Math,” she said, holding up a worksheet with directions on it.

“Oh.” He chuckled. “I was valedictorian of my graduating class. I’m sure I remember slope-intercept.” He took the worksheet from her and looked it over, confident at first. “Huh.” He remembered the formula, y=mx+b. But for the life of him he couldn’t remember what b was. “Hmm.” He tried to look over the directions, but they were written in a different language or something. “Okay.” It wasn’t really a different language, but it was talking about a y-intercept. What was the y-intercept? Was that b? Was that y? Why couldn’t math freaks talk like everyone else? “Well, maybe . . .”

“Oh, never mind, I remember how to do it,” she said, seizing the worksheet back from him. She scribbled her name at the top and got right to work, completing the first problem in a matter of seconds.

“Yeah, it’s . . . pretty easy,” he lied, shocked that he couldn’t remember something that seemed so simple to her. “You, uh . . . you must be pretty smart, huh? To be doin’ that in seventh grade?”

“Yeah, I’m a genius,” she said, somehow managing to sound humble. “I took the practice ACT last month and got a thirty.”

“Wow.” That was damn impressive on a test where a thirty-six was the highest you could get. Hell, he’d only gotten a twenty-six when he’d been nineteen.

“You should probably go clean up the puke now,” she suggested. “Or the poop. Whichever.”

“I don’t want to.” It was a choice between two evils.

“You’re not a parent, are you?” she guessed.

“What makes you say that?”

She wrote down the answer to the second problem on her worksheet and circled it. “Parents are used to gross stuff. So are older siblings. My foster brother’s six months old. I have to change his diaper all the time.”

“Then maybe we could switch jobs,” he proposed. “You clean, I do math . . . everybody’s happy.”

She smiled and said, “This math’s too hard for you.”

He laughed. Anyone else might have pissed him off by saying that, but Tiffany was cool. If she wanted to make fun of him, he didn’t mind.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Since Fridays were Maria’s day off, Michael had to get ready for work quietly. He didn’t want to wake her up. She liked to sleep in for as long as she could, and considering all the cooking and cleaning she’d done last night, she deserved some rest.

Before he left, he kissed her shoulder and the back of her neck. Maybe when he got home, he’d tell her about going to see Isabel yesterday. He still felt bad for lying to her about it.

She stirred and said his name, so he quickly headed downstairs before he changed his mind and decided to stay. It was tempting to ditch work and crawl back into bed with her, but he and Kyle were meeting with a new artist who was thinking about selling his work at C4. That was something he couldn’t miss.

He scratched Frank behind the ears and headed outside. Kyle was also just heading out to his car, so Michael opted for a carpool. “Hey, man, can I just ride with you today?” he said, already crossing over to his friend’s front yard. “I’m low on gas.”

Kyle stopped by the driver’s door. “Oh. Michael. I heard you fart yesterday. You are not low on gas.”

“Well, I heard you banging your wife yesterday,” Michael retorted. “You, uh . . . you definitely weren’t going for an endurance record there, were you?”

“Hey, it’s about quality, not quantity, okay?” Kyle opened the door, chuckling. “Get in.”

They had been on the road for a few minutes when Michael asked, “Can I talk to you about something?”

“You’re not gonna tell me you’re in love with me, are you?”

“No.”

“Then go right ahead.”

Michael sighed. “Alright, I might’ve kind of . . . lied . . . a little bit . . . to Maria.”

“Really?” Kyle sounded surprised.

“Yeah.”

“About what?”

“Just . . . stuff.” He didn’t feel the need to get into detail unless he had to.

“Hey, don’t lose sleep over it,” Kyle said. “I lie to Tess all the time.”

“You do?” He wasn’t sure whether that made him feel better or not.

“Yeah. I say things like, ‘No, honey, I didn’t notice how hot the paper girl looked in her incredible midriff and Daisy Dukes,’ and, ‘Don’t be silly, my grandma’s cooking can’t hold a candle to yours.’ White lies, you know?”

“Yeah, this wasn’t exactly a white lie.” This felt like a bigger deal.

“It wasn’t? Well, the plot thickens. Do tell.”

“Alright, but don’t say anything to her, and don’t say anything to Tess,” he cautioned. “You know how they talk.”

“Ah, yes,” Kyle said, nodding, “best friends do this thing called talking, similar to if not exactly the same as what we’re doing now. Don’t worry, my lips are sealed. Shoot.”

“Okay. Yesterday . . .” Michael felt like a jackass just saying it out loud. “I went over to Isabel’s.”

“Whoa, I’m about to freak the fuck out,” Kyle said dramatically, swerving on the road.

“No, it’s—come on, you know me better than that. We didn’t do anything. I just wanted to thank her for what she did for us,” he explained. “You know, with Augustus.”

“Yeah, what exactly did she do? I still don’t know.”

Michael shook his head. “It doesn’t matter.” He felt he owed it to Isabel not to say anything.

“What, something sexy?” Kyle guessed.

Michael didn’t say anything.

“Man, that girl would do anything for you!” Kyle exclaimed.

“It’s not funny, okay? I feel horrible about it. So that’s why I went over there, to try to make myself feel better and to let her know that we’re grateful. Because we are.”

“Right,” Kyle agreed. “So what’s the problem?”

“I lied to Maria about it. That’s the problem. I didn’t tell her I went over there, and I should’ve.”

Kyle made a face. “ That’s not lying; that’s self-preservation. You just didn’t wanna make her mad at you.”

“Yeah, somehow I really don’t think she’d see it that way.”

“Well, what’s the point in telling her?” Kyle said as he turned onto the street their gallery was on. “Or, better question, what’s the harm in keeping a little secret? You didn’t do anything wrong. You were just being polite.”

“I should be polite and honest.” He rubbed his forehead, trying to ease the impending headache. “You really don’t think this is a big deal?”

“I really don’t,” Kyle said. “You’re a good guy, but no one expects you to be perfect.”

Michael stared out the window, wishing he felt that way. When it came to Maria, he wanted to be perfect, or at least as perfect as possible. Or at least someone who wouldn’t lie to her.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

“Here you go,” Isabel said, holding out a thousand dollar check to Caroline when she came to the door. “A thousand big ones. Your second chance begins.” You lucky bitch, she added mentally.

Caroline stared at the check in awe. “Where’d you get this?”

“Eight-hundred of it’s from Alex’s tuition money,” she explained. “The other two-hundred’s from . . . a friend.” She thought of how Michael had smiled at her yesterday, and she couldn’t contain the horny grin on her face. “A hot friend.”

“This is too much money,” Caroline said, trying to hand the check back to her. “I can’t take this.”

“Well, if you really don’t want it . . .” Isabel made a move to take it back.

“No!” Caroline yelped, retracting her hand. “I was just saying that. I’m taking the money.” She sulked back into her motel room and sat down on the bed, still staring at the numbers on the thin slip of paper. “Is Alex okay with this?” she asked. “I haven’t even talked to him about it.”

Isabel shut the door. “He’s fine. He’s relieved. Why do you think he gave me his tuition money? He wants this just as much as you do.” The truth was that Alex didn’t know anything about this; in his mind, he was still going to be a father of two in six months. But there was no way she was about to let that happen. He’d find out when he went to pay his tuition bill, but until then, there was no need to tell him.

“It’s not that I want it,” Caroline said. “I just . .. have to. Do you think it’ll be better once I get it over with?”

“Of course,” Isabel assured her, sitting down beside her. “It’s like peeling off a Band-Aid. The anticipation’s the worst part.”

“I just . . .” Caroline wiped tears from the corners of her eyes. “God, I feel like a monster. Do you ever feel that way?”

Isabel nodded slowly. “All the time.” It had gotten to the point where she could barely remember what it felt like to not feel that way.

“I have an appointment scheduled for tomorrow at 10:00 a.m.,” Caroline revealed. “I think I’ll take off afterwards.”

I hope this isn’t a scam, her just taking off with my money, Isabel thought, surveying her midsection once again. She’d said she was almost three months along. Maybe she was anorexic, because she wasn’t as big as Isabel had been at that point in the pregnancy.

“Do you want me to go with you?” she asked. “It might be nice to have someone there for you.” The way she said it made it seem as though she were trying to be nice and supportive, but really, all she wanted to do was make sure everything was as it appeared to be.

“No, I couldn’t ask that of you,” Caroline said quietly, looking straight down at the check in her lap.

“You didn’t. I offered.” Isabel picked up the sonogram images off the nightstand. There was definitely a baby, but the date on the images wasn’t as recent as she’d thought it would be. In fact, it was nearly a month ago.

“Let me go with you,” she said, setting the images back down. “I want to.”

Caroline stared at her for a moment, smiled weakly, and said, “Thanks.” But she didn’t sound thankful. She’d sounded more appreciative about the money than the moral support.

Something wasn’t right.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

At work that afternoon, Tess approached Liz, sat down on the side of her desk, and set a silver-wrapped Hershey’s kiss candy down in front of her.

“What’s this?” Liz asked, glancing up from the real estate magazine she was reading.

“Bribery,” Tess replied unabashedly.

“What for?”

“I want you to not be mad at me after we have this conversation.”

“Oh god, are you firing me?” Liz wailed dramatically.

“No, not at all. I just . . .” Tess took the magazine from her, closed it, and set it aside. “I feel like I should be straight with you because I respect you—no, I don’t respect you.” The girl was a cheating mistress. There was no respect there. “I like you,” she tried. “No, I don’t really like you, either.” She couldn’t quite figure out how to phrase things, so she settled for the obvious. “We work together, so I feel like I owe it to you to be honest with you about what’s going on around here.”

Liz just stared at her nervously.

“Business isn’t good,” she blurted. “In fact, it’s non-existent. If we don’t get something going on around here soon, we’re gonna have to shut down. Now I don’t want it to come to that. Maria seems to think it’s a good idea for me to have my own career, even after I have a kid, and I think I agree with her. And you’ll have a job here as long as there’s a here to have a job at. We just need to work really hard right now. We need to bring some customers in here. I need to design something for someone.”

Liz nodded mutely, clearly on the verge of tears. “I understand,” she finally managed to choke out, and a few seconds later, she was sobbing, her head in her hands as the tears streamed down.

“Oh, Liz, I’m sorry,” Tess apologized, reaching for a tissue. “I didn’t mean to make you cry.”

Liz took the tissue and dabbed at her running mascara. “No, I appreciate the honesty,” she insisted. “Really, I do. It’s just . . . my life is such a mess right now. Everything’s gone wrong. So I’m gonna get someone in here because I need this job. Like badly.”

“I thought you said Max got a job,” she pointed out.

“I lied!” she cried. “I mean, I didn’t lie because he did get a job, but it’s a volunteer job, Tess. He’s not getting paid anything.”

“Oh.” That . . . sucked.

“Yeah. And I feel like I have to support Max right now and make him feel like everything’s gonna be okay. Because Max isn’t normal. He doesn’t live in the real world like the rest of us; he lives in his own little world. He thinks he can get a volunteer job and that’ll be enough, but . . . it’s not.” She stared off into space for a few seconds, then unleashed with, “Oh my god, I live in a trailer. A trailer, Tess!”

“You’ll get a new house eventually,” Tess assured her, not sure what else to say. There were people who were worse off, people who were living in huts and cardboard boxes and sleeping on park benches at night.

“But even then, it’ll still be missing something,” Liz lamented.

“What?”

“Kids.”

Tess gave her a confused look. What did kids have to do with this cry-fest?

Liz looked horrified by what she had just said. “Oh god, don’t tell him I told you,” she practically begged. “He’d be so embarrassed, he’d just die.”

“Max doesn’t want kids?” That didn’t make much sense, though. If he was embarrassed about something, that had to mean . . . “Oh.” It clicked. “He can’t have kids.”

Liz kept crying.

“God. I’m sorry.” She was still at a loss for what to say. “That . . . must be disappointing.”

“Think how disappointed you’d be.”

Disappointed wouldn’t have even covered what Tess would have felt like if she’d gotten news like that. She pulled Liz into a ferocious hug and said, “I changed my mind. I do respect you after all.” For the girl to even still be standing at this point was quite an accomplishment.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

“What if that’s my problem, Maria? What if I have a fertility problem?”

Maria shook her head and laughed at her friend’s increasingly panicked rant, trying to stay focused on the three potential stuffing recipes in front of her. But that was difficult to do when Tess’s freak-out was so entertaining.

“Or what if Kyle does?” she fretted, her mouth gaping. “If a guy masturbates too much as a teenager, does that damage his sperm count? Oh my god!”

Maria just kept laughing, shoving aside the two recipes that looked the most complicated and called for more ingredients.

“Or what if my eggs are, like, old and crusty an resistant to being fertilized? Pre-menopause, hello!”

“Would you listen to yourself?” Maria finally interjected. “You sound like a crazy person. Just relax and let it happen.”

“This is serious, Maria.” Tess followed her into the living room, not letting up. “Stuff like this happens to people our age.”

“Who?”

“Just . . . people,” she replied ambiguously. “And celebrities, even. Like Angelina Jolie.”

Maria gave her a confused look.

“Oh, yeah. Why do you think she’s always adopting all those kids? It’s not out of the goodness of her heart, I’ll tell you that much. It’s out of the greediness.”

“So you’re saying Angelina Jolie has a fertility problem.”

Tess nodded emphatically, but there was one major flaw in her theory.

“You do remember when she was pregnant with twins, don’t you?”

“Was she?” Tess questioned back. “Or was it just a very big pillow?”

“Oh my god.” Maria ran her hand through her hair, feeling as though she was unable to calm her friend’s nerves. “Michael, would you tell her?” she said when her fiancée came in from outside.

“What?” he asked, freezing on his way to the refrigerator. He was covered in leaves since he and the girls were having a leaf fight.

“That she doesn’t have a fertility problem,” Maria replied.

He took two bottles of water out of the refrigerator, obediently echoing, “You don’t have a fertility problem, Tess.”

“Thank you, Dr. Guerin,” she said sarcastically, “I feel so much better now.”

“If you’re really concerned about it, go see an actual doctor,” Maria suggested.

“I might.” Tess put her hands on her hips, looking all determined. Maria cast a sideways glance at Michael and saw that he was doing that same laughing and shaking his head thing that she’d been doing. There was a certain amount of humor involved here because Tess was being so over-the-top dramatic.

“Okay, you guys don’t know what it’s like,” she said upon noticing their looks. “You make babies like they’re going out of style.”

“Hey, what the hell?” Maria yelped. “We’ve only made two.”

“Yeah, in three years. That’s impressive.”

“That’s good sex,” Michael corrected proudly.

“Kyle and I have good sex, too,” Tess assured him as her eyes went wide and fearful again. “Oh my god. What if it’s a sex problem? What if my eggs and Kyle’s sperm--”

Michael made a disgusted face. “I’m outta here.”

“—are fertile,” Tess kept on as he went back outside, “but, like, incompatible or something? What if when your eggs see Michael’s sperm, they’re all, ‘Come take me, baby,’ but when my eggs see Kyle’s sperm, they’re like, ‘Mmm, I’d rather not.’”

Maria didn’t even know what to say. “Wow, I can’t believe you just wrote dialogue for our eggs. This is a whole new level, Tess.”

“I can’t help it,” she whined, slumping her shoulders dejectedly. “I wanna be a mom so bad.”

“And you will be,” Maria assured her for what felt like the thousandth time. “You just need to chill out, okay? Kyle decided he wants to have a baby. That’s half the battle; you’re halfway there.”

Tess rubbed the back of her neck, nodding slowly. “You’re right,” she agreed. “I need to relax. You’re just . . .” She went to stand in the doorway and looked out at Michael as he rolled around in a large pile of leaves with Miley and Macy. “You’re so lucky, Maria,” she said enviously.

Maria went to stand beside her. “You think so? ‘Cause I have to design this unit plan and I’m in the group with the sorority bitches.”

“Well, that is unlucky,” Tess acknowledged, “but that out there . . . that’s not.”

Maria smiled at her family, knowing for a fact that they were the luckiest thing that had ever happened to her.

“Look at those gorgeous girls,” Tess remarked as Miley threw a handful of leaves up in the air.

“Look at that sexy man,” Maria added as Michael pulled is pants up in the back. “Sorry, I’m horny for him. He didn’t wanna have sex last night.”

Finally, Tess seemed to start thinking about something other than her own fertility. “Really? Why not?”

“I don’t know,” Maria replied. “He seemed so . . . tense. So I gave him a massage, hoping to, like, de-tensify him or whatever, but he just got tired and went to sleep.” It had definitely been out of the ordinary and a bit concerning. “I hope we’re not starting another sex drought.” The only good thing about a sex drought was the screwing that happened when it came to an end.

“I’m sure you’re not,” Tess assured her. “He just wasn’t in the mood.”

Maria frowned. “But that’s kind of weird, don’t you think?”

Tess shrugged unsurely, and Maria watched curiously as Michael lay flat on his back and lifted a giggling Macy above him. Miley kicked leaves at him, and he laughed. Nothing felt off about that scene, so Maria didn’t understand why something had been so off in the bedroom last night. As strange as it sounded, it almost seemed as though there were something he wasn’t telling her.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Isabel had never actually been to an abortion clinic before. That seemed . . . weird. Considering all the bad things she’d done in her life, it seemed only natural that she had been to an abortion clinic, but accompanying Caroline was a first for her. On the outside, it looked like a normal doctor’s office, except for all the noisy protestors out front. Didn’t those people have anything better to do with their time?

She flipped through a magazine called Modern Day Mom while sitting in the waiting room. It seemed absurd to have a mom magazine in a room where nobody was going to be a mom, at least not yet. Maybe it was supposed to serve as a last minute deterrent for an abortion, but Caroline didn’t want to take one look at it.

Caroline was a mass of apprehension. She’d been shaking ever since Isabel had gone to the motel to pick her up, and the shaking hadn’t abated.

“Are you nervous?” Isabel asked, watching her out of the corner of her eye. She was tapping her feet against her chair and rubbing her thighs with her hands.

“Huh?” Caroline’s voice was a high-pitched squeak.

“You look nervous,” Isabel remarked, setting the magazine aside. “Why are you so nervous, Caroline?”

“I’m about to have an abortion,” she mumbled. “Wouldn’t you be nervous?”

“No,” she answered swiftly. “But that’s just me.”

“Well, I’m not you.”

Isabel stared at her, noting the panicked sweat on her forehead. “No, you’re not.” None of the other girls in the waiting room looked quite like Caroline. They looked more sad than anything else, not afraid. “You’re definitely not me,” she emphasized, leaning towards her husband’s mistress, “because if you were, you’d get away with this.”

Caroline slowly turned to face her, trying to look confused. “What?”

Isabel smiled, somewhat impressed. “You almost got me. I mean you really had me believing you were pregnant.”

“I am,” Caroline insisted.

“No, you’re not. Because when I offered to come with you today, I saw it in your eyes. This wasn’t the plan. You were gonna skip town with my money and never look back. You probably had to schedule this appointment at last minute. You crafty thing.”

Caroline shook her head adamantly. “I don’t--”

“What were you gonna do when you got back there into the room and they turned the suction on?” Isabel asked. “Come on, I wanna know.”

Caroline looked down at her lap and finally stopped shaking. It took her a moment, but finally she revealed, “I was gonna let them tell me I miscarried. Because that’s what I did. Two weeks ago.”

Isabel nodded, having suspected as much. The girl just didn’t look big enough, and the date on those ultrasound images had made her skeptical.

“I was pregnant,” she insisted, “and it was your husband’s baby. I was gonna pick up the phone to call him and tell him, but then I saw the blood on the sheets and . . .” She trailed off, clearly distressed. “You don’t know what it’s like, to have something wonderful and feel it slip away.”

“Yes, I do,” she said, thinking of Michael.

“Not a baby. Not an innocent baby.” Tears began to fall from Caroline’s eyes. She looked ashamed of herself for lying. “I didn’t know what to do. I had nothing, so I thought that maybe I could at least get some money out of this. So I lied to you and to Alex. I’m not pregnant anymore.” She held her hand over her mouth as if to stifle the sounds of her own crying.

“You’re too emotional to pull off a con this big,” Isabel informed her. “Although for a first attempt, it was pretty good. But the mistake was targeting me for the money instead of Alex. I’m much smarter than him, and trust me, I know my cons.”

“It doesn’t matter,” Caroline said. “A thousand dollars would’ve paid for my plane ticket out of here, but it wouldn’t have made up for what I lost. I was so stupid to think it would make me feel any better.”

Isabel suspected that now, after getting caught, she probably only felt worse.

