Absence Makes the Heart...(M/L,MATURE) [WIP]

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Re: Absence Makes the Heart...(M/L,MATURE)PT 27, pg 7, 10/7/08

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Hello, everyone.

I'm here with an update. Once again, many thanks should be offered to Steph for beta-ing this piece of junk in a timely fashion. She's absolutely wonderful, and my favorite. And Alex, for being a meany, and not letting me sleep. She sucks, but she's my favorite.

No, but in all seriousness, Alex says she will take praise in the form of flowers and Chinese Food. PM me for her address. She's my drill sergeant (I had to ask her how to spell this), and she actually helped me with dialogue that I just couldn't get. So any dialogue that holds any amount of emotional depth - she wrote.

I'm currently trying to convince her to write the rest of the story, as well. I'll keep you updated on my progress.

And of course, thank you all for sticking with me, and leaving me encouraging and wonderful feedback. I'm glad you guys enjoyed the part. (=

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Thanks, again! I hope you enjoy this part, as well. (=


Part Twenty-Eight
He could remember with vivid clarity the last time he held her in his arms, just like this. It had been the night before their wedding day; the night before everything had changed and his life had ended. They had decided to forgo tradition and spend the night together, for staying apart had always proved difficult for both of them. He could recall the way her body had perfectly contoured to his, and the way she’d felt in his arms. He remembered the way the sheets had draped low over her soft body, and the way she’d snuggled more closely into the circle of his arms. He remembered the silkiness of her skin, and the intimacy of sharing the warmth of her body. He remembered never wanting to leave that moment.

The memories of that night – those of which he’d kept close to his heart to preserve his sanity – were nothing like that of the memories that had been forged tonight. He wished that he could say that the memory of the last night he’d held her paled in comparison to this moment. He wished he could admit that this time it had been better than all the times before.

It was not.

Max had rushed things; he hadn’t meant to jump into this situation as he had. His goal in seeking her out tonight had been to just talk – to hash things out between them. He had wanted to explain. That’s all he’d wanted to do since being rescued from the clutches of the unit. He hadn’t meant to just fall into bed with her, and commit something they both were going to regret.

He brushed a strand of hair from her face, and berated himself for allowing something that should be profound and significant turn into a mistake.

Squeezing her more tightly into his embrace, Max frowned. Her body was tense, every muscle was tightened. While he knew she was sleeping, knew that her tension wasn’t due to the fact he was holding her so closely, it still gave him pause. It was as if it were impossible for her to relax, even in sleep. As if she had to remain on guard and alert, even in her subconscious. And she was unconscious – the steady rise and fall of her chest confirmed that.

As well as her dreams. It had been her dreams that had awakened him, after all.

Regardless of what Liz wanted to believe, regardless of what she’d told the others, the connection still thrived between them. It hadn’t died from the years and galaxies that had separated them. It had simply fallen dormant, waiting. How else would he have been able to see her dreams, whilst he was deep in his own slumber? And her dreams, they were disturbing. They unearthed her fears. And her guilt.

Tenderly, Max pressed his lips to the smooth skin of her shoulder, and then rolled gently away. The mattress didn’t shift as he sat up and stood from the bed. The hardwood floor didn’t squeak as he crossed the room and into the adjoining bathroom. Nor did the door hinges make a sound as he silently shut it behind him. He left the light off so as to not disturb her. He turned on the water, and then wet his face. The coolness of the water soothed the tired ache behind his eyes and nearly made him groan. After a moment, he lifted his head and peered at his shadowed, exhausted reflection.

Finally he knew the identities of the faces behind the white masks. The masks that had haunted his dreams for months, just as they’d haunted Liz’s. While both sets of dreams were wrought with turmoil, Max found it difficult to determine whose recollections were more painful: his for having to be subjected to the torture or Liz’s for being forced to participate. For it had been her who’d helped collect cellular samples from Isabel, Tess, Michael and himself. It had been Liz who he’d felt gripping his arm like a vice as he was forced into the tub of ice and water. It had been Liz who he had struck.

Max groped for a towel, and through the darkness he was able to discern the fluffy white fabric with a light pink floral pattern. The tender, feminine décor struck him as incongruous to the personality she had since adopted. When he brought it to his face to dry, he smelled perfume and the scent that was exclusively hers.

He hung the towel back up, returned to the bedroom and crawled beneath the sheets once again. When he wrapped his arms around her, he noted that she still hadn’t relaxed in her slumber. His frown perpetually in place, he tucked her head beneath his chin, pressed a kiss to her hair and breathed in her scent.

As he held her, he recalled all the times Riannan had looked at him with an expression that conveyed that he had no fucking clue what she had endured to get them to this point. And now, Max could admit that she had been right. Prior to tonight, he’d had no idea the kind of hell she’d been subjected. Now, he could feel her self-loathing for every experiment she had participated in. He held her tighter. His stomach clenched and his throat constricted as an image of her near-rape flashed before his eyes. Impulsively, his arms tightened around her still, wanting to protect her from the memory.

Pierce. She had called the man Pierce. He had requested her resume, her references and application personally. He’d wanted her in his Unit, under his control. He wanted her – to possess her irrevocably. And he had been willing to do whatever means necessary to achieve that.

His anger dissipated nearly as quickly as it had surfaced, causing him to blink rapidly as another memory assaulted him. It was moments after Pierce had left her in her kitchen, after she had fallen brokenly to the floor. Riannan was there, talking to her, soothing her – her skin had been on fire.

And Max had known it for what it was, even before he’d heard Rian’s explanation. Liz had changed; her human cells had finally fallen mutiny to the slow, wide-spread alien cells. And he had done this to her.

His emotions were oddly conflicted by this revelation. At first, he’d felt powerful, elated – Neanderthal-ish, even – because he knew that no one would ever possess Liz in the way he had.

And then he remembered Pierce, and felt disgusted with himself. It was the desire to possess that had resulted in Liz’s tumultuous break down, and the last thing Max wanted was to share similar thoughts with a monster.

Thus, he felt ashamed. He had done this to her – by knowing her, by being infatuated with her he had forever changed her existence. While he hated himself for robbing Liz Parker of a normal life, he knew with the utmost certainty that, if given the opportunity, he would do it again. For there was no way he could ever let her die.
* * *
Liz came awake, yet her eyes remained closed and her breathing even. It was ridiculous, childish to try and pretend as if she were still lost in her dreams. Not that her dreams were preferable to reality, because in most cases they were not. But at this moment in time, she preferred her dreams, no matter how painful, to the latter.

Because reality was Max Evans.

She wanted to stretch her limbs and loosen her tense muscles, and then curl back into a little ball beneath the covers. Despite the ever present aches that awaited her when she awoke, Liz broodingly admitted that last night was the best night of sleep she’d gotten in years. The kind of sleep that left you so thoroughly rested that you wanted to spend the rest of the day as a lazy blob of a person, in the soft comfortable bed that held you.

Or, she relented, encased in a lover’s arms.

Liz took a deep breath, concentrated on its even release while simultaneously trying to focus on the heated body all but surrounding her. She noted that Max’s breathing was even as well. Soft puffs of breath hit the back of her neck not protected by the cascade of her hair. His arms were loose around her body, but still heavy. And his hand was placed purposely, possessively over her abdomen. Despite the fact they’d made love the night before, the simple placement of his hand was the most intimate expression of all.

Tears started to spring from behind her closed eyes. She concentrated and pushed them back. Satisfied, she opened up her eyes and took in the red numbers on her beside clock. 9:30AM: the others would be waking up, and soon they’d wonder where Max was. She’d get frantic phone calls, and thus have to explain the situation.

Which just pissed her off all over again.

Rejecting the idea of trying to remain asleep she grabbed his wrist and tried to fling it back behind her. It was an awkward movement, and his limp arm was heavier than she’d anticipated and only served to flop against her hip and ass. Irritated, she shoved at his hand again and then rolled out of his embrace. With quick, agitated movements, Liz began to sort through the piles of clothes on the floor until she held all of Max’s in her arms.

When she finally looked at him, he was leaning on one elbow, his shaggy hair an adorable, tousled mess. Liz clenched her jaw. He blinked tiredly, confusedly at the mattress as he tried to gather his surroundings. She knew the moment he did and his eyes immediately zeroed in on her – soft, pleading, hurt.

Liz lobbed the pile of clothes at him and refused to cover her arms in order to shield her nudity. “Get dressed,” she said softly. “I’m taking you home.”

* * *

Liz exited the bathroom, her body wrapped in a towel and wet from her shower, just in time to hear her phone die on its last ring. She sighed, already knowing who was calling, and made her way to the bedside table. The missed call log revealed Rian’s number.

Knowing that putting it off any longer would only serve undue panic, Liz punched the send button and brought the phone to her ear.

Max is gone – we’ve looked all over, he’s –

“Here with me,” Liz supplied softly.

There was a beat of silence, not even Rian’s breathing was discernible. Then finally, “Are you okay?

“I will be,” Liz promised. “As soon as I get the dumbass back to the house.”

Rian knew she’d get details later; she said a quick goodbye and promised to inform the others. Just as Liz placed the phone back on the table, a knock sounded on the bedroom door. Max poked his still disheveled head of hair inside, and smiled sheepishly. “I thought I heard a phone ringing,” he said. “How much trouble am I in?”

Liz only glared.

“That doesn’t sound so bad,” he tried to joke, but knew he was failing epically. He cleared his throat. “Can I use your shower?”

Liz took a deep intake of breath. She didn’t want him to come out of the shower smelling like her soap and her shampoo. The next time she stepped in the shower, she didn’t want to think that he’d been in it last. The last thing she needed was to be reminded of Max Evans while she was in the shower, it would make her exceedingly uncomfortable.

But he didn’t need to know that.

She shrugged and, gripping the knot of her towel, walked over to her dresser and began to sift through her clothes. As she did, Max silently made his way into the bathroom. Not knowing how long it would take him to shower, Liz dressed hurriedly. After donning her underwear, she slipped into a pair of jeans, a white camisole with a black t-shirt over it. She didn’t bother to brush her hair, but opted to pull the heavy wet strands into a bun and restrained it with a hair-tie. Finally, she grabbed a pair of socks, her cell phone and handgun, and booked it down the stairs.

When she arrived to the kitchen, Mulder and Scully rushed over to greet her just briefly before running back to ravish their bowls, which had been freshly filled with dog food. Liz quirked an eye brow, not at all pleased that her dogs were so easily coaxed by the enemy. Give them food, and they become friends for life.

“Traitors,” she murmured good naturedly before she, too, realized that she was starving. She was late waking up this morning, and they were used to a strict eating schedule. So, in that case, she really couldn’t blame them for getting food wherever or from whomever they could.

Having forgiven her misguided companions, Liz went to the refrigerator and retrieved eggs and bacon. If she was starving, then she was willing to wager that Max was, too. And it can’t be said that she didn’t try to be a good hostess.

She set about preparing, and the bacon was just beginning to fry when she heard Max come down the stairs. Liz glanced over her shoulder at him, still refusing to make direct eye contact.

“It smells good,” he complimented.

“There are plates in that cabinet there.”

Wordlessly, Max walked into the kitchen and retrieved to plates. He opened the next cabinet doors and retrieved to glasses as well. He proceeded to set the table in silence, while Liz started scrambling the eggs.

The refrigerator door opened. “Do you still drink milk with your breakfast?” He asked.

She did, but just to be contrary she said, “Orange juice.” She heard him get out the carton of milk and then pour it into the glasses. She concentrated on her task at hand, pretending not to notice how very domesticated the situation felt. It was as if they’d been doing exactly as they are, for years.

“Where is the silverware?”

Liz could only point. She didn’t like this familiar sense of routine. She didn’t like the sound of him shuffling around her tiny kitchen. She didn’t want him to here. And just how in the hell did he get here?

The question had plagued her last night, but she’d been too busy being exhausted and berating herself for allowing what happened to happen that she refused to ask the question. Now, however, seemed like a good time to get some answers.

She grabbed the sizzling skillet of eggs and walked to the table. The yellow fluff was distributed onto the two plates, followed by several pieces of crisp bacon. Mulder and Scully suddenly lost interest in their kibble, and planted their rumps next to the table.

“No,” Liz said pointedly, and shook her spatula at them. “Your food is over there.”

Mulder licked his chops. Scully lowered her head and feigned innocence.

“I like your dogs,” Max told her.

It seemed to Liz that he just wanted to hear himself talk, since she wasn’t very forthcoming with her own tête-à-tête. She didn’t want to have a heart-to-heart with him. She wanted to beat him over the head with her spatula. Or perhaps the skillet.

“How did you get here, Max?” She finally asked, and seated herself at the table.

A guilty flush colored his cheeks. He picked up his fork, his expression remaining sheepish and speared some eggs. He cleared his throat, “Hitchhiked.”

Liz took a steady, deep breath. Definitely the skillet, she decided.

Max chewed thoughtfully. “Do you have any Tabasco sauce?”

She pointed to the refrigerator, and then took a bite of her own meal. Max was right; it needed Tabasco sauce. Liz briefly wondered if he would notice her sudden taste of spicy food. She’d never had that acquired taste before. As soon as she thought it, she dismissed it. The eggs were bland, but not inedible.

Max applied a generous helping of the spicy liquid all over his plate. The aroma was enticing and, for a moment, gave Liz pause. Quickly, she recovered and took a bite out of her bacon. It needed something sweet.
Then, Max held out the bottle of red sauce for her, his expression strangely expectant. She eyed him curiously, before shaking her head. “I don’t like hot sauce,” she lied.

He watched her for a moment before he set down the bottle. “Oh,” he murmured, yet there was something in the tone of his voice that told Liz he didn’t believe her.

She glared at him. “How did you find me?”

Max chewed his food slowly as he held her gaze. After he’d swallowed, he spoke, “I felt you.”

“You felt me?” She parroted, incredulous.

He nodded, picked up a piece of bacon. He broke it in half. “Our connection.”

Liz stilled yet again, not certain she’d heard him correctly. “Our connection.”

“Yes,” he supplied. “I walked and then eventually hitchhiked. The feeling grew stronger the closer to you I got. It really wasn’t that difficult, considering I’ve never…tracked someone before.”

“You tracked me?” Liz clenched the fork in her hand, hating her inability to say something original.

Max nodded, his brown eyes focused on his plate. “It surprised me that our connection still thrived after all these years, and distance, that separated us,” he confessed.

Liz ground her teeth at her matter-of-fact tone. He was playing with her, and it pissed her off.

“Though,” he continued. “The strength of the connection probably has something to do with your change.”

This time, Liz couldn’t even repeat him. She struggled to formulate a thought, a word, a syllable. Anything. She failed. They stared at each other. She knew that shock was written, quite clearly, all over his face. While his looked sad – whether it was because she hadn’t told him, had been intent on lying to him about it, or for other reasons, she wasn’t sure.

Finally, Liz was able to lick her suddenly dried lips. “How long have you known?”

Max shifted uncomfortably in his seat, and finally put his fork down. “I didn’t know until last night,” he didn’t rush into an explanation about that. “But I should have. You’re like a beacon – whenever you’d visit the house, I’d know when you were close. It was very strange. More potent than what we experienced when we were younger.” When she remained silent, nearly motionless, he opened his mouth and tried to speak again: “Liz, I –”

The phone rang. Liz startled, her eyes refocused and then darted from the kitchen and into the living room.

“Hello,” she breathed anxiously.

Hiya, darlin’.

Jon.

“Hi, Jon,” she replied, hoping that the smile missing from her face had made it to her voice. “How are you?”

Finer than a frog’s hair,” he answered on a chuckle. “I was just callin’ to check up on you. Haven’t heard your pretty voice in a day or two. I wanted to see what’s what.

She laughed lightly, exceedingly aware of Max’s probing gaze at her back. “Well, you seem to have caught me at a bad time,” she lied, hated how easily it came to her now. “I was just getting ready to walk out the door.”

Well, shoot,” he sighed dejectedly. “Is this business or pleasure, for once?

“Pleasure. I’m going to go see a friend I haven’t seen in a very long time.”

Darlin’, is that me? Should I have Linda clean house?” His tone sounded hopeful.

Liz laughed again, and a smile spread across her face. “I wish, Jon. I miss you.”

I miss you, too, Betsy-Ann. Come see me soon, do you promise?

“I promise, Jon.”

His good-bye floated to her hear, yet Liz remained on the phone for several moments after he’d hung up. Finally, she jerked herself from her thoughts and turned to meet Max’s gaze. He didn’t try to hide the questioning look in his eyes, or his displeasure at the knowledge that she had been speaking to another man. A man he didn’t know.

She knew his questions were bubbling to the surface, and she didn’t feel like fielding them at this point in time.

Quickly, she walked back to the kitchen and grabbed her plate. It was full – she’d barely touched it – and scraped the contents into the garbage. After she’d placed the plate in the sink, she turned around to face him. Her expression was neutral as she said, “If you’re ready, I’ll take you home now.”

* * *

“Mulder, get your head out of the way,” she complained and shoved at his heavy torso with her elbow. “You cannot sit up front, and I’m trying to drive.”

Mulder heaved a dejected sigh. Through the rearview mirror Liz swore she saw her dog throw Max a look of contempt before he curled up on the backseat. She grinned and her eyes darted over to Scully; her head was hanging out of the back window, and her stubby little tail was going a mile a minute. Unlike Mulder, she was content to ride in the car regardless of where she sat. Mulder had to ride shotgun or he sulked.

Liz shook her head and returned her attention to the road. She needed to remain alert. She’d scanned the cars behind her since she’d left the house, looking for any suspicious vehicle. She’d been without a tail for a while now, but that didn’t mean they weren’t around. Perhaps they were finally doing their jobs right.

Yet there had been no one. The highway was nearly deserted; she’d passed a cluster of slowly moving cars several miles back and no one had caught up with her. It was a good sign.

Now, she needed to get to a gas station.

“So,” Max hedged, his tone hopeful. “We have a long car ride ahead of us.”

Liz’s jaw clenched. “That we do. Why don’t you take a nap? It’ll go by faster.”

He sighed. “Liz, I don’t want to take a nap.”

“Music, then?” She reached for the dial, but Max beat her to it and prevented her from turning on the stereo.

“Liz, please be cooperative,” he pleaded. “I told you: all I want to do is talk.”

“And I told you: the timing isn’t right,” she repeated through clenched teeth.

“When is the right time?”

Liz sighed and felt like a broken record. “When all of this is over,” she answered. “Then it’ll be the time.”

Max remained silent for several moments, and Liz glanced at him, noted he was staring at her profile, and then averted her gaze. “And when will this be over, Liz?” He whispered. “Tomorrow? The next day?”

Liz inhaled deeply to garner her composure. “When the Unit has collapsed within itself. When all those responsible are held accountable. When it’s safe. That’s when it’ll be over.”

“It’ll never be safe, Liz.”

Her hands clenched to fists on the steering wheel. Weren’t those the words she’d heard from the very beginning? Weren’t those the words he’d uttered to her time and again, each time an effort to dissuade her from wanting to be with him. When had he stopped saying those words to her? When had he given up trying to convince her that they shouldn’t be together? The first time they’d kissed? The first time they’d made love?

It’ll never be safe.

“This can end now, Liz,” he said softly. “We can just leave. We can make it so they never find us –”

“There’s no guarantee of that, Max,” she forced out. “And I refuse to live my life on the run. I worked too hard – the others worked too hard – to live the rest of our lives looking over our shoulders. This will end it once and for all. Can’t you see that? Don’t you want that?” She tossed him an inquisitive stare. “Don’t you think you deserve that – after all that we’ve been through, that we all deserve that?” Liz shook her head. “I refuse to settle for anything less.”

“Okay, okay,” Max murmured in an effort to diffuse the situation. “We won’t talk about that right now.” He fell quiet for another moment before he turned to her again. “So, why don’t we talk about what happened last night?”

This time Liz laughed, albeit a bit strangled. “Max, I don’t want to talk about that for a very long time.”

Her flippant response angered him. Max narrowed his gaze, his hands clenching in his lap. “You know, Liz, for someone who is so determined not to run away from the FBI, you certainly seem hell bent on avoiding everything else. “ He watched as she tensed beside of him, watched as her lips parted in retort, but he rushed ahead. “What the hell happened to you, Liz? You act as if you’re still the same girl who faces her problems – head on – yet you’re running. What the hell has changed?”

For several, tense moments Liz remained utterly quiet. When her gaze remained locked on the road, and her body painfully tense, Max shifted in his seat to better face her. His lips began to form the words of a feeble apology when she spoke.

“You left, Max.” She uttered the words so softly that had Max not seen her lips move, he couldn’t have been sure he’d heard her. “And for a long time, I tried to convince myself that it was a mistake – that you hadn’t really left me. I was certain that you’d been kidnapped, that someone had found out about you and you were somewhere in the hands of the FBI. Because I truly believed that you never would have left me behind. Then, I saw it for what it was.”

Max swallowed. He wanted to reach out and touch her, but knew that he’d be rejected. He wanted to explain – now more than ever he wanted to speak – but knew that it would go unheard. So instead, he furled his hands into fists, locked his jaw, and waited.

“So, that is what changed, Max,” her tone changed, hardened as well as the expression on her face. “You were simply gone, and I’m so sorry if absence really doesn’t make the heart grow fonder. I’m sorry that I’m so bitter, but you made me this way, Max. This is who I have become because of you, because you chose to leave, because you –”

The words caught in her throat and Max cringed. He watched as tears shimmered before her dark eyes, prayed that they wouldn’t fall and unman him. She blinked; they were gone. Still, he didn’t say a word.

Liz cleared her throat, tossed back her head in an effort to dust the hair from her face. “I’m sorry,” she whispered.

“I’m sorry.”

* * *

Agent Riley J. Brady struggled to bring some semblance of order to the crinkled bills the cashier had just handed back to him. He hated stopping at gas stations he wasn’t familiar with, and who were unfamiliar with him. The cashier at the Marathon wouldn’t have given him these bills. And he hated these bills. He hated when his money looked as if it had gone through the washing machine, hated the crisp sound they made as they rubbed together. Call him weird, but it was pet-peeve and he meant to rectify the situation immediately.

He continued the battle of the bills as he walked back to his car, when something caught his attention. He looked up, and through the deep tint of his sunglasses he saw a familiar face across the lot, pumping gas in her car.

Agent Liz Parker.

Brady nearly raced to her side, intent on introducing himself. As a rookie, he needed to take it upon himself to meet agents of superiority. He needed to get his name out there. He needed to create more opportunities for himself. At last summer’s “Bring Your Family to Work” Cookout, he’d choked and missed the perfect opportunity to do such that. He remembered her being there with stark clarity. She had brought the two dogs with her then as well. As much as he hated to admit it, his irrational fear of large dogs was what had prevented him from approaching her.

But they were in the car now, surely he could muster up the courage to go over.

Brady sucked in a deep breath, and just as he was about to take another step when something else caught his eye.

The passenger window rolled down, and man’s face came into view. Brady tensed, recognized the face immediately, and fell victim to paralysis.

Just what the hell was he supposed to do now?

A horn blared and he jerked his head to the left to see a guy in a car waving for him to get out of the way. That would be a good first step. Sheepishly, he made his way back to his car, his head carefully downcast.
He remembered receiving a flier with four mug shots on them. Apparently, FBI fugitives had escaped from the compound and a massive search was in effect. Hadn’t Brady just daydreamed about being the one to find them, and bring them back into custody? Hadn’t he just imagined himself being personally commemorated by Agent Pierce himself – the most prolific agent the Unit had ever had?

At first glance it would appear that Liz Parker had beaten him to the punch. Yet his carefully honed FBI instincts told him that was just not so. While there was a subtle hint of tension between the two, there was also a more prevalent layer of familiarity. No, whatever Agent Parker was doing with this man, it was not turning him into custody.

So, where did that leave him? Just what in the hell was he supposed to do? Should he go up to her? Immediately, he rejected that idea. He opened his car door and reluctantly got into the driver’s seat, but he left the door open.

What would Agent Pierce do?

Brady saw his phone then. He’d recently uploaded his mobile pictures of the men with mullets onto ratemymullet.com. Quickly, he grappled for the phone and got back out of the car. This was going to be too easy, he thought, as he made his way around the other side of the car to feign pumping his gas. He opened the phone.

Liz just finished at the pump and then walked to the passenger’s window to accept the money he was holding out for her.

Brady snapped the picture. Then another.

As she walked by, he carefully kept his gaze averted and quietly reentered his vehicle. As he stared down at the pictures on his phone, he knew that while they weren’t good quality they would be proof enough.

And that Pierce would be pleased.



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Re: Absence Makes the Heart...(M/L,MATURE)PT 28, pg 9, 10/13/08

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Hi everyone.

Back again with Part 29. I'm going to start outlining Part 30 today, since it's my day off and I fully intend to do...nothing. However, I'm not sure when I'm going to sit down and write it, though. It just depends on my muse, and on which project she wants to work on. I'm participating in NaNoWriMo this year (as every year, but I intend to freakin' win this time), so I've been planning pretty hardcore the past two months, with the exception of the time it took writing these latest parts. I need to get back to that so I don't lose my ideas and then get pissed off and hurl myself into a murderous rampage.

