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I thought that Kyle is a cute boy that just wants to be my friend. And now we are here in front of my house and he is ... kissing me? How the hell did this happen? All this time he was telling me how he wants to 'know' me and how I can trust him. And now he is here kissing me, although he has girlfriend. And I thought that he was different. I thought that he could be my friend, just like Max is. Max might be a criminal, he might troublesome, but he knows how to respect the women. Kyle is like everyone else. He wants only one thing - sex and since his 'precious' and 'beautiful' girlfriend won't give it, he uses me. He's so unbelievable. I know that I'm not that attractive. I know that I'm not that popular for the guys, but is he for real? I pull away from him fast and slap him in the face.
"Don't come near me!" I warn him and walk away.
"Tess, let me explain!" He yells, but I close the door and leave him standing outside in the dark.
"You're late!" Ed tells me. Of course my day wouldn't be over if I didn't have a good and 'entertaining' conversation with this ... individual.
"I was with classmates - he had homework to do." I answer him and go to my mother. He returns to the hall, sits on the couch and continues watching some football game.
"Hey, honey. How are you?" She asks me. How am I? One word - pissed at all males in this world. Well, all except Max. He is a good friend.
"Fine. I'm hungry. Is there anything to eat?"
"Yes, there is a baked fish."
"Mom, you know that I hate fish."
"Ed wanted it. You know that this is his favorite meal." And apparently he's more important than me.
"Emily, give me another beer!" I hear his annoying voice. Of course he's so lazy he can't even do that on his own. My mother of course gets a beer can from the refrigerator and quickly gives it to him.
"Here, honey!" she tells him and you would expect that he'd at least smile. Well, he doesn't! Ed is a sick bastard!
"Emily, get out! I can't see the TV because you're in front of it!" And that's how my mother returns to the kitchen. There is no 'Thank you', no smile, no nice words. I wonder why she loves him so much.
This morning I woke up with a mission - to find Isabel's retarded brother and put some sense in his head. I can't waste more time. Yesterday she just mentioned that she wants to die. What if she decides to do it? No, I can't allow this. So speaking of Michael, I see him in the Garden of Eden and of course he is not alone - he is kissing the cheerleaders' captain Daisy. What does he see in her? That will remain a total mystery for me. Not that I care a lot. It's his choice who to date. I guess he doesn't need a girl with a brain. It's much easier to be with easy chicks that sleep with everyone who asks them. So I decided to interrupt his sweet date with Barbie and to give him some advice.
"Hello, Michael." I tell him and I can tell that he's not really happy to see me.
"What do you want? Isabel is not here and I don't know where she is." He answers and continues putting his tongue in Daisy's mouth.
"As surprising as it sounds, I wanna talk to you." That line definitely brings his attention to me and he actually makes an eye contact with me for the first time in this conversation.
"I am kind of busy. Is it urgent?" Busy? Like hell!
"Well, I don't know. Let me think ... Hm, I think that pretty much everything is more important than making out with Barbie in the schoolyard in front of everyone." Michael starts laughing and Daisy acts like she is offended.
"Hey, I have a name and it is not Barbie." I couldn't hide my urge to laugh at her. She is so stupid.
"True, but Barbie suits you more. You are beautiful like Barbie and have about as much of a brain as the doll has."
"What?" She asks surprised. God, please help her! Put her out of her misery. Give her a brain! Please!
"Forget it. The fact that you didn't understand what I just said proves that I am right."
I push Daisy aside and stand right in front of Michael.
"Fine, I will talk to you." He makes eye contact with Daisy and tells her to leave him with me.
"So what do you want?" He asks me.
"To talk about Isabel." I answer him and he sighs.
"Isabel?" He asks me like he doesn't even know a girl with that name.
"Yes, Isabel. You know, your sister." I tell him and sit beside him.
"Ha ha ha. You are so funny." He tries to offend me, but he doesn't know how big a mistake he's just made.
"You are so stupid." I get up and stand right in front of him so that I can see his eyes when I tell him everything that I planned last night.
"OK, just skip the compliments and tell me what you wanna say to me." Finally something smart comes out of his mouth.
"I want you to stop thinking with your lower head and to try using your brain. I understand that it is not that easy, but still. Your sister needs you more than ever."
"Oh, please, stop the lectures! My sister made a mistake and she's the one that should pay for it." Did he just say that? I swear I could kill him!
"So you won't do anything to help her?" I raise my voice.
"Why do I have to help her?" Why should you? Ok, another stupid comment, I will slap you!