“Caroline Rhodes?” a nurse said when she stepped into the waiting room.

Caroline whimpered.

“Change of plans,” Isabel spoke on her behalf. “She won’t be going through with this today. Let’s go, friend.” She grabbed Caroline’s arm and pulled her to her feet, practically yanking her out the door. They shoved through the throng of protestors on the way out, one of which jumped in front of Isabel with a picture of an aborted fetus and asked, “Do you wish to spend your everlasting life in hell for this?”

“Fuck off,” Isabel snapped, pushing her aside. When she and Caroline got to the car, Caroline was crying even harder.

“Don’t feel bad,” Isabel told her. “Alex is gonna be so relieved.”

“That his child died?” she asked, horrified.

“Yeah.”

Caroline stared at her in astonishment. “You’re just as bad as he said you were.”

Isabel grunted. “Honey, you just tried to steal a thousand dollars. You’ve got no room to talk.”

“I was desperate,” she defended herself. “I lost my baby, and then I lost my job, too.”

“So get it back,” Isabel suggested, driving out of the parking lot. “That’s what I’m gonna do.”

“But I don’t know how.”

“You’re a pretty girl. Figure it out.” Sexual attractiveness could go a long way in the world. It was degrading and empowering at the same time.

“My life wasn’t supposed to be like this,” Caroline lamented as Isabel drove out onto the street. “It was supposed to be better.”

“Oh, Caroline,” she sighed, “we have a lot in common. I’m just a whole lot better at being bad.”

“I don’t wanna be bad,” she cried. “I wanna be good.”

“Then you want my advice?”

Caroline nodded.

“Get out of this town. It tends to bring out the worst in girls like us.” She would have left Santa Fe a long time ago had Michael not still lived there.

“I don’t suppose you’d let me keep that money?” Caroline asked desperately.

Isabel laughed. “Oh, you are so naïve.” She held out her hand, and Caroline placed the check in it. If she’d been a bit smarter, she would have taken off last night. “I think you should go somewhere where you can be good,” Isabel told her in all honesty. “You don’t wanna be like me.” She didn’t wish her mess of a life on any woman, except maybe Maria.

“How’d you end up this way?” Caroline inquired.

The harder she tried to remember, the more unclear it became. “I have no idea.”








TBC . . .

-April


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Part 46

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Leila:
If Michael wouldn't be such a great guy who has those values about life, I'd say he doesn't need to inform Maria about his visit at Isabel's place. But he is this great guy and he needs to be honest.
Exactly. Lying is so beneath him, so it's a shame to see him doing it.
I love Tiffany. She's awesome.
I love her, too. She's an old soul, just a wise kid.

BB:
Isabel is evil but then you show little glimpses of her humanity beneath the evilness and I feel something resembling sympathy for her.
Well, if you felt it in that part, then I guarantee you'll feel it again in an upcoming part.
I also feel really sorry for Liz. I think I'm probably the only one, but I do.
I feel sorry for her, too. She may be annoying and she may look past Max's horrible deeds in life way too easily, but at the end of the day, she's really trying to be supportive and uphold those marriage vows she took. But what she's going through would be difficult and stressful for anyone.

Ellie:
I'm really starting to have an appreciation for Tiffany and her "Tell It Like It Is" attitude. She doesn't sugar-coat things and placate people. I admire the fact that someone that young has that much insight. But at the same time, I wonder what caused her to be that way. Will we be finding out more about her background in upcoming chapters?
You'll learn more about Tiffany as the story goes on. A lot more. She'll become a fully-fleshed out character whom I hope everyone will be as invested in as I am.
I kinda feel for Alex now, cause how is he going to take this ... as a relief and move forward or as a blow and start drinking again?
Well, I think that question is pretty clearly answered in this part.

Novy:
It never even entered my mind Caroline could be lying. I guess this is a case of Isabel being Isabel working to their advantage.
Sometimes Isabel's Isabel-ness blows up in her face and makes an even bigger mess of things, but like you said, here's one time where her Isabel-ness got the job done.
I think Michael doesn't need to be perfect but someone that doesn't lie goes a long way. Trust is hard to build back up. I'm intrigued to watch him go through this.
Yeah, I think this is something unusual for Michael to have to deal with, because in all the years that he and Maria have been together since the end of 521, they've never really had any major trust issues to deal with.

Rodney:
You know the talk Kyle and Michael had showed the very thin line we men walk when it comes to talking to our women.
:lol: Yes, a VERY thin line.
Hmmmmm Tess and Kyle wouldn't be the first couple to be able to have kids but not be able to create them.I got a feeling this dry spell is going to cause some friction between the pair.
Well, rest assured that I'm at least giving you a friction-less scene in this part.

Krista: :lol: Upset with me? It happens.

Neve:
Tiffany is like a nice version of Isabel. She's smarter than Max and well able to handle him. I can't wait to see how their relationship plays out.
I never thought of her like that, but now that you mention it, you're right!
Michael really needs to come clean with Maria about Isabel. I don't think that Maria will care about the money, I think she'll care about the lying especially if it involves spending time with Isabel.
Definitely. The money's not going to mean much to her. But the lying, if/when she finds out about it . . . :?


Thanks for the feedback!

It seems like it has absolutely been FOREVER since I've come by with any music, so I'm happy to say that today's a music day. Try listening to the song "Blue" by Angie Hart when you see :( Kind of a sad song, but pretty. Any Buffy fan has probably heard it before.

There's a lot going on in this part.









Part 46







Tess dragged Kyle along with her to the grocery store that day. She’d read an article about how couples who did more couple-y things together, such as shopping for groceries, were able to conceive faster because they had a stronger bond. Of course there was no scientific proof to back it up, but it was enough to intrigue Tess.

“Will you hand me that pumpkin pie?” she asked Kyle, pushing the cart around the corner.

“Oh.” He sounded disappointed.

“What?”

“Nothing, it’s just . . . usually you make a homemade pumpkin pie for Thanksgiving,” he mumbled.

“Yeah, but that takes time, and that’s time that could be better spent having sex.”

He walked over to get the premade pie. “My girl keeps me hopping.”

“Oh, you should feel blessed. We haven’t had this much sex since our honeymoon.”

“True.” He set the pie in the cart, and then his eyes lit up as they neared the sweets aisle. “Ooh, gummy worms!”

She rolled her eyes at his adorable immaturity. This was the Kyle she knew and loved. “I feel bad for Maria,” she said. “Michael actually declined it last night.”

“Interesting,” Kyle said, dropping the bag of gummy worms into the cart next to the pie.

“If a guy turns down sex, what does that mean?”

Kyle shrugged. “Nothing, just that he’s got something else on his mind.”

She frowned, perplexed. “But aren’t guys supposed to think about sex all the time?”

“Hey, cool it on the gender stereotypes,” he cautioned.

“Sorry.”

“Although I do think about it about ninety percent of the time.”

“What’s the other ten percent?” she asked.

“Food.” He grabbed a box of powdered doughnuts and tossed them into the cart.

“You know, we could learn something from Michael and Maria,” she said, walking faster in hopes of getting out of the junk food aisle faster.

“About sex?” He made a face.

“No, about conceiving.”

He snorted. “It’s not like they did anything special. It wasn’t skill; it was lack of latex.”

“Yeah, I guess.” She pushed the cart around to the frozen foods aisle, and Kyle started grabbing things like a maniac. Did any one person really need that many Meaty Man meals to survive?

“Meaty Man chicken fried steak,” he remarked, staring at one box in awe. “Righteous.”

“When we have a kid, I’m gonna cook a wholesome meal every night,” she vowed. “None of this microwave stuff.”

“But I like the microwave stuff.” He pouted. “Our kid’s not gonna be vegan, is he?”

“Not unless he wants to be,” she said. “Or she. What’re we gonna name him? Or her.”

“I don’t know. You tell me.”

“Well . . .” She’d been doing a lot of thinking on this subject. It was nice to actually talk to Kyle about it. “I think Annie if it’s a girl, after my mom.”

He nodded. “I like that. Annie Valenti. What about if it’s a boy?”

“See, I don’t know, ‘cause if we go down the naming-after-the-grandparents route . . . I love your dad, but I hate his name. Jim. Way too common. And my dad’s name was cool until the Twihards ruined it.”

“Edward? Since when was Edward cool?”

“Okay, it wasn’t,” she admitted. “So that’s why I’m thinking . . . Tyler. Tyler Valenti.”

“Tyler,” he echoed. “That’s random.”

“No, it’s not,” she insisted.

“Do you have an uncle named Tyler?”

“No.”

“Neither do I. So it’s random.”

She wet her lips and prepared to explain in a way that would make sense to him. “You know how celebrity couples have combined names like Brangelina and Bennifer and stuff?”

“Bennifer broke up,” he pointed. “I’m still sad about that.”

“Well, Maria once pointed out to me that our names combine to form either Kess or Tyle. Not names, but put an ‘r’ onto the end of Tyle and what do you get? Tyler.” She smiled, proud of herself for being so genius.

“Oh, I get it,” he said. “Hey, that’s kinda cool. And-and Tyler sounds like a real jock name, you know? Maybe he’ll be a jock.”

“Yeah, ‘cause he’s so gonna get all that athleticism from us,” she joked. “Maybe he’ll be a painter like you. Or a businessman. Or . . . what are you?”

He took a box of chicken nuggets out of one of the freezer stalls and put it in the cart. “Tess, don’t freak out,” he cautioned, “but I think I might be Jesus.”

She laughed and shoved him forward.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

( :( )

Much to Isabel’s surprise, Alex wasn’t in the kitchen drinking that night. He was making pizza. It was a little late to be eating, but he’d been studying during dinner. School actually seemed like it was doing him some good. He hadn’t been drinking quite as much. Any decrease was a good decrease. She hoped the news about his non-baby would decrease it even more.

“Can we talk about some stuff?” she asked, sitting down on the second to bottom stair. It was dark in their house. She could only see his silhouette in the kitchen.

“That depends,” he said, using a potholder to take his pizza tray out of the oven. “What do you wanna talk about?”

“What do you think?” Caroline was all they had talked about since she’d shown up. “Garret’s asleep,” she told him. “Let’s try not to yell. Do you want the good news or the bad news first?”

He didn’t say anything.

“Okay, the bad news,” she decided for him. “I lost my job. Got fired. Not because of my performance but because of stupid budget cuts.” She couldn’t see his face, but judging by the rigidness of his body, he was worried. “Don’t worry, though, I’m gonna get it back,” she promised.

“How?”

“I have my ways.”

He grunted, rummaging around in the utensil drawer for the pizza cutter. “Don’t you mean you have your breasts?”

“Among other things.” She had a mouth and hands and nether regions, too. “So that’s the bad news,” she recapped. “The good news is that you’re not gonna have another kid.”

He froze as he was slicing the pizza. “What’re you talking about? What did you say to her? Did you make her have an abortion?” He set the pizza cutter down and marched towards her. “I swear to God, if you--”

“She miscarried,” she cut in before he could get too angry. “Two weeks ago.” She could see Alex’s face now, the immediate grief in his eyes. “She doesn’t need an abortion. Her body did that all on its own.”

He swallowed hard and shook his head, seemingly stunned by what he’d just heard. “I don’t understand. Did she not know? Is that why she said she was . . .” He trailed off.

“She knew,” Isabel explained. “And apparently it was yours. That much I believe. I gave her a thousand dollars to have an abortion, thinking she needed one.”

“You what?” he shrieked.

“She acted like she was gonna go through with it, but I could tell something was sketchy. I figured it out at last minute, got my money back, sent her on her merry way.” She was so proud of herself for seeing through the scam. Better late than never. A less intelligent person would have easily been duped.

“So she was, what, trying to trick us?”

“Exactly. Boy, did you luck out or what?”

“Luck?” he echoed as though he didn’t know the meaning of the word. “I don’t . . . I had a child, and it died.”

“So be happy,” she suggested, coming off a bit more forceful and insensitive than she had actually intended to.

“Happy?” He glared at her accusingly. “You want me to be happy about this?”

“Well, yeah,” she answered simply. “You can deny it all you want, but I know you wanted this. You didn’t wanna have another kid.”

He bit his bottom lip, his jaw shaking as though he were about to cry.

“Alex.” What was wrong with him?

And with that, his face lost all emotion. His body relaxed, and he padded back into the kitchen, heading straight for the refrigerator. He took out one of his few remaining bottles of beer and headed upstairs without a word. He walked right past Isabel without saying anything, and she had no idea what to say to him. Maybe ‘happy’ hadn’t been the right word to use, but still, she hadn’t expected him to feel like drinking.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria lay in bed next to Michael that night, wide awake. He was flat on his stomach, facing away from her and not moving.

“Michael,” she started to say like a record on repeat. “Michael. Michael, will you wake up, please?”

“I’m not asleep,” he finally mumbled.

“Oh, good, because, see . . .” She leaned forward and whispered in his ear, “I want you to do me.”

His eyes snapped open. “Really?”

“Yes.” She expected him to roll over and get on top of her, but he just laid there. “Did you not hear me? I want you to do me,” she repeated with more emphasis this time.

“I’m kinda tired,” he said.

“You were ‘kinda tired’ last night.”

“Well, I’m tired again.”

“Okay, so I can be on top.” What a perfect solution. He got to keep laying there, and she got to have sex in the best position for female orgasms.

“I really think we should just go to bed,” he said.

She wrinkled her forehead in confusion, thoroughly stunned by his dismissal. “What’s wrong with you?” she wondered aloud, turning over onto her side. She hugged the blankets to her chest, and a moment later, she felt him shifting around.

“Come on, don’t go to bed mad,” he said, slipping his arms around her waist.

“Well, don’t make me mad,” she suggested. But it was hard to stay mad at him when he smoothed his hand over her shoulders and down her arms, at the same time kissing the back of her neck. It wasn’t foreplay, though, just affection. He stopped at one kiss and just spooned with her, still content to go to sleep.

“You’re seriously choosing cuddling over sex?” She could barely fathom it.

“Yep. You’re good at cuddling, Maria.”

“I’m better at sex.” This had to mean that he found her completely undesirable nowadays. She’d actually managed to lose a few pounds, but apparently it didn’t matter if he wouldn’t touch her. “Come on,” she practically begged, “tomorrow’s Sunday. We could sleep in after a long, passionate night of not sleeping.” She waited for a response but got none. “You’re not budging, are you?”

“Nope.”

“Weird,” she said with a sigh. “Alright then, I wanna go to church tomorrow.”

“You do?” He sounded surprised.

“Yeah.”

“Why?”

“So that I can pray for you to have sex with me again.”

He laughed at that, and his breath tickled her skin when he said, “Goodnight.”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

In church the next day, while everyone else in the congregation was reciting the Lord’s Prayer, Maria said a prayer of her own quietly beneath her breath.

“Are you seriously praying for sex?” Michael leaned over and asked.

“Yes.” She kept going. Dear God, please let Michael put it to me good because I so want his lips and everything attached to them.

After the service let out, the habit was for everyone to gather for coffee and doughnuts. Michael and Maria decided to take their girls to the nursery to play around for a few minutes instead before it was time to go. They stood in the doorway and watched as Miley rifled through a box of stuffed animals and Macy picked up blocks and threw them at the wall.

“I’m gonna go get some coffee,” Michael announced with a yawn.

“Why are you so tired, huh?” Maria asked combatively. “All you did was sleep last night.”

He just smiled. “I’ll be right back.”

She shook her head as he walked away. “Freak.” It was Sex Drought 2.0. She could feel it coming. And the strange thing was, he was being so tight-lipped about it, almost as if there was something he didn’t want her to know.

Maria was just about to tell her kids it was time to go when Ruth Nelson, the eldest singer and subsequent leader of the church’s choir, came down the hallway. “Hi, Maria,” she greeted with a misleadingly friendly smile.

“Hi, Ruth.” Maria forced herself to smile back. “How have you been?” Ruth was one of the busybodies of their church. Lutherans in general were very easy-going and open-minded, but not Ruth Nelson. She had to know everyone else’s business and made sure her thoughts on it were always known, too.

“Oh, just fine and dandy,” Ruth replied in that too-chipper-to-be-true tone. “How about you?”

“Good. We’ve all been really good,” Maria replied, looking for the nearest escape route.

“Oh, look at those girls.” Ruth peered in at Miley and Macy and waved. Macy through a block at her. “They’ve gotten so big since the last time I saw them. When was the last time I saw them?”

Maria was reluctant to answer, because she knew where this was headed. The small-talk was all part of Ruth’s master plan to make her feel guilty about not attending church more often. “It was probably Macy’s baptism,” she replied honestly.

“Really? That long?”

“Yeah, it’s been awhile.” She clenched her teeth to keep from crying out for help. She absolutely detested this woman.

“You should really try to get here more often,” Ruth suggested. “I hope you’ll consider giving offering for every week you missed.”

“Well . . .” She and Michael usually gave five dollars every time they showed up in church, but for every week they missed . . . that was a lot of money, and they were a young couple who had bills to pay. So no. She felt like telling Ruth that, but over the years, she’d learned to be fake friendly.

“And maybe Miley would like to join the other kids at Sunday school today,” Ruth added excitedly. She was, of course, the one who taught Sunday school.

“I don’t know, she’s still at that age where she’s learning how to make friends, so . . .”

“Well, she could make friends there.”

“Yeah, maybe next year when she’s a little older,” Maria decided. And when you’re no longer the teacher. Ruth had expressed quite the obvious desire to move to Miami after her husband retired, which, if Maria recalled correctly, would be in a few months now.

“Very well,” Ruth said. “So are you and your boyfriend married yet?”

It took everything Maria had not to lash out. “No.” It was a combination of the woman’s tone and the way she phrased the questions that rubbed her the wrong way.

“Not yet, huh? Have you set a date?”

“Not exactly, but sometime in the spring after I graduate.” Maria sent Miley a pleading look. Maybe she could pretend to have pooped in her pants or something? Anything that would be an excuse for cutting the conversation with Ruth short.

“Oh, you’re still pursuing an education, are you?”

“Yeah.” It was that one word, still, that made the question sound so condescending.

“In what?”

“Teaching.”

“Oh, isn’t that quaint?”

Maria made a face. Quaint? It was one of the most important jobs in the world; that’s what it was. What the hell did quaint even mean? And who used it in a sentence anymore?

“You know, back in my day, women were content with just being wives and mothers,” Ruth said, “none of this . . . career nonsense.”

Oh my god, Maria thought, shocked by what she’d just heard. Sometimes the super religious ones were the most cruel.

“Oh, I don’t mean to imply that what you’re doing is nonsense,” Ruth backtracked. “It’s just a little frivolous and self-indulgent, don’t you think?”

Had Miley not been in the vicinity, Maria would have let the old bitch have a verbal smack down, but since both she and Macy were right there, she had to bite her tongue. “Ugh . . .”

On the drive home, she let it all out.

“Frivolous?” she spat. “Self-indulgent?! Oh, I’ll indulge myself with a little kicking of her ass!”

Miley leaned forward, crawling out of her car seat, and started to ask the obvious question. “What’s--”

“Just forget you heard me say that word,” Maria cut her off. “God, it’s like the woman expects me to be living in the 1920s or something! Like she doesn’t think I can handle being a mom and a teacher and a wife all at once. But I can. I’m going to! Right?”

“Yeah,” Michael said, keeping his eyes on the road. “Baby, don’t let it bother you. You know how some of those women are.”

“It would bother you if someone said your career was nonsense.” But of course no one would ever say that to Michael, because he was a guy, and he was expected to have a life outside his family.

“Come here,” he said, wrapping his arm around her.

“More cuddling?” she said as she let him pull her closer.

“Yeah.”

She lay her head on his shoulder and turned up the volume on the radio. An angry chick song was playing, and in that moment, it fit her mood.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

When Isabel brought Garret to daycare on Monday morning, she was delighted to see that Miley was once again there. And so was the other brat, but Miley was the important one. Was it wrong to root for a three year-old couple? Because she sure as hell was.

“Well, well, well, look who it is,” she said, pointing her out to Garret. She was trying to wrap a long pink scarf around her neck, but she was getting tangled up in it instead. “Looks like you’ve got someone to play with.”

“I can’t play with her,” Garret mumbled.

“Says who?”

“Miss Pam.”

Isabel rolled her eyes. It wasn’t Miss Pam who said that, it was Miss Maria. “Well, guess what?” She knelt in front of her son, pushing his curly hair off his forehead. “I’m your mom and I say you can play with Miley Guerin all you want. Just be a little sneaky about it. Okay?”

He nodded.

“Okay.” She gave him a kiss, then used the patented mom-spit to wipe her lipstick off his cheek. “I love you.”