It happens.

Anyway, so, I just wanted to give you guys a heads up. This fic is almost finished (I know, I know, where have we heard that before? Smartasses). It really is. This part is what starts the snowball. I'm thinking...maybe between 4-6 more parts, and then it's over?

But with my track record that could take 12-24 years, so, I guess it's kind of a moot point, yeah? ;) lol.

Thank you Steph for her amazingness, and Alex for hers.

And thank you all for the feedback!

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Now, without further ado:

Part Twenty-Nine

Riley J. Brady nervously paced the empty corridor just outside of Agent Pierce’s office. He had tried the door already in an unsuccessful attempt to let himself in – it was locked. Agent Pierce wasn’t in yet. That’s okay, he’d wait. He’d gleefully wait as long as he needed to personally hand over the evidence he’d collected.

Brady raked a hand through his hair and then tugged on the lapels of his suit jacket, hoping that he looked presentable. Today was his day off, but he’d rushed right home from the gas station, changed, and then made it here in record time. He wanted to unhand the photos as soon as possible.

He fought against the urge to pull out the printed photos from the manila envelope and stare at them in pride. He’d had the images blown up on his computer, and while it had affected the quality just mildly, he knew that the faces in the photographs were clear enough to be identified. He knew that Pierce would recognize the information for what it was.

And he knew shit was going to hit the fan.

A promotion was definitely in order after this monumental discovery. After he’d personally see to the apprehension of Agent Liz Parker and the fugitive (possible all of them) she’d been harboring, he’d take over her job and have the keys to her cozy little office. He grinned. Oh, yes, he could see it playing out perfectly. He’d climb the corporate ladder with lightening speed. Dare he hope that one day he become the head of the Special Unit?

Brady stopped himself. Obviously he was getting too far ahead – he didn’t want to get lost in a fantasy. He took a deep, calming breath and then raked a nervous, trembling hand through his shaggy blonde hair again. He needed a haircut. Perhaps a cropped one similar to Pierce’s….

“Is there a problem, Agent?”

Brady startled and whirled around to face Agent Aaron Sykes. He swallowed; this was the last man he wanted to see.

“I’m looking for Agent Pierce, Sir,” he stammered, hating himself for losing his composure.

“Agent Pierce isn’t in today,” Sykes pointed out, his voice a deadly, even tone. “He won’t be in until later this evening.”

Brady’s disappointment was evident, as well as, he feared, his anxiety. “Oh,” he murmured. “Well, I’ll just come back at a later time, then. Thank you, S—”

“Is there something I can help you with, Agent?”

Brady swallowed. Like, help me under a bus? No, thanks. “Uh, no, Sir. Nothing at all. I’ll just be going now –”

“What do you have in that folder?”

The words stilled him, halting any words from further passing his lips. He stared silently up at Sykes, trying to think of a way – any way – to divert the attention away from his discovery. His.

“Agent?” Sykes prompted, his dead, gray eyes hardening with authority.

The way in which Brady cleared his throat was a nervous action. His fingers gripped tightly at the manila envelope, unwilling to give it up. This was his opportunity – this was his key to success.

Suddenly the envelope was wrenched from his grasp. He blinked rapidly and watched in horror as Sykes ripped opened the binding and withdrew the photographs. It only took a moment for him to grasp the importance to the findings.

Sykes voice was low, lethal, barely above a whisper. “Where did you get this?”

“I saw them together at the gas station,” he answered, and then gave the name and location of the franchise. “I took those photos with my phone.”

Sykes was silent, eerily still – even for him – as his eyes raked over the photograph. Brady narrowed his eyes in suspicion. “I wanted to give those to Pierce myself.”

This brought Sykes’s head up. His gray eyes had darkened, his jaw had clenched. “I’ll see to it that he gets these, Agent. Well done.”

No. Brady took an unwise step towards the towering man. “Those are mine. I want to give them to him.”

Sykes remained unfazed. “I said I’ll see to it that he gets these,” he repeated. “That’ll be all, Agent.”

Brady ground his teeth together. “I want full credit,” he demanded, his green eyes alit with anger. “I want Pierce to know that I was the one to take those shots. I want the glory to be mine. Do you understand me?”

He had a feeling that the way in which Sykes’s mouth twitched had to do more with amusement than fear. Finally, without a word, Sykes nodded.

Disgusted, Brady brushed past him and headed down the hallway. Figures, that the moment he finds something as colossal as this, it was stolen from him. He dared Sykes to try and take the credit, because what the other man doesn’t know is that he had made copies.


Sykes waited until he heard Brady’s footsteps disappeared as he rounded the corner before he finally gazed back down at the pictures again. The photos were incriminating, indeed, and the young rookie was right to want to give them to Pierce personally. Such a gift would put the boy in Pierce’s high esteem, not to mention bring forth the beginning of closure in the investigation.

Oh, yes, Pierce would just love to find these on his desk.

And with that final thought, Aaron Sykes held the envelope in the palms of his hands and watched as they erupted into an orange, smoldering fire.

* * *

Everyone jumped from the living room furniture when they heard a car approach. It was a race to the front door, with Isabel and Michael neck-in-neck. Rian lagged behind, the last of the group to step out onto the porch, and just in time to see Max hop guiltily out of the cab of Liz’s SUV.

She watched as Isabel hurled herself into her brother’s arms, could hear the muffled sound of her chiding him through her fearful, angry tears. She saw Michael stalk towards Max as well, and could only imagine the hostile look in his eyes. Oh, yes, Maxwell Evans was in deep shit.

Yet none of that interested her. Rian averted her gaze and watched as Liz tiredly opened the back door of the SUV. A second later, two black blurs bolted from the car as Mulder and Scully raced for freedom, kicking up dust in their wake.

“Are we dog sitting, Liz?” Rian asked and finally took that step down and off the porch.

Liz shuffled forward, her eyes shielded carefully behind the tint of her glasses. Her hands were delved deeply into her pockets. “I’m going to be busy for the next couple of days. The hours will be hectic,” she explained. “It’s not fair for them to be cooped up at the house all day, by themselves.”

Her friend nodded, eyeing her skeptically. For a human it would be difficult to gauge Liz’s emotions with her eyes deliberately covered, but for Rian, she felt Liz’s emotions rolling off of her in waves. Most prevalent was anxiety, followed closely behind by fatigue.

Ever the helpful one, Rian quipped, “You look like shit.”

Liz smiled sarcastically. “Thanks, a lot.”

Rian shrugged. She didn’t ask any questions; she didn’t need to. She knew that within her own time, Liz would bring the subject up herself. Right now, she just needed time.

Maria approached then, followed my Alex. Kyle stayed at Tess’s side just in front of the porch steps, but he was watching Liz carefully, concern evident in his expression.

“How are you?” Maria asked, and wrapped her arms around her friend. Liz hugged her back, always finding security within her friend’s embrace.

“I’m pissed off,” she laughed. After leaving Maria’s arms, she was immediately enfolded into Alex’s. “I could kill him, but I’m okay. I’m just a little tired.”

“He gave us all a scare,” Alex muttered broodingly, as he set Liz away from her, only to glare at Max from over her head. “What was he thinking?”

“Well, he certainly wasn’t using his head,” Rian pointed out. Then, in a low tone so as only Liz could hear, murmured, “His big one, anyway.”

Liz remained utterly still, as if she hadn’t heard a thing. “He’s stupid,” she finally settled for saying. “But he’s safe now. We weren’t followed.” She glanced over her shoulder and watched and Isabel cupped Max’s face in her hands, her expression irate as she continued to give him the third-degree.

He deserved it.

“You hungry?” Maria asked softly, and gently took Liz’s hand. “I have soup and sandwiches prepared for lunch.”

And it occurred to Liz that she was famished. She’d barely touched her breakfast that morning, and the long drive – with only the oldies station producing any sort of sound – had left her feeling more exhausted. She needed sustenance.

In an effort to prove to her friend that she was all right, Liz squeezed Maria’s hand and offered her a smile. “I’m actually very hungry.”

“Good, then let’s get you inside.”

And with that, she was tugging Liz towards the house. Rian fell into step behind her. When she stepped up onto the porch, she paused to look over her shoulder. The screen door slapped shut behind Maria, Alex, and Liz, leaving Rian alone on the porch. Her turquoise eyes immediately zeroed in on Max Evans. It only took a moment for his eyes to meet hers as well, and the hint of painful emotion in the dark depths confirmed her suspicions. Absolutely nothing had been resolved.

She felt a strange sense of…compassion for him.

Max averted his gaze, this time focusing his attention on Michael’s wrath. Rian breathed in the crisp noon air, and then turned on her heel to enter the house and be with her friend.

* * *

“Yes, Sir, I’m sure…My man saw them leave her house together, just this morning. Yes, Sir. No, he stopped following her after a certain point, Sir, because we already suspected where she was going.”

Jonaphan Calder paced the length of his tiny hotel room. The oscillating fan did little to sooth his heated skin, but did wonders on aggravating his already edgy nerves. He was seconds away from tossing a shoe at it, just to get it to shut up.

“No, Sir, I have yet to receive contact from the mole…Pierce? His location is unknown, I didn’t feel it was imperative so long as he was out of the way.”

Jon continued to listen to the authoritative voice on the other end. All the while, his blue eyes tiredly surveyed the room, looking for his elusive cup of coffee. He needed the caffeine, and he needed it pronto. The next question posed stopped him in his tracks.

He blinked as his eyes settled on the black and white photo of Liz Parker staring up at him from the tiny table.

“Yes, Sir,” he confirmed softly, reluctantly. “Apprehension is imminent.”
* * *

Rian reentered the kitchen just in time to hear Maria quietly ask, “What happened?”

Liz turned from the counter just as Rian came into view. Her sunglasses had been removed, and her gaze flitted to hers before they fell downcast. She cleared her throat and seated herself at the table, in front of her sandwich and bowl of soup.

“Nothing.”

Maria snorted. “Liar.”

Rina shot Maria a look, pleading with her not to press. The blonde nodded and then turned back to the stove, ladling out another bowl of soup. “Here,” she said, and motioned at Rian. “This is for you.”

Rian frowned. “I’m not hungry.”

“You’re always hungry,” Maria pointed out. “Now eat.”

Alex leaned against the counter, his long legs crossed at the ankles, and a smirk on his face. Maria had become tenacious with feeding people.

“What about Whitman?” Rian asked, a childish tone in her voice. “You’re not going to make him eat?”

He glowered at her to which she replied by sticking out her tongue. “Alex,” Maria sang. “Here’s a bowl for you, too. Sandwiches are on the table.”

With a grimace, Alex took the plate. He tried to reason with her, even though he knew the effort was futile. “Uh, Maria, I’m still full from breakfast.” They’d had eggs, bacon, toast, hash browns and waffles. Even Rian had had difficulties consuming all that food just to appease Maria, whereas Kyle had scarfed it down like he hadn’t eaten in days.

Maria looked over her shoulder and gave Alex a deliberate once over. “You’re too thin.”

“Maria,” he whined.

“Eat.”

With an exasperated huff he seated himself next to Liz at the tiny kitchen table. Beside him, Liz was eating spoonful after spoonful of the thick soup. Her sandwich remained untouched, but the liquid in her bowl was decreasing at a steady rate.

“Hungry?” He quipped.

Liz met his gaze, a small smile on her face. “A little,” she confirmed.

Rian sat across from Alex, twirling her spoon around in her soup. She eyed Liz carefully, worriedly, and patiently waited for her to meet her gaze. She needed to convey a very silent but very important message to her friend.

If the far off look in her friend’s eyes was any indication, then Rian knew exactly what had transpired between the Max and Liz. And if it were true, then they needed to have a little chat. Pronto. Yet Liz carefully avoided Rian’s gaze, and it was beginning to wear on her patience. She watched as Liz continued to silently eat her lunch, her moves almost robotic as she did so.

Rian stifled an audible groan, and, taking matters into her own hands – er, feet – kicked Liz under the table. A brief flicker of pain flashed in Liz’s eyes, but her otherwise slow movements conveyed nothing. She lifted her gaze and peered inquisitively at Rian from behind tired, brown eyes.

Quickly, Rian flicked a glance at Alex. He was chewing sullenly on his sandwich, his head downcast. Her gaze went to Maria, and noted that she was busy ladling out more soup for the rest of the gang. Finally, she stared pointedly at Liz, and mouthed the words “we need to talk, now,” and hoped she conveyed the severity of the matter.

Liz swallowed, paled just marginally, before she nodded. She glanced up at Maria, her back was still to her, and shoved her bowl away. “I better go check on my mutts before they run amok.”

Maria turned around. “You haven’t finished eating,” she pointed out.

Liz rolled her eyes, but tried to smile. “I’ll finish after I get them inside. Who knows what kind of trouble they’re getting into?” She stood from her chair, and Rian followed suit.

Maria eyed Rian, but before she could comment, she had darted out of the kitchen right behind Liz. They walked out of the house and down the porch steps. Max and the others were still congregating outside. Rian groaned with impatience.

“I need to speak with Liz,” she called out to them. “And you guys need to scram.”

An annoyed expression passed over Michael’s face. Isabel only continued to stare at Max in anticipation of his explanation. Kyle grinned, and was the only one to start leaving as he tugged Tess towards the house behind him.

When the others neglected to follow in their wake, Rian crossed her arms. “Scram, now?” She tried.

That seemed to garner Isabel’s attention. She rolled her eyes, latched onto Max’s forearm and marched across the yard with Michael shuffling behind them.
Rian didn’t miss Max’s attempt make eye contact with Liz, or the way in which Liz kept her gaze averted. When they others were finally in the house and out of ear short, Rian rounded on Liz.

“When is your period due?

Liz stiffened and swallowed convulsively. After a moment, she finally found the ability to speak again. “I don’t know, two weeks?” She murmured and scratched her eyebrows. “All this stress has made me a bit irregular.”

Great. “Okay,” Rian breathed, and pinched the bridge of her nose. “Okay, then there’s something you should know. Max is an alien, so those little swimmers – well, they’re more like marauders – ruthlessly strong and fast. We’re talking Michael Phelps fast, Liz.”

If it were possible, Liz went paler. Rian watched as she struggled to main her composure, to just stay on her feet. She licked her lips. “So, what you’re saying is, I could already be pregnant.” It wasn’t a question so much as a statement.

“It’s a possibility,” Rian stated emphatically. “In which case, if you are, then this vigilante mission of yours has to end. Now. We have no idea how an alien pregnancy will affect you, regardless of the fact he’s a hybrid.” She laughed, though it sounded strained. “It’s not like we can google the gestational period, Liz. We have to use every available precaution regarding this.”

For several, tense moments Liz was strangely silent. She stared listlessly over Rian’s shoulder, her dark eyes void of emotion.

“I’m not pregnant,” she whispered.

It was on the tip of Rian’s tongue to argue, to tell her she doesn’t know that yet. She won’t know for certain until she gets her period, or doesn’t – or if it even matters. But the vacant look in Liz’s eyes gave way to desperation, and stilled any words Rian had meant to say.

Rian was never one to cater to anyone’s feelings. She had no qualms with saying what she meant. She was always the first that slap of reality. This time, however, she found herself making an exception.

“You’re probably right,” she said softly, and the way Liz’s gaze flickered back to hers told her that she didn’t believe the lie in her words. “But,” she continued. “We still need to be careful. And it’s about time this has ended anyway.”

Liz nodded absentmindedly. “I couldn’t agree more.”

* * *

“You know,” Michael began, his tone even and his brows furrowed. “These kinds of stunts aren’t your forte, Maxwell. Why don’t you leave the stupid act-before-thinking stuff to me the next time, okay?”

“Do you have any idea how worried we were?” Isabel demanded haughtily. “Of course you don’t! You were too busy thinking about yourself.”

Max tore his gaze from the window where he’d been watching Rian have the private discussion with Liz that she had demanded. Though, he had a good idea what it was about, he still wanted to be out there to hear it, to be supportive.

Reluctantly, he met Isabel’s gaze. “I’m sorry, Is,” he murmured, and then eyed both Michael and Tess in turn. “I’m sorry. It was stupid – dangerously stupid – but I had to….”

As he trailed off, Isabel sank into the couch cushions beside him. Her arm went around his shoulders, and she gave him a reassuring squeeze. “I know you’ve wanted the opportunity to speak with Liz for a long time, but you can’t keep pressuring her,” she reasoned. “For every step you take towards her, she’s taking two steps back. She’s not ready, Max. She has a lot of things to deal with before she’ll be stable enough to listen to your explanation. And I think you need to respect that.”

Max understood the wisdom behind his sister’s words; he knew she was right. “But I can’t,” he whispered, and his eyes drifted back to the window. “I feel like if I don’t talk to her soon, then I’ll lose the chance all together.”

* * *

Daniel Pierce was pissed off.

The lead on Alex Whitman’s whereabouts had been nothing but a trail leading to one dead end after another. It had been a waste of time. Valuable time in which he could have spent here, making sure shit gets done right.

Yet when he’d gotten the tip, Daniel had been allured. He’d wanted to find Whitman himself. He’d wanted to administer the interrogation himself. The thrill of the impending chase had sent anticipatory chills up his spine. Above all else, he’d wanted answers, and he’d felt certain that upon finding Alex Whitman, his aliens would be within his grasp. His intuition told him the extraction of the specimens had involved the missing young man.

Or alien.

Perhaps it had been his blood found on the scalpel. While the experimentations had been fruitless in forcing shape-shifting, Pierce felt certain that the rumored legends were true. Maybe that was why he hadn’t been found. Maybe he was hiding in plain sight.

Pierce pinched the bridge of his nose and snapped the case file shut with a thud. He leaned back in his chair and stared at the phone on his desk, expectantly. He’d called Sykes over four hours ago, upon his return to headquarters. The other man had been left in charge in his absence, and Pierce was eagerly awaiting debriefing.

Yet, when he’d called, the call had gone straight to Sykes’s automated voicemail. Sykes always answered the phone, and on the rare occasions in which he did not, he was always quick to return the call.

Daniel Pierce was not a patient man by nature, and this unreasonable delay was not something he intended to tolerate. Not even from Aaron Sykes.

With a maddened glance at his watch, Pierce straightened the black tie he had loosened hours ago, and stood from his chair. He grabbed his suit jacket, put it on, and buttoned. Next, he ran his fingers through his short hair. A quick glance in the mirror confirmed that he was somewhat presentable.

Perhaps he’d pay another visit to Liz. He had missed her in his absence.

Feeling much better, Pierce crossed the room and swung open the door. The door automatically locked behind him, and he’s just stepped away when an eager looking young man approached him with rapid strides. He looked a bit disheveled, tired even, but the gleam in his green eyes told Pierce he’d consumed a lot of caffeine.

“Hello, Sir,” he greeted with nervous excitement. “I’m Agent Riley J. Brady.”

Pierce gave him an annoyed once over. “Good for you,” he jeered and immediately side-stepped the young man.

“Uh, S-Sir,” Brady stammered and quickly fell into step behind him. “Did Agent Sykes not tell you about me?”

“No,” he sighed wearily. “And I’ll be sure to commend him for it. Now please make yourself disappear.”

“But, Sir,” he called out to him, his tone hardening with determination. “But I was the one who took those photographs.”

“I have no idea what photographs you are referring to,” he bit out heatedly. “And you are trying my patience very quickly, boy.”

“I knew it,” Brady whispered conspiratorially, and lengthened his stride. He fumbled with his briefcase, got it opened and pulled out the copies he’d been sure to make. “These photos, Sir.”

Pierce whirled on the young man, intent on reaming this man a new asshole, when his eyes focused on the colored photo-copies in his outstretched hands. It only took him a moment to recognize the faces.

Gingerly, he took the photos in his still hands.

“If I were you, Sir,” Brady began evenly. “I would be asking myself why my right hand man didn’t find it necessary to show me these.”



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Here we are. As always, thank you to those of you who have stuck around through my absences and inexcusable lack of updates. You're amazing. I swear, this story is almost finished. If I can just buckle down and beat it the hell out, I'm estimating five remaining parts.

I hope you'll stay with me until then.

Thanks to my beta, Steph, and my friend Rachael for finally getting her ass online to hold me hand while I tried to write.

And, here we go....

Part Thirty
She felt a headache coming on. Irritated, Liz lifted her slender fingers from the keyboard and rubbed her tender temples. Her dark eyes drifted close in a vain effort to shut out the entire world, to surround her with blessed darkness and perpetual silence. It was a wonderful place, this world behind her eyelids. There were no rogue branches of the FBI or overeager agents. There was never any need to constantly look over her shoulder or to only feel safe when she carried her pistol. Aliens, for sure, didn’t exist. Everything was perfect.

Liz heaved a sigh and finally opened her eyes. That world didn’t exist, and it was about time she faced reality.

She read the letter and then read it again. It was perfect: professional, polished, convincing. Satisfied, she clicked print and listened as her printer across the room hummed to life. She sat back in her seat for a moment, watching as her letter of resignation appeared in the tray. She had cited inappropriate conduct by a superior figure. She intended to drop the succinct letter in Pierce’s mailbox and then disappear.

The others had turned in their letters last week. Rian should have new identities for them all. By the end of the week the house would stripped of their very presence.

And soon, they’d be gone. Free. This madness – this dangerous, crazy life – was about to end. Once the Unit was destroyed life would continue as normal. She was finally doing what the others had wanted her to do all along.

It wasn’t exactly the kind of ending she had envisioned. Pierce wasn’t dead. The Special Unit compound wasn’t a smoldering mass of smoke. But people were safe. Alive. It would have to do. She tried not to be annoyed by the fact. She used to feel – truthfully, still felt – that justice would be served only when the Unit was gone, and Pierce was dead.

Yet as it was, Daniel Pierce would not receive a bullet hole to the head – at least not any time soon and not by her – and her jaw clenched at the thought. He didn’t deserve to get off so easily. A lifetime behind bars, being stripped of his title and prestige would not be enough. Yet her letter would achieve exactly that.

And she tried not to be angry at the idea that she was settling.

It was safer this way, she tried to convince herself. Firstly, her letter of resignation – printed and awaiting her signature – would free herself from not only the Special Unit, but Daniel Pierce as well. Secondly, the formal letter to be prepared next would describe the suspect actions of the Unit, and would lead to an investigation and Pierce’s apprehension.

Definitely not at all like she had planned, but it would have to suffice. She’d been doing this far too long now, and had long ago grown weary of the life she led. A little R&R was in order.

Liz smiled wistfully. Maybe it was time she took that trip to Montana, after all.

She stretched languidly, felt a little twinge in her lower back and grimaced. Her period had come right on time (and she’d sent an arrogant little text to Rian when it happened), fatigue, mood swings, and aches tagging along. Mother Nature still served as a reminder of her stupidity. She’d done countless stupid things that night. She should have taken Max home immediately. She shouldn’t have slept with him; she definitely shouldn’t have slept with him without protection. They hadn’t even been that dumb as teenagers.

She’d sweated bullets for two weeks, praying that she wasn’t pregnant, that she didn’t have one more life to be responsible for. Truth be known, the fear of pregnancy had propelled her into action. She told the others to turn in their two weeks’ notice. They were leaving as soon as possible. It needed to be over, especially if she was going to try to bring a new life into the world.

When the happy news arrived, she celebrated. She drank herself silly off two bottles of beer. When she’d woken up the next morning, with a blistering headache and tender eyes, she cursed her newfound inability to hold her alcohol. There had been a point in time when she could have drunk Kyle Valenti under the table. Those days were sadly gone, now.

Despite the fact there would be no hybrid alien baby, Liz still felt good about her decision. It was a long time coming that was for sure. She felt a weight being lifted off her shoulders, and she knew, soon, she’d be able to breathe again.

She blinked, straightened in her seat and opened a new word document on her computer. With her resignation out of the way, she had a new correspondence to write. Quickly, she formulated the letter, listing improprieties such as illegal experimentation and torture. She was careful not to use the word alien, opting instead to use detainees. She knew that an investigation would be immediately launched. If Pierce was quick enough to cover tracks, well, then she’d already decided she’d plant whatever information necessary to make sure the next investigation was fruitful.

Liz’s fingers slowed their dance over the keys as she ended the formal letter. She leaned back in her seat, blinked. This was it; the beginning of the end.

Despite the change, her priority remained the same: keep everyone safe. That meant leaving Arizona and probably not returning to California. Rian had mentioned leaving the country; Liz hadn’t been so sure. Though now she wondered why she had initially rebelled against the idea. It wasn’t as if any of them had ties to any one place.

They could spend the rest of their lives travelling.

They could spend forever looking over their shoulders, for as long as Pierce was alive there would be a threat.

Liz shoved the thought from her mind and focused on the now. It was ending, her part in the entire charade at least. She was removing herself from the Special Unit, washing herself clean, and living her life the way she wanted to.