"I don't know, maybe because she is part of your family." I tell him sarcastically, but apparently he's not that smart and can't understand what I'm saying.
"So?" Did he just ask me this? That's it. I can't take it anymore. Fast enough, I slap him hard across the face. "Hey!" He shrieks and covers his cheek.
"'So?' That's the only thing you can say? You are unbelievable. You know some day in the future, you will make a mistake and I am sure that she will help you. Do you know why? Because she loves you." I tell him and walk away, but he grabs my arm and stops me.
"Who do you think you are?" He asks me and I can see that he's angry. "To come here and tell me what to do? It's easy for you. You're not the one who'll have to take care of this baby. The only thing you'll do is hug Isabel and tell her that everything will be all right. I'm the one who'll have to take this burden."
"You know what. Forget that I even tried to talk to you. You're so full of yourself!" I yell back at him. Two can act that way.
"I am? No, Isabel is the selfish bitch who decided to sleep around and got pregnant."
"Really? Did you ask her how she got pregnant? Or you were just too busy watching hockey?"
"Well, no, Maria. I didn't ask her, because unlike you I know how we make babies - by having sex."
"Oh you're so funny. Did you ask her if she wanted it? Did you consider the fact that maybe there is something more? Do you think that your responsible sister would just sleep with anyone?"
"I don't care!" He tells me and turns back to watch Daisy rehearse her cheerleader routine.
"You don't care? You know, your sister has always said that you're pig, but I wanted to believe that you just have a hard time because of your father's death and everything. Now I know that she is right. While you're busy telling me how difficult your future would be because of Isabel, she is the one that is in a difficult situation. Do you understand me? It's not in the future, it's now!" I shout loudly! "Did you know that she’s considering abortion? Did you know that she wants to die? No you don't know that because you've never asked her how she feels. You were just too busy trying to figure out how you feel. And I thought that Isabel needs you and your mother. I guess she was right, her family won't help her."
"Wait! My sister wants so kill herself? She can't do that to me and mom!"
"Really Michael? She can't do that to you? How many times did you show her that you love her? Does she know it? Because right now she thinks that she disappointed you and your mother. Right now she thinks that you don't want her and you're ashamed of her."
"Ashamed?" He asks me and lowers his head, because he knows that I'm right. "Are you sure? Because this is serious!"
"Oh and you think that I don't know this? Why do you think that I interrupted your makeout session with Barbie?" I ask him and he smiles at me.
"You know, Barbie really suits her!"
"I know. Please talk with Isabel. Tell her that you'll help her! Please!"
"Maria, thank you! I didn't realize how serious this is."
"Don't mention it! I'm doing it for her. She's my best friend."
"Can you tell me who the father is and how this happened?"
"I can't tell you. You should talk to her, but believe me when I'm telling you that you don't know the whole story. It's her secret and I can't tell you more." He nods in agreement and I'm relieved. I really hope that it's not too late and he'll help her.
I couldn't sleep last night. I kissed Tess! That's like a huge problem. For one minute I managed to blow my chances to be friends with Tess and to jeopardize my relationship with Maria. I don't what possessed me. How the hell did this happen? One minute I'm talking to her and we're joking like friends, the next I feel my tongue in her mouth. The worst thing is that she got it all wrong. I didn't mean to disrespect her. The first thing that I plan to do today is to talk to her. I look around and see her in the yard talking with Max.
"Hi guys!" I tell them and Tess doesn't even bother to look at me. I guess she's still really pissed. "Tess, can I talk to you for a minute?"
"What do you want?" She tells me and Max looks at me with questioning expression.
"Please give me five minutes!" I plead with her.
"Guys, I'll leave you alone!" Max interrupts and nods at me. I answer him back with a nod and a smile, reassuring him that I'll work things out.
"OK, fine, you have two minutes! What do you want?"
"I wanted to apologize to you. I disrespected you and I'm really sorry. Look, all I wanted was to kiss your cheek, then you turned around and my lips met your lips and one thing led to another and ..." Do I ramble? I definitely have this feeling.
"And you put a tongue in my mouth! Admit it! All you want is sex and since your good for nothing girlfriend is not capable of giving it to you, you decided to use me!" What is she talking about? I've never thought about having sex with her. However, now that she mentioned it, I'm not sure if this is such bad thing. I mean she is beautiful and I ... Crap! Why am I thinking about Tess in that way? She is my friend! I have a girlfriend and her name is Maria.
"No, Tess! You got it all wrong!" Fine, partly wrong. I do want to have sex and if she offers I'm not sure that I'll be able to resist, but that won't happen, because she doesn't like me. In fact she hates me.