“Love you, too, Mommy.”

She gave his little hand a squeeze, then left for the day. Even though she no longer had a job, she had serious work to do.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

After cleaning out her cubicle and loading everything into the back of her car, Isabel knocked on the door to her ex-boss’s office and let herself in. “Arthur?” she said, trying to smile pleasantly.

“Isabel.” His face lit up when he saw her, probably due to the fact that she was dressed to kill in a short black and white plaid skirt and form-fitting white cashmere sweater. “Hello. How are you?”

“Oh, about as well as can be expected.” She shut the door. What was about to go down in Arthur’s office was not for prying eyes.

“Are you cleaning out your cubicle?” he asked.

“I just finished. It didn’t take too long. I barely got settled in there.” Didn’t hurt to lay on a guilt-trip in addition to the sex appeal.

“I really am sorry,” he apologized, sounding genuine.

“I’m sorry, too, for storming out of here the other day. That was very unprofessional of me.”

“You had every reason to be upset,” Arthur assured her. “I just wish I could’ve given you more long-lasting employment here.”

“Me, too. Things are pretty bad lately. My husband’s out of a job and now so am I.” She couldn’t help but notice that he’d popped a button on his pants. His entire stomach was flopping over his belt. He had enough fat on him to form an entirely new person. This was not going to be fun.

“Like I said, I’d be happy to give you a recommendation,” he offered again.

“Actually . . .” She bravely sat down on his desk, pushing his work aside. “I was hoping for a second chance. She crossed her left leg over her right, giving him a deliberate view of her thighs. “I barely even got started here, but I loved the job. And I really loved working for you.”

Arthur smiled nervously and stuttered, “You-you were great.”

“But I didn’t even get the chance to show you how great I can be,” she said with purposeful sexual innuendo, “or everything that I can do for you.” Everyone else out there was a man, and unless Arthur swung both ways . . .

“Isabel . . .”

“I understand that cuts need to be made, but . . .” She spread her legs apart, showing him that she wasn’t wearing any underwear as she said, “Maybe we could work something out.”

He stared between her legs, though he was obviously trying not to. He kept looking back up at her face and down again. “Isabel . . .” He licked his lips and shifted uncomfortably in his seat. “I’m married. I have grandchildren. I don’t think this is appropriate.”

“I’m sure it’s not. But sometimes I just can’t help myself.” She snaked one hand down underneath her skirt to touch herself. Think of Michael, she coached herself. Think of Michael.

Arthur reached out and grabbed her hand, getting her to stop what she was doing. She frowned confusedly, not sure what was happening. He wasn’t turning her down, was he? Because that was just unthinkable.

“I have meetings these next few days,” he said slowly, “but . . . keep your phone on. I’ll be in touch with you.”

“Oh, I hope so.” She grinned and climbed down off the desk, tugging her skirt downward before she slipped outside. When she shut the door behind her, she rolled her eyes and muttered, “Men.” They could be so damn easy and predictable. Putty in her hands . . . or at least in other parts of her.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria rushed into the lecture hall for her methods class ten minutes late that day. She was out of breath and worried that she’d missed a pop quiz—sometimes the professor liked to give those at the beginning of class as a way of taking attendance. But when she got there, everything was mostly calm. Everyone had split up into groups of four or five people, probably the unit plan groups.

Unit plan, she thought unhappily. Great.

She located her professor and approached him, asking, “Did you get my message about being late?” She’d called him just to let him know that she was on her way.

“Yes, I did,” he replied. The guy was pretty much half decent and half douche, and judging by the smile on his face, this appeared to be one of this decent days. Thank God.

“I’m sorry,” she apologized, “I was just a little late getting my kids out the door today.”

“Don’t worry about it. You didn’t miss much. We just split into our unit plan groups. Your group went out in the hallway, I believe. I told them you’d be a little late.”

“Okay, thanks.” She headed out into the hallway, and as she was rounding the corner, she heard some of her group members talking. She knew them by name—they were the girls who sat in the front of the class and made sure everyone knew who they were. One of them was named Chastity, who couldn’t have been less chaste if she’d tried and was indisputably the Queen Bee of the sorority girls. She had bleach blonde hair and the thickest, most annoying southern accent of all time.

“I don’t mean to be rude and all,” she was saying, “but I don’t know how she’s gonna be a good teacher when she’s already got her own kids.”

Maria stood back behind the wall, shocked that they were talking about her.

“She can’t even make it to class on time,” Chastity went on. “I bet she won’t give us no help on our unit.”

Maria rolled her eyes in disbelief. They didn’t even know her. They’d never even spoken to her.

“You know what I heard?” Chastity’s twin sister Charity jumped in. Charity was brunette, dumb as a rock, and unofficially her sister’s second-in-command. And like her sister, she was ironically named in that she didn’t have one charitable bone in her body.

“What’d you hear?” Chastity asked way too excitedly.

“I heard she’s not even married to her kids’ father,” Charity said as though it were some juicy piece of gossip. “That’s so trashy.”

Maria laughed angrily and stepped out from behind the wall. “Bitches.”

Chastity, Charity, and the two other sheep in the group all looked up at her in horror of having gotten caught.

“Hi, I’m Maria,” she greeted with a biting tone.

“Hi,” Chastity squeaked out nervously.

Maria flapped her arms against her sides, fighting the urge to throw punches. She could throw a mean punch for a girl. “So are we done trashing me?” she asked. “Because I’d really like to start on this unit plan.”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Although Miley liked getting to go play outside, she hated trying to swing when no one was pushing her. Her dad usually did that. She wasn’t sure how to get going on her own. Her legs were too short to reach the ground, so mostly, she just sat there and got frustrated.

“Miley!”

She looked up when she heard someone say her name. Garret was standing over by the fence, waving his arms at her. “Come here.”

She looked around, not wanting to get in trouble. She wasn’t supposed to play with him.

“Come here,” he said again.

She slid down off the swing and ran over towards him, away from the rest of the kids. Miss Pam was yelling at them because they were hitting each other with sticks. Miss Pam was the only old person out there.

“Look,” Garret said, peeling back a part of the chain link fence.

“Cool,” she said.

He bent down and crawled underneath it, standing up on the other side of the fence. “Wanna go get some ice cream?” he asked.

She knew she wasn’t supposed to, but she really liked ice cream, and she really liked Garret. She looked back over her shoulder at Miss Pam. Some of the older kids were trying to pull her pants down.

“Okay,” Miley decided, squeezing through the gap. It was barely big enough for her, but she got through and ended up on the other side of the fence with Garret. He held out his hand to help her up.

“Come on,” he said, “let’s go.” And they ran off hand in hand.








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Part 47

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You know, I planned to get a lot of writing done this weekend but I didn't because my aunt, uncle, and cousins ended up coming to visit us on the 4th of July to shoot off fireworks. Ah, it was fun, though. We had a picnic and got eaten alive by bugs. That part was less fun.


Ellie:
I really ... REALLY don't like it that he's obviously effect by this lie and won't have sex/make love to Maria now because of the guilt of it. GRRRR ... instead of Isabel really pissing me off - it's now Michael that is. When this finally does come out, all hell is gonna break loose.
You're right about that.
Oh god ... this is bad. Really, REALLY bad. I'm afraid now. Something is going to happen to either Miley or Garett now? A car accident? Kidnapping? My mind is working double time thinking of WORST CASE SCENARIOS.
All those worst case scenarios are definitely going to be running through Michael and Maria's minds, too.
Great update April. Thanks for listening to my vent. {{{hugs you}}}
*hugs you back* Anytime. :)

Leila:
I'm everytime surprised how narrow minded people can be. I'm not used to such a thing so it's kind of weird for me to read that there's still the thinking of the 19th century. That's sad.
Some of the things that Maria deals with in this fic are things that I have dealt with. I'm 23 and still have a year of college left to go---and it's honestly not my fault. I had a lot of problems with credits transferring from one school to another, and it set me back. But sometimes rude, insensitive people used to just ask me why I wouldn't get married already (to the ex-fiance, aka: scumbag) and have kids and be a stay at home mom instead of trying to get a degree. I don't understand how some people can be so stuck in the past and expect every woman to be content with that kind of life. Not that there's anything wrong with it, but it's not right for me, you know. Just like it's not right for Maria.

Anyway . . .
Maybe Garret's and Miley's disappearance will lead to the truth?
Possibly.

BB:
It's cute seeing Tess and Kyle back to their old selves but I think that they've just papered over their problems and the cracks are still there.
Definitely.
But with them, judgy old church lady and Michael rejecting her twice, Maria must be feeling pretty low right now.
Yeah, she's got a lot of things to be upset about right now.
Isabel might as well just become a prostitute and be done with it. Actually, I thought that was going to be the road Liz took.
:lol: As crazy as it sounds, I did toy with the idea of that for awhile there, but I decided against it because I thought it was just too extreme.

Novy:
Isabel has to work so hard for everything. No wonder she's crazy. All that she has to do would drive anyone mad.
There will be a part coming up very soon that really delves into the main reason why Isabel is off her rocker.
Michael should really give Maria a better explanation before he gives her a complex.
Poor Maria. She already feels "undesirable" sometimes. This is just adding on to that insecurity.
Awesome part. It's great having music again.
I don't know about you, but a world without music is not a world where I want to live. ;)

cjensen2:
I think Michael is definitley making some really bad decisions lately and I just want to shake him.
It's frustrating, isn't it? Because he usually makes pretty good decisions. But not right now. And obviously the longer he waits to tell her about it, the more difficult it's going to be.
I hope that Michael didn't feel uncomfortable telling Maria because he is struggling with the way he felt when with Isabel.
Oh, don't worry, Michael doesn't have any of those kinds of feelings for Isabel anymore. But that doesn't necessarily mean he feels the same way about her that Maria does, which is where I think this lie by omission is coming from.
Also, it would be interesting to see if she could ever actually be satisfied or happy with a nice guy like Michael (though I definitely don't want her to get together with him again) or if her obsession with him is just a fantasy and a way for her to escape reality.
It's always hard to tell whether Isabel is actually in love with Michael or in love with the idea of being with Michael again. I'm inclined to think that she actually does love the guy, in her own crazy and twisted way, but she's also in love with the mere idea of being with him again; and that's what makes her love for him border on obsession.

Rodney:
You know this whole group is F*&*ed up and being stupid
:lol: I can't tell you how many times I've heard that in response to my fics, especially during Passion. :lol:
Are we sure Phillip wasn't some type of demon and his children are demon spawn? For both of them seem to have no sould what so ever.
Oh, Phillip Evans was quite possibly the devil personified.

Neve:
It doesn't surprise me that Isabel uses sex to get what she wants from men. Her whole life she was dismissed from her father's thoughts and the family business because she was a girl and Max is a total sexist too. As far as the Evans are concerned women are only good one for one thing and it's not surprising that Isabel has that idea ingrained in her too.
It's really quite sad that Phillip's ideas about women were passed down to Max and ingrained in Isabel. She knows that using sex to solve everything is degrading, yet it's the only way she has any power and control over her life at all. :(
I found it hilarious that Maria didn't want to say anything to her in front of Miley but then said it all in the car - in front of Miley.
:lol: She couldn't hold back.



Thanks for the feedback. This part is going to be slightly longer than usual, mostly because I just couldn't decide where to cut it off. I'll see if I can update again on Friday.








Part 47








Billy was sprawled out on the couch wearing only his boxers, strumming his guitar and smoking a cigarette when Isabel went to his house that morning after work. If seducing Arthur could really be called work—it was too easy. He didn’t even look up when he saw her, but he dropped his guitar pick and had to start strumming all over again.

“You think you can just walk right in here?” he grumbled.

“I just did.” God, he looked like a train wreck. His face was all stubbly and his eyes were bloodshot. He probably hadn’t run a comb through his hair in days. He went to pieces when she wasn’t around. “Let me guess: You got so lonely without me, you fucked your guitar,” she said.

“Shut up,” he snapped, surprising her with his hostile tone. “You think you can just use me whenever you feel like it? I got my pride, you know.”

“Billy . . .” Why did he have to be stubborn? He made everything ten times more complicated than it needed to be.

“I don’t get it.” He set his guitar aside and stood up, stretching his arms behind his back. “What is it about Michael Guerin that makes him so great? He’s no better lookin’ than me. He’s no smarter than me.”

She gave him an incredulous look.

“Alright, maybe he’s a little smarter than me,” he admitted. “But I got a job, just like him.”

“He owns his own business. You play music on weekends.”

“He loves Maria. I wrote a song about you,” Billy shot back. “It ain’t hard to figure out. You want somethin’ you’ll never have, and you’re overlookin’ what you already got.”

“I don’t have much,” she pointed out.

“You have me.” He shrugged. “You don’t care.”

“No, Billy . . .” She stood behind him and coiled her arms around his midsection, pressing her cheek to his shoulder. He smelled like B.O. and drugs. “I do care,” she insisted. “I’ve just had a lot of other things going on.” And that was pretty much the understatement of the year.

“Like what?” he asked.

“Like--” Before she could answer, her cell phone vibrated in her pocket. “Hold on.” She headed into the kitchen where she knew she got better reception. “What?” she answered impatiently. It took her a moment to recognize the voice on the other end. It was Pam from the daycare, and she was blabbering about something almost incoherently. But Isabel caught the gist of it, and all she could do was smile. “Really?” Garret was such an awesome kid.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

By the time Maria got to the gallery that morning, she was so exhausted from having to deal with Chastity and Charity that she didn’t feel like doing much of anything but complaining. Michael was very good about listening to her when she complained.

“Hey, can I rant to you?” she asked him.

“In a minute.” He disappeared into his office and shut the door.

“He’s meeting with an artist we might showcase,” Kyle explained. He was standing by the front counter chewing on a red and yellow gummy worm.

“Well, then can I rant to you?” It was the next best thing.

“Uh . . .”

“Kyle, do you wanna hear about my day?”

“I’d rather not.”

She unloaded. “Okay, so I got to class late because, hello, I have a life outside of class. And when I got there, these girls were literally, like, trashing me. And I overheard them. But it sucks because I have to do this unit plan with them, so now it’s all awkward, and . . . you know what? The more I say the words unit plan, the more I realize I have no idea what that is.”

He just stood there, staring at her.

“Say something,” she told him.

“What do you want me to say?”

“I don’t know, something comforting.”

“What would Michael say?”

“He’d say, ‘Don’t let those girls bother you, Maria. They’re just jealous.’”

Kyle grabbed her by the shoulders, half a gummy worm dangling from his mouth. “Don’t let those girls bother you, Maria. They’re just jealous.”

“Gee, thanks.” She slung her backpack on the floor. The damn thing weighed about five thousand pounds. “Do you know what’s going on with Michael?”

“I told you, he’s meeting with someone.”

“No, I mean what’s really going on with him,” she repeated.

Kyle gave her a confused look. “Is there something going on with him?”

“I don’t know, he’s acting weird.”

“Oh, you mean how he won’t have sex with you?” he blurted. “Yeah, I heard about that. Tess told me.”

“She’s such a blabbermouth.”

“I’m gonna tell you the same thing I told her: That just means he’s got something else on his mind.”

Maria frowned. “What?” Michael was really good about telling her what was bothering him.

“I don’t know, it’s his mind.”

“You’re no help,” she muttered, picking up her cell phone when it rang. “Hello?” She fell silent at the sound of Pam’s hysterical rambling, and when she heard the word missing in connection with her daughter’s name, her whole world came crashing down.

“Michael!”

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

It felt like it took forever to drive from the gallery to the daycare, even though they weren’t more than ten minutes away from each other. Maria wasn’t so sure why she was in such a rush to get there. Miley wasn’t there.

“Oh my god, Michael!” she cried frantically when they pulled up outside. There were about a dozen cop cars parked on the street, their lights flashing.

“They’re gonna find her,” he promised, putting his arm around her as they hurried up to the scene. “It’s okay.”

“It’s not okay!” she shrieked. “She’s missing!” This couldn’t be real. None of this could be real.

“Officer,” Michael said to an older, chubbier cop who looked to be in charge of things. “We’re Miley’s parents. Can you tell us anything?”

Pam was standing beside him, sobbing uncontrollably. “Maria, I’m so sorry. I was watching them. One minute they were there and then they were just gone.”

“Shut up!” Maria yelled. She didn’t want to hear any excuses.

“Ma’am, I need you to try and stay calm,” the police officer said.

“Calm?” she echoed. “Don’t tell me to stay calm! My daughter’s missing! And what happened to her? Did she run away or . . . oh my god, was she taken?” The mere thought of the latter caused her stomach to twist up in knots.

“That’s what we’re trying to figure out,” the officer said.

“Well, figure it out faster!” She turned to Michael and buried her face in his chest. “Oh my god, Michael, do something.”

“Okay, okay,” he said, holding her with shaking arms. “You guys think that-that she’s with Garret, right?”

The cop nodded unnaturally calmly. “We believe so.”

“Okay, so . . . so that means she’s not alone.” He tried to smile at her. “See, that’s good.”

“Oh, so she’s with another little kid. That doesn’t make her any safer.” She noticed lots of cops just standing around, talking and seeming like they were doing nothing, and it infuriated her. “What’re you guys doing?” she screeched. “You need to find her!”

“We have people out there right now looking for her and the boy,” the cop assured her. “If they’re in the area, we’ll find them.”

“If?” That wasn’t a word Maria wanted to hear.

Another car pulled up out front, and Isabel got out, scrambling towards them. “I’m here,” she said. “Where’s my son?”

“We don’t know just yet,” the officer told her.

“What happened?”

Before the cop could explain the situation, a deputy squeezed into the group and spoke to his superior. “Sir, we found an opening in a chain link fence out back. It looks like the kids might’ve slipped out through there.”

“See, they ran away,” Michael said, rubbing her back. “She wasn’t taken. That’s good news.”

“They ran away together?” Isabel actually smiled. “That’s so sweet.”

Something in Maria snapped when she heard that. The woman was not all together. “God, what is wrong with you?” she shouted, shoving Isabel backwards. “You planned this, didn’t you? You planned this!”

“I didn’t plan anything,” Isabel denied. “Maybe if they were allowed to be friends, this wouldn’t have happened in the first place!”

“I’ll kill you if anything happens to her!” Maria lunged forward, but Michael grabbed her around her waist, holding her back.

“Alright, break it up, break it up,” the police officer said, pushing on her shoulder to back her up a little.

“Don’t touch me!” she yelled, smacking his hand away.

“Whoa now, that’s assault on an officer.” He grabbed her wrists and yanked her towards him.

“No, stop, let her go. Let her go.” Michael grabbed her arm and pulled her back to his side, holding her face in his hands as he spoke to her. “Maria! Look at me. She’s gonna be okay. We’re gonna find her, I promise.”

“Michael . . .” she whimpered, tears flowing down her face. “What if something bad happens to her?” What if something bad had already happened and they were too late to prevent it?

“Nothing’s gonna happen,” he assured her, pulling her into a tight hug again. “Come here.”

She leaned against him and cried, barely able to stand on her own two feet in that moment.

“What can we do?” he asked the officer.

“Do you have a picture of the girl?”

“Yeah.” He reached into his back pocket, took out his wallet, and handed him a picture of Miley at her birthday party a month ago. She was standing next to the life-sized Hannah Montana doll her grandparents had bought her and had cake all over her face. Maria started to cry harder when she saw a glimpse of the picture.

“Here’s one of my son,” Isabel said, handing the officer a picture of Garret as well.

He looked both of them over and asked, “Do you have any idea where they might have gone? Any inclination at all?”

“They’re just kids. Miley doesn’t even know her way around,” Maria managed to get out.

“Your house isn’t too far away,” Isabel said, not even shedding a tear. “Maybe they went there.”

“Yeah, maybe,” Michael agreed.

“We’ve already sent officers to check out that area. If they find them, they’ll let us know right away. Luckily it’s still very early. We’ve got plenty of time to find these kids before dark.”

“I want them found now,” Maria growled. Anything else was unacceptable.

“We’re gonna drive around and look for them, okay?” Michael said. He wasn’t crying, either, but he didn’t look nearly as calm as Isabel. “And Tess and Kyle are looking.”

“I’ll get Alex and Max in on it,” Isabel added.

“Oh, that’s just what I want, Max Evans finding my daughter,” she grumbled, though she supposed the important thing was that she was found by someone.

“They couldn’t have gone very far,” Pam said. “I’m so sorry.”

“It’s not your fault, Pam,” Isabel said. “When kids aren’t allowed to see each other, they act out.”