She couldn’t wait to breathe.

The letter finished. She sat back in her chair and eagerly filched the awaiting orange from her desk. Her nails dug into the tough rind as the fragrant scent wafted her to nose. She hated peeling oranges, and she briefly entertained the idea of using her powers before dismissing it. Though she was 99.8% sure her office wasn’t being monitored, it would be just her luck if she blatantly displayed her powers for Pierce to witness. Changing the inks in her pen wasn’t exactly something noticeable. Orange peel twisting in mid-air was a different story.

Eagerly, she bit into the juicy fruit. She chewed and wondered what would transpire if Pierce or someone did catch her exuding such an anomaly. Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad. If Pierce found out, then she’d have to kill him. Maybe she could make his brain explode.

That wasn’t such a good idea. She remembered with embarrassing clarity just how weak she was in regards to her powers. Last week she had pushed herself too hard. Impressed with her ability to throw up her shield – which she discovered to be a kind of light russet color – and hold it for several minutes, Liz decided to see what else she could do. Weary of the menial exercises Rian had prescribed her, she concentrated on the eye-sore of a boulder in her backyard. If she could just get the thing to blow up….

Her nose had bled for forty-five minutes, and the stupid rock remained obstinately in place. She could still hear Rian scolding her over the phone: “increments, Liz. It’s dangerous to push yourself too hard.”

Or she could be the one with the exploding brain.

Her mind drifted as she continued to eat her orange. She wondered what would happen to them when it was over. Would they all stay together or go in different directions? The consensus thought was safety in numbers, but if Pierce got close to one them, if he found one of them, then he found all. Who was to say that Maria and Michael, and Isabel and Alex, and Kyle and Tess wanted to stick together anyway? Perhaps they wanted to experience life alone, with just the other. Rian always wanted to play nomad; she would definitely be on the go.

That would leave her. And Max.

Max. His eyes haunted her, pleading and gut-wrenching as he tried to talk to her. But she couldn’t. Not now, not yet – she didn’t know when. Right now it hurt too much.

The orange seemed to expand in her mouth, her throat seemed too narrow; it was difficult to swallow. She blinked back tears – tears that surprised her – and hastily clicked the print button. Finally, she forced herself to swallow, and the orange slice settled hollowly in the pit of her stomach. She threw the rest in the trash.

She couldn’t think about Max now. Not if she wanted to focus. She grabbed her blue pen and scrawled her name at the bottom of her letter of resignation. She’d drop that off in Pierce’s mailbox and be done with it.

Her printer spat out her next letter (this one would remain anonymous). The next hour was spent painstakingly removing every file, every saved document from her computer. Her laptop was in her bag and would come with her, but the desktop would have to stay. Satisfied, she shut down the tower and monitor. Then she crossed the room to grab her final letter and slipped it into her brief case.

As she shut off the overhead light, she looked around the room. It was Spartan. White floors, white walls. Barren desk. Plastic plant. It would be the final time she’d leave her office, and as she shut the door behind her, she didn’t bother to look back.

The weight continued to lift from her shoulders, from her chest, with every step she took. The resignation in her hand was the end.

Within no time, she dropped off her letter, crossed the dimly lit parking garage, and entered her car. The sense of relief that consumed her was so staggering that she ended up dropping her head to the steering wheel.

It was over.

Taking a deep breath, she started the car and made her way out of the garage. She watched as the Unit faded into her rear view mirror. She needed to go home and pack, get ready to head to the safe house before they all disappeared, but she didn’t want to. Her house would be depressingly empty without her dogs. She missed them.

Refusing to get depressed, she reached into her bag and pulled out her phone. Automatically she dialed the number, her eyes never leaving the road. She brought the phone to her ear and waited for the voice on the other end.

Calder.

As always, her face broke into a grin. “Hello, Agent Calder,” she greeted.

Good afternoon, darlin’.” His smile was evident in his voice. “How are you?

Butterflies fluttered in her stomach as she said the next words: “I did it, Jon. I finally did it.”

Her friend didn’t even pretend not to know what she was talking about. His sigh of relief was heady. “Thank God, Betsy-Ann,” he breathed. “I was beginning to think you were never going to get out of there.

She had been worried of the same. “It’s over,” she sighed. “I wrote my letter of resignation and –” she paused momentarily wondering if she should tell him this much, before she plowed ahead – “and I’m turning them in. I’ve written a letter to my superiors. I’m going to stop at the Post Office next. They’ve done some horrible things, Jon.”

He was silent on the other line. Then, he asked lowly, “What kind of things?

Liz shook her head, though she knew he couldn’t see her. “Let’s not talk about it yet,” she pleaded softly. “It’ll all be over soon. The Unit will be suspended. Pierce will go to jail. And I’ll be free.” She laughed heartily at that. “Tell that cleaning lady of yours to get out her duster, because once this is over I’m hopping on a jet and coming to see you.”


Jon’s smile was more of a grimace. He raked his hand through his messy head of sable hair, and turned his face towards the oscillating fan desperate for some cool air.

“I can’t wait to see you, darlin’,” he confessed, his voice a deep timbre. “Call me when you get things squared away. You can catch the quickest flight up here, and I’ll cook you a fine meal.”

Her laugh lilted across the line, and his throat constricted. “I’ll see you soon.

“Goodbye, sweetheart.” He ended the call, and allowed his eyes to drift shut.

His mind recalled the conversation he had with his superior, just moments before. He wanted her in custody. Now.

Jon sank heavily into the lumpy mattress, the knots in his stomach twisting in anguish. Just a few minutes – that’s all he needed – before he set in motion the events that could sever his friendship with Liz Parker.
* * *
The muscles in Kyle’s arm burned as he hurled the baseball across the dirt lawn for what had to be the thousandth time. He rotated his shoulder with a grimace, and then wiped the sweat from his brow as he watched the two dogs race after the ball, barking and snarling at one another. Scully darted back, victorious, and dropped the slobbered ball at his feet. She sat down on her haunches, her dark eyes peering up at him expectantly. Mulder was at her side a few moments later, mirroring her gesture.

He groaned. “Can’t I take five, guys?” He had no qualms pleading with two dumb animals, as he too dropped his butt to the dirt. “My arm is killing me. And you suck.”

Laughter behind him had him twisting at the waist. He had to shield the sun from his eyes with a thick hand to his brow. Tess’s silhouetted form came into view. She was smiling, her eyes bright. Gorgeous.

She bent and picked up the ball, tossed it between her hands once and eyeing the distance of the yard, before she let it go with a girly grunt. It soared across the lawn with speed and distance that had Kyle suspecting she’d put an unnatural amount of source behind the throw. She plopped down beside him then, her knees drawn to her chest, her arms curled around her calves. That beguiling smile remained intact, warming him.

“Hi,” she giggled.

Kyle darted a look after the dogs, noticed that they were still running – getting further and further away. He grinned at her. “Show off.”

Her only answer was a gentle shrug of her shoulders, before she dropped her chin to her knees and watched Mulder and Scully wrestle for the ball. Mulder snagged it this time.

She turned her head to look at him when she felt his gaze on her. “What?”

“When we’re out of here,” he began, his voice low, his smile wide. “I’m going to take you out on a date.”

Her blue eyes sparkled. “Promise?”

He nodded. “Sure. Maybe we’ll go to a carnival. We can play that game where you have to knock the pyramid of bottles down with the ball. And you can win me a giant pink bear.”

She laughed, as he had wanted her to do. “We can eat funnel cake and corn dogs.”

“But not together.”

“And we can go through that little mirror maze,” she went on, her voice growing excited.

Kyle smiled at her infectious laughter. “And we can go on the ferris wheel –”

“—and it’ll get stuck, when we’re conveniently at the top. And we’ll sit and watch the stars.”

He leaned his head against her shoulder, tilting his chin up so she could see the way he batted his eyelashes at her. “Why, Tess Harding, that is the most romantic thing I’ve ever—”

Mulder dropped the ball in his lap and licked him across the mouth. Tess fell back with laughter at the horrified expression that crossed Kyle’s face. Scully barked impatiently, and Kyle slowly dragged the back of his hand across his mouth.

“I did not want your tongue in my mouth.”

Tess snorted, and didn’t even try to sit up again. “Well, you can guarantee you won’t be getting mine in your mouth after that,” she quipped. “That’s just disgusting.”

Kyle grunted in response, and picked up the ball and threw it again. Of course, it didn’t go nearly as far as Tess’s throw, and he tried not to scowl at that. He wiped again at his violated lips and then fell back on his elbow, his weight slightly shifted so that he could peer down into her flushed face.

“You’re pretty.”

Tess rolled her eyes, her face flushing just slightly at the compliment. “I’m not kissing you, Kyle.”

“You couldn’t stop me.” He sounded very confident at that.

She lifted her hand, her slender fingers wiggling in front of his face. “Force field, remember?” She pointed out. “This is a lip-free zone.”

He pouted – his lips tucking out as he peered at her from beneath his lashes. “Can’t you just wave your hand and get rid of the doggie cooties?” He suggested. “It’s not my fault that I got molested.”

A giggle tickled the back of her throat, and she opened her mouth to reply only to be interrupted.

“I don’t think it’s the dog’s cooties she’s worried about.” Rian stepped off the porch. Her sunglasses were settled on her nose. Her baseball cap pinned her long, russet tresses to the top of her head. She strolled towards her car. “I think it’s your cooties that have her hesitating.”

“Riannan,” he groused; but the affection in his eyes countered his tone. “How lovely of you to interrupt. As always.”

“I’m going, I’m going,” she muttered as she reached her SUV. She nodded her head in the direction of the house. “Maria is experimenting with the frittatas tonight. Do you want me to pick you up something from Little Caesars?”

Tess groaned. Maria was a splendid cook, until she got that wild hair that told her to experiment with ingredients that should never be mixed together. “Please?”

“You know what I like,” Kyle added.

Rian gave a brisk nod and then silently sank behind the steering wheel. A moment later, she was heading out of sight. The dog’s came back. He grabbed the ball, threw again, and then lay down in the dirt next to Tess.

“She’s getting bolder with her experimentations,” Tess mused. “I hate lying to her.”

Kyle shrugged. “So, don’t.”

She glared at him. “You can be a little more tactful with your opinions, Kyle Valenti,” she said to him. “I thought she was going to fillet you next.”

“What would you even call what she made last week? I think she just dumped a bunch of ingredients in a pan, and then shoved it into the oven.” He shuddered. “It was disgusting.”

Tess leaned up on her elbow, her brow knitting thoughtfully. “Maybe she’s getting tired of cooking. We could probably help out every once in a while. Give her a break.”

“Nah,” he murmured and waved off her suggestion. “Maria likes to cook.”

“Still, it would be nice if we helped out, don’t you think?” she asked. “Maybe she’d like to stare up at the clouds with Michael, instead of standing behind a stove.”

Kyle looked unconvinced. “And you want to take her place? You,” he continued, “who failed epically at spaghetti.”

“I hate you,” she muttered, her pale cheeks tingeing pink at the memory. “Okay, fine. So, maybe we don’t have to cook. Call Rian and tell her to order extra pizza – that way no one has to cook. Have her pick up paper plates, too, so that there’s little cleaning. Maria works hard in there, Kyle, and she’s our friend, and—”

“Yeah, yeah,” he mocked even as he hitched up his hip to dig out his cell phone. “I get it.” He murmured quietly to himself as he punched in Rian’s number. Their conversation was brisk as he relayed the new game plan. Once finished, he grinned at Tess. “Better?”

She finally kissed him, a soft, chaste brush of lips. “Yes, thank you.” She beamed, and then was up and rushing to the house to tell Maria the news. Kyle was just about to follow her, when two paws planted themselves on his thighs. He met Scully’s dark gaze. Her musty dog breath panted excitedly behind the ball in her mouth, her expression expectant.

He considered his sore arm with a scowl. “This was a bad idea.”

Tess bounded into the kitchen and raced to Maria’s side. She wrapped her slender arm over her friend’s shoulder and reached over to turn off the oven. “No more cooking this evening,” she ordered, her tone as commanding as a Queen’s. “Rian is picking up pizzas and paper plates. You, my friend, are officially off duty.”

“I’ve already started,” she hedged, and encompassed the ingredients on the counter. “I can’t just—”

“You can, and you will,” Tess laughed, and began the search for plastic wrap. “We’ll put them in the fridge. They’ll keep, I promise.”

Maria’s tone was slightly offended as she stated, “You don’t like my cooking.”

“I love your cooking,” she insisted, and she honestly did. Just not so much the frittatas. “But you work so hard on feeding us. You deserve a break.”

She considered that a moment and muttered an, “I guess,” even as she began to untie her apron. “Pizza actually sounds kind of good.”

Tess grinned, and together they fell into a companionable silence as they began to put things away. Maria hovered in front of the opened fridge, eyeing the contents inside.

“I want to cook,” she murmured softly, “because I think this’ll be one of the last nights we have in this house.”

Her words stilled Tess. She turned from the counter, her blue eyes riveted on Maria. “When?” she breathed.

Maria shrugged and finally shut the door. She turned to meet Tess’s gaze. “Can’t be sure. I imagine though that Liz will want us to leave as soon as possible.”

Tomorrow. The word rang in Tess’s mind. We could be gone tomorrow. Her heart thundered in her chest as she allowed herself to hope. Maria was right; Liz wouldn’t want them to linger longer than necessary. Their departure would be swift, taking only what was needed: a few changes of clothes, toiletries, and most importantly, the fresh identities Rian had created for them.

Tess thought about the manila packet, setting on the coffee table, with her new life inside. She hadn’t opened it. She hadn’t peeled back the flap and discovered her new name or the new details of her being. She had been afraid; if she opened it, then maybe it wouldn’t happen.

Footsteps sounded in the hallway, and a moment later Kyle entered the kitchen. He took in Tess’s features and then stopped.

“What’s wrong?”

She met his gaze, gave him a shaky smile. She was overwhelmed with the thought of being free once again. Instead of saying so, however, she crossed the room and cuddled into his arms.

“Nothing,” she whispered. “Everything is going to be okay.”
* * *
Liz’s phone rang as she pulled down her street, after dropping off the letter. Houses were becoming more sporadic, distancing themselves from hers. She enjoyed the solitude, and would miss it.

“Parker,” she sighed into the phone.

Pizzas tonight. Should we be expecting you?

“Yeah,” she breathed, waiting a beat before continuing, “How are things?”

Everything’s copacetic. Notices filed. Last days completed. Everything is in order.” She paused. “Do we have an ETD yet?

Liz breathed deep, easy. “Tomorrow. If not, then the day after – at the very latest.” She smiled. “Get everyone ready.”

Done.

They hung up; Liz dropped her phone on the passenger seat and heaved a sigh. Tomorrow, hopefully, they’ll be gone. Out of Arizona, away from Pierce and the Unit, and on to wherever they please.

Her house came into view, looking oddly desolate. She pulled into her driveway, cut the ignition, and – leaving her laptop between the seats – headed inside. She paused to plug in her security code as the door shut behind her.

Her stomach growled, urging her to stop by the fridge and grab something else to snack on. She didn’t though, mindful of the pizza to be consumed in a few hours. After jogging up the stairs she practically sprinted into her bedroom. From the closet she pulled out a duffel bag already packed with several pairs of clothes, a pair of shoes, and toiletries. She scanned her room, determined there was nothing of importance she needed, and headed back downstairs.

The office was a different story. Full of files and paper work, there was nothing she could leave behind. They could become of use later. Folders and discs were thrown into her duffel bag; her desk was completely cleaned out. In one of the drawers, she spotted a picture of Jon, his arm slung over her shoulders and his goofy grin in place. It went into the bag, as well.

Liz stood from her desk, eyeing the opened empty drawers. Satisfied, she crossed the room and lifted a Kandinsky painting from the wall. She turned the dial of the safe, smiling once again at the obviousness of the hiding place, and swung the door open. The first thing she grabbed was her berretta and ankle harness. She almost turned to put it in her duffel before she decided against it and strapped it on. Next, she reached into the back of the safe and withdrew a tiny, velvet pouch. She didn’t open it; she couldn’t bring herself to peer inside. Her fingers rubbed against the fabric and all at once she came in contact with the hard metal of her engagement and wedding rings.

Her chest constricted, her eyes burned, and before she could linger on the emotions, she stuffed the bag into her pocket, slammed the safe shut and walked away. She didn’t even bother to put the painting back. She had already decided she wouldn’t be returning.

She zipped up the bag, slung it over her shoulder and marched out of the office. Her gaze didn’t shift as she passed the kitchen or the living room. Her house was full, but to her it was empty. Everything she needed was stowed in her bag. She was going to leave and never look back.

When she stepped out on her porch, she noticed two things at once. First, the day was glorious. The sun was just beginning its decent in the clear blue sky; she thought to herself that she’d miss a view like that. Then, she heard the crunching of gravel as a black sedan pulled into her driveway, blocking her exit.

The passenger side door opened, and an agent got out and positioned himself beside of her car making further escape impossible. The backdoor opened, and as her chest tightened – certain that it was Pierce – she was able to release a breath when Agent Brady exited the vehicle instead.

He smiled at her and took off his sunglasses. Her heart thundered in her chest, and she knew immediately what was going on. Her mouth went dry. Still, she maintained her stance.

“Agent Parker,” Brady greeted, his broad smile arrogant. “Pierce would like you to come with us.”




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Re: Absence Makes the Heart...(M/L,MATURE)PT 30, pg 4, 6.1.09

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Hi everyone, I'm back with an update.

Writing is going smoothly so far. So, thank you so much for being so patient and encouraging; I appreciate it tremendously.

Many thanks for Steph for taking time to beta this crap. We love her for it.

And thank you all so much for the feedback!

Tears_of_Mercury No babiez for realz, thanks. They suck...z.
Evans3 *waves!* hi, Wendy! (:
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Don't give up on Jon just yet. ;)
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pffft, if Liz got pregnant, this fic would *never* end. You think I could let a little alien baby get a small little cameo? Nah, we'd see the booger grow up. We can't have that; I'll be writing this when I'm fifty as it is. ;)

Thanks again!

And here we go....


Part Thirty-One
“Agent Parker, Pierce would you like you to come with us.”

Carefully, Liz schooled her features. Her bored expression was incongruous with the painful fear raging within her. She slipped her sunglasses on, heaved a sigh, and descended the two steps.

“This is an inconvenience.” She managed to keep her voice steady. One delicate brow was arched above the rim of her glasses.

Brady actually smirked at her remark. “Ah…yes, I’m sure it is, ma’am.” He humored her. When she tried to head to her SUV, he stopped her with an upraised hand. “You’ll be riding with us, ma’am. And we’ll need to take your bag.” An agent approached her and deftly slipped it from her fingers. Brady’s dark eyes glittered. “And your gun.”

Her breath shuddered in her chest and she tried to heave another indifferent sigh to conceal its treachery. Slowly, she reached for her side holster and relinquished it.

“Are you carrying anything else, ma’am?”

She raised her eyebrow defiantly, but remained silent.

Sensing that she had just issued him a challenge, Brady’s smile widened and he nodded his head to the agent at her right. He came to her and immediately began to pat her down with large, fumbling hands. He lingered in places that had her fists furling and her arm just itching to cock; she just wanted one swing. He bent, patting his way down her legs and effortlessly discovered her berretta. Her pistol was handed off to Brady and her stomach dropped.

He stepped aside and opened the back door for her. “After you, ma’am.”

Rigidly, she approached the car. Out of the corner of her eye she noticed an agent removing her laptop from her SUV. She slid into the back seat and kept sliding until she reached the other side. Brady slipped in beside her, and the second agent took the front seat.

The car was silent as they pulled out of her driveway. She didn’t bother to ask them what was happening; she already knew. Instead, she stared out the window, watching the scenery pass by as she tried in vain to come up with a plan. She was outnumbered and weaponless. The odds were not in her favor.

Her thoughts continued to race, circling the when’s, the where’s, the how’s. Somehow her carefully laid plans had been scattered. In no time they reached the highway, and instead of heading south towards the unit compound, like she’d anticipated, they went north. She blinked, tossed a glance towards Brady and noticed his twitching smile. Her blood ran cold. They weren’t going to meet Pierce at the compound. In all likelihood, Pierce was going to meet them. And they were going to rendezvous at the safe house.

She didn’t know how she knew that. She didn’t know how they figured it out, but she was absurdly certain that they’d discovered the location of the others.

She heard the blood rushing in her ears, felt every thunderous beat of her heart as it tried to pound its way through her chest. Would Pierce have a unit waiting for them at the house, with her friends already in custody? She had just spoken to Rian, not twenty minutes ago, maybe they were still okay. Maybe there was still time.

Deftly, she reached into her jacket pocket, watching Brady from her peripheral. Her thumb brushed over the keys as she contemplated her sudden scheme. It would be impossible for her to remove her phone from the safety of her pocket. He’d see her and would surely confiscate it. Liz had never been good at the blind texting; it would only result in a completely indiscernible message.

Liz leaned her head against the seat and stared hard at the ceiling. She knew what she had to attempt, and it scared the shit out of her. Mind warping her dogs were one thing, but to try it on a human – three humans to be on the safe side – was something different entirely.

She might be able to get away with warping only two, she mused. Hopefully the driver would keep his eyes on the road and not consult the rearview mirror. Her main concern was Brady, though. He definitely needed warped, and smacked, the bastard. The agent in the passenger seat kept darting leering looks at her in the mirror. He was the one who had gotten a little friendly with her breasts. He needed a swift kick in the groin, as well.

Heaving a sigh, she focused. First, she had to decide what they were going to see. Immediately she determined it didn’t need to be anything extravagant. She just needed them to not notice her. Simple, right?

She gripped her cell phone in her hand, closed her eyes, and concentrated. Instantly, she felt the pressure building in her skull, concentrating to a point in the middle of her forehead. Fighting to keep the warp under control, she opened her eyes and darted her gaze amongst the agents. If it worked, then she should appear to be sleeping. If it didn’t, when she slipped out her cell phone then she was screwed.

There was sharp twinge in her head, nearly shattering the warp. She wavered, gathered control and slowly began to withdraw her cell phone. Brady turned his head towards her, and she froze, her breath hitching. He stared at her face, his eyes expressionless, and then turned his head away again.

The twinge shifted to pain and began to build in startling increments. She had to get the message sent, now. Quickly, she opened her contacts, found Rian’s name, and produced a new message. She sent it, stashed her cell phone, and just leaned her head back when the warp suddenly dissipated. Her face was flushed, her temples pulsed, and her eyes felt like they were on fire.

“Agent Parker.”

She opened her eyes, lifted her head, and immediately felt the trickle of blood seeping from her nose. Lifting her hand, she caught several drops before they splattered her shirt. Her eyes darted to Brady and noticed that he had handkerchief outstretched. She took it and pressed it to her nose.

Beside her, Brady pulled out his own cellphone.

Her eyes fell shut again as she relished the silence. Please don’t let it be too late.
* * *
The phone chirped; he picked it up, listened, and then silently placed it back on the receiver.

Liz Parker was in custody.

Pierce stood from his chair, straightened his tie, and made his way out of the office. The pictures Agent Brady and presented him were still seared in his mind, pictures that determined her duplicity, her betrayal. His heart ached at the very thought. How could he have been so effortlessly played?

After discovering the truth, he briefly thought it was a mistake that could be explained away, just like her involvement in the escape. After two weeks of extensive investigations, however, Liz’s slip up was finally revealed. She wasn’t infallible, after all, his little genius. She had been driving an hour, several times a week, to meet a friend: a female, tall with long red hair. It took them a while but his agents were finally able to tail Liz’s friend, and were led directly to the others.

It took everything he had not to order an immediate apprehension, but in the end he had decided against it. He had plans for all of them.

His steps echoed against the bright tile of the floor. Liz was in custody now, and in a matter of hours the others would be, too. Then, he could put this embarrassing ordeal behind him.

Anger suddenly assailed him, causing his jaw to tighten and his hands to furl into white-knuckled fists. He found the presence of mind to relax his hands, jabbed the down arrow for the elevator and waited impatiently. Sykes had told him from the beginning of the aliens’ escape that Liz Parker could not be trusted; he should have listened.

Sykes. That bastard had also betrayed him. He had neglected to give him the photos and had been out of communication for the past two weeks. Such a lack of prudence was only excusable if he were dead.

The elevator dinged and the doors slide open wide. He stepped inside, and hit the level for the garage. Soon, he’d be face-to-face with Elizabeth Parker once again.

And then he was going to take great pleasure in killing her.
* * *
Kyle balanced three slices of pizza in his palm, winked at Tess, and then exited the kitchen. He paused briefly in the hallway. Alex and Isabel, and Michael were eating in the living room; Rian was sitting on the porch steps, smearing a generous helping of mayonnaise on her slice of pizza. He turned, pushed through the screen door and joined her.

“That’s disgusting, Kellar.”

“Don’t knock it until you try it, Valenti.”