"So what were you saying?" She interrupts my thoughts. She checks her watch and tells me "You have one minute!"
"Look, it happened too fast and I can't even explain how it happened, but I assure you that it won't happen again. All I want is to be friends." I hope that this works. I see her face and I can't even tell what she is thinking. You know what 'poker face' means. Right? Well, she is showing me this face right now and I can't figure out if she'll forgive me or not.
"We can't be friends, Kyle. Just leave me alone!"
"Tess, please! Don't act like this! All I want is to be friends."
"And nothing more?"
"Nothing more!" I reassure her and see her smile. Whew, that went well. Then we hug each other and she kisses me on the cheek. I try to do the same, but she stops me.
"Hey, we don't want to have another incident. Right? So, from now on, I'll be the only that will give you kisses." Why does that sound good to me? Too good actually.
"Hello, little bear!" I hear someone behind my back and in instant I realize that it is Maria. Yes, that's right - my girlfriend, the one that I love. Right?
After I talked with Michael, I headed to school and I saw something that is starting to bother me. Tess and Kyle are together all the time. Well, not all the time, because apparently he finds some time for me, his girlfriend. It's not that I want him to be with me all the time. I have no problem with him spending time with his friends. I have a problem with who his friends are. He knows that I hate Tess and yet he is here hugging her. That bitch wants to take my boyfriend from me. I won't let her do this to me. No, I won't allow it and I know how I can keep it from happening. He wants sex, so I'll give it to him.
"Hello, little bear!" I tell him and interrupt their sweet hug. Yes, I know that I can be pain in the ass. Today I'm in this mood. So sue me!
"Hey, how are you?" Kyle hugs me and kisses me. Well, now you know how to understand who his girlfriend is and who his friend. Tess rolls her eyes, but I don't care.
"Ok, lovebirds, I will leave you alone!"
"It was about time, bitch!" I answer her.
"Watch your language, stupid doll!" Did she just say that I'm stupid? I'm ready to slap her, but Kyle's voice stops me.
"Girls, stop. Tess, please leave me alone with Maria."
"Only because you are asking me!" She says and walks away.
"Only because you are asking me!" I repeat imitating Tess. "God, I can't stand her."
"She is not that bad. You just don't know her." He tries to convince me and kisses my temple.
"Trust me! I don't wanna to know her. I mean, she is crazy."
"Oh, come on! I think that you might be friends." Ha ha ha. Kyle you are really funny today.
"Friends? When hell freezes over."
"OK, let's change the subject."
"Good idea, I don't wanna waste my time talking about this mistake of nature."
"OK, enough. Stop it!" He tells me irritated.
"Why are you defending her?"
"Because we are friends." Unfortunately. That much I know, but I wonder if he defends me the way he does for her.
"Yes, friends." Ouch, that comment was wrong. Now he'll begin to explain to me that I'm unnecessarily jealous.
"What do you mean?" Oh, he plays dumb.
"Nothing. I just can't understand how you can be friends with that devil. Anyway. I wanted to talk to you about something else." I'm trying to focus his attention on me, not on the gerbil.
"Yeah? What about?"
"You know how we were talking a month ago about you and me ..." I start nervously.
"We talk all the time about us. Be more specific." He interrupts me.
"Well, you know, about how you want to take our relationship to the next level."
"Aha ..." He says without even watching me. Wasn't he supposed to be thrilled? After all I'm doing this to satisfy his needs. I turn around and realize that he's watching Tess speaking with Max. I turn his head to me.
"So I am ready."
"OK." He tells me and shrugs his arms.
"OK? I am telling that I am ready to have sex with you and you are saying OK?"
"I am sorry. I just zoned out." You mean you just watched your 'just friend' talking with another man. Huh, the problem is more serious than I thought.
"Yeah, right ... So what are you thinking?"
"About what?" Is he for real?
"Kyle, did you hear me?"
"Yes, yes, I did. I am just tired. I didn’t sleep well last night."
"So, OK, we can meet tonight." He answers and I start jumping, because I'm really happy. I know that after tonight he won't even think about Tess.
"I guess we will have to be at your house, because my mother won't be happy to be our witness." Yes, my mother would freak out and kill me and him the minute she realizes what we're doing.
"I guess. So I'll wait you at my house.” God, I'm so happy. I've waited a long time for this time." He finally shows me that he's thrilled.
"Yeah, me too!" So, I need to prepare myself, because tonight I'll lose my virginity and I don't want to have problems like Isabel.