“Oh, shut up,” Maria snapped. “Shut up, you stupid bitch!” She lunged forward again, arms flying, but Michael grabbed her and pulled her back.

“Come on, let’s go,” he said, leading her back to the car. “We’re gonna find her, let’s go.”

“Michael, she has to be alright,” she cried, wishing this was a nightmare she could wake up from.

“She will be,” he promised.

“She has to be.” There was no way she was going to let Miley be a missing face on a milk carton. She was going to bring her back home where she belonged, where she would be safe and out of danger, because there was no other alternative.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Miley sat down on the ground and pulled down on the sleeves of her jacket. She was cold, and they were lost. There were trees all around them, and even though she was worried the bugs would get her on the ground, she was too tired to keep walking. She wanted to go back to the daycare for nap time.

“I think we go this way,” Garret said, pointing to his left.

“I’m tired,” she complained. “I want my daddy, and my mama.”

“I wish my Uncle Max was here,” he admitted.

“My uncle’s name’s Kyle. He’s funny.” She wished he was there, too, and Aunt Tess and Grandma Amy.

“Let’s keep walking,” Garret said.

“No. My Mama said if I get lost, I have to sit and not move.”

“We’re not lost,” Garret claimed. “I know where I’m going. Don’t worry, Miley, I’ll take care of you.”

Maybe if they walked long enough, she’d find her daddy. He was at work. He’d be happy to see her. “Okay,” she said, standing up. He took her hand and led her through the trees.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

For almost half an hour, Michael and Maria drove up and down all the residential streets within five miles of the daycare. They had no idea which way Miley and Garret had gone. It was like looking for a needle in a haystack, and Maria just kept getting more worried. Michael was worried, too, but trying not to show it. He had to keep it together for her.

“God, why is there not, like, an Amber Alert on the radio right now?” she yelled. Her anger must have felt better than fear.

“‘Cause the radio’s not on,” he replied.

“Well, turn it on!” He did, and an annoying country song wafted through the car. “Turn it off!”

“Amber Alerts are for abductions,” he explained. “Miley wasn’t abducted. We should be really thankful for that.”

She shook her head, clearly not willing to be thankful for anything until their daughter was found and brought home safe and sound. Her phone rang, and she jolted forward. “It’s Tess.”

Michael let himself get his hopes up. Maybe she and Kyle had found her.

“Did you find them?” Maria asked. He could tell by the look on her face that they hadn’t.

“Okay. Thanks.” Maria flipped her phone closed and wiped the tears off her cheeks. “They told the neighbors. Everyone’s looking for her now.”

“That’s good.” The more the better.

“How are you so calm about this?” she asked, her voice wavering in and out. “Our little girl is missing.”

“I’m not calm,” he blurted, the lump in his throat rising. “I’m just trying to keep from driving off the road right now, but I’m not calm.” All he could think about was his daughter, about the day she was born and how one of the first things he’d said to her was a promise to always keep her safe. “I just wanna find her, pick her up in my arms, and never let her go. So that’s what I’m gonna do.” He blinked back tears, knowing that if he lost it, Maria would lose it, too. They needed to keep it together while they looked for her.

He caught sight of Max a ways up on the road, standing on the sidewalk, talking to someone and showing a picture.

“Is that--” Maria started to ask.

“Max. I’m gonna see if he knows anything.” He pulled up to the curb and got out of the car. “Max, are you looking for them?”

“Yeah, Isabel called me.”

“Where do you think they went?”

“I don’t know, but I’m looking everywhere.” The guy actually seemed concerned about someone else for once. “It’s not like Garret to just take off like that.”

“Well, it’s not likely Miley, either,” Maria said, getting out of the car as well. “He’s a bad influence on her.”

“Hey, watch it, that’s my nephew you’re talking about.”

“Hey, I don’t care. He took off with my daughter.”

“Let’s just keep going,” Michael suggested, in no mood to play referee. He turned and was about to get back in his car when he heard Max say, “Garret?” He looked up, and he saw a little boy with curly hair running up the sidewalk on the other side of the street.

“Garret!” Max took off across the street.

“Uncle Max!”

“Miley?” Maria called. “Where’s Miley?”

“Miley!” he yelled, cupping his hands over his mouth to amplify the sound.

“Miley!” Maria looked around frantically. “Where is she?”

Just as she asked the question, Miley ran around the corner, her face lighting up when she saw them.

“Miley!” they both cried joyfully, running down the sidewalk.

“Mama!” Miley stepped down off the sidewalk, tripped on a branch lying in the road, and fell down in the middle of the street. “Ow!” As she sat there, Michael watched in horror as a car came zooming down the road. The driver didn’t look like he was watching where he was going, and he was heading straight towards her.

“MILEY!” he shouted, running out onto the street without regard for his own safety. He swept her up in his arms and jumped onto the sidewalk just as the car roared past. He held her so tightly against him he thought he’d never let go. That had been way too close.

“Miley!” Maria screamed, following him across the street. “Oh my god, Miley! Oh my god, are you okay?” She touched her face and her hair and her arms and her hands, tears streaming down her face. “Are you okay? Come here.” She lifted him out of Michael’s arms and hugged her. “Oh my god.”

Michael raked one hand through his hair. His heart was pounding a mile a minute.

“I hurt my arm,” Miley said, holding up a scraped elbow.

“That’s okay, we’ll take of that,” Maria kissed the side of her head. “Oh, I love you so much.”

“Don’t cry, Mama,” Miley said, hugging her back. “You, too, Daddy.”

He smiled a little and turned around so that she couldn’t see him crying, but he couldn’t stop the relief from pouring out of him. He loved his kids more than life itself, and today, he’d almost lost one.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Alex was not at all an authoritarian parent, so Isabel almost laughed when he tried to reprimand Garret that night. He walked around Garret’s bedroom, trying to sound all macho and angry, while Garret sat on his bed, looking down at his feet. Was he even listening?

“What you did today was very . . . stupid,” Alex said. “It was stupid, Garret, and you’re not a stupid kid. Why would you do that?”

“I just wanted to play with Miley,” he mumbled, and Isabel’s heart almost melted with delight.

“You know you’re not allowed,” Alex reminded him.

“But Mommy said--”

“Garret,” she jumped in quickly before he could say anything incriminating, “you need to promise you’ll never do that again. We’re not mad. It’s the daycare’s fault, not yours. Just promise.”

“I promise,” he said.

“Good, because we don’t want anything bad to happen to you.” She sat down beside him and put her arm around him, squeezing his shoulders. “We love you.”

“I love you, too, Mommy.” He smiled at her, and she smiled back at him. When she glanced up at Alex, he looked disappointed that he hadn’t gotten an ‘I love you,’ too.

“Get some sleep,” he said, leaving the room.

Isabel stood up, and Garret kicked back his covers.

“Hey, kid . . .” She held out one hand down low by her side, and he slapped it with his hand. The low five form of the high five was equally as congratulatory. Alex may have lectured him, but as far as she could tell, her wonderful little boy done something great today, something that offered her a way into Michael’s life. No way was she going to let a chance like this pass her by.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

While tucking Miley into bed that night, Michael realized he took the little things for granted sometimes. Little things like tying her shoes for her and helping her write her name. He was still so unsettled about what had almost happened to her that day. He and Maria were going to have to remind her how important it was to look both ways when crossing the road. He could take her out for a walk and they could practice.

“Sweetie, are you warm enough?” Maria asked dotingly. “Do you need another blanket?”

“No.” Miley was curled up on her side, her eyes already closed.

Maria put another blanket on her anyway. “Do you want Daddy to check for monsters?”

“No.”

That was another thing Michael took for granted. It wasn’t a chore; he loved being able to protect her from all the monsters that didn’t exist.

“Do you want Frank up on the bed with you?”

“Yeah.”

Maria pulled Frank out from underneath the bed and set him down near Miley’s feet. “Do you--”

“She can’t get to sleep if you keep talking,” Michael pointed out. She’d had a big day. She needed to rest.

“Okay, goodnight, baby.” Maria bent down and kissed Miley’s head. “I love you so much.”

“Sorry I was bad,” she mumbled sleepily.

“No, you don’t need to apologize. Just don’t ever do that again.”

Michael grabbed Maria by the elbow and pulled her out of the room. He shut the door but left it open just a crack in case she had a nightmare and needed to call for him in the middle of the night. He’d hear her even if the door was closed, though, and he’d go running.

“Oh, today was such a horrible day,” Maria lamented.

“Yeah.” He circled his arms around her and pulled her close to him.

She nuzzled her face against his chest. “I don’t ever wanna have another day like today.”

He didn’t, either. The past three and a half years had been relatively smooth sailing, and he didn’t want anything to change that.

“You were so brave,” she said, tilting her head back to look up at him.

“So were you.”

“No, I was a nervous wreck. You’re so much tougher than I am.”

“Hey, you always tell me childbirth’s the toughest thing, and you made it through that twice,” he reminded her.

“This was worse.” She shook her head sadly. “Maybe I’m fooling myself, Michael. Maybe I shouldn’t even be going to school. If I’d been here today, this never would’ve happened.”

“Maria . . .”

“Maybe everybody’s right and I should just be content with being a mom. That’s the best job. That’s the most important job. I don’t need a career to be fulfilled. Everything I want is right there in that room.” She motioned to Miley’s partially closed door, then to Macy’s nursery. “And that room, and right here.” She hooked her fingers into his belt loops, and pulled him closer.

“Maria, you don’t really mean that,” he said, rubbing her shoulders. “You’re trying to talk yourself into something because you’re still really emotional right now. But I know how much you wanna be a teacher, and I know what a damn good one you’ll be.” She did this a lot when her emotions were high-strung, started second-guessing the choices she made even though they were good choices.

“But what kind of mom lets her three year-old run away from daycare?” she kept on.

“You didn’t let her do anything. It just happened.”

“Stuff like that doesn’t just happen, Michael. Except on One Tree Hill. I don’t want her to be one of the One Tree Hill kids.”

He made a face, having no clue what she was talking about. “What?”

“You know, living a crazy life full of drama and near-death experiences. She almost got hit by a car today. If you hadn’t gotten to her in time . . .” She shuddered. “I don’t even wanna think about what would’ve happened.”

“So don’t.” He had gotten to her in time. They didn’t need to dwell on the what-ifs.

“Uh, I need a stiff drink,” she decided, heading downstairs.

“Me, too,” he agreed, following her. For Maria to drink, she had to have been really stressed.

“I just wanna forget this day ever existed,” she said as the doorbell rang. She went to get the door while he headed into the kitchen, and when she opened the door, she slammed it again almost instantly. “And it keeps on getting worse,” she groaned.

The person on the other side started pounding on the door loudly. “Michael.”

He recognized that voice as Isabel’s. No wonder Maria had slammed the door.

“Michael. Maria. Open the door. We need to talk about what happened today.”

Maria shook her head and mouthed ‘No’ emphatically.

“Come on, Maria, don’t be so immature,” Isabel said as though she could see through the door.

Michael reluctantly walked over to the door and placed his hand on the doorknob.

“No, don’t--” Maria said.

He opened the door, knowing Isabel wasn’t going to go away until they heard her out. Besides, she was right. They did need to talk.

“Michael.” She smiled at him. “You look so good at bedtime. Even better than I remember.”

Maria slipped in front of Michael and ordered, “Get out of my house.”

“I’m not in your house,” Isabel pointed out. “I’m waiting for my invite.”

Maria laughed combatively. “You’re crazy if you think I’ll ever let you in here.”

“Fine. Then if I can’t come in . . .” Isabel stepped down off the porch and went out into the front yard. “You’ll have to come out.”

Maria gave Michael an impatient look.

“I’m waiting,” Isabel said, flapping her arms against her sides.

He grabbed the door and pulled it closed, stepping outside and forcing Maria out with him. They needed to get this out of the way.

“There. See?” Isabel said. “That wasn’t so hard.”

The sharp sound of skin hitting skin reverberated through the air when Maria slapped her. She smirked and proclaimed, “Neither was that.”

Isabel stood there in dumbfounded silence for a minute, touching the left side of her face. “Well, I don’t really know what I did to deserve that,” she finally said, “but whatever. I’ll take the high road.”

Maria rolled her eyes and grunted. Michael just stood back, ready to play referee if he had to.

“We have a problem,” Isabel started, “and it’s a problem that became blatantly apparent today. Our kids are young. Our kids are curious. Our kids are adventurous. And they have a very special bond.”

“Oh my god, you’re rooting for romance between three year-olds,” Maria said disgustedly. “That is . . . so twisted, I don’t even know where to begin.”

“I just want my son to have a friend,” she said. “If you were any kind of mother at all, you’d want the same for Miley.”

Maria bristled. “What did you say?”

“Okay, let’s back up a bit,” Michael said, grabbing her arm and pulling her away from Isabel by about two feet. This had the potential to get ugly, and he didn’t want it to. Today had been bad enough already.

“Garret’s a good kid,” Isabel insisted.

“He almost got my daughter killed today.”

“He did no such thing. He made a mistake; so did Miley. Lesson learned. There’s no point in dwelling on what happened. We just need to make sure it never happens again.”

“Oh, it never will,” Maria assured her vehemently. “Because I’m thinking the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. We have a restraining order against you . . . maybe it’s time we get one against Garret.”

“Maria . . .” Michael said skeptically. She was talking through her emotions again, and he wasn’t even sure if it was possible to get a restraining order against a young kid. Regardless of who his parents were, Garret didn’t deserve that. “He’s just a kid. He didn’t know any better.”

“He’s not just a kid; he’s her kid,” she emphasized.

“Yeah, that restraining order’s working out real well for you anyway,” Isabel said sarcastically, making note of the fact that she was standing right there, well within five-hundred feet of them. “Face it, Maria: Keeping them apart isn’t gonna work. We have to let them be friends.”

“Over my dead body!” Maria shouted.

Isabel shrugged. “If that’s what it takes.”

“I am not letting them be friends,” she decided immediately. “We saw how well that worked out today, didn’t we?”

“No, today they were breaking rules,” Isabel pointed out. “You and I both know there’s a certain thrill in that. If there aren’t any rules to break, they’re less inclined to act out.”

“Or they’ll act out all the time. I’m not about to take that chance.”

Michael rubbed his forehead, sensing a migraine coming on. It was barreling towards him like a freight train and there was nothing he could do to prevent it.

“Come on, Maria, don’t be so confrontational,” Isabel said. “You said it yourself, they’re only three years old. If it’s this bad already, think how bad it’ll be when they’re teenagers. We’d might as well let them be friends now while we still have some control over them.”

“No,” Maria said, crossing her arms over her chest stubbornly. Behind her, Michael sighed.

Isabel grinned. “Look at Michael, not saying anything. He knows I’m right.”

“He knows you’re wrong,” Maria fought back.

“Actually . . .” It was time to jump in, as much as he didn’t want to. Maria whirled around and stared at him with accusing eyes. “She has a point,” he admitted, and she clearly took it as a betrayal.

“Are you kidding me?” she shrieked. “Do you not see right through this? She doesn’t care about Miley or Garret. She just wants to worm her way back into your life, and she’s using her own son to do it!”

Hidden agenda or not, he couldn’t help but agree with her. What they were doing with Miley and Garret clearly wasn’t working. It was time to try something new.

“You don’t know anything about my son or the mother I am to him,” Isabel ground out. “You’ve got your blinders on, Maria. You’re too busy seeing red to see how right I am. Now I’m not asking to be your best friend. God, I’d rather rip out my own intestines. I’m just thinking of our kids right now. I’m thinking about what’s best for both of them.”

Maria shook her head. “You’re so full of it. You’re thinking about what’s best for you.”

Isabel folded her arms across her chest, equally as stubborn as Maria. “You know what I find interesting?” she said. “This little conflict that exists between the three of us . . . it’s between me and you.” She motioned with her index finger between herself and Maria. “Not between me and Michael. You’re the one who makes things difficult. You’re the one who makes it impossible to have a civilized conversation. I mean, the other day when Michael stopped by my house and we talked, it was . . .”

Maria shot a devastated look over at Michael. He just stood there and pressed his lips tightly together, ashamed that she’d just found out about that this way.

“Oh, I’m sorry,” Isabel apologized unapologetically. “I thought you two didn’t have secrets.”

He sighed heavily, and she kept staring at him in disbelief. He felt like scum for keeping that from her, and he felt even worse now that she knew about it. “Maria, I--”

She turned and ran back inside, slamming the front door behind her, giving him no chance to explain.

“Real slick, Isabel,” he commented.

“I’m sorry, I really thought you told her,” she insisted. “Oh, well. It’s probably best that she knows. Honesty’s the key to any good relationship. Or so I’m told.”

He rolled her eyes. It would have been nice to blame all this on Isabel, but she technically hadn’t done anything wrong. He was the one who’d lied by omission.

“Think about what I said, and get your girl to come around,” Isabel told him. “Goodnight, Michael.” She turned and headed through the yard to her car on the side of the street. She looked . . . pleased with herself.

Michael stood alone in his front yard as she drove off and tried to think about what he could say to Maria to make up for what he’d done. He didn’t have much practice in this arena. Fighting wasn’t the norm for them.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Maria knew it was only a matter of time before Michael tried to talk to her, and unsurprisingly, it didn’t take him long at all. He came upstairs about a minute after she ran up there and crashed on her bed.

“Maria?” he said quietly.

She lay on her side, facing away from him and crying as quietly as she could. “I don’t wanna talk right now,” she said, sniffing and wiping tears off her cheeks.

“Please.” He shut the bedroom door.

She sighed heavily and sat up, scooting towards the edge of the bed. “Why did you go see her?” she asked. “I mean, isn’t that the point of our restraining order, to not see her?”

“Yeah, but . . . I had to.” He winced. “That didn’t sound right.”

“You’re damn right it didn’t sound right,” she said. “It sounded like a line out of a cheesy romance novel.”

“Okay, but do you remember when she as the one to help me with Augustus? I had to thank her.”

“That’s why they invented this little thing called texting.”

“I couldn’t thank her in a text message.”

“Why not?” she demanded, thinking a text message would have been perfectly reasonable. “She probably didn’t even do much.”

“She slept with him,” he blurted.

Maria almost laughed. “That doesn’t surprise me. She’s a big whore.”

Michael looked a bit flabbergasted. “Well, that wasn’t my reaction. I felt horrible because I was the one to ask her to help.”

“But you didn’t ask her to do that.” There was no reason for him to feel guilty.

“It doesn’t matter,” he argued. “I thought the least I could do was go by and thank her face-to-face. So I did.”

She didn’t even know what to say. This whole day had been so ridiculous, and this revelation was adding to it. “Michael, you’re too nice. No amount of good deeds will ever make up for the bad she’s done. This is the person who tried to trick you into raising a child that wasn’t even yours. This is the person who tried to convince me to have an abortion. She doesn’t deserve your thanks for anything. God, and I can’t believe you lied to me about it. That’s shady, and that’s not you. Why would you lie?”

“I don’t know,” he answered cluelessly. “I thought you’d be mad . . . kinda like you are right now.”

She rolled her eyes. Of course she was mad. She just found out he’d kept this a secret from her.

“I should’ve told you,” he admitted. “I don’t know why I didn’t.”

“Is that why you’ve been acting weird lately?” she asked. “Is that why you didn’t wanna have sex?” Oh god, she worried, was he thinking about Isabel?

“I didn’t feel like myself,” he explained. “I didn’t wanna . . . you know, if I felt that off.” He made his way towards her and knelt down in front of her, placing one hand on her knees. “Maria, I don’t wanna lie to you, not now, not ever.”

“So don’t,” she suggested. “Tell me the truth about stuff. Don’t let me hear it from Isabel. God, how is it that she’s more honest than you are?”

“She’s not.”

“Right now she is.” There wasn’t a doubt in her mind that Isabel had told her on purpose, that this conflict between the two of them was exactly what she’d been hoping for. If Michael had been honest with her from the start, there wouldn’t have been any conflict. “God, I’m so angry at you right now. The day wasn’t bad enough, you had to throw this in there, too?” It wasn’t the fact that he’d gone to see Isabel that distressed her so; it was the fact that he hadn’t told her about it.

“I’m really sorry,” he apologized.

“You should be. It’s not like this was a little secret; it was a big secret. I can’t believe you.”

“I know there’s no excuse,” he said. “I’m sorry. I knew you’d be upset because I know how much you hate her.”

Something about the way he said that struck a nerve. “I hate her?” she echoed questioningly. “I thought we hated her.”

He didn’t say anything.

Unbelievable, she thought, her mouth hanging open in shock. Everything about the day had been fucking unbelievable, and not in a good way. “I think you should sleep on the couch tonight,” she suggested.