He sat down and took a healthy bite and chewed thoughtfully. The sun was beginning its descent in the blue, nearly cloudless sky. It was hot, but not muggy, and every so often he felt a cool breeze coast through the air. In all the years they’d spent in Arizona, he’d never appreciated it as much as he did that day.

He swallowed and broke off a piece of pepperoni before popping it in his mouth. Beside him, Rian eagerly bit into her pizza, mayonnaise smearing on the corner of her mouth. She glanced at him from the corner of her eye, offered him a bite. He shook his head, a slight grimace forming on his face.

“Rian I need to ask you something.”

She slowed in her chewing, the seriousness in his tone alerting her. She forced the bite – bigger than it should have been – down and gave him her full attention. “Shoot.”

He found a stray banana pepper on his pizza, picked it up and flicked it off his thumb. Finally, he settled his gaze on her.

“What are the odds that what’s happening to Liz will happen to me?” he asked.

Rian inclined her head, took another small bite, and chewed contemplatively. After a moment she swallowed and turned her head once again to regard him.

“I honestly don’t know,” she replied. Her eyes searched his warily. “Do you—”

He answered her question before she could fully formulate it, “I don’t feel any different, no, but it kind of snuck up on Liz, didn’t it?”

“It snuck up on Liz because she didn’t take care of herself. If it was going to happen, then it should have been a slow, unnoticeable process. It could have continued to assimilate well after these past ten years, Kyle.”

“So, if it happens to me, it might not be any time soon?”

“If it happens, yes,” she agreed, “but there’s no guarantee that it will happen. Maybe there was something in Liz’s genetic composition that attracted the alien cells. You might not have it. It could completely skip you. You’d remain completely normal.”

Kyle averted his gaze. After several moments of silence, he finally spoke, “It wouldn’t be so bad, being like you. I was just curious as to what signs I should be looking for, how to prepare for the inevitable.”

“It isn’t inevitable,” she reminded him. “Take care of yourself. Eat regularly. Sleep regularly. Let me know if you develop a sudden incapacity to hold your alcohol.”

He gave her a look that said that was unlikely to happen. “Would you help me?” he asked, grinning. “If it does happen, will you be my devoted sensei? The Pat Morita (may He rest in eternal peace) to my Ralph Macchio?”

Rian rolled her eyes. “You’ll try my patience, Valenti.”

“I’ll be the best pupil you ever had.”

She stared at him, a tiny smile playing on her lips. “If it comes to it, then yes.”

Kyle grinned, his demeanor becoming noticeably more relaxed. He lifted the pizza to his mouth and said, “I’m going to be a kickass mutant.”

Rian’s laughter nearly drowned out the shrill beep of her cell phone. She reached into her pocket and pulled out her phone. It was a text from Liz; she flipped it open.

“Fuck.”
* * *
She handed him a plate with four slices of pizza. Max eyed the meal ruefully, knowing that there was no way he’d eat it all, but smiled anyway. “Thanks, Maria,” he said.

She smiled at him. “You look good, but we still gotta keep you fed.”

He sat down at the table, next to Tess; she handed him the Tabasco sauce. He poured the red liquid liberally over his pizza. The smell immediately wafted to his nose, making his mouth water. Maybe he could eat four pieces after all.

He had just lifted a slice to take a bite when Rian plowed into the kitchen. Her expression was ominous and her gaze hard. She looked at every face in the room, except his. Dropping the pizza he stood from the table.

Her gaze barely flickered. “It’s time to depart.”

Having heard her loud entrance, the others rushed into the kitchen as well. Kyle, who had been right behind Rian, went to Tess’s side, gripped her elbow and helped her from her seat. “How long do we have?”

She met his gaze. “You need to cover as much ground as you can, as quickly as you can. You’re heading to Montana. ASAP.”

Alex entered the kitchen fully, with Isabel inching to his side. At Rian’s words he rounded on her, his expression incredulous. “You’re not coming,” he stated flatly.

Rian shook her head.

Max swallowed, gripped the ends of the table in his hands. “Where’s Liz?”

She didn’t look at him, didn’t blink. “I’m not sure. The message didn’t say, but in all likelihood she’s with Pierce. And they’re coming this way, so—”

“I’m staying, too.”

Her response was swift, emphatic: “No.”

Max’s gaze hardened. “You’re not stopping me from doing this, Riannan.”

“Rian,” Kyle breathed before she could muster an angry retort. “Max is right. If Liz is in trouble, then she’s going to need help.”

“Why do you think I’m staying behind?” she demanded, her tone sharper than she had intended. “I’ll wait for them here, intercept her, and then we’ll follow you as quickly as we can. You—” she pointed at Max “cannot be here. You’ll ruin everything that she’s worked for, and I won’t let you do it.”

“I’m not leaving without her.”

“Rian,” Kyle tried to interject again.

No.” Her hands curled into fists at her sides. “Liz wants you as far away from this as possible, and right now, we’re wasting precious seconds arguing about this.” She paused, took in the emotionally conflicted faces of her friends and Max Evans’ angry expression. “Alex, Kyle, get everyone in the car. Take the back roads for as far as you can. They’ll be looking for you on the highways. Maria, will you get Mulder and Scully?” Maria nodded and slowly made her way out of the kitchen. “Michael, Tess, Isabel, you can grab some clothes, but be quick.” The girls rushed out; Michael stayed. Finally, Rian regarded Max. “You forget that right now you’re in no condition to mess with me. I’m currently more powerful than you. King or not, I will take you and knock your ass out.”

Max’s chest heaved, and he looked as if he were preparing to knock Rian against the wall – physically or telekinetically, it didn’t matter. Michael stepped to his friend’s side and gripped his shoulder.

“C’mon,” he urged, his voice oddly quiet and soft. “We gotta go.”

His gaze never left Rian’s as he said, “I can’t leave her, Michael.”

“She’ll be okay,” he soothed, his eyes, too, stared at Rian. His words were pointed, “Rian will take care of her.”

Slowly, Max began to tremble. His knuckles were white. His palms hurt from the force of his finger nails embedding into his flesh. It was becoming too much of a routine, his leaving her behind. He left her to pursue his destiny on Antar; he left her behind at the compound to fend for herself against the FBI. Now, he was leaving her again. His stomach revolted against the cowardice.

Noticing his inner turmoil, Rian stepped forward. “If you stay,” she began, her words briefly stirring hope within him, “then she’ll no longer be the prime target. You will. I can’t protect you both. They’ll take you and deal with Liz later.” His eyes fell away from her, and she took another step towards him. “But if you go, if you save yourself, then I promise you – I swear to you, Max – that I will bring her back.”

His heart clenched in his chest. He lifted his gaze to hers once more, opened his mouth to speak, and said nothing.

“Trust me,” she whispered.
* * *
Rian rubbed each dog behind the ears. Their warm doggy breath puffed in her face, making her grimace slightly. “Mutt and Muttley,” she crooned affectionately. “I’ll see you guys later.”

She stepped back and pushed the lift gate shut. Their panting breath immediately began to fog up the back window.

“Rian,” Maria called as she came up behind her. Maria placed her small bag on the ground, stepped towards her, and opened her arms. Rian stepped into her arms, and they squeezed around her tightly. “Be careful. Please don’t do anything over the top.”

She rubbed Maria’s back soothingly. “That’s my middle name, DeLuca.” She leaned back, squeezed her friend’s shoulder. “I’ll bring her back.”

“Stop that,” she scolded scornfully. “I’m not just worried about Liz. You be careful.”

Maria stepped back completely, and Alex took her place. He hugged her close. Due to their matching heights, their cheeks brushed and she felt the slight sting of his stubble. “Seriously, Rian, don’t do anything stupid.”

“Your trust in me is overwhelming, Alex,” she deadpanned, but she felt his fear for her.

“I do trust you,” he admitted, and kissed her temple. “I just don’t trust you to not put yourself at any undue risk.”

“I do what needs to be done.” She held his gaze; he nodded once and then stepped away.

Kyle may have been several inches shorter than her, but that didn’t stop him from hugging her waist and lifting her off her feet. She struggled momentarily against him before he placed her back on her feet.

She didn’t want to hear anything emotional from him, and she braced herself against it.

Kyle reached up and pinched her cheek. “Hurry home, Honey Bunches of Oats.”

Immediately, she shoved his hand out of the away. “Asshole,” she murmured. She glanced around the rest of the faces. “All right, you guys need to get a move on.”

They nodded, doors began to open, and then she was attacked. Tess Harding hugged just as fiercely as Kyle. “Thank you,” she whispered as she stepped away.

Isabel stepped forward, wrapped her arms around her, too, and Rian began a slow quake inside. Unidentifiable feelings started bubbling within her. She couldn’t lift her arms to reciprocate, could only stare blankly over the blonde’s shoulder. She met Maria’s gaze, whose eyes were filled with unshed tears.

Isabel released her and returned to Alex’s side. Michael stepped forward. He didn’t hug her, but he did offer her his hand. A handshake she could do. He pumped it in the air twice, gave her a brisk nod, and then turned on his heel to usher Maria into the SUV.

She didn’t look at Max, though he felt his gaze on her. She also knew he wouldn’t approach her. Instead she watched as her friends piled into the SUV, Max the last one climb in. Only then did he turn his head and stare at her.

She read his thoughts, nodded once, and watched as he shut the door behind him. For several minutes she stood there even after the SUV had disappeared from sight. Then she took a deep breath and headed inside to the cellar.

And waited.
* * *
Her nose had stopped bleeding long ago, but the rapid-fire beating of her heart was still going strong. She could see the house, and she watched helplessly as it grew bigger and bigger before her. With every mile gained, her body rebelled against her attempt to remain calm. Knowing her chance of escape was minimal, Liz tried to maintain a relaxed and energy-saving demeanor. Yet her mind, worried about the livelihood of her friends, prevented her from achieving it.

She prayed Rian got her message and they made it out in time, prayed that she in turn could make it out.

Beside her Agent Brady was a giddy mass of energy. As he stared anxiously out the window, his leg bounced feverishly briefly reminding her of her dogs’ tails. Her lungs constricted and her palms grew clammy.

Please let them be gone.

They slowed to a stop right in front of the house, several yards away from the tiny, light blue sedan the others had left behind; she briefly wondered if the keys were inside. Liz stared, as Brady did, looking for any sign of life within the walls. The door didn’t open; the curtains didn’t stir. There wasn’t a sound to be heard.

And she began to hope.

They didn’t get out of the car. They didn’t say a word. Though curious as to why, Liz remained silent and watched the agents intently.

It didn’t take long before an SUV and another sedan arrived. Eager as ever, Brady shifted at the waist and stared out the back window, and unable to help herself, Liz did the same. Four agents filed out of the SUV and quickly fell into position in various places around the yard. Three came from the car, before the back passenger door – on the driver’s side – opened and Agent Pierce appeared.

He seemed to find her gaze almost immediately.

So frozen with fear, Liz didn’t hear the agents in her car exit. She didn’t hear them call her name, until her door was opened, and she was roughly removed from the backseat. Brady’s fingers dug into the tender flesh of her arm; he smiled at her grimace.

Pierce took a moment to adjust his tie before he approached her.

“Agent Parker.”

She took a deep breath, but didn’t say a word.

“I’m sure you’re wondering why we brought you here,” he continued despite her silence. His shaded eyes scanned the property, taking in the house and dry land. Then, he smiled and met her gaze. “Or are you?”

Brady’s grip still held her firmly beside him. Out of the corner of her eye she saw him grinning hugely as he stared respectively at Pierce.

“Elizabeth?”

She quickly refocused. Pierce’s smile was still in place, though his brow was now furrowed inquisitively.

“Do you know why you’re here?”

Liz allowed herself one more deep breath, before she propelled into action.

Pain exploded behind her eyes as she forced the mind warp. Curses and shouts filled her ears as the agents reacted to the fabricated sight of an alien spaceship – bright and loud – hovered above them. Shots were fired wildly into the air. Brady released her. Liz’s eyes shot open and, like a snake, she reached out and ensnared his elbow. Her hand went to the gun strapped to his ribs, and in a swift movement she knocked his legs out from under him.

And then she was running.

She made it six feet before the pain became too unable. Liz staggered and fell to her knees, and she felt the blood gushing from her nose again. Sounds from the men behind her were no longer noises of fear but confusion.

With a roar, Pierce ordered her apprehension, and the agents were moving once again.

Struggling through the pounding in her head and the blood marring her face, she pivoted, shifted to one knee, and poised her gun. She fired a shot and an agent went down. She fired another but missed. The one racing directly towards her withdrew his gun.

And then he was airborne, sailing backwards and colliding with the agent a few feet behind him.

Liz was on her feet, propelled by the force gripping her shoulders. Through the painful haze and the sun in her eyes, she was just able to discern russet color hair floating through the air.

“Rian?”


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Re: Absence Makes the Heart...(M/L,MATURE)PT 31, pg 6, 6.08.09

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Hi, everyone!

Wasn't sure I was gonna make the unofficial deadline I made for myself! I really wanna try and update every Monday, and I was cutting it a little close this evening.

I puttered around all week and wrote like a fiend the past two days to make up for it. I got slowed down this afternoon with the spontaneous news that I'm going to be an aunt.

Weird. But I'm gonna be the best cross-country aunt, ever. ;)

So, thank you all so much for the feedback! And thanks to the two people who I could not manage without: Rachael & Steph. Thanks, ladies. ;)

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And on we go....

Part Thirty-Two
Rian wasn’t at all gentle as she shoved Liz’s head back against the seat.

“Keep your head back,” she ordered gruffly. “And here: press this against your nose.”

Blindly, Liz accepted the coarse rag and pressed it firmly against her gushing nose. Even through the blood she could discern a musty scent from the fabric.

For several moments they were silent, the only sound to be heard the roaring of the blue Sedan’s engine as Rian pushed it to its limit.

Rian’s eyes continually darted to the rearview mirror. “What did you make them see?” she asked suddenly.

Liz sighed. “UFO.”

“What?” Knowing that Rian had heard her correctly, Liz didn’t bother to repeat herself. “Jesus,” Rian murmured a moment later. “With a mindwarp like that – on a dozen agents – it’s a wonder your brain didn’t explode.”

Liz pulled the cloth from her nose and eyed the globs of clotted blood ruefully. “I’m not so sure it didn’t.” She pressed the rag back to her nose, and watched as Rian darted furtive glances in the rearview mirror. “Why aren’t they following us?”

“I blew out their tires,” she replied, and then muttered absently, “Did they really think they could handle a house full of recuperated aliens with only a dozen or so agents?”

The sudden roar of a car’s speeding engine had both women staring out the passenger window. In the middle of the deserted land an SUV was barreling towards them, the tires kicking up dirt and rock.

Rian grinned as she pressed on the accelerator. “Now that’s more like it.”

“That’s more like it,” Liz parroted. She blinked at her. “Rian, this doesn’t help our situation. At all.”

“I know, but I was beginning to think they weren’t trying very hard. Those guys must have been hiding, waiting. Smart fellows.”

The SUV’s tires squealed as they turned quickly onto the road, directly behind them. Immediately, the vehicle picked up speed as they resumed the chase.

“How fast can this car go?” Liz asked wearily.

Rian eyed the odometer grimly; the pedal was to the floor. “Not fast enough.”

“So we’re going to get caught.” It was a statement.

Rian simply grinned at her.

“You’re enjoying this.”

She kept a steady gaze in the mirror, gauging the distance between the two vehicles. Her smile was derisive. “You know me, Liz. Danger gets me all kinds of excited.”

The road had been otherwise deserted, but up ahead loomed a sudden pick-up truck, old and rusted and slow. Rian deftly veered into the opposite lane and passed it.

“So,” she began easily, once the truck began to disappear from view and the SUV took its place. “Montana, huh?” Her tone was acerbic.

Wisely, Liz didn’t explain her decision. Instead she asked, “The others are okay?” She dropped the rag from her nose; the bleeding had stopped.

Rian nodded. “On their way to Jon’s as we speak. I got them out of there almost as soon as I got your message.” She cut Liz a pointed glance. “A certain individual put up a fight, of course.”

“Of course,” Liz murmured, reaching into her pocket for her cell phone. She pressed the speed dial for Jon. He answered immediately.

Liz?
* * *
You know how you’ve always said I could ask you for anything?

It wasn’t her words that had Jon tensing, but something in her voice alerted him. If he didn’t know her so well, he would have missed the underlying panic in her otherwise steely tone. His heart picked up. Moments before he’d learned from his agents that she wasn’t at home even though she had left from work hours ago. Somewhere between point-A and point-B they had missed her, and were currently out scouting for her.

Maybe they didn’t need to any longer. Maybe she was coming to him.

“What’s wrong?”

I need to impose on your hospitality a little sooner than discussed,” she answered, “and I’m bringing friends.

Her words propelled him into swift and immediate action. He raced across the small hotel room and haphazardly swept the files and photos, spread out upon the dinky table, into his duffel bag.

He tried to keep his voice from sounding too eager as he said, “That’s just fine, darlin’. And you know it’s no imposition at all.” His eyes scanned the room, searching for other materials of significance. “When should I be expecting you and your friends?”

They should be there early tomorrow morning, or the afternoon at the very latest.” She paused. “I’m going to be a day behind, I think.

Jon didn’t bother to ask her what would be holding her up; he was certain he knew the answer. There was no point in placating her with his ignorance any longer.

“What do you need me to do?”

And just like he knew she would, Liz didn’t pretend to misunderstand his question.

I don’t know, yet,” she sighed, bone-deep and weary. “But keep your phone on, please. I may call you soon.

Jon was rushing out the door, his bag slung over his shoulder, as he delved into his pocket to retrieve his alternate cell phone. Hastily he sent a mass text relaying the deviating plans of action: Abort. Do not intervene unless absolutely necessary. Let subject come to me.

“Anything, Liz,” he urged her once the message was in transit. “Nothing is too big, and there isn’t anything I can’t do. Do you understand me? My arms can stretch pretty far, darlin’.”


In the car, Rian eyed the car’s control console warily as she pushed the vehicle well past its limitations. In a few miles, they’d reach the interstate. With rush hour traffic it’d be easier to dodge the agents in their tiny car, but the reprieve wouldn’t last long.

“A vehicle,” she muttered upon overhearing Jon’s promise. “We could use one. Is that something he can manage?”

Liz glanced at Rian, and then relayed the request. She hung up a few moments later. “He’ll call us back when he has one.”

Rian arched a sardonic brow. “Impressive,” she groused, and then cut Liz a hard stare. “I still don’t trust him.”

“And I’m out of options,” Liz countered. She stared down at the blood that soaked the front of her shirt, still wet and dark. Her tone was quietly fierce as she declared, “He won’t let me down.”

Rian didn’t respond. Instead, she focused her attention on keeping the agents from getting too close. Thus far the little car had done an admirable job at evading the speeding SUV, but Rian wasn’t confident it had much left.

They needed another car, and fast.

The tires squealed as she took the entrance ramp too quickly. The smell of burnt rubber wafted to their noses.

The highway wasn’t too dense to maneuver. The last dregs of rush hour traffic made it easy for the little Sedan to weave in and out between cars, whereas the mammoth SUV struggled considerably, blaring its horn at every driver.

Within minutes, they lost sight of the SUV. It was then Liz’s phone went off. At the tingling noise she was simultaneously consumed with excitement and resignation; her phone wouldn’t be an asset for long.

“We have to lose this phone,” she murmured before she answered the call. “Jon, that was fast.”

Yet still with satisfactory results,” he teased. “Where are you?” Liz informed him what exit number they were approaching. “Perfect timing. Take exit 37 and follow the signs to Rich’s gas station. I’ll have a vehicle waiting for you there.

“Thank you,” she breathed. The SUV appeared in view just briefly before Rian floored the gas again. “Jon—”

I know, sweetheart,” he interrupted. “I’ll see you soon. Call me if you need anything else.

“I’m going to ditch this phone.” The last thing she needed was to have their location triangulated, especially after they’d made it so far. “But I’ll get in touch with you as soon as I can get a track phone.”

Be careful.

“Promise.” She hung up the phone and looked smugly at Rian. “See?”

Again, she remained silent, diligently watching the traffic waning behind her.

“We’re coming up on our exit.” Sitting on the edge of her seat, Liz alternated glances between the road in front of them and behind. The last vestiges of traffic had fallen behind; in front of them the way was clear. “This exit,” she murmured as she darted a final look behind them.

And saw the SUV barging through the dispersing groups of cars.

“Rian—”

She had already noticed and was gunning the engine, speeding down the exit ramp and barreling through the yellow light only a second before it went crimson.

They found Rich’s gas station effortlessly and pulled into an empty parking lot. Rian eyed Liz suspiciously as they got out of the car.

Liz was buttoning up her black suit jacket in an effort to shield the blood stain as Rian rounded the hood. She clasped her elbow.

“Here,” her friend said quietly and pressed the butt of a berretta into her palm. Liz tucked it gently into the waistband of her slacks. She was barely able to discern the outline of Rian’s gun beneath her shirt.

Liz plucked at the fabric of her shirt, hoping some of the billowy material would cover what blood the jacket failed to. Then together they pushed through the doors of the gas station.

Immediately they were accosted by the frigid stream of air coming from the A/C. The hairs on Liz’s arms and neck stood on end at the shock. Chilly and wary, they glanced around the store; it was empty.

“Where’s the car?” Rian demanded quietly. She strolled down one aisle, while keeping an eye on the parking lot visible through the large store window.

Consumed with dread, Liz could only gaze around the store, as if hoping she could somehow conjure Jon before them, holding the keys to their escape.

“‘Scuse me, ladies.”

They both whirled to see an older gentlemen standing before them. Neither woman had heard his approach. Warily, Liz tucked her hand behind her back, skimming the metal of her gun with her fingertips.

He looked harmless enough. The name on his shirt read “Carl”. He was about Liz’s height, though it was obvious by the hunching slope of his shoulders that he had been taller in his youth. His grey hair was cut close to his scalp in a fashion reminiscent of military experience. Blue eyes shone benignly as he offered them a bright reassuring smile.

“I ‘sume you’re the ones looking for some alternate transportation.”

Rian only stared incredulously at the man, while Liz nodded mutely. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw the black SUV roll to a stop beside their sedan.

He noticed, too. “Looks like you got here just in the nick of time,” the man mused. Then he turned on his heel with surprising grace. “This way, quickly.”

As they wordlessly, albeit hesitantly, followed him through the employees’ door, he reached into his deep pockets and pulled out a set of keys, which he handed to Rian. Stopping suddenly in the large stock room, he pointed to a heavy metal door that was the rear exit to the store.

“She’s that way,” he supplied. “Gots a full tank of gas, but she’s a guzzler. I’d suggest finding another vehicle as soon as you can manage.”

Liz eyed him intently, yet saw nothing in his demeanor or gaze that would suggest deceit. “Calder,” she stated simply.

He nodded, his old face breaking into a deep, wrinkly smile. “Was one of my best customers. Good young man.”

She nodded in agreement, and then she offered a soft “thank you” to which he smiled and patted her shoulder.

The bell in the shopping area jingled noisily.

“Customers,” he said with a wink. “Best hurry.”

Rian opened the door and turned expectantly to Liz. “Our getaway.”

With a final smile, Liz sprinted out the door right behind Rian.

And skidded to a halt.

Rian groaned in restrained anger. “I thought the term inconspicuous was implied.”

Knowing they had no time to lose, and that this was their best shot, Liz jogged to the passenger side door and clambered into the cabin of the semi. As Rian settled beside her, impossibly dwarfed by the large wheel despite her tall physique, Liz offered her a tiny smile.

“Maybe this was all he could manage, given the time restraint.”

Rian shook her head as she started the ignition. The entire cab shook with the power of the truck, and she eased out from behind the gas station at a slow and lumbering pace that only a semi could accurately accomplish. “Bastard,” she murmured heatedly.

Liz stared out her window as the parked SUV slowly came into view. She twisted at the waist and peered into the window of the store. She was just able to see one agent questioning a suddenly taciturn Carl while the others searched the store.

At the sound of the truck leaving, one agent raced for the door, saw them, and alerted his partners.

Liz focused, and just as they were piling into the SUV to give chase, all four of their tires quietly exploded.

She turned back around in her seat and tenderly touched her fingertips to her nose. When they came away free of blood, she smiled triumphantly at Rian.

Rian grinned back as she shifted gears. Together they watched through the rearview as the frenzied agents pulled out their cell phones and made the necessary calls. Soon, their images disappeared from view completely.

Leaning her head back against the seat, Liz took her first easy breath in several hours. Her friends were safe; she in turn was safe, because Jon hadn’t let her down, and Rian had been there when she needed her.

“Thank you,” she whispered as she closed her eyes against the setting sun. She grinned. “Thanks for not taking orders.”

Rian laughed. “It was bound to pay off one way or another. Nap,” she urged. “You have to be exhausted with all the antics you pulled off this afternoon.”

She was. As she tuned out the loud groans and sputters of the working engine, her head lulling with the surprisingly soothing jerky movement, she drifted into a quiet, restful slumber.
* * *
“Betsy-Ann.”