He looked stunned, and he had good reason to be. For four years, they’d shared a bed, rarely ever sleeping separate.

She lay back down and rolled over onto her right side, resuming the position she’d been in before he came to talk. She waited until he left the room to start crying again.










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Part 48

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Before I post . . . guess what happened to me. My computer has SELF-DESTRUCTED. Okay, I might be over-exaggerating. I'm not sure. But the thing won't even power up at all. I've only had it for about 3 years, but whatever has happened to it is by far the worst thing that's ever happened to it. I had to drop it off at a tech place. They're thinking it's some kind of hardware problem. I'll either have to pay to get it repaired or, if that's going to cost too much, just get a whole new computer. Stress, stress.

Thank God I had this story backed up on my flash-drive. I was really stupid, though, and I never backed up my entire system on a CD of any kind, so if I were to have to get a new computer, I will lose all the clips I use for my music videos, plus all the music videos themselves (though most are up on Youtube.) I would lose a couple of MP3s that I neglected to burn to a CD, and sadly, I would lose all the feedback I had saved from this fic. That would be the major bummer. I can re-purchase those MP3s and re-download the clips, but if I lose that feedback, I imagine it's pretty much just gone.

Anyway, I suppose that if this had to happen, it's better that it happens to me now than during my last year of college. Still, it sucks. That computer is like a child to me. I worry about it when it's not up to its full strength.
:(

Oh, and of course I had these big plans to get lots of writing done this week. That's all pretty much shot to hell now. Whatever.


Rodney: Isabel really did seem more concerned with upsetting Maria and using her child's running away as a chance to get closer to Michael than she was about Garret. Sad. Just sad.

Farrah:
I hope I don't get my head taken off for this - but I found Maria a bit annoying in this part. Overly emotional.

Immature.

Now - I admit - I'd be terrified if one of my kids were missing. But, I'm more of a triage personality - find them first, do what needs to be done, then lose my shit. What I found annoying was, as upset as she was, she wasn't helping her daughter by acting like a basket case.

I knew a girl once who did not handle crisis well. So much so, that once, when her son was choking, she went screaming from the room - leaving the rest of us to help the poor kid. Which we did - he was fine. But I have a hard time respecting a mother who can't pull herself together enough to at least attempt to save her own child.

Maria's outburst rendered her inert - and actually distracted from finding the kids.

Then, when she found out that Michael lied to her - again - she was rightly devestated. But to cry and carry on and shut him out seemed very high school drama to me - not the actions of an almost wife and mother.
I'm not sure how I would react in that situation. I'm more of an anxiety-ridden, overly emotional personality than a triage personality, so I would probably be too dramatic, too. Sounds like you're a good person to have around in a crisis, though! Not me. I'd be crying and hyperventilating and need to be taken care of.

Ellie:
And if Michael needs a bed for the next few nights ... I'm offering up mine
Of course you are. :lol:

Novy:
I wrote my Ethical Theory paper last fall about honesty and way it's important and I had this whole section on why lying by omission was bad. It was fun to write. Very therapeutic for my circumstances at the time. So basically I don't feel sorry for Michael. He did a bad thing. When Isabel and Maria were going at it out front I just knew it would come up and if he just told Maria before hand, it wouldn't have been ammo for Isabel at all. That's wht lying by omission irritates me so, it's bloody unnecessary and it only just causes havoc. Unnecessary havoc is just so irrational to me.
I admire you for writing those kinds of papers! I wrote one philosophy paper last year. The professor told us that it had to be about either the morality of abortion or the legalization of drugs. So I did abortion. It was a kickass paper, but it was such a challenge to write. So much thought involved!

I agree with you, though, lying by omission is completely unnecessary. Michael really fucked up here and I don't feel sorry for him, either.

dreambeliever:
I have to agree with everyone here....Maria acted like a big drama queen, I mean yes your daughter is missing but sheesh pull it together and help look for her and the way she blamed Garrett, hey if they were friends in the first place....
Like I said to Farrah, I would probably have been overly dramatic in that situation, too. :lol: But that's just me. I'm a spaz.

Maria was stressed about a lot of things before this incident, so I think this just hit her really hard and elevated the stress to a whole new level.

Leila:
As for Maria; on the one hand I understand her behaviour while Miley was missing and on the other hand,I was a bit annoyed by her drama queen behaviour. Maybe their life is too perfect that they forgot how real life can be and any change in that, leads to panic.
I think you're right. Michael and Maria aren't used to dealing with this level of drama in their lives, because for the past three and a half years, their lives have been pretty good.
Anyway, this is my last feedback for the next 3 weeks. When I come back from my vacation; I'm looking forward to catch up. Yay!
Vacation? Lucky you! I haven't been on a vacation in three years. Let me know where you went and what you did! I'll miss you, stalker.

BB:
The good news is that Miley and Garret are safe and well, the bad news is that Isabel is too. Gah! She's got a tin can in the place where her heart is supposed to be. Her one redeeming feature was that she loved her son and I always imagined that if he was endangered, he'd be her number one concern. Turns out, not the case. Only Isabel could see her son's disappearnce as a good chance to get closer to Michael. I'm seriously starting to believe that she's actually insane.
I'm starting to believe she's insane, too. Or at least somewhat insane.

She loves Garret, but that love doesn't always come across because she's too busy being crazy. :?
I really don't like how easy it is for her to make trouble for Michael and Maria. After four years together, two children and the rock solidness that is their relationship, how can one sentance from Isabel result in Michael sleeping on the couch? It was one thing when they'd only been together for a few weeks and she'd shown up pregnant with 'his son'. She shouldn't be still able to come between them. I think it really goes to show just how insecure Maria is about everything.
I agree that this goes to show how insecure Maria is. I've been saying from the beginning that Maria's insecurities could cause some conflict.



Thanks for the feedback.

This is another music update. Today I'm recommending "Like a Stone" by Audioslave. Big song for a big part of this fic. Click on :? when you see it if you'd like to listen.

I should probably warn that this part contains some intense, dark, uncomfortable subject matter.









Part 48








The next day, Alex stopped by Michael and Maria’s house before heading to class. He still felt a little weird in their neighborhood, like he didn’t quite fit in because he had a drinking problem and lived in a shabby house; but ever since he’d crashed there that night that Isabel had kicked him out, he felt a little more welcomed.

He rang the doorbell, and heard Maria yell from inside, “Come in unless you’re Isabel.”

He opened the door and poked his head inside. “I’m her husband. Does that count?”

She was making breakfast in the kitchen. “No, you’re your own person, aren’t you?” she replied without glancing up at him.

“I try to be.” He wiped his shoes off on the welcome mat and shut the door. Macy was walking around in her playpen, carrying a pink and purple rattle. When Alex looked at her, he immediately thought of Caroline’s miscarriage. Logistically, he knew it was a good thing, but nothing like that could ever be good.

“Look, Maria, I wanna formally apologize for what happened yesterday,” he announced. “Garret said he was the one to convince Miley to take off. That’s so unlike him. I don’t know what he was thinking.”

Maria stopped what she was doing and looked up at him. He noticed her eyes were red and puffy. She was wearing wrinkled clothing, and her hair was little more than a mass atop her head. She looked like she hadn’t slept all night. “Miley almost got hit by a car,” she said angrily. “She could’ve gotten hurt or died.”

“I know. Max told me. It makes me sick just thinking about it.” He felt responsible because his kid was responsible.

“You don’t need to apologize,” she said. “I’m just glad they’re both okay.”

“Me, too.” He tilted his head to the side as he surveyed what she was cooking. Pancakes. They looked to have been in the frying pan so long now that they were getting burnt.

“Alex,” she said, turning the heat on the stove down, “did you know that Michael was at your house the other day, talking to Isabel?”

“What?” That didn’t make any sense. He’d thought that Isabel would boast and brag about something like that.

Just then, Michael came downstairs, looking just as tired as Maria, although he was dressed for work. “Hey, Alex,” he said. “How are you? How’s Garret?”

“Oh, he’s good,” Alex said, disregarding the question about himself. “A little embarrassed, but fine.”

“I’m glad to hear it.” Michael looked into the kitchen and asked Maria, “Are you making pancakes? They smell good.”

“These are for me and Miley,” she said, lifting the overbrowned pancakes onto two plates. “You can make your own.”

Michael just nodded as though he’d expected that.

Alex sensed a little hostility, and that wasn’t at all what he’d expected between Michael and Maria. He knew what they were like together. They didn’t usually have any negative energy at all. But negative energy was all he felt in that house in that moment.

“Alright, well, I think I’ll head out,” he decided, opting not to be there if they started fighting about something. “Bye, you guys.” Neither one of them said goodbye to him as he walked out the door. He shook his head in confusion, not sure what was going on there. Maybe Michael and Maria weren’t the perfect couple he’d thought they were after all.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael sat down at the kitchen table, watching Macy in her playpen. She was smiling and laughing at nothing in particular. He would have loved to laugh in that moment. Maria was obviously doing her best impersonation of a wall, not talking to him, and it was uncomfortable. Almost as uncomfortable as the couch had been last night.

“So I can take the girls to work with me today,” he said, trying to spark up some conversation. “I’m definitely not ready to put them back in that daycare.” That would be a long time coming, if ever.

“Actually, I’m gonna skip class today, so they can stay home with me,” she said in a rush.

“Oh.”

“Yeah.”

He didn’t want to say anything about her skipping class, because he knew it was probably just for this one day, but he didn’t want her making any rash decision to drop out of college just because of what had happened yesterday. “I could stay home, too,” he offered, thinking it might do them some good to have some family time.

“I don’t think that’s such a good idea,” she said, squirting a colossal amount of syrup onto the pancakes.

He sighed, rubbing his head. He hated that he’d given her reason to be so mad at him. “I’m sorry.”

“You already said that.”

“I don’t know what else to say.” He couldn’t take back his stupid decision to keep his visit with Isabel from her. If he could have, he would have, but what was done was done and now he had to deal with the consequences. “Come on, Maria. Let’s put this behind us. Thanksgiving’s coming up, and we have a lot to be thankful for.”

She put the syrup away, took a fork out of the silverware drawer, and sat down across from him with the plate of pancakes in front of her. She hesitated as she was about to dig the fork into them and slowly slid the plate across the table towards him, not saying anything.

He took it to be a sort of peace offering. “Thanks.” He took a bite and acted like they tasted good, even though they were burnt and tasted pretty bad. Pancakes were a start.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Isabel clamored across the bed for her phone after she got out of the shower. “Hello?” she answered breathlessly, hoping it was Michael.

“Isabel, it’s Arthur.”

Definitely not Michael.

“How are you?” he asked.

She brushed off the droplets of water on her arms and answered, “Wet.”

He laughed. “Okay. Well, I, uh . . . cancelled one of my meetings today. Would you like to come in at 1:30 to discuss getting your job back?”

She rolled her eyes at the way he phrased that. Discuss. There wasn’t going to be any discussion going on. “Sure,” she said, trying to sound excited. “I look forward to it.” She adjusted the towel atop her head, wondering how many times she was going to need to shower once she got home just so that she could feel clean again.

“I’ll see you then,” Arthur said.

She hung up the phone without another word. It sucked that she had to do this. She was smart and she was talented, but sex was the quickest, easiest way to get things done. Always had been.

She threw on her bathrobe and headed downstairs, unwrapping the towel from her hair so that she could dry it off. Alex sat on the living room couch, intently watching an ESPN classic football game between two SEC teams, Florida and somebody he probably hated.

“Will you be here at 1:30?” she asked, sitting down on the arm of the couch. Someone had to watch Garret while she was . . . out and away. “I have somewhere I need to be.”

“Where?” he asked, turning the volume up on the TV.

“Work.”

“You don’t have a job.”

“I will by the end of the day,” she said confidently.

He knew exactly what that meant, because he winced. “Yeah, I’ll be here. My British literature professor cancelled class. Something about his wife going into labor.” He traced his fingers over the number buttons on the remote, taking on a contemplative tone when he said, “You went into labor without me. I barely even got to the hospital in time to see Garret be born.”

“Don’t get me started on that,” she warned. That had easily been the worst day of her life, because it was the day Michael had slipped right through her fingers. And the labor itself, even though it had resulted in Garret, had been almost unbearable, and throughout most of it, Max had been the only person there. He wasn’t exactly the ideal birthing partner.

“Do you wanna know why I was upset about Caroline’s miscarriage?” he segued suddenly.

“Not really,” she replied bluntly.

“Because that was my chance to do things right,” he said anyway. “That was my chance to be a good dad; that was my chance to be a good man. That was my chance to quit drinking.” He sounded sad, disappointed.

“So you’d quit drinking for the child who doesn’t exist but not the one who does?” she asked accusingly. That didn’t seem right.

“I wish I could,” he said, “but I can’t. Not while I’m married to you.”

She narrowed her eyes at him. “So would you have left me if Caroline hadn’t miscarried?” Reading between the lines, that certainly seemed like what he was saying.

“I don’t know,” he answered honestly.

“You’re not in love with her,” she pointed out.

“You’re not in love with me,” he shot back.

She smiled, seeing right through him. “But you’re in love with me. You wouldn’t have left.” He hated her, no doubt about that, but he would never get over her. She’d always have a part of him that he’d never given to anyone else. Because he was a sucker, and unlike Michael, he wasn’t able to move on.

“If that’s why I’m still with you, why are you still with me?” he asked.

She sighed heavily, often having wondered that herself. “It’s for Garret,” she said. “It’s all for Garret.” He was a good, innocent kid. He deserved a mother and a father, no matter how pathetic his father was. He deserved a roof over his head, too, which was why she was going to meet with Arthur Miller that afternoon and fuck his brains out.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

“So the short of it is, I made him sleep on the couch, ‘cause I was pissed,” Maria ranted to Tess as she folded her laundry around lunchtime that day. Tess was pretty much out soliciting business for her design studio that afternoon and had stopped by for lunch.

“Wow, that’s . . .” She trailed off.

“What? You don’t think I overreacted, did you?”

“Well . . .”

Maria shot her friend an incredulous look. “Oh, come on, Tess. You’d be mad at Kyle if he lied to you.”

“How did Michael lie?” Tess asked.

“Lying by emission or whatever.”

Omission,” Tess corrected.

“Whatever. You’d be mad.” Maria took one plain white sock out of the laundry basket—looked like one of hers—and tried to find its companion. Dammit, why did one sock always get lost in the laundry? Maybe Miley was right and they did have a monster in that house, an annoying sock-eating monster.

“Okay, yeah, I would be,” Tess admitted. “You’re right, you didn’t overreact, but . . .”

“But what?” Maria interrupted. “You’re supposed to be on my side.”

“I’m just not sure this is something that requires sides,” Tess explained. “I mean, why argue about something you don’t need to argue about?”

“Of course we need to argue about it!” Maria shrieked, throwing the lone sock down on the floor. “Keep this up and I’ll argue with you, too!”

“Listen, I’m anti-Isabel just like you are, but--”

Maria flung her arms around dramatically. “We’re not talking about Isabel; we’re talking about Michael.”

“No, we are talking about Isabel,” Tess insisted, “because if he’d gone to see anyone else, it wouldn’t be such a big deal to you.”

Maria pouted because that was true.

“Now obviously she’s a wretched person,” Tess acknowledged, “but she helped Michael out.”

“Because she’s obsessed with him!” That kind of thing didn’t deserve any gratitude; it deserved a restraining order, which they were supposed to be enforcing. “She didn’t even do anything! She just whored herself out like a prostitute!”

“Maria, sex is a big deal, no matter who you are,” Tess said softly. “You of all people should know that.”

Maria rolled her eyes. What Max had done to her was completely different from the choice Isabel had made.

“You know if Michael didn’t thank her, he wouldn’t be the man you love,” Tess said. “So if you can admit he was right to thank her and he knows he was wrong to keep it a secret from you, what’s there to fight about?”

Maria sighed heavily. Fighting was exhausting, and it made things so awkward and uncomfortable. She didn’t want to fight with Michael any more than he wanted to fight with her.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

( :? )

Everyone looked as Isabel when she strode into the office that day. They looked up from their computer screens with squinty eyes and ‘huh?’ expressions as if they didn’t understand what she was doing back there. When she bypassed them all and stopped at the closed door to Arthur’s office, however, they glanced away as if they knew what she was about to do, or at least suspected something. They were sheep, though, too timid to report any unethical activities. And since Arthur was co-owner of the entire company, there wasn’t really anyone they could report it to.

She glanced back at her empty cubicle. Her name card was still on the side, but it was misprinted as Isabel Whitman when it was supposed to be Evans-Whitman. What was the point of hyphenating your last name if everyone forgot the first half of the hyphen?

She took a deep, steady breath, and slowly reached for the doorknob. This was nothing new. Sex was just sex, and she could always pretend it was with Michael.

****

He was such a gentleman, walking her back up to her dorm room after their date that evening. Isabel was fairly certain she had never known a real-life gentleman before.

“So tonight was fun,” she said, leading the way down the hallway.

“Yeah, the movie was good,” Michael agreed, following her. His hands were in his pockets, his shoulders hunched. He was so nervous, had been all night. She liked that. A first date was meant to be accompanied by nerves.

“You were good, too,” she informed him, eliciting a questioning look. “Good company, I mean,” she clarified, although she suspected he was pretty damn good in bed, too. He had a virgin vibe about him, but that could be easily rectified and was, in a weird way, adorable.

“We’ll have to do this again sometime,” she suggested, stopping in front of the door to her dorm room, room 521 of the dreadful residence hall known as Sanderson.

“I’d like that,” he said, the relief showing on his face.

“Me, too.” She
really liked this guy. Even though she’d never been one to keep a steady boyfriend, that was going to change. Michael Guerin was worth it. Way too good-looking, intelligent, and mature to be a freshman, he was the total package.

And what a testicular package he had. His jeans were about a size too small and didn’t hide much.

“Well, goodnight.” She leaned forward and pressed her lips to his, feeling his surprise and elation as she kissed him. It definitely wasn’t his first kiss, because he knew exactly how to move his mouth and how to withhold his tongue, for the time being at least. But it was undoubtedly the first kiss that had mattered to either of them.

She smiled at him as she pulled away and figured it best to leave him wanting more. Had he been any other guy, she would have invited him in for a roll in the hay, but he didn’t seem like that kind of person. He probably wanted to have a deep, personal connection with anyone he was intimate with, and so far, they were well on their way to forming that connection. One date, and already the start of it was there.

She slipped inside her room and shut the door, a huge, joyous smile spreading across her face. She held her left hand to her heart, feeling it pound with excitement. It was long overdue that her heart got a workout like this.


****

“Isabel, I’m glad you came,” Arthur said, immediately clearing off his desk when she stepped into his office. Did he plan on fucking there?

“I haven’t cum yet,” she pointed out, forcing herself to sound enticing. She took off her fake white leather jacket and tossed it on the floor. “So how do you want it? Anal? Oral? Straight-up?” She locked the door into place. “I had my tubes tied, so you don’t have to bother with a condom unless you slept with the same prostitutes my brother did.”

“I don’t know,” he answered hesitantly. “I’ve never done this before.”

“Sex?” Then what had that line about being married and having grandchildren been about?

“Sex outside my marriage,” he corrected.

“Don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone,” she assured him. “I just want my job back.” It was a shame that she had to resort to this once again.

“Then . . .” He reached into one of his desk drawers and took out a camera. “How about you take off your clothes? I’d love to photograph you.”

Kinky, she thought. But maybe if she got lucky, he’d be too nervous to have sex and would settle solely for photos. “Of course you would,” she played along. “I’m a beautiful subject.”

****

She pranced out into the living room wrapped in only a towel and jumped in front of him eagerly. She loved his new apartment and all the sexy fun they had within it.

“I don’t know, Isabel,” Michael said, “I’ve never done this before.”

“What, paint?”

“Paint a person . . . naked.” He blushed.

“You’re not just painting a person,” she reminded him, backing away. “You’re painting me, your favorite subject.”

“Yeah.” He got behind his easel and picked up a long drawing pencil first. “I just wanna make sure it looks like art and not porn.”

She dropped the towel without warning, and his eyes bulged.

“Wow.”

“What?” She put her hands on her hips. “Nothing you haven’t seen before, boyfriend.”

“Yeah, but I never get tired of seeing it.” He grinned at her and scraped his pencil against the canvas. Even though Isabel was just standing there, it was without a doubt the most exhilarating experience of her entire life.