“Liz, wake up.”

Her head rolled from one shoulder to the other. The muddled voice penetrated her slumber, and she tried to awaken herself, but her eyelids were heavy and incredibly difficult to open.

“Liz—”

“Betsy-Ann.”

“—wake up.”

Finally, Liz was able to force her eyes open, blinking several times to regain her focus. The cab of the truck was dark save for the lights on the console. The truck’s high-beams lit the deserted road, keeping the shadows of the night at bay.

“Liz,” Rian said more forcefully. “Are you awake?”

“Mm-yeah,” she mumbled. Taking a moment, she rubbed her eyes with the palms of her hands and rolled her neck to loosen the muscles. She groaned.

“Listen.”

Confused, Liz stared at Rian and was about to question her when she heard it:

“Betsy-Ann.

She froze, her eyes widening. The nickname Jon had bestowed upon her was being broadcasted through the CB-radio, but the voice was unfamiliar. Definitely not Jon.

Rian glanced at her, a wry smile twitching the corner of her lips. “Caandy Caane.” She mimicked the villain’s voice from the movie Joy Ride with frightening accuracy.

Liz shook her head vehemently, her wide eyes holding no sense of humor. “Bad joke.” She stared down at the radio, and swallowed when she heard her name again. She tried to shove aside her sudden fear and put a new perspective on the situation. “He has to be attempting to get a hold of me,” she explained softly. After all, they hadn’t stopped to get a track phone yet. Maybe something had happened….

She reached for the radio.

“Only bad things happen when you converse with truckers.” Rian’s hands twisted on the large steering wheel. “Not a good idea.”

“What do you expect me to do?” she asked. “What if it is Jon or someone Jon trusts? He said his—”

“—arms stretch pretty far. Yeah, I heard.” She shook her head again. “I don’t trust him, Liz. He gave us a semi-truck. A semi. That’s not exactly the crème de la crème of getaway vehicles. And now he’s telling people his pet name for you?”

“So I’ll know it’s from him,” she supplied, her tone becoming more confident. “It has to be him. He can’t get a hold of me, and there’s something I need to know. That’s why he’s doing this.”

Rian looked unconvinced but shrugged nevertheless. “You’re the boss.”

Before Rian could try to talk her out of it again, Liz grasped the handset, pressed the button and brought it to her mouth. “This is…Betsy-Ann,” she said somewhat reluctantly. “Who is this?”

She was met with static before the voice returned. “I’m a friend of Jon Calder. He asked me to try and find you on this frequency.”

Liz glanced at Rian. “What’s the message?”

“He asks you to meet me at the next truck stop.” He rattled off the exit number. “He has a new vehicle waiting for you.”

Rian’s gaze narrowed. “How does he know we haven’t passed that exit yet?”

“Estimated?” Liz suggested. “From the time we hung up with him, got to the gas station, and…now.”

“Flimsy,” Rian muttered. “I don’t like it.”

“What are our theories?” Liz asked, eyeing the road signs and counting down the remaining exits until the truck stop. “One: he’s legit.”

“Two: he’s a fucking serial killer.” She was awarded a glare. “Okay, two: Pierce’s minions. They know you’re close to Jon, suspect you’d ask him for help.” Rian thought about it a second longer. “I maintain he could also be a serial killer.”

“I think he’s legit,” she stated. “Jon’s trying to help.”

“Three,” Rian offered, her gaze focused on the road and her expression grim, “Jon’s not who he says he is.”

“No.” Her answer was vehement and without hesitation. “I’d sooner believe this guy’s a serial killer than a pawn in Jon’s betrayal.”

“You’re the boss,” she said again.

She was. Liz lifted the handset back to her mouth. “We’ll be there in five minutes.”

The voice came back, giving them details as to where to meet him: what kind of truck he had, what he’d be wearing and the like. Liz settled back in her seat, her palms sweating and her heart pounding. The guy was legit, she knew; she was positive. But she cursed Rian for even planting the seed of doubt in her mind.

He wouldn’t do that to her.

The minutes passed quickly, not giving her time to consider the situation. Rian rolled to a stop in the parking lot of the dimly lit truck stop.

“There.” Rian pointed to the truck at the end of a long row of semis that matched the description given. She reached for her gun and unlocked the safety. Liz did the same.

As they made a slow trek down the darkly quiet rows, Liz noticed that Rian had positioned herself slightly in front of her, her posture unmistakably protective. With every step, her friend shook her head, muttering to herself about psycho killers and truckers in angora sweaters and women’s panties. “Those weird types,” she whispered.

Six feet away from the designated truck, the door swung open on its hinges. They froze, their bodies tensed as they watched a tall, bulky man climb down from the cab. His shoulders were broad, and the fabric of his red flannel shirt stretched wide to accommodate the girth. He turned and the dim beam from the street light cast his face partially in shadow.

But his eyes, gray and cunning, were what struck her. She’d seen them before.

“Ladies,” he greeted, his voice gruff but benign. He tipped the brim of his imaginary hat. “Good to meet you.”

Rian thumbed the safety of her gun, assuring herself that it was off. “You have a car for us?”

He nodded, his smile remaining pleasant. “Indeed.” Cautiously he lifted one large hand, his smile taking on a wry edge. “Key’s are in my pocket,” he forewarned easily.

Rian gave him a brisk nod, giving him permission to continue. Her fingers flexed around the gun, her eyes assiduous, as she waited for him to retrieve the keys.

Liz watched mutely as this man, this man she somehow knew, pulled the keys from his pocket and slowly offered them. It took her a moment to realize, and she stepped forward to accept the keys.

“Jon has an Audi R8 waiting for you.”

Rian made a noise which very much resembled a purr of appreciation. “Thanks,” she managed after a moment.

He nodded, and turned to climb back in the truck when Liz stopped him. “How do you know Jon?” she asked, when she really wanted to know how she knew him.

“Nice guy,” he evaded. His gray eyes shone when he finally said, “Helped me out in a bind once. I owed him.” He touched the imaginary brim of his hat once again and then retreated to the cab of his truck.

Rian and Liz remained rooted in spot while he shifted the large vehicle in gear and lumbered out of the parking space. The cargo rolled away, revealing the shiny red Audi that had Rian nearly whimpering. She latched onto Liz’s arm and tucked her bottom lip between her teeth.

“This,” she whispered reverently. “This is love.” Without another word, she made her way to the car, dragging Liz behind her.

Quickly, because she still didn’t one-hundred percent trust the mysterious lumberjack, she searched the exterior of the car but found nothing suspicious. Finally, they folded themselves into the divine leather seating, and Liz swore she saw a tear sparkle in Rian’s eyes. “Twenty hours,” she breathed. “I can handle twenty hours in this baby easy.” She started the engine, and at the sound, she dropped her head against the steering wheel. “I think I may have had an orgasm.”

At that, Liz tossed her head back against the seat and bit her lip to keep from laughing. “Just drive, Kellar.”

She shifted the car into drive, pressed the gas. “Ooh, man.”

They left the truck stop in silence, laced intermittently with Rian’s outbursts of appreciation. As they sped down the interstate, Liz closed her eyes, thinking of the others. Thinking of Max, and Jon and how he’d helped her. And the strange man, with familiar gray eyes.

Within minutes, she fell back asleep.
* * *
The tiny car roared down the deserted highway and passed him in a flash of red. His body shook with the rumbling movement of the truck he commanded, but his gaze was steady. Within moments, they were out of sight.

Beside him, Serena stretched languidly. “I’d give anything to be an R8 right about now.” Her smile was whimsical as she said this.

Aaron Sykes said nothing as he grabbed his cell phone. He punched in the number and waited for the answer.

“They’re on their way. ETA 1600 hours.” He hung up the phone then. His gaze never left the road as he asked his companion of Pierce’s location.

“Pacing his office right about now, beginning to realize what twits he has working for him,” she answered on a laugh. “They found nothing in the houses. The helicopter crew gave erroneous information, and they can’t seem to pick up on the chip’s signal they tagged to her jacket.” She clucked her tongue in mock reproach, her dark eyes sparkling. “What a sad, sad end of the day for the Special Unit.”

This time he did look at her, and he smiled.


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Hi there!

Okay, so I think I kind of lied. I estimated that this story would be completed within five parts, now I'm not so sure. I'm 90% positive that I miscalculated. Oooh, well. But we're getting there! It's exciting, yeah?

Thanks so much to Steph and Rach! They're awesome and I love them!

And thank you all for sticking with me, and of course, for the feedback!::

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Rian usually does have a good head on her shoulds (past indiscretions excluded), but she's not infallible. ;) And thanks for sticking around to figure Jon out! The truth will be revealed soon. Thanks!
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Part Thirty-Three
He made it from Phoenix to his ranch in Montana in just over two hours. The flight had been jarring as he soared through the midnight sky. His thoughts raced, seemingly at the same speed as the plane he piloted, as he tried to organize the next week within his mind. When his mind wasn’t trying to out-fly the plane, he’d been explaining his course of action to his superior.

Boss man wasn’t happy. Liz wasn’t in custody, so technically, he had failed.

Arguing with the dark voice coming in through his earpiece always made me feel a little loopy. And that’s exactly what he was doing: arguing with his boss. Definitely not the smartest thing to do but Jon was running out of patience. For the fifth time, it seemed like, he explained the situation. He hadn’t heard back from his men yet – because he was still in communication with Mr. Verbosity – but he suspected his men were unable to apprehend Liz because Pierce and his goons had gotten to her first.

When that happened, she had turned to him for help just like they always knew she would. Now that she was on her way to him, she would be in custody, so he needed to shut the fuck up already.

He was finally able to rip the headphones off and throw them to the floor of the cabin with a groan. There was much to be done, and he was beginning to feel the time crunch.

Jon landed the plane in his open field and jumped from the cabin before the propellers had even slowed. It was a dangerous move and something he wouldn’t advise, but damn if he wasn’t in a hurry. He sprinted across the dimly lit field, and through the shadows he was able to discern Linda’s petite figure jogging towards him. Stopping just in front of her, he cupped her elbow and directed her beneath a tall spotlight that had been used to light his landing.

“Where are they?” he yelled above the roaring aircraft.

The still spinning propellers tore wisps of her dark blonde hair free from her ponytail. The screen of her cell phone lit brightly as she relayed the information.

“They were spotted entering Utah about an hour ago,” she said, her voice straining against the massive engine. “We estimate their arrival to be 1300 hours, but it could be sooner with the way Mr. Valenti is driving.”

“And Parker?”

She consulted her phone again; the screen cast a slight greenish tint along her jaw. “GPS tracked the car veering west for 50 miles before changing direction. We anticipate them crossing into Utah within the hour,” she divulged. “The original ETA was 1600 hours but—”

“They’re making sure they’re not being followed,” he mused. Linda nodded. “Regardless of when they arrive,” he continued, “we still have plenty of time to prepare. Keep me posted on Parker’s position. She’s our prime objective.” He squeezed her shoulder then and offered her a wink. “Great work, Linda.”

She ducked her head as a blush crept up her face. “Thank you, sir.” Her voice was just barely audible above the quieting plane.

Wordlessly, Jon jogged across the field, Linda keeping pace behind him. All around his home men were working double time to install and activate security cameras throughout the perimeter. Fences, barns, and trees served as mounting points for the miniscule devices. There would be nothing they could not see or hear.

He jumped over a wooden fence post while Linda took the time to push through the gate. She climbed into the passenger seat of the golf cart he used to get around his land just as he turned over the ignition. Immediately, she began thumbing through the list compiled in her phone.

“We have three of the four available guestrooms cleaned out. The last room is being cleaned as we speak,” she said monotonously. “New beddings have been purchased for the futons in the solarium and the living room. Your pantry was significantly low on food, so that has been restocked. And I would suggest that all your files be removed from the property lest they be discovered by the wrong person.”

“Good thinking, Linda,” he praised with another wink. “How about you handle that for me?”

“Of course, sir.”

Jon slowed the cart to a stop in front of his two-story home: his salvation and the one place he would always return to.

Nearly every window was alight. The shadows of the workers danced as they hustled to get the cleaning and rearranging completed. It was only mildly irksome to know that virtual strangers were in his home, rummaging through his things, and creating a world of organized chaos. Yet he pushed aside his irritation; he could handle it. It would all be over in a matter of days. With grim determination he entered his home.

The only question that remained was whether or not Liz Parker would forgive him in the end.
* * *
At 9 o’clock he was informed that they were five miles in transit. Grumpy and disheveled from the lack of sleep, Jon meandered into his downstairs bathroom for a quick shave, and emerged several minutes later to the beautiful sight of Linda silently offering him a steaming cup of coffee.

He grinned sheepishly at her as he accepted the mug. “You’re too good to me, darlin’,” he murmured as he took the first sip, which shocked his taste buds into alertness. “What are the odds you can fix me some breakfast? Pretty good, you think?”

“It’s in the works,” she promised with a wry grin. Her face went blank as she paused a moment to listen to the information coming through her ear bud. “They’re pulling into the driveway now.”

“Terrific,” he said as he tried to stifle a yawn. He walked past her, but took a moment to tug at her ponytail. “Wear your hair down to cover that earpiece.”

With a blush she hastily took down her hair, fluffing the flat strands around her cheeks.

Jon was already heading down the stairs of the empty house. All workers had left in the early hours of the morning; Linda remained only to keep up pretences as the housekeeper.

He stepped out onto the front porch just as Maria DeLuca emerged from the backseat of an SUV. Even from the distance he could see the tired bruising beneath her quiet green eyes and the sallow color of her cheeks. The familiar faces of Kyle Valenti and Alex Whitman also appeared, looking much the same as their friend. Even if he hadn’t met them all before, he would have known them from their files. As it was, he had indeed met them all, Maria on more than one occasion, through his relationship with Liz.

Careless of his bare feet, he stepped off the porch and approached the group, just as four other nameless faces emerged from the vehicle.

“Mornin’,” he greeted, his tone convincingly chipper and his signature grin in place. “How was your trip?”
* * *
Max watched as a tall, lean man with dark hair and laughing blue eyes pulled Maria into a hug. Beside him Michael tensed but remained quiet.

“It’s a pleasure having you guys here,” he drawled, his friendly gaze meeting everyone in turn. “I hope you find my accommodations satisfactory.” He said this as he shook hands with both Kyle and Alex. “Nice seeing you again.”

“Thanks for having us,” Alex said, his voice muddled with fatigue. “We really appreciate it.”

Jon dismissed him with a wave of his hand. “Think nothing of it. Y’all look beat,” he surmised with a sincere frown. “Hungry, too, I reckon. Come on in. The lady who keeps my house from falling to the ground has a fine meal prepared for you.”

Jon ushered Maria, Isabel, and Tess into the house and quickly pointed them in the direction of the bathroom and kitchen. Then he bounded down the steps again, obviously intending to help unload their menial luggage.

Max swung a backpack over his shoulder while Michael did the same with a duffel bag. Kyle picked up one more bag filled with the girls’ clothes, while Alex unhooked the leashes to the ever-eager Mulder and Scully.

With a grin Jon watched as the dogs took off down the drive, making a wide arc into the grass and racing around a large oak tree. They barked and nipped at each other, working off excess energy from the long trip. Chuckling, he turned his attention to the empty truck with a bemused expression. “Packing light, I see.”

Michael grumbled something unintelligible and made his way up the porch and into the house.

“That was Michael.” Kyle introduced the retreating figure with an eye roll. He jerked a thumb in Max’s direction. “This is Max.”

Max accepted Jon’s hand but said nothing.

“The tall brunette was Max’s sister, Isabel,” Alex continued, “and the short blonde was Tess.”

Jon’s face broke out into a grin. “Well, as I said, it’s a pleasure having you here. Any friend of Liz’s is a friend of mine.” He waited a beat, then with mug in hand, encompassed his home. “Please, c’mon in. Y’all must be hungry and tired.”

Wordlessly they followed. They filed into the wide entry hall and were met by a housekeeper who Jon introduced as Linda. Her face was bright and smiling as she said hello. She then offered to take their bags, and nodded her head in the direction of the kitchen. “The food is ready and waiting.” Her kind smile, and the promise of food, put them all at ease.

They made their way into the kitchen, Jon’s voice trailing behind them as he informed Linda, “We got two hungry Dobermans tearing up the yard. Do we…” The rest went unheard as the group took in the room.

The kitchen was huge to say the very least. It was bright even, with four large windows that filtered in a constant natural light. Everything appeared professional, from the stainless steel stove and refrigerator, to the gleaming marble countertops. The stove was in the center of the massive kitchen as part of the island counter. Maria stood before the island, reverently skimming the surface with her fingertips. Her gaze met Max’s, and her green eyes were bright as if to say: I love it here.

The dining table – large enough to seat ten people comfortably – was set with dishes, cutlery, and the serving platters which were emitting the most delicious aromas.

As his mouth watered and his stomach growled, Max realized he’d forgotten just how famished he was.

Jon entered then and grinned, as if sensing their yearning and reluctance to act upon it. “Y’all can sit down and eat if you want,” he offered. “Or you can wait for the ladies.” Isabel and Tess were still in the bathroom.

Kyle was the first to accept the invitation, and he sat down and grabbed the first serving platter he could reach – the sausage links. Next he spooned himself a hefty helping of scrambled eggs, followed by two pieces of French toast, three strips of bacon, and extra hash browns. He was shoveling food in his mouth before the others had even chosen a seat.

Max sat down, leaving a chair open between he and Kyle for Tess. Maria passed him the eggs after she helped herself and Michael. Max took a modest spoonful, passed them to Kyle, who then passed them to Alex – but only after taking another helping. It continued in much the same fashion with the rest of the dishes, until Maria kicked Kyle in the shin and politely reminded him that not only were they waiting on two other people but they were guests in someone else’s home.

The resounding hearty laughter came from Jon, where he was leaning against the counter, still nursing his cup of coffee and holding a piece of buttered toast. “Please, don’t hold back,” he said with another chuckle. “There’s plenty more where that came from, and lunch is at two.”

With those words, Kyle had no qualms about filching another sausage link and tearing into it with his teeth. Maria eyed him in disgust.

Isabel and Tess finally entered the room and took the empty seats beside Alex and Kyle. Ever the gentlemen, Kyle started to serve Tess.

“I tried to save you some,” he began with a devious grin, “but Guerin there eats like a horse.”

Michael flipped him off.

Jon grabbed another piece of toast and smiled politely at his guests. “If you’ll excuse me, I have some business to take care of. Once you finish, Linda will show you to your rooms and y’all can rest up, or feel free to explore the place if you’re up to it. Nothing’s off limits.” And with that he gave a nod and left the room. Max thought it he’d been wearing a cowboy hat he would have briefly touched the brim in that typical cowboy fashion.

They continued to eat in silence for several long minutes. It was all he was able to stand.

“Has anyone heard from them?” he asked quietly, though he already knew the answer. Unlike the others, he hadn’t slept throughout the entire trip; his mind had been too awake. He knew that Kyle’s phone had rung only once when Liz had called from her new track phone.

“Don’t call me,” she had said, her voice static-y over the speaker. “I’ll call you.”

But she never did. Max tried not to allow the fear to eat at him.

“Not since last night,” Kyle verbalized, and then added more confidently, “but I’m sure they’re fine.”

Yes, they were. Even at the positive thought, Max found he couldn’t take another bite, and he set his fork aside. He remained until everyone has finished, quiet and thoughtful.

Linda returned and offered to show them their rooms; they all agreed, save for Kyle and Tess who had just enough energy to roam around for a bit.

Max was the last to be shown his room. He entered sullenly, and as Linda quietly hustled away, he closed and locked the door behind him.

The walls were a light, cloudy gray. The sheets and bedspread were gray and black. He grimaced as he realized the décor matched his mood perfectly. He crossed the room, his sneakers soundless against the newly polished hardwood floor, and peered out the window. He was awarded with an unencumbered view of the long, winding driveway as it met with the main road.

It was all he saw. He didn’t see the abnormally beautiful, blue sky or the large puffy clouds; he didn’t appreciate the miles of mountains that Montana was specifically known for. His eyes, dark and tired, were focused on the road.

It was there he would wait and watch for her to come into view.
* * *
Liz had lost count of how long it had been since she last slept. Her eyes burned with fatigue and her mind was suffered from that muddled, fuzzy sensation, and she desperately wanted to just close her eyes and succumb to the darkness.

And she had tried, in vain, with no results. While her mind screamed, demanding sleep in a fashion similar to a toddler’s temper tantrum, her body utterly refused to rest. At one point during the endless night, with nothing but the moonbeams streaming in through the passenger window, Liz’s body literally quaked. She shivered, but it wasn’t from the cold, for when Rian turned on the heat it did nothing to still her and only made her perspire. She was so devastatingly exhausted that her body was no longer hers to control.

Yet when she closed her eyes her mind raced. Memories assaulted her – both pleasant and frightening – with the ferocity of a machine gun and she could nothing to silence them. Conversations jumbled unintelligibly and images blurred in a dizzyingly movie-like montage. She grappled for a steady foundation as her stomach threatened to revolt against the sensations. Reprieve was only found when her eyes were opened.

So she drove, only for the four hours Rian had needed to rest, but it gave her something to focus on. Her friend had slept restfully beside her, and Liz remained in a state of envious fatigue.

It was different from the times she had worked the elliptical machine until all she could do was crawl, still moist from a brief shower, between her cool sheets. Those times she had been a bundled mass of energy, craving release in order to find sleep. Now, she was – seemingly – on her last second wind, begging for sleep only to find it maddeningly out of reach.

Even after Rian had awakened, Liz offered to continue driving in hopes of distancing herself from the dizzying nausea. She was firmly refused, however, as Rian stated that she’d rather not crash when Liz finally did.

And, oooh, how she wished she could just crash.

They had watched the sun rise through the trees, the rays staccato dit, dit, dits through the thick branches, as Rian weaved through the back roads. They stayed away from the open highways as much as possible, going a little out of their way each time before resettling on their course once again. The whole time, her friend’s pale turquoise eyes were scanning the empty roads that fell behind.

Thus far they hadn’t been followed. There had been a tense moment when a helicopter hovered over head, and they feared they’d been spotted. Then it tilted and sidled away, revealing a local television logo.

They’d stopped several times for food, once at an open-all-night fast food joint. The other stops had been at tiny gas stations where they stocked up on sugar-filled snacks, the packages of which now littered the floor of the backseat. They had been ravenous.

When they finally entered Montana the sun had settled in the clear, blue afternoon sky, preparing for its slow descent into the horizon. Jon’s ranch was an hour away and neither she nor Rian felt compelled enough to waste any more time with precautionary detours. Even Rian, in love with the R8 as she was, wanted to get out of the vehicle.

She had called Jon to let him know they were close. His deep, slightly gruff voice soothed her in a way that was always surprising.

If he wasn’t one of her best friends, if she didn’t think of him as her brother, if her heart hadn’t already been stolen, broken, painstakingly repaired and at the risk of being recaptured, then Liz could have easily imagined herself listening to his voice everyday for the rest of her life.

“You’re gorgeous, darlin’” he had once joked with her, “with those bedroom eyes, that silky hair, and heart-stopping smile, but it would never work out between us.” He had sighed dramatically, defeatedly. “How does platonic life partners sound to you?”

At the time, it had sounded wonderful. But as much as she loved Jonaphan Calder, Liz knew, as Max’s face – simultaneously joyous and heartbreaking – flashed before her eyes, that she could never settle for that.

The break in her heart expanded, not in sadness or even hurt; no, she had healed from that slowly over the course of the past months. But it widened in grim acceptance and admittance.

And she wasn’t sure how she felt about that.

With her rapid-fire thoughts and slight delirium, Liz blinked confusedly once she noticed Rian slowing the sports car down a rough and narrow drive.

The trees broke suddenly, and Jon’s home came into view.

Rian’s voice held both relief and trepidation as she muttered, “We’re here.”

They reached the house, and Rian slowed the car to a complete stop. For a moment they sat quietly in their seats, staring at the house in front of them. The front door swung open as Jon appeared.

Liz relaxed in her seat, and Rian rolled her eyes.

She climbed out of the passenger seat, stretching the tight muscles in her legs and arms to the point of standing on the tips of her toes to gain the maximum length. The effects were surprisingly relaxing and she dropped her arms to her sides with a tired sigh. She met Jon’s gaze. His blue eyes were sharp and knowing as he eyed her, taking in, she was sure, her wrinkled slacks and ill-matching shirt. When they’d stopped for her track phone at a Wal-Mart, Rian had picked up a shirt for her to wear since her white blouse had been covered in her blood.

Liz knew her friend was assessing more than just her clothes as well. He was steadily taking in the shadows of fatigue beneath her eyes, the color of her cheeks, and the number of pounds she had lost since the last time they’d seen each other; he’d never be able to tell that she had regained some of the mass she’d lost.