****

With all the determination she could muster, Isabel removed her shirt. She smoothed her hands down her sides, over her hips, and around to the front of her jeans. She unfastened them and pushed them down to the floor, stepping out of them as elegantly and gracefully as she could. Arthur sat in his desk chair, staring at her as though he couldn’t believe what he was seeing. She pictured Michael standing behind his easel, and that made things a little easier.

She unhooked her bra, and as her breasts fell free, Arthur took a picture. The camera flashed, momentarily blinding Isabel, and for some reason, her father’s image filled her mind. She shoved it away and pictured Michael again. Arthur snapped another picture when she removed her panties.

Flash.

Daddy.

She shook her head, needing to concentrate. Arthur started taking pictures more rapidly as she let he own hands roam all over the curves of her body.

Flash.

Daddy patting Max on the back. The legacy.

Flash.

Daddy yelling at Mommy. The bitch.

Flash.

Daddy ignoring her when she tugged on his arm. The girl.

Isabel frowned and raked one hand through her hair. What was going on? She felt like she could barely even stand.

Flash.

Daddy coming into her room one night.

Walking towards her.

Shutting the door.

Mouthing “Shh” and pressing his finger to his lips.

Daddy getting into her bed with her.

So much bigger than her.

Taking her three year-old hands in his.

Making her touch him.

Squirming against him.

Trying to kick him.

“Shh” again.


Isabel wanted to scream as the images flooded her mind.

Daddy’s rough beard on her cheek.

Daddy’s strong hands on her wrists.

Daddy’s wide, inflamed eyes.

Daddy above her.

Tears on her cheeks.

An empty scream in her throat.

Pain in between her little legs.

Fear.


Flash.

Isabel stumbled backwards, barely catching her balance. For a moment, she didn’t even know where she was, or who she was for that matter. That hadn’t been a nightmare. That had been a memory.

Her heart was pounding now, too, but not for good reasons.

“Isabel, I don’t mean to sound impatient,” Arthur said, his voice a reminder of what she was supposed to be doing, “but . . . either get down or get out.”

She frowned. The words didn’t even make sense to her. Her mind was trapped in that bedroom as a little girl.

“Isabel.” He was still sitting in his chair, but his pants were down at his ankles now, and he was holding his miniscule dick in his hands. Blow job, she registered. The guy wanted a blowjob.

She couldn’t do that right now.

“I’m sorry,” she said, trying to cover up her naked body with her hands. “I have to . . . go.” She bent down and gathered up her clothing, putting it back on, wondering now why the hell she’d even taken it off in the first place.

“Where are you going?” Arthur asked, disappointment coating his voice. “I thought you wanted to . . .”

“I don’t want to,” she growled, seeing her father in his face. She wanted to picture Michael, but in that moment, she could barely even remember what he looked like. She tugged on her clothes as quickly as she could.

“Please don’t tell anyone,” he begged, sounding desperate.

Isabel grabbed her coat and ran out of the office. She was in such a hurry that she tripped over her own foot and almost fell. And the tears almost fell along with her. She had just remembered something that, for over twenty years, she hadn’t known had happened. It was almost as if she’d pushed it down, and all of a sudden it had just exploded all over her. All over her.

She stumbled towards the elevator and pushed someone aside on her way through the doors. She pressed the first floor button quickly, and the doors slid closed as the elevator started to take her down. Maybe if she went all the way down to hell, she’d find her father there. He couldn’t possibly be anywhere else. The man was a monster, even in death. He deserved to burn up forever until there was nothing left.

She felt like she was going to be sick, so she pressed the emergency stop button, and the elevator came to a screeching halt. She slumped forward against the right wall, slamming her fists against it. Her breath was coming in rapid, shuddering bursts, and she felt ice cold. She sank down in the corner and curled up in a ball, crying as the memory kept replaying over and over again in her head. All she could see was her father hurting her, and all she could hear was Caroline’s voice asking, “How’d you end up this way?”

Now she knew.








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Part 49

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Well, an update on my computer issue: It's a suckfest. The motherboard is screwed up, so I'm just going to buy a new computer. A Toshiba this time because I heard they're somewhat reliable. It was going to cost just about as much to fix my old one, so I figure a new one is the way to go. I'm hoping to get the hard-drive transfered over so that I don't lose some of my video, image, and document files.

In lighter news, I'm done teaching my classes for the summer, and all in all, they went pretty well! My internet access will be non-existent for the next couple of weeks, so I'll have to go to the library to update. I'll probably decrease updates to once a week for the next five or so weeks. Then when I get back to school, I'll update more frequently again.
:)

Ellie:
If you were going for shock value - I hand my hat off to you, you've done it!
Well, the shock value is always fun to play with as a writer, but more than anything, I wanted there to be a concrete reason for Isabel being the way she is. And now it's pretty clear that it all stems back to this horrible tragedy.

cjensen2:
So I am really annoyed that everyone is acting like Maria overreacted.
I really appreciate what you had to say about this whole issue. You know, I'm inclined to believe that, if I were in Maria's position, I would react very much the same way she did.
I hope they don't just brush this aside and pretend it never happened, as that will seriously damage their relationship in the long run; hopefully they will sit down and really talk about why they are both behaving and feeling the way they are. And I hope that Maria tries to confront her insecurities and really address them with Michael and also accepts the fact that he is not perfect without just letting him get away with his recent dishonest stupid behavior.
Michael and Maria are obviously way too solid to let this derail them, so they will try to be more open and honest with each other about how they're both feeling.
A long rant I know, but just frustrated with a lot of people in the story right now! Interesting and engaging stroytelling!
:lol: When it comes to my fics, "frustration" is always the word that comes to mind.

Novy:
That poor little 3 year old Isabel. It just explains so much. No wonder she latched on to Michael he was the only decent man she has ever known.
Exactly. She views Michael as, like, her savior or something.
I wish she would seek help but I doubt she would.
I think the only person she would be willing to seek help from is Michael, but after this fight with Maria, he's not going to be so quick to have anything to do with her.
Phillip Evans was a wicked evil man.
Definitely. More so than both Max and Isabel, he's the ultimate villain of the piece.

As for the Mac computer . . . hmm, you know, I always hear people say they are better, but I've been using them for the past five weeks during my classes, and I've been so frustrated with them. I never had any real serious issues, but it's just difficult for a PC user to switch over. It doesn't seem practical. There were lots of websites that I couldn't open and lots of simple things I couldn't do as well as I could on a PC, such as simply copying and pasting. But I got used to it and it got easier.

dreambeliever:
Maria needs to learn to be a little more secure in her relationship with Michael, I think Michael acts that way with Isabel because he's not worried about her breaking up him and Maria, he loves Maria...that's it. Nothing's going to change that for him, Isabel can act as crazy and psyco as she wants but at the end of the day Michael knows Maria is it for him.
Definitely. Michael has the upper hand here because he's the common denominator between Maria and Isabel; he's the one they both want. But he knows Maria is the only one he wants. Maria probably knows that, too, but it's hard to never have any insecurities.
Now Maria needs to learn this. I'm wondering why Maria herself has such insecurities?
I think it's probably just the fact that Michael was once in love with Isabel and ready to propose to her.

BB:
Argh! Now I feel totally sorry for Isabel. Damn you April.
Told you you would. ;)
I'm glad that Maria has decided to forgive Michael. Tess is right, Michael wouldn't be the man she loves if he hadn't thanked Isabel for what she did. It's just a shame that he didn't tell her the truth about it.
I think he's learned his lesson now.
I love how you contrasted the flashbacks between Michael and Isabel's dating and then bam - Daddy raping his three year old daughter. Totally wasn't expecting that.
Yeah, I really wanted that contrast. The best times of her life and the worst time.

Rodney:
You know what the bad thing here is? If Isabel tries to talk to anyone about this they will all think she is lying in order to get close to Michael.She's acted crazy so much and lied so much no one is going to believe her.
Yeah, they probably would. She's lied so much that no one would believe the truth when they hear it. And it's not like she has many options for people to talk to, either. Pretty much just Max, Alex, and Billy. :?



Thank you very much for the feedback! I appreciate it. That was a tough part to get through.








Part 49








When Michael got home early that evening, he was greeted by a hug from Maria. And not just a little hug, but a bear-hug. “Hey,” he said, a little surprised. He’d spent the better part of his day preparing an apology speech. Heck, he’d even written it down and done a second draft. But maybe that wouldn’t be necessary.

“Hey,” she returned, pressing the side of her face to his chest. “I’m not mad at you anymore.”

“You’re not?” He mentally tossed his apology speech out the window. “That’s good. What changed?”

“Nothing.” She tilted her head back to look up at him. “I just talked to Tess today and she made me realize we’re fighting about something completely meaningless.”

He frowned. “But I lied to you.” As much as he wanted to just agree with her, it wasn’t meaningless. If he’d just told the truth in the first place, it wouldn’t have even been a big deal.

“If that’s the worst thing you’ve done in all these years, I should be pretty damn grateful,” she said. “And I know you’ll never do it again. Unless I ask you, ‘Do I look fat today?’ in which case you’ll do well to lie.”

He chuckled and shook his head. “You’re not fat.”

“See? You’re good at it already.”

He placed his hands on her sides. She had such a tiny waist, but no matter how many times he tried to tell her that, she didn’t think it was true. Maria was a lot more insecure than she once had been, and it wasn’t necessarily a bad thing. It was just easier for her to be the wild, party girl she had been in high school and college than to be the responsible, priority-driven mom. But she was a good mom, and he respected her so much for that.

“Come here, sit with me,” she said, taking his hand and leading him to the couch.

“Where are the girls?” he asked, looking around. Macy’s playpen was empty.

“Upstairs, napping,” she replied, sitting down.

He sat down on the other side of the couch and lifted her legs onto his lap. “Did you have a good day with them?”

“Yeah, but I was afraid to let Miley out of my sight.”

He sighed. “What’re we gonna do about her?”

“I don’t know,” she answered honestly. “Wanna talk about it?”

“Yeah.” Maria couldn’t play the stay-at-home mom part forever. He wouldn’t let her, not when graduating was so important to her.

“I think . . .” She trailed off and rubbed the back of her neck. “I just want what’s best for her.”

“Me, too.”

“So . . . what’s best for her? Do we send her back to that daycare? I mean, you work, Tess works, I have school . . . and we looked at all those other daycares. Remember the one with the feces?”

“Hard to forget.” He was glad she had mentioned school, that she wasn’t giving up on that just because of what had happened yesterday. “I’ve been thinking about this today. If we send Miley back to Happy Hearts, they’ll watch her like a hawk. And that’s a good thing. And they’ll take really good care of Macy, too, ‘cause they’ll feel so guilty about what happened.”

“As they should.”

“Right.”

She groaned frustratedly. “We should’ve just enrolled her at that La Petite Academy.”

“Too late for that now.”

“Well, wherever we send her, Garret’s gonna be there,” she pointed out, “because Isabel’s craziness knows no end.”

Isabel. She’d been a sore spot in their lives for years, but they’d never actually talked about her that much. “You wanna know what I think?”

“What?”

“You’re gonna be mad,” he warned.

“I won’t be mad,” she promised.

In a perfect world she wouldn’t be. “I think Isabel’s right,” he declared bravely.

Maria pressed her lips together tightly and didn’t say anything. She looked . . . not mad, but not exactly thrilled, either.

“”This whole thing happened because we wouldn’t let Miley and Garret be friends,” he explained, “and we don’t want them to happen again. I don’t think we really have a choice, Maria. They’re gonna be friends no matter what. We’d might as well support it.”

She exhaled shakily and scooted closer to him. “It just makes me nervous.”

He nodded in agreement. “Me, too.”

“I don’t want her anywhere near Isabel,” she said. “You may like her, but I sure don’t.”

“I don’t like her,” he assured her. “I just don’t hate her the same way you do.”

She frowned in confusion. “But, see, I don’t get that. How many horrible things did she do to you?”

“A lot,” he admitted, “so maybe I should hate her, but I don’t. I’m sorry, I can’t.” Hate was a strong emotion, and even though she’d cheated on him and tried to trick him into parenthood, hate didn’t apply to her. He could deal with that; he could get over it. Someone like Max, on the other hand, who had done things to Maria without her consent . . . hatred was reserved for him.

“Why can’t you?” she asked.

“Because . . . I knew her when she was different. She used to be nothing like the person she is now. I loved her, as hard as that is to believe. It was nothing like the way I love you, but it was still love. You know?”

“No, you’re the only guy I’ve ever loved.”

He wished he could say he had only been in love once. His life would have been a whole lot easier if Isabel had never been in it. But things happened for a reason. He liked to think that his relationship with Isabel had prepared him for his relationship for Maria, which was better and more meaningful in every single way imaginable. “I just think it’s sad she turned out this way,” he said. “Because there was another path right in front of her, but she just didn’t take it.” He swallowed hard. “But having said all that, I agree, Miley shouldn’t be anywhere near her.”

“Ooh, this could get tricky, letting her be friends with the kid but keeping her away from the mom,” Maria remarked. “Although I guess Miley’s not the one Isabel’s interested in.”

“Well, I’m not interested in her, and I really think one of these days she’s gonna accept that.” He hoped for her sake that she would. Maybe she could turn her life around if she didn’t keep dwelling on the past.

“You really think so?”

“Yeah. And I really think it’ll work out fine to let Miley and Garret be friends.”

She maneuvered so that she was curled up on top of him, her left ear pressed against his heart. “You don’t think she’ll end up being a statistic?”

“A what?” he asked, stroking her hair.

“A statistic,” she repeated. “A teenage pregnancy statistic. I worry about that sometimes.”

“Oh, no, I will not let that happen,” he assured her. “I’ll put up an electric fence, get a gun . . . maybe a Rottweiler.”

She laughed.

“That’s not happening, I promise.” As much as he wanted grandchildren, Miley could be a virgin for life and he’d be happy. Or maybe at least a virgin until her mid-twenties or early-thirties.

“Everything’s gonna be okay, isn’t it?” she said quietly, sounding only the slightest bit unsure.

“Yeah, everything’s gonna be great.” He kissed the top of her head, feeling so much better now that they’d been able to talk through this issue.

“I’m sorry I made you sleep on the couch last night,” she apologized.

He smiled, feeling that he’d deserved it. “Wouldn’t have been so bad if you’d slept here with me.” He would have slept on a concrete slab as long as she’d been beside him. She was the love of his life, and unlike Isabel who made everything worse without even trying, she made everything better without even trying.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Phillip Evans’s grave was just as obnoxious as Phillip Evans the man. It was right at the entrance of the Veteran’s Memorial Cemetery, even though he hadn’t been a veteran. Somehow he’d still managed to convince someone to include him with the heroes. It was under the shade of two willow trees, and the headstone itself was the biggest one around, although the fact that the flowers around it were dead and wilted was a clear indicator of how much people hadn’t liked him when he’d been alive. His picture was on the center of the headstone, and he had a stupid, smug smile on his face. Below that were written the words, Beloved husband, trusted father, devoted friend.

What a crock of bullshit.

Isabel sat on the ground over his burial plot for hours that day, just staring at that picture and at those words. She was unreasonably afraid that his corpse was going to come back to life after all these years, reach one hand up through the ground, and grab her.

She heard a car door slam shut, but she didn’t turn around. She knew it was Max. She could smell his cheap cologne.

“What’re you doing here?” he asked, casting a shadow over her.

She shivered and pulled her jacket tighter. “I come here every month just to tell him how much I hate him.” Even over the flickering flames of hell, he had to hear her.

“Me, too.” Max removed the dead flowers from their holders and replaced them with cheap, plastic flowers that still had the ninety-nine cent price tag on them. Isabel smiled a little, knowing her father would be more appalled by fake flowers than by dead ones.

“Why do you hate him?” she asked. “He never did anything to you.”

“He paid attention to me, groomed me to be just like him.” Max groaned as he sat down beside her. “What’s worse, barely being a blip on his radar or being his right-hand man?”

She shot him a glaring look.

He shrugged. “Just putting things in perspective.”

“I wasn’t just a blip,” she said, wishing she had been. “Not always.” She wondered why he had chosen to put his hands on her instead of Max. Was it just because she was a girl? Was it because he’d disrespected her that much even at such a young age? Or was it just some sick and twisted inner desire to fuck a little girl? “He liked me better than you.”

“Are you kidding?” Max spat. “He hated you. The man wanted two sons. We both know that.”

“Well, he used what he got.” The guy had been . . . resourceful. If he’d had two sons, he’d probably never had tried his hand at sexual molestation. “I think he hurt me because he knew I was better than him,” she said, staring into the evil eyes of the man on the headstone. She wished she was strong enough to kick her foot right through his face.

“How’d he hurt you?” Max asked. “He just ignored you. Trust me, that’s a blessing in disguise.”

She closed her eyes, shaking her head slowly. He hadn’t ignored her. All her life, she’d thought he had ignored her, but he hadn’t. And now she wished she had.

“What’s wrong with you?” Max practically demanded. “You don’t look as intimidating as you usually do.”

“You think I’m intimidating?” Maybe she would have been warm and welcoming and sweet and friendly if she hadn’t been screwed up at such an early age. Or just plain screwed.

“Not to me,” Max replied, “but to some people.” He stretched his legs out in front of him, yawned, and casually asked, “What happened to that Caroline chick? Is she having the baby or having an abortion?”

“She miscarried,” Isabel replied, trying to apply some kind of terminology to what had happened that day. Repressed memories. That was it. She’d read about that in her freshman year psychology class. Sometimes they came to the surface out of nowhere.

“I wish Mom had aborted me.” The words left her mouth on their own accord and caused Max to face her with a look of disbelief.

“Isabel,” he said, actually sounding concerned. “What’s wrong?”

He had no idea. They were sitting there on top their father’s grave, and he had no idea what the man had done all those years ago. He had no idea just how horrible he was.

“I hate him,” Isabel growled, vowing to bring a shovel with her next time she came so that she could deface his headstone and maybe, while she was at it, dig up his grave, open his casket, and break all his bones. He deserved it.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

That night, Miley took it upon herself to help Macy paint. Michael and Maria sat on the floor of Michael’s studio room, watching their girls play together. Miley was making flowers next to her picture of Frank, and Macy was basically just finger-painting.

“No, Macy, you’re not doing it right,” Miley said, setting her paintbrush down. She clearly enjoyed being the older sister, being the one who knew how to do things, because she took Macy’s hand and pressed the palm of it into a mixture of blue and purple paint. Then she pressed Macy’s hand against the wall for her, leaving a tiny handprint behind. Macy clapped her hands excitedly and exclaimed, “Miley!”

Maria looked up at Michael and smiled proudly. This was the first time Macy had said her big sister’s name correctly. He looked proud, too, and squeezed her shoulders.

“See?” Miley said. “That’s how you do it.”

Macy put her hand on the wall again, leaving a fainter handprint this time. Miley rinsed off her hands in a bucket of water and dried them off with a paper towel. She was a real artist, just like her dad, and Maria had to admit that she was impressed by her painting of Frank. It was a hell of a lot better than most people could do.

“So cute,” Maria said under her breath. “Miley, come here. Bring your sister.”

Miley took Macy’s arm and helped her to stand on her feet. They walked hand-in-hand across the room towards their parents. Macy only tripped and fell once. She was getting as good on her feet as she was with her vocab.

“You’re doing really well on that wall,” Michael said, holding out his free arm for Miley to settle into.

“I know.” She curled up against him while Macy waddled over to Maria. Maria lifted her up set her down in between her and Michael. She immediately tried to crawl on Michael’s chest.

“Macy’s gonna be a big girl like me,” Miley said.

“Yeah, she is. She’s gettin’ there,” Michael agreed, rubbing Macy’s head. She was finally starting to grow some hair, much to Maria’s relief. “Listen, Miley, there’s something your mom and I wanna talk to you about.”

“Am I in trouble?” Miley asked fearfully.

“No. We just . . .” He trailed off and looked to Maria.

“We decided you and Garret can be friends,” Maria jumped in. The words hadn’t tasted as bitter on her tongue as she’d expected them to, though she still knew this was exactly what Isabel wanted.

“Really?” Miley’s face lit up.

“But we have conditions,” Maria added promptly.

“Right. First of all, whatever happened yesterday can never happen again,” Michael told her. “Ever. You can’t just take off like that, okay? That was really dangerous. You could’ve gotten hurt or lost or . . . and we don’t want anything bad to happen to you.”

“I’m sorry,” Miley apologized, her eyes downcast.

“It’s okay. Just promise not to do it again.”

“Promise.”

“Second,” Michael went on, “when you play with Garret, he can come over here, but you can’t go to his house.”

“Why not?”

“Because, sweetie, his mom’s not nice,” Maria reminded her. That was sure an understatement.

“And third . . .”

“Wait, we have a third?” Maria cut in.

“Oh, I do.” Michael looked his daughter right in the eye and sternly said, “No kissing.”

“What’s that?” Miley asked.

“Never mind.”

“Like what you and Mama do?” Miley made a disgusted face. “Ew!

“That’s right, ew,” Michael agreed readily. “You don’t wanna do that. That’s gross. I only do it ‘cause I have to. But it’s not fun, trust me. All slimy and slobbery and--”

“Okay, Michael, she gets it,” Maria cut in. Their kisses were electric and he knew it.

“Don’t worry, Daddy. I’ll never kiss anyone,” Miley promised, resting her head on his chest.

He smiled and held her close. “That’s what I like to hear.”

Maria rolled her eyes and shook her head, unable to suppress a smile. Michael had definitely always had the protective father vibe going on, but more so now that Garret was in the picture. She didn’t go quite as far as he did—she wanted Miley to fall in love and have amazing kisses and amazing babies as a result of them someday. Just so long as that day was a few decades down the road yet.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Max couldn’t believe what he read in the newspaper that evening. Roger Lanton of all people had hit it big on the stock market. The guy was a complete tool, but now, even though he was out of a job, he was still a millionaire. Some things just weren’t right.

“Ow,” Liz yelped as she took her dinner out of the microwave.

He glanced up from the paper. “What?”

“I burnt my hand on a Hot Pocket.” She ran her right index finger under cold water as the Meatball Mozzarella Hot Pocket sizzled in its sleeve beside her. “Remember when we used to get meals prepared for us?”

“Faintly.” He really wished he hadn’t taken being rich for granted. He flipped to the next page of the paper and came face to face with the always entertaining obituaries. One was for an old guy who’d been stabbed to death by his daughter.

Hmm.

Max set the paper down. “Liz?”

She turned off the sink. “What?”

“Do you ever wonder about Isabel?”

“Wonder what about her?”

“Just what she’d do if she was pushed over the edge,” he replied with a shrug, “what she’s capable of.”

“Um . . . well, yeah, I guess.” Liz furrowed her brow in concentration as she struggled to get the overcooked Hot Pocket out of its cooking sleeve. “I mean, she pretty much single-handedly ruined your company by talking to that magazine, and that’s why we had to move here.” She slumped in frustration when she accidentally dropped the entire Hot Pocket on the floor.

“Five-second rule,” he said.

“Right.” She quickly bent down and picked it up, brushing it off. “So, yeah, I’d say she’s capable of a lot. Why do you ask?”

“‘Cause I ran into her today at my dad’s grave. She was pretty out of it,” he explained, “kinda off in her own head.”

“Why?”

“I don’t know. Probably just Michael withdrawal.”

“Probably,” Liz agreed. She took one bite of her dinner, wrinkled her nose in disgust, and tossed it in the trash.

“Kinda freaked me out, though,” he admitted, glancing through the obits again. “You know, I used to wake up and wonder, ‘Is today the day my sister’s gonna kill me?’ ‘Cause I really thought she would. But I get it now: She doesn’t wanna kill me. She wants to kill my dad.”

“He’s already dead,” Liz pointed out.

“Exactly. How’s she ever supposed to feel better?”

“I guess she won’t.”

“I almost feel bad for her.”

“Almost?”

“Yeah. There’s only so much she can blame on him. The rest is on her.” There came a point where Daddy issues just no longer sufficed as an excuse for bad behavior. Hell, even Max could admit that he hadn’t raped girls solely because of his dad, but because of himself. He was a bad guy, or at least he had been. Maybe that kind of thing was hereditary regardless of gender. “I just worry about Garret. I don’t want her to mess him up, too.”

“Yeah,” Liz agreed. “He’s like a son to you.”

Son. Max flinched. “Let’s not talk about that.” He could find other jobs, and he could find other places to live. But a son, or a child of any kind . . . now there was one thing he’d never have.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Michael was asleep that night when his cell phone rang. Both he and Maria groaned and stirred. Who was calling so late?

“Sorry,” he said, reaching over her to grab his phone off the nightstand. He squinted his eyes against the bright caller ID. Isabel. Great.

“Who is it?” Maria asked.

There wasn’t a chance in hell he was going to answer that call, not when he and Maria had just gotten back on good terms again. “It’s not important,” he dismissed, turning off his phone. He tossed it back onto the nightstand and lay back down behind her, wrapping his arms around her waist. She snuggled against him and moaned contentedly, and he fell back asleep, pushing all thoughts of Isabel out of his mind.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Voicemail. Isabel hated voicemail, especially when she knew she was only getting it because the person she was trying to call was screening. The one good thing about it was that Michaels voice sounded so sexy on his voicemail. She didn’t leave a message, though. What would she have even said? ‘Hey, Michael, I wanted to talk to you about my dad, who, as it turns out, passed the rapist gene onto Max. I know because I lived it.’

She rolled her eyes and dialed Billy’s number, at a loss for what else to do. She was sitting up in her bedroom, all alone, and she felt . . . vulnerable. She hated feeling that way. Maybe if someone was with her, she’d feel better. Billy was a poor substitute for Michael, but there wasn’t a doubt in her mind that if she called, he’d come running.

“Yeah?” he answered his phone.

“Hey, it’s me,” she said, hating that his voice no longer comforted her the way it had before he’d played that song for her. “Can you come over? I really need someone to talk to.”

He was silent for a moment, and then he said something that shocked her: “No.”

“What?” she spat. Did she need a hearing aid or something? Because Billy would never . . .

“I’m not gonna be that guy you go to as a last resort.”

“Billy, I’m serious. I really need to talk.” If he knew what was going on, he wouldn’t even give it a second thought. Maybe it was stupid to want to talk about sexual abuse with someone who’d tried his hand at it in the past, but . . . well, he was her last resort in that way.

“You wanna talk?” he growled. “Then find someone else to listen.”

“No, Billy!” She started to cry when he ended the call. She threw her phone on the floor and curled up on her side, bawling. Crying wasn’t good. Crying wasn’t strong. Crying was something she’d done when her father had been . . .

She clutched her bedspread tightly to her chest and cried harder.

“Isabel, are you okay?”

She sucked in a sharp breath when Alex came into the room. “Go away,” she ground out.

“What’s wrong?” He sat down on the side of the bed and placed a hand on her hip. “Do you wanna talk?”

She flinched away from him. “Not to you.” He was her last last resort.

“Well . . . I’m here,” he offered.

“I don’t care.” She threw the covers back and bolted out of bed. She ran into the bathroom and slammed the door, locking it. Maybe it was a little too Lifetime movie of her to want to get in the shower and scrub until she felt clean again, but that was exactly what she was going to do.








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Well, I have good news! I got my new computer, and I was able to have the Geek Squad guys at Best Buy transfer my hard drive from the old one over to the new one. So I've got all my documents (including all the saved feedback you guys have left over here), all my pictures, all my videos, and all my music. What a relief! The only downside to this computer is that the speakers aren't fantastic, but I can manage. :)


Ellie:
I'm happy that Maria and Michael made her realize the error of her judgment and are letting her be friends with Garret, but with conditions. Can a 3 yr old understand conditions though? I guess we'll soon see.
I think Michael and Maria will make sure she understands those conditions. Letting her be friends with Garret is nerve-wracking for them.
Hmmm ... I wonder if Max will be the one to find out what happened between Isabel and Philip? It looks like he's curious to find out, but why? For use as ammunition or to possibly help her?
As much as Max hates Isabel and she hates him in return, they have this very odd sibling bond, and sometimes they do care about each other. They're the only two people in the world who can know what it's like to grow up with Phillip Evans as a father, so they'll always be bonded in that way whether they like it or not. Now whether Max or anyone will find out what happened to Isabel . . . well, that remains to be seen.

Novy:
I wonder if what Max said, about what Isabel could potential do if driven far enough is a foreshadowing of something. But who would she kill? Alex?
Well, I do love a good foreshadowing. Isabel's capable of anything, but I think she would have to be completely insane to kill anyone. She's smarter than that. She'd probably try to convince Billy to do it for her.
I thought the Mac would be trouble some in that way as well. I don't know if I would get use to it.
Well, I don't know what Windows version you're using right now, but I just started using Windows 7, and that version sort of has a Mac-ish feel to it, just to give you an idea.
Enjoy your time off. I'll be heading out next week so I guess I won't miss too much but I'll still have to catch up a bit when I get back in a few weeks.
Well, you enjoy your time, too! I'll miss you!

BB:
I think that allowing Miley and Garret to be friends is a smart move. Yeah it gives Isabel an in, but it stops her from being able to use it to creat problems.
I pretty much agree. Isabel was going to find a way in no matter what. At least now that they've made this decision, Michael and Maria have the control.
I think I might be the only one who enjoys the Max and Liz scenes. I get such a sense of schadenfreuden from them.
Schadenfreuden? What does that mean? :lol: And yeah, you might be the only one who enjoys the Max and Liz scenes. ;)

Rodney:
I'm sorry but after every thing she has done,after everything she has said to him I still can't understand why Alex still cares about her and wants to help.
Alex is quite the twisted individual, too. He's still in love with a woman who constantly berates him, cheats on him, and drives him to drink. He just can't stop.


Thanks for the feedback.

This part is a little longer than usual. I just couldn't find a good place to chop it off. Anyway, there is some enjoyable stuff in this one, so enjoy!








Part 50








As Liz approached the bus stop outside the Education and Human Sciences building, she saw Maria standing near the edge of the sidewalk, talking on her phone, seemingly to her brother. Even though Liz was well aware of the fact that she had become one of Maria’s least favorite people over the years, she decided to go talk to her anyway.

“Thanks for watching the girls today, Marty,” she heard Maria saying as she neared. “I’m just not ready to send them back to that daycare yet.” A slight pause, and then she said, “Well, what am I supposed to do? A nanny, huh? Oh, a manny.” She laughed. “You? Well, maybe if you weren’t so busy with the club and your boy-toy Jimmy.”

Liz tapped her on the shoulder, trying to get her attention, but she didn’t seem to notice her.

“Oh, he’s upgraded to boyfriend status now, is he? You haven’t had one of those since Francis. Good for you, you sexy beast.”

Liz tapped Maria’s shoulder again and spoke up. “Hey, Maria.”

Maria turned to face her, looking annoyed. “Ugh, okay, I’m gonna have to call you back,” she said to Marty, pocketing her cell phone. “Liz. You’re here. Talking to me.” She narrowed her eyes suspiciously. “Why?”

“I just wanted to see how you were doing,” she started in. “The other day was really intense, with Miley and Garret.” She’d gone out and looked for them, too, but she didn’t feel the need to mention it. “Also, I just wanted to say hi.”

Maria didn’t seem to buy it. “Why else?”

“Now why do you assume I have an ulterior motive?”

“Maybe because you’re married to the king of ulterior motives,” Maria answered sharply. “‘Hey, Maria, have a drink with me. Nothing will come of it.’”

Liz hung her head, guilty on behalf of her husband for what he’d done in the past.

“Sorry,” Maria apologized. “I’m a little on edge right now. I just met with my unit plan group, and I pretty much wanna kill them all.”

“Well, some rage is healthy rage,” Liz assured her. “I feel that way in my classes sometimes. Grad school sucks. I mean, I love it, but it’s way harder than undergrad.” She remembered that she was talking to an undergrad and tried to rephrase. “Not to insinuate that undergrad’s easy for everyone. Not to insinuate that it’s hard for you.” She sighed in frustration, hating that everything came out wrong around Maria. With Tess, it was different because they worked together and had developed a rapport over the years despite their history. Maria was just . . . intimidating, and she probably didn’t even realize it. “Were we ever friends?” she asked helplessly.

“Briefly. Unfortunately,” Maria muttered. “Not that I don’t sympathize with the rigors of grad school, but I’m taking four classes. How many are you taking?”

“Two. But the workload’s intense,” she insisted.

“Try raising two kids on top of it.”

Liz flinched. Kids. “Yeah, I guess I don’t have to worry about that.”

Maria nodded. “Well, nice talking to you. I gotta go.” She started to walk away, but Liz jumped in front of her.

“Oh, wait. I was just wondering if you might know anybody in need of an interior designer.”

“And the ulterior motive comes out,” Maria declared. “I knew it would.”

“I’m just trying to salvage my job,” she said. “Tess is gonna have to close down the studio if I don’t find her a customer ASAP.”

“Well, I can’t think of anyone off the top of my head. Didn’t you used to be rich? Why don’t you talk to one of your snooty friends? I’m sure there’s somebody out there right now going, ‘Dear lord, this wallpaper simply will not do. Dear lord.’ In a British accent like that, you know?”

“Max and I don’t really have any rich friends anymore,” she admitted. “Actually, we don’t have any friends at all. It’s kinda depressing.”

Maria rolled her eyes.

“See, the thing about rich people is, when you’ve got money, they love you. When you’re living in a cockroach-infested trailer and burning your fingers on Hot Pockets, not so much. It’s this whole phenomenon,” Liz explained, desperate for a little assistance . . . even though she was technically supposed to be the assistant.

“Hot Pockets can be tricky,” Maria said, sounding . . . not sympathetic, but maybe a little empathetic. “Okay, I’ll spread the word, let you and Tess know if I hear anything. I don’t want her to have to close down her studio.”

“Thank you so much, Maria.”

“On one condition,” she added hastily. “If you and Max ever reproduce, by no means enroll your kid in my kindergarten class.”

Liz felt her stomach tighten every time kids were mentioned, but she tried not to show it. “Yeah, that . . . that won’t be a problem,” she assured her. They probably would have made horrible parents anyway.

“Good. Well, this was fun, Liz. Let’s never do it again.” Maria whirled around and walked off. Liz just stood there, feeling alone even though there were dozens of people around her. Maria had a lot of sides to her, the most prevalent one being the maternal side these days, but it was the bitchy side that Liz knew so well. Maria had no reason to be nice to her; she was, after all, married to the girl’s rapist. But at the end of the day, it would have been nice to have a friend. Friends were one of the many things she was lacking.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Isabel dropped Garret off at daycare that day, confident that Pam wouldn’t let him out of her sight. Miley wasn’t there, which was a disappointment, but to be expected. After that, she went and picked up some job applications, most of them secretary positions. Clearly she’d fucked up her chance to get back on at Arthur’s firm by letting herself get all worked up and emotional. She’d done a lot of thinking about her knew companions, the repressed memories, last night, and she knew that she was going to need to push them out of her mind and be like ice sometimes, cold and unfeeling. If she had to sleep with someone to get another job, she’d do it. Apparently sex had always been her specialty.

After collecting a few applications, she went to Michael’s gallery. Restraining order be damned. Nothing could restrain her, and nowadays, it didn’t seem that Michael was trying. He was busy when she got there, talking to a few customers, showing them a painting on display that couldn’t even compare to his own artwork.

“Beautiful artwork for a reasonable price,” he was saying. “You can’t beat that. Let’s move on down the line, though. There’s another painting I want you all to see.”

“Michael.” She walked up to him as his customers moved on to the next painting. They were talking amongst themselves and all looked plenty capable of examining artwork on their own. They certainly wouldn’t mind if she stole him away for a minute.

“What’re you doing here?” he asked.

“I thought we could talk. About our kids.” Our kids. She let the words ring through her mind, knowing they wouldn’t sound right to him. “I mean, about your kid and my kid.” Garret should have been their kid. If only, if only.

“I’m working,” he said. “I can’t talk right now.”

Of course the one time that customers happened to be in that gallery just so happened to be the time that she was there, too. Unfortunately, Kyle didn’t appear to be around to pick up the slack. “I called you last night,” she said, not willing to let the conversation end just yet.

“I know,” he said, almost as if he wanted to make sure she knew he’d deliberately not answered. Well, that was disheartening.

He turned and took a few steps towards his customers, then came back to her and suggested, “You and Alex should come by my house tonight. Maria should be there. The four of us can hash things out.”

“Right. The four of us.” She hated that number. Two was a much better one. But any invitation to spend time with Michael wasn’t something she was about to pass up. “I’ll be there.” There wasn’t a chance in hell she was going to let Alex know about it, though.

“Good. I’ll see you tonight,” he said, making his way back over to his customers. “Sorry about that,” she heard him apologize.

Oh, don’t be sorry, she thought. The man had just made her day. Now she had something to look forward to.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

When Tess got home that evening, she announced her presence. “Husband, I’m home. And I could use a foot rub.” She’d been out and about all day hanging up fliers for her business and trying to solicit customers, and she’d worn the mistake of wearing stiletto shoes. Dumb. Just dumb. “Kyle?” she called, kicking off the dreadful torture devices otherwise known as high heels. “Are you home? No?” She’d really been hoping he would have gotten home already. He was supposed to be spending less time at work lately.

Just as she was about to resign herself to a self-given foot rub, Kyle came bounding downstairs, looking excited to see her. “Hey, I’ve got a surprise for you.”

“A foot rub?” she asked hopefully.

“Better,” he promised.

“What could be better? Sex?”

“Come on.” He grabbed her hand and led her upstairs.

“Sex,” she decided. Had to be. Although his clothes were covered in light green paint, and he’d even smeared some on his cheek. Had he painted something for her? It had been so long since he’d created any art of his own.

He stopped in front of the closed door to their storage room and instructed, “Close your eyes.”

“What’s going on?” That room was a mess. They didn’t have a basement, so it pretty much housed all their crap.

“Just close ‘em.”

She didn’t know what was awaiting her on the other side of that door, but she had a feeling it was something good. She closed her eyes, starting to get a little excited herself.

“Come on,” he said, guiding her into the room. “Keep your eyes closed. Don’t peek.”

“I’m not,” she assured him, although it was tempting. She walked with him, a little nervous that he was going to steer her into those boxes of Beanie Babies she’d never been able to get rid of. If the Beanie Babies fell out of that box, it would take years to get them all back in there.

“Alright,” he said, slowing letting go of her hands. “Open your eyes.”

She did, and her heart swelled with adoration when she saw where she was standing. It wasn’t just a storage room any longer. It was a nursery, a perfect, beautiful nursery. He’d put a tan rug down on the hardwood floors, and the walls were no longer a dingy grey but rather the same shade of pastel green that was all over his clothes. All the things that a baby would need—a crib, a changing table, a rocking chair, a play pen, and toys—were there. Tess recognized a lot of items from her own nursery from way back when. Kyle must have convinced Ed to send those things down. Some of the furniture looked new, though. When had he bought that? He was full of surprises.

“Oh my god, Kyle,” she gasped in astonishment. “This is amazing. You did this?”

“Yeah, all by myself.” He smiled proudly. “Stayed home from work and did it today. So don’t touch the walls. The paint’s still wet.”

“You did such a good job,” she told him, peering down into the empty crib. The only thing that could make that room more perfect was a baby to go in it.

“Well, I am a painter at heart. Is green okay? I figured it’s neutral gender-wise.”

“Green’s perfect.” The only color that was better was hot pink, but this was much more calming, way more appropriate for a nursery. “I can’t wait ‘til there’s a baby crawling around in here, playing with these toys.” She picked up a teddy bear that looked like it was brand new from the Build-a-Bear factory—Kyle had probably had a blast with that—and squeezed it happily. “Tyler or Annie. It’s the perfect nursery for any baby.” She set the bear back down and hugged her husband. “Thank you so much, Kyle. I love it. I love you.”

He rubbed his hands up and down her back, then kissed her cheek. She took it a notch further and kissed his lips, and within moments, they were toppling over onto the floor, tearing each other’s clothes off. This room had never been properly christened like the other rooms. It was time for that to change.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

After work that day, Michael got home and relieved Marty of his babysitting duties. Marty made his typical remarks about the size of his package, called him Big Boy a few times, gushed about his new boyfriend, and then told Miley to show off the Pussycat Dolls routine he’d taught her that day. Once he’d left, Miley confessed that she’d forgotten he entire dance, and for that, Michael was relieved. She wasn’t supposed to start that slutty dancing stuff until middle school at the earliest.

They kicked their feet up and watched some Wheel of Fortune while Macy sat in her playpen with Frank. She pet him and pinched him, and he just lay there and took it.

“B,” Miley shouted at the TV. She’d loved Wheel of Fortune for awhile now, probably mostly because of the bright colors and the spinning wheel, but she was at the age now where she was staring to understand what it was about.

“B’s already up there,” he pointed out, happy to help her out with this show if it assisted her in learning the alphabet. She already knew how to say the alphabet. She just wasn’t sure what all the letters looked like yet.