Quietly, he stepped off the porch and reached her in three long strides. His long arms engulfed her, pulling her tightly into his chest. Her cheek rested against the hard planes of his chest, and she desperately just wanted to fall asleep. Yet as good as it felt it was just wrong. The wrong arms wrapped around her back, the wrong heartbeat beneath her ear, the wrong smell she breathed.

She sighed, the noise one of defeat and not content, and hugged him to her more tightly.

“You’re dead on your feet,” he murmured quietly, his chest rumbling against her ear. He rested his chin atop of her head and gave her a gentle squeeze. “You made good time, though.”

“Rian likes the car.” Even though she couldn’t see him, she knew his face broke out into a grin.

“Is that so?” A moment later he said, “Drives real fancy doesn’t she, Miss Kellar.”

Rian made a flippant remark, which Liz missed as she yawned with such jaw-popping force that tears swam in her eyes. Finally, Jon set her away from him and stared down into her tired face. “Let’s get you inside.”

Draping his arm around her shoulders, Jon ushered Liz quietly into the house. They entered the living room, where the others were gathered enjoying the television and comfy leather couches. At the sight of her, Maria squealed and leapt from the corner section where she had been nestled against Michael’s side.

She barreled into her, heeding no regard to Liz’s exhausted state, and hugged her until Liz thought she’d pass out. Thankfully she released her with a moist kiss on the cheek and went off to treat Rian in the same fashion. Kyle, Alex, and the others surrounded her in a less suffocating manner. Their voices blended together noisily as they asked her how she was.

“I’m so tired,” she murmured with a drowsy blink.

Before anyone could utter another word, the sound of heavy footsteps running down the stairs alerted them. Within moments, Max stormed into the living room. His eyes were slightly puffy and his hair disheveled from sleep. He blinked at her, as if unsure of himself.

“Liz.”

“Hey,” she managed, but could say nothing else. As it was she was already fighting the urge to walk into the arms she knew he’d open for her. She wasn’t ready for that yet.

“Let’s get you settled into bed, sweetheart,” Jon crooned softly and turned her in the direction the stairway. He tossed a wink over his shoulder at Rian. “Don’t worry, darlin’, I got a special room in mind for you.”

She smiled insincerely and flipped him off with enthusiasm.

Max had stepped wordlessly out of their way as Jon started up the stairs with her. She stopped in the middle and gave him a tiny smile. “Just tell me where to go,” she insisted. “You don’t have to walk me.”

Max knew the only available bedding was in the upstairs solarium. He spoke up before Jon could answer. “The last door on the left.” He gave up his room without a thought. He’d take the futon.

She nodded once, turned, and continued up the flight of steps. Jon stayed behind, and Max did too – for about three seconds.

“Liz—”

“Yes,” she stated wearily, already predicting his question, as she turned to regard him. “We’ll talk. Tomorrow, not right now. I’m too exhausted.”

He opened his mouth but the words didn’t come right away. He swallowed. “No, I wasn’t going to…I wanted to know.” Frustrated, he closed his eyes and then reopened them. “Are you all right?”

Understanding, Liz gave him a slow nod. “I will be,” she whispered. “And we will talk. Tomorrow, I promise.” She turned around again, half aware of Max’s presence still following her.

She found the room easily. Not bothering to remove her clothes, or even her shoes for that matter, she crawled dazedly onto the soft mattress and collapsed face first into a pillow.

Within minutes, she was breathing deep and sleeping.
* * *
“So,” Jon began as he sidled up to Rian. She was still surrounded by her friends, all of them quietly asking for details. When he moved closer, they stopped. “You hungry?”

“She’s awake, isn’t she?” Alex grinned.

Rian rolled her eyes, but said simply, “I could eat.” It was apparent to Jon that she was making a mundane effort to be civil towards him. It was all for Liz’s sake, of course. It surprised him that she even attempted with Liz out of the room.

He suppressed a chuckle and tilted his head in the direction of the kitchen. “Supper isn’t ready yet, but I can scrounge you up some leftovers.”

“That’ll be fine.”

She wordlessly followed him into the kitchen. From the refrigerator he removed the roast beef slices that had been used to make sandwiches at lunch. He placed the platter on the counter, turned, and gripped Rian by the shoulders.

Then, he planted a firm kiss on her surprised mouth.

The kiss barely lasted a nanosecond before she was whirling from his grasp, her face flushed with anger. With an easy grin he watched her fumble with her words, her hands closing into infuriated fists.

“You—” she sputtered heatedly, her mouth gaping, her eyes wide. “I – Fuck you!

He tried not to laugh. “Not right now, darlin’. Maybe later, if I can manage to get some of the people out of the house. No need for an audience.” His eyes sparkled as he asked, “You’re not into that kind of thing are you?”

Jon noticed the way her fists tightened even more and the way her eyes darted rapidly around the kitchen, perhaps looking for a weapon. Finally her eyes, which had darkened to a startling shade of gray, met his.

“Never again,” she vowed.

“Now, Riannan,” he admonished with an easy tone. “I seem to recall hearing those exact words a year or so ago. You can’t honestly think—”

“I will kill you,” she promised.

He couldn’t help it. He tossed his head back and laughed, knowing it would only serve to infuriate her further. Finally his expression turned serious. Well, as serious as he could muster with her fuming so beautifully at him. His eyes were still alight with his humor and mischief. He approached her in two steps, delighted with the fact she didn’t step away like a weaker soul would have. It wasn’t in her nature to retreat. Rian would sooner fight him than run.

“You remember, don’t you?” he asked her softly, his voice pitched low and just for her. He wanted to lift his hand and rub the ends of her silky hair between his thumb and fingers. “The Christmas party Liz invited me to,” he added. “I kissed you there, too, remember? I felt sparks.”

Something flashed in her eyes, something startling close to humor, before she stifled it with a scowl. “You were drunk,” she reminded him, “and I assure you that I felt nothing.”

With another chuckle, Jon did touch her then – a quick touch of his index finger to her lips. They were soft, and he wanted to kiss them again. He refrained. She sneered at him as he retreated. “You’re lucky I’m confident with myself,” he mused. “Otherwise you might give me a complex.” He stepped away from her then and turned to approach the food. “Now, about feeding you….”

“I’m not hungry.”

Jon turned around just in time to see her stiffly retreating from the room. He smiled.
* * *
Rian picked a door and went through it. Luckily for her it led to the back porch. She took the two steps down and just kept walking.

It was cool outside; the climate was vastly different from what she was used to in Arizona. The sky was dotted with large, cotton-y clouds, each of them rolling into obscure shapes. Strangely enough, the color of the blue was different than she remembered in Arizona, lighter, happier.

Blue eyes, bright and laughing, flashed in her mind and she growled.

“Bastard,” she raged.

Her fingernails bit into her palms. Her shoes stomped against the ground, occasionally kicking a random pine cone or a small rock. She ground her teeth together so tightly that her jaw actually ached. She kept walking when she really wanted to go back inside and blast him through the wall.

“I felt sparks.” His words taunted her.

She felt her face flushing, humiliating and annoying. She sneered at the memory. The reason he felt sparks was because she had discharged a current of prickling electricity through her veins in an effort to get his drunk hands off of her. That’s why he felt sparks.

She should have killed him then.

Liz would have been pissed, but she would have forgiven her…over time.

Her cheeks bloated as she suppressed a frustrated scream. She didn’t know what was coursing through her at that moment, but she knew she didn’t like it. Whatever emotion it was, whatever feeling she had picked up, she wanted it gone.

She desperately wanted to shift, but not only was it too dangerous given her unfamiliar location, she didn’t have any option to change into to begin with. No matter what form she took, she wouldn’t be able to escape the…sensations.

Rian heard barking and turned to see her two favorite dogs happily bounding towards her. She knelt down and received their kisses, rubbing their heads and backs absentmindedly. But not even their delight in seeing her soothed her nerves. Momentarily she thought about acquiring their DNA structure and shaping into the species, but she felt that would be futile. Dogs had emotions, too.

She needed something emotionless – something that didn’t feel or, even better, didn’t have a central nervous system.

A jellyfish!

She could shift into a—Where in the hell was she going to get a jellyfish?

Rian dropped on the ground with a huff. Mulder and Scully both wiggled under her arms, vying for her attention. Still seething, but slowly coming down from her angry high, she half-heartedly attended to their needs.

Angrily, she realized her lips still tingled.

She hated Jon Calder.
* * *
She hadn’t moved since falling into bed. With her face mashed against the pillow, one leg curled against the mattress while the other dangled off the edge, she looked rather uncomfortable.

But she slept, and he was afraid to move her.

The sun had set an hour ago, and Max had watched silently as the shadows played across her face. The room was dim, not yet completely dark. Even if it were, he wouldn’t have turned on the light; he didn’t want to disturb her.

He settled deeper in the cushion of the chair and breathed quietly. He was relieved. He was grateful. He was tired.

Liz was safe. She’d escaped the hands of Pierce and his Unit seemingly unharmed. Rian hadn’t broken her promise.

Rian. It occurred to him that he hadn’t even thanked her. He hadn’t seen her since settling himself in the bedroom seconds after Liz had quietly passed out. He reminded himself to take care of that, later. Now he couldn’t bring himself to leave her.

It was over. It had to be. Liz was gone, free from the men who had encaged her in a way entirely different from his own. They could move on. They could talk.

Tomorrow, she had promised. When she awoke, they would talk.

He suddenly didn’t know what he wanted to say. What could he say, other than fervently repeating an awkward apology? He’d hurt her – and yes, himself – when he’d left. He would have done it differently if given the chance.

But he was back now, and things were different. If not completely safe, then they were safer, and Max intended to make up for the time he had so carelessly lost.

Starting from the moment she woke up.


TBC...

ML convo next Monday, kids. I have that written from, like, three years ago, just waiting to post it. (:

See you next week!
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Re: Absence Makes the Heart...(M/L,MATURE)PT 33, pg 9, 6.22.09

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All right, fabulous readers. Here's the newest part. Next Monday, however, I will be in Florida chillin' with Mickey and the Goof, and I won't be able to update. So, you won't have another one for two weeks. Sorries about that.

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Part Thirty-Four
Jon enjoyed the early morning sunshine. With the cushions of the black wicker patio furniture comfortably supporting his back, his steaming cup of coffee, and his favorite legal thriller in hand, he couldn’t think of a more perfect time of day.

He’d always relished in the solitude that his ranch provided him. Solitude, however, was elusive when you had a house full of strangers.

Jon turned the page of A Time to Kill. John Grisham was amazing, and the author’s first book remained his favorite. Unfortunately, it was difficult for him to find time to reread with his hectic schedule. Early mornings like this was when he usually attempted to read a chapter to two. This morning, however, he was distracted.

He had a job to do, and with every minute he put it off he was at serious risk of pissing off his superior. More so than usual, that was.

The men working beneath him knew he had the opportune moment to act – Liz Parker was under his roof. Yet they also respected him and trusted his instincts, and their loyalty prevented them from ratting him out.

He could bring her in now; she would be safer that way. He could do it and end the entire ordeal, and pray that she would forgive and understand. But he knew Liz, and he loved her. His sense of protection ran as deep as a mama bear to her cub, and he couldn’t do that to her.

No, he had to approach the situation in a more delicate fashion. It would soften the blow that way.

He hoped.

From his position on the patio he was able to see her shuffle into the kitchen. She was an early riser, just like him. Through the open sliding glass door he casually asked, “Have you finished sulking?”

Rian ignored him, and Jon had expected nothing less. He grinned. “Coffee’s still fresh.”

He heard her fumbling around in the kitchen, opening and closing cabinets in search of a mug. Leisurely he sipped his coffee, not offering to give her any sort of helpful direction.

When the coffee burner hissed as some of the liquid sloshed out of the carafe, he knew she’d been successful.

Then she shocked the shit out of him by falling into the chair next to him. He watched, his lips twitching into a would-be grin, as she propped her bare feet on the table in front of him.

“Morning, sugar,” he greeted sweetly.

She grimaced and then shushed him. “The morning is far too pretty to be ruined by your voice.”

“You sat next to me, remember?”

She conceded his point by silently sipping her coffee. Jon suppressed a smile and diverted his gaze back to his book, though his every fiber was aware of her presence.

He wanted to ask Rian if Liz was still asleep, though he knew the answer already. He’d poked his head into her room, and his heart had ached at the sight of her. She’d been curled into herself, pillow hugged absently to her chest and still in yesterday’s clothes. Her shoes, though, had been removed.

Max had been there, too. His breath even as he slept in the armchair across the room.

Even though he knew she’d be asleep for several hours, the desire to pose the frivolous question was still there. He just wanted to hear her voice.

Rian. With all the things he knew about her – in spite of the things he strongly suspected about her – he still couldn’t help but be thoroughly intrigued by her. He supposed he was true to the cliché, the guy who fell for the one girl who wasn’t interested. It didn’t bother him, though. He was growing wary of the ladies who fell all too willingly into his lap.

But if Jon Calder knew women, which he did, then he suspected that Rian Kellar was not as immune to his charms as she liked to pretend. In fact, that’s exactly what had her so riled up. She knew he was aware of how he affected her, and it pissed her off.

Jon didn’t see what the problem was, or why she had to be so skittish; they were perfect for each other.

They had but one obstacle to overcome, however, before he could afford to get his hopes up. For if Liz Parker refused to forgive him, then Rian’s fierce loyalty would prevent her from doing the same.

Jon realized he was perilously close to losing the two women who had come to mean the most to him.
* * *
Liz was very well aware that she was being contrary.

She’d just managed her latest attempt in avoiding Max and the conversation she had promised. It was only a little after one, but she thought she was off to a good start.

Of course she felt guilty about it, especially in light of the fact that he’d slept in the chair in her room all night. But when she’d finally been released from her dreamless sleep she realized she wasn’t as ready for a conversation as she’d originally thought.

During a late breakfast, her friends – having sensed her sudden change in intention – eyed her with varying degrees of disapproval. Maria, specifically, was disappointed in her. Her green eyes softly encouraged her to just talk to him. Michael’s gaze was much more demanding. Isabel’s brown eyes pleaded for the sake of her brother, while Tess watched her with a surprising gleam of sympathy, but not for Max – for Liz.

Even Rian, who held firm in her loyalty to Liz and her indifference to the others, who had zero ties to them, quietly eyed her with confliction. It was apparent to Liz that Max had begun to wheedle his way into Rian’s good graces.

Feeling decidedly ganged up on, Liz sought out the one person who wouldn’t give her demanding looks.

The sun was hot against her skin and face. The afternoon heat wasn’t as stifling as that of Arizona, but it still made her skin dewy with perspiration and her cheeks flush. Shielding her eyes from the sun with a hand to her brow, Liz made out Jon’s familiar figure as he sighted a rifle through an empty paddock.

From a few feet away, she called, “You look hard at work.”

His head whipped around, and she was awarded his bright smile.

“Hello, Gorgeous,” he returned as he leaned his rifle against the fence post.

She dismissed his compliment with a wave of her hand. “You waste your flattery on me, Calder—”

“Never,” he interjected.

“—why not try it on Rian instead? Judging by the tension between you two, I would say you could use the practice.”

“Why, now, that’s what I use you for.” He winked.

Liz grinned and mimicked his posture – one foot resting on the lower rung of the fence and arms folded on the top.

Jon leaned over and pressed a greeting to her cheek. “You look rested.”

She had the strangest urge to yawn. “I must have gotten too much rest,” she commented. “I still feel sleepy.”

“Nothing a little Montana air won’t cure.”

At his words, Liz breathed deeply in appreciation. “It’s beautiful here.”

They fell into companionable silence, both of their troubled thoughts – circling around the same matters – eased by the beauty before them. Liz’s eyes wandered the expanse of the land, seeming to stretch for eternity until it was engulfed by the trees and mountains. Even though she’d witnessed the very same beauty before, it never ceased to amaze her.

A smile spread across her face even as her brows furrowed in confusion. “I thought this place would look more like, well…a ranch,” she mused. At his inquisitive smile, she laughed and continued, “Well, where are all the cattle? The ranch hands? Where’s the smell of the manure?”

“If it’s manure you’re wanting, darlin’, then—”

“Shut up.”

Jon chuckled. “My men – the ranch hands –” he winked – “have the cattle in my southern pasture to graze. They’ll have ‘em back by the week’s end.” He scratched his jaw. “I have a small spread, anyway. Not even 300 head. I only need a handful of men on hire. This is just something to keep me busy, to calm my nerves.”

“And that?” she asked, dipping her chin in the direction of the forgotten rifle. “That soothes your nerves, too?”

Grinning, Jon picked up the rifle, his hand caressing the smooth barrel reverently. “I was just getting ready for a little target practice.”

It was then Liz noticed the ten or so glass bottles setting on the newels of the fence posts. She smiled widely and gave him an encouraging nod. “Let’s see it.”

Without another word, Jon resolutely braced the butt of the rifle against his shoulder, eyed the target through the scope, and then fired.

The glass exploded, sending tiny shards of crystal-like specs into the air before they fell to the dusty earth. Liz cocked her eyebrow and gave a surprised whistle. She eyed the remnants of the beer bottle sparkling in the sunlight. Her gaze went to Jon’s.

He nodded in approval. “This is my baby,” he cooed, rubbing the rifle in appraisal. “Anybody come messin’ around my land and – BOOM.”

Liz giggled and held her hands out. “Lemme see,” she demanded. Jon shrugged and placed the rifle in her open and steady palms. The remaining bottles stood proudly on the posts of the empty pasture. She raised the gun and peered through the scope, the weapon steady in her grasp. A ray of sun pierced the bottle and created a colorful prism. Liz fired.

“Nice shot,” Jon complimented and took a step towards her, ready to regain possession of his rifle. He jumped back when she fired four more times, a huge smile on her face. With a shake of his head he said, “Okay, Miss Trigger Giddy, give me my gun back.”

She did so with a satisfied smirk on her face. Once again, her eyes swept over the acreage before her. Montana, Jon had told her, was like a little piece of Heaven on Earth. And he was right. She could definitely considering living here, if things were normal.

“Thank you for letting us stay here.”

Jon flipped on the safety and leaned it carefully against the post. He watched as Liz hoisted herself on the top rung of the fence and closed her eyes against the afternoon sun. He crossed his arms as he studied her. “Liz,” he began, “just what kind of trouble are you really in?”

Her face went taut, but she tried to pass it off as a reaction from the sun’s glare. Finally, she opened one eye at him and squinted. “Me?” she questioned with an innocently perplexed blink. “Trouble?”

Jon laughed and lifted his leg on the rung below her feet. He lifted his Stetson and plopped it on her head; she could see his sparkling blue eyes. “Yeah, you,” he confirmed and pinched her knee affectionately. Then his laughing face grew serious. “You know you can trust me, right?”

Liz stared silently at him, unsure of what to say. She knew that if it were anything else then she could trust him. But not this. Her friends were at too great a risk.

“Uh oh,” he said a moment later as he pushed himself away from the fence. “We’ve got company.”

She turned at the waist to see Max trudging towards them, his dark sneakers kicking up dirt with his every step. Liz groaned and knew her reprieve had come to an ignominious end. “I suppose I should talk to him, huh?” she murmured rhetorically.

“Yeah,” Jon agreed with a low whistle and a firm nod. “Before he burns me alive with that gaze of his. You’ve got one royally pissed off cowboy comin’ your way, Betsy-Ann. Think you ought to take my rifle?”

Liz laughed and hopped off the fence. She winked. “I can handle him.” Then she tipped the brim of the Stetson – much in the same fashion Jon was known for – and gave him a grin. “How do I look?”

He chuckled as he nodded his approval, but only after taking a second to tilt the hat to the side a bit. “Perfect,” he voiced. Liz gave him a wave and began her walk towards Max. She met him a few steps later, grabbed his arm, and swung him back around the other way.

“What are you doing?” he demanded even as he followed her closely. He sent a glare in Jon’s direction.

Liz diverted their direction towards the barn. “You wanted to talk,” she pointed out. “So let’s talk.”

Max was silent a moment. “Okay, well…” He didn’t know how to start. He had expected another fight from her, to have to struggle for the time of day – and now, here she was, willing to listen and respond to him. This was new. “Um.”

"Can you ride?"

The question came suddenly. He frowned. "What?" Max asked, confused, and then watched as Liz swung open the massive barn doors. The smell of hay and horses wafted to his nose before he even saw the huge, snuffling animals.

"Horses," Liz clarified patiently. "Can you ride?" She was already bringing out the tack and setting them on a bale of hay.

He swallowed as he watched her lead out a huge bay gelding. "This is Abe," she said, introducing the frighteningly large horse to him. "He'll be your mount.” Upon Max's look of apprehension, Liz chuckled. "He's really gentle, I promise. Here, come on."

Max took a hesitant step towards her and the animal. Liz grabbed his hand and brought it up to the horse’s strong neck. "Don't be nervous," Liz told him. "You'll make Abe nervous. Stroke his neck and talk to him. That's it."

She smiled as Max did as he was instructed, though a small frown still creased his brow. As Max talked to Abe, Liz began to prepare him for the ride. She threw on the saddle blanket, followed by the saddle itself. She took a few minutes to make sure it was secure before she walked behind the animal, patting his haunches to let him know she was there, and then rounded to his other side. Max peered over at Liz, all the while speaking calmly to Abe. Abe turned his head and nuzzled Liz's shoulder, wondering if she had any of those sugar cubes he loved. Liz kissed his muzzle before giving him the bit from the bridle, much to Abe's reluctance.

"Good boy," Liz praised and kissed his muzzle again. She draped the reins over the saddle horn and then looked at Max expectantly.

"What?" he asked apprehensively.

With her hands, she pressed her weight into the stirrup and nodded to Max. "Climb on." Liz gave him a reassuring look and nodded again. Max grabbed the saddle horn and lifted his leg – "Other one, Max, unless you want to ride old Abe ass backwards."

He flushed and then corrected his error, placing the correct foot inside the stirrup. Max was beginning to get a little uncomfortable. "Now, step up and swing your other leg over," Liz instructed.

After he had executed the action, Liz positioned Max's other foot into the stirrup and patted his leg. "Good job," she began, and stroked Abe's neck. "Have you ever been riding before?" she asked again.

"Once," Max finally answered. "When I was ten.” It was a long time ago.

"You'll be surprised with how much you remember," Liz promised. She handed him the reins. "Go ahead and take him outside. I'll be out in a minute."

Max did as he was instructed and exited the barn. Coupled with his nerves, the heat felt sweltering, and he instantly began to sweat. Liz had been right – the horse was surprisingly gentle. He rubbed Abe's neck and whispered some encouraging words, watching as the large ears flicked back to listen to him. Liz joined him minutes later on a sorrel colored horse just slightly smaller than Abe. She shifted in the saddle and gave her horse a reassuring pat.

"What do you want to talk about?" Liz asked as she squinted over at him.

He grinned a bit sheepishly at her. "A lot."

She nodded and nudged the horse forward. "The North Trail, then," she decided. “It’s longer.”
* * *
Max could see the snow covered mountain peaks in the distance. They acted as a picture, painted against the light blue of the clear sky, and he closed his eyes to capture the scene. The sun shone through the sporadically placed trees and warmed his neck and back. Abe trailed behind Liz at an easy gait, allowing Max to take in the view from behind. Her hair, shiny and dark, flowed down her back from beneath the worn, brown Stetson propped on her head. Her shoulders and back were ramrod straight, and her form undulated easily with the horse's pace, hinting at years of experience in riding. Even though he couldn’t see her face, she looked beautiful.

"These trails lead to some streams and caverns," Liz spoke, and turned her head just slightly to look at him from behind. "It'll be a nice place to let the horses grab a rest and some fresh water. It's a long ride."

And she had chosen the trail so they could talk, Max knew, but he had yet to say anything. With a gentle squeeze of his thighs, Max urged Abe forward until they were in stride with Liz and the sorrel, whose name he’d discovered was Calypso. Calypso snorted and, without pressure from Liz, pushed them a stride ahead of Abe, shaking her luxurious mane as she went.

Liz looked over at Max and smirked. "She's the type of girl who likes to lead," she exclaimed with a shrug and patted Calypso’s neck affectionately. "Nothing personal."

"Of course not," Max replied with a grin purposely nudged Abe forward again. Calypso snorted, which gained a whinny out of Abe.

"Stop teasing my horse," Liz demanded with a laugh; it was the first laugh Max had gotten out of her since he’d been home.

Max smiled as they rode on, uncertain on what to say or even do next. He really should have prepared what he had wanted to say to her; he'd been waiting for months, after all. But now that she was here, and he was alone with her, all Max wanted to do was revel in the moment without the tension.

He just wanted to relish the moments they had together, as if nothing between them had changed. As if he hadn't left her all those years ago and screwed up his life and hers in the process.

Liz's sigh barely registered. "So, are we going to talk or enjoy the scenery?" Max caught the underlying sarcasm, and he had difficulty not wincing.

"I thought we'd enjoy the scenery a little bit," he finally answered. He needed more time to gather his thoughts so he'd be able to express in words what he was feeling – what he had been feeling since the day he left. And, ultimately, what he would always feel.

The words suddenly became lodged in his throat.

Liz granted him the silence he obviously needed and allowed her eyes to slip shut. She gave Calypso’s reins more slack; she trusted the horse – these trails were well worn and she'd traveled them many a time. Calypso knew where to lead them.

She had known she wouldn't be able to avoid Max forever, but that hadn’t stopped her from trying. Since the night in her house she had realized that the conversation would have to happen soon. That night proved to her more than anything else that their connection had never been severed.

She’d seen things, just tiny glimpses of racing stars and a purple Earth. The images were hazy and obscure, but if she’d seen things from him, then….

Liz nearly groaned out loud. He had surely seen things – felt things – from her. Things that he would question her about. He’d wonder about her motives in becoming a Federal agent; he'd ask her about the things she'd discovered since joining the Unit. He'd want to know if she'd ever forgive him, if she could ever forget. If she still loved him or ever would again. And Liz wasn't ready to face those questions or the answers she already knew.

A small smile graced her lips as she remembered the angry gaze he had directed towards Jonaphon any time he’d slung an arm over her shoulders, or whenever he’d he kissed her cheeks and given her knowing little winks. And surely the comfortable way in which they spent time together would raise questions within him. Liz glanced over at Max to see him engulfed in the scenery. How would he react to find that she and Jon had never been more than friends? Would he believe her, and did she care?

Did Max Evans really think she'd wait around forever for him?

Liz suppressed a sigh and nudged Calypso into a canter. She had waited for him, blinded by the love she’d had for him, and she probably would've waited even longer if she’d known he would return to her again.

She heard Abe lengthening his stride to catch up with them. They remained at that pace for several minutes. The trees grew slightly thicker and provided them some shade from the sun.

"I think I'm ready to talk now." Max's voice was only mildly hesitant.

"Oh, goody,” Liz couldn't help but remark. "Because I've been waiting for this conversation for ages." The bitterness in her tone surprised even her.

He said her name with a hint of hurt underlying the admonishing tone. Liz knew he couldn't stand the way she was treating him, how cold and bitter she had become. Maybe they could turn things around so that he had been the one stood up on their wedding day and see if he became frozen and bitter.

Maria would tell her to let go of the pains of the past already and embrace the joys of the now. Liz would tell her to shove the joy up her ass. What joy? Liz wanted scoff. All the joy had left her with Max’s departure, and even now that he was here, only a tiny remnant had returned. That remnant wasn't enough.

"Liz, when I left," Max began, his voice simultaneously soft and thick with emotion, "I didn't have a choice."

She wanted to roll her eyes and call bullshit. He didn't have a choice? He couldn't have taken her with him? He couldn't have stayed? Damnit, he couldn't have promised his return instead of making her worry over the years? The stress of not knowing whether or not he was safe had caused Liz to grow premature grey hairs, and that royally pissed her off.

"I had a responsibility to my people, Liz." It sounded as if he was trying to reason with himself more than with her. "Believe me, I had every intention of returning.” Abe was nudged forward until he was neck and neck with Calypso. He looked over at Liz, and she kept her gaze carefully straight. "The way I left was unacceptable, I know that. I should have said goodbye in person. I should have reassured you that I was coming home to you. I should have given you a kiss goodbye to seal that promise. Liz, I should have married you that day."

"I'm glad you didn't," Liz suddenly, fiercely interrupted. She turned her head sharply to face him. His last words had twisted the knife in her heart much too painfully, and she wanted to cause him to feel the same way. "I'm glad you left the way you did – without the goodbye or the promise," she lied angrily. "I'm glad we didn't get married that day."

Max stared into her eyes longer than she liked, and she finally had to force herself to turn away. Her hands were curled around the reins so tightly her knuckles were a ghastly white.

"You're lying," Max whispered, having seen the truth in her eyes. "I know you don't mean that."

"Don't I?" Liz retorted, her fiery gaze directed towards Max again. "Had you done that, Max, had you married me and promised yourself to me, it would have hurt all the more."

His gaze fell downward as he allowed her words to sink in. Abe was fidgety beneath him, having picked up on the tension between the two riders; Max's hand snaked out and rubbed him reassuringly on the neck.

"Liz." When she didn't make an effort to acknowledge him, Max sighed. "I'm so sorry."

She actually laughed, the sound hollow and lifeless. "What am I going to do with an apology, Max?" Liz shot him a look, her anger rising with the afternoon temperature. "I don't need your sympathy or your apologies. I've done just fine all these years without you and I'm confident I'll be just as capable for the next fifty years to come."
* * *
Rian stepped up to the fence. Jon was beside her, quietly unloading his rifle. She eyed the horizon where she’d just seen Max and Liz disappear.

“They go to talk?” She didn’t know why she asked; she already knew the answer.

Jon made a noise in the back of his throat, which she assumed was an affirmative. Rian nodded once and braced herself to turn away when he spoke. “They have a lot to talk about, I reckon.”

This time Rian was the one to make the noncommittal noise. Did they ever have a lot to discuss. She hoped they hashed it all out soon. All the erratic emotions had her nerves on end. It was the reason she’d joined Jon, she told herself. Because he was always a steady read. Nothing ever fazed him, it seemed.

That didn’t mean she liked to be around him for any long period of time. In fact, she could just barely stand his presence for more than a minute.

She turned and took two steps when he called out to her.

“When are you going to let me kiss you again?”

She actually smirked. “When you’re ready to die.” Rian turned again, only to have him grab her wrist and whirl her back around.

She actually whirled, and she hated the flock of butterflies that invaded her stomach. What a girly reaction.

Jon grinned impishly at her. “How about right now?”

“That eager to end your life, Calder?”

He leaned in closer to her, his blue eyes darting between her gaze and her slightly opened lips. “Don’t you know?” he murmured. “Any man worth his salt would die for the right girl.”

His lips were the merest of millimeters away from hers when she stepped back.

“Well, then,” she managed, relieved that her voice was steady. “You better keep looking for her.”

Rian turned on her heel and walked away.
* * *
Barely remembering the last time he’d been on a horse, much less if he’d ever actually galloped a horse, Max was impressed with the way he was able to keep up with Liz.

Following her final barb she had kicked Calypso into a run, obviously wanting to put as much distance between them as possible.

Max, however, was having none of it.

He was finally re-growing the pair that he’d lost once he left earth. Or that’s what Michael would have told him, anyway.

She wasn’t very far ahead of him now. Abe, named for the fact that his legs were surprisingly long for a horse, gained on with them with every passing second. “Liz,” Max called, and he wondered why he sounded so breathless.

Suddenly, she veered off the path. Calypso’s hooves pounded into the grassy terrain as she penetrated a woodsy area. Abe followed them without direction from Max.

The sun filtered drowsily through the treetops, playing tug-of-war with the shadows of the forest. Max nearly called for her again, when Calypso finally stopped and Liz slid gracefully from the saddle. Head down and without a word, she led her mount down a slight incline and to the small brook below.

Max followed suit, but he did so without the grace Liz had exhibited. His ankle protested as he dismounted a bit awkwardly. He and Abe slowly made their way down the slope where Liz and Calypso were waiting.

Liz stood next to her mount as her long, elegant neck lowered to drink from the cold water. Max released Abe’s reins and the horse meandered over to do the same.

She stood with her back to him. One hand was resting against the horse’s strong neck while the other hung loosely at her side. Her shoulders, tense as they had been throughout much of the ride, were now suddenly relaxed. Max remained silent, sensing that Liz was formulating the words in her mind that she wanted to say to him. He wanted her to look at him, but he wouldn’t pressure her. Not yet.

He’d wait.

Finally, she turned and he was awarded the clear view of her face – tired and vulnerable. Liz swallowed, lifting her hands helplessly before they fell limply to her sides once again.

“I’m sorry,” she whispered hoarsely. Embarrassed, she cleared her throat. “I shouldn’t have said those things. I didn’t even mean them as I was saying them, I’m just so—” She stopped herself as the anger rose within her.

Max nodded once, quietly encouraging her to continue.

“I woke up this morning, Max, and I saw you in the chair and – I just wasn’t ready to have this conversation. I thought I was, but I’m not,” she spoke truthfully, her cheeks tingeing pink as she recalled the way she had reacted all morning. “And it was cowardly and childish of me to avoid you this morning, especially when I promised you we would talk, but—” she blinked as she shook her head, and Max knew that her thoughts had suddenly shifted course. “You really hurt me, Max.” Her mouth opened as if she were about to say something else, but then she resolutely closed it.

Hesitantly, Max stepped towards her, nearly losing his footing on a loose stone. “I know I did,” he said softly. “And I’m sorry.”

She nodded a bit too eagerly, her eyes falling away from his. “I know you are. I don’t expect you to keep saying it. I believe you.”

He didn’t try to approach her anymore. He knew that she was dangerously close to falling apart right in front of him. Every instinct within him said that he needed to touch her – just her hand, or press her tightly against him – but he knew that gesture would incite a struggle. He knew she would distance herself from him. And he couldn’t allow that to happen, not when he felt like she’d taken a monumental step forward.

Max watched as she struggled to swallow. Her eyes, strangely wide, were still dry, and he knew she was fighting tears.

“I wish you had taken me with you,” she confessed on a whisper.

His fists furled in the effort it took not to take her into his arms. His gut clenched at the unbridled pain in her voice, and his heart burned at the sudden shimmer of tears he saw sparkling in her eyes before she blinked them away.

“I should have.”

She shook her head at his words, and Max struggled not to speak over top of whatever it was she was about to say.

“I know you couldn’t have,” she stated as she regained control of her emotions. “You couldn’t have. It wasn’t my place to be there.”

Determinedly, he ventured another step forward. “Your place was with me.”

He heard her sudden intake of breath and he hoped the effect of his words was positive.

“No,” she finally managed. “It wouldn’t have been accepted—”

“I don’t care,” he interrupted. “I regret not taking you with me, Liz. I regret a lot of things about the past ten years.”

She nodded, and he thought he heard her whisper “me too” but he couldn’t be sure. Finally, Liz heaved a deep breath as she raked a shaky hand through her hair. “Anyway, I get that you had to leave. I just think it was shitty the way you did it.”

The shame he felt was as potent as it was a decade ago. “You’re right,” he stated. “I was young, and I was pressured into committing to my responsibilities as a leader, and I made a horrible choice.” He wanted her to look at him, so he could see the sincerity of her words, but she kept her gaze firmly on the ground. “But I know that’s no excuse.”

“I understand.”

“There’s a lot I would change,” he said.

“Yeah. Me, too.”

And they fell silent. Max looking at Liz. Liz looking at the dirt, the trees, the horses, her shoes – anywhere but at Max. And even though he knew it was probably too soon, even at the risk of Liz retreating from him again, Max prepared to put himself on the line once again.

“I love you.”

She took in a shuddering breath but said nothing. It wasn’t exactly encouraging, but she didn’t tell him to shut the hell up either.

Because he was a glutton for punishment, he took a final step towards her, so that she had no choice but to look at his shoes.

“I never stopped,” he continued on a whisper. “I never stopped loving you, or thinking about you, or wanting you. I dreamt of the day when I could be with you again – every night. And I’m so sorry.”

With his every word, Liz’s bottom lip trembled. She tucked it between her teeth in an effort keep from crying out. Her gaze remained downward, staring unseeingly. With his final utterance, a sob broke free and her hands slapped against her mouth. Tears flowed down her cheeks, and she shook her head slightly from side to side.

Max hesitantly grasped her arms in his hands. He tenderly, slowly traveled them up to her shoulders and then to the curve of her neck. His thumbs rested just under her jaw line; he felt her racing pulse there. Adding just the tiniest amount of pressure, he forced her to look at him.

“I love you,” he promised.

Pain, perhaps regret, flashed in her eyes as she removed her hands. She was sobbing now with so much force that Max was unsure if she’d be able to talk, even if she wanted to. Some part of him knew that even if she weren’t hindered by sobs, she wouldn’t have returned the words.

“Is it so hard to say?” he asked.

Her mouth fell open on a sobbing gasp, and for a moment he thought she was going to try to speak before she finally closed her mouth and managed a jerky nod.

“Okay,” he whispered. He lifted his hand and brushed away her tears with his fingertips, despite the fact they were quickly replaced with fresh ones. “Okay,” he reassured her.

Max folded her into his arms, and his heart clenched when she didn’t resist – when she fell into him willingly, clutching at his back.

“I’ll wait.”

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Sorry this wasn't posted yesterday. It took me a while to get it out, and then I still had to send it to my beta.

Special thanks to Steph, and of course Rachel

Despite what Steph says, this part is boring and transition-y. Next week, I hope, it'll be a better read.

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Part Thirty-Five
They sat and talked for hours with their backs braced against the solid trunk of a lone oak, surrounded by towering pines. The treetops protected them from the piercing rays of the sun, keeping them cool in the shadowed comfort of the forest.

They sat close together, touching from shoulder to ankle – nothing could have been less intimate. Every once in a while Max would reach over and link their hands together, only to release her moments later. Each time he’d hold her tiny hand in his for longer intervals, slowly, patiently biding his time.

As much as he was yearning to hold tight to her hand, to never let go, he was aware of how fragile her resolve was. Every touch, whether accidental or deliberate, rattled the wall she’d erected so carefully around herself. The last thing he wanted to do was rush her and witness her endless tears; they had nearly destroyed him the last time.

So he paced himself, squeezing her hand once before slowly letting go. Patience, he had been told, was a quality demanded of a King. And Max had honed that skill in every interaction with his people. He would use it with Liz now.

By leaving her he had forced her to wait. Now it was his turn. And he’d wait for as long as she needed him to.

The wounds he had inflicted her were still fresh after all these years. She’d told him she had forgiven him – that she had done so years ago. Max knew, though, that she’d never forget.

While she had forgiven him, she didn’t want to know the details of the life he spent on Antar – the life he’d led without her. Max couldn’t blame her. It was too closely linked to his betrayal. But he also knew Liz, and one day her curiosity would get the best of her. When she was ready to know, then he’d tell her.

With that boundary firmly established between them, the talking was mostly done on Liz’s part. She briefly explained how she had met Rian, a story he was partially familiar with already, but it didn’t matter. She was talking to him. He would take what he could get.

From that story she went on to explain what had fueled her to join the FBI, and his heart ached at the knowledge that she’d thought him captured rather than willingly departed. Though she didn’t say it, he knew that with every day and year that had passed as she realized the truth, her bitterness manifested.

She explained that for years she had felt hollow and not herself. There was no satisfaction to be found in her career choice. Not even her friends could strip away the feelings of isolation and depression that consumed her. Her eyes remained downcast as she relayed this time period, almost as if she were ashamed of the emotions from the past.

Jon was a topic she discussed at length, and Max tried hard not to be jealous of the smile that spread across her face at every mention of his name. Jonaphan Calder had come at a time when she needed someone the most. Not Maria or Alex or Kyle – not even Rian – could have helped her like Jon had. When she looked at them she would always remember. But with Jon she was able to forget. Everything.

She’d been quick to reassure Max that her relationship with Jon was strictly platonic; she must have sensed he needed that reassurance from her. Not that he would have ever blamed her for moving on, briefly or otherwise, but knowing that she hadn’t shoved a weight from his shoulders he hadn’t known he was carrying around. Despite her assurances, he still didn’t like the easy way in which they interacted. Or the way Jon thought he had the liberty to touch or kiss her. Or the way he could so effortlessly make her smile and laugh. Max feared he was dangerously close to hating this stranger. Despite his conflicting emotions, he was able to be appreciative for all that Jon had done for her in his absence.

That didn’t mean he had to like it.

Liz shied away from the stories that were too closely intertwined with her stint in the Unit and her volatile relationship with James Pierce. Her deliberate attempt at being obtuse was futile; he already knew the details. He’d seen the truth weeks ago while she’d been sleeping restlessly in his arms.

She hadn’t wanted him to know that on more than one occasion she had been the person to press the plunger of the syringe. Or that her hands had been braced against his shoulders to prevent struggling.

He remembered, though. He remembered sensing her during the early days of his captivity. Alone in his cell, feeling their eyes on him through the opaque walls, he’d felt her – just for an instant, but it had been enough. Max recalled going absolutely berserk, pounding savagely against the wall, as if he could somehow reach her, as if he knew the wall was the one thing that separated them. Pierce had sent people in to sedate him, but not even that had dulled the sensation of her nearness.

After that day he’d felt her other times as well, but he‘d never been able to understand why. He assumed his mind was just playing tricks on him. He had never considered the possibility of her being so close.

His utter lack of cooperation had reached the boiling point. Pierce ordered him to be drugged before every test – every torture – was to continue. Hazy and disoriented, he was still able to struggle enough to irritate some of the crew.

And the feelings he’d felt, the tingling sensation coursing through his body, he blamed on the drugs.

The night he’d hitchhiked to her house, the night they’d fought with and loved one another, had opened his eyes in more ways than one. Just as he’d always known his connection with Liz Parker was strong enough to last through time and space without deteriorating, he’d realized that Liz was strong enough to survive without him. Max hadn’t been ignorant of the fact that his leaving would cause her pain. He just hadn’t fathomed the extent of the devastation he left behind.

She’d been shattered; he knew that now from the fleeting glimpses from the night at her house, and from conversations with Maria, who remained forever accepting. He’d destroyed her, but she had found the strength to piece herself back together again.

Listening to her as she described the holidays and random concerts he’d missed with her and their friends clawed at his insides. There were so many memories he would never share. His regrets were plenty, and Max wished he could do it all differently. He’d still stay true to his obligations and his people, his planet, but he would have done it in a fashion that would have spared everyone from unnecessary devastation.

Things could be vastly different right now. If he hadn’t acted so impulsively, if he had only communicated with Liz, if he had married her then she wouldn’t be living the life she led now. She wouldn’t have immersed herself so deeply in the Special Unit. She would never have endured Pierce’s unwanted, lascivious behavior. She never would have wondered.

She never would have clung so fiercely to Rian, and then later to Jon.

Liz’s laughter filtered through the quiet forest, combing through him as she relayed some Christmas party story when Jon and Rian had a combustible interaction. As she smiled warmly at the memory Max realized she probably would be reluctant to change too much of her current life.

“It’s getting late,” she finally said. Her giggles had died down, though her cheeks still kept the slight flush. “The others might be worried.”

Max didn’t want to leave; the hours spent together had been so normal, so nearly perfect. But he knew she was right. He shoved away from the oak and jumped to his feet. Liz grinned up at him, surprised by his nimbleness, and he held his hand out to her.

She didn’t hesitate.
* * *
Rian glowered at the double barn doors with a mixture of trepidation and irritation. Through the cracks she not only heard the muffled snuffling sounds of the beasts behind the doors but smelled them, as well. Her nose wrinkled in disgust. The scent reminded her of Kyle after a particular strenuous workout.

The sun, warm and still bright, stretched its arms through the trees as it slowly began to sink behind the mountains. Max and Liz had been gone for hours, and Rian was beginning to feel uneasy.

She knew, though, that the annoying feeling was completely unmerited. They were safe here; she was absurdly sure of that. More than that, Liz could take care of herself.

But that didn’t stop the worry.

Nibbling on the corner of her lip, she considered her plan for another moment. Horses – they were often described as strong, beautiful and majestic creatures. They were symbols of strength, and fertility. She remembered that tidbit of information from one of her late nights. Unable to sleep, she had read through five encyclopedias.

Beautiful, yes. Majestic, sure. But horses were also smelly, massive, and downright scary.

A brilliant laugh exploded from behind her. She didn’t need to turn to know who it belonged to.

“Kellar, Open Sesame doesn’t work in these parts. You actually have to open the doors yourself.”

“I’m thinking,” she bit off.

“Pretty hard, I can tell,” Jon mused as he sidled up beside her. He tipped his hat back, revealing his sparkling blue eyes and few shaggy strands of his sable hair. “What’s got you frownin’ so much?”

“I don’t think I like horses,” she admitted.

“Well, I don’t think anyone has pressured you into going near them, have they?”

Rian’s eyes darted in the direction they’d seen Liz and Max disappear. “They’ve been gone for a while.”

Jon made a knowing sound, deep in his throat. “And you’re fixin’ to go after them.” He nodded, not waiting for her answer. “I don’t think you have anything to worry about, sweetie. The sun’s still bright – plenty of daylight left, and Liz knows her way around. She remembers from back when this place was nothing but overgrown land and that house was a shack.”

She knew that. She trusted Liz. It just didn’t change the way she felt.

He was staring at her. She could feel his gaze on her face; she could practically see his smile.

“You’re kinda like a mama bear, now aren’t you?”

That actually made her smile – a quick curve of her lips. He wasn’t the first person to use such an analogy for her. In fact, in curiosity to understand the meaning behind it, Rian had actually shapeshifted into a bear once.

Of course, while the bear she’d acquired the DNA from was a female, it didn’t have a cub. Rian hadn’t felt that “mama bear” instinct. She only felt intensely hungry and kind of sleepy. With time, and random Discovery Channel programs, Rian was able to understand – sort of.

“I guess so,” she finally murmured. “It’s a tough habit to break.”

Beside her, Jon was quiet in a way that had her feeling slightly uneasy. She shifted her weight, darting her gaze away from the barn and to the winding trail again before finally falling to her shoes. She couldn’t look at him.

“She’s lucky to have you,” he finally said. The words were so soft Rian barely heard them. “They all are.”

Unable to stop herself, she finally settled her gaze on him. There was an emotion churning in his eyes that she didn’t even want to contemplate. Fretfully, she searched in her arsenal for a snappy comeback, anything that would dispel the sudden shift in their relationship.

She came up empty-handed.

Rian swallowed and nodded once. “Thank you.”

Jon smiled and shifted as if to walk away when something caught his eye. He grinned widely. “Well, lookie there.”

Rian looked over her shoulder. Through the trees she could make out two riders atop their horses, making their way slowly through the treeline. A moment later, Max and Liz broke into view. Both of them were smiling. Both of them looked at ease.

She released a breath, happier for her friend than she could express.

“See? Everything worked itself out.”

It was true – for them. She couldn’t help but smile for the two. Things were beginning to fall into place.

Tomorrow, however, was fast approaching. And she still had no idea where Liz wanted to go from here.
* * *
To say that she felt a weight lifted from her shoulders was an understatement. Liz felt practically weightless, and insanely giddy. Her smile was stretched so wide that her cheeks actually hurt. She couldn’t remember that last time she had smiled like that.

Max was shifted in his saddle beside her, good-naturedly complaining about how sore he was going to be once he managed to get off the horse again. She laughed, though a part of her knew her thighs were going to ache for a day or two, as well. Despite the inevitable screams of her muscles, she knew the ride – the experience – had been worth it.

Liz squinted against the sun and made out the figures of Jon and Rian, both standing in front of the barn. Her giddiness slowly dissipated. Within minutes she would no longer be alone with Max, their past spread out and ironed before them. Their future laid ahead, and with it was the realization of what she had to do.

“Liz?”

Her head turned. Max regarded her with a slight frown, and she realized her smile had disappeared.

“You okay?” he asked her.

She nodded. Her smile returned, but not with the same brilliance. “I… it was nice, sitting in the woods with you. I’m kind of sad to return. Reality and all that.”

Max’s eyes dimmed slightly and a sad smile played on his lips. He knew what she meant, but judging by the sudden hopeful glint in his eyes he didn’t anticipate the melancholy to continue.

“There’s always tomorrow.”

Tomorrow. Liz’s eyes flitted back to the sight in front of her. Rian stood patiently at Jon’s side, waiting.

Liz heaved a sigh and nodded slowly. “Tomorrow,” she agreed.

All too soon they approached her friend. Jon went to her side and helped her swing down from Abe. Max dismounted gracelessly. Rian stayed where she was, warily eyeing the animals in front of her.

“You missed dinner,” Rian pointed out, simply to have something to say.

Jon took Abe’s reigns, his big hand rising to stroke the horse’s neck. “It was a fine meal, too,” he added. “Not to worry. Linda has two plates on those little warming dishes. Should taste just as great. You head on inside. I’ll handle these guys—”

“No, Jon,” Liz interrupted, looking slightly appalled. “I got the horses out, I’ll put them away.”

“No arguments. My house. My rules. Go.”

Max looked at Liz, absentmindedly rubbing the back of his thigh. “I’ll help him,” he offered. He nodded his head in the direction of the house. “You go ahead inside.”

Liz looked once more to Jon. His gaze was determined. Finally, she gave a relenting nod and turned on her heel. Rian fell into step beside her.

Once they were quite a distance from the two men, Rian spoke. “What’s next?”

She wanted a course of action. She wanted details. She wanted to figure out what role she’d have to play in this game for their lives. She lived for the thrill of the danger and would follow Liz wordlessly.

This time, she wasn’t going to ask her to.

“I’m thinking,” she carefully answered. “I don’t have a plan. I need one before we can go anywhere from here.”

Rian nodded, understanding. “Keep me updated.”

“I will,” she lied.

A few minutes later they entered the house through the kitchen. The air conditioning sent the tiny hairs on her arms and neck to attention. She shivered slightly and rubbed her forearms.