“Oh. A,” she said instead.

“You don’t get any money for vowels,” he reminded her.

“E.”

“That’s a vowel, too. Try G,” he suggested. It was one of the What Are You Doing? puzzles. There was always a G in those ones.

“G,” Miley chirped, sitting on the edge of her seat.

“G?” one of the contestants asked.

“There is one G,” host Pat Sajack revealed as Vanna White walked to the other end of the board to flip over the letter.

“Good job,” Michael said, squeezing his daughter’s shoulders. He noticed Macy was chewing on one of Frank’s ears—she was at that stage where she liked to chew on everything—so he laughed and said, “Look at your sister.”

“She’s weird,” Miley said. “Macy, stop! Come here, Frank!” She patted her leg, but Frank didn’t move.

“He likes it,” Michael said, pretty sure that their dog would put up with anything either of those girls dished out. “Macy, really, stop, though,” he said. Frank liked to roll around outside. Who knew where his ear had been.

Macy stopped chewing and looked at him as though she were in trouble.

“Yeah, I’m talking to you.” His phone rang, so he got up and answered it while Miley’s eyes remained glued to the TV. “Hello?”

“Hey, it’s me,” Maria said.

“Hey, are you on your way home yet?” He glanced at the clock. It was getting near dinnertime.

“I wish,” she groaned. “You know how I was supposed to meet with the sorority bitches at 4:30? Well, lo and behold, here it is 5:30 and they haven’t shown up. They texted me and said they’d be here soon. I hate them.”

So did he, and he’d never even met them. “People who aren’t punctual are really the worst kind of people.”

“Hey, watch it, I’m not punctual sometimes.”

He shrugged. “You get a free pass ‘cause you’re hot.”

“Oh, thank you. Listen, if it gets to be 6:00 and they’re not here, I’m leaving. You’re probably gonna have to make the girls dinner tonight.”

“Yeah, I will. Hey, you remember Isabel and Alex are coming by tonight to talk about . . . stuff, right?”

“Oh, crap,” she swore, “I totally forgot. If I’m not home when they get there, can you just handle it?”

“Yeah, sure.”

“Okay. Sorry to put all that on you, but at least Alex will be there.”

“No, it’s fine.” It was actually probably going to go a lot smoother this way, no threat of a catfight breaking out. “I’m sorry your group sucks.”

“Yeah, me, too. I’ll be home later. I love you.”

“I love you, too.” He ended the call and went back into the living room, checking out the Wheel of Fortune puzzle. There were quite a few more letters up there now. He knew what the answer was, but he didn’t want to tell Miley. “You’d better solve that puzzle,” he told her.

“I will,” she promised. “G.”

He laughed as the doorbell rang. He anticipated that it was Isabel, and he was right. In fact, it was only her. She’d curled her hair and dressed up for this in a form-fitting brown dress. Great.

“Hey,” she said, peering over his shoulder into the living room. “Where’s Maria?”

“She’s running a little late.” To be honest, he hadn’t been expecting her before dinner. He was hoping she’d come by after Miley was asleep. “Where’s Alex?”

“He couldn’t make it,” she replied. “He was . . . well, he was drunk. That’s been his problem for the last four years.”

Michael didn’t know much about alcoholism, but he knew that wouldn’t be true. Alcoholism was never the problem; it was always the inadequate solution to an existing problem, and it didn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out Alex’s problem was his marriage.

“Can I come in?” she asked, tilting her head to the side flirtatiously.

“Uh . . . let’s go out here.” He stepped out onto his porch and shut the screen door. Miley didn’t need to overhear their conversation.

“You know, I’d love to see the inside of your house sometime,” she said. “The kitchen, the bathrooms . . . your bedroom.” She grinned.

“Stop.” If she was going to say things like that, she was going to have to leave. “I try to give you the benefit of the doubt, but that’s really hard to do when you’re so obnoxious.” Obnoxious. God, that was a parenting word, wasn’t it? It applied to her, though.

“Sorry,” she apologized. “I don’t even know what I’m saying. I didn’t sleep much last night.” She sat down on the steps, wrapping her arms around herself and shivering as the mid-November wind blew towards them.

“Is everything okay?” he asked, sitting down beside her.

“No.”

He sighed. There was nothing he could do about it, whatever it was. She had a husband, albeit an alcoholic one, and a brother, albeit an evil one. It wasn’t his responsibility to make her feel better. She had Billy for that.

“So did you talk some sense into Maria?” she asked.

“Yeah. We, uh . . . we decided Miley and Garret can be friends. But they can only play over here under our supervision.”

She looked slightly offended. “You don’t trust me with them?”

“Nope.” He wished he could, but she’d given him no reason to. “And neither does Maria.”

“Whatever,” she mumbled. “Fair enough. What else?”

“Don’t try to get your son to do anything that could endanger Miley.”

“I won’t,” she assured him. “Contrary to what you and Maria might think, I didn’t arrange their little getaway. They did that all on their own.”

“Okay. I believe you.”

“You do?”

“Yeah.” Isabel was unbelievable in a lot of very bad ways, but he didn’t think that she would ever ask her son to put himself in danger like that. She wasn’t that crazy. “Just don’t try to use Garret and Miley to get to me. It won’t work.”

“Please, like I’m that desperate,” she scoffed. “I have a husband.”

“And a boyfriend,” he added.

She shook her head. “Billy’s not my boyfriend.”

“That’s good, ‘cause he’s not a good guy, Isabel.” She was probably a lot better off without him. He was going nowhere in life and had a tendency to bring down the people he was with. When Maria had been ready to move in with him, she’d been miserable about it.

“Alex isn’t a good guy, either,” she pointed out. “Neither is Max.” She lowered her head and whispered, “Or my dad.”

He nodded. That much was true, although Alex seemed like he had something redeemable in him. Michael was never going to forget the first time he’d ever met him. The guy couldn’t be one-hundred percent bad if he’d come to Santa Fe just to take responsibility for his son. He could have easily let Michael raise him unknowingly. That would’ve been the dishonorable thing to do.

“Was Maria mad at you, for keeping something from her?” Isabel asked hopefully.

“Yeah, and she had every right to be.” If nothing else, he’d learned his lesson. He was never going to keep a stupid secret from her again. It wouldn’t have even been a big deal if he’d just told her about it. “But we worked it out. We always do.”

“Why didn’t you just tell her you came to see me?”

“Because I knew she’d be mad.”

“Really?” She scooted closer to him. “And here I was thinking it was because it was a private moment between you and me.”

He scooted farther away. “It wasn’t a moment,” he informed her. “And this, right here, right now . . . not a moment, either.”

She looked away, eyes downcast.

“I’m not trying to sound mean, but . . .”

“You’re not mean,” she assured him. “You’re the only not mean, not stupid, not bad man I’ve ever known.”

“That’s great.” He didn’t like where this was going.

“And we easily could have had this conversation over the phone, but you just had to invite me over here.”

“Because I wanted to make sure you understood what I’m saying about our kids being friends. We have rules. If you break the rules, they can’t be friends. It’s as simple as that.”

“Nothing’s ever simple between us.”

“Isabel . . .” He was starting to get annoyed.

“I’m not coming onto you. I’m just stating a fact.”

He shook his head. She was wrong. Things had been simple between them, but then she’d gone and cheated on him. And then nothing was simple. Then and only then.

“Do you think my dad ever loved me?” she asked out of nowhere.

Where the hell had that come from? Sure, she was soaked in father issues, but did she have to bring them over here when they had children issues to deal with? “I don’t know, Is.” He realized he shouldn’t have called her by her nickname, because that sounded way too affectionate, and affection was something he was in short supply of around her. But after he said it, she gazed into his eyes—literally gazed—and blurted out the three words she shouldn’t have.

“I love you.”

No, he thought. That wasn’t okay. That wasn’t okay for her to say that. He rose to his feet, done with this conversation.

“No, Michael, don’t go,” she whimpered.

“Why’d you have to go and say that?”

“Because, I feel it.”

“I don’t.” What else did she need to hear to get it through her head? “I love Maria. One of these days, you’re gonna have to accept that.”

She blinked away tears, and he left her out on the porch as he went back inside and shut the door. He actually felt a little bad for being so blunt. But what was he supposed to say? The only thing she wanted to hear was ‘I love you, too,’ and those were four words he would never say again. Not to her.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

It was 10:30 by the time Maria got home, and that was ridiculous. No school project was worth missing the entire evening. She hadn’t eaten dinner, and everyone was already in bed. Not fair.

She slipped into Miley’s room and Macy’s nursery first to say give them a kiss while they slept, and then she went into her and Michael’s room. The light was off, and Michael was snoring.

“Michael?” she called quietly. “Are you awake?”

He stirred and yawned. “I am now.”

“Sorry.” She kicked off her shoes and dumped her purse and coat on the floor.

He yawned again and turned on the bedside lamp. “I’m glad you’re home. It’s late.”

“I know.” She groaned and plopped down on the bed, her head near the bottom, her feet up on the pillows.

“How’d the unit plan go?” he asked, leaning back against the headboard.

She grunted. “It didn’t. By the time those girls showed up, all they wanted to do was compare manicures and breast sizes.”

“Hmm.” He picked up her hand, looked over her fingernails, and shook his head.

“I bite my nails when I’m stressed.”

“I bet you got ‘em beat on the breast size, though. Those things are bigger nowadays.”

She propped herself up on her forearms, glancing down at her chest. “You think?”

“Yeah.”

“Everything’s bigger.”

“No, just the boobs.” He leaned forward and squeezed one, and she blushed.

“Well, enjoy them while they’re like this, ‘cause in a few years, they’ll be down by my feet.”

“No. We’ll get you a real good support bra.”

“Okay.” She sat up and ran one hand through her hair. This felt really good, just being at home with Michael, venting to him, hearing him say good things about her appearance. She smirked. Bet the sorority bitches don’t have such awesome boyfriends.

“I hope you don’t have too many more of these late nights,” he said. “We missed you tonight.”

“Yeah, I think this is just one project I’m gonna have to do by myself or else it’s never gonna get done.”

“That’s not very fair,” he remarked.

“No, but it’s karmic. A few years ago, I was just like those girls,” she pointed out.

“No, you weren’t.”

“How would you know? You haven’t even met them.”

“I don’t need to.” He scooted closer to her, tossing back the covers. “Sure, you used to be a little . . . flighty.”

“Flighty,” she echoed. That was an interesting word for it.

“But you were always a good person. Those sorority girls don’t sound like good people.”

Bitches, Michael,” she corrected. “Say the word, you feminist you.”

He chuckled. “Bitches.”

“Good job.” She tucked her knees under her and crawled towards him, unable to help but notice that he was only wearing boxers and a beater. He looked good. “So how was your night?” she asked, swing her legs over his waist so that she was straddling him. “Better than mine, I hope.”

He placed his hands on her hips. “Parts of it were good and parts of it were . . . less good.”

“Isabel and Alex?” she guessed.

“Yeah. Actually . . . just Isabel. She came alone.”

“Oh.” Maria tried to act like that didn’t bother her, but she was pissed. Here Isabel had gotten to spend some time with Michael that evening and she hadn’t? That was just impossibly wrong. “So it was just the two of you.”

“Yeah.”

“What’d you guys do?”

“Well, first we slept together, and then . . .”

Her eyes bulged in horror, and he started to laugh. “God, shut up!” she snapped. “Don’t say that. I hate you.”

“No, we, uh . . . we just sat outside and talked about Miley and Garret for a few minutes,” he said, touching her hair. “I told her what our conditions are; she agreed to them.”

“Just like that?”

“Yeah.”

Well, she thought, pleasantly surprised, wonders never cease. She’d been thinking that Isabel would have a few conditions of her own.

“Then she told me she loves me.”

Maria rolled her eyes, not amused. “Ha, ha, very funny.”

He just stared at her for a minute, then said, “I’m actually not kidding about that part. She really said that.”

“What?” Maria shrieked, fighting the urge to hit something. “No, I don’t like that. That’s . . . ugh! Although not surprising. What’d you say?”

“I told her I love you.” He squeezed her sides gently. “And that was the end of our conversation.”

“She’s ridiculous. She’s like a virus. I wouldn’t walk up to somebody’s husband—okay, almost-husband—and drop the L-bomb. That’s so . . .” She whirled her hands around emphatically as she tried to settle on a word. “Classless.”

“I agree.”

“We should add in a rule that she’s not allowed to say she loves you,” she suggested. “Can we do that?”

“Yeah. Let’s rule it out.”

“Okay. I’m gonna write them all down so she doesn’t forget.” She balled his shirt up in her hands and lightly pounded her fists against his chest. “That makes me so mad that she said that. I could strangle her. Although . . . you are very lovable. I’d be really pissed if she said she wanted to fuck you or something.”

“Uh, I think she wants that, too.”

She gave him a look. Why were they wasting time talking about her anyway?

“Wait a minute, are you saying I’m lovable, but not . . . fuckable?” He pretended to look offended.

“Oh, you’re fuckable, too,” she assured him. “In fact, as I was sitting there tonight with those sorority bitches getting absolutely nothing accomplished on that damn unit plan, I kept thinking, ‘I can’t wait to get home to Michael and tear his clothes off.’”

He frowned and plucked at his shirt. “My clothes are still on.”

“Not for long.” She found his lips with hers and gave him a big, exaggerated kiss, not sure if he felt up to taking it any farther tonight—he had been asleep when she’d walked in, after all. But he pulled her entire body closer and kept kissing her, brushing his tongue against her bottom lips as his hands roamed around to cup her backside.

She scrunched his shirt up in her hands, but before she could remove it, he flipped them around in one swift motion so that they were lying down and he was on top of her. She gasped, momentarily stunned, and gazed at him as he sat up and pulled his shirt over his head. He balled it up, threw it on the floor, and stared down at her with unmitigated desire in his eyes. When he got turned on, he was like a totally different person. But he was still Michael.

She raked her hand through her hair, breathing heavily in anticipation. “Michael, I’m serious, let’s just . . . fuck,” she said bluntly. He grinned, bent forward, and kissed her. She could feel his knees on the inside of her thighs, urging her legs apart, and before she even knew what was happening, her shirt was on the floor next to his.

“Oh, god, Michael,” she moaned, tangling her hands in his hair as he sucked on her neck. They hadn’t had proper sex for awhile now, what with Michael being all weird and secretive and resistant to having sex after lying to her. This was long overdue, and she loved it.

“See?” he said as he kissed a path down to her chest. “They’re not down by your feet.” He pushed her breasts together and pressed a smacking kiss to her cleavage, causing her to laugh as she reached underneath her back to unhook her bra.

“Perfect.” He tossed the garment aside and sucked on one breast while palming the other. It felt so nice to no longer be breastfeeding. It was hard to get aroused when your man was sucking on your infant’s primary food source, but now that Macy was moving onto solid foods . . .

“Oh, shit, Michael.” It felt so good.

He trailed a line of kisses down to her stomach. “Every square inch of you . . . perfect.”

She smiled as she remembered the way he kissed her belly when she was pregnant. Sometimes he got so into it he forgot about the actual sex part of sex.

“I’m supposed to be tearing your clothes off,” she said, rubbing her feet against his sides.

“So tear ‘em.”

“Get up here.”

He slithered back up her body, and she reached down in between them and slipped her hand inside his boxers to grip his erection. “Well, somebody woke up.”

He closed his eyes and smiled as she handled him, his entire body stalling on top of her.

“Does that feel good?” she asked, fondling his balls.

The only response he could muster was a guttural groan. And that was enough for her. She shoved his boxers down as far as she could, and he kicked them off the rest of the way. Then he unfastened her jeans and pulled them down in a hurry. The rough fabric scraped against her skin and she squirmed out of them. His face lit up with excitement when he saw that she wasn’t wearing panties.

“That’s my girl.” He gathered her up in his arms and whirled them around so that she was once again on top of him, straddling him. She felt a little self-conscious in this position, as much as she loved it. He could see every inch of her, every flaw and imperfection. But as he smoothed his hands up over her breasts, and back down her sides, she felt beautiful. When she felt his cock press insistently against her folds, she shuddered. She was the one who did that to him; she was the reason his body had that reaction. There was something so erotic about that when she thought it.

He placed his hands on her hips and helped position her so that she could slide right down onto his erection. She was so wet that he slid in easily. She had to take a moment to adjust to the feel of him. He made her feel . . . complete. And completely out of control.

“Shower,” she heard him say through her sex-induced haze.

“Huh?”

“We should do it in the shower,” he suggested.

“Hmm.” She liked the sound of that. The shower was their favorite place for fucking, and they hadn’t done it there for awhile.

He sat up, and she moaned in discontent when she felt his cock slip out of her; but he wasted no time picking her up in his arms and carrying her into the bathroom.

“I love you so much,” she whispered, holding onto him tightly as he stepped into the shower.

“I love you, too.” He turned on the water, and it rained ice cold droplets down onto them. She gasped and smoothed her hair away from her face. “Too cold.”

He pressed her up against the corner of the shower, grinding his pelvis against hers.

“Too hot,” she joked.

He reached over and adjusted the water so that it was at a warm but not scalding temperature, then returned all his attention to her. He stared down at her as though she were the only thing that existed, and her stomach muscles fluttered in anticipation.

“Please, Michael,” she begged, needing to feel him inside her again.

He boosted her up in higher in his arms and held her up with one hand, guiding his cock to her entrance with the other. He pushed inside her quickly, and that feeling of being complete flooded over her again. He started thrusting right away, finding his rhythm and going with it.

“This is like porn,” he remarked.

She laughed. There was nothing wrong with a little pornography. When he picked up his pace, she stopped laughing and dug her hands into his shoulders, tightening her legs around him. This was so . . . hot. The water fell from the faucet onto his face and then dripped down onto her chest. His wet hair stuck to his forehead, and his skin slid against hers. Her entire body pulsated as he pounded into her.

“Uh!” she cried out, slamming her head back into the shower wall. He pressed himself closer to her, urging her legs wider apart, and she felt herself stretch to accommodate even more of him. “Ah!

“Are you okay?” he asked, halting.

“Don’t stop.” She was so close, and that stormy look in his eyes revealed that he was, too. She squeezed with her inner muscles and clamped down on his erection, causing his entire body to tense. Grabbing the back of his neck with one hand, she stared at him with the same hungry expression he was wearing and said the two words that she knew would drive him over the edge: “Fuck me.”

His eyes narrowed and darkened, and he smashed his hips against hers, drilling his body into hers so rapidly that all the air flew out of her lungs. They usually weren’t so raw with each other. Michael made it a point to distinguish between making love and all other forms of sex, and most of the time, making love was what they did. It was as amazing as this, but in a different way. Because this . . . this was what animals did, and even though they were parents—and good ones at that—they could still get down and dirty.

“Yes,” she gasped, feeling a positive orgasm coming on. Huh. Usually she was more of a religious orgasm kind of girl, but this worked, too. “Yes, yes, yes, yes,” she panted in time with his thrusts. “Yes! Oh! Michael!” She felt like her body was going to fly apart into a million pieces, and she could have sworn it did when her orgasm overwhelmed her. He must have put her back together, though, because when she came down from it, she was still in one piece. She was vaguely aware of him giving a few final thrusts into her as he followed over the edge and came, too, swearing, “Fuck,” as he did so. Oh, she loved it when he said bad words.

He stood there under the water, recuperating for several minutes afterwards. He kept her pinned back against the wall, still holding her up while her legs were wrapped around him. Finally, he reached over and adjusted the water temperature so that it was colder again. “I’m the man,” he bragged, smiling goofily at her.

“You’re the man,” she agreed, still trying to catch her breath. She laughed at him pushed his wet hair off his forehead. It was really something how he could go from looking sexy as hell to utterly adorable in an instant. And still sexy.

He slowly set her back down on her own two feet and pulled out of her. “I, uh . . .” He trailed off. “I wasn’t wearing a . . .”

She glanced down at his unsheathed penis. “Oh.”

“Yeah.” He turned off the water. “No wonder it felt so good.”

She giggled, not panicking. “It’s okay. You get one free pass per year.” At some point, birth control had to step up and get the job done. “I can’t even stand,” she admitted, slumping against him. Her legs felt wobbly. She probably looked like a newborn horse standing there.

He lifted her up in his arms again, cradling her against his chest this time. He slipped and almost fell as he stepped out of the tub. “Whoa, I can’t, either.”

She laughed at his clumsiness and fixated on the water droplets cascading down his skin. “Let’s do that again,” she suggested. When sex like this happened, you had to take the reins and run with it. All night long.








TBC . . .

-April
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