“Hey.”

Maria was standing over the threshold separating the kitchen from the living room. A tiny, knowing smile twitched on her lips. “I saw you guys coming in and I wanted—”

“To get the dirty details on Liz’s conversation with Max,” Rian supplied with a grin.

Maria stepped into the kitchen and reached Liz in five steps. “Well? I thought I saw you smiling. I couldn’t be sure though.”

“It went well,” she admitted, trying to remain aloof about the entire ordeal. “We hugged. We cried. We laughed. It was your typical… reconciliation.” She shrugged. “I’ve forgiven him, and… there’s room for a future. That’s all I know.”

Apparently it was enough. Maria pulled her friend into her arms and squeezed tight. Liz couldn’t contain her smile at the gesture.

“I’m so happy for you,” her friend gushed as she pulled away from the hug. “And I just want you to finally be happy, too. It’s been too long, and—”

“I know,” Liz said on a sigh. “Baby steps, Maria.”

She nodded eagerly, and then: “Are you hungry?”

Liz laughed lightly. “Yeah. I’m just going to go wash up.” Wordlessly she retreated from her friends in search of the bathroom.

Maria grinned, happy beyond words for her two friends. She pivoted on her foot to return to the living room but stopped when she caught sight of Rian’s expression.

“What’s wrong?”

Rian shook her head, her turquoise eyes darting past Maria to stare over the blonde’s shoulder. “Nothing.”

She frowned. “What are you keeping from me?”

Liz’s words, her entire demeanor repeated throughout her mind in a slow revolution. Something wasn’t right.

“Rian?” Maria pressed, her tone demanding now. “What are you hiding?”

Finally, she met her friend’s gaze. “I don’t know.”
* * *
Max didn’t know the process of de-saddling, or undressing, or whatever, a horse. He watched Jon carefully as he attended Abe, and Max tried to mimic his action. He managed quite nicely, but balked at the idea of going anywhere near Calypso’s mouth.

Jon chuckled at his hesitation. “I got her.” He grinned. “She does like to nip if she isn’t familiar with you.”

Max stepped back and allowed the other man to take over. The bridle was removed and then he led both horses to their respective stalls. Max waited for Jon to return.

“Thanks for your help,” Jon said, his perpetual grin in place.

Max rubbed the back of his neck. “I didn’t really do anything,” he admitted. “Besides, I really should be thanking you.”

Jon waved off the gratitude. “Not at all. I miss the company.”

“Thank you,” Max said again. His gaze was steady and intense. “For everything. For what you’ve done for Liz.”

At his words, Jon paused in the act of removing his gloves. His blue eyes rose to peer at Max; his grin still remained, though it had dipped at the corners a little. He stared at Max for several quiet moments before he nodded. “Liz is very special to me,” he finally confessed. “I’d do anything to help her. Anything she’d ask of me.”

As little as he knew about Jon, other than what Liz had shared with him, Max knew at that moment he could trust him. He couldn’t pinpoint exactly what made him so sure. Perhaps it was the quiet conviction in Jon’s voice or the sincerity in his gaze. Whatever it was made Max feel suddenly at ease.

He nodded and took a small step back. “She’s been lucky to have you all these years.”

“Thank you.”

Max nodded once more and turned to make his way out of the barn.

Jon’s shoulder sagged. One hand rose to run through his hair, dislodging his hat as it went. The other rubbed along his jaw in an agitated manner.

He couldn’t handle it anymore. His boss had called three times this afternoon. He could practically feel him breathing down his neck. The secrets and the lies were taking an unbearable toll on him.

Tomorrow. Jon heaved a sigh. He’d tell her tomorrow.

He prayed that she wouldn’t hate him.

TBC
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Hii everyone.

Sorry about the lack of update last week. But here's a new part for you.

Thanks Steph, and Alex who helped without even realizing it. ;) And thank you all so much for the feedback!

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Part Thirty-Six
She shut the door quietly behind her. The room was dark, and she could barely discern the shape of the bed through the starlight and moonbeams piercing the glass of the window. Tired, she leaned against the door and closed her eyes for a few moments.

The muscles in her thighs ached, reminding her just how long it had been since she was on a horse. Despite the ache and the stiffness in her back, Liz couldn’t help but smile. The ride, the solitary comfort of the forest, Max just being there – all of it was exactly what she had needed.

They’d talked. They actually had a civilized conversation. She hadn’t become too emotional; she hadn’t lashed out at him. It was…cathartic. He apologized, and she accepted. A huge weight was lifted from her shoulders. She didn’t want to go into this without Max knowing she’d forgiven him.

Her hand drifted down to her stomach. It ached a bit, courtesy of her full meal and belly laughs. After dinner and a quick shower, she and Max had joined the others in a ridiculous and hilarious game of Shout About Movies. It was a knock off of Scene It? but possibly the most fun she’d had in ages. Later, when they’d decided to switch to charades Jon had joined them. And for a while – in between Alex and Kyle arguing over the correct way to mime a Smurf and raucous laughter – Liz forgot what the next day would bring. She was able to pretend that James Pierce had given up, and that he would never enter their lives again. She was able to forget the painful fatigue she’d suffered for months while working for the Special Unit. She was able to forget that she wasn’t just another normal woman, enjoying time with her closest friends and the man who had recaptured her heart.

Shoving away from the door she began to strip from her clothing. She allowed them to drop in unkempt heaps on the floor, a messy trail leading to the mattress. With small hands that could be both tender and lethal, she removed the hair tie from her dark tresses. Her fingers combed through the still slightly damp, silky strands. Clad in only a thin camisole and her panties Liz slid beneath the cool covers and closed her eyes.

The surrounding darkness matched the sudden shift in her mood. Suddenly the hilarity of her friends and the uplifting games seemed to have happened years ago. Her body tensed, despite her every attempt to relax her muscles; they would only seize up again later. Though her mind was bleary with sleep, Liz knew she wouldn’t find rest tonight.

Her eyes remained tightly shut, however, as her mind restlessly targeted her demons. It had become glaringly apparent to her that despite how far they’ve come and the lengths she’d gone to ensure her safety and the safety of her friends, they would never be truly out of harm’s way.

Not so long as James Pierce was alive.

The glance she’d taken at her wrist watch while coming up the stairs had told her it was fifteen-til-midnight. Tomorrow would arrive soon. She’d rest, as much as she could, and then leave in the morning.

Her heart tinged in her chest as she recalled the solemn way in which Rian stared at her. Receptive as ever, Liz knew her friend was aware of her unusually reticent behavior. In the morning, she knew, Rian would pounce. She’d demand answers and wouldn’t stop until she got them, and Liz could never deny Rian anything.

In order to keep such events from happening, Liz was determined to leave before first light. She’d sneak from the house while her friends – her family – still slumbered and finish it once and for all.

And she quietly swore – to Max, to the others, and mainly herself – that she would return. When she did, it would really be over.

She must have fallen asleep, just briefly, for she jolted awake at the sound of the door shutting softly. Liz bolted upright in bed, and for a moment, Pierced loomed over at the foot of the bed.

And then she blinked.

“Liz?” Max whispered softly. “Were you asleep?”

She scrubbed at her face with weary hands. “I had just dozed off, yes,” came her muffled reply.

“Sorry.” He remained standing at the edge of the bed, in a pair of dark cotton lounge pants and a black t-shirt. Looking horribly uneasy and out of place he shifted his weight from foot to foot. The moonlight hit his eyes, casting the rest of his face in dark shadows. Liz watched as his golden gaze darted around the room.

Against her better judgment, she threw back the covers in invitation. “You don’t have to sleep in the chair,” she voiced. Eyeing him pointedly she continued, “we’re just going to sleep. No funny business.”

A grin spread out across his face, and then he was crawling over the mattress to shift beneath the covers beside her.

“I wouldn’t dream of it,” he finally responded, and then chuckled. “Well, I would, of course, but I know we need to continue cautiously.”

Liz made a sound of agreement in the back of her throat, and fluffed her pillow before curling into herself. She laid facing away from him, her gaze peering into the darkness outside her window. Max was a heavy presence beside her, simultaneously unnerving and comforting. The mattress shifted as he maneuvered himself into a more comfortable position. He adjusted the blankets and plumped his pillow, and only then did he finally settle onto his side.

He was close to her. Close enough that Liz felt the warm puffs of his breath against exposed flesh at the nape of her neck, but he didn’t touch her. Heaving a deep breath, she closed her eyes and tried to pretend to sleep. If sleep was flittering teasingly out of her grasp before, now it was thoroughly elusive. Unconsciousness just wasn’t going to come with Max literally breathing down her neck.

“Tonight was fun.” His voice was pitched low, not quite a whisper. It was soft and husky as it flowed through her.

“Mmm,” she murmured.

“It’s the first time everyone has been collectively happy in—” he paused, “in I don’t know how long. It was nice.”

This time, Liz didn’t bother to make any sort of sound. The more she discouraged him of conversation the better.

“When do you think we’ll leave?”

Liz didn’t have to feign irritation when she sighed. “I don’t know,” she answered a bit tersely, and then immediately felt ashamed. She adjusted her tone accordingly. “Soon, I hope. I don’t want to compromise Jon’s safety anymore than we already have.”

That kept him silent for several moments. “It’s still not safe.” It wasn’t so much a question as a resigned statement.

“It’ll never be safe,” she whispered. Those words had haunted them since the moment he’d pressed his hand to her bloody stomach. The words would continue to haunt them for the rest of their lives.

But so long as Pierce was out of the picture, she would be able to rest a little easier.

“Liz?”

She heaved a silent breath to refrain from snapping at him. Her foul mood wasn’t because she was tired and wanted sleep – though she was – and his talking prevented her from doing so – though it did. Her mood was in direct correlation with the large part of her that was terrified. Terrified that when she left tomorrow she wouldn’t return, that she’d break the promise she’d vowed to herself.

It took another moment before she could answer him. “Yeah?”

“Did I ever thank you? For everything you’ve done.”

Her eyes fluttered opened. It appeared brighter outside, the moon having finally found freedom from behind the thick clouds. White moonbeams stretched across the dark hardwood floor, chasing away some of the shadows. It nearly reached the bed.

“Yes,” she finally whispered. “You’ve thanked me.” With every look, every fleeting tender touch Max had thanked her.

“Thank you again,” he returned. His hand found her hip and squeezed gently.

He fell quiet then, leaving Liz to her thoughts. She listened silently as his breathing eventually evened out, and she knew he was asleep.

Her mind raced rapidly through the past ten years, cataloging every tear she had ever cried whether from mirth or remorse. She recalled every conversation with Kyle and Alex and Maria and Rian both serious and asinine. She remembered the times that Jon had completed her, becoming the other half of her unit; she remembered every instance in which he’d leant a helping hand.

Each memory, every course she’d taken in her life had been leading up to this point, she knew. With Max’s departure she had felt hollow, despite the events in her life that had been so filling. Even when she was sure she’d never see him again, she’d still willingly taken the steps to prepare for the event when she would come face to face with him.

And somewhere in between her bitterness and hatred for him, Liz had begun to heal. She’d begun to forgive him.

She was certain now that she had fallen in love him again – if she’d ever fallen out.

She knew she wanted to begin a new life with him. Not necessarily pick up where they left off, that could never happen, but she wanted to start anew. She wanted them to have a fresh beginning, but they couldn’t have that as long as she felt threatened.

As long as James Pierce was alive, he would always be a threat. Though, if she were being honest with herself, it wasn’t just about the threat he posed on their livelihood. It was about retribution as well.

Max’s lax hand grew heavy against her hip. She lifted it gently and then scooted across the mattress to encompass herself in his embrace. She wrapped his arm around her midriff and laced their fingers together. His breathing startled just momentarily before he nestled his nose into her hair and settled once again.

Liz closed her eyes, her thumb tracing the rough skin over his knuckles. Just a few more hours, and then she’d leave.
* * *
The sun wouldn’t stretch its long arms for another hour yet. Liz shut the door quietly behind her, ignored the sudden pain in her chest, and quietly tip-toed down the silent hallway. The stairs didn’t creak from the slight pressure of her weight. The house remained at peace as she made her way out the front door and down the porch steps.

The R8 waited for her, and she remembered the way that Rian had gushed over the elegant speed and function of the vehicle. Tiredly she fought back a sudden sting of tears.

She had just reached the driver’s side door when she heard the distinct sound of footsteps crunching gravel. Tensing, she turned expecting to see Max. The shadows parted over a dark face to reveal Jon.

Liz breathed a sigh a relief. “Jon. What are you doing here?”

He didn’t respond. The moonlight revealed his grim expression and his bleak eyes. It sent a shiver down her spine. “Jon?”

Wordlessly he reached into his leather jacket and pulled out a manila folder. He threw it on the hood of the car and the contents spilled out. Next, he removed a flashlight from his pocket and silently offered it to her.

Anxious to get on the road she battled internally before she finally accepted the flashlight and flipped it on. The yellow beam cut through the night. It was surprisingly bright as it slashed through the space between them to reveal the colorless photos on the cherry-red hood.

It took a moment to recognize her own face on print. She took a hesitant step forward. She caught sight of another familiar face: Pierce. Her fingers clenched convulsively when she spotted a picture of herself wrapped uncomfortably in her boss’s embrace. Her free hand shook as she reached out to splay the pictures further across the hood.

There were more pictures that she barely registered. Pictures of her friends, both individually and all together. Pictures of her leaving home and returning from work. Judging by Maria’s differing hair styles, Liz was able to painfully discern that many years had passed between the earliest and latest of the photos.

Liz barely had time to be confused by the evidence he was supplying her before a cold sweat broke out over her body. Fear nearly crippled her, freezing her into place. The beam from the flashlight shook nearly imperceptibly as she tried to control her body. Slowly her eyes found Jon’s – eyes she had known for years and had come to trust. Now they were impassive and hard. His smile was gone. The expression on his face was one she’d witnessed countless times over the years. It was the look he held when he was interrogating a suspect.

Puzzle pieces she hadn’t been aware were missing suddenly fell into place.

Finally he spoke. “I know everything.” Liz felt a suffocating tightness in her throat and chest. Jon took a step towards her. “And now I want to hear you say it.”

Her mouth fell open but the words remained obstinately in place. Her voice box felt suddenly out of commission. Jon. He knew. Evidently he’d known for a long time – nearly from the beginning.

She swallowed and fought back bile as her stomach unexpectedly churned.

“You’ve worked for him the whole time.” hadn’t realized she’d spoken until the accusing words were out of her mouth.

“No,” he answered firmly. His eyes darkened considerably in rage. “I don’t work for Pierce.”

Another branch of the government, then. Probably equally frightening.

“What are you going to do?”

“Let my superiors handle it.” His next words sounded as if he spoke them on a sigh. “And I need to take you into custody.”

For anyone who didn’t know Jon, their first instinct would be to run. Liz, however, knew better. Years of working with him had given her the opportunity to see what a formidable agent he was. She’d be silly to think that he was alone; he could have anyone waiting for a signal from him in the shadows. More agents could be in the house, rousing her unsuspecting friends and—

“What happens to the others?” she demanded.

He didn’t answer her. Instead he offered her his hand, his eyes unexpectedly softening. He said her name in that soothing, soft croon he’d always use to reassure her. “Liz, we really need to talk.”
* * *
Rian hadn’t realized she’d fallen asleep until she startled awake at the sensation that someone was in the room with her. She rolled, expecting it to be Jon wanting to “finish what they started years ago.”

It wasn’t Jon. An impossibly tall man with broad shoulders and dangerous gray eyes peered at her from across the room. Her heart raced, and her palms itched to release the energy needed to propel him out the second story window. His words stopped her before she could even react.

“I’d be careful not to do anything too stupid, Miss Kellar.” His voice was deep, gruff and definitely not something she wanted to get used to hearing. “Calder, Liz, and the others will be waiting for you downstairs. I’d hurry.”

As he turned away from her, she caught a final glimpse of his eyes and his shadowed face and something told her she’d seen him before.

Terror. It was the only term she could think of to equate to the emotion racing through her. Something was wrong, she knew, and it was all her fault. She’d grown lax and comfortable in the home of Jon Calder, believing that he would aid her in protecting those dearest to her.

She was wrong.

Hurriedly, Rian pulled on the jeans she’d thrown across the foot of the bed. She didn’t bother to search for a shirt to cover her tank top. She wrenched open the drawer of the bedside table for the gun she’d stashed there only to find it empty. Though rationally she knew a gun wasn’t necessary – she had more than enough arsenal at her disposal – a sick feeling settled in the pit of her stomach.

Without wasting another moment she stormed out of the room and nearly collided with Alex as he ushered Isabel out of their bedroom.

“What’s going on?” he demanded in a whisper. Isabel stood pale and nervous beside him, her brown eyes scanning the shadows in the hallway, obviously looking for the tall man who had awoken them.

“I don’t know,” she answered.

“My gun’s gone,” Kyle practically shouted as he bounded out of his bedroom, Tess in tow. Her shaggy light locks whipped into her face, obstructing her view, but her hands were too tightly locked on Kyle’s forearm for her to shove them away. “And who the fuck was that guy?”

“I don’t know.” Rian glanced at the open doors, waiting for the others. “Where’s Max? Maria and Michael?”

“Maria already ran downstairs, and Michael followed her,” Alex answered. “I don’t know where Max is.”

“I think he’s downstairs, too,” Tess whispered. Her blue eyes were bright despite the darkness, enhanced by the fear and confusion she felt. “I heard him yell for Liz, and then he ran down the hall.”

Without another word, Rian shoved her way through the throng of friends and made her way down the stairs. The first thing she noticed was the fact that the stranger who’d awoken them was nowhere in sight. Maria and Michael stood off to the side of the staircase, hovering in the entrance of the living room. Michael had Maria tucked behind him, his posture glaringly defensive.

“Where’s Max?”

Instead of verbalizing, Michael nodded his head in the direction of the front door. She turned just in time to see Liz, flanked by Jon and Max, enter the house. She was dressed in her black work slacks and a black t-shirt, and from the outline beneath the form-fitting shirt, Rian was able to discern the shape of a gun.

She glared hard at Liz, momentarily forgetting that something frighteningly unusual was going on, as she realized Liz had attempted a midnight escape without them. It took her a moment to focus on her friend’s face and notice the pale dread to be found there.

Max didn’t look too good either. His eyes were wide and panicked as he reached for Liz’s hand and pulled her away from Jon. She went willingly, her brown eyes bright and full of pain.

Rian was suddenly assaulted with the emotions roiling in the room. Betrayal was the foremost emotion pulsing through Liz, while Max’s feelings were dominated by fear and confusion.

Helplessly, she looked to Jon who stood tall and emotionally evasive in front of her. His face was impassive, not offering her a hint of what he was feeling. But as Rian filtered through the sensations her friends were giving off, she was able to latch onto two distinct feelings she knew was coming from Jon Calder. Guilt and regret.

“What’s going on?” she finally managed to ask, growing more and more uneasy as she realized they’d all been effectively herded together in the confines of the entry hall.

Instead of answering, Jon approached an oblong glass table pressed up against the wall. He flipped on the lamp atop of it, and the light chased away some of the darkness, while still leaving most of the room cloaked in gray and black.

“We have a lot to discuss,” he finally spoke. Rian noted his voice took on an edge she’d never heard before, and the unsettling feeling intensified within her. “As of right now, you are all officially in government custody.”

A feminine whimper erupted somewhere behind her. Whether it was Tess or Isabel, she was unsure. All she knew was that this mind-numbing sensation coursed through her – attacking from fingertips to toes. Instinctively Rian knew it wasn’t because of the situation, no she and Liz had been in worse situations than this; this they could get away from easily. The numbness was the direct result of his words and the implications behind them.

Somewhere along the line Rian had begun to trust Jon Calder with much more than the safety of her friends. The realization that her trust had been misplaced was crippling.

Her rage came so intensely and fiercely that it took her a moment to realize she hadn’t reacted. The urge was there, a concentrated yearning to project a mindwarp or hurl Jon through the kitchen wall (she wasn’t sure which was stronger), but nothing was happening.

Her fingers tingled, but the powers remained obstinately within her. She frowned and stared down at her hands, as if a mere look would propel her powers into action. The confused, fearful feelings of her alien counterparts told her they were struggling with the same strange predicament. It was reminiscent of the shattering serum they’d been subjected to at the compound.

She didn’t know how Jon had been able to debilitate their powers, but it pissed her off.

A shadow to her right caught her eye, and a large, familiar form joined the group. Even through the darkness, Rian was able to discern the gray of his eyes, and she suddenly realized where she’d seen him before.
* * *
Liz hadn’t realized that the gasp had come from her until Max reflexively tightened his grasp around her, pulling her closer to his side.

She stared frozenly at Aaron Sykes as he stood stoically before them. His gray eyes penetrated hers, and she shivered. His face was without the leering sneer that was usually to be found, and she wasn’t sure if that was any less frightening.

Horrified, her eyes darted to Jon. “You said you didn’t work for him!” Her voice quaked with both the weight of her accusation and the fear coursing through her. She had a sudden urge to laugh. They’d never been safe; they never would be safe. Apparently, there were dangers far greater than James Pierce.

“He doesn’t,” Sykes answered. His booming voice ripped her from her thoughts and nearly caused her to flinch. “And neither do I.”

Jon cut Sykes a glance wordlessly issuing an order. “We don’t,” he confirmed, and once again his voice was soft, his eyes tender. “I’ll explain everything, I promise.” He actually smiled as he added, “I know it doesn’t appear to be true, but I swear to God, Liz, you can trust me.”

A derisive snort had Jon’s eyes ripping away from Liz’s. Behind her she heard Rian’s angry steps as she crossed the room, stopping only when she’d reached Liz’s side. “Trust you?” she spat venomously. “All she’s done is put trust in you when she shouldn’t have. Obviously you’ve lied to her from the start.”

Something like pain flashed in Jon’s eyes and his head dipped a little. “You’re absolutely correct. I’ve lied to all of you,” he answered softly, his eyes once again returning to Liz, imploring. “And that’s why I have no right to ask you to trust me further, but I am. Please trust me, Liz, and say what I need to hear from you – what I already know.”

“If you already know,” Liz began evenly, “then what does it matter if I confirm it aloud for you or not?”

“I just need you to say it for me,” he answered quickly, taking a hesitant step towards her. Max reacted instantly, placing himself more firmly in front of her. “C’mon, Liz…”

“Don’t,” Rian hissed. Her eyes went bright with her angry. “I told you he couldn’t be trusted.”

“I’m your friend, Liz. Please.” But Liz’s lips remained tightly sealed. With a curse he wheeled around and began to pace. Sykes smirked a little, the only outward display of emotion Liz had witnessed from him since he’d made his appearance.

Abruptly, Jon stopped pacing and turned to face her once again. “If I intended to hurt you or your friends, Liz, don’t you think I would have done it by now?” he demanded of her, his voiced suddenly angry. “And just where in the hell did you think you were going? What were you intentions had I not stopped you this morning?”

She felt Max’s gaze on her then, and she knew he too had been wondering the same thing. He was unable to voice it given the circumstances. Still, Liz remained silent.

“Liz, listen to me.” He uttered the next words slowly, “I do not work for Pierce—”

“Then who do you work for?” Rian demanded.

He cut her a scathing look before returning his attention back to Liz. “I’m, in fact, working to stop him. And you can trust me, and I’m so sorry I let things go the way they have. But before we can move on from here, before I can make one hundred percent certain you and your friends are safe, I need to hear it from you.”

Liz heaved a deep breath as she regarded the man before her. His blue eyes, so familiar, pleaded with her now, bright and beautiful. Her heart constricted in her chest. Max’s fingers laced through hers and squeezed softly.

Ever so lightly, Liz shook her head.

Jon’s shoulders sagged. He turned away from them, taking a few steps and then stopping. The room was silent. No one was so much as breathing too heavily. The eeriness continued for several moments before the silence was finally broken.

“What do you want to know?”

Jon whirled around, his expression identical to Liz and Rian’s, as he focused his attention on Kyle Valenti.

Kyle stepped away from the little group he’d made with Alex, Isabel, Maria, Michael and Tess. His shoulders were squared and his jaw was clenched with determination. Tess hurried to his side and he glanced down at her just long enough to offer her a tiny smile. After a moment, she nodded and linked their hands together.

“Kyle,” Rian hissed, her eyes wide. “What the hell are you doing?”

He shrugged, though his gaze never left Jon’s. “Maybe he’s right. If he wanted to do something out of malice he would have done it by now. He’s had plenty of opportunities. And that bulldog over there,” he jerked his head in the direction of Sykes, “seems to be the one following orders, so obviously things aren’t as they appear.”

Sykes frowned.

This time Liz tried to speak, “Kyle—”

He shook his head, his eyes softening when he looked at his long time friend. “Maybe we can trust him, Liz. Let’s just hear him out.”

The group fell silent once again, and his attention reverted back to Jon’s. “So? What is it you want to know?”



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